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noxtivagus · 2 years ago
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apollo's doing the drk lvl 80 quest rn n my mind is just. no thoughts only drk again
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#'our closure' T_T#wah a lot of my favorite songs like running in the dark & don't think twice remind me of drk vv much!!!!#me connecting don't think twice w drk is kinda funny tho but. true. i wld kiss myself if i could smh /lh#one word to describe drk for me is. 'romantic'. not necessarily like that one definition but YK YOU GET WHAT I MEAN#i'm so soft for. uh. do i call them esteem..#ILL CRY LOOKING AT THE FLOWER IN APOLLO'S SCREEN JUST EARLIER! THAT CLIFF MEANS SO MUCH TO ME FUCK#sometimes when i look at old things i wrote i realize how unintentionally like#oh my god the image of cliffs n uh IDK HOW TO WRITE AT ALL RN but tying that to a lot of stuff i've written n imagined in the past#the cold of the night the. sight of the stars n. oh my god oh no oh no#;w;; w noctis n my ocs n then ffxiv n wtvr the fuck else that rlly just means so much to me#OH W A SPOTIFY DESCRIPTION I WROTE LONG BACK WHICH WAS PRETTY ROMANTIC I THINK. I WAS BRAINROTTING ABT FFXIV DRK#n then w angels months back ehe i was listening to morning light hymnus n existence from gbf on repeat T_T#i'm emotional i just want to write wait WAIT. AS I WAS SAYING EARLIER#esteem is so soft in jpn it makes me heart melt the way they just worry for the wol n aaadhfdalkfjadslkfjdas my heart ily i love you#fray/esteem i'm so sorry i don't know what to call them rn but they love the wol so much fr n it's just. one of my favorite things ever#bcs that's. oh my god rlly just so special to me n then. w drk lore stuff. that reflects on self-love too n it's just so dear to me#my comfort my answer my hope.. they say that in jpn but IN ENGLISH FRAY SAYS LITERALLY 'I LOVE YOU' AAAAAAAAA#i'm gna cry bye wait drk has stuff w reaching out hand n hdkfljasklfjsdf fe3h ruined me w that n it's like.#I DON'T KNOW HOW TO WRITE SORRY LISTENING TO DANCING GHOST'S BALL JOINTED DARLING N IT'S MAKING ME EMOTIONAL TOO#sorry i can't read the rest of the drk jpn translations i'll actually cry so bad wait i need to compose myself#' as the dark knight who at times faces great loss yet presses ever foward while striving to protect others#you shall always have love at your side. ' I'M NOT OKAY HELP ME I'M NOT OKAY FUCK THE DRK QUESTS#pls don't mention haurchefant to me he's very dear to me i'll cry i'm gna cry . destiny n warmth n family n waiting n.. drk ihy hkdfjalksdf#the whole of drk n how it messes w my thoughts n emotions is all just so very personal to me. shaped my identity sm wtf#' the words of those you pass by can lift your head. someone's outstretched hand can hold you up when you collapse... '#oh my god. i saw smth for sid n fray n rielle n i'm too emotional to read the whole of it rn but THAT HRUTS MAN IT'S SO GOOD#i love the character growth n development sm w the charas in drk. ngl it's so funny rielle's the kid but she's babysitting sidurgu ngl#sidurgu babygirl (real) my emo bby ily <3
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a-cat-in-toffee · 4 months ago
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this doesn't feel long enough for ao3 and I don't feel like doing tags rn have civilian au Williams and Dakota being gay
"So what, you're like, a real life hero?" Dakota shouldered the bag, bouncing along next to William. "That's so cool."
He shrugged, eyes flitting from nearby person to person. "It's kinda cool, I guess. I'm not like- I mean we're still in training, but..."
"But you still go on missions! And fight stuff!" Dakota grinned widely, hopping to avoid cracks in the sidewalk.
"Eh, not much fighting stuff." Or missions, if he was being completely transparent, which he often had to be. Ha. Invisibility joke. "We're generally more stealthy than fighty."
"That's still really cool, though!" Dakota insisted. "You're still saving people."
William laughed slightly. Dakota had such a black and white view of heroism, it was sort of... refreshing? William was so constantly in his own head about morality, and if what he was doing was really worth it, that talking to Dakota about it felt like getting dunked in cold water and realizing he had been overheating.
"So do you have a super cool secret base?" The smile on Dakota's face was infectious, William found. It was hard to be too angsty around him.
"I guess, yeah. I dont think it'd be a good idea to show you, though."
Dakota sighed dramatically, leaning against William and bringing a hand to his forehead. He probably would have said something dumb, something in butchered old English maybe, but he apparently forgot to account for one thing in his theatrics. William was weak as shit.
Almost instantly William, with a yelp, stumbled backwards into the street. Dakota fell with him, and the two of them landed next to eachother. Dakota's arm was across William's chest, the contact warm and burning only for a second before Dakota sits up, looking down at William. The two are silent for a moment.
Then, Dakota bursts out laughing. "Dude-"
"Not all of us can support the weight of another, Dakota!" William laughed along, letting his head fall down onto the pavement.
"It's not even about that, though! You're a hero, don't you know anything about stance?"
William's chest hurt. It felt good. "I told you! We do stealth shit!"
"They should still teach you basic fighting!"
He lulled his head over, looking at Dakota. His hair had fallen even more out of place, and William felt an urge to fix it. Whoa, bust, calm down there. He smiled down at Will, face barely catching the light from the streetlamp.
"Maybe you can teach me sometime."
"Well clearly I have to!" He looked so pretty. "Whats gonna happen if you get in a fight?"
"I'm sure the others could take care of it."
Dakota sighed, laying down next to William, once more dramatically bringing his wrist to his forehead. "Woe is me, mine darling husband was shipped off to fight in the war, but they didn't teach him how to fight, and he caught a stray bullet whilst on a train."
William felt his face heat up. "And we got married when?"
"Why, quite a many few years ago, of course. My momma didn't approve of you, thought you were a real wrongen," William laughed at the fake accent Dakota had put on as he talked, "But you were an honest one, and you won her over. Now, what I don't know is that you've been sleepin' a little closer in your cot with your bunkmate- and I won't ever find out once the war takes you, but it's fine. I'll find solace in Ashe, who has been my darling friend since childhood."
"Dakota."
"Hm?"
"If you were my husband and I got sent off to the war, I would never cheat on you."
Dakota frowned. "Now I feel kind of bad. Ashe was going to move in with me in order to help me through my grief and tend to affairs. We wouldn't get married but all the village children would whisper."
William was laughing again. He couldnt remember a time he had laughed this much in one conversation. "It's okay- it wouldn't matter if I was dead, right?"
He hummed. "What if your bunkmate was Vyncent?"
"Okay!" He stood up, trying to ignore the burning in his cheeks. "We should get out of the road."
Dakota laughed at him, grinning as wide as before as he teetered off into giggles. Will offered out his hand, looking away when Dakota grabbed it and pulled himself up. He then made the objectively bad decision to look back, being met with Dakotas face much closer than he expected.
He had freckles. They were small and hard to notice, which William thought was odd considering how sun-kissed Dakota's skin was, but now that he saw them he couldn't unsee them.
"Sorry for suggesting you would have an affair with your bunkmate." He giggled. "I forgot you wrote the perfect husband, and would never ever cheat on me, even with cute purple haired boys."
