#and like i said it's probably just bc I'm used to the prior versions

[indigoraven]

have to say I'm still a bit mixed on the re-released troy saga.

I enjoy most of the songs more than the original but there is some small things that annoy me?

(e.g. the horse and the infant is much more imposing, but I feel kind of weird about the way the voices of zeus and odysseus mix at the end now. It sounds more like a song and less like a conversation.

and I gotta be honest, i'm not the biggest fan of how the lotus eaters sound now. the lotus eaters sound far more gremlin like now (which is fun) but it doesn't quite fit with what they looked like in my imagination. They also seem less dazed. which I feel was, y'know, a big part of them?)

but on the other side I do love that the crew sounds a bit more diverse (if you get what I mean) in their voices now. The same goes for warrior of the mind. I like the changes in athenas performance.

the cyclops saga sounds good. a lot cleaner and stronger although the end of survive doesn't sound quite as goosebump inducing imo

but I'm sure that a lot of my reservations are due to the amount of times I listened to the original ones. The changes will probably grow on me quickly xd they are only small hangups after all

[corviids]

I'm so happy for Nae, and her future lil' family.

But I'm not going to lie, I'm not really feeling what you seem to have planned for her siblings.

I don't find it interesting, and I actually think it could invalidate Lucemond's work as parents if their children all (almost) turn out to have messy lives.

Like Gaemon and Val choosing to have the 2 most boring careers in Westeros, only to then break their chastity vows and have a bastard...

It doesn't make me root for them, because there was nothing stopping them from simply getting married from the beginning, prior to their weird career choices. It just makes scratch my mind.

And I've lost hope on Saera.

I would have loved for her to simply being married to Viserys...

A marriage between her and Aenys, filled with bastards left and right, is not amusing or anything, it frankly just sounds like a nightmare.

i was gonna ignore this just cuz i like to let people have their own opinions but i’ll use this as a launching point to expand upon some things. reminder that this is about gilded lilies.

1. i prefer to give the characters interesting lives. to me, having them all just pair up isn’t interesting. jokes aside, the circumstances around val having a baby are complicated bc it was an accident. he and gaemon don’t choose their career paths just because and i’ve never written val as someone who wanted to marry and have a family. his daughter is an accident and forbidden love/bad love decisions is the basis of so many things in asoiaf that i wanted to keep that

2. saera and aenys don’t have any bastards. i said a while back (i really need to compile all this info in one place 😭) but i’ve since the start wanted the parentage of saera’s kids to be a private source of debate. the way i write gilded lilies is as a canon divergent world that eventually falls back into line with canon. the choices i thus make for lucemond’s kids serve to reach that point (that point being aegon IV inevitably becoming king). viserys is her first love but aenys is her other half and they have an understanding with each other that isn’t easily,,,, understood lol

in gilded lilies, the most important thing to lucemond is the survival of their house. they wouldn’t be targaryens if there wasn’t drama but from the outside, they have a solid family with a single bastard (val’s daughter)

a large reason i began writing misty dream (as stated in the note of chapter 1) is because i wanted to write a alternative version of the family i made in gilded lilies where they can be happy without the burdens of duty and whatnot.

i know this is all very confusion probably and i hope to put all this info into one complied document one day, but until then that’s the jist. you are always welcomed to have your own opinions but i wanted to explain my thought process :)

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

Oh man I really agree with your tags on that one post. The whole king of delusion thing is terrible to me bc like. Delusions aren’t some gotcha you can use against him? It’s a serious mental health issue? But I’d also like to add I hate when people mock him for smelling bad or having poor hygiene or w/e… :/ It’s not funny when people with mental illness can’t properly take care of their hygiene lol I thought we were all understanding of this?

EXACTLY. It's not like "wow look how wrong you are and how terrible you are for being delusional".

