#and like. anya doesn't want to give jimmy his check up and be alone with him while he makes up sexually deviant lies. could be foreshadowing

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

i can't tell if i'm just not paying attention or if mouthwashing just doesn't make any sense

[ridingtorohan]

The Tulpar crew's reactions to walking in on you and post-crash Curly

𓇻 content warning. absolutely nothing explicit. can be viewed as dub-con given curly's circumstance, but I promise he consented. anya's reaction mentions sexual assault (jimmy to anya, but mainly she suspects reader did it to curly) and jimmy's mentions abuse (jimmy to curly) and a bit of voyeurism.

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Masterlist

Daisuke handles it like a champ. In the way that means he very much doesn't.

Absolute mess, apologizing profusely as he backs away, shielding his eyes dramatically. Hits the sides of the door on his way out. Both sides. He pin-balled.

Recovers fast but can't look at you in the eyes for a long time without picturing you like that.

"So how does it work when he's, y'know?"

So curious that it's not even funny.

Tries to get Curly to tell him the facts but Curly just does his laugh rattle

Honestly, he doesn't treat either of you differently, but he grins SUPER wide each time you go in to check in on Curly

"Get it, Captain!!!!"

May or may not time you just to tease you about it (gets so red if you tease him back)

Processes then immediately walks out

"Is this what kids do these days?"

Knew about you and curly's relationship/situation so he isn't surprised.

But you'll get his fatherly look of disappointment.

"At least make sure you're not snapping every last bone of his, alright?"

Doesn't tell anybody else because he knew it was consensual from the sounds you both made (he definitely asked Curly afterward just to make sure)

If you take a lot of shift work watching curly, he'll intercept and roll his eyes, "Jesus, let the poor guy rest"

Freezes, processes, then storms right up, eyes wild and voice high. "What are you doing?!"

She all but separates you from curly as fast as she can, tears in her eyes.

Curly sure as hell never protected her from Jimmy but she wouldn't let you abuse one of her patients.

Might be able to be coaxed down.

Shift work with Curly is outright canceled for everyone. At least until Curly conveys that no, he very much wanted that, (head nods go a long way, people).

Anya is still suspicious and weary. It's months before she stops hovering by the door, but a part of her is relieved, too.

The absolute last person you want walking in.

Stands there like a creep, eyes assessing. Memorizing.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" He asks layer with a wrinkled nose, as if you're the one with the problem.

Honestly becomes kind of bitchy about the whole ordeal

Watches you a lot more intently that it becomes uncomfortable

Definitely imagines how you looked on that cot with the former captain

Passive aggressive with you afterwards, but fortunately, because nobody is really alone anymore, he can't do anything to you about it. If he had been attracted to you before and the crash never happened, you'd be in hot water.

Curly, however, gets the short end of the stick. Have you heard the audio of what Jimmy does to Curly the second time when giving him pills? Yep, he beats him more routinely

After all, how is it fair that Curly has doomed them all but still gets the glory?

[tulpar-navguy]

₊ ⊹ ᶻz !! "Hey, Dess speaking." !! ␥

"Hellohowdyhi, people of the internet! Im Dess, or Desmond, whatever, and im the assigned Navigator for the Tulpar ship!!"

"Im just here to talk and have some fun, so yeah! Maybe i'll draw too-"

"A few of the other guys are here too, so say hi to them for me-!"

ADDITION INFO ABOUT DESMOND.

GENERAL

Age : Early 30s, claims that he is in his late 20s.

Ethnicity : Dutch-Indonesian

Sexuality : Greyromantic Demiromantic Asexual

Gender : Trans FtM

Full Name : Athena Desmond

Likes : Watching documentaries about fish/reading books about fish/eating fish/consuming media about fish, doodling around, keeping track of the stars he came across whilst on the Tulpar, music, sleep, cooking (he's ass at it though), video games!, hoarding trash like it's treasure

Dislikes : idk uh very loud n obnoxious people that constantly ignores his boundaries. Idk he just the guy that sorta likes everything man, oh uh yeah he hates jimmy. Well conflicted feelings ig?