He can hear his heartbeat in his ears. Was William dying? Was this it? Is the what a heart attack felt like?
"Dakota, we're still in the middle of the street."
Dakota sighed, not letting go of William's hand and tugging him along back to the sidewalk. "Of course, of course. And we have to worry about all this traffic!" With his free hand he gestured to the empty street.
"You never know."
William felt as Dakota's hand relaxed, but instead of letting go, laced their fingers together.
Oh god.
Oh no.
William was so fucked.
"Yeah, sure. Let's just get to the bus stop, then you can go home to your awesome and dope superhero base, okay?"
William laughed. "Yeah, okay."
"Best husband." Dakota said it like a concrete fact, grinning, and William's heart did a flip.
He was so fucked and there was nothing he could do about it.
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likesdoodling · 1 year ago
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I felt like drawing chibi ascendance of a bookworm characters.
It has been too long.
*wipes away imaginary tear-
And SO MUCH STUFF HAS HAPPENED
I feel like I need to do a and entire collection of these just to catch up on all my favourite moments-
THERE ARE SO MANY OF THEM!!
From the last two books alone along with the prepubs, I mean. Yeah.
Also the fact that I got impatient like four books ago and read the webnovel...
Haha..
I was impatient.
I don't regret it, but now I'm kind of tempted to do a whole lot of incredibly spoiler heavy funny pictures...
:(
Eh.
Maybe I'll just do them anyway and release them as the novels come out, or the prepubs since I'm following both rn-
IT'S JUST SO EXCITING!
ANd the LAteST PREpuB!
*screams-
I just... I want to do more stuff as it comes out, but I have been sadly busy.
Studying.
Which is fine.
BUT BOOKWORM STUFF!
Y'know, I started learning Japanese to see if I could learn the language before all the light novels got translated-
Which is looking like more of a pipe dream as time goes by,
(I started two years ago, but haven't gotten that far)
But now I genuinely just want to learn Japanese, light novels aside, cause like... BOOKS. In a different language? And poetry? And Stuff? And Anime?
Besides Japanese just looks pretty. Which yes, I know is a kind of shallow reason but still-
Eh. I just like the language. It's cool. Though it makes you realise just how weird English is. I mean, I do not envy anyone trying to learn English as their second language, it makes like, no sense. I mean, it is useful, since so many people speak it, but I am also very grateful that I don't have to learn it.
(spoilers ahead-)
Anyway. I felt like drawing today, so here we have 'totally there in person' Myne facing off against Detlinde! Who will win?
I mean if Myne was actually there I feel like she would utterly destroy Detlinde, mainly because y'know. You don't threaten Ferdinand when Myne's around. Overall bad move/prepare to be obliterated-
Yeah. I like the latest book. It's cool.
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ithinkshesprettyy · 4 months ago
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JOURNAL ENTRY #2
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today was also a lot, one of my best friends wasn't at school :( and i came home to some complicated stuff when i really just wanted to relax which was pretty eh but i'm not going into details with that. we got our new english lit teacher today and she's boring as hell it's driving me insane she doesn't let me listen to my music :( on a positive note, i wrote zel this little (me when i lie i yapped so much) letter and i think it was really sweet and that just made me happy i love writing letters <3 i also planned my hypothetical trip with my friend to go see gracie and i'm so hyped for that even if it doesn't happen the excitment is sooo real rn!! we figured out costs and stuff yk, i loveee planning trips!! right now i'm looking forward to the hypothetical gracie trip (ignoring its in april next year IF it does actually happen) and formal!! i'm wearing this dark blue dress and going with all my friends i'm sooo excited!!
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transbunnyboi · 10 months ago
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Well, wet dream come true am I right? Eh? FUCKING HELL I FUCKING KNEW ITTT WTFFF. You were being so obviously interested in him and he was doing the same, we just didn’t wanna be too forward yknow 👉👈 but anyway, get that dick bunbun 👹
Alsooo I really wanna spill tea too soooo
I have this friend, we bonded over role playing and her shitty relationship with her ex andddd turns out she likes me🫠 anddddd I’d also liked her for a while- butbutbutbutttttt we’re in two different continentssss andddd I can’t an explain how I feel for her but I love her sooooo much and like, what if we have a horrible breakup? I couldn’t live without her. I’m being so fr rn😖 Today would make it one year since our first text with each other, and she sorta confessed last night.
It was so funny, I wanted to flirt so I asked for a tmi or sumn and she says she imagines what it would be like if she got with any of her friends and she got embarrassed then she got emotional and I got emotional (we’re both on our periods, party) and she was being very conflicted and didn’t want to say it directly because she didn’t want to believe she wanted to have romantic feelings for me (she’s bi dw, no internalised homophobia here✨). At a point she wanted to try to not feel like she was dependent on me so she STOPPED TEXTING ME GOOD NIGHT AND GOOD MORNING 😭 Horrible times, we survived thankfully. But yeah she was scared I’d act differently because I know of her little shenanigans but I couldn’t care less, I like her too, but I believe it goes deeper than that yknow?
Ohhhhh so I pretty much wanted her to like tell me the colour of her socks, that type of tmi😂 and I correctly guessed her sock colour🤭 I’m a telepathic puppy too! 👉👈 But she’s so prettyyyy, and tall (like 6’1), and smart (she’s studying English to become a teacher, like you!) , and her hair is so pretty and longggg (ginger, waist length) and she has the prettiest blue eyes and she’s so babygirl 😖 sigh, I’m a simp.
Anywayyyy I hope our lovely coworker (EEEEEEEEEEE🫠🙃🌝🥹✨) fucks you real good eventually. Gotta give us updates🧍‍♀️🫡
Oh I can’t stop giggling 🤭
<3
AAA I KNOWWW I know!!! There were so many people saying that he liked me but !!!! I was sooo nervous aaaa!! ALSO OMG WAIT ONE OF MY FRIENDS BASICALLY WENT THROUGH THE SAME THING UR GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW!! They were friends with someone who lived super far away and eventually they ended up falling in love. They had to have a long-distance relationship for four years and it was difficult but they ended up getting married :3 I hope yours goes like that (if you'd like it to be that way, of course).
also aaaaaaaa I want my co-worker in bed like RIGHT NOW ૮꒰ ྀི >⸝⸝⸝< ྀི꒱ა I want him so bad !!! It's worse now that I know he likes me, too!!!! ALSO rest assured!!! I WILL be giving many updates !!!
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gren-arlio · 4 months ago
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So. Fia and the Mysterious School.
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So uh...Yeah, I know I'm seriously late to the party when it comes to this stuff, but I realized that this was mostly done and it was in drafts, so I might as well post it. This might just be filler for the big post, but enjoy nevertheless. ----
Madou 4 is... looking pretty cool, I'm not gonna lie. Really enjoying the art direction they're going for. And the designs of the characters? Amazing.
Like genuinely, even if it doesn't get an official English release, I'm down to watch and learn about it.
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(They're so...silly...)
Even the screenshot of the overworld is very charming to boot.
I heard a pal say "It looks like Gen 6 of Pokémon" and I could see it, but we'll have to wait and see for the true experience of this game.
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I'll make what I think of the characters a Read More thing. Imo, looking amazing.
You can read about the stuff right here.
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Fia:
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The newest silly girl on the block. Besides me thinking that Witch finally got her name chosen, I genuinely love the design they went for, since small hats are peak character designs.