Also the hygiene thing pisses me off too. I know lots of his fans use it as a joke, even affectionately, but like... he was homeless. He was living in the slums. Most people around him probably smelled bad. I'm sure they and he cleaned up whenever they could, but buddy, the slums isn't a public showering area. They'd be lucky if they were able to bathe. It's not something they take for granted. Even the "smelly cape" jokes bother me.

I've met homeless people. I've lived in a shelter where I met people who prior to that shelter lived in tents. Showering and bathing isn't something they could just get up and do before being in the shelter. Those people are lucky if they can even go to the bathroom in a proper bathroom, let alone being able to bathe.

Then like you said, on top of that, he's mentally ill. He's not thinking about his next bath. He's talking to people who are dead, believing they are answering him back and responding to their answers to him. There's also the general idea that Lambert's last words were not actually what were told to us via Dimitri's flashback, but the words he remembers because of his illness. He is very likely remembering wrong, because that version of Lambert matches the version of him that Dimtiri talks to, but does not match the version of him in Rodrigue's flashback.

Even depression can cause a lack of proper hygiene, and that's also a mental illness. In his case he has full on episodes of either psychotic breaks or having conversations with people who aren't there, and when he's out of those states he's desperately trying to do what he's been told to do by those voices. He's trying to do it both for those people and because, as he expresses later into AM, he wants them to stop. Those voices harass him day in and out and ridicule him and it hurts him, so he becomes desperate to do what they tell him so they stop tormenting him (which is part why he's so hellbent on hurrying to finish his tasks in the first half of AM).

It's an absolute spiral of a situation, where he already has these delusions but now on top of them feels absolutely terrible and like someone who has been emotionally abused by loved ones for years and years. He loves them but is terrified of them because they always say awful things to him or try to say things about him that aren't true. The worst part is that these are delusions of people who loved him and were nothing like this, so it causes even more suffering for him.

I don't really understand why it's so funny to people to poke fun at characters with or for bad hygiene. Like, firstly it's... just not a funny thing/topic? And secondly I'm sure there are people uncomfortable with it because they have bad hygiene or lower than "socially acceptable" hygiene due to mental illness and feel they're being laughed at as well for their hygiene. That's definitely a stereotypical mindset and something society does to make fun of people less fortunate than them, be it physically, mentally or both (like not having access to bathing.

Rich people can bathe whenever they want and often in media look down on "stinky people" who are always the poor, generally living in the slums). It's a very unfortunate dominant mindset and almost always comes from people who are more well off and haven't experienced it for themselves to realize how awful it can be (and there are of course people who don't need to experience something to know how bad it is, and I wish there were just more people like that).

I just don't understand what's so funny about hygiene. If anything it just feels like people laughing at the concept of someone not being up to society's standards about health, and it's what literal kids do to make fun of each other. Like, if someone smells bad, I feel like we should be more concerned about the person and why that is... and that would be the case if society raised its people to think that way, but since society raised people to be the opposite (to make fun of smelly people), most people who haven't experienced it for themselves make fun of it.

Like... idk am I missing something lol, I just don't see the humor in someone smelling bad. Even without considering any implications behind it I still don't see the humor in it. Considering Dimitri's circumstances though it just feels very wrong to see people make fun of him for that. I know fans of his that do it are doing it harmlessly and most likely wouldn't make fun of real people for similar things, but it just doesn't sit right with me. There's just nothing amusing about poor hygiene.

Using it as fuel to hate on him though is just is a show of someone's true character and who they really are. :/ Anyone who makes fun of him for his hygiene and mental illness are the kind of people who look down on people with those problems and deserve to experience it for themselves to see just how awful that shit can be. It being fictional doesn't change the fact that it's a show on someone's true character to be able to make fun of someone suffering, and especially to the extent Dimitri does.

Like yes, Edelgard suffered, but she has her own way of moving past it. She's not suffering in the same way as Dimitri or handling it the same way and comes across as "strong" for that - another societal mindset from people who think it's "strong" to not show that you're suffering or have suffered. It's how she handles it, sure, and that's fine... but it's people's reactions to how differently they handle their trauma that's so obnoxious.

