#and its even worse cuz the last wedding i was just so happy and getting pics and being like oh. is that what i look like happy.

[theongreyjoyyyy]

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[anime-kia]

Noncommittal

I guess this is me getting somethings off my chest. I'm in my feelings and I'm SICK! Men are annoying LMFAOOO:(OOOOO.

Warnings: Angst

Relationship: Ex Boyfriend Erik x Reader (but y'all are talking... cuz... feelings...)

I was listening to You Don't Know by Tank feat. Wale while writing this. You can also listen to Kehlani's new album if you need a soundtrack lol.

You had no idea what plans God had made for you when this man walked into your life. It had to be some sick joke. 

You met Erik five years ago, and dated eight months after knowing each other. He was perfect, your ideal partner that you weren't actively seeking. You even saw a future with him, a small wedding, and maybe a few kids, but it all came crashing down in an instant. 

Broken communication and wandering eyes were the key factors in the end of what you thought was your future. 

Baby ❤️: I'm just not feeling it anymore...

You couldn't count on your fingers how many times you read his text over and over again. He didn't even the balls to breakup with you in person. 

The tears fell from your eyes, coating your phone screen in a slick layer. Constantly you wiped it with your sleeve, but more kept falling. 

The devastation left you to leave him with a simple 'Okay'. Too broken to be mad, and for months, too sad to be optimistic. 

You spent nights in bed, tears streaming down your cheeks. He was running through your mind from morning to night. Despite all your friends telling you to forget about him, it was hard to forget someone who had you smiling so hard that your cheeks started to hurt. Laughing so hard that tears would spill from your eyes. 

But those were happy tears...

Now... These tear filled eyes were followed by headaches, heartache and snot.  

Though Erik himself stayed off of social media, his new girlfriend surely didn't. Thanks to your best friend, the pretty brown skin with hazel eyes was now someone you stalked from time to time. Just to see his face... That smile that had you bending at will, his every command. 

There were a few videos of them, at restaurants, the basketball court, and other places he would visit with you. Often times he would push the camera away when she aimed it at him, complaining about "the feds".

However there was one picture that made you itch. His head wasn't in the frame, but she had hers against his chest, manicured fingers sprawled across that brawny frame. The caption made it even worse: He's gonna put a ring on it 😘 

Only if she knew that Erik didn't like commitment... That would've avoided the horrible remarks she made about him exactly two weeks after that last post. 

You felt embarrassed for her, but at the same time you were happy that she wasn't with your m- With Erik. 

A couple years later and you were back to yourself, not pressed or crying over Erik anymore. He wasn't running through your mind day to night. 

It was all going great, you were even dating again. And just before you did enter a relationship with the date your sister set you up with, he came back.

A contact that shifted all the way to the bottom of your list had made its way back on top.

His number being the only thing showing, but you memorized it long ago.

Hey. Wyd?

You stared at the message, heart rate picking up and all the emotions flooding back in at once. 

A simple question as that and you felt like you'd been ask to solve the hardest equation in the world. 

Should I ignore it?          

But of course you couldn't. Your heart wouldn't allow you to.

Getting ready to go on a date.

Petty always was the best way to go...  However, it was true. Your date would be pulling up in the next thirty minutes to take you to an Italian restaurant. 

When you getting back?

Again, you stared at the message baffled. What did it matter to him?

Idk.

And that was that. 

Or so you thought. 

"I don't know, the way that waitress was staring at you makes me feel like I have competition." You joked with your date, Rome, who just pulled into your driveway.

But the lights shining on the figure sitting on the steps of your front porch had the both of you quiet for a moment.

"Nah, maybe I'm the one who got competition." He said with a troubled tone.

"I... Rome, thank you for this. I'll call you later, okay?" You kissed him on the cheek and exited the car.

"You want me to come with you?" 

"I'll be okay." You gave him a smile. He nodded and you waved him goodbye, watching as the car pulled out of the driveway.

Erik was staring at you, still seated. It was hard to see his face now that the headlights weren't shining anymore, and the porch light was off. 

You walked closer, ready to remove your heels that threatened to toss you to the ground with a small misstep. 

"Why are you here, Erik?" 

"To see you." 

"For what?" 

"What you mean for what? I'm not allowed to see you?"

You stared at him incredulously. 

"There's nothing to see..." You moved around him, but he caught your arm, staring your body down.

He would say otherwise. Erik kissed his teeth, irked that you had the audacity to step out the house in a slim fitting dress and high heels for another man. 

"Nah, there's a lot to see, ma." He bit his bottom lip, gold slugs glowing in the dark. His eyes were drowned in lust, hypnotizing you as if nothing happened.

Things were never the same, even after you allowed him back into your life. You didn't take him back, you couldn't. 

The fear of him breaking your heart, and the fear of the feelings you felt all those years ago terrified you. So all you could resort to was a situationship. 

Admitted, it wasn't ideal for your future plans. You still wanted to get married and you still wanted children. Everything Erik didn't want back then. 

However, one drunk night of FaceTime resulted in you promising to have his baby in the next few years. Was it a mistake? 

At first, you believed that he didn't want to be in a relationship with you, but if there was one thing you could confirm, it was that he didn't want you to be boo'd up with anyone who wasn't him.

Until one day he made a suggestion.

"I think you need to be with me."

You stared at him, one eyebrow raised then looked away before speaking. "I really don't think that's a good idea, Erik." You couldn't look him in his eyes.

Of course you wanted him back, you were in love with him. No matter what he did, your heart couldn't let go of him. But you refused to be broken again. 

"Why not?"

"Cuz I don't want to go through everything we did before. I can't."

After that, he didn't bring it up again. 

Though you wanted him to, just to vent to him and get everything off your chest. But he wouldn't... So you were left with an active mind, which became even more active once he started showing up less.

Not a text, not a phone call.

Truly, you were exhausted. You were sick of him putting you in your feelings, just to go MIA and return at his own will. 

It made you wonder if he even cared. Or were you just entertainment while other females weren't available? 

You were a human with valid emotions.

No matter how much you cussed him in private, saying you were done with him, you knew it was lie. 

He had you wrapped around his finger, because maybe fate decided that he was your soulmate. A twisted and sick joke made by the universe, tying you to this man who didn't know within himself what he wanted. 

Maybe Prince Charming would be out there to save you one day, but for now... Erik Stevens had you under a spell that felt impossible to break. 

I hope y'all enjoyed!

I been meaning to get this off my chest and into my diary (yes I have one), but I decided to write instead and of course due to story purposes I changed up quite a bit from my actual situation lol. 

Thanks for reading!

(Start/Finish: May 17, 2020)

[normal-thoughts-official]

Do u think Alec and raphael would have good relationship on the show after the finale? You have good metas about Raphael and I wanted to ask do you think Alec punching him was justified? Or could be redeemed?

ive talked about the punching before and i think the punching... was definitely not in any way justified, it wasn't rapha's fault, it was IZZY who fucking roped him into addiction not the other way around lol. but also alec didnt know that so i kinda get why he did it cuz that's his little sister and at the end of the day if you see your little sibling in a situation where it looks like they're being hurt it's punch first ask questions later

at the same time, i cant pretend racism didnt have something to do with his immediate assumption that it was rapha's fault (both because he's a vampire and because he's latino and of course latinos are All Predatory Sexy Drug Dealers) despite the fact that rapha wasn't hurting izzy at all. but there was also a lot of context that would point in that direction cuz he knew izzy was suffering because of addiction and that she was roped into it and then he saw a vampire feeding on her so like. i wouldnt ask questions either y'know?

so like alec definitely wasn't right about it and it wasn't justified but i don't exactly fault him for it either. i fault the writing for never questioning the whole "rapha was the one who roped izzy into it" narrative or the punch, and for having MAGNUS of all people be judgemental or rapha. magnus who knew rapha back when he was addicted. magnus who helped him recover. magnus who KNEW he had been clean for decades and how hard he worked towards that. magnus who knows rapha's heart better than anyone and knows how much he cares and that he'd never ever do this... just fucking assumed it was rapha's fault. bullshit. sorry that's just complete and utter bullcrap

so i don't find the writing redeemable but i do think the punch is something they could have worked out, if alec apologized to him and said that it wasn't his fault and they actually talked about it. but that would have to happen, you know? it cant just be like, we move on now. especially because obviously a part of rapha blames himself for the yin fen thing which is INSANE. izzy was the one who triggered and used him, not the other way around. that couldnt have been more obvious, its not debatable and the only reason ppl even entertain the idea that rapha was at fault is racism

and like look izzy is not a monster or whatever she was literally desperate enough to put her life on the line for vampire venom (like when she showed up at the den) but that doesnt make it any less true that she triggered rapha's addiction on purpose several times. the circumstances make it not be Pure Evil on her part, but they dont make it any less awful for raphael. and while i still mostly like izzy and think she's "redeemable", i fully understand those who don't and even agree with their reasoning honestly, especially because sh never acknowledged her fucked up actions and the fandom treats that plotline in a completely izzy-centric way despite the fact that rapha was in a way, WAY worse position than her

and i only find her redeemable assuming that she 1- took the full fault for what happened; 2- apologized to rapha; 3- tried to make things right. not in a catholic Feeling Guilty way but as in like trying to help raphael way - like finding him a support group for example. which is what i hc happened in my version of sh where things make sense and the writing isn't racist shit

anyway anyway. yes i could see alec and rapha working it out. i can't really see a close relationship, tho. first, because at the end of the day alec is on izzy's side first and foremost even if he's willing to admit she was at fault, and while i think that obviously rapha has forgiven her and they have like, positive feelings for each other, distance between him and izzy is not only present but good for them both and especially for rapha. so i can't see them being close. beyond that, i don't see much rapha and alec have in common besides loving magnus with their whole hearts and being autistic

i guess they have similar senses of humor so i could see them having some whispered conversations where they roast the attendees at a clave event or something, but they dont last long and mostly rapha is focused on, you know, his friends, partners, family, his clan. and i also think it would take rapha a loooong time to fully trust alec with magnus, because well... alec did fuck up plenty of times lmao and rapha knows better than anyone that as good intentioned as the lightwoods may be they have a lot of potential to really fucking hurt downworlders, and he's seen it happen to magnus already. but also alec does have magnus' happiness as his first priority and more and more so as time goes by, so i think eventually hed grow to trust alec. he was obviously happy at their wedding and he knew how much that meant for him, so

so i think they'd have, like. a neutral-to-positive relationship with each other (especially as time goes by and rapha begins to trust alec more and the yin fen thing feels less raw) and might even team up and trust each other to have their backs in battle and stuff like that, but i cant really see them being super close. but like thats okay and it works, and besides, neither of them would want to have magnus choose, so they interact with each other just fine and as long as magnus is happy, theyre happy, really

[talkingismylifewrites]

40, Hot Space OT4 angst

40. Write an alternative ending to [insert fic title] (or just the summary of one).

oh man, you realize the alternative ending would be them not getting back together, right? like, roger would either a) never be able to trust them again b) not want to trust them again or c) die. 

but basically what would happen is roger would throw himself into the cross, and queen would end up dying. it’s freddie’s decision, he just can’t handle seeing roger suffer through dealing with seeing john and continuing to drink himself halfway to death. so queen ends, and roger starts the cross, which becomes stupidly famous. probably helps that freddie and roger make lots of songs together. 

(freddie watches from across the studio as john approaches roger, his hands twisting as he tells him that “daisy’s been saying that she really misses him, and well, it would be good for her if you came over for dinner this weekend.” and freddie is just so fucking tired of watching roger’s kids get dangled in his face and taken away from him while he has to drive him to the hospital to get his stomach pumped. so he announces at the end of practice that he’s done, queen, is dead, and he’s going on his own way. because he’d kill queen, he’d give up everything, if it would save roger. he loves roger more than he loves himself, the money, the fame.) 

after one of the cross’ shows, freddie introduces roger to debbie leng, and she’s like, instantly into him. roger, however, is still nursing a broken heart and trying to keep his family semi normal, so he’s more hesitant to get on board with her. but after a while, he’s not seeing john as much, the wound isn’t as deep (still deep, still needs stitches, but he’s no longer working his way through a bottle of gin every night). so he agrees to go on one date with her, just to grab a coffee. one date turns into another, which turns into another, and another, and before they know it they’re dating. 

meanwhile, back at the big house, john and ronnie and dom are slowly realizing that they can’t actually fix things, but that doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. they start to kinda close the wounds together, filling the hole that roger left behind, and slowly, things start getting better. it’s easier to see roger, and easier to communicate. they don’t withhold the kids, they start doing one week on and one week off, and they settle on a custody agreement. 

about a year post the end of queen, vera, their second child and roger’s biological daughter with ronnie, accidentally lets it slip that “daddy has a girlfriend her name is debbie and she’s really cool”. 

(roger kept debbie separate and quiet for as long as he could, but one morning he woke up and realized he was going to miss debbie for the week, and that he knew vera would really like her. so he introduces her as his good friend-- which robbie and vera see right through-- and by the end of the week, they realize, oh shit, debbie’s here to stay) 

it sends shockwaves through the family; dom, who has always been holding onto the hope that they can fix things, ends up having a breakdown; ronnie is like cool cool cooolcoolcoolcoolcoool; and john starts drinking again. it’s rough, really, and they don’t handle it as well as they can. 

meanwhile, roger has finally introduced debbie to his hoard of children and explains that they are all his, and he had three partners and when things ended it nearly killed him. debbie holds him close and promises that she’s not going anywhere, and she’s always thought that bali was overrated anyways. 

and it sucks, really, it sucks, because suddenly roger and debbie aren’t hiding their relationship, and the paps are just going crazy taking pictures of them and accusing roger of cheating on poor dominique, leaving her alone with their three kids (daisy, HA#1, and kitty) while veronica and john have to hold down the fort with the rest of their kids (robbie, vera, HA #2). and roger is getting vilified in the papers, but he doesn’t say anything because he doesn’t want them to a) be outed or b) hurt their kids further. plus, he still loves them. so he just kinda brushes it off and keeps working on the cross. 

debbie, meanwhile, loves roger’s kids, really, she loves them so much. and it’s hard, because the kids now have a third “mother” in their lives, and some of them (daisy, robbie) are really rebelling against her while dom/ronnie/john are really hurt that vera in particular loves debbie. plus, no one wants to see their kids bonding with someone else, especially when it means that debbie is proof of their relationship being dead.

it takes them a while to find some solider ground, and then debbie gets pregnant. now, the last time roger was going to be a dad, things fell apart before his eyes, so he’s really kinda shaken at the idea of losing another kid. and debbie grabs him by the hand and is like listen to me: i’m not going anywhere. you are the father of my baby and the love of my life and when i say i’m sticking around, i mean it. so they decide to get married in a small little courthouse ceremony with freddie and jim and crystal as witnesses. they keep it small and private, and they tell the kids later when its their turn. 

this time, its robbie who announces that “daddy’s married debbie AND they’re gonna have another baby”. the impending breakdown is somehow worse as roger never wanted to get married before, and now he’s married debbie. 

dom takes it extra hard, and it doesn’t help that she makes an offhand comment about it to jim, who, having staked his flag firmly for team roger, is like “oh that’s cuz he needed some stability, though i don’t know why, it’s not like debbie’s gonna leave in the middle of the night with their kid”. (they...don’t see much of jim and freddie for a while after that). 

the kids are...okay with the new baby. like, not super happy? but not terribly upset. and when the baby comes, roger is like look kids! new sibling! and again, this whole time he’s never treated any of the kids like they weren’t his, even the ones who are obviously not his (robbie, for one) he still loves so much because he raised them, he loved them, he cherishes them. so obviously little rufus is their sibling, too. 

