#and maybe if you don't actually know what it is you shouldn't be using it? just a thought

[dmitriene]

John price with reader who can't cum from penetration alone but John is convinced he can fix that, refusing you give you any stimulation other than that and he actually succeeds. Please😭

very unsure about this writing, but i hope you would enjoy!

cw: overstimulation.

john price is one of the most determined men existing around, both in the field and personal life, a character trait acquired in connection with his service, and then work in the army, an admirable captain that doesn't knows how it is — to abandon the goal that he had long noticed for himself, so when you decide to talk with him about your tiny problem, which shouldn't be an issue at all, he reassures you that he got everything handled, but not in the proper way expected.

you see, cocky of him or not, but john is sure in his own knowledge of sexual performance, and with you stuttering about needing some extra attention during sex, fiddle with your cute, pebbled clit, tease your tits and circle your nipples with his tongue, find a position that would make his fat, engorged cock ram rapidly in that overly sensitive spot hidden between your fluttering walls, but what john really wants to explore, is whether he would be able to make you cum without it all.

maybe it's rude, maybe it's unacceptable, really toxic of him, but surely you can forgive him a little excitement, he wouldn't torture you, the second you'll whimper you can't take it — john would stop, or at least, that's what he convinced you, scorching breath scorching your ear as he promised in a whisper, his graying beard rasping against your already overstimulated skin, warming up as he teases you with rough, calloused gropes and nuzzling face, until you would succumb.

that's how john gets you on his lap, his pants and boxers pooling at the ankles, you're completely naked, gorgeously so, tits in his face so he could lavish on them, giving kisses and little bites, and your cunt swallowing his cock slowly, too big to take in one go, always a burning stretch, so you sink slowly, letting your slick dribble down and wet the slide, until he breaches inside, sheathing fully, your hole stretched taut, making you hiccup in pleasure, clawing at his shirt, already impatient.

he won't tease you even with a thumb, only his cock and gentle ramming inside and out of your clenching, pulsing cunt, pace quickening when you start to wriggle, moans turning into mewling sobs, heat curling deep on the billows of your gut, but not enough, a mild satisfaction, but not the limb numbing, scorching hot you need to be able to cum, so you roll your hips faster, plump ass slapping against his hairy, muscular thighs, but john's blue eyes only twinkle at you with mirth, and you don't understand, pleading for his help.

— “make me cum, john, i — i told you, make me.. help, please” through whiny, high pitched sounds, a true honey coating his ears, and he smirks, one corner of his lip quirking up, bringing a movement to his mutton chops, as he gets a proper hold of your hips, blunt nails sinking in the fat, getting a grip, starting to pound into you, hard and thorough, harsh, chopped movements, sending all your nerves singing, alight, you just need a final flick, so your hand sweeps down the stomach towards awaiting clit, and there, john slaps your touch away.

gasping, as if physically wounded, you glare at him with fluttering, doe wide eyes, and the furrow his face wears makes you swallow and whine, unable to form a normal question, but he knows what twists your tongue, and tuts at you, clicking his tongue with a gravelly voiced refusal — “you'll cum from my cock, and nothing else, for now, okay darling?”, and how can you disobey, when your pleasure is in his hands, as john's wide palms wrap around your wrists, holding, and starting to use it as a leverage to pummel your gushing hole.

you won't leave your position on his cock, bouncing on his lap, until you cum, and solely from the sheer weight and feeling of his huge cock teasing your insides, gummy walls tightening, fluttering, spasming, but never enough, not near there, pooling somewhere distant, making you desperate, jumpy, licking against his mouth and pleading under your breath again and again, though john doesn't moves a single finger.

until you're too overstimulated, thighs burning, cunt aching, clit almost numb, desperate for even a little pinch, and suddenly, your tummy feels too heavy, as if something pushes down, heavy and not going anywhere, just staying and crushing, as if a bloating sensation, your movements stuttering, john's thrusts followed by loud squelching just from how slick everything is, as you jerk, overwhelmed, realizing through dimly haze that there's a hard gush, limbs loosening and twitching, cunt clamping.

your head falls against john's shoulder, his chest vibrating with a growl, as he moves one hand from your hip towards the small of your shuddering back, pressing you against himself tighter, as you sag down, his cock down into you to the balls, twitching and spurting warm, vicious ropes that mix with a rush of your own cum, wrenched out of you, as you hiccup and nuzzle in the crook of his neck, gasping his name breathlessly, barely understanding what happened, but judging by the endless stream of rumbling praises, john got what he wanted, and you too.

main masterlist. quidelines.

[jeanjauthor]

You can even have overlapping as well as not-overlapping customs. let's take some of the differences & similarities between Chinese and American culture & customs:

Chinese culture involves bringing gifts when you visit, reciprocating gifts when given, and what they consider "being polite" is refusing those gifts initially, requiring giver and recipient to go through a back-and-forth performance of courteously insisting, refusing, insisting, and finally accepting. This may take 2 or more rounds, usually at least 3 tries.

