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the0ther-side0f-dawn · 6 days ago

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ok yknow whats oddly intimate? having a friend do your makeup.

like im v weird abt being touched not bc i hate the idea but bc its not natural to me, or something im used to, and sometimes i rly do forget how touch starved i am.

#its been a weird 24hrs #look ive had rly severe anxiety for most my life and also bc the autism #i very rarely if ever feel genuinely comfortable and safe and unjudged around anyone #but like im getting there #like my coworker - technically boss - but im 2iC so we're more of a team - has rly been there for me over the years #granted she did try to get me fired when she first started and i was a casual but fair - i didnt know abt it at the time - she told me later #but fair - i was a p shit employee bc i was too anxious to do my job and i was sick a lot and just overall wasnt cut out for it #but i stepped up and she rly became a mentor and then a friend #and its just so nice to have someone who doesnt judge me and i know i dont have to be scared of saying The Wrong Thing #bc if we disagree or i mess up - i know she will tell me and we'll work it out #and anyways it was my birthday yesterday #and she and i and one of the other girls from work went out #and i had such a good time and then i crashed at her place too #but ahahaa she was watching me try to do my makeup #and look i only wear makeup when i drink or go to fancy dinners nd thats only a few tima a year #like i do not know what im doing with makeup and she's watching me and just says 'stop' and grabs my face and starts doing it for me #and look it was a bit hard to not feel Something™ ngl but anyways i did look really good

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