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qoldenskies · 2 days ago

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I feel you with the mental health issues. I had a breakdown today over an objectively small problem. One nap later and I'm still a bit melted. My return to humanity will be slow

i honestly just kind of listen to my gut and my, like, two month long feeling of anticipation (/pos) crashed into anticipation (/neg) and now im suddenly expecting something bad to happen for such a small meaningless reason that shouldn't realistically have that much weight im just weird LOL

idek what i was expecting before. i kept thinking SOMETHING was going to happen but now its been replaced by like. ive fallen off. ive not made anything worth talking about and my work is useless forEVERRRRRR and i bet in like a day or two im gonna be me like Man what the fuck was that. Anyway

#ask #might just be because cc is almost over and im worried the final product isnt good #and ive been extremely insecure about the last few chapters. the fact that theyve kind of been flopping is a big reason for that i think?#and then i noticed an extra thing that set me off and i spiraled really bad #im just hyperaware of things. eventually im gonna learn to let things go #i just have to kind of ride out the wave instead of succumbing to the impulse to just remove every avenue to talk to me #delete tumblr and disappear or whatever #because my brain keeps trying to tell me to expect persecution #shit's wack yo #please know im aware these feelings are irrational and i am not requesting validation im fine. theyre just suffocating sometimes #not much i can do about that. im trying to not let it effect my output

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