Note that American culture is much more casual about this, and that it's more polite to accept the gift immediately...but it isn't as big a thing culturally. Of course, there IS still an expectation of "bringing a little something for the hostess" when adults are formally invited to a dinner party (often, people bring wine for the meal, especially if they know what the main dish is). Americans will also occasionally do the "Oh, you shouldn't have," or even an "I can't accept this," but the gift is usually accepted once the gift-giver gives a second assertion that the gift is indeed meant for the recipient. It's much shorter than Chinese culture would require.

The big thing in American gift-giving/receiving culture is acknowledging the gift with a "thank you" of some sort--formally, it's done in writing, but usually It's mentioned in person at the time the gift is given. (And in Aerican gift-giving culture, a high compliment is mentioning much later on that the recipient is still enjoying the giver's gift.) Gratitude is expressed as a part of the cultural expectations in both cultures, but the customs of each culture puts a different emphasis and a different delivery on the whole gifting process.

Additionally, when finally accepting in Chinese culture, the recipient will often say "Then I won't be polite," as they accept the gift being given. In this context, it is polite to say you're going to "stop being polite" because it means you're ending the back-and-forth; the customs of the culture have been satisfied and don't have to be dragged out to comical and/or tedious levels. However, in American culture this would be considered rude to say. To Americans, it's not about the back-and-forth; a statement like "then I won't be polite anymore" is instead considered to be an aggressive statement because the culture is much more straightforward: if you're going to stop being polite in American terms, it literally means you're going to start being blunt and/or outright rude.

Another point of different yet vaguely similar cultural customs is that American culture involves shaking hands when first meeting new people. To not shake hands with someone is seen is very distancing and not so friendly, because in American culture, the handshake is considered a very important part of the "I am not going to attack you" mindset. It's a case of "I am showing you that I am able to grip your hand with an appropriate level of firmness, without crushing your hands or acting like you're the least likely thing in the world I'd want to touch (outside of maybe an actual manure pile)."

This culture of handshaking does happen most frequently in business settings, but it also happens just in casual introductions. You meet someone, you exchange your names, you might mention the context of why you're in this setting, "Hi, I'm Marge McDonnelly, I'm with the Accounting Department," and then you shake hands and you're now acquainted at least slightly. There might also be a head nod, if the situation is one wherein hands cannot be clasped: someone has dirty hands, or is obviously busy doing work that requires the hands to be used, one of the people involved has arthritis or some other condition where shaking hands is very painful, etc...or it's a very casual setting, or they're far enough away physically that moving over to shake hands would be inconvenient in that moment.

In Chinese culture, handshaking isn't done nearly as often. It is, of course, often done in a modern business setting, and is usually done most frequently with non-Chinese business partners (or people you're trying to remain on good potential business terms with). But it's much more common for Chinese culture to give some sort of bow, which is usually at least a little bit of a head-nod (which American culture shares), plus a little bit more of an upper body movement. Modernly, this can be a simple as a head-nod and dip of the upper body, but is not necessarily a full, formal, 90 degree angle with hands and arms positioned just so, etc, etc...unless you're in a truly formal setting. If that's the case, however, even an American would bow (or curtsy if it's a woman wearing a dress).

But still, while these two cultures do have their differences, they still have some form of similar gift-giving interaction of not wanting to seem too greedy, a time when it's appropriate to clasp/shake hands, or give a simple head-nod greeting, and some sort of much more involved upper body bow for very formal occasions.

Both cultures do have similarities, but they each emphasize things to different degrees. As a result, nobody would ever mistake Chinese culture for American culture or vice versa, even if it's just based on these few things. And best of all, they're things that can be easily worked into a story without having to over-elaborate on any of it or explain it exhaustively.

🍖 How to Build a Culture Without Just Inventing Spices and Necklaces

(a worldbuilding roast. with love.)

So. You’re building a fantasy world, and you’ve just invented: → Three types of ceremonial jewelry → A spice that tastes like cinnamon if it were bitter and cursed → A holiday where everyone wears gold and screams at dawn

Cute. But that’s not culture. That’s aesthetics.

And if your worldbuilding is all outfits, dances, and spice blends with vaguely mystical names, your story’s probably going to feel like a cosplay convention held inside a Pinterest board.

Here’s how to fix that—aka: how to build a real, functioning culture that shapes your story, not just its vibes.

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🔗 Culture Is Built on Power, Not Just Style

Ask yourself: → Who’s in charge, and why? → Who has land? Who doesn’t? → What’s considered taboo, sacred, or punishable by death?

Culture is shaped by who gets to make the rules and who gets crushed by them. That’s where things like religion, family structure, class divisions, gender roles, and social expectations actually come from.

Start there. Not at the embroidery.

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2.🪓 Culture Comes From Conflict

Did this society evolve peacefully? Was it colonized? Did it colonize? Was it rebuilt after a war? Is it still in one?