PRE-CRASH

Extremely sociable, he's like a combination of Basil and Kel from Omori.

Constantly checks in to see the others' condition, and he helps out with Anya a lot.

Mostly hangs out in the lounge room, playing board games (competitively) when not in the cockpit tracking the ship's route and making sure it doesn't crash into any space debris n stuff.

Gives everyone a lot of gifts! Even Jimmy!

POST-CRASH

Gets a lot more anxious and more easily intimidated. Tries to "help" more by doing what he's ordered to do.

Helps Anya with Curly. When Jimbo and her is not up to the task, Dess will guve him some painkillers.

Avoids getting into fights/needless bickering. And when i mean avoid, he deadass runs into the medbay if things are heating up. Talks with Curly a bit.

Talks with Anya more than Pre-Crash. He's worried about her.

Dont leave him alone with his thoughts.

RELATIONSHIPS

Anya

Dess loves talking to her! Provides a big sister figure throughout the entire duration of the delivery haul, and he just loves spending his free time with her.

He rates Anya a solid 10/10.

Curly

One of his close friends! Curly's the reason why he got into Pony Express in the first place (working on Dess' backstory rn SHHH it'll make sense later). If not Talking to Anya, Dess is usually shown conversing with Curly. Whether it be about life back on Earth, or just casual banter.

Dess also used to have a tiny itty bitty crush on him but it doesn't matter now.

He rates Curly a 9/10.

Swansea

Intimidated by him at first, but Dess loves to hear what Swansea has to say when they talk together! Also he thinks Swansea being a sneakerhead is pretty silly. He's an uncle figure for Dess.

He rates Swansea a 9/10.

Daisuke

Oh, whoozers, what a riot! Dess loves Daisuke's optimism and shenanigans. Talking with the guy is always such a blast, there's no awkward moment between them. Dess also makes a lot of doodles with Daisuke on his free time.

He rates Daisuke a 9/10.

Jimmy

Jimmy, oh Jim... Due to Dess being a part of Curly's friend group back on earth, they're both are also friends, somewhat. Dess thinks he's kinda funny sometimes, but... jeez, he sure is intimidated!

He rates Jimmy a 8/10.

OTHER MAIN BACKGROUND STUFF

Dess, or Desmond is the Navigator Officer in the Tulpar Space Freighter. He mainly works inside the cockpit, steering the ship when Curly and Jimmy is busy (Which is kinda rare). He's about 32-35 years old, and he absolutely LOVES talking with the others! You can usually see him talking to the others, sometimes he's a bit anxious about interacting, though. Sometimes.

He didn't want to be a Navigator in the first place, obviously. He wanted to be a Marine Biologist, or at LEAST an Aquaculturist, but alas, the winds of fate has led him to work for Pony Express.

He's a part of Curly's friend group back on earth, and that obviously extends to being friends with Jimmy. Curly's another reason why he decided to work for Pony Express too-

Anyways! If you talk about him about fish, chances are he'll think you're pretty cool.

FUN FACTS

Dess is Anemic!

Dess has prescription glasses, but he hates wearing them; claims that it's too itchy on the nose.

Posture problems. Slouches a lot.

He has callouses and scars on his left hand, but his right hand is almost untouched. The contrast is crazy.

Wears a wristwatch 24/7.

Daisuke gave him that star thing on his breast pocket.

Indie video game professional- ask him about any indie game, he WILL respond.

Very big fan of Team Fortress 2, ULTRAKILL, UT/DR, Hollow Knight, Nine Sols, Rain World, and indie games.

Has a WII console, NEOGEO mini arcade, FAMICOM, SUPER FAMICOM, 3DS, DS, and gameboy back on Earth.

Dess is multilingual! (Can speak German, Indonesian, Malay, and English! He's trying to learn Russian and Spanish next).

