#and now I feel bad that i didnt give it to her when i bought it cause maybe it would've brought her some joy

[slutforleeminho]

heyy, i love your work, i was wondering if you could write a fic based on the song ‘the other woman’ by lana del rey where the reader is the other woman. you could do it about any member :)

this is my first ever request since i’ve been on this app so i hope i did it right 😭

The other Woman • Hwang Hyunjin

thank you so much! i’m so happy that your first ask was on my acc! i hope you like it<3

warnings: suggestive(no explicit smut), arguing, infidelity, toxic relationship, plot twist at the end;)

"I have to go, beautiful." Hyunjin leaned down to kiss your forehead after pulling his pants up and buttoning them. He placed his hand on the side of your face, gently caressing your cheek with his thumb. "She'll get suspicious if I stay any longer."

This was normal for you, yours and Hyunjin's little routine. He'd take you out to dinner and treat you like a princess, paying for your meals and anything else you could possibly want. Holding your hand and taking you places you've only dreamed of going, then he'd take you home --your home-- and he'd fuck you like there was no tomorrow. And then he'd leave to do the same things with his wife.

You never understood why he pursued you the way he did when he had someone at home to take care of, but you didn't care enough to bring it up. Why would you? You have everything a young woman could ever want; a young, handsome, rich man who gives you anything you want. But only a few times a week. It's okay though, that just gives you plenty of time to do things that you enjoy like reading and going to museums and admiring the beautiful pieces of art that you wished you could just shove in your bag and take home with you.

"Okay," You said with a tired smile. "I'll see you tomorrow."

"Actually, I meant to tell you, I won't be able to come over tomorrow. Apparently, Violet has a family reunion, and she wants me to accompany her." He stated as he pulled his shirt over his head and grabbed his bag from the chair in the corner of your room.

Violet. Such a pretty name for such a lucky woman.

"Oh." Was all you replied with.

"Are you mad at me?"

"No, of course not, these things happen," You knew exactly what you were getting yourself into as soon as you entered this relationship, if it can even be called that. "Just text me when you can. let me know when you want to meet up."

"Of course." He smiled.

He kissed you deeply before he left that night, almost making you forget that he had someone at home waiting for him, and you would be left here, cold and alone.

That text that he promised didnt come until a week later.

"I miss the way you feel wrapped around me." Was all that the message contained. You liked to imagine he was talking about your warm embrace, but you knew that wasn't true. He just wanted to feel an unfamiliar body underneath his.

You weren't sure how you ended up like this. When you first met Hyunjin he was sweet and caring, attentively listened to you while you complained about your bad day at work and massaged away all the soreness in your muscles. You can't remember the last time he's taken you out to dinner or bought you flowers. Now you were just his escape from his nagging wife.

You put up with the constant shame and guilt you felt for being with someone who already had their someone, because you thought that maybe his love for you would grow and that maybe someday Hyunjin would realize that you're the one he wants to spend every waking moment with and not someone else. But as your love for him grew your patience shrunk until one day you snapped.

Hyunjin was collecting his things after he had finished what he came here for, which was to get his dick wet and nothing more. "I won't see you again after tonight."

Hyunjin stopped in his tracks and stared at you with wide eyes. "What do you mean by that?"

"I mean I deserve more than this. I deserve to have someone's full attention and all of their heart." You held yourself together, determined not to cry Infront of him. He doesn't deserve your tears.

"Baby, what are you even talking about?" He knelt down in front of you and placed his hand on your shaking knees. "Of course, I love you."

"No, you don't," You shook your head. "You love my body, you love having someone at your disposal, someone you can use only for your own pleasure. If you loved me even in the slightest there wouldn't be another woman getting the treatment that I crave so fucking much." All the emotion you've kept stuffed away finally revealed itself in the form of a single tear running down your cheek.

It was silent for a long time before Hyunjin spoke. "I'll leave her." You snapped your head up so fast that it hurt. "If that's what you want than I'll do it." The way he worded it as if it was your choice whether his marriage ended or not made you sick to your stomach, but you couldn't deny that you felt a flutter of hope in your chest that maybe this didn't have to end after all. But you're smarter than that. He says this now, but he doesn't mean it, and even if he did you wouldn't be able to sleep at night knowing that a woman who did nothing wrong was out there most likely crying herself to sleep while your warm and safe in the love of her life's arms.

"No, be with her. I'll be okay." That was a complete lie but even after everything he's done, you still don't want him to worry about you.

"Please don't do this to me. I love you and I want to be with you. He held on to your legs tighter.

"Funny, isn't that what you told her when you vowed in front of God and everyone that your love for her would be eternal." His mouth snapped shut and his hands left your legs before he stood. He leaned down and before you could register what was happening his lips were on yours. You immediately reciprocated, leaning forward and pressing yourself closer into him. He was so intoxicating, the way his tongue glided with yours so smoothly had you in a trance; you snapped out of it when he placed his right knee on the bed beside you and started pushing you backwards. "No!" you shoved him away. He stumbled backwards but regained his balance quickly. "I'm not doing this with you, Hyunjin. I can't do this anymore, its wrong."

"Since when do you have morals?" His voice was louder this time, he was pissed.

"I've always had them, but I put them aside because I love you!" It was your turn to stand up and look him square in the face. "But the longer we do this the more I realize that this isn't love, its obsession and its toxic. You never loved me Hyunjin you were curious about infidelity, and I was an easy target because my standards were so fucking low that I actually settled for you."

"Fuck this, I don't have to sit here and listen to you degrade me like this." He grabbed his bag and left, but not without slamming the door behind him.

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The past month has been hell. After laying in your bed for an entire week you decided to pack up all of Hyunjins things and throw them out, the smell of him that was radiating off of them was making you sick to your stomach every time you walked in the room. And then you went to the mall to treat yourself to a new outfit, you wanted something that didn't have any memories of him attached to it. A trip to your favorite coffee shop followed after that. you hadn't been her in a while and you missed the smell of fresh espresso as you walked in the door.

After getting yourself your favorite -a butter pecan macchiato and a small triple chocolate brownie (they were out of doughnuts)- You sat in the best spot in the entire shop, in a little booth in the corner right next to the window, where you could watch the leaves that had no color left in them fall to the ground only to get trampled over by the passing pedestrians. The leaves reminded you a lot of yourself in a way, but you hoped you never had to fall again.

"Hi," a voice pulled you out of your thoughts. You turned to find yourself looking up at a very handsome young man. His hair was blonde, and it came down to his shoulders. he had an apron on, and a big smile plastered across his face, little freckles decorated his cheeks. "I saw you bought one of the brownies, it's a new recipe I tried, and I wanted to ask if you enjoyed it."

"Oh," You blinked up at him. "Um yeah it's really good, maybe my new favorite."

"Oh, thank god," He let out a sigh of relief. "I was worried that it wouldn't be any good. See a couple of the ingredients I use were sold out, so I had to substitute-" He stooped in the middle of his sentence. "I'm sorry, I'm rambling. I tend to do that a lot."

"No, it's okay," You huffed out a laugh. He was so cute. "Now I'm curious about what ingredients were sold out." You joked.

He smiled widely at you and stretched his hand out. "I'm Felix."

You hesitated but took his hand anyway. "Nice to meet you, Felix."

PART TWO HERE

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PT. 1 ೃ࿐ 𝒮𝑒𝓋𝒾𝓀𝒶 𝓍 𝐹!𝑅𝑒𝒶𝒹𝑒𝓇 🍀

Summary: Sevika is on a mission to find her old lover after she became a counselor at piltover and asked for a petition to relook the charges done on every zaunie in the prison to give them a second chance. Well.. that’s what she told Caitlyn but in reality she is looking for you. How will she react when she find out you were already released.

Disclaimers: unbelievably sad sevika, slow burn (kind of), lil smut,Rebonding, Sevika and reader are both in their late 30s to early 40s in present time of this fic, deaths, reality shock (reader)

Word count: 1.4k

MEN + MDNI !

You used to be Vanders ears and eyes. You guys used to be running around all Zaun and Piltover.

They ran their streets, until one day their mission goes wrong. And y/n gets caught up with enforcers.

By this time they Young adults.

Her and sevika had already been together for quite some while. They loved each other dearly, they grew up together technically they’ve known each other all their lives and double how much they love each other. They started taking their relationship more serious getting into their early teens, Sevika having confessed her feelings towards you, you obviously said yes as you guys were already kissing each other and living together from a young age.

From a young age since you guys didnt have your parents around. You guys live together. Sevika mother died at birth and her father wasn’t a good one. So she lives with you.

Your mother died at an early age leaving you and your sisters by yourselves in one of the lowest parts of zaun. As you were the oldest you raised your little sisters and took care of them,bathe them,cooked for them, bought and made their necessities. You were technically their mother. You didn’t have a mother even tho you were also child. No one to look up to just..figured things out..

One day your out throwing away some old food you had storage but went bad. As you took the bags of trash outside you saw a girl. Sevika. One of Vanders friends.

You knew who she was but never spoken to her.

She was tall, but frail, dark brown hair, beautiful brown skin, and piercing grey eyes. Her face was swollen as if she was just beaten up of gotten into a fight.

She looked paranoid hiding away from something. She was hiding between your trash cans. “Excuse me?” You spoke out spooking her. She immediately got up.

She didn’t say a word to you just glared at you from where she was standing.

She was dirty,clothes torn and pretty much a mess.

“Are you hungry? I-I live here.” You spat out., trying to sound compose,as you prepared yourself for any sudden attack.

She doesn’t say a word. Reading your face trying to figure out your intentions.

You were 12 at the time, She was 13.

You offered her to come into your house so she can eat and bathe herself if she needed.