→ What was destroyed and mythologized? → What do the survivors still whisper about? → What do children get taught in school that’s… suspiciously sanitized?

No culture is neutral. Every tradition has a history, and that history should taste like blood, loss, or propaganda.

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3.🧠 Belief Systems > Customs Lists

Sure, rituals and holidays are cool. But what do people believe about: → Death? → Love? → Time? → The natural world? → Justice?

Example: A society that believes time is cyclical vs. one that sees time as linear will approach everything—from prison sentences to grief—completely differently.

You don’t need to invent 80 gods. You need to know what those gods mean to the people who pray to them.

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4.🫀 Culture Controls Behavior (Quietly)

Culture shows up in: → What people apologize for → What insults cut deepest → What people are embarrassed about → What’s praised publicly vs. what’s hidden privately

For instance: → A culture obsessed with stoicism won’t say “I love you.” They’ll say “Have you eaten?” → A culture built on legacy might prioritize ancestor veneration, archival writing, name inheritance.

This stuff? Way more immersive than giving everyone matching earrings.

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5. 🏠 Culture = Daily Life, Not Just Festivals

Sure, your MC might attend a funeral where people paint their faces blue. But what about: → Breakfast routines? → How people greet each other on the street? → Who cooks, and who eats first? → What’s considered “clean” or “proper”? → How is parenting handled? Divorce?

Culture is what happens between plot points. It should shape your character’s assumptions, language, fears, and habits—whether or not a festival is going on.

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6. 💬 Let Your Characters Disagree With Their Own Culture

A culture isn’t a monolith.

Even in deeply traditional societies, people: → Rebel → Question → Break rules → Misinterpret laws → Mock sacred things → Act hypocritically → Weaponize or resist what’s expected

Let your characters wrestle with the culture around them. That’s where realism (and tension) lives.

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7.🧼 Beware the “Pretty = Good” Trap

Worldbuilding gets boring fast when: → The protagonist’s homeland is beautiful and pure → The enemy’s culture is dark and “barbaric” → Every detail just reinforces who the reader should like

You can—and should—challenge the aesthetic hierarchy. → Let ugly things be beloved. → Let beautiful things be corrupt. → Let your MC romanticize their culture and then get disillusioned by it later.

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📍 TL;DR (but like, spicy): → Culture is not food and jewelry. → Culture is power, fear, memory, contradiction. → Stop inventing spices until you know who starved last winter. → Let your world feel lived in, not curated.

The best cultural worldbuilding doesn’t look like a list. It feels like a system. A pressure. A presence your characters can’t escape—even if they try.

Now go. Build something real. (You can add spices later.)

—rin t. // writing advice for worldbuilders with rage and range // thewriteadviceforwriters

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[anathemafiction]

ROs reaction to the MC being jealous? 🙏🏻 Would anyone enjoy it? 👀

Hadrian wouldn't believe it at first. It's simply out of the realm of possibility. He's the one who feels insecure. He's the one who doesn't deserve you. He's devoted to you, body and soul, and Hadrian simply assumes that you know it — he can't phantom you not knowing it. 

He wouldn't get it for a while. If you kept your jealousy subtle, Hadrian would never get there, and would just be confused when you'd act colder or more aloof. But if you make it obvious?

The moment that realization hits that, no, you're actually jealous, Hadrian would enter panic mode. Immediately rushes to your side, trying to reassure however way he can — tries not to use words because he'd blunder and make even a bigger mess of things. If you let him, he wouldn't leave your side for the rest of the day. Eyes on you only. 

There's only you. Please, never doubt it. 

-

Alessa would secretly enjoy it. Much more than she admits even to herself. 

Outwardly, she'd raise an eyebrow, maybe call you a fool, but she'd be biting her inner cheek to stifile a smile, and those glacier-blue eyes would shine brighter for a few hours. She scoffs at the notion, of course, but still...

Alessa enjoys this side of you. "Retract your claws," she says, while gripping your arm closer. 

-

Jealousy isn't a novelty for Alain. It's unfortunate, but it's a sentiment he's been on the receiving end of more times than he'd care to count. 

People have tried to claim him, to control him, to chain him, and, honestly, it just leaves a bad taste in his mouth. He gets bored. Distances himself from the scorned lover. 

What is novel is this need to soothe you when Alain realizes that you are insecure about him. He does it while grinning, almost teasing you, "Afraid I'll get myself another bird?" he asks, but when you don't smile back, he leans over and soothes a finger down your furrowed brow. 

"You shouldn't be," he murmurs, his voice surprisingly gentle. 

-

Ysabella would be saddened by it. Not because of you, not even because of herself, but because of Fate itself. Because, as she sees you gritting your teeth, trying to pretend you're not affected by the thought of her being sold into a politically convenient marriage, Ysabella feels her heart breaking. 

But only a little, because she cannot afford to fall apart. Not now, perhaps not ever. 