(they were terrified that the new baby meant that they were getting left behind. robbie had always been told that dom and roger chose to love him, that the moment they knew he was theirs, whether not he actually was. so what if the new baby is proof that roger was gonna forget about his other kids and only love rufus??)

(stupid, really, roger loves all of his kids) 

and there’s drama as well where robbie wants to live full time with roger, but john and ronnie have to awkwardly explain to him that legally, he can’t, he’s not roger’s kid, so he can’t. neither can vera, even though roger is her dad. the only ones who technically could are the ones dom gave birth to, even though john is half of their fathers. and its terrible, and it causes one of the biggest fights between the kids and the parents because they’ve been told all their lives that roger is their dad and now he’s not?? and robbie ends up running away to freddie’s and roger has to awkwardly pick him up and be like robbie, buddy, you’re my son. you’ve always been my son, and you always will, but the law is the law. and i want you to stay with me, but so do your papa and mummy. and so you have to stay with them, but you can call me every day and still come see me. 

vera, too, wants to spend more time with debbie (she loves debbie, it causes a ton of friction because vera wants to be a model and debbie is helping her with that and dom and ronnie are like wtf does she have that we don’t) but she can’t either. and the kids are chafing under the custody agreement and it’s so. fucking. hard. (vera also doesn’t help by tag teaming the parents into thinking the other are okay with her and debbie going to london fashion week together, which sparks a terrible all out brawl between the five adults over custody and “real parents”).

eventually, they also realize daisy, who’s always hated debbie, is trying to parent trap her parents back together, and veronica and dom have to very gently tell her that, no, honey, they’re not going to get together, and it’s no one’s fault, it’s just what happens. there are lots of tears. 

so everyone gets put in family therapy, and they start to talk about what happened, and how to move forward. and it helps! they all start to heal, and they realize that yeah, it sucks, and they’ll always love each other, but what happened can’t be changed, and they’ve all moved on. 

the kids start calling debbie “mama deb” and they implement their own traditions and holidays, they buy a giant house out in the country where they get like three dogs and too many cats, and a cow because daisy was vegan for a hot second and felt bad for one, and HaHa love llamas so they get one (freddie’s terrified of it its great). and they spend holidays and birthdays as a family, and they slowly move past what happened. 

debbie and roger have a few more kids, and dom/ronnie/john end up having another baby as well. and the whole time, they just stress the importance of family: the kids are well cared for, they love each other, and they’re moving forward. 

and, when the kids grow up and get married, roger, debbie, john, veronica, and dominique are all up at the parent’s table smiling and laughing and celebrating the job well done that they did raising their brood of kids. dom/john/ronnie even come to roger and debbie’s kids weddings and graduations, and no one can ever deny how much they all love each other. 

no, it’s not perfect, and there are issues, but they love each other and they love the kids and at the end of the day they can say that they’re friends and that what happened happened. 

and, eventually, they all live happily ever after. 

p.s. vera is the one who finally sets the record straight on how roger was in a long term relationship with her parents, no, no one cheated, yes, she loves debbie she’s her step mom and fuck no they’re not terrible parents even though they were in a polyamorous relationship that imploded. she’s sixteen and fierce and the second it happens, miami gets the urge to buy a costco-sized tub of alkaselters for his ulcer. (it’s name is vera). ratty also looses £250 to crystal because he bet that it would be Ha#2 that would spill the beans, not vera. 

[dahniwitchoflight]

Candy 15-17

Alright I know this is supposed to be sad but this feel so ridiculous it’s funny

“He ventures a glance at Dave, who is at the front of the line carrying a smaller casket containing Dirk’s decapitated head. “

why is there a seperate casket for the head, that’s not what funeral homes do xD

“It would be absurd were it not so tragic, and possibly also predictable.” 

“He looks at Dirk’s casket, sitting diagonally in a hole in the floor and popped about 13% of the way open.”

That’s a strangley specific number

Am I to take the imagery of something being diagonal as imagery for a “4″ and then complete it with the 13 to make 413?

Cuz is so, that’s heavy handed and ridiculous probably just as Dirk intended

“ROXY: and give it over to someone whos way more eloquent than me

Dave gets to his feet”

right because Dave is always so eloquent when it comes to delicate emotional matters lol

I don’t know why I’m finding this all so hilarious instead of tragic, maybe because it’s so melodramatic and in a way that feels scripted specifically by Dirk himself

ah, 3 quarters 

3 1/4′s

413 backwards now

“or even worse that he was somehow cosmically fated to become that person no matter what he wanted or did to prevent it “

I’m noticing more and more every time the phrase Cosmically fated is used in some form of Homestuck media its always bringing to mind ideas of Doc Scratch, like he’s the one who said it actually or it’s said in reference to him

so, +1 point to DS = DS again

“Gamzee:  I may not be all up and learned about his life, but I’ve got deep spirital connections to his death.”

yeah you sure do, and we’re not even talking about his decapitation right now aren’t we Gamzee?

This is actually a really solid point that the day “Dirk” died was the day his ultimate self got poisoned through the unholy merger that is Lord English/Caliborn/Gamzee/AR/Equius

So he’s probably been a bastard ever since Lord English started existing, which I mean “I am already here” blahblah means Dirk was very likely like this from the start potentially, but he was probbaly only really a bastard ever since Arquis got sucked into Caliborn/Gamzee

“GAMZEE: ThIs WaS nO cOiNcIdEnCe. It WaS a HiGhEr PoWeR gUiDiNg My PaTh.

GAMZEE: tHeSe PoWeRs MaDe SuRe ThAt I wOuLd Be ThErE, tO rEcEiVe A gReAt WaRrIoR’s FiNaL mEsSaGe, AnD rElAy It To YoU oN tHiS dArK aNd DrEaRy DaY oF dEaTh.

GAMZEE: HoNk!

The clown thrusts his hand somewhere beneath the waistband of his pants and starts obscenely rooting around. He retrieves a piece of paper, crumpled and soaked from the rain outside, and attempts to smooth it out over the lectern. The wet paper breaks apart immediately beneath his oafish clown paws.

GAMZEE: AwWw, ShIzZ. i GuEsS i’Ve GoT tO uP aNd WiNg It!”

yeah that note was probably the last shredded remnants of good dirk since there’s literally no reason to leave a sentimental note like that for his friends, makes sense Gamzee was guided by “a higher power” to grab it and make sure it gets relayed more like ruined to his friends

“KARKAT: THAT WAS HALF A HUNDRED WORDS TO EXPRESS A THREE LETTER SENTIMENT.

KARKAT: I’D SAY HE’S DOING FINE.”

What? How does “I’d say he’s doing fine” translate into “a three letter statement”?

Are they just hamfisting in the threes now or what?

“DAVE: i dunno dude thats

DAVE: a little fucked up actually

JOHN: you think so?

DAVE: yeah

DAVE: dirk was a complicated guy

DAVE: dude obviously had reasons for doing what he did

DAVE: if you go back and just rewrite his decision

DAVE: thats like denying him his personal autonomy

JOHN: huh. i... didn’t think about it that way.“

Yeah if only they’d realize that what Dirk needs is a huge heaping helping of someone pushing back against his dumb decisions for once

Gotta give it to John though, he’s struggling against this drugged up haze so hard, he knows getting married to Roxy isn’t right and tries to think about that

but then he gets caught up in the drugged up candy haze and starts giggling, yeah you guys are gonna be happy alright, happy in a nice little drugged up stupor

lampshaded by John still reaching out to terezi despite being at his human wedding

Aww, trolls don’t have a concept of weddings? well, that makes sense but still

oh man it just keeps happening, this is supposed to be the story where John and Roxy get their love story, but all were actually getting is the faded echoes of what should have been which is apparently John and Terezi

oh god, Jane, jane why did Gamzee have to be your third partner, what the fuck even

I don’t wanna think about Gamzee about in relationships nope this is where I start getting uncomfortable

confirmed jade attempting Blackrom with Karkat, that’s interesting, and she’s bad at it too meaning she must not really have an interest in it

oh wow, she’s really just doing it because she thinks its what Karkat would want isnt she? Girl really is just desperate for love

“Three months later, John is still thinking about his last conversation with Terezi.”

See, this is how you know the JohnRoxy relationship is doomed/not meant to be

John Egbert, lover of Con Air and Nic Cage, has a loving wife and (probably) daughter and NOT ONCE has this narrative shown them OR made the joke, we just absolutely passed over the whole wedding and birth event in one fell swoop of unrequited feelings jam with another woman

Why is Roxy praying? That’s such a weird thing to drop as a small detail, who would she even be praying too?

“What’s bugging him about it is that Roxy didn’t seem to have any suggestions of her own.”

Yeah relationships built on social chameleon-ing aren’t happy for the chameleon either

Yeah John, little bit late to be having this sudden realization that you didn’t actually solve the problem (LE) by running away from it, even if everyone else has accepted that version of events

“ JOHN: you gave me a list of instructions and told me that i had to use my retcon powers to go back to a very specific point in time to defeat lord english when he was still just a kid. “

*THEORY INCOMING KILL BILL SIRENS ACTIVATE*

Wait, is that what Rose said at the beginning? No it isn’t, I remember the bit about John has to go back inside canon and defeat Lord English, I don’t think the method was ever fully explained though, nor the idea that he had to defeat him as a kid, it was never said he had to go back in time, just go back to canon

and that’s not what happened in the Meat timeline either! Nobody went back in time to defeat Caliborn when he was a kid, they just had the big showdown with LE exactly the way Rose is describing that went horribly wrong

this is practically screaming NEITHER Meat or Candy is the true version of events 

Actually yeah, defeating Caliborn really IS the way this should be settled, because it’s also the way that Dirk get saved as well, can’t get his ultimate self tainted if the taint is destroyed before it ever comes into contact with him

also im rereading the prologue now, it’s is NEVER explicitly said that John has to go and defeat lord english’s child form!

She said “you have to go back to canon to defeat LE” NOT go back in time to defeat caliborn

and “you can’t recklessly attack his hulking adult form without the house juju”

not “you can’t attack him as an adult at all” but “you can do that WITHOUT the juju” and describes it being used in the same way that Vriska ended up doing in Meat

yeah, she never mentions any plan to defeat him as a child in the prologue, which probably means Rose only saw a vision of his defeat as an adult as well

It’s gonna be JOHN who gets the idea to go back and kill him as a kid, because that’s how he understood Rose’s instructions!

But this is great, everything is vaguely worded enough that it COULD be applied to a fight against a young caliborn too! but just hasn’t yet!

What if you take the empty cursor and fill it with a young caliborn? instead of unleashing a full one against an adult LE? which proves to be pretty useless in the long run despite Rose’s apparent clouded vision?

Rose even says herself its only purpose is as an empty vessel meant to be filled by something, talk about totally understanding yet missing the point, this is probably what she meant by being unable to see any path beyond the meat or candy routes, she couldnt see the possibility of using the juju on caliborn before everything goes down just like how it was used on John and friends to trap them in there in Meat!

It’s Caliborn’s destined time out spot! Removing him from Canon and from being able to influence it without needing to kill someone who technically hasnt done bad things yet but absolutely will in the future solving the baby adolf problem with Caliborn

Oh man, what if they even trick Caliborn on using it against himself? talk about an earthbound reference, defeat Gigyas (LE) by tricking Pokey (Caliborn)  to trap himself in the "Absolutely Safe Capsule” (House JuJu)

Oh man back on the Candy train though John’s having an absolute breakdown, being infused with that canon retcon power seems to be the only thing preserving his ability to care about stuff beyond this happy drugged up paradise

Earth C has become Homestuck’s Ba Sing Se

“ He braces himself, as if splashing an imaginary glass of cold water in his own face, and reminds himself once again that he has a wonderful life. A perfect life. He’s HAPPY, god damn it.”

You really aren’t John, this is very clear, dousing yourself with some more Void to try and drown that out ain’t helping

[lustingtc]

24th October 2019

*leans on doorframe*

Do I have a motherfuckin blog post 4 u 😳😳

Its a ride fo sure 🤪✌🏻

ANYWAYZ

T came a lil bit late cuz he was on duty 😌😌😌

He,,,, coat 🥰🥰🥰🥰💝💞💓💗💖💘💕

It maybe his only good fashion decision in his whole life... 🙄💅🏻💁‍♀️

For like a good 5 minuets T was just rambling as he logged on??? 😟😟

He said something, then a kid was like “You should run for prime minister xd”

So T started talking abt... killing the queen..? N killing the whole royal family... so... 😬😬😬

But we played this game for the lesson 😌✌🏻

The first thing he did was

Place a fukin bet on who was gonna win.

He’s wild as fuck 😳😳😳😳

To make a long story short tho...

It was me n S who he picked!!! 😳🤪😳🤪✌🏻

We came second. Only cuz the fat cunt girls cheated 🤮🤮🤮

He was kinda disappointed... more jokingly lol,, but we’ll win next time >:3

These girls where giggling when going to answer n T was like

🤪🤪🤪 ”HAHAHAHA!1!!!1111!111!”

Really sarcastically??? I’m- he bab doe,,,

But 🥵🥵🥵

So💦MuCH!!🤪eyE👁FUCKING!!!!!👌🏻👈🏻

It was unbelievable man. I’m pregnant from this shit he’s pulling 🤰 like BRO,,

T’s absolutely fucking bat shit tho

S asked him to come over, to ask a question

This man 😌😌

He could of been normal and just... got up?

No. Not T.

Mans fucking pushes his spiny chair from his desk to the door which he THEN pushes himself OFF the fucking wall to our desk...

The man is mad.

Mad SEXY 🔥🔥🔥😎😎😎

Jk 🤢 isH,,

N OMG 😡😡😡

He UwU 💝💞💓💗💖💘💕 when he came over he was so smiley!!!