People can only be pushed so far, and people hate on Dimtiri for his violence despite that being part of his illness and trauma. Hating on people for being violent as a result of their feelings or past is an awful thing and I really think anyone who can hate on a good and well meaning/intentioned person (real or fictional) simply because they're violent toward bad things needs some serious introspection (like Dimitri having violent reactions to seeing innocents being slaughtered in front of him at Remire. It was an impulsive reaction that he would've hid if he could have, but he wasn't able to).

Like oh no, how dare someone be violent and aggressive toward murderers! How dare someone say off with their head when they've done terrible things! Not everyone is perfectly peaceful and puritan. Hell, Edelgard isn't either and chooses violence as her first and foremost answer to everything, and only considers "negotiations" (i.e. anything that will benefit her/the Empire and only her) if she's losing and only stands to gain from them.

Her first solution to everything is violence, and yet Dimitri is the one who gets shat on for... being violent. Because of his trauma and illness specifically, both in game and out. But since Edelgard has been able to moved past her trauma for the most part and has a different way of handling it that "looks better", he looks "bad" for not having gotten past his trauma yet. Good for her to be able to handle it the way she does, but why is it "bad for him" that he can't handle it "better"?

[starlight-phantom]

Thoughts on Sonic Prime, the Netflix series? ^^

I binged it yesterday bc I got curious from seeing from the gifsets you were reblogging (oh, messed up alternate timelines my beloveds) and I really enjoyed it! :D

So, any notes? Anything in particular that caught your eye or that you'd like to see in future episodes? 👀

Well, I mean, I haven't really thought about it too much since we've only got eight episodes so far so I'm gonna wait till we've got the whole thing before I judge the series. But from what we've got so far:

I really like it.

It's not my favourite Sonic series, that's still Sonic X but nostalgia and the fact that it has a lot more episodes probably plays a big part in that so I'm not gonna hold that against Prime.

This personality for Sonic is a little bit different than what I'm used to but I still think it works really well and he manages to carry the show with his little comments.

I adore the alternate universe versions of the characters and how they take one aspect of them and change it, i.e Tails is a genius but if he never met Sonic and learned to have confidence in what makes him different so he becomes Nine, Amy is extremely kind and empathetic but if she couldn't talk about her feelings they go out of control and she becomes Thorn, etc. It's a simple concept but it works so well and they do it in a way where you don't need prior knowledge about the characters but if you do, you get some more enjoyment from it.

The worlds are all really interesting, my personal favourite so far is the pirate one, probably because there's no "We can't trust you!" Kinda thing going on like the other worlds 'cause that kinda conflict just irritates me after a while. And also just... Pirates are fun and the voices they have in that world are fun.

Speaking of voices, the voice acting is really, really good. I was a little nervous when they said the cast was gonna be different from the games because like... The voices have changed so many times... And it always starts arguments... But I really like this cast, especially Devan Mack as Sonic. Like he's not copying anyone, it's his own version of the character and he's got the cockiness, the cheekiness, the awkwardness, everything works perfectly. Not to mention, he nails the more serious scenes too like when Nine shows him the Grim and he has to turn him down. Apparently a lot of the cast were in MLP but I never saw that series, it wasn't on any channels I had growing up so I can't really comment, but they sound great in this series!

Another thing I love is the animation. I love the sheer amount of squash and stretch they use, it really gives Sonic's speed this zippy quality and just gives off this really fun vibe. And the fight coordination is really good, like that fight between Sonic and Shadow in Green Hill was great to watch. Not to mention, the effects they use for the prism powers look great. And my absolute favourite thing: They animate Sonic's ears to convey emotion. Instantly won me over with that.

Although, the thing I'm most looking forward to seeing more of has to be Shadow. Ngl it's been quite a while since he was written this well. I like the IDW comic version but even that has its problems sometimes. But I like how he is working towards what's best, he just sucks at communication and butts heads with Sonic because they both think they're doing the right thing. And while I don't like the characterisation of Shadow fighting Sonic on sight every time he sees him that most modern Sonic stuff does, I will say in Prime it's completely justified. I still find it funny that the first thing Shadow does when Sonic joins him in the void is punch him in the face.

