#and my brother who’s like the only ray of light in this dysfunctional home lmao
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long rant ahead 🙃
#with graduation and mass call and everything there’s a sudden deluge of pictures and dedications to families on my feed#and im genuinely happy for them but sometimes i look at my own family and i feel nothing but utter disappointment lmao#i think i feel very uncomfortable talking about family bcs ive literally been gaslighted so many times#either by my own family (who always say that I shouldn’t be ruining their reputation or hanging out dirty linen in public)#or by my friends who im not friends with anymore for good reason (who used to say that i shouldn’t lie about or exaggerate the situation at#home or worse things but not the point)#anyway it’s just that objectively speaking i find it very hard to find anything to be thankful to them for lol#most of the support i got during this very arduous journey was from my bf and friends#and my brother who’s like the only ray of light in this dysfunctional home lmao#a relative of mine once told me that she had the money to spare for me to get a laptop but she didn’t want to give it to me cause#she didn’t want me to become spoiled ☺️#so i waddled around first year of college with a laptop on its last legs and a keyboard that wasn’t even working lmao#and whenever an opportunity arose for me to do smt or go overseas it was always uh if u want it then get it on ur own#which for the record I did. I just think it could’ve saved me a lot of anxiety#if I knew that there was someone to help me along the way#bcs there were so many nights I spent crying feeling like#if i wasn’t good enough then I wouldn’t get scholarships and stuff then I wouldn’t be able to do the things I wanted#anyway to be fair my mom at least stayed w this family when my dad woke up one fine day and decided to leave our home and lives without#a word or a single contact#but again it’s the lack of support for all my endeavours and the constant you can’t do it that rly frustrates me#like. my mom couldn’t even believe that im now a lawyer lmao and she was like ?? r u sure ur not just a paralegal or secretary#r u sure u managed to pass the bar etc etc and im just so sick of hearing all this#for the sake of my own sanity i need to move out stat#but here’s the deal. my mom was like if ur moving out then u gotta buy me a studio w ur siblings. else im moving in w u#anyway sorry for the long rant haha i have concluded that i shld probably go see a therapist if my firm is paying for it 🙂#otherwise it’ll just add on to all my financial problems and student debts LOL#also as much as i feel very bitter about my family sometimes#im truly beyond grateful for my brother and my friends#who stuck by me even when i was frankly a liability so :’) there are silver linings
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