Apparently she's a bit of an airhead and I'm all for it. Let her get involved into dumb stuff because she's dense and clueless and stupid. We love that in this world.
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Will:
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Tbh, besides the whole crop top thing he has, I absolutely dig the design and color choices they went for. And also excluding the fact that his name is Will in a fantasy game, I do find it curious that he has a twin brother, Roy, who's apparently a teacher.
Oh, and since this is making headlines: Apparently he's got a mix of Lagnus and Rulue in him. So he HAS to be peak.
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Leena:
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I really dig the design, I won't deny it, somehow they made almost all blue look really, really nice. The site says that she's calm and collected, but struggles with speaking to people, which I will most likely hope is just her being shy to talk to people, rather than the whole "She just sounds like a pervert," like Schezo does.
She also apparently reads a lot, if the glasses and the shy personality didn't point at her being quite the reader. So with that, she might be peak.
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Totto:
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Green mage with white hair that covers the eye? Where have I seen that before... Jokes aside, he does open his eyes compared to someone we do know, and he's pretty different. According to the site, he's someone with a lotta info...you just gotta pay the dude for it. So like Anna from Fire Emblem.
Also apparently, there's some promise he made to someone? Who knows about it for now?
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Eska:
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Now this design is pretty unique, yellow and white with pink eyes is an interesting choice of coloring they went for. I genuinely like what they went for with her, AND she's half dragon? I wonder what they're gonna go with her.
She gains interest to Fia (It google translates to Fear, so uh...yeah.) after the start of the game, and she doesn't really have common sense, which is gonna be interesting.
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Roy:
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Besides the fact that he is NOT our boy this time around, Roy is Will's twin brother who went the teacher route in life rather than the hero route. He's basically the antithesis of Will; Cool-headed and prefers to be realistic to Will's optimism.
Also, I think he visually looks better than Will, but eh, that could change in due time.
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And finally, Jurk:
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Besides his kinda bad name IMO, I like his design a lot. A guy who simply travels the world is always a fun concept in any game, and his design is honestly one of the best I've seen from the game. He's also friends with the headmaster of the school, which could be interesting.
My main concern is the person he tags along with, Mew. She's probably going to be an alright character, but I don't have super high hopes of that. Plus, her design isn't selling me at all, it just doesn't look right.
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But yeah, those are (at least for now), my honest thoughts for the game RN. Maybe when more is covered and shown off sometime. But that'll be all for today.
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youremyheaven · 5 months ago
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HEYYYY [insert whatever pet name u like] it's ur venus stellium anon from last month.. do u remember me? sorry life happened 🤩 n i've been pretty low energy so i didn't get around to bothering u. I've been looking at yt vids of some of my chart placements lately and i've discovered something funny (along with other developments like me. I've been looking at ur blog the past one or two days a little and I obvs haven't made my way through the whole "backlog" but some silly thoughts:
I didn't know u were bi! For some reason I felt a little awkward talking about this because I didn't want to be That Person lol (aka everyone was talking about guys and I didn't wanna weird anyone out 😔) but my exes were women 😂 supposedly I gave them daddy energy lmfao I hate it because I wanted that from someone. I talked about them a bit vaguely but it might've sounded worse under the assumption of it being a man. (Unless I didn't say much and just forgot)
I've been reading celebrity gossip and only now realised how people - even the most successful - can have it so truly bad when it comes to romance and idk it made me a little apathetic and allergic to it. Not in a "im swearing off of it" way but in a "im no longer going to expect it in my life. If I get surprised, yay for me. Otherwise eh." (my mind's at a weird place though so it'll probably change when other things calm down, don't worry about me 🫶 this is all about the hypothetical future anyway because I'm not looking for a relationship rn)
Sorry u got hate about ur blog. I can understand anon got upset but the unkind language was uncalled for.
I came across the ask about nodes conjuncting big 3 and one of mine does; i can assure u (and the hate anon) that yes, this particular example (me) DOES happen to be cray cray 😭
This is related to the yt vids and point 2: My charts basically say I'll have an okay enough career, but the romance department would be dodgy because I will never be satisfied by anything anyone does for me (to put it shortly) 😂😂 that had me a little shocked at first but then I was like u know what we kinda knew this.. let's just focus on that career instead LMFAO
HARD AGREE WITH U ON THE FLIRTING IN NON-ENGLISH. I gotta be honest I cringe if I hear flirting in anything other than English (I've only ever been exposed to it in that language) but I read a fic (english) once where this man called his lover "meri jaan" and it had me in a DAZE FOR DAYS (excuse the lame pun pls) SO YES I AGREE W U. I've been collecting other little terms (just 1 so far) that I've seen people around me using affectionately and they're sooo sweet.
I HOPE U'VE BEEN WELLLLLL. I'm away from tumblr lately so I probably won't be able to send u asks in the near future but I hope u stay safe and take care of urself 💖💖 BYEEEEE
HEYYY bbg 🥺
I thought this was going to be astrology related but you're just checking in on me 😭😭😭😭and I feel so touched 🥺🥺🥺
1. About being bisexual
I feel like there are definitely different dynamics at play bc I do attract more butch leaning women who want to be my daddy 🫣🙈 but whenever it's a femme x femme dynamic, I always feel like I become the more dominant one and I do kinda hate it 😭😭
It just wears me out to be the giver tbh 🙃 especially because I already assume that role in so many other areas in my life, I just want to sit back and be babygirled 😭😭 this is why despite being attracted to women , relationships with women don't really work out for me 😭😭
it's all a matter of luck when it comes to love and relationships and sometimes things find us unexpectedly.
what I've learnt from some of my recent experiences is that someone can do all the right things, give you princess treatment and all that yet not make you feel anything 😭 so to be physically attracted to someone, emotionally in- sync with them, AND have a healthy relationship,, it's all down to luck 😭
2. not u calling yourself cray cray 😭😭
majority of people in this world are not living happy lives, be it with regard to love, career or family. To even have one of these things going well is a huge blessing ✨and while it's possible to have all of them, it's okay to not beat yourself up for achieving all 3 in one go.
One of my dad's childhood friends, remained unmarried into her late 40s. This is veryyyy unusual in India and she's not from a bougie artsy family where such things are chill or anything either. She, however, had a brilliant career and is a civil servant and rn she's in a veryyy high ranking position because she's worked her way up. Everybody around her pitied her (for being single and childless) but she was just out there making $$$ by the time she hit her late 40s people stopped pestering her because by that point, it's kinda "too late" to settle down. BUT GUESS WHAT HAPPENED??? she met a reallyyyyy cute Swiss-German man who was visiting our state/city and she happened to be the one showing him around?? (someone linked them up basically) and that wonderful meet-cute led them to marriage in like 2 months lol ,,, this lady who had been single for 47+ years found the right guy and married him in less than 2 months???? Isn't that sooooo romantic??? It's all about timing 💛💛 and now they've been together for a decade and spend most of their year travelling the world ✨and are very much in love
So different eras of our life will have us focusing on different things. Rn it's probably best to make that $$$ and focus on yourself. Love will find you when it needs to 💛✨💛
3. About flirting in non-English
JAJAJSJ yess I used to cringe 😬 hearing Desi flirting across languages 😭but now I feel like I've finally decolonised my mind to find it cute 😭
My ex was Tamil and he used to call me "bomma" which means "doll" in Tamil ,, I had a flop talking stage with another Tamil guy who used to call me "Kitty kutty" ("little kitty") and idk if it's a Tamil guy thing but they go hardddd with their affection through terms of endearment
Flirting in Hindi is always fun bc it's all "aapka this, aapka that" (using honorifics) and respect turns me on i guess lmao 🤭🥵 Idk if this is just a Desi thing but yk how men start calling you madam and ma'am 😌yeah I live for that shit 🤭🤭 they'll be like "madam is still getting ready" and I'll be like 😍yes the hell I am 😍😜
4. Thank you so much for checking in with me angel 🥺🥺 I appreciate it and you soooo much 💛💛💛 you're the sweetest
I'll take care of myself 😜 😌and I hope you do as well!!! 💛💛 May the rest of July be wonderful for you ✨
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unholycarnival · 2 months ago
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🎇 || NEW PINED
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👾WANNA KNOW MORE ABOUT ME?👾:
Hello! My name's ZIP but ya can also refer to me as: Jenny/Mackintosh or Martin if you prefer a less funky name! (Boooooring LOL).