Honestly, the only thing I'm not enjoying about Prime at the moment is the Chaos Council. I just don't find them funny or threatening. It's literally "oh here's five weird versions of Eggman with their own gimmick" like... Cool. Can we have just plain Eggman back please? The only thing I like about the Chaos Council is Rusty Rose. They might get better in the new episodes but I'm not holding my breath. They just really don't appeal to me.

But honestly on the whole, I'm really enjoying the series so far and I love all the small details they put into it like the aforementioned ear movements, how Rouge sleeps upside down, how Tails' tails are a lot thicker than Nine's tails because he actually uses them, the fact that the story ties back to the original Sonic game's themes of anti-industrialism in different ways, etc. Not to mention the little easter eggs like Tails' passcode being 1992, the year he debuted in Sonic 2, and Big's New Yoke identification code being 1998, the year he debuted in Sonic Adventure. I hope we get to see more things like that because they put a smile on my face.

Honestly, I hope the new episodes put more focus on Shadow now that he's finally got Sonic to come pick him up but I think he really has a lot of potential. And I'm really, really curious to see what Rouge's world is gonna be like. A lot of people are saying they'd like to see a Western style place which I agree would be pretty cool. And I hope more of the alternate universe characters interact with each other like how Rusty Rose and Black Rose did because that could lead to some interesting dialogue.

I didn't mean for this to become an entire goddamn essay but apparently I had some Opinions. Also none of my mutuals are really into Sonic so I don't get to talk it often so I guess it all just kinda exploded here.

[beyourownanchor6]

You're right, it's our hellsite. Home sweet home.

The cw multiverse was crazy. I love multiverses and multiverse theory but jesus christ dudette what the fck was that. Like... crisis on infinite earths is crazy. And i feel like the impacts of that event were never fully explored?? I mean. New universes. A bunch of multiverses pressed together into a new prime earth. What does that even mean?? Everyone died and was reborn but were the reborn versions the same as the original versions? Obviously not as all the wellses end up inside one wells. What does that mean for all the other alternative universe versions of the characters? How many deaths were just ignored? And why some characters who only existed in a paralel universe (like Supergirl) now exist in earth prime, but others (like jessie quick) don't?? The writers did not think this through.

Oh Black Lightning was great. The lead actor is super hot.

It's okay, i wasn't like traumatized or anything. I mean the first time my teacher froze and started crying and praying and wouldn't move so i, as the oldest kid in class, and also the only one other than the teacher who knew the protocols, had to take charge and keep my classmates safe and calm. I barricated the door, told everyone to move to the back of the class, and we just waited until the shooter was gone. I was pretty calm because i'd tutored the shooter the year prior, we were boys, so i knew he wouldn't shoot me. The second time was more stressful. I'd made a deal with my mom that i'd go back and finish high school if she went back and finished it too, so because of me she was also at the school during the shooting, so instead of barricading in place I grabbed a chair and left the classroom to stop the shooter before he could get to her. Thankfully i did not find him or i'd be ✨dead✨.

And oh that sounds like a great episode! I'm gonna look for it.

Omg i love venom and tom hardy is a hottie. Yeah the character is great! And i miss the marvel netflix shows too.

Ooh that's definitely a victory. Mine is still on the double digits. And I get that. I'm suddenly in the mood for thiam and it's like i got a bunch of steter and sterek in my read later i don't need to add a third ship to it. And this is just in the teen wolf fandom. And yay for 2 new books! And thank you! Good luck on your goals also!

Oh thank you for letting me know. Yeah same here. Can you explain beans to me? Is it like spoons? I tried explaining spoon theory to my mom but she didn't get it, maybe beans will be easier.