His dumb big smile just makes me 🥺🥺🥺

I love hIM!!! 💝💞💓💗💖💘💕

Goofy mofo just,,,, 👉🏻👈🏻🥺,,, hes so handsome and lovely and nice and beautiful n amazing,,,

Lik @ God if I don’t at least get to KISS this man once. I cannot die. Infact. I will kill god.

From UwUs to OwOs

T’s into incest??? 😨😨😨

Look— there’s an explanation for this.

Baso some kid in his french was like,,,

“I’d 😜 love to have💦a sexy step sister 👱‍♀️”

T in our Spanish was like

“I was like 😬😬 okay. Bit weird”

T in the kid (&my inside gal) French was like

“😉😉😉 Haha! Sexy step sis LOL!”

N was apparently rly dragging the joke of sexy step sister??? 🤔🤔🤔

Which made me think...

Is T into step sister incest? 🤢🤢

Logical answer: probably not. Funnier answer: LOL YEA

And that’s all my notes on that fucking MESS of a lesson

But it don’t end there.

Dogman.

🤮🤮🤮 ugliest man to live

He came into my English class asking 4 a key

When I tell you he looked ugly.

My god he did.

His shirt legitimately looked like BARNY THE DINOSAUR had long passionate sex with a FUCKIN PICNIC BLANKET!!

Ive never seen such an ugly fucking thing

It pained me.

I regretted everything.

Loving him, being in that lesson, being alive.

His fit almost sent me into a depressive episode

😀😀😀 I hate him 😀😀😀

ThEN THID FUCKING KID!!!

Miss like brushed Dogman off n this kid goes

“LOL! Miss like Sir!!”

I’m there like 😗😬😳

She denied all emotions. But. I kinda saw it. 🤮

BACK TO MY LOVER N HIS BOYFRIEND 😳😳😳

In M’s class their doing relationships n they had to plan a wedding

Apparently last yr sum kid in T’s lesson planned M & T’s wedding 😨😨😨🤭

Mfw my bf has a hubby 😱😱

TO MAKE IT WORSE SKEJALENNR

T was apparently like

“Tru dat.”

😭😭😭💔💔💔 HES A GAY WTF!!!!!!

Never do trust that man.

& to make an already bad situation EVEN WORSE

*deep inhale*

T MIGHT BE MOVING BACK TO GERMANY??

I’m a few years tho.

Hopefully not anytime soon.

But it’s bc of FEKIN BREXIT 😡😡😡

Hopefully 😌😌😌 this is a lie.

Something that won’t happen until we’re many many MANY happy years into our relationship.

😗💅🏻💍 #TrueLoveFindsAWay

So tiring this man is...😴😴😴

NOT THE END THO!!!!

Dogman. Rite. 😷😷😷

He gave my friend his phone for her to use for Kahoot n sadly she didn’t have a snoop

BUT.

We did find out his recent emojis where

🤡❤️...

Funny bc his last name sounds like clown.

Is he a secret Twitter stannie? 🤮

Is he a regular Twitter normie jumping on the new cancel culture victim? 🤡🤡

Or is he bullying himself? 🥺🥺🥺

Who knows. 🤷‍♀️

Let’s just hope he’s not a stannie 🙄🙄🙄🙄

T stans Ari so I can’t have 2 of them since T’s already enough 🤮🤮👎🏻💔

Unless it’s Miku

Dogman can stan miku.

Anyways

I GG Y. Bye 👋🏻💋

[thezfc]

OK- I decided to combine all the anons I have about Fiona/Zhora/Stalkers because it’s ALOT.

Anonymous said: Ok, I must vent. It chuffs my ass to no end to see these bitches brag about how this is their 3rd time meeting Tom at stage door! They're taking up space in line when someone who has never had the chance to meet him but wants to yet doesn't get that chance. Meanwhile they think the more he sees them he's going to magically fall in love with them. They're so fucking selfish. You've met him. Get over yourselves and let others have the same chance. 😠 Btw, before you say anything, I live in (pt1) (pt2) states and have no chance of seeing the play or meeting him. And I'm fine with that. It just really pisses me off to see these immature bitches act so selfishly. News flash: He's NOT going to fall for you so get on with your lives! Thanks for letting me vent. Anonymous said: To anon saying you should have Fiona on your podcast. No, don't be dumb. The problem with you guys is you're so fixated on your hatred of Zhora that you'll ally with anyone she argues with... But those people are just as bad as her. It's not a win to have a creep on your podcast just because she hates Zhora. That's hypocritical.

Anonymous said: Lmao someone asked Fiona if Tom knew she rented Airbnbs near his house and so on and she didn't answer, just got all sanctimonious again 🙄🙄🙄 What's your opinion on Fiona then, Zero? You seem to have a very wishy washy opinion on the issue. Half the time you scream stalker at anyone you hate, then you downplay it or suggest others do the same when you like them? Anonymous said: Actually the legal definition of stalking in the UK includes "loitering (in any public or private place" as one of the potential factors. There's a lot of wording about how many factors have to be present to bring a case of stalking to the police, but these fans tick one or two behaviours that *can* go hand in hand with stalking. Loitering in a public place... Near his house... If Tom really wanted to I bet he could bring a case against one or two fans, and threaten a few others.

Anonymous said: Also lmao at FR coming on here to whine about Zhora. Honey, Zhora DID talk to you about this, more than once. And you and your pack of dogs hounded her off Tumblr last time she called out your hypocrisy. Zero, I know you hate Zhora but she was right on the money about Fiona. Fiona's a hypocritical creep. She grandstanded about Grace when she's exactly the same, maybe even worse. Plus, hon, not everyone who talks about you is Zhora. You brag about this shit all over your various SM handles.

Anonymous said: I don't think Tom's "bothered" by the stalker fans, but I think he's not aware that FR also stays in his area on "holiday" and so on. That might change his outlook somewhat? But still, even if he doesn't feel threatened by it, he knows what they're doing and why. It's not like he thinks they're really cool and should be his BFF (or sex partner like they dream of). Plus him not being outwardly bothered doesn't mean its okay!!!! It's still fucked up. Anonymous said: Talking about stalkers, two french girls keep "bumping" on Tom. One even left france for months to live there and the other met him multiples times same for cumberbatch and a few others actors. Anonymous said: Diff perspective on 'stalker' fans-I have a few degree separation w/intl famous band & spouse & friends involved w/fan fundraisers/events worked w/mngmt etc. Had issues w/some stalker fans & I got irritated cuz seemed like they got 'special' treatment from band but had VERY revealing convo w/mngmt & security once on how they were all VERY aware & it was more a case of "keeping them close to keep an eye on them". So just cuz TH is smiling doesn't mean he's cool with everything (+ he's an ACTOR!) rllca submitted: “as long as the frequent flyers stay reasonable”…..but middle-aged women spending that much money and seeing his play so many times is totally UNreasonable. He must think they’re nuts! tomhiddlestonangel said: Keep holding up the mirror to these crazy stalkers. There is nothing more terrifying than having a reflection you don’t recognise. Denial is one of human natures worst enemies. Their just a bunch of Buzz Lightyears waiting for their epiphany 💡 Keep going Z, if nothing else their reactions are hilarious 🤣 Anonymous said: Here’s some piping hot tea for you: Zhora Salome is old enough to know better than to behave like a goddamn child. Why do the rules she set up not apply to her? I hope someone makes her take a long walk off a short cliff.

Anonymous said: “Photographic evidence” First of all, he’s an actor. He’s spent years acting excited to see the same people over and over again. Second ... have you looked at the body language in those pictures? He’s entirely angled away from them, the smile doesn’t quite reach his eyes and he looks like he wants to sprint into the night.

Anonymous said:

If instead of paying ten grand to see him now why not invest it in something worthwhile, wait five years when his career isn't what it is now, then take it out and have a few more dollars to see him at a convention or in his latest theater project?

rllca said:

$10 000 for a few minutes of small talk, then you go on your way. He doesn't give a shit about you.

Anonymous said:

Tom is probably really flattered that these fans spend so much money going to see his play multiple times, who wouldn't be. He seems to enjoy interacting with fans at work e.g. stage door etc. I think if he realised she was staying so close to his house that she can see in to his courtyard he would probably not be so happy.

Anonymous said:

Congrats Fiona, when's the wedding?

Anonymous said:

www.instagram.com/p/ByJU1b_F1jb/?igshid=1xkp9nn1bqujk Ugh. She keeps conveniently skirting over the fact that he probably doesn't know she lurks around by his house every time she's in London. I remember her and Saney being bitches about Grace, when isn't Fiona exactly the same? It doesn't matter if Tom looks happy to see her, the FACT is, she shouldn't be lurking around his neighborhood like a creep. Stick to stage door, ffs.

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To the third anon down asking me about my opinion- I feel like you are probably the same person who called her out on her blog.  I don’t know Fiona- she messaged me just this last week to tell me about the Omaze thing- probably to get ahead of it and I have been honest with her that I have been very vocal about my thoughts around this obsessive fan girl behavior and her reply was actually pretty reasonable- she wasn’t a bitch about it and didn’t try to change my mind.  But I have received more information from other blogs and anons with receipts that she is lying that she’s never stayed near his house and she in fact has very recently. I don’t like the lying- admit it or else you KNOW it’s wrong. 

EIther way- I don’t have to shit talk every single one of these frequent fliers, I don’t want my blog to become just a place to bitch about them- there are SO MANY that it’s too much to keep track of, and I’m sure there are plenty more who don’t post on open social media accounts who have been there a zillion times- I know of plenty that I’ve said nothing about. I said my peace on my blog and podcast and this Omaze raffle was it’s own whole drama.

In conclusion- I will be very happy when this play is over and this issue stops being drama and everyone can stop treating him like a zoo attraction. I”m sure the anon is right that the frequent fliers will be all of over the place this week getting their last fix. 

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Carly

Ali: [Weds night before her bday] Ali: woman you home Carly: not mine y? Ali: because ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY Ali: and I need to come bearing gifts Carly: now? k then Carly: ill get there before u Ali: you @ one of the lads then? Ali: no rush 'cept I do wanna be the first so like b4 midnight cinders 🎃👠 Carly: i werent born @ 12 tho & u kno that from doing my chart 🔮🌟 Carly: but ur so cute Ali: tru but Ali: i'm excited Ali: can't start the party without guest of honour 7 Carly: aw Carly: i wont take these 15 💊s yet 👼 Carly: we can party together Ali: 🎁? Carly: idk can u call it a 🎁 if u have to give back Ali: Boo 👎 Carly: not what he said when we were done Ali: 🙄 still Ali: not very festive of him Carly: idc its been fun Carly: coulda stayed in w ma & da but its not a retirement party in the works like Ali: for now Ali: but I got better plans than either Carly: yea? Ali: 'course Ali: who am I Ali: who are we Carly: 🐅💙🐇 Carly: i barely knew u on my last bday 😢💔 Ali: it's insane Ali: you're so important and integral to me how did we not get together before then Ali: I'm not the only one with plans tho 🌌💕 Carly: too many lads to swap first ha Carly: i kno my ma has been planning all wk but idk cuz shes learned to be subtle somehow Carly: must b her new man teaching her things Ali: Eskimo sisters for life, baby 😂 Ali: 👀 come thru shaz Ali: sounds promising Carly: 🤞🌌🔮 Ali: not her new man, obvs Carly: hes no cavante tho still only a few yrs older Ali: if I beat you I'll hit her up for the scoop Carly: 🍀 Ali: 😬 Ali: I guess we've got her answer for the age old experience vs stamina Carly: could b where i left her wine drunk in the hot tub still Carly: falls asleep there more than the marital bed Carly: mermaid energy ha Ali: not wine drunk Ali: worse energy than coke rage, I swear Ali: watch out cat lady, protect your children Carly: aw ill look after them Ali: 👼 Ali: I'll take any bday bumps for you 💪 Carly: never liked coke or wine soz ma if thats my 🎁 Carly: still my hero 💙 Ali: those people are the worst Ali: lemme buy something for me and give it to you Ali: no sharon THAT IS NOT 👏 IN 👏 THE 👏 SPIRIT 👏 OKAY 👏 Carly: my gma does that every yr! xmas too Carly: so boring unwrapping that bible each time Carly: good rolling paper tho Ali: 😂 Ali: the lord is in you, it's what she wanted Ali: just in your lungs but you know Carly: ha Carly: what r u bringing me boo? Ali: don't you want the surprise babe Carly: idk last time u really surprised me it was w a divorce so u could get ur man Ali: 😥 Carly: 😂 jk u kno i love surprises Ali: just devastated you're calling me predictable for the last, how many months Ali: cut me deep, birthday girl Carly: i dont surprise easy Carly: y the lads like me Carly: dont b sad baby Ali: never Ali: not when there's partying to be done Carly: yay Ali: and a 👸 to celebrate Carly: ur sweet 🍬🍭 Carly: i dont look like a princess rn Carly: no running away Ali: you always do Ali: even when you running from ogres Carly: ur gonna make me look worse when im crying too Ali: meant to save them for the party Ali: but I'll never tell Carly: ha its been a few yrs since a bday tantrum Carly: really had to wait for that bike tho Ali: and #werk baby Ali: you were as adorable then, how your parents didn't spoil you is a mystery to me Carly: ask them if u do get here before me Carly: but before i was medicated i wasnt as 👼 could b the answer Ali: lecture 'em on how wrong they were, more like Carly: ur a bias little 🐱💙 Carly: & u didnt kno me then even if u do remember i grew into my 👂s Ali: 😂 Ali: well I never grew into my 👁s and my 'tudes no better either and you still love me so Ali: deal with it, Walsh 😜 Carly: aw u were the cutest 👶 Carly: & u get cuter every yr Ali: hey, don't spoil my heartfelt message in your card! Ali: 😏 Carly: im sorry Carly: ill have 1 for the road & forget Ali: I think one of the boys just catcalled me without offering to give me a ride in their white van/carriage Ali: see me struggling here lads, is that part of the appeal? probs Carly: which y? ill threaten to uninvite him from the party Carly: 1* Ali: not the kinda bitch to resort to racism 'cos I'm mildly upset or angered but they really be looking the same behind the wheel of a transit, like Ali: think it was one of Ronan's brothers? Ali: and in fairness, never slept with you so whaddya owe me, kind sir Carly: ha Carly: if he could see & be seen @ the wheel then i reckon i kno Carly: & i have slept w him so he will b 💔😢 if he cant celebrate w me Ali: my hero 💚 Carly: 💙 Carly: been thru every1 old enough in that fam now ha Carly: gonna have to move like Ali: I wish I could tell you the surprise was a hot new fam Ali: alas Ali: wouldn't fit them on my back, like Carly: 😢💔 Ali: I've let you down Ali: how could I Ali: gonna eat my feelings 🎂 Carly: 🍯🐝 no Carly: never Ali: what's the dresscode for this shindig then Carly: idk not allowed to go w bday suits Carly: my da overruled me Ali: gotta whittle down my knock you dead options Ali: even with those stifling guidelines, tah Mr Walsh, I should manage it Carly: i believe in u baby Ali: 👼👼👼 Carly: im back btw Carly: used my wings mayb Ali: damn Ali: was really hopinh for some 1x1 with your ma Carly: she will scoot over in bed for u Carly: not just me who misses u Ali: awh Ali: can we convince her to give you your present early or nah Ali: I say yeah Carly: me too so 2 votes Carly: my da will b asleep too deep to cast his even if she says no weve outnumbered her Ali: 💪 Ali: I'll put the phone down and run Ali: gimme 5 Carly: k Carly: be careful tho Carly: some of the 💡 r out Ali: 👌 Ali: my middle name Carly: fun is ur middle name Carly: how many do u have? Ali: as many as you want Ali: 😉 Ali: but just the one, actually Carly: hot Carly: u can have 1 of mine then wed both have 2 each Ali: are you actually 👑 Carly: my ma wishes Carly: queen of the site tho Carly: ha Ali: I've not bought her a crown Ali: not soz Carly: its k shes got her prom tiara somewhere Ali: memories 🎶 Carly: am i gonna peak before 18 too? Ali: never Ali: only way is 📈 baby Carly: u make me feel really happy u kno Ali: ☀🌻🍓🍯🐝🐰 Ali: it's mutual boo Carly: im crying Carly: & smiling Carly: its the 💊s ma Ali: it's the 💘 Ali: she gets it Carly: aw Carly: yea shes really 💘 w the lad from the chemist Carly: knocking our 💙 off the top Ali: can't be having that Ali: got all weekend to prove we're 🥇 Carly: til ur bf shows up Ali: nuuh Ali: it's all about you Carly: ur so nice to me Ali: you'll see feel and believe it ✨ Carly: 🔮🌌 Carly: r u gonna stay? Ali: can I? Carly: yea Ali: then yeah Carly: aw ur my 🎁 Ali: I haven't copped out that hard, don't worry Ali: come help me Ali: not very gentlemanly of me but I wanna be with you before we've gotta hear about the prom queen's glory days Carly: k Carly: 💪💙