She nodded. Seeming to like the offer. She didn’t see any ill intent coming from u.

By this you waved your hand towards yourself “come, follow me” you say, stepping forward to your house.

She hesitantly followed in.

Right then and there, she found her new home. She lives with you and your sisters as she was great help around the house taming the younger ones 4 and 8. And doing the chores was you, Sevika and the sister that goes right after you (10).

She felt like she had a purpose living with you, not having to deal with her fathers drunken beatings every now and then. She felt at ease, at home.

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It was a rogue mission, you guys were planning to steal some enforces shipment.

Weapons.

you planned the mission.

Getting the layouts of the whole place and dividing up the groups of who is going to take what.

Vander and Silco worked on strategy.

You guys we’re about 6 in the group. All of you already in your late teens and early 20s.

Vander, Silco, Felicia , Benzo, Sevika and you. All of you had teamed up for this mission you planned for months. It wasn’t just a small in and out. It would mean a lot to Zaun and a way to make its army bigger and better for us, and against top side.

You guys were ready for that, you had been ready. After months and months of planning.

Today was the day, the day you guys would officially start leading Zaun for a better future.

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You woke up at sunrise.

The anxiety of the mission had kick last night. You didn’t sleep well at all.

Your mind didn’t stop spinning at all the possibilities that could happen on the mission today. Shifting in your bed your girlfriend.

Laying next to you on your lil shared apartment.

You shifted to your side as softly as you could, to face her.

So you wouldn’t disturb her sleep as you could’ve easily done because of her arm hugging your waist.

You stared blissfully at the most beautiful woman you have ever seen. Remembering the times you prayed for days like theses that she would be put in your path and become your wife. You loved her with everything, she’s your world and you are hers. No one gets between that.

Her eyes started to flutter awake, she let out a yawn that sounded more like a groan. “Morning Sev” you said giggling softly as she stretched herself out. Releasing the hold she had on your waist

She grabbed your face gently, her eyes still not being fully opened she gave you a soft kiss to your lips. “Morning y/n” she smiled at you, her voice still rasped and deep from her sleepy form she pulled you closer to her to shove her fuese in between your neck.

Silent moments like these you cherished, it was the only quiet moments you had with her as chaos was always erupting outside of your doors.

This was your world, with her.

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A knock on your door is what took you both out of your bed. Still embracing each other you groan “I don’t wanna get up.” Shoving your head into Sevikas neck.

She lets out a breathy laugh “I’ll get it.” Removing her hands off you, you whine and grab her by her hand. Laughing at this she gets up and walks towards the living room door.

One of your sisters beat her to it.

“Y/N !! VANDER AND SILCO ARE HERE” she yelled out, cause u and sevika to burst into a feat of giggles.

Sevika walked out the bedroom to let Silco and Vander in. You got out of bed to greet them in.

As you guys sat down on your couch. You guys were going over the plans again, rereading the layouts and going on everyone’s position.

“Will do great guys, don’t fog up your heads with any worries. Today will be a successful day” Vander days getting ready to leave with Silco already after they were done.

“Yeah, don’t worry about us. Will be going downtown to meet up with you and the guys.” Sevika respons sending them off.

You sat down reading over the plans again. Something in your chest felt tight, but you didn’t quite know what it was.

You didn’t realize Sevika was calling you after she put her hand on your shoulders. “Hey you alright?” She asked sitting back down at the couch with you.

“Yeah just… sigh” you pinch your nose as you put the papers down. “What’s up? You worried abt the mission?” She put her arm around to grabbing your waist to ease you.

“I don’t know….something’s bugging me abt this mission and I can’t seem to shake it off.” You confess to her.

“ It will go just as planned, if not we will just go with the backup plans. We will be fine.” She said comforting you kissing your temple.

“Yeah your right, you know how I get.” Scoffing at yourself for overthinking.

You look at her savoring her beauty and

Thanking Janna for blessing you with such an incredible woman by your side.

You grab her face and pull her into a kiss, it started off light until she grabbed your face and push your body closer to hers.

Things started to get heated up once you started putting your hand up her shirt.

This only lasted a minute until your sister walked in the living room after having been asleep this whole time.

You stood quickly, flushed “what are you up so early “ you asked your 12 year old sister. “ I got hungry and wanted to make breakfast.” She yawn responding dryly as is used to walking in on you.

she walked to the kitchen.

“Alright, we’ll be getting ready soon to leave. If the other girls get up and we aren’t here tell them we left and we’ll be back soon” you tell your sister kissing her on the cheek.

“Alright love u.”

“Love you too“

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THANK YOU FOR READING LUCKY CHARM !🍀

This will be a slow burn so please be patient! I’m still in school so some chapters may be hard for me to finish as quick as I’d wish but I’ll make sure to finish them ᯓ ᥫ᭡

Pt.2

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[k-aemi]

Chubby!Reader getting bullied at school for their looks and came crying home to stepbro!Kaiser and he had to comfort her by making reader sit on his face and eat her out to prove she's not heavy at all and is Soo pretty when she cries from overstimulation.

kaiser michael ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ heavy love.

smut, face sitting, praises, overstim, 69, stepcest.

its implied chubby, but it can be for any body type so u girlies dont feel excluded ♡(>ᴗ•)

it was never nice living with your father. having to constantly be in fear and on guard. you hated it, you wished you were never born in this life. but kaiser makes it bearable. just a tad bit, hell comfort you by ruffling your head and reassuring you.

you guys were always on a shortage of food. kaiser would either have to steal or take remains of the left overs. you hated it! you didnt like when he stole from others, but you also didnt like eating peoples left overs, its so gross that you basically rather starve yourself.

kaiser doesnt have any other choice. he does this for yours and his survival. at least he tries, he always feels so bad when he cant give you life you wanted. a nice family, a big house, and cute clothing. the kid you are, you cant see the effort he puts in for you </3

to make yourself a bit better, hed enrolled you in school so you had some sort of interaction and so you can at least be able to read and write. it was the best decision he made! you loved interacting with other people, it made you run away from the horror being at home.

suddenly in the middle of a lecture, youre engrossed in your work until a bang is heard at the front. its...kaiser? what was he doing here? he scans the room before spotting you. he walks up to your desk and you stood up.

"misha, what you doing here?" he gives no response but just a little grunt. snatching your wrist and leading you out. youre confused, had something happen? youre about to open your mouth to speak again but he shushes you.

turns out he was recruited into the bastard munchen football team. youre so happy for him, but what you didnt expect was the money he was about to make from this.

using this, kaiser was able to move out from father, and actually afford the necessities you guys needed. it was wonderful, he was able to buy you food and you might of went crazy with it.

he spoiled you with food you always wanted to eat back as a kid. you loved it, you loved the food, and you loved your big brother. hed buy you sweets all the time! how can you refuse? its everything youve always wanted to eat!

its not until youve realized maybe you have eaten a lot, but it wont do you any harm right? wrong. entering in college, you thought itd be really easy going since you heard people are really nice though! the lectures were a bit difficult but youll get used to it soon!

you had your break and youre outside in the court eating just a little something kaiser bought for you! such a sweet brother he is. but that joy of yours is ruined when you hear a remark about you.

"do you see how much shes eating? shes probably gonna have a heart attack..!" you can hear a couple girls snicker behind you. you know, maybe they were talking about someone else! you shrugged it off and continued to eat.

"cant even eat properly too, look at how big of a bite she took. shes gonna weight ten times more than me.." you can hear giggling and now its confirmed, they were in fact talking about you. youve never felt such a way before you dont even know how to react, you dont even realize it but now youre crying.

after a long day youve arrived back to your place. kaiser was off practice today so he was just in the living room, indulging himself in a book to past the time. his attention shifts to you when you open the door. noticing your saddened face.

you enter in, taking your shoes off before sitting down next to kaiser. you frown, remembering the event during your break.

"misha, do i look weird..?" you shift your gaze to his eyes. your frown is noticeable and he takes note of it. he cups your cheeks and caresses it. "no. of course not. whats with this?" he has a serious face to him. recalling what had happened you just cant help but tear up, sniffling.

"t-there was these girls...they said i eat too much! and...i-i heard it all they said i was gonna be heavy..." you cry and his face softens a bit. he wipes your tears wit his thumb, ruffling with your hair.

"youre perfect. not a single thing wrong about you." he kissed your tear eyes away. you feel a bit comforted, but the words of those girls still lingered in your head, and it seemed his works didnt full sink in. he knows youre a pain in the ass when it came to this, sometimes when hed yell at you, you become a crying mess.

"shh shh...youre not heavy. can prove it to you, yeah?" he rubbed his forehead against yours and you open your eyes to meet his. "h-huh? prove..?" the last thing you saw was his smirk.

you dont even know what happened, kaiser just told you to strip your clothes away and hover over him. its embarrassing really, but he said itd be perfect for you to see yourself in his eyes. you dont know how hed do that but whatever big brother said!

"m-misha...i dont wanna sit on you...'m g'na hurt you!" you whined out, but hes too much in a trance as your bare pussy is in his face. the way it pulses when his breath touched your sensitive bud had him spiraling emotions he cant describe right now.

youre propped up above him and he feels up your thighs, squishing the soft flesh. "s'okay prinzessin. youre not g'na hurt me." he licks his lips and his breathing becomes ragged as he can feel his cock stiffen under his pants. its like it had a mind of its own, it wants to be out of its restraints.

you can only let out a sigh, giving in, you settle yourself down, just lightly. youre crazy to think youd put all your weight on him! of course kaiser takes notice of this, clicking his tongue in annoyance before pulling your whole weight down on him. his grip on you is tight, and you cant even lift yourself up.

kaisers eyes roll back, your scent is so intoxicating and the way your clit rested on his nose was everything. shit this may be his favorite meal of all time, his baby sisters pussy <3

you can feel the wet muscle exploring your pussy and you let out a pathetic moan. god what was this feeling...? it feels so good but weird at the same time. you cant help squeeze your thighs into him more. you think youre hurting kaiser but he actually fucking loves it.

he loves how your thigh closes in on his head, its like suffocating him and he loves the feeling. he continues to lap at your pussy, prodding his tongue at your hole while youre just a whining mess.