I'm a 20 y.o (xochimilca mestizo) mexican digital/traditional/mixed media artist!🎨
★ I'm part of a system, & we have other things going on I prefer to maintain somewhat privately, might mention briefly.
★ Also queer, Transmasc enby + Aroace bi! Pronouns are: He/Them (and or) It/Jokes!
★MULTIFANDOM! Main ones right now are: gravity falls, the walten files, the boys, batman and other few I cannot remember rn!.
★ I Can speak mainly Spanish, English & Náhuatl, i'm also learning Russian, japanese & latin! On the way learning more!
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⚠️CONTENT WARNINGS:
I generally don't label my content as for tws or cws (only do when it's something like flash warnings/when I deem something is actually REALLY gory/disturbing) so there's a few things to keep in mind abt my content, it could (very likely will have):
GRAPHIC VIOLENCE AND LANGUAGE:
General explicit drawn gore and foul shit.
HARDCORE BODY HORROR & HORROR:
Also includes but not limited to: physical or psychological torture, loss of control over oneself's body, deformation onto grotesque abominations, eldritch horrors, lovecraftian horrors, explicit represented murder imagery, psychological horror etc.
UNREALITY/DEPERSONALIZATION:
Since it is a very common thing I've experienced I often tend to explore it on characters I like and such, this also includes representations of delusions etc.
GENERAL DARK/HEAVY THEMES:
Death and all it's possible variants including suicide, loss, religion, abuse, general mental illness stuff (on my works or in general talks w people abt stuff) etc.
GROSS STUFF (JUST IN VERY SPECIFIC PIECES THO):
Like vomit...tbf I think it will just be vomit, the guts and blood it's already covered by the two first sections LMAO.
SPOOKY EYES AND TEETH LOL:
It should be obvious that it is included in the first two sections but I felt the need to put it in its own category. Love 2 draw em.
FLASHING &/OR EYESTRAINING IMAGERY:
Sometimes my artworks have that, although as stated on the start, I tend to tag that one. I don't want anyone 2 suffer a seizure & end in the hospital bcs of me.
SLIGHTLY SUGGESTIVE? (VEEEEERY UNLIKELY BUT EH):
It's more like some freaky subtexts in some future ideas I have. I could be through dialog or directly through insinuation if represented. Nothing explicit tho!.
And that'll be all for now in this section me thinks!.
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☠️ DON'T FUCKING INTERACT IF YOU'RE!...:
GENERAL BIGOT.
A PROSHIPER/PROFIC ANTI-ANTI, GTFO.
A MAP, ZOO OR WHATEVER OTHER HARMFUL PARAPHILIA FREAK.
BELIEVES IN CRINGE CULTURE (LOL).
T*ERF, TR*SCUM OR ANY WEIRD SHIT
Well pretty much any weird freak in the not positive sense of the word.
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kisssssessssssyj · 4 months ago
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next week i finally have my very first psychiatrist appointment. It‘s mainly so I can get my meds prescribed (I‘m living off of scraps rn it feels like) but I really feel like I have a bunch to talk about.
kinda tw//death, sa, knifes and all that shit I dont wanna have this all open 😭
We can start with the fact that I‘m still super depressed from my mom‘s death, so sad I haven‘t even processed my grandma’s death yet. I still often feel like she‘s still alive I just dont see her as much.
Then my emmetophobia definetly, this phobia forbids me from eating on some days. I have frequent panic attacks when I‘m outside trying to meet people.
adding to that, I dont have any friends. I try to meet ppl irl and I get a panic attack and just leave, that is super embarrassing. I also get bullied at school even tho I‘m a fucking adult idk how that keeps happening to me.
then i need to recover from being sa‘d multiple times, thats something I havent even told many people cuz I‘m actually kinda embarrassed of it all :// I hate that I am
I also need to recover from that year long friendship that ended cuz my friend has a disorder she cant control. I‘m so sad she left my life even tho she has been the girl that came at me with a knife once. I know her diagnosis and I know so much about her that makes me think there is so much more. I wish she was still my friend and I wish we could ever find a way to match again
I especially need to learn how to trust people, anyone nice to me I feel like is just there to backstab me, like when classmates outed me as jewish infront of my classe‘s neo nazi. I‘m always scared to post on the internet cuz I think people will know its me.
actual intrusive thoughts haunt me, not those „oh lemme throw my sandwich at him“ but holding a knife is so scary to me cuz what if I accidentally stab someone??? adding to that I have this thing that when my wrists and neck arent coverd I feel so anxious (??) I‘ve had this since elementary school, it‘s kinda the only thing i remember from my time then but, when I dont wear a watch or a turtleneck i have to cover my wrists and neck because i literally feel like I‘m about to die. (it‘s not a constant thing but definitely often)
i dont sh anymore or have any thoughts of wanting to die and that I‘m very proud of but those arent the only symptoms of any disorder. I‘ve only ever been diagnosed with adhd, (dyslexia and dyscalculia) and depression but I know there is way more, especially do I think that I have autism since my symptoms go beyond just adhd.
now on a happier note and talking about adhd, my friend thinks he has adhd aswell (no diagnosis but me with my knowledge can definitely tell) and he talks about not wanting to take meds or anything, not cuz he feels like they’re bad or anything but because he has found a work place where he can work just like that and doesnt need that help of meds, I kinda felt like sharing cuz I‘m proud of him :3 thats my goal in life, finding a job in which I can work without any sort of meds <3
this was a long ass talk that could also be put in a diary but eh I’m not buying one and notes app is reserved for actual important things (like school work and appointments) tumblr is my personal diary.
thinking about it, I should maybe buy a diary and also write in it in German so I dont loose my skills (dyslexia affects mostly German for some reason I’m pretty good at English writing)
so i talked wayyyyyy too much but idc, if you read it all which i doubt cuz no one is on my blog, lmk cuz ily🙏😔😍
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castle-dominion · 1 year ago
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castle 5x16 hunt
Part two of this plot heavy pair of episodes!
These two ppl look the same
castle chill they are also worried I RECOGNIZE HIM I WATCHED THE EPISODE IN SEASON SIX BABEY! at the MOST castle
you were THERE for her castle. you couldn't be there physically but seeing you helped her
Anwar my man!
Why zoom in like that? you should view the whole scene if u can the glitch effects lol the music noooooo were the el masris in on it or smth..?