And niiice 😎😎

home is where the hellsite is?

damn, you just reminded me of so much cw superhero lore that i’d completely forgotten about, probably bc it was so out of pocket 😂 i feel like the multiverse episodes went nowhere essentially and definitely didn’t add to/make sense with the overall plots of the series separately like you said. it was like they wanted to get them all together like an avengers things but had no idea what they were doing or how to do any follow through. completely forgot about the wells thing. i think that was part of why the flash got annoying. they recycled that plot line way too many times, amongst others. they were just a disaster altogether, kind of like the shows themselves lol. i knew the black lightning actor from something else and really liked him, but was trying to get away from the superhero shows at that point lol.

oof, wow. i can’t imagine going through all of that, especially twice. that would be so scary. i’m glad that you were able to escape both unscathed and that you were there for your mom. glad you’re still with us today. also that’s really sweet you went back to school with your mom!

it’s season 3, episode 16! the whole series is amazing, i just rewatched it a couples months ago for the nth time 😅

i heard they’re supposed to be doing a new daredevil? i think a movie? not for sure though, maybe it was a show

oof double digits lol. i think the highest mine has gotten was like 11? i try not to let it get too bad but that doesn’t always work out lol. ohhh thiam, i have a whole list of recs i’ve been meaning to post for them! i’ve also written a few for them just to self promote 😆 i wish they had tabs to organize on the marked for later so i could keep all the fandoms separate

hmm i think it’s like spoons? but not sure 😅 i use it as in like, i’m really low on energy and don’t really have the “beans” to engage with this or that. so like, if i’m running low on energy i might not have the “beans” to interact with people and/or have conversations, but i have “beans” to doomscroll or watch tv whatever. idk if that makes sense lol

[yeetlegay]

i'm so comflicted on how i should be interpreting the scene with porsche's flashbacks. like he looks sooo hurt and heartbroken but is it because he feels taken advantage of or because he did something he usually wouldnt and then kinn punished him? is he disgusted? in the novel he has a hard time because of internalised homophobia but he's not homophobic here, apo even said he sees him basically as pan so it just makes the scene in the show so hard to read for me

I took my time to answer this ask bc I wanted to be thoughtful and process how I felt before responding.

So first off, I think we can't really know where his head is at until Porsche actually communicates it in words. What I say is just based off the visual information we've gotten from ep 5, which doesn't tell us everything.

In the very first scene, we see Porsche facing away from Kinn, bundled up under the covers, clearly numb and traumatized by the previous night. Later we learn that he seems to remember having sex with Kinn, but not much or even anything at all prior. (Probably has to do with him throwing up and becoming more lucid by the time they get in the bathroom.) He doesn't want to be around Kinn in that scene. He wants to be alone. We're left to wonder if Kinn specifically is the person he doesn't want to see, or if he just needs space period.

Here's where I think we get the most insight into how he's processing what happened.

The bathroom scene:

This is where we see Porsche having flashbacks of sex with Kinn, from his perspective, for the first time. The tone is very different from how it was portrayed in ep 4.

The music is uncomfortable, harsh, like something you'd hear in a psychological thriller or horror. (I'm not a music expert or anything, but it sounds like suuuuper processed strings, which is part of what makes it so unsettling - it's a very unnatural sound.) It builds slowly, overlaid with breathing, moaning, etc. This music is like listening to an anxiety attack happen in real time. (And horrifically different from the Free Fall piano version we heard before.)

The flashback is hazy, disjointed, out of focus. In Porsche's memory, it's less clear and less cohesive, just snapshots, glimpses, flickers.

And when he moans in his memory, it's overlaid with the yell he lets out in the present.

The cigarette lighter, the flame he's putting dangerously close to his mouth, could indicate that he's even feeling self-destructive, and hints at the danger lurking nearby in the past and the future with Vegas waiting to pounce when Kinn pushes Porsche away.