"m-misha wait too much-" you grip onto his hair, but he can only ignore your pleas and continue. you practically hear him slobbering all over your pussy and its makes you flustered. you cant anymore, it was too much! tears threatened to spill from your eyes from the immense pleasure.

kaiser didnt care, he needed this. bad. your pussys so addictive he cant stop, its like a drug to him, a cure to his mental state. holy shit his dick needed to be out of his pants right now. he can only admire the sight of your teary eyed self, it just means hes making you feel so fuckin' good right now.

he latches himself off your pussy and you huffed. catching up with your breath as kaiser just watches your pussy pulses, fuck thats so hot-

"turn around." youre too caught up with catching up with your breath you dont question it. youre met with his bulge that sticks out and its huge. its moving on its own!

youre not so sure of it, but it pretty much says "i want to be out". you swallow your built up saliva, unzipping the confinements. this was it? it was so big and his tip was leaking pre-cum. kaiser cant help but thrust his hip onto your face, he needs to feel you so bad already. just hurry up and take him in your mouth.

"put your mouth on it. hurry." he demands. this big thing in your mouth? that was literally impossible...but anything for big brother, hes trying so hard to comfort you, this is the least you can do right?

just lightly putting the tip in was already difficult enough. your gag reflexes were bad, so he hopes its okay! kaiser was already happy youre there to suck his cock. feeing so relinquished as he slurps up your cunt again.

you moan into his cock and the vibrations felt sooo good. he wants to keep making you moan until you come on his face.

well, your high was coming. from the way he just kept eating you like youre his last meal ever, its no wonder you feel the knot in your tummy.

“m-micha-‘m g’na cwumm…” you whined out and he thinks its so cute how you cant properly speak because of his big cock. his cock is doing that to you, no one elses.

hes at his limit too. wouldnt it be so cute that you guys come together? he thinks it is.

thats when you reach your high and all kaiser does is drink the sweet juice that spill. it spills onto his face and splattered everywhere. you moan into his cock pathetically and that was his end game, cumming inside your warm mouth, god he wishes he can feel like that once more.

you fall limp on him and heavy breaths are heard within the room. he gives a light slap to your ass and you yelp, making you pout at him. he can only chuckle before grabbing the flesh. “dont say stupid shit anymore.” he refers back to your past concerns.

is it rushed? i hope not (ヽ´ω`) i will rest now, and write two for you guys tomorrow or three on the weekend, more kaiser fics for those in my anons and i will keep up with the requests do not worry!!! you guys really like a lot of sibling fics, this is now just a sibling page for bllk!!! i swear i will write other things 〒▽〒

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[andreaheartscats]

Ellie Willams

->stressed out reader about school work. -> fluff i guess? no smut. ->roommate Ellie

a/n: helloo there beautiful people! i hope you like this little fic i came up with, please dont mind any bad grammer (if there is any..i hope theres not) english isnt my first laungage so yea. love u all!

Five hours. Youve been studying for five hours now, the tiredness and sleepeness was carching up to you at this point. But the stress was like no other.

It was the last semester and you had so many tests coming up from every possible direction. You were sure that your eyebags had eyebags now, if thats even possible.

The dask was filled with random papers, books from diffrent subjects and many of your mostly filled notebooks. While looking through the papers you had laid messily around your desk, a gentle knock was heard from your bedroom door.

"come in." as you said those words the door opend slowly and there stood Ellie, your roommate and your best friend....and the person you had feelings for.

For a momment Ellie just stood there leaning on the doorframe as she looked at you for some time and finally spoke up. "havent seen you much today." she seemd a bit upset as she said those words.

"sorry Els, im really busy with studying.." saying that, you let out little sigh as you take your reading glasses off to rub your temples in frustration. Ellie takes a notice of your messy desk. Your tired eyes and the empty cans of many diffrent energy drinks laying around your bedroom floor.

Her face frowns a bit as she sees you in this state, honestly feeling bad for you. She noticed how much work you put in school and how much you try.

She walks towards you and crouchs down infront of you while you sat comfortably in your chair. The sight of her this close to you set shivers up and down your spine.

"how 'bout you take a little break yea?"she said with a soft smile forming on her face. The idea didnt sound too bad.. i mean you were pretty tired and a little break couldnt hurt.

Without saying much you just nodded your head at her while giving her a tired smile. You both laugh a little and decide to go to your shared living room and watch some TV.

"alright, you just sit there and ill get you somethin' to snack on babe"

you plop yourself onto the comfortable couch you two bought. Babe. those words triggerd the butterflys in your stomach. Even if you two were just friends, you melted every time she used some kind of pet names.

After sometime, Ellie came back with a bowl of popcorns and some other snacks. She sat them on the table carefully and looked at you with a proud smile. As if a kid would look at their parents when they do something good.

You couldnt help but smile at her. She sat next to you and threw her hand over your shoulder which caught you off guard a bit but you didnt mind.

As Ellie scrolled through the list of series and movies, she looked at you from thr corner of her eye. "you know..i just wanna help you a bit to relax. Youve been working so hard lately."

Her words were so calming. You snuggle into her, your head falling on her shoulder as she traced a little circles on your upper arm. "thanks Els"

you mutter quietly but making sure she knew you were greatful for her and for the things she did. In response Ellie just hummed as she choose a movie.

For the first hour of the movie you enjoyed it. Ellies arm around you as she held you close to her while your head was comfortably laying on her shoulder.. But for the next hour of the movie Ellie heard little snors coming from below her.

She glanced down and noticed you fast asleep. Not daring to move even a inch, not wanting to wake you up from your peacful sleep, she just stayed there watching the rest of the movie untill she finally feel asleep too.

Honestly this might be the best sleep you ever had. Literally cuddling Ellie, "your best friend" , roommate and most importantly your fucking crush!

[m-jelly]

Levi x ballerina reader. Like theyre already together and reader was warming up and levi got all blushy and didnt know how to tell her...

@kenkopanda-art <3

Stretching

Levi x fem!reader

Modern AU, fluff, romance, being a couple, ballerina reader, flustered Levi, suggestive.

Levi goes with you to practice because he adores watching you dance. This is his first time watching you stretch and as he does he starts to feel things he shouldn't in public.

@ladycheesington @levisbrat25 @nyxiieluna @li-anne @galactict3a @youre-ackermine @thebobaprincess @2moth-anon2 @cypidity @nbinairyn @bts-spnlvr12 @darkstarlight82 @notgoodforlife @demonic-bird

Watching you was like watching a Goddess design and create a magical world. No matter how many times Levi watched you, he was always left speechless. It just brought a smile to his face because you were so happy when you danced, it was just in your blood and soul.

The pain you would get in your feet sometimes was bad, so Levi did everything in his power to help you. He made sure he bought the best products and would massage it all into your feet and ankles. Every time you felt doubt or tired, he would praise you and give you the boost you needed. Levi always had a bag full of everything you needed to keep you going.

Today you had practice and you invited Levi to go with you, which he was excited about. Levi was the CEO of a company that supplied wonderful tea and coffee that was delicious and the trading was fair. Every single person he employed was paid fairly and had rights.

Levi helped you take your jacket off and then knelt before you and swapped your boots for your shoes. He was never asked to do this, he just loved doing it and you always felt flustered as his talented fingers moved as he tied up the ribbon.

You let out a shy whine. "Levi."

He glanced up at you with pure adoration in his eyes. "Yes?"

"You don't have to do this."

"I know." He leaned closer and kissed your knee. "I want to. I enjoy it."

You hummed a little laugh. "You're cute."

He leaned up and kissed you. "Have a good practice. I will be right here if you need me. I have your drinks and snacks."

You giggled. "Thank you. You take such good care of me."

"Because I love you."

You felt your cheeks heat up. "I love you too." You rose to your feet. "I gotta warm up."

"I'll be here. You're doing amazing."

The other people coming in didn't even register with Levi because his eyes were on you. Every move you were making was so elegant and smooth. He took a seat and admired the way you worked. A sweet smile graced his lips as you stretched your joints.

Levi blushed hard when you lifted your leg in the air and grabbed your toes. Something heated shot through him when he saw you doing the splits standing up. He tried to look away from between your legs, but it was hard to not look at how stunning and sexy you were.

Every move you made and stretch was intoxicating and attractive to him. The two of you were very physical with each other in bed, it was hard to keep your hands to yourselves. You both wanted each other and enjoyed loving and touching the other. It was not like he'd never seen you in sexy positions before, but something was setting his heart and body on fire.

He shifted a little and realised he was getting more and more needy for you. He grabbed your bag of drinks and snacks and then placed it on his lap. Now he was more comfortable, he watched you for much longer and felt himself drooling at how incredible you were. It was hard to hide his blush on his cheeks and as soon as you looked over him and smiled, you seemed to register the blush he had and simply giggled.

Levi enjoyed watching you practice and as soon as you hurried over he offered you a drink. "W-Well done."

You downed some of your drink and hummed. "We're you checking me out as I stretched?"

"I-I've never seen you stretch before. I-It was uh...n-nice."

"Nice?" You smirked and leaned closer. "Nice how?"

He gulped hard and tried to avoid your gaze. "I ah...you...well..."

You kissed Levi and nuzzled your nose against his after. "You are so cute. It's okay to admit you got horny watching me."