So, she'd smile, and pray you don't notice how it doesn't reach her eyes. "Hush, now," she'd say, hand finding yours, fingers interwining together. "You shouldn't put so much strain on your jaw, darling. It ruins those lovely features."

-

The Pirate King would be amused by it. He'd chuckle wryly, which would only infuriate you more. And the more agitated you'd get, the more he'd be entertained. It wouldn't be until you're spinning on your feet, prepared to storm away, that he'd reach out, loop an arm around your waist, and pull you to him. 

Just to kiss you in front of whoever it was that's making you doubt that you'd won his heart long ago. 

You'd stomp his foot, or push him away, and the Pirate would chuckle lowly into the kiss. "That's my spitfire."

-

Neia, like Hadrian, would probably not realize it 😆. But it's not because she thinks it impossible — Neia just wouldn't be paying attention. She speaks only to bark commands, spit orders, or let out grunts.

Who the hell are you jealous of? The wench cowering in the corner?

But people admire her from afar, and that could get to you. Neia wouldn't realize it until you've been silent for a few hours, now. She noticed the change in mood immediately, but she gave you space. Now, you're back in your quarters, and you're still silent, and Neia's patience runs out. "What is it?"

You purse your lips. 

"Have I done something? Spill it out, sweetling, I'm not playing a guessing game."

And you tell her, and Neia simply stares at you. Silence falls for an uncomfortably long time, until...

A lone raspy laugh. 

"Seriously?" You scowl at her. 

Neia throws a blanket at your head. "Go to sleep," she says, voice still rought with amusement. "You've clearly lost your mind."

-

Lance would honestly be a bit lost. Did he... do something to merit this? Did he fail to make you feel assured? Perhaps he shouldn't have bowed at that patron who tipped him generously earlier. 

The problem was that Lance Silverthrat would have no idea how to fix this. So, masking his uncertainty with a plastered smile, he'd loop an arm around your shoulder. "Did you enjoy the song, Starlight?"

You'd shrug, and Lance would feel the sweat at the back of his neck. "It was for you," he says, using that tone he knows you like. 

You don't look at him. "Was it?"

Oh, there it is. Lance can feel the stiffness in your muscles. "Of course it was," he says, gold tooth glinting. But his eyes eagerly search your face, all smoothness tossed aside. 

"Hm."

Lance would then drag a hand down his face and do what he so rarely has ever done: open the game. "I am not interested in that woman."

"She sure looked interested in you, what with the long talk afterward—"

Lance would gently grab your chin to make you look at him. And the solemness in his gaze would snap you out of it. "And I've yet to hear praise from the only audience member I care about." The pads of his fingers softly brushing your cheek. "Will you not give it to me?"

-

Vallen would delight in it. 

She'd smile, a kind of curling, self-satisfied smile that bares the points of her teeth. Her hand would close around your wrist as she peered at you through her eyelashes. "Are you jealous?" she'd ask in a breathless whisper, knowing the answer already, but wanting to hear it from your tongue. "Is that why you're gripping me? Want to keep me from running away?"

It's not that she wants you to be insecure. It's the very nature of it. You want to claim her, maybe as much as she'd like to claim you, and that —that sends a thrill down her spine. 

So, when you look into her eyes, that gaze of yours carrying a storm within, and say, "You wouldn't dare."

Vallen is not a woman to coo, but she does the next best thing. She lets her smile grow wider. "Nor would you."

-

Rafael, much like Alessa, would enjoy it. Unlike Alessa, however, he'd have no qualms about admitting it. 

He'd be grinning from ear to ear as you clung to him, one hand locked tight around his bicep, the other firm on his thigh. Rafael would drink in the sight of your deadly scowl, the way your fingers would tighten just the slightest bit whenever the person from across the table complimented him. 

He would let you do whatever you wanted, push him on top of the table, and claim him right there, if that's what you needed. He'd just grin, face flushed bright red, and follow along, drunk on your jealousy, on the way you're staking your territory.

Rafael has never been treasured, not like this. Never by someone like you. He doesn't know what you see in him, but by God, he ain't about to question it. Never look a gift horse in the mouth and all that.

Rafael would never dream of anyone else. He could never even imagine touching another. Not after knowing the texture of your skin, the scent of your hair, the taste of your kisses. 

But you like this? Well, damn. Rafael supposes you can still surprise him. When you're alone again, back in your room, he'd just keep grinning like a fool in love. "Hey," he'd say lamely. "That got me goin'."

[cheeseceli]

Their celebrity crush

Pairing: ot7!BTS × gn!reader

Genre: headcanons, fluff

Request: Could you write one where Ot7 are dating their celebrity crushes?