This whole scene is designed to make us extremely uncomfortable, even sick to our stomachs, because that's how Porsche feels. No matter what his feelings are for Kinn or how much he may have enjoyed the sex itself in the moment, he still feels violated, hurt, alone. The punishment Kinn inflicted on him just cinches all of that and confirms that Porsche won't get comfort or care from him.

Also, @luckydragon10 we finally got Porsche alone in a mirror, but at what cost??

The failed sex parallels scene (idk what to call this lol):

This scene is a little harder to pin down because it mixes both Porsche and Kinn's perspectives. But I think that's also kinda the point. The lines are blurred between them, between the pleasure they got out of the sex and the other feelings: guilt, violation, hurt, fear, even loss.

They're both having sex with people to try and forget about each other, but I think what's interesting here is that Porsche's memory in this scene isn't necessarily misaligned with Kinn's. His memory might be a little blurry, but he's remembering that he liked the sex itself, even if ultimately it's not how he would've chosen to have sex with Kinn, if he would've chosen it at all. And that's got to feel... complicated, to say the least.

He can't get Kinn out of his head, and he hates it. But how much of that is because of what Kinn did to him that night versus what Kinn did the next day (punishing him, placing him at a distance, dismissing him, treating him as disposable) is something we can't really say at this point imo.

That's really all I've got at this point, anon. I'm sure a lot of brilliant people will put out really brilliant metas this week dissecting more of Porsche's headspace and feelings in this episode, but I think I want to just sit with what I got from episode 5 and see how things go in episode 6. It's clear that this isn't cut and dry on either end, that they both have really messy feelings about what happened between them and feel helpless to fix or even discuss it in plain terms. Which I guess is why they had to get dropkicked into a forest with their wrists handcuffed together, because that's the only way these two will manage to communicate.

[lesbiancarat]

Book anon here and that is correct, I sent my ask prior to learning about the news. I found out a few minutes later from other svt blogs I followed so I want to apologize for my ask! I feel bad sending in the ask and I wasn't sure if I should send in another ask to apologize of my timing?

Its ok for taking a while to respond, please things have been, rocky shall I say? Within the fandom so take all the time you need! You could have also ignored my ask gjskdnak I would have understood! Things have been messy from day one and it seems to have calmed down? I cannot confirm this as I haven't looked up translations on twitter from fan accounts (we saw what happened with that) and am waiting on an official pledis statement which we can for once applaud them for doing their job. They put gose on hold and are communicating for the most part while getting proper info on this. Thus we are in an awkward period with the fandom, its weird to not see svt so much and it makes me realize how MUCH content we got from the boys and I miss them :c like even if they had no promo stuff we got weverse, twitter, and other stuff sprinkled in. Of course I'm not saying tbe mingyu situation isn't serious or anything like that, that is important as well but I hope you know what I mean?

Now back to topic, agreed with everything you said! I want to say I wish reposters could STOP doing stuff like this but well, they won't. Its sadly the internet and many people view things as once its online, its not yours mind set ya know what I mean? I feel bad for content creators that they go to great lengths to protect their work but sometimes it slips through the cracks all because buttsock people dont know common sense

Ssp is iconic and that is facts. Even if I got frustrated with it, if was a fun game and I liked it. I do thank the bts version for getting me into the other games of superstar because they are fun so its a shame to see it be gone so quick. I read that as well and as someone that is playing rhythm hive, the game is buggy but has improved but I can see svt and nuest on there. Since the game is sort in a beta/alpha phase, I'm guessing they are using the "official release" as a big update that can maybe include pledis artists. (Apparently the current state of the game is like a beta? Lol) Of course I'm not sure since we have no official statements or early leaks like when people found out bigbit bought out the video game company that is doing rhythm hive. We shall see, I would like to see a svt game of some sorts still!

ahh it's not your fault at all! you couldn't have known there's nothing to apologize for ^^

and yes, things have calmed down a lot, it feels like all the information that the OPs have to share is out there, now it's just a matter of Pledis clearing up the last little bit. and i agree, Pledis has handled this well!