He groaned a bit. "I feel like an animal."

"My hungry wolf."

He looked at his lap as he blushed. He released a long sigh before speaking. "I l-loved what I s-saw. Mm...it made me...feel things...good things..."

"Well, I know how you feel. When you work out in the gym in our home? My word does it make me tingle inside." You released a long sigh. "You're incredible."

Levi got up and growled. "Maybe next time I can use you to work out. I could lift you."

You shivered. "Y-Yes."

[freyito]

Let’s see those Johnshi headcanons

MEEEE ??? YOU WANNA HEAR MYYYYYY JOHNSHI HEADCANONS?? (specifically asked for people to ask about them) TWIRLS HAIR...

anyways. building off the fact that I headcanon Johnny as Jewish... he's jewish by blood, right? like mother dearest was jewish (and we know hes got daddy issues...) but didnt really like practice much? like Chanukah was about as far as she'd go. HOWEVER. Johnny carries her Matzoh Ball Soup recipe with him at all times. Like it's a little faded list of ingredients in a lockbox with his social security card and birth certificate or something lmfao.

Johnny's got such a mediocre grip on cooking. But obviously you can't just live off of takeout and fancy restaurants your entire life. Johnny also really enjoys cooking but he also thinks cooking together is like real intimate and just a fun date. Kenshi and Johnny have definitely tried to cook together ONCE with Sento by so Kenshi can see... but then Kenshi like nicked his finger and Johnny freaked out so Johnny decided that was that. He'll cook Matzoh Ball soup for Kenshi like once a week but especially during the colder months cause it reminds him of the good parts of his childhood.

Johnny actually really loved Chanukah as a kid cause it was like a second christmas, so he celebrates it every year. The first Chanukah with Kenshi, Johnny was like super giddy... history nerd 100% so Johnny will like hype it up and tell him why Chanukah is important all day until finally it's time to light the candles!!! And Johnny doesn't know like ANY HEBREW... besides the Chanukah chant. Kenshi loves it when Johnny speaks in different languages (I imagine he knows a little cause of his career, but also like he's not fluent in like any of them) so to hear Johnny speak in Hebrew, Kenshi is like !!! WOAH!!! Probably asks Johnny to repeat it again and again...

[Spoilers for Johnny and Kenshi's Tower Ending] Johnny definitely bought Kenshi's groceries a LOT after coming back from outworld. Yeah yeah, they were most definitely in different countries but nothing a little modern day technology can't fix. Johnny also 100% pays Kenshi "surprise visits". Will drop way too much money on a ticket to Japan, do MORE shopping for Kenshi there, then show up at his door. Will also visit Kenshi at work as well, since I assume with both Johnny and Kenshi have such busy schedules, being a director and a OIA agent, they don't get much time together.

On that note, eventually when Johnny's whole divorce is settled and he's on his way to like a third Mortal Kombat movie and an animated film or something, Kenshi requests a transfer to California. Goes through EASILY, and that's when they start living together. By then, Johnny's gotten much better at cooking and like cooks for Kenshi whenever he can.

WE ALL KNOW Johnny's a certified yapper. And Kenshi's a listener, specifically for him. Kenshi will bring up stuff Johnny's said once upon a time and Johnny's like "you remembered!!!" cause not a lot of people really listen to Johnny...

Also. Johnny's got daddy issues. Kenshi's got mommy issues. They complete eachother.

I think a lot of people brush over the fact that Kenshi's definitely fuckin loaded too. Like he was a Yakuza, and now he's a government agent. He's got MONEY MONEY MONEY. So all the time after everything, Kenshi would send over gifts upon gifts to Johnny. They gradually decline in price. Not because he's getting cheaper, no! Kenshi's not much of a gift giver but I can imagine he feels pretty bad for Johnny cause he KNOWS Johnny STILL feels guilty about Kenshi losing his eyesight. Kenshi also believes the small things matter the most, and he starts sending over little things that remind him of Johnny. Only when he moves in with Johnny is when he stops gift giving. But we'll get to why later.

Neither are super picky with their food. But, Johnny hates tomatoes and pickles on burgers. Kenshi will eat them regardless. So Johnny purposefully makes sure that tomatoes and pickles are on whatever burgers he gets. (OLIVE THEORYYYY)

Also since I hced both w/ depression... Johnny normally just kind of. Can't function during hard episodes. He really just prefers to stay in bed and let it pass, cry it out a little. Kenshi on the other hand NEEDS something to do cause it helps him get it out, and he's got a pretty active mind, so a distraction is always needed. So Kenshi LOVES cleaning for Johnny during his episodes, he'll get so much laundry done, everything will like practically spotless. And it kind of helps Johnny's mood get better, too.

Kenshi sets aside like at least a week a month when he has time off to just. live life without Sento, if that makes sense? He'll set Sento aside and just deal with life with a cane, he doesn't mind it like at all. He wants to get comfortable with a cane as well because for very very very obvious reasons he can't bring Sento with him everywhere. Face Mapping also. Like every night. Johnny might complain a little cause Kenshi does it so often but he really loves it. Kenshi's got Johnny's face down, like absolutely down. But does it regardless cause he KNOWS Johnny loves it.

I'm still like 90% sure Kenshi is insecure of his tattoos but doesn't talk about them like at all and I mean I think he's pretty comfortable about his past completely. We hear him joke about it for fucks sake. But he does have a habit of covering up what he can of his tattoos. So on the days where Kenshi's just wearing like a tanktop or even no shirt at all, Johnny's all over his arms tracing his tattoos. Like they will be trapped laying on the couch for HOURS. Cause Johnny has to finish tracing EVERY INCH of Kenshi's tattoos. Kenshi won't ever admit that he likes it. And it's not like... erotic either. It's soft and tender. Johnny's just kind of fascinated. (Johnny also probably will take off his shirt like "now trace mine". he will always and forever have his name tattooed across his chest in my heart)

Their love resembles Ludus (Playful Love) the most. They definitely have some pretty tender and passionate moments, but I think Johnny just in general sets the tone for the relationship. Even if Kenshi is more Pragma (Enduring Love) aligned. Johnny kind of lets his humor take the lead, and Kenshi kind of enjoys it.

When Kenshi moved in, he brought Johnny some konpeitō. Johnny was hooked. Now Johnny has like 3 1lbs packs in the cabinets.

Kenshi 100% has a guide dog. And Johnny dotes on that thing and spoils that thing like a motherfucker...

And finally. After like atleast a year and a half of them living together, Kenshi proposes. Johnny HAD a ring and was ready to propose but he was so worried about it and about the time and he let his nerves get the best of him each and every time. Kenshi doesn't make it a big show... probably after a nice dinner and maybe some dancing. But he definitely set the whole day up. Johnny tries so hard not to cry at his proposal.

anyways. gay losers.

[beah388love]

Your on your period

18+ Minors DNI!!!

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Miguel:it was the middle of science class and you was sitting next to miguel and demetri , a couple of minutes past and you jusy knew and remembered you was due so you began to panick because you didnt have any pads or tampons with you, miguel noticed you was acting weird so he wrote down on a piece of paper 'are you okay? ♡︎' you wrote back no and he quietly whispered to you "whats wrong?" "im on my period and i dont know what to do" you whispered berg quietly back. He put his hand up and said "y/n feels ill can i walk her to the nurse sir" the teacher said yes and you both went to a shop to buy you pads or tampons(or anything you prefer) once you had found a bathroom and sorted yourself out you wouldnt stop thanking him and apoligizing for wasting his time,be immediately told you to stop apoligizing and took you too his house to have a movie marathon and cuddle.

Eli/hawk:you get very hormonal on your period and perticularly today your emotions were everywhere and you was watching peppa pig(idk why lmao) but in the episode you was watching susy was just plain evil and you started crying like having a full mental breakdown and when hawk heard you crying he immediately ran up to you and asked you whats wrong "s-susy is such a bad f-friend" you said between sobs "whos susy?" Hawk replied in a very confused tone and you just pointed to the tv "are you being serious?" Hawk said which made you cry even more "n-no! Dont cry its okay i-uh susy is a horrible friend" he said trying to comfort you and you just kept crying ,when hawk caught on that you was on your period throughout the day he went to a corner shop and got you your fav/f and he got you some more pads or tampons(or whatever u prefer) and he tried to not say anything that would offend you or make you sad for the rest of the day.

Demetri:you and Demetri were cuddling in his bed with your head on his chest and Demetri was gonna pee himself so he sprinted to the toilet and when he came back he turned the light on and that's when he saw it the red stain under you and on your shorts "OMG-ARE YOU OKAY ARE YOU DYING?" Demetri was screaming at you thinking that you was dying and bleeding to death "please don't die" he nearly had a heart attack until you told him you was on your period "oh- I-uh are you okay?" Demetri was now as red as a tomato  "yea but uh I need pads/tampons(or whatever your prefer) demetri went to the store to get you some but didn't know which ones you like or if you even have a preference so he texted you And when you told him what they looked like or the name he got them and bought you some snacks too. When he got back he washed his bedsheets and put new ones on and gave you some of his joggers to wear (which were really baggy on you) and then you guys are snacks and did a movie marathon of all your favourite films.

Robby:Robby would usually keep track of your period because he found it really stupid asking you all the time because you would get mad or sad at him cause of your mood swings so instead he just kept track and when he checked in the morning and saw you was due he bought some of your fav things and some pads/tampons(or whatever you prefer) because you was running out and then you guys chilled at his house and whenever you got a bad cramp he would give you a heating pad and massage your stomach.