Warnings: they are idols, mentions of fans and rumours, mentions of Hybe (?), jungkook's reader has been working for longer than him

A/n: I have another version of this, one way more delulu and cringe, but I couldn't find it so here we go | daily click

Jin

I believe he would want to keep the relationship private in most scenarios

That's not one of them though

Everyone and their mothers are going to know about this

First, everybody already knew you were his crush

Bro has no filter

He probably said it with all the words

So once you guys actually date

Man, he's not gonna shut up

Obviously he wouldn't do anything of that if you're not comfortable with it

But in the end he's just a fan

Yoongi

Oh he's so cocky about this

100% bragging about it every time

I don't see him as someone who has a lot of celebrity crushes

You'd be like one of the few

Maybe even the only one

So he only had one chance and STILL managed to date you?

Goat

You're also never knowing that lmao

Yes, he'll brag about dating you but you'll never know he was your biggest fanboy ever

And as he already assumed to write fanfics when younger

Imagine him reading fics about you before dating you 😭

J-hope

I am a firm believer of social butterfly hobi

Meaning he knows everyone

Including you

Even if you are or aren't from the same industry

What matters is that he knows you

And he tries to keep it cool and pretend everything's fine

Because he finally managed to talk to you

He doesn't want to scare you off

But

Rumours go that he is your celebrity crush

Since feelings are mutual

Who is he to lose a chance like this

Right?

Namjoon

Bro really really really is tryna keep it shut

Like he's doing his best to not open Vlive right now and just say

"yo, guess who's dating y/n"

And he's 100% aware that this is a horrible move

But he wants to do it nevertheless

Honestly, at this point he's hoping that you will slip up so he can finally bring it up

But fans already know something is up

I mean

It's kinda hard not to when he is so obviously in love in his songs

And oh, is that a a very clear reference to you in his lyrics?

Jimin

This would definitely start the wrong way lmao

The ever so friendly and flirtatious Park Jimin is going viral for... not liking you

Or at least that's what netizens think

The truth is that Jimin and you get to be special MCs for a program for once

And you see, he's used to being people's crush

Now he is the one having a crush

In order to avoid being obvious about it and making rumours up, he tries to avoid you overall

And now people think he hates you

Let me tell you that he PANICS when he finds this rumour out

So imagine when his apologies to you work and, after a while, you're dating

The shock the internet (and him) would feel

Taehyung

He's literally the opposite of Namjoon

Namjoon is trying his best to not spill the tea

Taehyung is trying to spill it without people noticing

At this point he thinks of it as a game

Let's see how close to insanity he can bring the dispatch staff

Seriously though, he just admires you so much

And he's so proud of you

It's not fair to expect him to not overflow with love

If he sees the green light coming form you, better believe he will make Hybe do some damage control

Jungkook

This one was funny

You were his crush before he was too famous

So he was like

"Imagine if we were famous and I met Y/n?"

A boy can only dream, right?

Except he didn't dream, he manifested

Then one day BTS becomes famous

He becomes famous

And the next thing you know is that Jungkook is finally talking to you

And you better bet that he's shooting his shot when he finally gets to see you

Masterlist | you'll probably like: I'm not letting go

Reminder this is just fiction!! I'm not trying to portray real life and you shouldn't believe that this is how the members actually are. This is just for the vibe and the delulu!

Taglist (open!): @yuyubeans @butnotmontana @sheraayasherrecs @queenofdumbfuckery @lezleeferguson-120

Dividers by @cursed-carmine | images 1, 2 and 3

[aunt-wilmas-crossword-challenge]

If I talked about headcanoning Hellen with OCD and how I can relate it to her mutation would I be beaten by hammers. Just kidding I think this is the chillest fandom I've ever seen so I'm doing it anyways. Full disclaimer this is obviously not me saying it's canon or intended at all this is just me embodying this post I'm here to have fun:

Okay anyways

It's honestly all very dependent on how I imagine her pre-Visitor. I think her personality as we know it predates that: polite, but quiet, stoic, and blunt. I got the firm impression she's always been intimidating, especially assuming her height and size isn't the result of the change, and because of her nature people avoid or are intimidated by her. I think it suits her mostly fine, she's a loner and doesn't seem to speak much at all unless necessary or prompted. But I do think she would be nonetheless impacted by how she was viewed: even if you aren't particularly social, being scary and intimidating, maybe even freakish by some standards is going to have people treat you a Certain Way. Crossing the street to avoid someone on the sidewalk, stares behind her back type of stuff. People assume based on what you look like, and she (through no fault of her own, it shouldn't be necessary) lacks any sort of cheery or soft demeanor to offset that, so to many she's probably the big silent scary lady. It's even the first impression we get of her.

I do think we get a peek into her insecurity several times, I don't think she's entirely hiding in the bathroom to eat and such exclusively for other's comfort, and her conversation with Audrey is very revealing which others have pointed out already. Girl the projection. also her Rat Baby interaction, and then her wanting to mcmurder the Visitor in a talk with Sam which I have separate thoughts on later but anyways, she's obviously and understandably pissed about what happened to her, enough to want to kill that thang. I also think she's not unused to being rejected or avoided, even if you put aside people doing so now because of her face. She seems very unmoved, or at least not surprised (outwardly) in the face of it and handles it very well (aside from the understandable door slam lol).