Thats right she has TWO murders to solve, well actually the driver who killed the bodygraurd already got shot & caught but now roger henson is also killed
Especkett Kate These two are such a good pair
OH NO CASTLE HIS PASSPORT RC: I’m at the precinct with Beckett. Why? Beckett: *in the loft looking for castle*
Lol greenscreen or smth but it looks good
WHAT is with the LIGHTING rn?
KB: Look, in the state that he’s who knows what he’s capable of. But he says that he knows someone that can help. ryan narc cop
I speak french you bastards! BUT I'M FRICKING DEAF. IF HEARING FROGS CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT IS BEING SAID, THEN I WANT THAT ABILITY TOO. thank you. transcript: Merci, Colette. Et si jamais vous quittez votre petit ami – (he turns around) – Richard! Thanks collette, & if u ever quit your boyfriend ; )
The unofficial man... Yeah you don't want to get involved with this sort of person, but as a father you need to do this... Rich novelist
Two young women awaiting organ transplant? sus
THESE PEOPLE STOLE A JET???
The place where the hostage exchange took place hhhh love the angle castle don't site beside someone, they will find you weird to me how he doesn't genuflect Jaque Henri: “Vengeance is mine”, sayeth the Lord. “I will repay.” Sometimes the Lord needs a little help, huh? Castle are you not hiring him to also,, rescue (or recover) her? My man knows things, he has his sources, esp when vetting his clients JH: And then you thank God I’m not the FBI. at least THIS man genuflects oooOOOOOOOHH thre MUSIC I LOVE IT
All these wires & stuff Ah my man is blind. You know, I would have a pretty good ear if I wasn't hard of hearing & suffering from adhd's auditory processing issues. Tendu actually means held or tense, like you're tied up with ropes & can't move or you are holding your shoulders high & your body in suspension.
JH: We call him la taupe – the mole. T/M: Il est tendu, eh? JH: Pas mal, eh.
Nothing for YOU to hear. T/M: Ah, you listen with your eyes. Shh. Me: Uh yeah,,, *uses lipreading to supplement my listening* *watches my fiddle teacher's fingers* *looks around for context clues when I miss what someone said to see if I can deduce what they said* *watches mouths to see who is talking* *turns captions on for most things* *however I listen to audiobooks rather than read myself these days except for fanfic bc podfics aren't as common* Love this mole's soundboard btw I love the music over the top of this Taupe: Hear that? Us: I can hear a lot of stuff but I can't tell what you're talking about THIS MAN CAN TELL WHICH CHURCH BELLS THEY ARE? Lik e my grampa, he used to be able to tell what car smth was based on the sound of the engine Bro go to sleep TAKE OFF YOUR SHOES I love love love this, I wish wish wish my ears were better bc this is the kind of stuff I like
Good for her but my friend's daughter is missing I NEED TO CLIP THIS MOMENT WHEN SHE KICKS THE CHAIR
ryan looks at beckett almost like he's scared Ryan tech man computer
JH: Maybe. Acoustic tiles, office space, close to a rooftop. Might fit the bill. RC, standing: I’m coming. JH: No, no, no. It might not be the place. RC: I don’t care. JH: It might be the place. gives castle a long look
Reminds me of the colonoscopy camera lol How is castle not packing a gun? THIS IS THE ROOM
Castle follow Henri's lead HER HAIR HER LONG ORANGE HAIR
Why is nobody here? Oh bc they left no trace they already left (except for alexis' hair ig) lmao wallpaper like that tbh I thought it was a bullet Why is he speaking english? Also this guy has a really nice chin btw, he is very french & THE PHONE RINGS IMMEDIATELY I LOVE IT JH: Ouai? // Yeah? Phone: [?????], tout en seul, sans le pere // I can't tell, all alone, without the father
you ARE emotionally compromised... This is what you pay me for! (I think last time I watched this I thought maybe he would do exactly what he does but I was also too invested in the story I don't think I realized)
I KNOW WHO THIS IS HEHEHEH Man found his way back to the mole cave & le taupe can still hear! btw how do they split the payment from castle? Ooh today's paper, smart! A forest? Crazy
I think you can tell it is a hard drive u just need to label it with henson Ew pics of alexis creepy (What if this tech one was in on it?) But they just told henri that it was the wrong place wrong time
Woah lots of money scary forest oh dear
I feel like you SHOULD answer except don't want the ransom guys to see u on the phone
Does his phone plan still work in paris???
Safety was off already? bc my man just cocked the gun
Il est voici, comme nous convenu I value my life more than my word Valid Who are these people? Not egyptian radicals?
Attendez! Mon paiement?
Henri un-double-crossed him? Or not. Beckett then?
American accent At least castle went for his gun Yeah castle I don't trust this guy *Shoots his phone* How do I know you're the good guy? Altho ig yeah you ARE still alive Sus man: Given how you’re feeling so bad about your $200 buck phone you might want to pick up that 3 million dollar briefcase. With those gloves I'd be scared of leaving fingerprints RC: Sounds made-up Jackson Hunt: it is
Why do they have lights on her like that? Alexis took french class
WHY DOES HE HAVE ALL THESE PHOTOS MAYBE THIS IS THE GUY WHO NABBED HER IN THE FIRST PLACE-- LIKE THE PHOTOS ON THE HENSON DRIVE HOW & WHEN DID YOU GET A FRICKING COPY OF THE PHONE?
What is this guy's accent?
So dramatic I loooove it OH THIS IS HOW THE RUSSIAN JET WAS INVOLVED Volkov: It’s you. After all these years, it’s finally you. & who ARE you?
THIS IS CASTLE'S DAD? I can see the resemblance but he could be lying that is SO castle. it could totally be him appealing to castle's romantic side, the story
All these years? That's sad but valid WOAH THAT IS ACTUALLY SO SWEET HHHH that book & james bonde SOPHIA WAS RIGHT, HE DID GREASE WHEEL IN THE CIA
Oof, poor anna. that's why they chose paris Ah that makes sense
direct assault with only two of you? (Also, u want to call beckett?) all these sexy blueprints play spy shfdkjhj
Ooh undergrounds third one FROM the bottom or...? Ok castle now run
say "je suis un electricien, pour-quoi vous avez les pistolets?"
Yes they get to see each other!!! He came to get her! All the way in paris! This is the bestest episode everest! Volkov: When a man doubles his wealth, why should he give half of it away? it's ok, castle says, he KNOWS it is ok Dad's dad: Because you’ll be dead.
wdym "don't let them"? Castle just threw the guy with the gun to the ground they RAN all the way to the us embassy? Cover story? sus Probs best to keep away from contact with him after this castle, to prevent this situation again "son" hhh always sdkjfkldjf
You two SHOULD talk, for like trauma purposes Welcome home sign!
I could clip the escape if u want
CASINO ROYALE HE MADE IT OUT
are you ALLOWED to tell her?
jasdkfhasdjlfhjasdfk this was super good but also now we know castle's dad is not the inventor of whipped cream
this was a great pair of episodes. Super intense. & I spent the full hour & a half on it too
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sqeeebus · 8 months ago
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When did I last cry? - almost cried at the con tonight because it felt unfair that I didn’t even get to do the things I came there in the first place to do such as go into the room and hear the panel (had to sit outside) or see Mads and Hugh (too much money for photo ops) — last time I actually cried? I don’t remember… maybe at one of those dead pet stories on tiktok
Do I have kids? - hell no.