[melaninkpopimagines]

Affairs

Part: 1!| 2!| 3!| 4!

Author: Admin Jazzi

warning: Smut, Cursing, language, murder

Word count: 2k

Flashes of you stabbing him raced through your mind. You were in a haze. You don't remember how you got the knife. The only thing your remember clearly was calling Erik. Trying to put it all together was hard, trying to remember was hurting you.

“Hey baby, pay attention to what i'm telling you.” Erik said, splashing a bit of water into your face. You snapped out of the trance you were in and looked around. You were in the bathtub, Erik was bathing you. You looked on the ground and saw your bloody clothes. The water was a dark pink.

You looked at him. He stared back at you. “Baby are you listening? I said you can't say anything to anyone? I’m gonna get you out of here. But you gotta work with me mama.” he said. You nodded. “yeah i-i,” you looked at him frantically, “Erik I don't know what happened.”

He looked at you sturnly, “nun happened. We gonna go on a trip, aiight?” he asked. You seemed to zone out again. You really killed a man. Erik splashed you with the bloody water. “Yo listen to me focus baby i gotta get you outta hear.” he picked you up out of the water. Erik grabbed your clothes from the bedroom and dressed you. “You ain't gotta talk about this right now baby. Just don't think about it.” he said as he dressed you. He dried your hair and gently kissed your forehead. He placed your hood over your damp hair. “You trust me huh? If you trust me we can do this alright ?” he looked into your eyes. His dark brown eyes felt like such a heavy presence. You nodded as you looked down, ashamed. He kissed you, wiping the tears from your face. “Baby it’s okay i gotchu. You gonna get through this. You let him hug you tightly.

Erik walked you into the bedroom. You saw it clean. Damn near spotless. There was no body laying on the floor. Not a drop of blood, it looked like nothing happened. You looked at Erik. Did you imagine all that. “We gotta go baby i'm gonna explain let's just get away from here.” He said.

He walked you out of the back door. He lead you down the alley and to his car. Erik pushed you into the car making sure no one saw. You looked in the back seat. There were bags, you could see money spilling out of one of them. “I have t-to turn myself in.” you insisted. Erik glared at you. “You just sitcho ass right there. This is my fault. Let me handle it.”

“How is this your fault?” you questioned.

But Erik didn't speak. He kissed your hand and started driving. He drove quickly but after an hour you fell asleep. You were beyond exhausted but the images traumatized you. Even tho Randy couldn't control you with the beatings anymore, he still took your happiness away. Even being with Erik made you feel worse...guilty. Randy was an asshole. He was scum; but you never thought you’d snap and kill him.

“Baby let’s get inside.” he said. You looked around. You had no idea where you were. It was night time. You were surrounded by trees. “Erik where are we.”

He unloaded his bags from the car. “We need to stay here until i can fix this.” he said, not really stopping to explain to you. You stayed in the car. “Erik how can you fix this? I murdered a man. I need to turn myself in.” Erik stopped dead in his tracks. “No what you need to do is get inside. You said you trusted me so trust me. I ain't gonna let nothing happen to me.

You got out of the car and went into the cabin. It was huge and well lit. When you got in Erik locked the doors behind you. “Okay no one will be able to find you here. I have to go back into town and handle this. You stay here. Watch tv or whatever just stay inside.” he said. “What about my mom? I need to call my mom.” “Baby she knows you’re fine don't worry. Once i fix this it'll be okay. I just can't have you running around being seen.” He spoke in a hurry. He grabbed his keys and kissed you. “Lock the doors behind me, eat and sleep.” You kissed him back, holding him tightly for a moment. “You gonna be good girl, just trust me. I gotchu.” he said. You let Erik go, wrapping your arms around yourself. “Don't open this door. I’ll be back tomorrow morning. You can use the landline only to call me if there's an emergency. ” You watched Erik leave. The room was cold without him there.

You sat on the couch and flipped through channels for hours. You were too scared to sleep.

Everything haunted you: but more than anything you wondered why you had done it. What made you black out. What made you snap? He had done this before. You didn't feel bad that he was dead. You hated him with your whole heart: but you never wanted to kill him, at least not yourself. So what exactly made you snap.

You found yourself mindlessly exploring the cabin. You didn't call Erik. You didn't want to face him. You said everything was gonna be okay. You didn't mean it this way. You didn't mean to dump this in his lap. When you woke up the way you did you didn’t know who else to call. You dialed Erik out of instinct. You should have called the police. You shouldn't gotten him involved. How could you expect him to do this, just because you were having an affair. You blindly trusted the man. A man you were only having an affair with. You had never expressed anything but lust towards each other.

You slowly walked into the last room down the hall. You pushed the door open slowly. It creaked loudly. As you walked in, you switched on the lights. The room was filled with pictures of you...and Randy. You looked around frantically. There are pictures from your wedding, from before you were engaged, from the day you met him. Tears filled your eyes and fear made you panic. Your chest felt tight. You stared at all the pictures. Everyday, pictures of him beating you, all of it pinned on the wall

3 months earlier

The affair with Erik was heated. You held him close, his head rested between your breasts. “What are these?” you asked running over the raised skin that covered his body. “There all the women that fell for me.” he joked. You rolled eyes, playfully pushing his head. “Okay nigga you got so many bitches why aint you with them right now.” you said. He settled his head back down, unbothered. “Cuz i knew you needed some dick.” he said.

“You’re annoying.” you said. He laughed and kissed your chin. “Mhm if im so annoying why you keep calling me?” he asked. You didn't answer. You didn't know exactly why you kept calling him. Meeting up like this was stressful: but moments like this was what kept you sane.

“What are these really? You never told me.” you asked again. “I never told you cuz its none of your business.” he snapped. You looked down at him. He always got random attitudes. You pushed him off of you and started scooting away. He pulled you back and hovered over you. “Where the fuck are you going?” he said. You rolled your eyes, looking away from his brown eyes. “Your attitude wasn't called for nigga.” you said. “SO you mad i won't tell you?” he said. “Nah nigga like i said! Your attitude wasn't called for. Fuck you i was just curious.” you pushed at his chest. He trapped you. A deep chuckle left him. “You’re so fucking sensitive.” he said. You rolled your eyes mumbling how he could fuck off again.

He started kissing your neck slowly, settling between your legs as he spread them. “Stop trying to fight with me tonight. Itll be a minute before we can do this again, and i know you gonna miss this dick.” he said, grinding his hips against you. You shut your eyes feeling his length grinding on the lips of your pussy.

You moaned his name, as he gripped your ass.

“Erik you get on my nerves.” You moaned.

“You sound like you enjoying me baby girl. What’s the truth?” you felt your head spin as he entered you. His hips rocked slowly and deeply. His full length throbbing as he pounded into you. “You like this shit don’t you?” he gripped your ass, pumping into you roughly. You moaned throwing your head back. He rubbed your clit, thrusting harder. “Nuh uh baby. All that attitude you had earlier, you better fucking speak. You like this shit?”

“Yes daddy!” you screamed. He didn't have to tell you twice. You were already on the verge of your orgasm. “Fix that damn attitude then.” he thrusted harder.

You were still sensitive from getting hot and heavy just a few moments before the small argument. You moved your hips against his hard thrusts. “Thats right baby fuck yourself on that dick.” he groaned into your ears. He stopped and watched as you moved your hips roughly. You gripped his arms. You moaned his name, practically screaming as your orgasm took you over. That's when he took over, roughly fucking you through your orgasm as his followed. He laid on top of you, kissing your neck and holding you. “Now fix your attitude.” he said into your ear, “These things on me would make you hate me.” he said

“If you’re ashamed why did you do it...so many times.” you said after catching your breath. He shook his head. “Nah I”m not ashamed i just know it’ll hurt you to find out.” he said. You looked at him strangely but you could tell he didnt want to talk about it further.

Three months later

You slowly backed out of the room. Your breath was shakey, you couldn't breathe looking at it all. You backed into something firm. You jumped turning around and saw Erik. “Baby let me explain calm down.” he said, he backed away. He gave you space.

“What the fuck is going on?! What the fuck is all of this?!” You screamed. You were frantic. Your heart raced. You were scared. For the first time you feared Erik. you were more afraid of Erik in that instance than you ever were of Randy. “Yo come sit down let me talk to you.” he said. “Tell me now! I don't want to move from this spot till you tell me what all this shit is.” you ordered. His jaw clenched. You had never talked to him like that; but could he blame you?

He started speaking, moving closer to you, “I was sent to frame you for his murder.”

A/N: Hello thank you for reading!!

-Jazzi

[foreverfangirl2011]

Demons of the Past Chapter 4!!!!

Hey Lovelies,

Firstly in case your a little confused by the title I accidentally named the last chapter 4 and then changed it to 3 when I realized the mistake. So this is the actual chapter 4. Warning there is SMUT in this one so watch where you read! I really love how the story is progressing and I haven't decided yet but I think the next chapter might be the last one. So keep an eye out for it, but I really shouldn't have even been writing this one cuz I have a essay to write, so don’t be mad if I take a while with chapter 5. Anyway happy reading, I hope you like it!

Love,

- M

Chapter 4: Warning Signs

It was early May, just 2 months before the wedding. All the details were falling into place. My niece Genevieve (who was affectionately named after our grandmother and who everyone called G) was going to be the flower girl. Bailey’s cousin Shane was going to be the ring bearer and if all went as planned I’d have a new little nephew by the wedding as well. Yes Jess was expecting baby number two! Suffice it to say her marriage was going great! Jess was my maid of honour and Ethan was of course Bailey’s best man; so they were helping us out a lot. As crazy as it sounds I was glad that the stress of the wedding was the only stress on me. It had been really nice to not worry about anything else. We could actually enjoy ourselves, it was a happy stress I guess. Sadly though, our “happy stress” was short lived. At work one day I got an alarming email from someone…

It was a regular Friday evening. I was at work and counting the minutes til quitting time. It had been a long week and I couldn’t wait to get home and have a bubble bath with Bailey. A half hour before I was supposed to get off of work by boss came by my  office. “Mrs. Y/LN, could you just send these emails for me then your free to go.” “A half hour early sir?” “Yes dear, its been a long week. I myself am leaving early.” “Ok sir, thank you. Have a nice weekend.” “Same to you, goodnight.” “Night.”

As soon as he was out of earshot I heaved a sigh of relief. That half hour was dragging by. I opened up the company email and did what I was asked. Just before I shut down my computer I noticed I had a new email in my personal email. Its probably just a promotional thing for something I thought. But something in me told me to check it out. So I quickly opened the tab and I my heart almost stopped. The email was from an anonymous sender. My heart raced as I clicked the email. How could I have forgotten that Harrison had my email address! It was an old one from high school that I still had. I barely even used it. But I should’ve been more careful. Surprisingly the email wasn’t from him though. As soon as I read the first sentence I knew it was from Naidene. She must’ve used another email so her parents wouldn’t see it. The email read: Dear Y/N, Sorry if I freaked you out by using an anonymous email, but you know how nosy my parents are. I just wanted to warn you. I’m worried about him. I just found out my mom has been bringing him the club newsletters. And well… theres something in this months edition that may set him off. Just… be careful ok.

Naidene P.S. Congrats by the way ;)

What could she be talking about? And why did Harrison want the club newsletter? What did she mean by congrats? Mom had been sending it to us every month but we’d just been ignoring it. We couldn’t care less about all those people. We were enamoured with each other, we didn’t need anyone else. Besides, I secretly worried that it upset Bailey, like it made him insecure, feel like he wasn’t good enough for me. I hate the look on his face whenever he sees the newsletters. Of course he’s the best thing that ever happened to me and he knows how much I love him. But I think when he sees all the successful guys in the club he wonders if they could’ve given me a better life. I shut down my computer and head out, my thoughts running wild as I drive home. I start nervously tapping my hand on the steering wheel. I look down at my hand and suddenly catch sight of my engagement ring. Then it dawns on me, no mom please tell me you didn’t. Of course thats it, what else could Dene by congratulating me on? But Mom couldn’t be that careless could she? She had to know it was possible he’d see it. Well theres only one way to find out. A few minutes later I reach the apartment I park and dash inside. I notice the Bronco in the parking lot. Perfect, I was hoping to check this out before he got home. I take the elevator and rush to our door. I can smell dinner from outside and I smile to myself thanking God for giving me Bailey. I walk into the kitchen to find my baby at the stove wearing shorts, shirtless with an apron.