This is all a long-winded to say I think she's very much aware of how she's perceived even before all this (which isn't that different from how she is now) and that's gonna impact you, so the "people scream seeing me" is just a more intense version of her already lived experience.

I think in terms of OCD, of which the two primary experiences are obsession and compulsion, I can really easily imagine how it would manifest after her transformation. Pre-Visitor it's a little more vague, I just imagine her curt nature and speaking style as being a way of counterbalancing her racing thoughts, as well her being very stoic. I see her having a tunnel-vision of sorts. It's not necessarily that her thoughts are irrational, I think they're moreso just unwanted and and maybe distressing at a low level in that she can't fully relax, but they are never-ending and her mind is constantly running. She can't really quiet it, just sort of "pull back" and ignore it as best she can. If she has intrusive thoughts they're more defensive and paranoid in nature (they're looking at you, they're talking about you, etc.).

Post-seeing I think the intrusive thoughts do take a more violent turn, but the nature of an intrusive thought is that it's unwanted, distressing, yet not (necessarily) reflective of the person having them, and compulsions exist as a way to alleviate them or the resulting anxiety. It's actually how I choose to interpret her "bloodlust" mechanic- the bloodlust is a violent intrusive thought(s), using massacre is essentially a compulsion to quiet it. But she's very much in control and not going into some unnatural state against her will like a frenzy, as otherwise she's resisting the compulsion and suppressing/ignoring the intrusive thoughts, and probably very apt at it if it's not unlike what she's experienced long before the events of the game.

It's not pleasurable, either- compulsions give you a sense of relief, in that it's the temporary(!) absence of anxiety or stress but not necessarily joy or pleasure, nor is it a permanent solution. Functionally, for her, bloodlust is a compulsion she's willingly going into when it's useful to her in battle (which makes me think "salting the earth" is her purposefully working herself into intrusive thoughts to get the bloodlust back, and maybe the HP cost is a little metaphorical if you view it like that...not her physical health eating the beating there :( ). I mean, maybe it IS nice to quiet the bloodlust, she's actively getting a break from the intrusive thoughts and it's why she loses a majority of the violent specials, but I don't think she's enjoying the act of violence herself. If anything, she seems like she's always actively trying to counteract that assumption.

As for how I relate it to her mutation, there's the obvious. Her face is one big spiral, her many eyes are spiraling inside her head. But the eyes are related too, if one of her obsessive train of thoughts is being looked/stared at, being perceived and judged. What would feel like multiple sets of eyes on her any time she's not alone is now a literal set of multiple eyes in her head. Frankie said it's a mix of their surroundings/current actions but also what someone is thinking about that impacts how they change, and I can't really see an obvious way Hellen's unique mutation is related to surroundings, so maybe, fittingly, it's all based around her thoughts at that moment (assuming her obsessions are all sort of inwardly focused, things happening to her as opposed to things happening around her, if that makes sense)

(Eating in the bathroom and avoiding unmasking is maybe just as much compulsion as it is practical if she's obsessive about being stared at too. Sam makes it very clear she doesn't have to eat in the bathroom, and realistically probably everyone's seen her face if she's unmasked in battle, but doing so and having the mask on, and thus her face being less visible/obvious, probably alleviates some of the anxiety enough to let her relax a little. It's less mentally taxing. Being alone likely quiets the thoughts, it's the only way she can truly avoid being perceived.)

I know we don't get to see what's under her clothes, but even the most common depiction (I think) of her having more eyes and mouths under there I can relate to the headcanon- worrying about being looked at and talked about is physically represented by there being eyes and mouths everywhere, maybe that's what being around people felt like to her.

So I think in a world where she has OCD her mutation is so fucked up, like poor woman is out here as a visual reflection of her mental illness while others get away with just being a bug or something, and kind of doomed to be what she worried about- something/someone scary people don't want to look at but can't look away from, to the point she instills status effects on them. But hey, at least it's (maybe) only her face and she's mostly human? That has to count for something.

Idk, this is me wanting to give my favs my conditions but also I just think it's a fun way to view her mutation and her very. Unique personality lmao

[0samu4]

Love the way you write, so I would love to request some Sakadays headcanons

'In what way do they handle a breakup.' with Nagumo, Shin, Gaku, Shishiba, Tenkyu, Tanabata and Uzuki. Could you detail a lot about Gaku? He's my favorite.

Feel free to think about how each of them would behave, it's your choice!

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I'm back with tons of mosquito bites on my arms

「 Break ups 」

TW(s): ooc, break up stuff, angst, angst w/o comfort? , reader is a civilian except in Uzuki's part.

Characters: Nagumo, Shishiba, Gaku, Tanabata, Uzuki.

not doing shin and tenkyu because idk how to write them. Especially tenkyu

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Nagumo

– he somewhat accepts it and also doesn't accept it.