Do I use sarcasm a lot? - I usually do it with a laugh at the end so I don’t feel like a dick, but with closer friends I use it straightforward
Any sports? - nope. I suck at them because ✨social anxiety✨so we don’t do any of that. I tried my hand at gymnastics for a bit but, eh, you know.
First thing I notice about people? - like my moot said above, I clock how gay/ally they seem so I don’t get hate crimed if I be myself. I also tend to look at their hair for whatever reason, I can usually tell a person I’ve met only a few times by hair, even the back of it. I don’t make a lot of eye contact so that’s not really an identifying feature for me, or the rest of the face— I’d probably fail at describing someone for a police sketch, but you best bet I could nail that haircut.
Eye color? - I want to say hazel, but it’s more of a brown with dark green central heterochromia (because they don’t really ever look green in diff lighting, just different shades of brown) and a black outline— I like to call them muddy pond water green 💀
Scary movies or happy endings? - I really have a thing for scary movies… preferably the ending is happy or at least tragically happy, but I’d take a sad scary movie ending over a cheesy happy ending any day
Special talents? - uhh I have a weird talent? I can like flex the side of the palm of my hand under my pinky without moving my fingers or anything— haven’t seen anyone else able to do it yet without flexing their fingers too. I guess I’m good at art? I mean I got into art school
Where were you born? - Texas 💔 but I feel as though it isn’t really my birth place because I hardly lived there, and I don’t remember anything from that time
Hobbies? - writing, art, reading (most of the subjects of all of these are horror LMAO), roleplay, D&D, watching videos (usually horror games and ghost investigations… but sometimes other things!! Like funny videos and cool story games!), if I could I would be gaming myself, being obsessed with Hannibal and gay shit and also prehistoric creatures
Pets? - an adorable little gray kitty 🫶 she’s very noisy and she loves mouse toys and string and nothing else
How tall? - …5’1” — listen, I’m a short king.
Favorite subject? - uhh… I suppose in highschool it was English class or art class, but I’m pretty interested in psychology rn as well
Dream job? - acting, honestly. Social anxiety just keeps me from a lot of things.
Tagging: anyone 🫶
When did you last cry? yesterday, I reread a sad fanfic and it ruined me once again
Do you have kids? no but I aspire to being the cool lesbian aunt (my family may be a teeny bit 'phobic)
Do you use sarcasm a lot? noooooo I wouldn never
What sports do you play? I Do Not (unless walking around town counts)
What's the first thing you notice about people? usually their height, unless I get gender envy from them in which case that
What's your eye color? gray with golden flecks, looks blue sometimes green sometimes gray sometimes
Scary movies or happy endings? happy endings!! except I also love good angst, so
Special talents? procrastinating on all my work and then finishing it in 0.003546 minutes right at the end (I'm doing it right now!)
Where were you born? USA (appalachia), I love and hate it here
What are your hobbies? video games, cooking (sometimes), game dev, 3d art, being unhinged on twt about tragic cannibal lesbians
Do you have pets? no
How tall are you? way too (6ft + a couple in)
Favorite subject in school? I was "a joy to teach" in most of my math classes
Dream job? I dream of not having a job! but if given unlimited free time I would make 3d art & video games & shitposts & maybe the odd short film. basically I must create things
uhhhhh @painterlad71 @shaka6331 @torkmatic if you wanna
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seddenostalgia · 2 years ago
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Tag Game To Better Know You! Send this to people you'd like to know better!
Tagged by @gustingirl @safodebuenosaires thanks guys 💕
I'm being highly requested to share stuff about myself (2 people is high for me okay?) so I'm doing it enjoy :)
what book are you currently reading?
The left hand of the darkness by Ursula K. Le Guin. Sci-Fi written by women? Yes, please!
what do you usually wear?
Wide-leg pants, lots of tops and sneakers. When it's cold I just put a long sleeves top underneath. Oh and love scarves and beanies
how tall are you?
169cm like Leo Messi
what’s your star sign? do you share a birthday with a celebrity or historical event? 
Gemini. The Twins baby! Eh No that im aware of...
do you go by your name or a nickname?
Both. It depends on the context
did you grow up to become what you wanted to be as a child?  
I wanted to be a rock star *cringe* i barely know how to play the piano so no, i did not.
Are you in a relationship? If not, who is your crush if you have one?
There are only world champions in my heart rn (Messi and Kaori)
what’s something you’re good at vs something you’re bad at?
I'm good at improvising, i find solutions to unexpected problems fast but I'm bad at being organized. planning, remembering etc
Dogs or cats?
Dogs. Cats hate me :(
if you draw/write, or create in any way, what's your favorite picture/favorite line/favorite etc. from something you created this year? 
I don't write (funny for someone whose first career choice was Letras) But I do draw. If I had to pick one I'll say a digital drawing i made of dead end: paranormal park. voice actors of the show liked it even pretty cool :)
what’s something you’re currently obsessed with?
⭐⭐⭐ do I have to say more?
what’s a hidden talent of yours? 
Uhm my english skills? Not that I'm talented or anything, I suck at grammar but I don't speak much irl so I believe people could be surprised that i can speak in another language
what's something you wish to have at this moment?
money. lots of money to buy ridiculously expensive Christmas gifts to my loveones
Tagging mostly people I've followed during wc madness bc i don't really know what they are into besides football lol @gabimedialuna @dickggansey @fourtimesleo @mearpsdyke @thesoftdetective @yungmoroccanx @procrastinating-falcon @kang-yina feel free to ignore ofc
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sk3tch404 · 2 years ago
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I didn't even know naib is south Asian🥲
Oh I know them.
Yeah Naib is from Napal, and I do agree that he should be darker. Though, trust me, there are a lot of pale asians, including south east asians. I don't think there should be been a 'white washing problem' with your post.
Bro how can you white wash a character when they're already that skintone? 💀 it's not like you went out of your way to make him even paler because you think paler skin is better or smth.
It's pretty common knowledge that Naib is a pale character despite being from Nepal (I hate Netease for this every single day of my life) but I don't think that person should have came at you like that? Especially because skin color does not equal race/ethnicity (not saying that people can claim to be a race/ethnicity when they're really not)
Yes there are varying degrees of skin color people give Naib, and there is no denying that the character design team fucked up. Though I can't speak for Southern Asian people, I can tell you that some of my fellow brother and sisters are fucking GHOSTS (Not european looking because um yeah...) My sister of course has melanin, but she is more pale than most.
I was real PALE in quarantine. I was born very toned because I have most of my father's body genes. I did still have tan and yellow undertones, but I changed a considerable amount.
Especially when I moved and winter rolled around, I started to look even more different. Then the warmer south temperatures came around and I was tanned again. (Though not too much because I did a lot of physical labor inside) After I quit that, I started to do online school and went back to being paler.
This is my hand rn (I tried to keep it in the shadows so the white light wouldn't interfere much)
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Don't say anything abt my nails, I HAVE MAD ANXIETY.
I was way tanner than this. Let me tell you, when I was younger, I always said I was the tannest kid out of all of my family members after leaving the beach. Nowadays I'm more of a in between looking type of gal.
You're very obviously not a native English speaker (/gen /nm) and I'm sure where you live, colorism is incredibly rampant. I understand that you may be uneducated and dissimive of these sort of things because you grew up around these kind of ideals.
I can totally help you understand and educate you on colorism and the issues of IDV. There's always room to grow and be better, especially with these types of things.