Young daniel larusso:he knew instantly because you was always really sensitive on your period and would cry over the littlest things so he tried his best to not say anything that would make you upset or annoyed and when he did he would immediately not talk until you said it was okay for him to again and it might sound bad to others but you both knew it would stop unnecessary arguments and meltdowns for you both so you guys would just cuddle and watch films together all day.

Young johnny lawrence:Johnny knew what a period was but he never actually knew what it was if that makes sense so when you told him you was on yours he was very confused on what he should like if he should hug you or not touch you so he kind of did a mixture of both which was making you really upset because you didn't know why he was acting like that and confronted him after a day or two "Johnny why are you being like this?" You said randomly while you both were cuddling "what do you mean?" He answered back genuinely confused "well you keep being really cuddly and clingy and then you won't even touch me" Johnny knew exactly what you meant now and went bright red "I-uh I'm sorry I just didn't know if you wanted me to touch you or not i mean I've never had to deal with a girl on her uh what's it called?" he said "a period?" You answered "yeah! That's what it's called god that been bugging me all day" he said making you laugh "Johnny you can cuddle me if I'm on my period ,I mean like don't overdo it y'know just be how you usually are" "how I usually am?" He said kind of not believing you "yes how you usually are" you giggled. After that Johnny would act normally around you but he would still be extra kind to you because he knew that periods hurt from seeing you in pain from cramps before.

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[raveneira]

'Ada deserves better than Kawaki'

The worst thing Kawaki has done to Ada

The worst things Ada has done to Kawaki

The worst Kawaki ever did to Ada was grab her collar to force her to lie which she could've disobeyed, thats it.

The worst things Ada did to Kawaki is

Trade everybody important to Kawaki in exchange for Code to spare him so she can pursue him, essentially human trafficking according to Bug, which is a horrible experience Kawaki's already gone through

Asking Code to spare Naruto after seeing how much he meant to Kawaki but when he refuses she says fine and to just not let Kawaki know shes involved because she dont want him to hate her, but could care less about the pain losing Naruto would have on him

She could've sent Daemon to intervene when Momo was brutally beating Kawaki and then about to kill Naruto right infront of him yet she sat there watching the whole thing and never tried to help despate literally watching in real time the despair Kawaki was in watching Naruto about to die.

She says Codes goals have nothing to do with her and that shes only helping him in exchange for Kawaki, yet when Shikamaru offers to make that happen without Code she still chooses to leave with Code and help him get his limiters off knowing how difficult that'd make things for everyone he cares about because she knows in the end they'd have to rely on her and Daemon for protection which'll give her access to Kawaki in exchange for that protection

Forced him on glorified house arrest

She holds the entire village hostage by the fact that they need Daemons strength and Ada's sight to deal with Code in exchange for getting to live with Kawaki against his will, Kawaki is not asked for his consent about ANY of this and it was all a deal that Amado and Shikamaru made with her on his behalf and she did not care as long as she's benefiting from Kawaki's trafficking

She allows her brother to beat Kawaki unconscious UNINTERUPPTED when they first meet and does not apologize to him for it

When Kawaki confronts her about her partnership with Code and correctly deduces that she sold Boruto out in exchange for him, Ada doesnt feel any remorse for it nor does she apologize for her selfishness, instead she changes the subject altogether and doesnt even address it

Even though it was unintentional she made omnipotence happen and completely miscontrued what Kawaki wanted by making him take Boruto's place entirely when all he actually wanted, and clearly stated, was for Boruto to be seen as an outsider so that nobody would interfere or feel bad when he kills him

Because of her now Kawaki is being forced to live a miserable life with everyone treating him like Boruto when he doesnt want that and also listening to ppl talk about how much they actually hate him and want him dead everytime they talk about Boruto who they really mean Kawaki when they say those cruel things. Meanwhile Ada is at home chillin without a care in the world about how her mess has affected him, infact she just suggests giving up on trying to undo it despite supposedly feeling bad for making Kawaki seem like a coward.

STFU

Ada does NOT deserve better, KAWAKI does, from the moment she's been introduced, literally the MOMENT she was introduced she didnt give a danm about Kawaki's feelings or consent AT ALL and made multiple deals disregarding the ppl he cares about with 3 different ppl in exchange for him like he wasnt even a human being but a piece of property to be bought and sold.

She felt zero remorse, I repeat, she felt ZERO remorse about working with Code who nearly killed Naruto right infront of him, and sold his brother out in exchange for him, when confronted about it by Kawaki himself and she has the chance to apologize she DOESNT do it, not just there, but she NEVER owns up to the fked up things she did nor apologizes to him for it, yet she apologizes to Boruto multiple times despite Kawaki being the one she supposedly loves.

How anybody, and I mean ANYBODY thinks Ada's the victim here is beyond me, even more so how anyone thinks Kawaki would ever even CONSIDER being together with her after all this when he himself has said she's scum and that he would've rathered taken his chances with Code than even meet her, 3 years have passed and Ada is still sitting home alone while Kawaki completely ignores her existence, how any of you think this ship has ANY possibility of happening is laughable, its even worse than KawaSumi's chances and theirs are low as hell too, but even that has more of a chance than Ada ever will.

So like I said, stfu, Ada doesnt deserve better, Kawaki does, if anything Ada deserves WORSE because she has gotten off scott free with no repercussions for way too long.

[doegirldaydreamerarchived]

Diary entry #2 - 21/01/25

Okay so honestlt im writing this on the same day as the first one, so i might not do one for a few days so i dont burn myself out! (bc of my habit of getting obsessed and burning out in like a few days.) But i kinda already took notes about today so erm!! Youre all stuck w it! ᜊ( ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ᜊ

Giggling forreal onto the actual day. Firstly i jsut wanna say i had to actually decipher my notes like an archeologist or sumet bc i wrote them under the table without looking. Ok forreal anyways omg nevermind tumblr closed this when i minimised the app and said it didnt save and jumpscared me so hard.

ANYWAYS. Let me yap!! Even tho i kinda just wanna sleep rn but shshhh ill just be lazy tmr.

So firstly it was raining on like my first good hair day in a whilleee so.. just why </3 Also bc jan’s been such a blur i realised its my mums bday tmr and i didnt even realise and i feel actually a little evil.. like obvi bc i dont have a job theres not much i can do, but like.. idk. Ill make sure to wish her happy bday tho! Anyways me and my friend mostly talked abt my other friends really nasty now ex bf. Like they shouldve broken up AGESS ago for.. so so many reasons that are probably worse than u think. But at least it happened eventually!! And now i can talk abt him bc he was kinda weird icel. omg also absolutely fantasising abt my dvds bc todays the like due date for package!! Love that!!

Anyways now school.. so basically my friend mentioned he bought cinnamon buns bc he loves them and hes like ‘yeah u can have one as well’ but the dread kinda kicked in in first period. Bit of a rude reminder i do in fact have problems and sometimes they make stuff suck for no reason which is.. ew but ill manage. But on a better note i totally have a little hallway crush (outside of my atrocious fat raging normal crush). Basically shes in my history and when we were lining up she was like sorting her bag and she looked back and smiled at me and UGH shes so pretty!! I also told her her bag was unzipped and fixed it for her 😇😇 But also my usual massive headache started this period. Like one of my eyes was watering headache. But also it kinda relaxed when i put my glasses on si like.. is it straining my eyes?? Idk i js really need new glasses bc my old ones are really old and a little broken and omg i need to stop im starting to feel bad for them. Girly things. Anyways fr ill be getting new ones sometime soon so i can keep my others as spares!! Anyways we were still soing abt.. ykw from ww2 germany and we were talking abt how he treated the church and how a lot of minsters and like preists opposed him and like. It reminded me that stuff isnt always black and white and people who are in a group with a lot of bad people can be good yk? Like a lot of my friends have bad experiences with religion but not all religious people are bad ykwim? And lastly my friend accidentally buttdialed his gf (also my friend) and she heard someone saying goodmorning to me and me going ‘omg he actually said rhat??’ bc i was talking abt someone else giggle. Funsies.

Okayayays anyways now p2 which was english. As usual, my teachers an icon, and also i got to highlight one of my pages really cute and i wanted to take a pic but no phones ufufjjfjf.. what id give to like take pictures w my brain or sumet. Maybe those meta glasses would be cool if they werent violently invasive and chunky as hell. But anyways the Mz kid was like even louder than usual somehow but it didnt bother me bc i had a rlly weird dream w him in it?? Jusy in one part but like. Basically in the dream was saying something about ‘birthday’ and i thought he was being rude so i snapped at him n he looked sad. Then i went around looking for him but found two girls like boxing in some random changing room???? Anyways there was more but thats what stuck w me lol. So yeah i didnt really mind him that much today. Also when we were leaving i was like stuck near some girls who dont like me but like.. i wasnt stressing abt it i just didnt really care. Sooo.. character development idk giggle

Anwyyayss at break i ended up eating half of that cinnamon bun which like. Win bc it was nice and recovery stuff idk. Anyways one of my other friends (R) whos like never in school was in today and we just yapped and hung out for a little and ralked abt the whole bf thing and i loved it shes so sweeet!! But yeah otherwise it was chill asf and we just hung out and stuff!

Okok now third which was physics that also has a teacher i adore bc hes so funny. He made a joke abt like someone thinking he was talking to them bc of his lazy eye and being dramatic abt it and i was GIGGLINF. Also he had like a thermometer gun or whatever and he made an actual gun joke and it surprised me a little lol. Ofmmgm and he made a joke abt b.ngs bc of how many people do the plant where we live and hes an icon for that. Alsoso me and my friend were listening to music and do i wanna know started playing and i didnt even know he had it on his playlist and it was a massive win. Last thing promise, i was thinking abt getting like a mini notebook to write this stuff down in bc i wrote it on my hand but my pens r gel pens so it smudged really bad and i had to type it up anyways sooo.. better pens or mini notebook giggle. Andndn lastly bc yes!! I like stayed behind for a sec bc my friend was getting a reward and when we left my teacher like pointed at me and was like ‘u should speak up in lesson more!’ And fucjkckf hes so sweet. Maybe its my daddy issues idk but it was like.. rlly?? :((( hes just so nice i love him smsmmm!