“Hey hot stuff.” “Hey babe, home early today?” He says turning to face me. “Yeah, the boss let me go a little early. Dinner smells great by the way.” “Its our favourite-“ “Speego!” We say in unison laughing. “So how was your day?” “Good, long, but good. You?” “Same, but hey the night is young.” He says winking and pulling me in for a kiss. “Thats true, listen Bailey theres something we need to talk about…” I say looking down. “What is it? Your not getting cold feet are you?” He says worriedly. “No no, of course not.” “Because its ok if your not ready you know.” “Babe I’m ready, I promise. I want this, I want you for now, forever-“ “And for always.” He says grazing the side of my face gently. “Then what is it?” “I… I got an email from Naidene.” “What! Why does she have your email!” “Calm down Bailey, its on old email from high school.” “It doesn’t matter, that makes it worse. Harrison might have it. You have to deactivate it.” “I know I will.” “So wait what did the email say?” “She was warning us.” “Warning us of what? He’s not getting out yet is he?” “No, but she said that he’s been getting the club newsletter and that there was something in this months edition that she was afraid would set him off.” “Like what?” “Well…” I say raising my hand with the engagement ring. “No, no your mom wouldn’t!” “I don’t know, I mean I want to believe she would know better. But she is extremely proud. Anyway, lets just check. She sent it to us right?” “Yeah it should still be in the recycling.” “Ok I’ll check.” I walk over to the recycling bin and bend down to sift though it. “Find it yet Y/N?” He asks walking over and smacking my ass lightly. “Bailey!” “Sorry couldn’t help it!” He replies beginning to set the table. “Found it, oh god Gray…” I say finally retrieving it almost at the bottom of the bin. I bring it over to the dinning table and take a deep breath. “What is it?” “Theres a sticky note on the front cover look.” I say showing him the small yellow sticky note that reads in my moms handwriting: Turn to page 18 ;) “How could she not foresee how dangerous this could be?” He says rubbing his eyes. “I don’t know, lets just turn to page 18.” We turn to the page and sure enough she taken out the entire page. There’s a huge picture of us with the engagement announcement on top. And to make matters worse you can see the ring clearly on my finger. “Oh mom!” “Thats just great now we’re gonna have to invite all these freaks too.” “Hey!” I say smacking his arm. “My parents are parents are one of those freaks you know! I know they’re a little high strung, but I did grow up with these people!” “I know I know… I’m sorry its just-“ “Stop. Don’t even go there babe, your the best thing that ever happened to me. Your twice the man that any of these guys could ever be. They’ve had Mummy and Daddy pay their way through life, you earned everything you have yourself, and you love me more than any of them ever did.” “Thanks babe, I love you so much.” “I know.” I reply kissing him gently. “Now what are we gonna do about this?” “Nothing for now. It doesn’t make sense to drive ourselves crazy before we’ve even been threatened right?” “Yeah I guess so.” “Right, so we’ll just be extra safe for now. I’ll drive you to and from work.” “But-“ I protest. “But nothing, I’m not taking any chances. I have to protect you, I won’t let him hurt you, not again.” “Babe, don’t you think thats a little excessive. I mean I have my own car, its not like I’d be taking public transit or anything.” “I don’t care, I don’t want him catching you alone. Please Y/N, if anything happened to you and I could have prevented it… please I just can’t go through that again…” I can see the worry in his eyes and I finally give in. “Ok, if it makes you feel better I guess you can be my chauffeur.” I say rubbing his arm reassuringly. “Thank you Y/N.” He whispers kissing my forehead and holding me for a moment. My head resting on his chest I can feel his heart beating fast. “Hey, its gonna be ok. I’m gonna be ok. I feel safe here with you.” I say looking up at him. “I know, I know. I just can’t bear the thought of anything happening to you…” “And I wouldn’t be able to breathe without you, but thats never gonna happen. We have each other. For now, forever-“ I say taking his hand in mine. “And for always.” He says interlocking our fingers. I lean up and connect our lips in a sweet kiss. “Now, we have to talk to mom!” I say breaking the kiss. “Ok, but after dinner. I don’t want my masterpiece getting cold!” “Speaking go getting cold, aren’t you cold without a shirt?” I say patting his bare chest. “Babe when your slaving over a hot stove you tend to get hot! But yeah, I’ll put a tank on while we eat.” After we ate Baileys amazing dinner we called mom together. “Mom how could you do this without checking with us?” “Sorry honey, I thought you’d want all our friends to know your good news.” “Don’t you mean your friends…” Bailey mutters. “Shut up Bailey!” I whisper punching him in the arm and then immediately wincing. “Damn you and your enormous boulder- like arms!” “Sorry babe.” He says smirking and flexing his biceps. “What is going on there Y/N?” “Nothing mom, its just how could you be so careless?” “Excuse me!” “Mom you didn’t think Harrison might see it!” “And what he might do if he saw it!” Gray adds. “I- I’m sorry honey. I was just so happy, I guess I wasn’t thinking…” “Its ok Mom, just ask us next time.” “I promise. You know what I’m going to have a talk with Vivian!” “Mom please don’t!” “I want to confront her! I want to ask her why the hell she’s been bringing him the newsletter! What does he need with it in that place!” “Mrs. Y/L/N please, if you go to her she’s going to ask how you knew she was bringing him the newsletter-“ “Yeah and shel kill Naidene if she finds out she’s been talking to me!” “Alright, I suppose your right. And for heaven sakes Grayson please call me Elaine!” “Ok mom, we’re gonna go to sleep. Its getting late you should too, and tell dad I say hi.” “I will darling, sleep well. And again I’m terribly sorry. You tell us if Harrison contacts you!” “Its ok, and I promise I will.” “You better, no more secrets remember! We don’t want a repeat of the last time, your father can’t handle it again!” “I know mom, I love you. Bye.” “Love you sweetie, bye.” “Well that went well.” Bailey says after I hang up. “Yeah no thanks to you.” I say getting up and going to the washroom to wash up. “Oh c’mon baby, you know how I feel about those people.” He replies following me into the washroom. He stands next to me and starts brushing his teeth at his sink. “I know but you don’t have to make an awkward conversation worse and she doesn’t need to know you feel that way, I mean how do you think she’d feel if she found out how you felt about a community she’s part of?” I stop to spit the toothpaste out of my mouth and rinse and then I continue my rant. “And another thing-“ “Ok ok I get it. I wasn’t exactly helpful, I’m sorry. Can you forgive me baby?” He says as he finishes up he walks behind me, wraps his arms around my waist and kisses my neck. He knows neck kisses are my weakness and sure enough after barely a minute of his assault I can feel my legs starting to go weak. “Babe… c’mon you know I cant resist neck kisses.” “So does that mean I’m forgiven?” He asks in between kisses. My legs start to give out and I lean back against his strong chest for support. “Hmm… yeah I… guess… oh god come here!” I whip around and and smash my lips onto his. My arms instantly wrap around his neck as I pull him closer. His hands slide to my bum and give it a squeeze as I jump and wrap my legs around his waist. Our lips move in sync as he carries me to our bed. He places me at the foot of our bed and pulls my nightgown over my head. “No panties tonight… baby what are trying to do to me?” “Drive you insane, is it working?” I say sliding back on the bed til my head hit a pillow. “So gorgeous…” Gray whispers taking in my naked body. Even after all this time his words still make me blush. “What are you waiting for babe?” “Just wanted to look at you for a minute.” He says before gliding on top of me. He reconnects our lips and massages my breasts as my hands slips down to his Pyjama bottoms. I pull them down and he kicks them off before kissing down my body. My lips, my neck, my chest, and my upper thighs. “Babe stop teasing…” I beg. “But thats half the fun…” he says continuing to nip at my inner thighs. “Bailey… please stop and give me what I need before I give it to myself!” I say feeling the heat grow in between my legs. “Whats the magic word kitten?” He says kissing dangerously close to where I need him most. His breath alone is enough to send a shudder through my entire body. “Pl- please Daddy.” I beg almost shaking. “Your wish is my command.” He answers with a devilish smile before devouring me. Instantly my back starts to arch off the bed, but he wraps his arms around my legs and pull be down onto the bed. His tongue is moving at just the right pace and I almost cant handle it. My hands grab at his hair pushing his face further and further into me. Just as I’m about to let go his actions stop. “Daddy why did you stop?!” I practically scream as he sits up. “Because kitten, I don’t want you to finish without me!” He replies. “Does Daddy need a little help getting there?” I say gesturing to his little friend. He cocks an eyebrow at me and without even saying anything he pushes his whole length into me hard. I scream his name and my back arches of the bed again, I wasn’t ready for all that at once. But my body quickly adjusts and his thrusts become faster and faster. I can hear the bed squeaking but I don’t care if it breaks. He kisses me roughly as he keeps pounding into me. “YES! YES! YES! DADDY DON’T STOP! YES RIGHT THERE!” I scream. He keeps pounding into me mercilessly, grunting profanities along with my name until we’re both close. “Daddy I’m close!” “Me too Kitten, finish with me!” And with those words the room goes white as we both hit our climax and make a mess all over each other and the sheets. Bailey pulls out of me and flops down next to me breathless. “Babe… that was…” “Incredible…” I reply out of breath “More than incredible, I don’t think its ever been that good.” “Agreed, Daddy really gave it to me tonight!” “Oh did I?” “Are you kidding? Your lucky tomorrows Saturday and I don’t have to work, because I’m not gonna be able to walk.” “Don’t worry kitten, I’ll carry you wherever you need to go.” He replies kissing my cheek. “My hero.” I reply grazing his chest lightly.

We cleaned up the sheets and ourselves and went to sleep, forgetting about everything that happened earlier that night. We slept peacefully in each others arms and it wasn’t until the next morning that we realized we’d forgotten something pretty important… everything would have been fine though if only the warning signs were in vain, but like I said before demons from the past are never far away and suddenly we had a lot more to lose…

[rhapsody-in-heaven]

The Diary of Losing You

Day One

I cant believe it, never did we ever talk about breaking up before this .. and now all of a sudden its happening. I cant process it. I cant accept it. Sure, we’ve had fights but I never felt like they were toxic. We never got to that point - we weren’t even close to that point. Was I too stubborn? Did you not like that? Because no matter how much I begged and bargained - you kept telling me, it was over. That you didnt have to explain things to me but you were doing it out of courtesy. But its hard to accept - not only because it was so sudden but because you told me you still liked me - and god knows, i still like you. You told me, you couldnt change and you knew that about yourself and honestly, I kind of admire that. I havent had a lot of boyfriends but the first one I had to accept cuz he stopped liking me - the other two were long over by the time we broke up - there was resentment in our relationship but we didnt know how to let go - so we kept holding on - even when it got so toxic and even when it was obvious we were much better off without each other. But its still hard. Why don’t you think we’re worth a second chance. i didnt even think it was so bad that it needed to be classified as a second chance - just that we were still trying to figure out the kinks with the first one. Even when I told you that if the same situation happens even one more time, you could break up w me - even if it was two weeks later - i wouldnt complain. But you told me that in that case you would just break up with me two weeks later because for you, the relationship was already over. You didnt think we were worth a second chance and that hurts a lot.  I spent hours begging you to reconsider - knowing that you wouldnt - but i still had to try. and then I spent hours after talking to two friends and crying my heart out to them. all i could think about was all the plans we made that would no longer come to pass. I questioned myself if I was missing the thing wed do together or miss you and yeah at that time i was grieving our breakup but grieving more the things that would no longer come to pass. Im used to seeing you once every three weeks but three weeks werent up yet and it still felt relatively normal i guess. but the fact that I also knew the sadness would hit when the three weeks were up also scared me.  sleep was my solace - when i sleep, i dont need to think anymore.  Day Two teaching as usual but then in the times i didnt have to actively teach - i could feel the tears forming in my eyes but its okay, i dont think anyone noticed. but then we had a break between classes and i started to talk to another friend and then i couldnt stop crying. crying so loud that my coteacher heard it and asked what was wrong, and of course needing to explain things out loud with my voice made it that much worse. I could pull myself together for when i was actually teaching the class but - i still miss everything about you. I had my sixth grade class and I was so happy. They were my worst class last year but they did so well on this exercise we thought they would have trouble with - and they did, but with some help they managed to finish, and they did well. The first person i wanted to talk to was you. I felt like all i ever did was complain in our relationship I really wanted to give you the good news. And you were nice enough that you listened to me, and told me that even before, just hearing from me was good news. and that felt incredibly bittersweet. before leaving school my coteacher told me to feel better but all i could think was that i missed you. I had dinner plans that night but they got cancelled - I called my cousin and he talked to me for hours just listening to me cry - and then talk about life - and listening to me cry again. He told me that you probably didnt like the way we communicated and decided to end it before it gets harder later on. I can respect that I said, but its too soon to call it quits - we never even tried. To him, I just wasnt worth trying.  Day Three teaching kept me busy for most of the morning - i didnt have much time to think about you. but after lunch, the sadness began to manifest itself again. I dont think anyone noticed, or maybe they pretended not to. but I started to think back on the times before you moved away. Before we were long distance or even a couple. How you were so good to me. How you made me food. How you stayed with me when i was sad and i just have so many regrets I wasnt adquately able to tell you how i felt about you. How i was constantly unsure about myself but how when you did ask me out, you told me that it was okay that i didnt know - it was okay if i was never able to say i love you because you could feel that saying “love” signified a very strong emotion for me that i wasnt sure i ever felt before, and even with just me saying “like” you knew and could tell that my feelings for you were really deep. Why is it that you miss them so much more when theyre gone? Why do i feel like I shouldve treated you better i shouldve done more and thought of you more and expressed my feelings to you better. but hindsight is always 20/20. I went to pole and then to see my friends at night. we went to karaoke and at this point only one of the two friends knows because i didnt wanna ruin the birthday celebrations coming up of the one who didnt know. Well we were singing “payphone” and she said that we were singing it like someone had broken our hearts and all i could do was pretend to laugh. For the record, I dont think u broke my heart. or i dont blame you. i just wish things ended differently - i wish we were worth another shot in your mind. But all of this, is just wishful thinking. And i know that.