His all time favorite pokemon is Lucario! Always has been, always will be. His favorite starter, on the other hand, is either Poppilo, or Snivy. His favorite eeveelution is Leafeon.

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Mouthwashing, an Allegory for Armed Forces (pt 2)

Yeah, so, I wrapped the other one up because I didn't want 3k words all in one place, but I do have more to say. You can check out how I came to the conclusion of this game being an allegory in this post. Basically, I drew the similarities there, and there are more, I just didn't list them all.

Now, I want to talk about the story if we were going with this being a story about mental breaks due to being part of the military rather than *hand waves* what happened in the game.

Once again, I'll be talking about it under the cut due to the nature of the topics in the game. I probably should have posted some cw on my other post. I'll have to fix that.

Now that I've stated several reasons why I think this is an allegory, it's time to tackle the story itself.

If we go in chronological order rather than the back and forth, we would come to the point that Jimmy raped Anya as the first thing, I suppose. This was constantly swept away due to Jimmy being our narrator and him not wanting to accept his responsibility for his action. Eventually, at the end of the game he admits that he made a mistake and that that had caused all of this. But his admission is hollow and unfulfilling. What does it matter if he sees it now? Everyone is dead. Then he proceeds to take his own life with a firearm. He doesn't even acknowledge that he attempted to crash the ship. He doesn't apologize for causing the deaths of everyone in the crew. He just says "I made a mistake" and tries to make it right by giving up his life for a man that helped enable him.

And that's a huge kicker, here. Curly enabled Jimmy. Curly attempted to keep the peace and handle Jimmy, while Anya had to live every day afraid that Jimmy would assault her or worse, kill her. She hid the gun. She was only ever with someone else at all times or in one of the two rooms that had locks after the crash. You never find her alone where Jimmy can be alone with her (save for the medical bay, but is she really alone there?).

There is no doubt that Jimmy raped Anya. That is never questioned. No one doubts Anya. But no one does anything about it, either. Maybe they're just trying to make it through, and maybe there's nothing that can be done now that her violator is in charge - a very real, and very helpless position to be in, especially in the military. HR also says all will be punished for complaints, so if they can just keep it quiet, they'll get off better until they're not all part of it anymore. 1 in 3 women have been sexually assaulted in the armed forces. Most by someone they know. Most by someone higher ranking. Only 1 in 10 get reported.

The note we find when Jimmy goes looking for some mouthwash to clean Daisuke's wounds after Anya over doses on drugs at five months pregnant-- that's a fucking sentence. The note talks about the beast being aimless and blind. This beast is clearly not real, but could be a parallel to the casualties of war from mortar fire on innocent civilians. I'd like to point out how the ground rumbles any time the beast comes near (like tanks shaking the ground, like the sound of airplanes overhead ready to drop bombs). I'd like to point out that being quiet was how people kept hidden from being attacked by military members (any noise can be seen as a threat to someone afraid you're an enemy). I'd like to point out that this happens after Daisuke - an innocent - becomes a casualty, and Jimmy has to try to "fix" this problem, taking him too long and coming back with too little to help.

Swansea performed a mercy killing, Daisuke wasn't going to survive his wounds. Swansea wanted the young kid, the kid that had no reason to be there, to go home and live a long and healthy life. That was his plan all along. He had given up on his own. He knew Jimmy didn't deserve to survive. But Daisuke was thrown into this mess, and not just because he was a rich kid. Bright-eyed and bushy-tailed recruits find the horrors of military life to be too much, and many of them don't survive, or turn into Swansea.

Swansea gives a long speech about his life, his plans to save Daisuke, and how much contempt he has for Jimmy while tied to a chair and executed. We do get the unfortunate experience of being hunted by Swansea as Jimmy, fearing for our life from someone attempting retribution. Surrounded by crypts and graves, like, say, the graves of civilians who once lived their life peacefully before the military came through. Before Daisuke died.