Anyways then maths. My normal teacher wasnt in again which liks.. miss come back pls </3 and also some kids were like making fun of the annoying kid which like.. ur not any better than him dude.. but tbf one of those kids was a little funny after abt sumet else so.. idk doesnt make it right but makes me him a little less annoying. Anyways i got reminded i need to clear oht my bag bc all my stuff in it looks so cute together but its an actual mess so eventually ive gotta sort it sigh..

Aaand then lunch. Was inside again bc it was raining, and I mostly just yapped w R. She did have this really nice spray tho (one of the sol de janero ones) and im thinking abt getting one bc apparently they actually last and theyre really nice. Also some mean girls came up like opposite me but behind our group and sat in the one place we were told not to sit.. but its fine they got moved eventuallt and we didnt have to deal w them so. Yay! R left for the second half of lunch tho so it was just the normal group again and we just chilled.

Theeenn p5 which was chemistry. Honestly reallt not much happened, i was spaced asf. Weve been over the stuff were going over now so i could clock out a little giggle. I did yap to another friend otw out which we love.

Andndn finallt freedom omg. Ofc my first priority was coffee which honestly is always one of the best parts of my day. But firstly my dvds got delayed which was like.. the worst thing ever. Giggle fr tho i mostly just scrolled tumblr and stuff. And also sorted out my blog a little bc unfortunately im just a girl and i need everything to look perfect. I have revised some for my exam tho and i think im getting better at it. Still stupidly snappy but im working on it! Also i hate that i have to like look at my food before i eat it bro. Like if it looks weird i will be one unexpected texture from gagging and its just. I know the foods good let me eat in peace </3 But its fine bc ofc it acc was good and we love that!

Anyways yayaa thats it for this entry. Ive just gotta wash my hair then im going bed finalllyy!! And tbh if its anytime near what it is rn for me you should too tbh. Get ur beauty sleep angell!!

Rue, signing out 𓂃۶ৎ

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

my stepdad was really in his 20s picking fights with a literal child 😭 men are so fucking insecure its embarrassing.

now he‘s in his 40s still on his grind. i visit two times a year at best and he still cant help himself but tell my mum he doesnt want me around and let me feel that too. my coward of a mum says he is still hurt from things in the past. i have to laugh! the past where i was a child unwelcome in her own home? the past where i had to constantly defend myself against baseless accusations and an adult man debating me about bullshit and nobody took my side? the past where he bought an extra fridge for his room that he would lock when he left just because i ate his brownies once? the past where i wasnt allowed to just help myself to food we had at home? the past where he fished the cheese rind out of the trash to prove i was cutting off „too much“ of the cheese? the past where we could only watch tv when he wasnt home? the past where he took away the door to my room because i was taking „too long“ in the bathroom? the past where he checked the tv for heat to control that i wasnt secretly watching? the past where we had to give up on sunday breakfast because he would escalate it into a fight every damn time? the past where he put me in a position where i had to tell him i didnt want to kiss him anymore with the help of my therapist, and he acted all butthurt about it? the past where i never invited friends home because the vibe was too bad? the past where he was mad because i was using the lightswitch „too loud“? the past where i rather spent my nights at people i didnt know’s house than going home? the past that still makes me feel like a bad person for asking for help because he made everything a huge deal? the past where we moved town because he didnt want to live in the city and nobody cared that was my home? the past where they demolished my room right after i moved out? the past where he charged me for a lift to the nearest station? the past where i couldnt even escape to my grandma because her partner would pull the exact same fucking shit? the past where he would constantly ridicule and doubt me? that past?! yeah iguess that must have really scarred the poor man 😔 sorry for existing asshole

[tadpolesonalgae]

Hello just got the courage to read cbmthy chapter 17 and resprectfully wtf. How can a person have the incredible ability to write such gut wreching angst, I wil never know how you do it. What can I say beside the obvious, you are a great writer and please dont stop writting, the way you create such captivating character and write SJM characters so realistic and three dimensional is incredible. And you overdid yourself on the angst on this chapter. Mor's "maybe you arent made for first choice" is the most visceral reaction causing line from this ff so far for me and I though Azriels burden one was rough oh boy. Speaking of our shadow man, what if he was awake the whole time and Mor didnt want reader to talk to him in that moment and he heared everything dum dum dummm...Maybe after our girlie moves into Bas's place and returnes what stuff Mor bought her that day in Velaris 'as a birthday gift' that day at her room s doorstep, and gets some time to find herself, maybe Azriel can actually allow the reader to reveal who she is as a person and maybe stand against Mor if she continues her mean girl behaviour against reader, cause girlie she didnt go to Autumn to hurt/ create a plan with Eris to hurt you. She went there because lack of connections and the weight of the feeling she isnt enough to allow herself to share her "burdens " with her sisters and the IC was crushing the girl. I reeallly hope Azriel clarifies the situation the whole prophecy and reader train of though because we know the IC wont listen to it fully otherwise. But afterall you know Azriel well and I trust to give us the most fluffy scenes between them when the time is right, cause our girls self esteem was low but now with the way her hands look and how she feels about them is down bad, Azriel can surely relate and offer this girl for once some reassurance.I hope you can give us a cameo of Eris and reader once in a while , their ring exchange screams 'summer camp friendship bracelet exchange'and I found it so damn adorable. I hope you keep updating this series and take care of ur well being and keep being awesome.

‘How can a person have the incredible ability to write such gut wreching angst, I wil never know how you do it.’

I— thank you so much 😭 I honestly believe it’s just because people have chosen to engage with the fic and the reader and because of that choice are more immersed so certain parts hit harder? I’m sure if you weren’t interested in reader, the story wouldn’t have such an effect on you—it’s thanks to your interactions and willingness to believe in reader as a person instead of a character 🧡💛

I also kind of enjoy people found ch. 16 to be angsty too despite 15 being the one I was genuinely trying to make sad 😭 ch. 16 was supposed to be the happy one 😭🤦 maybe all cbmthy chapters are just doomed to have a tiny bit of angst in them

‘And you overdid yourself on the angst on this chapter. Mor's "maybe you arent made for first choice" is the most visceral reaction causing line from this ff so far for me and I though Azriels burden one was rough oh boy.’

I’m not going to lie, I wrote that and spent a couple of hours wondering if that was too much for Mor to say? I do really like Mor in the books, so I don’t want to make her ‘bad’ in the story, so hopefully it wasn’t so far that people won’t be able to understand her side after a bit…? 🫣👀🧡💛😭

‘Speaking of our shadow man, what if he was awake the whole time and Mor didnt want reader to talk to him in that moment and he heared everything dum dum dummm...’

🫢👀👀👀👀

‘But afterall you know Azriel well and I trust to give us the most fluffy scenes between them when the time is right’

I’m very happy you enjoy my interpretation of Azriel 🧡💛

And yes!!!! I can’t tell you any of them but I have so many ideas for future cbmthy moments between Az and reader!!! Some of them I’m not sure I’ll actually be able to write since they’re a bit too unrealistic, but I’m looking forward to telling the rest of their story and hearing what you think about reader’s decisions (and everyone else’s of course!!)

Ugh, I just want to get into The Happy Years! Reader deserves to live A Little Life!!! I’m still figuring out the fine details of the ending (it’s not exactly near, but I do have to keep it in mind, perhaps more now that we’re past the turning point in reader’s story?) but I really, genuinely hope people will enjoy this second half of cbmthy 😭

‘I hope you can give us a cameo of Eris and reader once in a while’

There’s for certain one scene that I’ll be writing (that will likely be near the end) with reader and Eris that I’m absolutely dying to write! Not just because it’s reader and Eris but also the context and the details and I’m so excited!!! It’s ages away though 😫

‘their ring exchange screams 'summer camp friendship bracelet exchange'and I found it so damn adorable.’

Oh my gosh I hadn’t thought of it that way, that’s so sweet and endearing 😭 especially since Eris is sometimes a little mean to her but overall I think they have fun together (well, Eris definitely wouldn’t describe it as fun 🤦)

I think reader does need to get him back though, in some way 🤔

‘I hope you keep updating this series and take care of ur well being and keep being awesome.’

I hope so too! And thank you so much for kindly writing in to share your thoughts and just generally speak about cbmthy—it’s so heartwarming getting to read through 🫂🧡💛

(And take care of yourself, too, please 🫂)

[lostinatrainofthoughts]

A month plus ago, someone randomly slid into my dms claiming they knew me from primary school.

He finally said his name was danial K (oh boy, not another danial 😂). Funny enough, this was the last person i would think to ever try to connect with me? He was one of the popular ones back in school and i was surprised he knew me. we would sometimes see eachother in passing but we never acknowledged the other’s existence. So i was caught off guard he even recognised who i was. A little back story, him and his sister were well known in school because theyre half white in a sea of purely malay kids intrigued by the exoticness of an anomaly.

He told me he wanted to get to know me better and be friends? He was apparently very close to (probably seeing?) my bestfriend at the time so he mentioned that he knew me from her i think. Or observed? He said we looked tightknit (we fought often btw but she did give me a hamster) and he says if shes nice then i must be nice too. I dont know if hes trying to replicate what he had with my friend with me bc our conversations always somehow involved her. And i feel like one way for him to reconnect with her was through me? I lost contact with her agesss agoo, and shes off the grid. So i dont know how i felt about this whole thing.