I may not know you personally, but I know you're not the type of person to purposefully act with bad intent. I trust that you are a good person and genuinely want to learn about the difficulties of representation in media to better yourself.
You also have no issue with drawing my skin tone, soooooo I don't see why you would try to 'white wash him' when you're alright the one I had at the time.
I personally prefer when people do give Naib more realistic representation, but I don't really mind it when people draw him pale? Idk I guess I'm just used to seeing him pale. From now on, it would definitely be nice and more realistic if you started drawing Naib with tanner skin due to his lore and cultural background. (Not saying that there ZERO PALE NAPALI PEOPLE)
Eh I don't really rock with that person anymore anyways. No shade, just saying we ain't buddy buddy.
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lordacex · 3 years ago
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The greedy demon and a Chihuahua
Part 1
Character mammon // Luke // Simeon (was mention) bad English warning 👌👌👌
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"I HATE YOU SIMEON I DONT WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE ANYMORE"
Is Just another day in Devildom except is school Holliday a day where everyone is free except for some demon and Who know the first thing we have to see is Luke saying he hate Simeon So much he run away without looking back... Simeon was too stun too move or say something so he end up letting Luke run away just like that
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"s-stupid Simeon" Luke crying. Is been half a year since they arrive at the Devildom yet Luke still hate this place and now he have a fight with the person who always by his side plus he sitting under a bridge and he forgot his DDD at home... This day was the worse day for him and he don't know what to do.
The little angel just sit there and sobbing he hate it he hate this place he hate demon he hate everyone he hate himself for being such an idiot rn... He hope someone could just come and help him but who would want to help...
Suddenly he hear a sound of someone walking toward him..He really hoping it not Simeon cause he don't know how to face him after saying he don't want to look at him again...but he also wish is not a random demon he don't want anything bad to happen..
"Oh? I Know I hear something form under this bridge....Hoi Chihuahua what are ya doing here???"
Mammon? Eeeh Is mammon- Luke look at him with unhappy face and look away..
"Oi Chihuahua don't just look at ppl like that should be happy I found ya it could have been some random scary demon yknow"
"Go away I want to be alone "[Luke]
Mammon obviously won't just walk away like that he not gonna leave Luke like this So he decided he sit down next to Luke just until this idiot go back to a save place
"I told you to go away not to sit here" [Luke]
"Yea yea ik But I can't just leave ya here if something happens I don't want to be responsible.......Soooo what with the long face? Did ya have a fight with simeon?" [mams]
".....maybe.." [mams]
"ahhh I see Ya should just go home then don't need to be shy...simeon would totally forgive ya Is normal for siblings to fight anyway" [mams]
"....me and Simeon is not siblings And he won't forgive I literally yell at his face and just walk away" [Luke]
"Eh?! Really I thought ya guys was siblings since you two always together and you cling to him a lot and....c'mon ya just yell not kill him or something I did that once and stuff when good" [mams]
"Yea I cling to him because this place is making me uncomfortable and all the demon in here is not trustable...I'm sure Simeon think I'm annoying everyone say that about me..." Luke hug his knee tighter he really want to cry but he don't want mams to make fun of him so he hold it....but then he feel a hand on his head..
"Yea sure ya a bit annoying sometime..but ya are also kinda fun to have around yknow?" He pat Luke head and give him a smile trying his best to comfort the sad angel
"fun to have around...? How?? ppl literally call me a Chihuahua! since I'm loud! and always barking! I always cling to ppl I don't know my place and I keep thinking that I'm cool even though I'm just a weak angel that can't do much!!" Luke let his anger out and he look away sobbing He didn't believe he just say that-
"..." Mams Pat his back and look at him for a bit and then he look at the Black River infront of them. He take a deep breath...
"Ya shouldnt have take what other say too much...Yea sure everyone call ya weak or annoying or other stuff but deep inside yknow that ya are more than that and that good... ya should be more proud of yourself I mean to think ya can handle all that and look ya have great cooking skills and ya are pretty smart for a kid...I think ya are kinda cool so stop being sad aight?"
Luke wipe his tear and turn to look at Mams face..with a kinda bright face "you really think I'm....cool?"
"mmhm that right " [mams]
"And you think I'm kinda strong too...?" [Luke]
"Yea ya are kinda strong for a kid " [Mams]
"....." Luke look away. For no reason he feel happy hearing that word even though it come form Mammon
"ya welcome... anyway....are ya planning to go back now?" [Mams]
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Ah right he finally remember why he here in the first place....Luke shake his head. Nope he can't even after what Mams say he still to embarrass to go back.
"hmmmm... Then why don't ya come with me?" [Mams]
"huh?..To where?" [Luke]
"y'know when we arrive " Mams get up form his place and walk away slowly
Luke look at Mams and think if he should go or not...He don't want to go back to Simeon.. and he don't want to stay under this bridge...He get up and finally Chase mammon even though he don't know where they about to go.
Mams just pat his head and walk him to his car...
To be continue..
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Aight part 1 end
Yea I love big brother mammon AAAAAA- ok bai baii
Part 2 soon ehehheheheheeh
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lettersformiah · 2 years ago
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9:37am, 7 jul
hey bubs. only two days of placement! lets go. in my head its friday but its not and im so sad about it. i was late again hehehe i always am though bc i have no sense of urgency bc its fucking school. only late by like a halfa (or technically an hour if you count acg) but yeah i woke up and was like non and then woke up at like 8:15? but yeah. got the 9:25 bus and the worker people who do the stop and go signs had to stop them so i could cross the road hehehe. they were very very nice. the construction, i learnt, is on a power line. dont know what happened there but hopefully it gets fixed soon. had glimpse of us stuck in ym head this morning so ive just been listening to it on repeat. i keep having to sign in at the office so mrs copley doesnt come for me about being truant hehe but how many times can i go there in a week and press the silly buttons about missing my bus or family or sleeping in. its literally a game to me to just fucking press whatever button i see first. getting out of french next period! or at least half of it because im gonna hang out with hannah. none of my friends know im here but theyve also stopped texting me asking where i am so im glad they are just like eh she will get here when she gets here. i dont know what to say to hannah. what do i talk about. i feel like i cant be as open with her as id liek and i know thats so detrimental but like,, ive never been good at being 100% honest with my counselors and stuff so! idk. maybe i just talk about internals and your parents and you obvs and then?? idk job stuff and my dad? and my sister. i dont know i guess i have a lot to say just as an update to my life. also! sorry for falling asleep last night bubba, i know you werent home and its a bit of a mb. its very very sweet of you to stay on call though bubba. makes me so happy :*] even tho rn joji is making me so sad bro like. :'[ oh! geo is actually due first week term 2 ^^ im happy about that bc then i can do it while i wait around for u to be done with uni. but yeah! the reliever :l told me that she wants as much as she can get from us tomorrow but to have all of it done over the holidays. which is nice for me bc then i can do the excellence stuff and get everything done. im so glad. i love mrs haggart sm hehehe shes a banging teacher fr and i hope i get her next year. bio will um be something. maybe he will say just to get it done by tomorrow which i can do all of it tn. and i can write my english! im so fucking happy with it. like smh and my writing isnt amazing by any means, but i found a nice system and sparknotes is like helping me so much so i owe my grade to them for deadass just giving me quotes and themes. i love the internet bro. imagine if i had to do it all from my own fucking brain. id be so pressed. but yeah! i dont know what the last two texts are gonna be but ill just search around sparknotes for some stuff and just randomly search novels ive read in my life. maybe i will actually do the maze runner, surely its on there yk? my nose is all sniffly bubba >:( the outside is pretty chilly and geo is warm as. the temperature difference being a bitch to my poor poor nose. so dog hehe but yeah! idk bubba. i love you! geo will be over in a second so this was just a teeny update on my morning and all that. i love you sm and thank u for everything. mwahmwhamwahwmah