and yeah i know what you mean. i mean it's looking like the issue is getting cleared up since mg and OP1 resolved their issues and the other claims either have been or look like they will be proven false. but i think it makes sense to miss them, even if mg had been guilty of all of the claims, or at least to miss SVT/mg as we know them. like, even if it came out that all of SVT were serial killers or something like that where it's obviously unforgivable, i still think it would make sense for Carats to miss the SVT we thought we knew, who brought us joy. now that a lot of the claims are starting to get cleared up i think a lot of ppl are more comfortable saying they miss SVT. but i guess my point is when everything was first happening and a lot of ppl thought mg was being accused of way worse stuff i still think it's natural for ppl to miss SVT, and shouldn't feel guilty. it doesn't mean u condone the action in question. i just say this bc i feel like i see a lot of posts of ppl saying they miss SVT but it sounds like they feel guilty about it

yeah it really is impossible to completely protect something once you put it online which sucks!! like ppl could argue if creators didn't want their work stolen they shouldn't put it online, but creators should be allowed to share things without worrying about that. plus for people who do some kind of art for a living, the internet is probably the best way to advertise these days

yeah i wouldn't be surprised if it takes a little while to announce SVT/nuest being added to rhythm hive even if that is the plan. since ssp just ended there might be contract/legal stuff to work out before the songs can be added to another rhythm game. but yeah even though I'm pissed if it really is true that bh ended ssp for their own rhythm game i guess having something is better than nothing. but I'm mostly worried that they won't add after school, pristin, etc. to the new game bc it seems unlikely they will :(

[deliriousscenarios]

Aww. I hope you are feeling better now, but not gonna lie I was really happy that I got to lift your mood a bit. Last time I forgot to "sign" but it was me, Adorable Baepsae. I have been doing good, but I'm gonna go cry in a corner because classes are almost starting again. Btw, are you sure your favorite band is BTS? I was pretty sure it was GOT7. 😂 Anyways, you said you like old books, can you tell me some you have read? Bc I really love books, but I'm kind of running out of them?😂 -AB

Hey my sweet baby!! Gosh! Always bringing light into my life, even when I don't know it's you! ^^ thank you so, my sweet A.B!! It sucks you've gotta go back, but I'm sure the rest of the year will fly by and then it'll be summer and you can relax away the stress of your stellar first year ^^ honestly, I'm super proud of you, and I don't doubt for even a second you're gonna ace the second half of the academic year too! Good luck, my babeh, I'll be cheering you on the whole way! 😁😁😁 🎉🎉🎉Lmfao! My love for both groups is so hard to explain, but I promise musically it's BTS. Every comeback they remind me exactly why I rate them so highly (speaking of.... FEBRUARY IS COMING!!!!!! 😱😱😱). Don't get me wrong, Got7 are a close blooming second, and Def Soul almost ties for first. Forgive me, Army, I am not loyal! 😅😅😅 but yeah, for now, it's BTS ^^I do like old books, my sweet, but I probably should have specified, I like the way the old pages smell the most. I find it super soothing, lmfao. I'll recommend a mixture of old and new, if that's okay ^^ also, I think this is gonna be a long list, so I'll put this in a read more ^^ that, and I'm super extra and can't do anything without rambling so forgive me in advance!

(Things in bold = Highly recommend)

