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mod2amaryllis · 2 months ago

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i love being married to a straight guy. this morning we were parallel chilling and i glance at his computer and he's watching a drill fight tournament. as in, guys attaching drills to the same rod and turning them on until one breaks. to find the strongest drill. jose noticed me staring and rolled out of the way so i could see the screen. he knew every drill brand and told me their quality and price. i watched the whole thing without comment. the violence was enchanting. i never would have found this. he's a vector to an entirely alien, often beautiful, world.

#m2a #i reek of bisexuality so hard that multiple people have said we have bi couple energy #and I'm always like you don't understand. i have never met a more heterosexual human than my husband.#he's perfect.

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j-femmescoli · 8 days ago

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its been hard but i went back and reread some of my own writing on the subject(s) and god damn i am good. i love being catholic, i love being queer, i love being pro-choice. all of those are intrinsically connected by my love for women.

#1 mary in particular and all of us made in the image of God #2 women in general because they are pretty #3 and finally women as full active human beings with intrinsic rights as fully deserving citizens and decision-makers in their own future #i get it. i get the conflict #actually i don't think there's much of a conflict between the first two at least not anymore #no one can ever convince me against that again ever since like five years ago when ive decided that im perfect the way i am n God loves me #but i have been...confused lately about the first and the last #confusing just because. im in theology school. and we don't talk about That like That but. it's just hard you know #which may be shocking because abortion is my THING #i LOVE abortion i have volunteered at a CLINIC as mentioned i have written EXTENSIVELY in defense of it #and yet the intrinsic beauty of God found in all creatures from largest to smallest has started to get to me #but all it took was rereading my own work-in-progress treatise and the banging arguments i have already made to remember #that we cannot #and must not #erase the dignity and beauty and freedom and intrinsic creative power of women #for any cause #for any reason #and it's hard it's always hard #but i reaffirm my stance to all of you and to myself #that God wants women to thrive #i really believe He does #and i can't bear to worship a God that cares so little for women that He would reject the very rights and dignity that He infused us with #in the first place #and others may disagree #today is the feast of the holy innocents and of course many people have made certain posts about it #and yeah i get it and that's what i mean when i say its hard it's always hard #but the God that i love knows.#He knows.#He knows it's hard.#and He loves us anyway.

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inkskinned · 3 months ago

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she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.

my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.

my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.

my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.

at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.

my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.

i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.

two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.

it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.

#writeblr #wlw #i often think about like.....#being happy in a gay relationship is sometimes so odd #bc u can forget how stupid ppl are.#bc ur so USED to being gay. and u forget other people GENUINELY ARE homophobic #so it's like. girl pardon?????#but also there are moments where it's like. ohhh the kids are alright #like watching someone razz someone else.... so fucking wholesome #“lemme get this bitche's pronouns before i make gentle fun of them” .... i would have KILLED for that.#THAT is how u know ur accepted #not just tolerated #..... when ppl are like. sure ur nonbinary congrats but WHAT is this fucking sunscreen application #ps idk if "razz'' is a real word but someone asked what it means -#i've always heard it as being a term for 'gentle & friendly teasing'' which like #i personally notice more from my guy friends but is like - when a person isn't #LIKE ACTUALLY teasing u (it's nothing personal/mean) they're just laughing w/you about something #my friends often put on a little voice and call me an anemic little bitch #like 'ooooo the anemic little bitch is cold??? does she need a mouse blanket #bc she's SOOOO SMALL AND ANEMIC???''#and it doesn't hurt my feelings (it makes me laugh very hard) bc 1. i actually called MYSELF that first #and 2. i'm not sensitive about it!!!#a proper razz is when you are ALSO in on the joke - i ALSO think it's funny #for some people i personally find that when they razz u it's when they love u -#they've noticed something genuine about u and love u enough that u know they're not being mean #this is cultural and personality based of course but i'm hispanic #if someone isn't making fun of me it means they hate me . obviously.

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ozcarr · 1 year ago

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Obsessed with tiktoks of high school girls doing Steve Harvey cosplay. My favorite genre of video tbh

#they always hit the splits so hard it gets me every time #video

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dragonomatopoeia · 2 years ago

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i've died on smaller hills, so i can't judge. but i do think it's funny whenever posts about the proper definition of a poor little meow meow circulate, considering none of them mention that the origin was a kpop fan's absolutely bonkers tweet about not being able to protect a full grown man who was getting backlash for including audio from the jonestown cult leader jim jones in one of his songs

#cults mention #i don't actually expect people to know this the internet is very large and it's hard to trace the origins of things #but this is always a wild one to look at from the outside

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chloesimaginationthings · 6 months ago

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The FNAF Vanessas meet their younger selves..

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf vanny #fnaf vanessa #vanessa shelly #vanessa afton #fnaf movie #security breach #fnaf fanart #MORE SCENE VANNY 🩵🩵🩵#also this is a semi sequel to the Mikes ver I made #seeing I think the Vanessas deserve the funny too 😤#I like to think Vanny would tell her younger self white lies #she knows at that age she just wanted to know life would get better for her #seeing teen her was stuck living with her awful father #Vanessa’s life does get hard again as an adult but.. SINCE HW2 I think she’s in a better place #finally stood up to her abuser and all so it does get better #WHILE MOVIE VANESSA …#bit more manic here BAHAH #listen if younger Vanessa loosen screws on her fathers suit #would anyone even know 🙏🏾#she could get away with it-#Movie Vanessa of course would want to prevent things anyway she can #the Afton kids always being a lil crazy is so real

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giantkillerjack · 26 days ago

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I think Gastronauts on Dropout is the cooking show that has made me truly appreciate the skill of professional chefs more than any other cooking show.

Like I don't know if it's because the challenges are so crazy or the fact that the judges don't have any professional input whatsoever (they're all comedians), but the combination of how utterly stoked the judges are to be eating this food and how creative the chefs get to be really works to make you marvel at just how skilled a professional chef has to be.

Other cooking shows always have a level-voiced narrator listing out shit like,

"Rebecca is doing a praline-mint ganache with a Twiffly Street stir-up, combined with a gestelle Santa Maria sponge technique."

And it's fun to pretend like, 'Ah, yes. Of course! A classic of the genre! He'd be a fool not to!' as though I know anything about cooking or baking.

But on Gastronauts, it's a bunch of comedians who would really graciously appreciate some fancy food, watching chefs cook and going, like,

"What is that? What is he doing?? It's like- like a swishy thing! Like a fancy swishy thing!!"

"OH MY GOD YES, HE'S USING ONIONS."

"Ooo! Crunchies!??"

And then the chefs get to come out and formally present their food, which makes them look very smart. And these actors who generally can't afford Michelin star cuisine are just :DDDD!

And it's like, oh yeah. This is about my level, yes. This conveys how normal people who don't eat good food for a living would actually react. And it's super chill. It's good vibes, that show. 👌

#gastronauts #dropout #original #jordan myrick #none of these are quotes from anything. I don't know anything about cooking. it's why I relate to this show.#I like that it makes the chefs look legit as fuck #because it gives me an average person an idea of how delicious this food is. it's hard to tell when it's being experienced #always by professional celebrity chef judges or whatever. I'd be so excited about this food too! and i have ARFID!

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verified-villain-fxcker · 2 months ago

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This might be the last time we see Tom Hardy Venom on screen so I just wanna say, from the bottom of my monster fucker heart, it has been an absolute pleasure to go through this series with you all these last 6 years.