Day Four

its the weekend, and the day we celebrate her birthday. its a rainy day and somehow every little thing reminds me of you. I havent felt like this after a break up in a long time - im not sure if ive ever felt like this after a break up at all. My last two were long over before we ended things and the one before that was the definition of puppy love - sure i thought about him, and maybe its because its been so long but i dont remember every little thing reminding me of him. The rain reminds me of you. I saw a couple walking under an umbrella and remembered that you bought this hella big and expensive umbrella so that we could share it together in the rain. when I was at the aquarium all i could think about was how nice it would be if i was there with you. I saw a boat and i could just think about your job and how youre a shipbuilding engineer. Even looking at myself in the mirror, i thought about how you bought a jean jacket so we could match. I thought about the white tennis shoes we wanted to buy so we could match together when a friend mentioned she needed new white shoes. I thought of all the cute little cafes you took me to when we went to eat a cafe. my friend said she wanted to go to a marsh she saw in my photos - the very same one you took me to. we went to a coin karaoke place and the first time i ever went to one was with you. and sometimes i didnt need a reminder - my mind would just wander and i would remember things i didnt even know I remembered. the time when we fought about women in the workforce and your industry in the cafe and at the car. how when i asked if you were still mad at me you said that you wish you said “oh maybe i am a little bit, but ill make a lot of money and buy u a nice purse” to defuse the situation instead of getting mad. How our very first date lasted two nights and three days. How you couldnt spend my birthday w me but spent valentines w me the next day. The night you asked me to be your girlfriend - and how scared but also how happy i was. How you always took me to so many places. How i always could complain to you and you would always listen w patience - how i just wanted you back - how i wanted you to hold me and tell me it was a mistake - that you didnt really wanna break up w me that you thought about it and you wanna try again.  but i also know, its wishful thinking and i know, that you wont come back to me.  Day Five No plans. it’s still raining. No reason to go out. Can’t find the will to clean my apartment thats getting messier and dirtier by the day. I just want to lie in bed. I’ve been swiping on tinder and talking to some ppl - not to find a rebound but just to talk to people - to feel less - lonely? dejected? idk. but it doesnt really work - it feels like a lot of effort that I cant give. Were conversations always this hard? i feel like ours were so easy. And then i start to think again. all the promises we made. You said you would still try to be friends with me. Can we still do the little things? even before we went out you said u would take me skiing in the winter - is that still on? you told me you would buy me a hanbok - how about that? will you still take me? I keep asking why its over for you. why another chance will never happen. but the whole day, i just lie in bed. I cant bring myself to do anything. I keep searching up things like how long it should take to get over you - but at the same time im not sure i want to. Its not over for me yet even if its over for you. I guess, im feeling all the beginning stages of grief at once. Shock and Denial - i know its over - my head knows it - my head knows that you wont take me back or give us another go but my heart still has that false hope. my heart doesnt want to give you up. Guilt and Pain - well the pain is self explanatory but the guilt - i just keep wondering if this was my fault. if I was too unwilling to change - or didnt know i needed to change until i realized u were serious when you said you were thinking of breaking up w me - if i never said “how about we just never talk again” in anger and sadness, would we have gotten to this point? Anger and Bargaining - im not really angry - i mean i dont think this was your fault or mine but i guess i am kind of upset at the fact that you dont think we’re worth a second shot. anything we argued about, even if it spanned across a couple of days, has never come up again. and this was the first time this particular issue came up so why could we both make steps and amends to keep this from happening. are we both too stubborn? but i was willing and it felt like you werent. you told me that even ur past gfs have said that sometimes they didnt feel like they really had a choice and it wasnt just me. so im assuming that this is something youre eventually going to have to fix for yourself or you find a girl whos okay with that - but you also said you didnt want a gf or a wife that was like a doll who just agreed w everything you said. so this just means to me that youre not willing to try and change. honestly, if youre aware of it, it shouldnt be a hard fix but you already made up your mind that you werent going to do it. in reality i just wasnt the one you were willing to make those steps towards. and that is where my sadness and anger come from. now bargaining - im really willing to make changes and kind of the biggest testament i can give to that is that if we could be together again, i could quit that game ive been playing for 2 years cold turkey. For whatever reason, you never liked me playing that game and if it means i could have you back, i would gladly get rid of it. as for the other things - i promise i wont pressure to be with you longer cuz i know your tired - now i know youre tired. because you never told me before. Im sorry i dont like to lose arguments and i get defensive - i know i need to communicate better too. but i just really miss you and it kills me that we never even gave it a chance. yes, maybe youre right and things wont change and i know you think youre doing me a favour by ending this sooner rather than later but it kills me more that we never tried. Depression Loneliness and Reflection - self explanatory maybe im not fully in this stage yet but I do realize that the bargaining is not going to work even if i hope that it would.  it isnt over to me and to be honest, im not sure i want to get over you yet, even tho i know i should. Day Six

a monday. i asked you yesterday if we could talk and you said you were busy. I’m sure even tho i know your answer, i will ask you today if you would reconsider. im sorry if this puts pressure on you but i think its also necessary that i know I at least tried for my own sanity instead of letting this go. I’m going to tell you everything ive been thinking the last several days just to get it out. and yes, there is still that false hope that you’ll take me back and when that’s crushed i will probably inevitably cry again. I’m not sure if talking to you so soon is the right answer, if later would give me a clearer head. but my heart is telling me that i need to ask you to reconsider now and not later - if only for the confirmation - that nail on the coffin, that we’re really not happening anymore. I asked you when you had time and you said 10pm. So after work, i go home and i write down everything i want to talk to you about - at least everything i can think of at the time of writing much of which i talked about here already - how i thank you for loving me and all the things you did for me, how i still hope youll keep ur promise about buying me a hanbok, about a possible snowboard trip, about my stages of grief - my denial, my anger, the bargaining, how it wasnt just you who needed to change but i do think you will eventually need to change for someone - that i was sad it wasnt me. how i wish you told me about the stresses of your job so id be more understanding, how you were the first guy i thought i could say i love you to. how im not good at this cuz my last two and only serious relationships ended long before we called it off but right now i still feel like i was starting to like you more and more. how u know to break it off now because it would hurt more for me later and you no longer wanted to see me cry but for me second chances and trying is important - which is why im bargaining with you even tho i know you will say no. i need to know i did everything I could. that im sad we didnt meet earlier and have a more stable realtionship and maybe it woulda worked out - that i was sad you had to move for your job because if you were still here things wouldve worked out differently. but i dunno - i hope youll listen with as open a mind as u can, really think about it before you reject me and ill know i did everything i could. 

[lululeighsworld]

Tea with Honey

There is no worse feeling than being excited for your anniversary, only to have to postpone all your plans due to unforeseen circumstances.

winter semester + a cold is killing me right now but I got extensions on my assignments this week so here’s a quick lil drabble I wrote in a night cuz anniversaries!! Are important!! Happy two years of marriage my love! ♥

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Castle Krakenburg had grown quiet from the lack of activity in the late winter months, but there was one person who could be seen full of energy despite this monotonous time. Leigh was excitedly counting down the weeks since the new year had arrived, and Gunter knew that his wife was becoming more and more eager every day for their second wedding anniversary at the beginning of spring. He was still baffled that that had occurred two years ago now, amidst a war that had finally reached its end to bring peace between the kingdoms, and an end to the evil which had sat on the Nohrian throne. The pair had arranged many plans for their special day, including riding on horseback down some of their favourite trails around the castle and a nice candle little dinner. They even had a few surprises prepared for one another as well—however, a terrible misfortune would force them to postpone their celebration to another day.

“I’ve never felt so awful in my life.” Leigh sagged down into the mattress, a pounding headache and congested sinuses making them feel as though they were laying at death’s door.

“If I recall, you made the very same statement when you took ill last year as well,” Gunter mused, returning to the bedside to place a cold cloth on his wife’s forehead to help quell their fever.

“Yeah, well this time I feel worse.” Leigh frowned, pulling the blankets up to their chin. They had no idea where they had caught such an awful cold in such a short amount of time. Yesterday they had been feeling completely fine, only to wake up this morning before the sun had even risen to find they were sick. Gunter immediately cancelled their plans for the day despite how much Leigh had persisted that they were okay, though nearly collapsing to the floor as they attempted to get out of bed wasn’t convincing enough for the old knight.

“Is there anything I can get for you?”

“A redo on today. Why did I have to fall sick now of all times!” Leigh whined helplessly, wanting nothing more for this cold to disappear so that their anniversary wouldn’t be wasted. Gunter thought to himself for a moment, wondering how he could make his wife feel better. He had little experience in these kinds of situations, but eventually settled on an idea he thought would cheer Leigh up a little.

“I know you are disappointed about today, but what matters right now is your health. Would some tea with honey make you feel better?” He decided to take a seat on the chair beside the bed to allow for a moment's rest.

“A suppose it would a little… I just feel really bad for ruining our special day…” Leigh mumbled, rolling onto their side so that they could look at him. They inched their left arm out from under the covers slowly, reaching out and hoping he would interpret the message. Gunter took their hand in his gladly, rubbing his thumb along their knuckles.

“There will always be other days to celebrate, as well as more anniversaries in the future. However, the longer you are sick, the longer we must wait to reschedule those plans, right?”

“I know… I just hope you aren’t upset by all of this.”

“Being sick is something I would never hold against you. If anything, I’d rather you take the time you need to recover so that it doesn’t develop into something worse.” He brought the back of their hand to his lips so that he could place a kiss there. Leigh’s heart fluttered, enjoying this little bit of attention—they had been worried precious moments like this would be most at loss due to their current condition.

They chatted idly together for a while longer, Gunter hoping it was helping to relieve some of the stress and general ickiness Leigh was feeling. It seemed to be working, their eyes appearing to fall heavy with fatigue. Once Gunter was certain they had fallen asleep, he tried to pull his hand away so that he could go and prepare some tea and soup for when they woke up. However, Leigh's eyes lazily opened once again, tugging lightly on his hand in hopes he would stay.

“Mm-mm. Don’t leave right yet. Wait until I fall completely asleep first.” Leigh smiled a little bit, letting their eyelids fall close as they made themself comfortable among the pillows and blankets. They eventually fell asleep with the aid of the rhythmic motions of Gunter’s thumb tracing small patterns over their hand, bringing them comfort in that he would continue to always be there for them in their time of need.

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the year is 2018 and I’m no longer ashamed of using my Avatar’s name when writing FE:if fics.

[teamkaiforever]

LOST

Kai Parker x Reader word count : 4 036 summary : Kai is trapped at the Armoury when he gets a surprise visitor. * gif by me _________________________________________

    “No. Damon, let go of me!” she raised her voice, elbowing the vampire who didn’t even flinch. “I am going to see him and its not up for discussion. He has to know and I have to at least say goodbye to him before you decide to send him away or worse – kill him again.” Y/N took a step towards the cells when Damon flashed before her. “You are not going.”    “Yes. I am.“ she said more determined. “You are not going to rob our chance to see each other again.”    “He is a psychopath !”    “Just because you all see him like this, doesn’t mean I do or that I ever will! We’ve all done awful things. You can’t judge him for something he did and not hold everyone else by the same standard.” she tried to fight her way through the vampire who tried to push her away. “Damon, move or I swear to God –”