A few Golden Oldies/Classics - A Picture of Dorian Grey (Oscar Wilde) - Tess of the d'Urbervilles (Thomas Hardy)- Animal Farm (George Orwell)- Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass (Lewis Carroll)- Goodnight Mister Tom (Michelle Magorian)(Technically this book came out in the 80's but it's still amazing, and I consider it a classic)- Oliver Twist (Charles Dickens)- Of Mice and Men (John Steinbeck)(Can I just say now, this novel is heartbreaking, but bloody beautiful. I had to read it for GCSE English and I fell in love immediately)- A Clockwork Orange (Anthony Burgess)(This is from the 60's but it's another classic. Though prior warning, the storyline is a lot messed up, but it's a really interesting read. It's honestly so good! Way better than the film, and the film wasn't even terrible. It's a pretty easy read too, I literally read it in a day. It's only like 170 something pages ^^)- Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? (Philip K. Dick)(Another one from the 60's but a classic if ever I saw one. This book is the whole reason I got into reading Sci Fi)- Charlotte's Web (E.B. White)- Jaws (Peter Benchley)(This is from the 70's and not quite a classic just yet, despite how famous the film is, but it's actually really good and worth reading at least once ^^)- Wicked (Gregory Maguire)(Now, this book came out in '95, so technically is neither old nor a classic but as far as I'm concerned it's the best classic there's ever gonna be!! I can't even begin to put into words how much I love this book. It's actually really different to the musical (which I also adore with all my heart) and I have to sort of separate them in my head when I watch/read them but it is one my all time favourites. I read the book before watching it, so the book will always have a special place in my heart. I recommend this to absolutely everyone. IT IS AMAZING!!)

I've realised that nearly all the books I've "highly recommended" are actually lacking in the romance department, so incase that's what you were most interested in, my babeh, in this section, I'll only recommend romance ^^

- Dinner With A Vampire (Abigail Gibbs)(Forewarning: Kaspar starts out as a complete and total dick, but I can't help loving him anyway! I have issues apparently)(contains mild smut sort of but isn't supposed to be the main focus, I've just got a one track mind, lmfao)- Experiment in Terror Series (Karina Halle)(Unless you don't like supernatural reads, then I wouldn't touch these with a ten foot barge pole. It can get quite scary ^^)(These also contain smut but in the later books)- Can You Keep A Secret? (Sophie Kinsella)- The Sky is Everywhere (Jandy Nelson)(This book is freaking amazing, but mainly focuses on grief, the actions that can cause us to make and how it effects our lives moving on from it. This book is beautiful but will probably make you bawl your eyes out)- The Duff (Kody Keplinger)- Saving Wishes (G.J. Walker-Smith)(Honestly, I recommend the whole Wishes series. Especially the second book, Second Hearts. It's my favourite out of all of them)- Anna and the French Kiss (Stephanie Perkins)- Fatal Secrets (Richie Tankersley Cusick)(This is a Point Horror which are no longer being punished but, I still really recommend this and loads of others from the Point Horror Publishers, those books are the true definition of my childhood. They're the whole reason I learnt to read ^^)- Soul Love (Lynda Waterhouse)- This Man Trilogy (Jodi Ellen Malpas)(Pretty much published smut, with a pretty awesome plot. If I hadn't read these books, I probably never would've written smut. This was the one that got me hooked on it ^^)- The Fallen Star Series (Jessica Sorensen)(There's an alternative version to this series that the same author has written and they contain smut, but I read this version first and liked it more, so I haven't read past the first book of the others. They might be good though ^^)- Sweet Addiction (Bk1) & Sweet Possession (Bk2) (J. Daniels) (More published smut with a sort of plotline that maybe doesn't seem to go anywhere. From what I can remember I did think the smut was good tho)- Royals Saga (Geneva Lee) (More smut. I've only read the first two, but I thought they were pretty good ^^)- AfterMath (Denise Grover Swank)(Contains mild smut)

A Very Special Mention:- When God Was A Rabbit (Sarah Winman)(This book is not a romance novel, and the subject matter can get really freaking heavy at times, but this book got to me in a way no other book ever has. I'm not saying this is the most amazing book in the world, or anything like that, but personally, it means so much to me. Before I read this, I was so undecided about my future and always second guessing myself, but as soon as I finished it, I knew 100% I wanna be a writer. I don't even know what it was about it, it just hit me and it hit me hard. For that reason alone, this book will always be my all time favourite)

So, yeah... Just a few to get you started, my sweet A.B, lmfao. I jk, obviously I don't expect you to read all of them, but hopefully you'll find one or two in there you might wanna read ^^ ♡