The fact that Jimmy sees his unborn creation (the fetus Anya carried from him forcing himself on her) as some sort of monstrous horror only adds to my thoughts that this is the results of war. It bursts from a grotesque womb, then forces a chase scene, where eventually you are cornered by the violence you have created, and then Jimmy begins to understand his wrong-doings.

He walked through a cave of eyes, everyone (Curly) watching him, feeling like he had sinned under the man he looked up to. His violence caught up to him. We get that wonderful scene of him trying to keep Curly alive by cannibalizing him. "Look at what I've become! Aren't you so proud how I'm keeping you alive? You will appreciate my humanity!" But even he knows he doesn't deserve it.

This is why the ending was so unfulfilling. It wasn't meant to be a happy ending. The perpetrator was never meant to get his. Justice was never meant to be served. Jimmy takes his own life, on his own terms, believing he did a good thing by putting Curly into that pod.

He made a mistake. Understatement of the year, but he's not talking about the murders or the rape or anything that he feels guilt about. He's still feeling sorry for himself, for listening to Curly and joining in the first place. That's where it all started. That's where it all will end.

Curly didn't protect the people he was meant to protect. Curly got to sit by and watch Jimmy break further and further. Curly never broke. He was broken inside, but no one knew. And because he did nothing, everything fell apart.

God fucking damn. This is such a good game about how the armed forces handle literally everything. About the devastation they wrought. About the lives they fuck.

I honestly was miffed at the ending, with Jimmy still being "woe is me" and nothing was his fault. I thought at first I was supposed to think that a white cis man was being an incel and passing off blame, but now I can see why we weren't given any sort of closure. Nothing will ever be fixed because it can't be. Armies destroy. That is all they do.

[cptjimmy]

At some point, he had fallen asleep.

His lanky body curled up in the chair as best as it can. The green lights, the general noise of the ship, and his exhaustion finally catching up with him.

Jimmy finds himself thrust back the past (future?)

He's all alone. The dim red lights of the ship hurt his eyes. It's quiet and cold, not a living soul left on the ship but him.

Guilt

Sadness

Worry

They fill him to the brim. He tugs at his blood-soaked coveralls before lunging foreword and puking. No, why is he back here?! (Punishment)

He tries to scream, but no sound comes out. His heart pounds in his chest, and his vision blurs as tears stream down his face. The only noise now is the blood rushing through him as he eyes the gun in his hand. He's shaking now, laughing silently as he puts the barrel to his temple and-

Jimmy jolts awake and finds himself tumbling from his chair and hitting his chin against the chunky console in front of him. He feels the pain and the wet feeling of blood start to bubble from the bite on his lip.

"Fuck..."

He quickly looks around before relaxing. Jon seems to have finished his task and left. Good, he wouldn't want the kid to see him like this.

He lets himself sit in that strange angle for a moment before getting up. He doesn't bother wiping away the blood that is now dripping down his chin. That nightmare of his still echoing in his mind.

He shakes his head and leaves the cockpit and heads for the medbay. Jimmy doubts there'll be anything useful but it doesn't hurt to check, he's just anxious to get back to Curly.

Even though the doors to the medbay open automatically, he still gives a knock to the frame once he sees that Anya is, in fact, in there. He doesn't bother to wait for her to acknowledge him before striding in and immediately starts to rummage through things without a word.

Every now and then, Jimmy glances over at Anya as if he's nervous of all things.

( @nursexanya )

You look delicious as hell, can’t blame the Jim man for takin a taste.

Flashes of red. Red outside, red inside. The burning, the itching, the ache, the gnawing inside him. All red. Red like the glimmer on the knife, red like his screaming, like his bitten tongue, like the hot wet thing slipping past his teeth oh god- All at once the half-remembered memories of his nightmares of another life hit and Curly doubles over, retching, clinging to the arm of his seat in the cockpit to avoid falling into the mess he makes of the floor as he chokes on bile. Dimly, he can hear @cptjimmy asking what's wrong with him...but he can't do anything but hold on for dear life as the words sear themselves into his brain. Can't blame the Jim man for having a taste...