talk soon
-mads<3
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youareunbearable · 4 years ago
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Catch me not having a clue who any of these gods(?) and people are, but still sitting here like, "I ship that pretty one with the gruff one, and that brown haired one with the other(?) gruff one?" without knowing names or what this is except the fanart I see you reblog, because this fandom apparently has lots of nice art
Fam i have no idea what ur talking about or when u sent this im so sorry asfkjhfkjhf but i thiiiinnnkkkk??????? it’s “Heavens Official Blessing” or  Tiān Guān Cì Fú (TGCF for tagging stuff) its originally a chinese gay novel that is soooooooo long by the author  Mo Xiang Tong Xiu (MXTX) who wrote 2 (two?????) other novels that I know of that are also gay historical fantasy but i personally havent actually read TGCF???? im just watching the anime and looking at the wiki and reading fanfics so i have a vague idea whats going on but not really???? so i cant really give a good review BUT i LOVE THE CHARACTERS MXTX WRITES SO MUCH AFHAFKFHKFAKF IM SO SORRY IM SHIT WITH TAGGING SO U HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IM HYPER FIXATING ON BUT
LISTEN
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Pretty one and the gruff one im THINKING is He Xuan (or Ming Yi/ Ming-Xiong/Ming Bro) for the grumpy one and Shi Qingxuan for the pretty one and both are kinda gender fluid?? (more Shi Qingxuan but they both change their forms to be both women and men which is Iconic and the anime put her in the TRANS FLAG COLOUR instead of her canon white and green which is ICONIC) AND THHEYRE SO TRAGIC AND HOT AND I CRY JUST THINKING ABOUT THEIR STORY LIKE AFHDFKJAFDSGS like i want to kinda read the book just for them, the two super minor characters, but i also read somewhere that their story doesn’t really have a clean ending so im also holding back from just getting Emotionally Hurt because im a cancer and i know it’ll wreck me
I think The Two Gruff Idiots are Feng Xin (dark haired gruff boy) and Mu Qing (brown haired gruff boy) and theyre both martial gods and both knew each other for over 800 years and both tried to take care of Actual Human And Heavenly Disaster Xie Lian, failed, and tried to do it again 800 years later but with stupid glasses with moustaches in hopes that Xie Lian cant figure out that they care about him but OOPS Xie Lian does in fact have the braincell of the three of them fajfafjajf 
Heres the link to watch the anime, there are 11 eps rn but it updates every weekend (I dont actually know when but i watch it on sundays) Make sure u have ur ad block on tho lol there is a manga too and the art style is TO DIE FOR like its GORGEOUS but its roughly at the same pace as the anime so eh
Heres where to read the whole thing online, just a warning its BIG AS FUCK like 244? plus extras I think?? 
I’d also recommend MXTX’s other books!
Mo Dao Zu Shi (or Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation/ The Untamed/MDZS) is both a Book as well as an Anime (the whole thing is on youtube) , a Live Action which you can watch on Netflix (look up Untamed, also a warning, the plot is a little different from the book and anime cause of uhhh censorship?? also i guess to make it more live drama friendly, my friends an i binged it and really liked it, but some of the fandom doesn’t), a manga which is not finished I think???? idk im not caught up, and a fucking chinese AUDIO DRAMA LIKE BITCH ITS SO WELL DONE but i have to stop listening sometimes cause like there is a difference between watching/reading characters kiss, and then like just hearing them, i get so embarrassed i have to skip the kissing scenes and god forbid i accidentally click on the smutty extras alfjajlfjalfjaljf u can find it on youtube, i linked the one i listen to but i havent finished it and i don’t think it’s all of it, but you can find other episodes/chapters easily
Its about 1 Dumb Yet So Smart gay/bi man (Wei Wuxian) who honestly tries his fucking best, fucks up everything, dies for over a decade, and then is forcefully brought back to life to solve a murder mystery with the guy who has been in Super Gay Love with him since they were teens (Lan Zhan), a bunch of teens Who Are Just Honestly Here For A Good Time And Yet (Lan Juniors, Jin Ling, and Best Boy Ouyang Zizhen ) while badly hiding his real identity from all the people he knows, including his foster brother (Jiang Cheng) who is out for blood and hunting his ass down with a whip and also Lan Zhan who is travelling with him. Also the Killer. There is a killer on the loose and is willing to murder whoever to keep their secrets. Also Nie Huaisang. I adore him and his brother Nie Mingjue, if there is one bitch u gotta remember from this summary it’s this little twink (he and his brother also have a fucking spin off movie from the live action drama THAT I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO FIND A ENGLISH SUB VERSION AND ITS BEEN KILLING ME SINCE I STARTED WATCHING THIS SHOW LAST YEAR. GOOGLE GIVE ME MY FAVOURITE TWINK AND HIS BEAR OF A BROTHER HAVING A FUN FAMILY ROAD TRIP!!!!!!!)
My Personal Current Favourite is Scum Villain’s Self Saving System (SVSSS) which is SOOOOOOO FUNNY Like it’s not as popular cause the comic was discontinued, and the anime looks like its from 2005 with the weird 3D animation but its my current comfort media!!! 
Its basically about a spite reading millennial (Shen Yuan) who died after reading a REALLY awful popular cheesy smut harem novel (think like 50 shade series but worse cause the protag had 600 wives) and was forced into the body of a minor but important villain (the protagonist’s teacher, Shen Qingqiu) from the novel who was fated to die with all his limbs cut off and his eyes and tongue plucked out and is told he has to fix the story so its not trash, he reasonably freaks the fuck out and hugs the protagonists (Luo Binghe) thigh so hard he turns him gay without realizing. Sadly, he does have to make sure certain plot points happen, which fucks him over a lot,  and he thinks Luo Binghe still wants to kill him instead of love him cause he has the Emotional Intelligence of a Rock, but its so funny reading about him handling all the awful tropey stuff, like imagine u have to be a character in My Immortal But With Porn?????? without breaking out of character too much?? I wouldn’t be able to handle it ajhakfkfhjfj He also finds out that he’s not the only transmigrator in the novel either, but it doesn’t matter cause theyre both So Fucking Stupid Collectively but everyone would honestly die for the both of them
warning for this story though, the main relationship is a teacher/student relationship, but nothing happens until the student is in his 20s and also kinda not his student anymore cause he’s running hell??? but if that squicks u out i totally understand and offer you to PLEASE still enjoy some of this media, and instead of the BingQiu ship, I offer you the LiuQiu one, where both me and the main character cry over how a beautiful man/fellow immortal lord loves the main character so much that he literally fought every day for 5 years to be by his side and I Think Thats Beautiful and I kinda like this ship more than the main one tbh PLEASE just look at the art for Liu Qingge because i love him so much, he’s like if you took Lan Zhan and Jiang Cheng from MDZS and mashed them into one beautiful man the author is trying to tell me is straight but u take one look at him And Tell Me Otherwise
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