– he knew that you were upset with him for whatever reason so he really berates himself for being an idiot and not trying to fix the problem

– he hopes you will give him a second chance, he knows its unlikely since you had cut off all contact with him.

– despite knowing you've blocked him, Nagumo will constantly try to call you. That or he rereads the old messages during his free time.

– honestly wonders if he even deserved you from the get go.

Shishiba

– as usual, he has his aloof look. But in the inside, Shishiba wonders what he could've done to be a better boyfriend for you.

– anything you've left behind in Shishiba's house will be given back to you in a box. But he keeps one item, a hair tie you got for him ages ago.

– sometimes he'll visit the restaurant you urged him to go to but never did due to his work. He ponders on all the dates you two could've gone if it weren't for his work.

– he doesn't want a second chance from you or any forgiveness. He wants you to be happy and away from him.

– It hurts him. But you don't deserve to be apart of the assassin world.

Gaku

– he kind of expected you to break up with him. He just wished it was sooner so that he didn't grow an attachment to you.

– he's literally a terrorist, someone who doesn't have good social norms, an assassin. What else should be added on the list?

– really, really, REALLY, ends up being more moody. He doesn't even play games for a few days.

– and when Gaku does return to playing games? He misses you. Terribly so. He's so used to playing with you that he'd say, "Good job, (name)." when he finishes a level. Only for him to turn his head and realise you're not next to him.

– he's so used to you sitting next to him and playing with his earing. (Or stud, idk.) that he'll randomly feel your touch out of no where.

– he hopes to see you again. Even if his brain tells him he shouldn't.

Tanabata

– he actually stops playing his guitar for a day.

– he knows he wasn't a good boyfriend, but he actually wished you stayed with him a bit longer.

– his songs do end up becoming "gloomy" and "sad" . It's not even intentional. His brain and hands just keeps making the song vibe like this.

– he makes a song about his feelings during the break up. (sorrow) It's weirdly more heavy this time around.

– he doesn't want any more inspiration for his songs. He wants you back. Perhaps he wanted you because he felt this feeling with you and only you. Or maybe because he felt true peace with you.

– He misses you. But he knows he can't get back the inspiration he lost. After all, each inspiration is different in its own way.

Uzuki (JCC)

– he's emotional.

– he probably broke up with you because of his brother (Asaki)

– he misses you so much, he didn't want to break up with you. It's all because of his brother.

– everytime he returns back to the orphanage, he rants to Kumanomi. Which, just enrages Kumanomi more.

– he cries. You were the first person who showed him care and affection in a way he has never felt.

– YOU filled the hole in his heart. He can't let you go, ever. So he's devastated when he talked to you, making up lies that he didn't have feelings for you anymore.

– Uzuki still admires you from afar. Whether you notice and decide to do something about it is your choice. But he'll keep admiring then.

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Now I disappear for a week or so

[rachymarie]

Rachel Rambles re: SchizAuSpec Productivity

It's kinda so freeing knowing that, really, i don't HAVE to keep having a coffee + pushing myself to be "productive" past midday* bc that is actually when the Sleepiness begins and I'm better off resting until mid-to-late afternoon so I can get up "reset" for striving towards more productivity.

Sometimes capitalistic values / hustle culture / neurotypical values* gets in your head and you feel guilty for ever daring to be "lazy" (meaning we actually find it hard to relax/devote time to not being "productive" in any way.

*or even autistic- have noticed a lot of autistics on reality tv seem to have something against "laziness" and "lack of hygiene", despite the other half of the autistic/neurodivergent population struggling with hygiene and "laziness". Prob just the internalized ableism/parroting the views of those they grew up around/influenced by.

So yeah some autistics on reality tv have made me feel crap/alienated bc of this. e. Michael on LotS, Sophie on Glow Up, etc.

And I am actually a deceptively ambitious person, but I am no match for the debilitation of schizospec. And schizospec combined with ASD is a powerful KO combo, designed by whatever cruel malevolent higher power there is, to be enough to knock "the best of us" on our feet - and then keep kicking/stomping us while we're down amd the world around gets rougher

[sciderman]

I would say you’re more of a Mr peanut butter type yeah

doggy doggy what now?

[syabm]

It's still weird for any law enforcement agency to wear camo gear in an urban environment. There is zero need for it.

It's not, actually. A lot of cops use surplus military camo. Which saves taxpayer money.

Also, so what? This isn't even a real criticism.

It's just "they look scary and intimidating" in fancy dress. Generally, I'm fine with cops looking scary if it means they have to use less actual force.

They are enforcing immigration laws - and most of the people ICE are arresting have communicated the civil offense of remaining in the country too long. Again, zero need to shoot anyone, ever

You know illegal immigrants and their supporters have actually attacked ICE with deadly force before, right? Including during the current "protests"?

People have been shooting fireworks at ICE agents and cops. Which can and have killed people.

>If they are dealing with suspected armed gang members, then they should have actual police available.