Kai got up, rubbing his sweaty palms on his jeans before roughly running his fingers through his hair. He could hear her footsteps nearing, then it sounded as if she fell and next she broke into a run. There might be at least one upside to being locked up in a cell at the Armoury –he was going to see her again. He missed her and every little thing about her so much. He missed how her nose crinkled when she told a lie, how she ran her fingers through her hair when she was nervous and her smile – her smile with the unbelievable ability to make the darkest moments brighter. Most of all he missed having her in his arms, kissing her, falling asleep and waking up next to her. Not that he’d get to do any of those things seeing how he had just heard her say she was there to say goodbye to him. After coming back he had tried so many times to find her but each attempt had ended up in failure.Later on had even asked Damon, but the vampire had been so vague in his answer, Kai had almost convinced himself having her in his life had been a dream. That hearing her say ‘I love you’ had been a trick his mind had played on him. That loving her had been just the empathy he had gained from Luke but now he was sure it had all been real. He had never been more sure about anything else – he loved her and he wasn’t going to let go of her. Not that easily. About a minute passed before Y/N showed up on the other side of the large glass, holding a key card in her hand. Her expression was guarded but her eyes lit up instantly when she saw him. He could hear her heart racing faster than a hummingbirds’ wings and knew it had nothing to do with the fact she had been running. A smile tugged at the corners of his mouth. His girl had been so impatient she had actually ran towards him.    "Hi.“ smiled Kai nervously, taking a step towards the glass. A sigh left his lips realising she hadn’t changed a bit. His girl looked exactly the same, perhaps even hotter than the last time he had seen her and his breath got caught in his throat instantly. For someone who usually didn’t stop talking, he felt absolutely tongue tied in that moment. “Woawh, you look absolutely stunning.” Y/N glanced at her clothes – ripped in the knees black jeans with paint stains from her art classes earlier and a black/white sleeveless t-shirt, her hair was definitely a mess and her eyes were puffy from all the sad/happy tears she had probably shed since finding out he was back. “You must’ve really missed me to think this is stunning.” she laughed under her breath.    "You always look stunning.“ he smiled, glancing at his shoes for a moment. “D-did you miss me ?”    "I did.“ she ran her fingers through her hair. “More than you can imagine, but -”    "Ahh, there is a but.“ his expression darkened. “That’s not good, is it ?” Y/N shook her head, glancing at her shoes for a moment before looking at him. “I came to say goodbye.”    "Are you going to say goodbye through the glass ? Cuz that would hurt a lot more than dying and being in Hell ever did.“ he said, unable to hide the notes of hurt in his voice. “Can’t I get at least one last chance to hold you in my arms ?” Y/N smiled at him, swiped the key card she had been playing with in her hands for the past few minutes and walked inside, the door closing shut behind her. Instantly Kai pulled her in his arms taking in her familiar scent while her arms wrapped around him, holding him tighter by the second. Seeing her say she had come to say goodbye it became clear to him that was not the real reason why she had gone to see him.    "God, I missed having you in my arms.“ he whispered, finally feeling complete again after all the literal Hell he had been through and everything felt absolutely perfect until the moment she pulled away, or at least tried to.   “No, no. Don’t – not yet.” his grip around her tightened. “Four years. I haven’t held you in my arms for four years. There is no way I am ever letting you go now.”    "Kai –“ she pushed him away, placed her hands on his shoulders and took a a few steps away from him. “I told you –”    "D-don’t say it. Y/N, please. I can’t be without you in my life.” he took a step towards her, and another until he was standing so close to her she could feel his breath on her face. “I know I screwed up, repeatedly, and then got myself killed. I know I broke your heart but I can change. I will change –”    "Kai, don’t –“ she pushed him an arms length away, feeling his heart racing in his chest. His smoky blue eyes looked so blue in that moment it made her knees go weak and she forced her gaze away. “Don’t make this any harder than it needs to be.” she said, feeling her eyes sting with tears. “I – I came to say goodbye.” Kai took a small step towards her, brushing his palm against her cheek and almost instantly she leaned in towards it.      "I hurt you. I know.” he said softly. “I linked your best friends growing up together and made it so you won’t ever see Elena again just to get back at Bon Bon for hurting my… feelings. I acted on an impulse not realising I will lose you … and my head, literally, afterwards.” he held onto her wrist and placed her hand on his cheek while slowly backing her against the large cell-glass. “Losing you, not having you in my arms – that was the real Hell and the only way I will ever feel truly alive again is having you by my side. Even as a friend, however painful that is. Just please –”    "Kai, I told you. I came to say goodbye.” she said quietly, avoiding his gaze. “I can’t be your friend or love you anymore. I don’t. You have to let me go. It’s for the best.”    "No. No, you are lying.” he shook his head slightly, seeing her crinkle her nose. “You came for me. I heard the way you spoke. You still feel something for me, other ways you wouldn’t be here.”    "No.”    "It’s the truth. I know it is.” he rested his forehead on hers, their fingers intertwining together. “It’s in your eyes. I can hear it in your heartbeat, feel it in your body language. You still love me.”    “I don’t.” she looked at her shoes.    “Look me in the eyes and tell me this.” Kai braced his hand on the glass, feeling the magic coming from the surface and sighed. It would be so easy for him to siphon it and get himself free. Her friends obviously hadn’t had a clue how all the magical artefacts had fuelled the walls and every single nook and cranny of the Armoury with magic. He could siphon it all, wrap his arms around her and whoosh them away somewhere they can’t be overheard and can begin their eternity together just like they had always wanted. Perhaps she was acting like this and saying all those things because she knew her friends were listening in, but he didn’t intend on giving up that easily. Not after everything they had been through.    "Give me one more chance.” he lifted her chin up, forcing her to look at him, lovingly gazing in her eyes. “I will be good, for you. I promise. I promise, I will try. I love you. I never stopped.” Y/N snorted. Kai looked at her confused watching her morph into Seline right before his eyes. Instantly he took a step back. A tornado of emotions swirled in his mind in the span of seconds – mostly anger and pain.    “Owhh, did you really think she was here? Look how pathetic you’ve become.Love ?”    "You.” he whooshed himself towards her and slammed her in the glass, wrapping his hand around her neck. “Where is she? What have you done to her?”    "She’s fine, sort of. Taking a magical nap upstairs.” smirked the siren. “You made a deal with Cade. No sentimental attachments. Did you really think you can hide her existence from him ?” Kai tried to strangle the siren, suddenly realising Seline had been in his head the entire time. The siren lifted her hand, waving her fingers at him through the large glass.    "If you touch her, I swear I will kill you.”    "You can’t.” stated the siren. “I am immortal.”    "Damon !!!” shouted Kai, listening in on their conversation upstairs. How hadn’t he noticed the voices from above earlier? Had the siren been really that deep in his mind he hadn’t figured it out sooner? Or maybe he had let the thought his girl was standing before him distract him from everything else. “YOU HAVE TO WAKE HER UP !!!”    "They can’t wake her. No one can.” said the siren. “Your girl won’t make it until the end of the day with that thing eating at her brain and even if by some spectacular miracle she does, she won’t be the same.” Kai felt all air being sucked out of his lungs. Out of everyone he had met in his entire life Y/N had been the first to truly believe in him, care for him and love him so much she had tried to stand in Damon’s way the night of the wedding. The bravest human in Mystic Falls willing to sacrifice her own life to save the man she loved. And he was willing to do the same for her. He knew he had to save her or at least try to, otherwise he would never be able to live with himself.    "They might not be able to but I can.“ said Kai with determination and closed his eyes, placing his hand on the glass, siphoning its magic away. He tried to focus on what was happening upstairs while the siren started singing, trying to get him to stop which only confirmed his suspicions – he could wake her up. Every time the siren’s voice tried to strip him if his free will he got lost in all the happy memories he had – each of them involving Y/N until the siren’s voice started to dissolve. Kai used magic to choke Seline and stop her from singing. The glass shattered and alarms started to sound all through the Armoury along with flashing red lights. Caroline flashed downstairs glancing between Seline laying on the ground and Kai, who only glanced at her and whooshed himself upstairs in a second.    "Don’t –” he said raising his hands in defence seeing everyone’s shocked expressions. “– don’t kill me. You might not give a damn about me, but we all care about her.” he pointed at Y/N laying unconscious on the sofa. Bonnie stared daggers at him while Stefan and Damon glanced at each other and the vampire chased after Kai, who whooshed himself to Y/N’s side in a split second. He knelt down next to her and quickly put on a boundary spell around them so no one tries to separate him from her.    "It’s going to be okay.” said Kai softly, kissing her forehead while gently stroking her hair. “I will get you back. You and I – we have unfinished business. I have a lot to make up for. We have so many things to do together, remember ?”    "Step away from her, twirp.” said Damon but Stefan held him back.    "Bonnie has been trying to wake her for almost half an hour.” said his brother. “Let him try.”    "Have you lost your damn mind ?! What if –”    "Her mind is drowning.” said Bonnie, “ I can’t break through whatever Seline did to her. She is dying. We can’t let her die !” Kai clenched his jaw. "We can argue about it later. Seline is downstairs. I suggest you go deal with that while I wake Y/N up before she –” he swallowed hard. No, he wouldn’t even dare think it let alone say it. No, he was going to get her back. A moment later he closed his eyes and entered her sub-conscience.

Kai took a step through the doorway, recognising the place instantly – the barn, after he had shattered the glass windows and had killed himself. Worse, just before Damon killed him. As if from a distance he heard his own voice  ‘That’s it ? He just left you ? The whole point was that this would torture him for a while. I mean, you’d think he’d at least flip a coin. Heads he picks you, tails he picks –” followed by a piercing scream. Her scream. Kai ran towards her, right past Bonnie who was being healed by Damon, and knelt on the ground next to her. Y/N was standing barely a few feet away from his headless body. Her hands hugged her knees, blood covered her dress and her gaze was locked straight ahead, drifting from time to time towards his dead body. Tears streamed down her cheeks and she kept muttering something to herself which sounded a lot like ‘This is not real. It’s not real. You are not dead. You can’t be dead.‘      “Y/N ?“ he gently rubbed her shoulder. "I am here. I am here, I’m not dead. Well, I am but I am not. It’s complicated, I guess."  Y/N looked up confused, looking straight at him but her gaze was so unfocused it didn’t even appear she could see him. Her hands shot for her head and she screamed in pain, repeating the same words over and over. He took her hand and gently kissed her knuckles while she looked around and right through him. "N-no. S-stop it. I can’t – please make it stop.”     “Stop ? Stop what ?” he asked, hearing his own voice again. Kai looked up and saw himself, looking around confused just as Damon had left. Then Y/N showed up almost 5 seconds before Damon did. She tried to stand in the vampire’s way but Damon pushed her away and she fell on the ground, her scream piercing the air while the eldest Salvatore raised his hand and swiftly beheaded him again. It took Kai a split second to realise Seline had trapped Y/N on a repeating loop of the most painful memory in her life.      “Listen to me. Hey, Y/N –” he cupped her face. “This is not real. I am here with you.  Look at me.”     “No. No, you are dead.” she sobbed, holding her head in her hands while the memory played on repeat. “Y-you died.”     “I’m not dead, trouble.” he brushed his palm against her cheek. “I’m back. Seline trapped you in your own mind. Hey, look at me.” He tried to get her attention but it didn’t seem she could even see him. It was almost as if a part of her mind had shut down and he tried and tried to figure out what to do to get her to snap out of it. He gripped her wrists and did the first thing that popped into his head. He kissed her.  At first her lips didn’t respond to the kiss and she continued to trash against him. Then she stopped and returned the kiss, their lips moving against each other like they had thousands of times before. Slowly he pulled away, gazing into her eyes.      “K-Kai ?” she said, shock and surprise flashing on her face in the span of seconds. “OH my God !”     “Ahh, there she is.” grinned Kai, instantly pulling her in his arms. “You scared me to death ! Y/N –” he cupped her face. “– tell me what happened so I can wake you up. What did Seline did to you ? Did she say something ?”     “Seline ?” she asked confused. “W-wake me up ? What are you talking about ? H-how are we here ?”     “We are in your head. You came to the Armoury to .. say goodbye and Seline, the siren you know the tall dark haired one, did something to you. You um –” he glanced at their fingers intertwined together. “You will die unless I wake you up.”     “I – I don’t know what she did.” she wiped away tears from her cheeks and took a deep breath. “I was – I was walking down to the cells to see you and get you out. Someone jumped me and smacked my head against the wall. Next thing I know – I was here. Watching you die again… and again. I – Kai. Kai, I have to tell you something.”     “Whatever it is, it will have to wait.” he swallowed hard, noticing how the lights around them flickered synchronised with her heart beat and were slowly starting to die down. “You can say goodbye after I save you.”     “Goodbye ?” she questioned. “No. I didn’t come to say goodbye. No, I came for you, to tell you –”     “You – you came for me ?” he smiled and she nodded. “Whatever it is, you can tell me later because you are not dying today. I will not let that happen.” he said determined. He looked around and closed his eyes, muttering a spell after spell holding her in his arms tighter than ever as if doing so would protect her from whatever it is coming next. Y/N cupped his face with one hand and pressed her lips against his. Instantly he returned the kiss before pushing her away slightly gazing in her eyes. There was nothing more he hated in this world than seeing her eyes filled with tears. Except maybe realising the spell he had tried hadn’t worked and they were still trapped there. He felt as if his heart was being ripped out of his chest watching the lights around them starting to die down, but refused to even let the thought inside his mind.      “There might not be later.” she said quietly. “Listen to me, if I don’t make it… W-when I’m gone –”     “No.” he shook his head feeling water start to pool in his eyes. “Don’t say that. You will be alright. I will get you out. This is not a goodbye.”     “No. It’s not.” she smiled. “Kai, you have to tell Caroline I told you about Peter. He looks so much like you, by the way. Actual mischief in human form.”     “What?” asked Kai confused, remembering how she had told her friends that ‘he has to know’. Y/N smiled through tears at him. “I found out I was pregnant after the wedding. You have a son.”     “What ?” he smiled at her, trying to picture their child in his mind. “I have a son ? Oh my God –” he grinned, smashing his lips against hers. He wondered if their child will love him, if maybe he was a siphoner like his dad or not. Either way Kai knew he’d love him and will do whatever it takes to protect him. And try his best to be the best father in the world.     “MOMMY !” called out a child’s voice. Kai opened his eyes, looking around confused when a small boy who could’ve been his twin if they were back in the 70’s ran past him. His lips curled into a smile recognising the boy as his son and quickly he got up, realising his girl wasn’t in his arms anymore. She was standing a few metres away from him, catching their son as he ran into her arms. Y/N lifted up the little boy in her arms and motioned for Kai to follow them as they walked through the cemetery, sun rays seeping through the trees. He shortened the distance between them in an instant. Y/N sat on one of the small stone benches, let Peter’s feet on the ground and Kai watched as the little boy sat on the ground before them next to a tomb stone, smiling wider than ever at his parents while playing with a small blue car toy in his hands.     “That’s him ?” smiled Kai, his gaze drifting between his son and the girl he loved the most. Y/N nodded. “He is perfect.”     “He will need you.” she said, taking Kai’s hand while they watched their son make the toy car float in the air, following Peter’s eye movements until the car bumped into the grave stone. That’s when he noticed the name engraved on the tomb stone – his name, Malachai ‘Kai’ Parker. Why wasn’t he surprised she had taken the time to bury him ? How many nights and/or days she had spent here alone, crying ? “Whatever happens… if I make it or not. Promise me you will be there for him.”     “Nothing is going to happen. I will wake you up or put you in a magical coma until I find a spell to wake you and –”     “Promise me.”     “I am not losing you. I can’t lose you. I just got you back.”     “Kai –” Kai sighed. “Always. I promise.” he said feeling more determined than ever to wake her up. “I love you, trouble.” Y/N cupped his face with one hand, gazing into his eyes. “I love you too.” He rested his forehead on hers and started chanting again, all his heightened emotions fuelling his magic powers and he continued muttering a spell after spell until the ground shook and suddenly he woke up in the real world.

    “What happened ?” asked Damon. “Did it work ?” Kai looked around, startled, listening to her weak heartbeat. His girl had come to get him, not to say goodbye. She had come to tell him he had a family, that after all this time he had people who love him unconditionally. She still loved him and now –     “Answer me, twirp !” He lightly shook his head, looking at her for almost a whole minute before her eyes fluttered open and she gasped for air. A collective sigh of relief sounded in the Armoury. Caroline and Bonnie smiled through tears, while Stefan rubbed his fiance’s shoulders and Damon grinned at Y/N.     “Welcome back.” said Stefan smiling. Y/N smiled back looking around at everyone and then at Kai as if seeing him for the first time.     “I thought I lost you !” he said softly, smiling through tears while cupping her face before pulling her in his arms. “I never would’ve forgiven myself if something had happened to you. A-are you okay ?” Y/N lightly pushed him away, glancing between him and her friends with confusion in her eyes.      “Y/N ?” said Kai smiling nervously. “I’m back, I’m alive.”     “S-sorry.” she smiled nervously. “W-who are you?”

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[mephonic]

Pain Chapter 2....

Pain Chapter 1

Seeing the Cards of Hope

Weeks passed since Timmy agreed to be Remy's maid and he was already hated it. Remy made Timmy do hard tasks, water the flower with a water bottle, sweep the floors with a makeup brush, and paint the house with a small water paint brush.

Timmy's job for today was to cut the roses, with his bare hands. "Man I hate this..."

"Hello!" Timmy turns and saw Mr. Buxaplenty standing behind him, staring at him. "Hello, Mr-"

"Jack" The man said.

"...Jack...How are you?"

Jack smiled. "Good...I see my son is making you do some task?"

Timmy looked at his hand, there were cuts covering all over his hands. "Yeah..."

"Want me to fix that for you?"

"Please?!" Jack smiled and lead Timmy inside

Through the window Remy watches Timmy walk inside, he sighs as he turns towards his desk and looks at the CD. He finds it odd that Timmy would be into something like this; throughout the years he never tried to get to know Timmy. He knew he liked Trixie and his fairies, he knew his friends, families, everything he knew Remy knew. But everything Timmy liked. His hobbies, his dreams; he didn't know. Even Timmy knew what he liked, his favorite books, movies, games; he even knew that Remy wanted to go run his own C.E.O compensation.

Remy put his hand on the CD. "where is Juandissimo?"

Meanwhile, Wanda and Cosmo went to Fairyworld to meet with the fairy council. They were held in a room with dark walls and little to no light "I wonder why we were called?...Did you and Timmy do something stupid?!"

Cosmo huffed. "Why do you think Timmy did?!"

Wanda was about to say something till she felt her hand being grab and kissed on. "Wanda your face makes my heart go on!" Juandissimo said as he keeps on kissing her hand.

"Hey!" Cosmo pushes his wife behind and growled. "Cosmo?...Shouldn't you be taking care of your baby?" He said as he smirked

Cosmo growled at his comment. "POOF! Went to fairy school and you know I can't cuz I can't change his clothes without being stuck!"