Then as we got to chatting, the more wariness i felt about him being a douche lessened. He was notoriously known to be a player. He told me he peaked in primary and was bullied violently in secondary. He told me people made fun of him being short (i didnt know this) and name-called him saying he looked like megamind (this i knew). There were awful rumours about his sister too that she leaked her nudes (which apparently i bought in at the time and he said none of it was true). It wasnt just the name-calling, it was physical abuse too. I felt bad because of what he went through. he wasnt the type to fight back and hes super patient, which is admirable. It dispelled my initial perception of him and i really fed into the rumours. He really did peak in primary as he mentioned how much he enjoyed his time there (i hated primary). he also has broken English eventho his father's white.

so after all the conversations of good ol times in primary (of his). he started to text me every single day. he would ask me what I ate for lunch, breakfast, dinner and repeat; asked how work was and wished me good luck for work, repeat. now it was getting a little exhausting when conversations were like this. since he asked if we could be friends, and i said sure why not. but he was taking this label very seriously, like something he had to prove himself worthy of. he started calling me "bestie waina" and with every single breath. he always without fail, mentioned that I was his "bestie" and striving to become the "best bestie I ever had". He was becoming borderline obsessive about being my best friend. he refers to himself in third person;__; (ex: "danial is going to work", "danial misses my bestie waina") or "oh I love working offshore, you [sometimes he would also call me "you"]" + "i only think about 3 things when I'm away: myself, my family, and my bestie waina". he asked me once whats a green flag in a bf. so at this point i haven't expressed me being uncomfie bc I'm a ppl pleaser and an avoidant, so when he pulled that qn i was like oh this is my time to shine! so i told him "besties don't always text each other every time, only when they have something to say, they give space, and being bestfriends takes years :) " he reads my texts as soon as it was sent. no matter the time of the day, even at ungodly hours, hoping he wasnt gonna reply bc he was asleep - he still did! like girl............... but after that particular text, he opened it 16 hours after lol, and said he will tone it down. it didn't last. it took 5 days for him to resume his routine of asking me what I ate again.

it was getting out of hand because he said things like "where are you? what are you doing? i would teleport to where you are if I could" and it was just plain creepy. so I lied and I said I'm seeing someone I matched with on tinder. he replied "I support you my BFF waina" so I started to think, maybe he does only want to be friends. but then he pulls "thanks for telling me you're going out w a guy" and I was like huh?????? I didnt say it because I felt obligated but I said it so that he would back off. again, the male species fails to understand these things. But I knew it tipped him off, bc he replied over a day later. to add, he also said he wanted to save "kr8" (as in credit, yes he types like he's stuck in the early 20s) because the wifi wasnt stable so he's gonna log out and stay in touch in April (before knowing he was like this, I said yeah we could meet up :") ) so we stopped texting.

but it doesnt end thereeeeeeeeeeeee.

i told this ordeal to my cousin 2 weeks after who said I should block him. she convinced my avoidant ass by saying I don't owe him anything. I like the idea of running away from my problems, thinking it would solve itself so I did! at the time, ig didn't give me the option to "also block new accs they might create".

oh boy, two days later, he made two different ig accounts to text me...... . i knew it was him because one had a similar username as his old one. i immediately disabled my ig for 3 days bc I was so damn frightened.i only opened it back because everyone was telling me to communicate.

Both DMs from those two accs were sent at a 15 min intervals. one was a cryptic ominous "You". The other was a long text message about how he was upset and he didn't get why I did what I did (I felt bad of course, bc again I didn't say anything instead my people-pleasing ass was just going w the flow until it all became too much). then he started victimising himself, said things like he'll heal on his own, he will stay strong. he even gaslit me and said "he forgave me" lmao. he said he didn't see the point of ig anymore (the ig he used to contact me was a burner account. i was the only mutual) so he disabled all three accounts.

his final text was him giving out his phone number if i ever wanted to talk to him. so although all his accounts were disabled, i could still text these accounts from laptop (glitch). so i lied and said i had a bf (bc ya... i didn't want the blame all on me) and that this "bf" wasnt happy w me talking to other guys so i did what he told me. i told denial i was sorry repeatedly. that he deserved a meaningful friendship with someone else. because the guilt ate me alive. he's sent his phone no. before on 3 diff occasions btw. the first one, I told him I was uncomfortable w sharing. so in that final text to him, I made it clear that i was NOT gonna text him through whatsapp (that's just asking for it). i told him this already. then consumed by anger, i retorted saying that i mentioned friends give each other space, but he chose to ignore that. and also "please don't create any more new accounts to text me. it makes me feel unsafe." the end

[richardsphere]

Leverage Log: The San Lorenzo Job

OK, we're really switching to season-long setups now with the return of Manticore as a Plot-point. Not really a fan, I personally like shows where stuff can actually stand on its own to stay that way. It feels unfair to suddenly rely on the audience to start taking notes from previous episodes when you've trained them not to.

So now we know that there are 3 things to be stolen this episode: The Election/The Country itself (stuff the ballot boxes or hack the machines, possibly a Sophie Thing, grifting not a Person but a Country entirely), His Backup Gold and Diamonds (Big Parker Moment?) and the Manticore Servers (cause Leverage Consulting is not stupid enough to let that thing go out on the open market a second time. They learn from their mistakes. )

I guess there's a small chance they don't steal Manticore? In that they could also say "the servers will go on the open market after Moreau's take-down, and we'll just buy it with the money we steal from him" like he bought it after they stole it from Duberman, But that doesn't feel like how the Leverage Crew operates.

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The Italian makes another appearance, "Damian Moreau will never leave San Lorenzo". Clearly a case of Exact Words 101, So of I'm right they're gonna turn his Shelter from extradition into his prison.

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OK the heroes have all touched all the TV's in the electoral command center, which means they're now all Hardison-ed. Compromised, don't trust anything a TV shows in this episode.

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So they're compromised (definitely not intentionally no-no this show would never make the bad guy think he knew what was going on to make the bad guy overconfident. They'd never do that /s)

But are you telling me Hardison hadnt hacked the stuff yet? Thats like the first thing he does? Normally... Normally its the first thing he does, i forgot about Manticore didnt I.

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"How is a campaing promise different then a lie", come-on writers, tell us how you really feel!

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What scandal could be worse then Sex or Corruption? Animal Cruelty, Puppies... You can tell the writers loved coming up with this as a plot.

Love the way that their chosen stooge absolutely despises them. Like Nate is not a nice guy and this is a genuinely good person forced to work with Nate at his sober-est.

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The way that Sophie tells the poor guy exactly how she's gonna manipulate him with the handshake, then proceeds to do it.

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And the team is back at what they do best biochemical warfare, Nothing these guys cant accomplish by drugging the heck out of some people.

--- Oh jackbooted thugs with face concealing masks, in a show where the heroes are always disguising themselves as anyone and everything, shoot Shophie on camera? Yeah that was the plan, make it look like democracy is falling apart to get them in trouble with the UN watchdogs. Tell the Current President he can simply frame Moreau to clean his own hands... give him a nice retirement package... I can see Nate's angle.

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So yeah, play your enemies against eachother, steal an election, Sophie's face is going to be on the money now. Sophie grifting so hard she makes a president feels like a good enough Big Sophie Moment. So they didnt steal Manticore, just imprisoned the owner and then had it become a San Lorenzo Government Property (which is now an actual democracy).

No big parker moment... kind of sad, but having Parker steal all his gold off-screen feels like the most Parker way to steal. the simple "yeah she's good enough we dont even need to show the audience" is Parker enough for Parker. even if the 2-part finale didnt give her a "moment" the finale didnt need it.

[isapolvorita]

I have a problem and i want to rant

So i have a friend that invite me a fashion show wich she is gonna participate. Im not really interested in it but she always helps me with uni things and also this times we dont coordinare to see each other much.

The thing is, i forget the date when its going to be the show (i have to say the ticket was kind of expensive) and i bought another ticket for a medieval festival with other of my friends (wich was 1/4 of the fashion show ticket). Both things are the same day, the festival is 11AM to 7PM and fashion show is at 6PM. And both things are far apart.

And now i dont know what to do, I want to go more to the medieval festival than the fashion show, but i feel like a shitty friend if i dont go to the fashion show. I ask my family and they said that i have to stop doing things for another people if i dont want to, i didnt want to go to the fasion show since the beginning but i was going to go anyway because my friend. But now i dont know what to do.

Also i dont know how to tell her if i dont go.

Maybe is going to be another medieval festival someday?? Im not sure, this kind of things are weird where i live. Also i dont know if is going to be good or not, if i go to the festival and is bad, then i was a shitty friend for nothing, if i go to the fashion show and is boring, then i waste the opportunity to go to the medieval festival.

And for more context, i forget also the day when other friend was going to sing in his choir (and i dont know if he is mad at me or not, i went to his concerts before)

I can ask advice to my friends but now i feel that all my friends think im a shitty friend. Im not asking them because im afraid of them telling me that? im not sure.

