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iamtheprotagoneil · 4 years

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ok so im here crying over your tag essay and to crank up the angst even more, imagine neil jokingly saying to david when he was reading to him, "if i had known it takes a bullet for you to come by and sit with me like this, i would've happily gotten shot sooner 😊" and david just goes absolutely white with shock and crumbles down in fresh tears. (1)

and neil would be like, oh god no no, i'm sorry i'm just joking my stupid mouth runs away from me again 😭 david just sits there realizing how much he had hurt neil and broken his heart in the first place, and neil is panicking inside trying to comfort him and tell him it's okay, it's okay, i'm just glad you're here with me now ♥️ (2) - alicia

damn, alicia. y’all really be going off with all this angst huh 😭😭😭

#ask #alicia the ao3 commenter #imagine david just sitting there frozen in place book in his hand and eyes just staring at neil #as if the trinket he found in neils bag wasn't enough of a reminder already #and it hurts more the way neil's said it #the protagonist knows he only meant it as a joke; and how unfair it is for the protagonist to not be able to laugh at it #any other time; any other person and the protagonist would've laughed but this isn't just anyone #and neil backtracking trying to comfort the protagonist when he was the one in need of comfort #and neil backtracking and comforting the protagonist while hes the one who needs comfort #he's the one in the hospital bed; recovering from a near lethal wound #he's the one whose death has already happened even though he doesn't know it yet #he's the one that needs all the comfort in the world; comfort that david simply cannot give because ahhhh policies #he just sits there frozen in place; trying to calm down the raging of his heart; the storm turning his stomach upside down #its too much and its too hard and he doesn't want to do this anymore but he wouldn't wish this on anyone else as well #he's just too good you know; he's chosen to carry this weight on his shoulders that's his resposibility #he's not going to burden anyone else with it; not if he can help it #so he clears his throat; he lets out a strained chuckle; telling neil that it's alright; it's fine really it's fine #neil doesn't quite believe it but he doesn't dare to press in case the protagonist might returning to hating him again #so he keeps his mouth shut; he observes the protagonist through half shut eyes; keeping all of his thoughts to himself #maybe one day he'll ask the protagonist about it (he tells himself) someday in the future #(maybe he never gets to that point)#(maybe he does)#(i can't tell which one is worse)#protagoneil #lmao once again with the tags #i should write things in the tags more since it does seem to bring out a lot in me lol #*my ramblings

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