Wanda facepalms herself; as the two fought for an hour but was interrupted by the council and with them was a woman. The woman had no wings but she was still flying; her face was pale as snow, her long hair was pitch black and her eyes were white as light. She was taller than any fairy, even a human.

She was wearing a red robe that covered her whole body. She pulls out cards and places them onto a table. "Who's she?" both men asked

Wanda's eyes widen. "She's the wish watcher!"

The woman smiled. "I am...I blessed your wedding about a couple of centuries...How are you two?"

"Fine...But why are we here?"

The woman frown. "Timmy is in danger..."

Both Cosmo and Wanda gasp. "WHAT?!"

Juandissimo raises his eyebrow. "Why did you call them then? Shouldn't they be with him...And why am I here?"

" Because Remy is in trouble as well..." She turns the cards and on the card were Timmy, Remy, and Gary. "These are the cards of hope..."

"Hope?" Both three asked.

"Yes...As you see Timmy and Remy are the only ones in history to have their fairies longer than they should...These cards show their hopes, dreams...Love."

Both Wanda and Cosmo looked at Timmy's card; The card was shown when he was ten years old. Both Wanda and Cosmo smiled.

"...But something is about to happen...Timmy's future card has changed...Normally I wouldn't interfere with these types of thing but..." She places her hand on the card and what happens made both fairies gasp in horror.

Timmy was chain to a bed, with no clothes. His body was covered in cuts and bite marks, his eyes were filled with tears and sadness. The only thing that was covering him was a bloody cover. Wanda shut her eyes and turns away, Cosmo comforts her. Juandissimo just turns his head away.

The woman turns back the card. "I know its...Unsettling...But if we want to change this we need your help"

"how could this happen?!" Cosmo yelled.

"We don't know..." The woman whispers

Wanda whispered. "Did...Remy did it?"

Juandissimo snapped. "WHY?! Cause his evil? Unfriendly?! You know not ever child is like Timmy! He has a hard time enough now!"

Cosmo snapped back. "Yeah well, he's done more than you believe on! He tries to take us away! More than I can count! So what his family not around? Timmy's it isn't either! And he has it much worse than him!"

"You shut your mouth! Remy's own mother lifted him and now his father doesn't even come home!"

"So? Timmy's family still bullies and treat him like a maid!"

"STOP BOTH OF YOU!" Both men turn to the woman, the woman sighs. "Listen I understand you two don't get along but we most work together...Please?"

Both looked back; Juandissimo looked at Cosmo long and hard but both nodded.

The woman smiled. "Good...Now I want you to help them by pushing them together..Alongside Gary"

"Okay...But can't we wish this to go away?"

"We would but since Timmy and Remy are of an age where magic is harder and harder to do...Which is why this is the last wish"

"WHAT?!" Both three yelled.

"They need to leave and go...Even you stay longer than this act...Will happen" Wanda looked back at Cosmo. "But...Poof?"

"He is his own person now...he well not vanish...So what would you pick? His happiness...Or his future?"

They looked at each other; they would lose their child but at the same time they would lose them away? Juandissimo turns Remy's card and gasps.

Remy card had him laying inside a box. The box was underground, in a graveyard. He was alive and digging inside the box, his hands were bleeding and his head was covered in dirt and blood. The box was small and half his size, his legs were smashed together inside the box. His face was showing pain and suffering.

He let tears fall down. "I will do this..."

"Good" Woman said as she clapped her hands together.

"What about Gary's?!" Asked Cosmo

"I can't show him yet...But you need to find him now"

Wanda rubbed her eyes. "Who is doing this?"

"...I can't say..." Wanda's was about to yell but withdrew. The woman took the cards and lifted the three alone.

Mr. Buxaplenty cover Timmy's cuts with a bandage; the two were in the living room. Timmy looked around the room. It was white, of course. And the wall was covered with pictures of trees and plants; the rest were pictures of his family. Timmy saw one picture of Remy; he was ten or younger, he was wearing his normal suit and standing next to him was his parents but they're faces were covered in the picture.

"Sad ain't it?"

"Huh?!' Timmy turns to him. "We were never there...I feel so sad for him..."

Timmy gave a small smile. "It's okay...Just try your best..."

Mr. Buxaplenty smiled. "Thank you..."

Remy walks in the room and leans against the door. "You can go now"

"Finally" Timmy was about to leave till Mr. Buxaplenty grabs his hand. "Why not leave your shirt...I can get the maids to wash it, besides it's dirty"

Remy nodded. "his right...Besides, I hate the smell of poor people"

Timmy growled and took off his shirt and storm off, Remy rolled his eyes and followed.

Mr. Buxaplenty grabbed his shirt and took a long sniff of it, his eyes rolled back. He fell back and kept smelling it, he smiled as he watches Timmy out the window with no shirt on. He pulls out his phone and took a picture.

"I, hope to see you again...My Timmy~"

(Again not my best work!)

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Grenville South Dakota Cheap car insurance quotes zip 57239

Are SUV's usually high in insurance for teens?

I've been told that I should wait a little longer before i can get a faster car, and I was just wondering whether insurance for an suv would be high, in my case, for an inexperienced driver, (16). Parents are thinking of buying an Fj cruiser and willing to give it to me when i get my liscense.""

How much is a no insurance ticket in illinois?

I've been trying to look this up, can't find jack **** on it.. How much is it?""

Car dealership never faxed info to the insurance company. Can anything legally be done?

I got in an accident in the car and the insurance company said the dealership never faxed the info and it was ultimately my responsibility to make sure it had insurance so is there anything i can do or am i just screwed with a wrecked car?

Where can I buy 1-day car insurance?

I have my car parked in a storage facility in LA, CA and I want to sell it, but I don't have insurance to cover my drive from storge to the dealership. I've looked online for temporary/1-day car insurance but all the ones I find are the the UK. Does anyone know of any companies that offer temporary car insurance? Thanks!!""

Car Insurance Rates long island?

Help....My 20 year old needs car insurance... has two tickets,,, we live on long island just the basics""

Does AAA offer short term car insurance?

I just got my license but will be moving down to San Diego in a week to start college. My parents don't want to start me on a long term insurance plan as I won't be using their cars much so it's a waste of money. I was wondering if there is a short term insurance plan that is cheaper as it would be very convenient to drive this week instead of taking busses.

Auto Insurance for 18 Years Old.. HELP?

I am asian, male I just turned 18 yesterday, and got my car too.. It's 2005 Nissan 350z Enthusiast, Yellow. I'm just wondering, how much does insurance cost for 18 y.o that drives sports car? I checked with geico, progressive, 21st, and allstate, and they give me a pretty expensive premium.. Just wondering about you guys.. How much do you pay for auto insurance?""

How much to insure a 20 year old female learner on mothers insurance for one month in ireland?

i am 20 and want to learn to drive in my mums car (citron saxo 2001) how much roughly would it be to add me to the insurance for one month if ive never had lessons and have only had a provisional licence for 2 months? i live in ireland thanks

Can i buy CAT 'D' INSURANCE WRITE OFF Vauxhall 2007 Car?

I have seen a car that I really like....Vauxhall Astra 1.6 Club, Manual 57 Plate...with 45,000 miles on the clock.... im a new and 24 years old young driver. Really liked it when I saw it....this car sell on ebay just  2500 recorded as a Cat D Insurance write-off on 14 Aug 2012 ......Now im really confused because I really like the car......Any advice please? Seller say car was excellent condition, nothing any wrong. buying guide please""

Cheapest insurance for teens in northern ireland??

im trying to get insurance in my own name (policy) but everywhere seems to be way way too expensive! i was hoping for something around 2000 but the cheapest i found is 3400 for a group 4 insurance car!

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St. Johns Insurance Company?

Does you have any positive/negative expierences with St. Johns Insurance Company?

I am 19 years old and live in a suburb of Illinois. How much will my car insurance be on a 2001 Nissan Xterra?

I am 19 years old and live in a suburb of Illinois. How much will my car insurance be on a 2001 Nissan Xterra?

Car inspection in a different state?

I need to renew the registration for my vehicle. I recently moved to a different state (NC to CA) but haven't changed my insurance or anything because I am under my parents coverage. Can I take the inspection in california and do the renewal online? I guess I don't have a choice of doing the inspection but would like to know if I can do it online or would I have to mail the inspection?

What is the best student accident insurance?

What is the best student accident insurance plan for Kinder level in Pennsylvania?

What is the purpose of a car insurance company giving quotes for the other insurance companies??

Just wondering... could they maybe lie about it? Why would they give quotes of the other companies if theirs isn't as good as the other ones? To me it just sort of seems like they are screwing themselves... Does anybody know why they do this?

Can you get car insurance in British Columbia from anyone other than ICBC?

I've been searching around and it seems that nobody will sell insurance in a province that has a government insurance agency?

Anyone know insurance companies that would cover my car while in Canada?

I'm a US citizen on a temporary work permit in Ontario. I'm trying to figure out the best way to register my car. If I can find insurance that would cover me in Canada I could maintain registration in Calif. Does anyone know about this? Is there an insurance company that will cover my car while I'm registered in Calif/driving in Ontario? Thanks!

What is an average estimate for insurance on a 1991 convertible for a 19 year old male?

The car is not red and i'm talking just liability.

When should you not carry full coverage auto insurance?

When should you not carry full coverage auto insurance?

Does have a cpc reduce car insurance costs?

I have just recently obtained my pcv license and also gotten my cpc (certificate of professional competence). will having either or both of these reduce my car insurance premiums? thanks.

What's the best car insurance?

Got a good quote from 21st century insurance. I'm thinking of switching from my Geico. I'd save a little bit but if anyone thinks Geico is a much better company then I'd probably stay. Any advice out there? Should I keep looking? I live in Florida. Thanks!

Do I need car insurance if the car is already fully covered?

Okay, so i just got my license yesterday. The car that I would be driving is already fully insured by my boyfriend who I live with. I live in Cali. Do I personally still need insurance? Or will I be covered if I get in an accident since its fully covered?""

Insurance payments on a car?

Okay so to start off i am 16 as of today. I will get my permit today and in one year I will turn 17. I will then have my license. So when I turn 17 i will be able to buy my own car with a $5000 down payment with the choice of a car. But here is where I am stuck. I do not know too much on information on car insurance. I know that I will be under my parents policy from here until I am 17. Lets say that there is 5 of us under this car insurance, no one has a separate policy, all under one umbrella. What happens when I buy a car, I get insured with a new car, my own car, and still under the policy things with my family. How much is it going to be per month? Can you average it? Here is a list of cars I will choose from, and if you can, provide estimated prices per month I will have to pay. - (2008-2010) BMW 3 Series Sedan (No mods or extra horsepower, plain performance) - (2006-2011) Mazda RX-8 Coupe (same, no mods or any fancy performance stuff) - (2008-2011) Mazda 3 or MazdaSpeed3 (sedan) - (2008-2011) Volkswagen Jetta (sedan) - (2008-2011) Subaru Impreza (hatchback) Also I am an A-B student with an above 3.5 GPA Also I will take a drivers ed course at school""

""I'm traveling for a month, do I need car insurance?""

I'm going to be traveling for a month, during which nobody will use my car. My insurance expires right before the month starts, and I want to switch providers after that, but is there any good reason to continue paying insurance for that month at full rate when nobody's even going to touch the car? Or, is there another way I can save money?""

Grenville South Dakota Cheap car insurance quotes zip 57239

Grenville South Dakota Cheap car insurance quotes zip 57239

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So many mixed thoughts... So many mixed feelings.... Dunno how it feels like I'm full and empty at the same time... Don't know how i can have all these feelings but also feel numb and dry... How can you love and care and want someone so fucking terribly and also be begging on your knees for closure just to make it all go away just for a shot and a chance to not feel another day of heart ache... I feel like i openly express everything... I run my mouth like a broken record... My heart is stuck on this fucking loop over someone i won't ever end up with... I don't know what to do anymore... All i can think of is to get some sense of closure cuz holding on only hurts more than the thought of just being truly without him for good... I seriously loved him so much... I still do but a part of me doesn't want to anymore... And idk how to stop... I'm tired of wasting tears over some guy who doesn't give 2 shits about me or my day or wants to be a part of my life or include me in his... Asks me how i am... Wants to actually communicate and talk and be truly connected in any way.. It's just truly over and deep down I know it and we'll never go back to each other... I think that's why I've been drinking like I've never done before... Going from drunk to hangover to drunk and then another hangover... To craving a beer in the middle of my shifts and wanting to drink again but i can't cuz i spent my money... I literally crave a drink now... I'm honestly a fool... To still wear my loyalty ring... To want someone who doesn't want me back.... It's been hard for me to eat cuz nothing feels like it tastes good... And so i just drink these milkshake things with protein in them or protein bars or pizza cuz that's all i can manage lately for the last 2 weeks... And I feel like my knees are giving out too so I'm literally in pain and limping everwhere... And bending my knees to get up the fucking stairs to take my breaks at work literally makes me feel like my knees are gonna give before I'm 30 and idk what i did to them but now I need to see a doctor about them because they just keep getting worse for the last month... I literally try to make the most of my day every single day despite where I'm at right now... I try and crack jokes and laugh and find things to do or find inspiration, pick up a guitar, draw, sing my heart out, go on drives, meet up with friends, go to the bar, find a concert, have a day worth remembering... Even though my heart is broken and i feel like I'm lost and wandering and filling my time with work and nonsense... I'm trying to live lightly... Trying to get back to my roots with rock music and creativity and adventure... Trying to become myself again... I just can't seem to deal with my heart right now... I can't deal with the fact that my heart is lost to some fucker that stomps on it and doesn't treat it with tenderness and care.. I'm so turned off to the idea of relationships now... Yet i have friends that are planning weddings and showing me ultrasounds of their babies and even though I'm genuinely happy for them so much i get butterflies in my stomach, im soooo far from accomplishing that stepping stone in life... Here i am expecting to be single until some random day in my 40s or something when maybe fate might throw a brick in my face and say here's your dude. For all i expect for myself is to be alone until i find my maternal opening is on its way out and i have to have my babies before my window closes for good and i would have wasted another shot at a dream in my life... God I'm done wallowing in self pity.. I feel shitty for writing all this... I guess i just needed to get it out but still... Everything is kinda shitty but I'm trying to focus on all the good things around me and work on filling myself up again so i can keep being that person that gives a homeless guy 15 dollars, that tries to rescue a running pup, that actually has butterflies when i see my friends babyhead in her ultrasounds, and is witty again and excited for things and cries with my new friend in her bedroom closet when talking about animals. Despite my broken heart I'm trying to come alive again and i just need to keep focusing on that and not let my mind wander to thoughts of him... It's the biggest pit in my stomach...