Oh well, if you want to give me your opinion, you are free

[akash1618]

2 may. friday

left house with an absolute bad mood. and it was all because of father. interacting with him, avoiding him, just spoils my mood. dont even feel like noting things down, but it left me drained. i avoid logging about him every time. just ten minutes of talking to him. i left the home, without a smile. my smile was lost rather. when i reached the door, he called me, but i ignored him, and walked ahead. i cannot bear him. i could earlier keep the pretense of the happy son, but now? i no longer can. it's heavy. i dont even feel like coming home at times.

i woke up bright. was actually looking forward towards the day. had such a nice day yesterday. i had slept with all rosy thoughts. i genuinely wanted to smile at miss today, but just an hour after waking up, idek what i was feeling any more.

i decided to feel bright though. but it was all make-believe. the affirmations kind. but i tried.

in office, i saw miss in the morning while i was returning from the washroom. she was looking in her mobile, so i couldn't attempt the smile. i had placed my water bottle on the couch. picked it up, and started filling the water. i looked up when i was done, and she was still busy. ig i cannot aim a smile at her unless she too looks at me. sad thing is, if she'd look, idk what i'd do. if i'd be able to smile at her. keep trying though. be positive. you can yk. it's the same smile you share to others. it's ok if it doesn't come from the heart. even your stock smile works. if she likes you, she'd smile back; if she doesn't, she won't. simple.

lunch. i had asked mother to not give my a tiffin today. so i had bought lunch from the canteen. mother wakes up early everyday for me, so i just asked her to rest today.

miss was with her friends at lunch. so no smiles. i only looked at her. she looked pretty.

evening. canteen. didnt eat anything. i was feeling drained from the morning, but just keeping up the act. was going to get lassi from the vending machine. when on stairs, i asked the senior coworker who was with me if he too would like something, but he refused.

when we reached the machine, i saw miss discussing something with her coworker. but she was facing the opposite direction, so she couldnt see me. she was essentially blocking the machine by leaning on it, so i couldnt step there. senior coworker said that it was the best time to have a small interaction with her. a simple "excuse me" kind. how dumb of me to not realise that, AGAIN.

just how many chances do i keep missing? how do i let myself be seen by her if i continuously keep missing these moments? i do want her to see me, and i do want to take actions. buy why does it not reflect in my actions? why is this hesitation drilled so deep down in me, when i do want from my core to step up? what thought should i keep in my mind continuously to not let the moment slide? it wasn't even about courage back then, nor fear, nor even "respect her" kind. idk why i didnt step up. i wasnt frozen. i was...idk what. i really wish i was my bubbly self back then. if i wouldnt have interacted with father in the morning i would've been the same bubbly self as yesterday, phish man. why can't just life see me good? is it necessary to drag me down always?

had a meeting at around 7:30. went in the cabin absolutely without motivation. passed some ideas i had. and now boss feels that i hold a great insight for marketing. the customer psychology and stuff. and i would be a great fit for the product marketing. i already design. i don't think i can handle marketing well. ik this would be my imposter syndrome kicking in, but i am not even a good designer to begin with.

night, in bus. i dont feel like going home. i don't like him. and i have stopped hating him, because it won't do me any good. he single handedly ruined our family both by being present and absent. present to be a misery, and absent as a father. and he doesn't even realise this. he acts as if he's done nothing wrong. the day i speak this to him, our family would break. and i want peace in my life. it'd be the "silent kid spoke up" moment. i cannot forgive him ever. seeing him makes me realise that even i am capable of hatred. how do i let go of this weight in me? why me as a child needs to hold all this burden in me? is it my fault? not even the slightest. why do i need to play the parentified child? why me?

i can't be myself at home, at work, at friends. is there no place on this earth where i can just be myself? where i don't have to wear a mask. where i can, just smile, without a care? why do i have to wear masks of "myself"? and which one of them is actually me? ig there are hints of my true selves in every mask i wear. or maybe, just all are me. all.

it's not that's he hasn't done anything for me, but the 5% doesn't override his 95%.

it's now that i think that i realised, but i stopped putting his name on forms when asked for my full name. it's just me and the surname now. i used to adore shiv as a kid, but i slowly stopped praying to that form of god as much, after i saw father praying to him. sorry god. i stopped talking about father, and now whenever someone asks about him, i avoid or lie. i avoid talking about him to anyone because i don't want to be seen as someone having strained relationships. it'd just push people even further away from me. there's a fear that they'll abandon me. maybe never even come close to me. i did try telling about the strained relationship of my father and me, but people just laughed it off. it's not that i am like this beyond as a person. even i like icecreams, flowers, films.

god, can't you see that i am striving to be happy. i am trying in my own ways. i no longer wish to cling to sadness. i am not running away, but if it takes away my peace, is it wrong to avoid it? i want to step into light. i am trying slowly. i hope you see it. but there are some weights like these that i cannot detach myself from. what do i do then? because even if i avoid them, they are bound to catch up to me at some point. inevitably.

had been looping stephen castillo's "falling" throughout the day. long time i came to dream pop. i just found this song randomly on insta. it just amplifies my sadness today. that's why i don't like dream pop. it amplifies both happiness and sadness. there's a bittersweet aftertaste after listening to dream pop. i wanted to switch to a happy song in the day, but i couldn't bring myself to. because it'd have exhausted me even more. i just wanted the day to end post-lunch, somehow speed through.

went to alice in gelatoland. didn't feel like going home. ordered a nutella ferrero branch sundae. it's a gelato sundae. i sat at the corner seat. aai called, but i lied to her that i was at parle in bus, while i sat in the store. lied to her that i had food in offcie, and won't be having dinner. felt guilty, but i wasnt feeling good, and was hoping that icecream does good to me..the gelato arrived, and it's huge. my first time having a gelato.

miss, if you saw me like this, maybe you'd never even want to have me in your sight. i am such low, my character would proly repel you. i used to avoid problems like this. i'd sit at the bus stop and metro stations for hours just so that i dont get home early. used to leave office late. even now, i do it subconsciously sometimes. is it all my fault though? to not have even a single safe space?

a kid, maybe five, walked into the store with his father. he looked so curious and playful. running around the store seeing all the kinds of icecreams. but he looked scared, maybe because the place felt new to him. so i raised my hand, and he came running and gave me a high five. i did that again later, and he again came running towards me and gave an another high five :) the father-kid duo didn't buy anything, and left. seeing kids makes me want to get up and play. children of that age should never know sadness.

oh boy, at that moment, i felt like sharing the icecream with miss. having all the icecreams from the store with miss, but does she like them? idk anyone who doesn't like icecreams. maybe she does like them too. umm, yea i now want to have an icecream with her. and what would be your favourite flavour madam? and what are your favourite flowers? and your favourite colour - except black?

when i entered the store, it was empty. i was the only one, but after some time, people started gathering, and it was so full, there was not enough place to sit in. a was in for more than an hour, so. when i was leaving, i saw a couple standing beside me. lol, i didn't even realise they were standing because i was logging here. i just cleaned the table with the tissue because that's the basic etiquette right? but he said me a thank you. it really feels strange sometimes to hear a thank you from someone else. sure man. i appreciate your words.

well, another day passed being unable to smile at madam. now monday. lol, if i had tried to smile at her from december, instead of trying to connect with her teammates, there would have been some progress. ah! wasted sm time. wasted all the time i could have been together with her. maybe i am late. a lot. but better late than never.

walked home. i did feel good. and it wasn't the icecream this time. it was the little kid. tysm kind little man. you don't know, but i appreciate your presence a lot. tysm.

icecreams and me are a forever love story.

home. brother said that he could still smell my perfume. the smell of the perfume is still intact. even in this hot summer when i sweat sm? i did smell my shirt, it's faint - the base tone. need to be very close to even get the hint. i don't even recognise the perfume 20 minutes after spraying it on me. but if it does stay till now, maybe the people in the bus would get the hint of the perfume whenever i move to the seat in the morning haha.

had a bath because i was dripping with sweat.

maybe mumbai isn't as bad as i make it to be. yes madam?

[annasstudyblog]

💗 April 21, Monday

The past week has been very unproductive to say the least. It’s holy week. I’ve noticed that I regress back to my isolation stage whenever I don’t get much social contact. I become lazy, unproductive and feeling unmotivated. I suppose this realization can help me do better in the future. Guess now it’s time to get back on track!

💗 Good things that happened:

- i used a jacket from my closet that i didn’t like back then, but now omg im in love

- my classmates were chilling and we talked hehe

- someone noticed my old my chem shirt??

- randomly bumped into my boyfriend while on the way to the sports complex hehe

- the bus driver noticed my extra finger and shared about his mom having one as well hehe

- the workers there were really nice!

- they told me to wait for the next message for the future pay outs so im assuming its final now? Im so glad honestly, at least my parents would have some help as well with tuition.

- randomly bumped into my sister while walking home and she was on her way to go jogging😭 we burst out laughing when we recognized each other hehe

- ate binignit with my dad hehehe so wholesome

- kuya tan helped me with the dishes hehe

- kuya tan also helped me with ripping the papers for my paper mache project

- mom bought glue for me awwe-

💗 Things I’ve accomplished:

- woke up early and didn’t brain rot

- cooked rice for my brother and I

- cooked food for my packed lunch

- woke up my brother since his alarm didnt work, i was scared to do so but i did it and he thanked me hehe

- was being a good citizen on the jeep

- arrived to school early

- discussed things with my group

- helped my classmate with works

- socialized and talked with some classmates

- studies for dev psych in the morning!

- got a perfect score in both my evaluation and midterm performance! It was hard since I’m not one for dancing, but I managed to push through with no mistakes hehehe

- helped out a classmate by giving her my wipes

- ate a healthy lunch

- studied again for dev psych in the afternoon

- returned the book i borrowed in the library

- arrived at the sports complex on time!

- got my documents photocopied last minute

- finished my errands successfully! I was nervous since I didn’t know what to do and where to go. I was alone too but so far I say I’ve handled that well!

- decided to walk my way home and get some steps in! It felt nice going out after a long time of isolation

- took a cold bath as soon as i got home

- stayed up late to finish my brain model

- stayed up late studying for bio psych as well

- packed up my bad for tomorrow

💗 Things I could’ve done better:

- should’ve managed my time better. I procrastinated so much the past week but today I tried to catch up on all the works.

💗 Song of the day: My Favorite Clothes - RINI