Imagine getting up on your moral high horse about what ICE should and shouldn't do, but you don't even realize ICE are cops.

Also, how many of the folks out there attacking cops are "gang members"? Do you think only a gang member will violently resist ICE?

Did you just make up this standard - without knowing the context of the picture - just so you can imply "real" misdemeanour immgrants aren't violent, even though that includes gang members?

Maybe you should stop making absolute "moral" statements based entirely on your vibes, and do basic research.

What next, you'll say cops shouldn't have military-grade assault weapons?

[originalcontent]

My least favorite thing about autocorrect is how it always corrects "themself" to "themselves."

[loumauve]

non-exhaustive list of things that will get to you at 10 pm

missing friends because you haven't been able to make yourself text them back in years even though you think about them nearly every day

not feeling wanted in a very particular way that shouldn't be so hard to communicate but is anyway

realising how much time has passed and how little has changed, like numbness after an operation lingering for nearly a year

the sheer exhaustion of trying so very hard every day and getting very little in return

thinking about the last time you were actually being held without having to ask for it or take the first step

that one spotify playlist

closing your eyes to the world hoping and hoping and hoping that naybe you'll have that dream again, where you felt whole and happy instead of lost and tired and lonely

that last bit of sun of the day painting the sky a dark orange

mourning the time spent dating people who you wish had even just wanted to try harder for you

thinking about any one of those warm summer nights spent with your friends, talking in hushed voiced around the campfire so the little ones could sleep

[mackthecheesy]

rip to the person in my dream last night who i was in a time loop trying to save </3 woke up before i ever could

[sondersil]

note to self: if you have repeatedly been made to feel some type of way about your silly little doodles by someone in the past, don't fucking draw them something for their birthday.

[krysmcscience]

Did somebody say Bill shouldn't be allowed to swear? I think somebody said Bill shouldn't be allowed to swear. Thanks to that, have these retooled The Good Place jokes:

The "powers that be" can refer to either the Theraprism staff, the Axolotl, or just. Ya know. Disney in general. Or all three! Whichever you think is funniest. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

The "party" Bill's referring to is Weirdmageddon, of course. He was quite the ashhole to everyone back then.

Ford has probably gotten pretty good at the 'tune out your psychopathic ex with dank memes' challenge.

It must be very cathartic to be able to make Bill shut up whenever you want with just the press of a button. I'm sure Ford doesn't abuse this ability at all.

Oh, sure, 'Not now,' he says, before he immediately backs out of the newly-made hole in the Theraprism wall. 🙄

Don't worry, Bill doesn't get far.

also yeah i know this one doesn't have an attempted swear - i just wanted to use the joke because of the massive stink-eye involved in it because it makes me laugh

⬇️ More goofs beneath the brief ramble if you wanna skip it lmao⬇️

Why is Ford even there, you might ask? Well, he either decided he preferred to watch Bill suffer in person over being distantly and repeatedly harassed with the same evil desperation book for the rest of his life, or he got roped into some kind of contrived community service for 1.) all his many counts of interdimensional thievery, and 2.) his ignoring all the very clear warnings to NOT summon Bill in the first place (which I like to imagine is also illegal). Theraprism staff were just like, 'Wait, this guy matters to Bill? Ooh, we can USE that! It might be the only thing that can help him want to get better!' It is not considered that throwing Ford at Bill so soon after Weirdmageddon could instead make them both WORSE - in new and altogether special ways! :D

Anyway, I'm calling it the Community Service AU, and I am most likely not going to do anything else with it beyond appropriating these silly Good Place jokes. So, feel free to adopt the concept if y'all wanna??? Just make sure that Bill is still not allowed to swear, no matter what, full stop. It's gotta be a real linguistic corkblork of a situation for him, is all I'm sayin'.

Finally, have these bonus Good Place jokes, but with Handyman!Bill this time:

'Opposite tortures' doesn't sound so bad...at least until it's an all-powerful chaos entity known for torture saying it.

you may think i forgot mabel's cute pink cheeks but the truth is that i did in fact forget but then immediately stopped caring which makes it okay, SHHHHHHH

And, finally:

lmao this is shit

True facts, if you cram Season 1 Eleanor Shellstrop and Michael into a singular triangle shape, they turn into Bill Cipher. This is science, look it up. Or don't, and just trust the source that is me, bro.

Anyway, I should be in bed, y'all have fun with these, I guess. Tune in after like a week or so and maybe I'll have an addendum to my comic about how Bill was drawn naked for karaoke night. Because him actually being naked was not the only thing I considered as a plausible explanation. XD

Also if you see any inconsistencies or errors in any of these comics, No You Do Not :D

Also also, reblogs are rad as hell and I appreciate every single one, just don't repost, please and thanks. Every time a repost is made, an artist somewhere cries. :,)

[talkorsomething]

genuinely tried to Be Asleep for like two hours this time and just couldn't. I think i'm cursed [unwell]