#and it makes me wanna lay down and cry
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my brain is awful to me so you all must experience it too:
imagine rumors about connor and nate getting tr^ded for each other. like. brain, what the hell. why would you do this to me. i'll cry. do you know how badly that would mess with everything? bitch it's not connorcale or macleo, it's NATECALE and MCDRAI. ALWAYS. do NOT ever separate them so help me-
#colorado avalanche#edmonton oilers#nathan mackinnon#connor mcdavid#listen all these “connor trade” rumors are making me annoyed#like obviously this couldn't happen. but my brain made me think it. and now i'm imagining a fic of it..#and it makes me wanna lay down and cry#connor and leon belong in edm together just as much as nate and cale do in col#it's just that simple#never trade any of them ever
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WAIT FUCK DUDE I JUST REALIZED THAT ALL MY WIP PAGES OF THE “THAT UNIQUE PLACE” COMIC ARE INSIDE MY DEAD TABLET FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK—
AND MY ANIMATIONS TOO I’M—
#blah blah text post#i need to be real with y’all#…i am not continuing the comic if i can’t get those back to be honest#i barely had the energy to make the last pages#and this just makes it worse#great fucking way me!!#the one project you told yourself you would finish no matter what and look where that got you#i’m so tired#the animations just—#i really wanna lay down and let the earth just reclaim my body#i think the worse part is that i can’t voice out this terrible grief i have about my works to my family#because they simply don’t actually care#and would call me whiny#my household is very antipathetic#‘it’s just a tablet’#‘you’re 22 act like it’#how about i kill myself in front of you what then /hj#there’s been multiple times i’ve wanted to just tell them that face to face since i broke my tablet#i feel like i’m about to genuinely cry while typing this#i can’t#in general
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wanna have a nice dinner date at home with my gf where I come home from work, so tired and achey and she’s lit candles n cooked for me <3 she unlaces my shoes for me and hangs my coat, tells me to sit down, relax and eat. she pours me a glass of wine which tastes a little funny but i brush it off and we start talking. I’m feeling so taken care of and happy, she’s topping off my wine glass whenever it gets low but I don’t think too hard about it, she’s just being sweet! she’s staring into my eyes while I talk and all I can think about is how in love with her I am and how sleepy I am… before I know it, I’m dizzy and giggly and asking to be taken to bed while she coos at me about drinking the whole bottle of wine and slides her hand up my thigh with a wild look in her eye. that’s the last thing I remember, although that night I have very vivid dreams about being fucked & bred until I cum over and over and I wake up with extra messy hair and cum still leaking out of me
#wake up at 4am and write smut abt ur gf and then go back to sleep it’s fun#sethy speaks#buffy <3#so maybe having sex while i was drunk and having her tell me about it the next day did something to my brain#she definitely shouldn’t take advantage of this at some point n make me drink a whole bottle of wine until i’m practically begging her#to breed me#intox#t4t nsft#trans nsft#t4t lesbian#somno breeding#somno#cnc k!nk#ok also maybe i just wanna be taken care of bc when i get home from work i just wanna lay down n cry most days lol
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"And when they see the truth... They'll hate you as much as you hate yourself."
AHH SORRY FOR THE CRAPPY QUALITY I SAVED THIS FROM MY OLD COMPUTER :((
#omori fanart#omori hero#omori kel#omori aubrey#omori truth#omori makes me wanna lay down and cry#i was so proud of this too why did they have to munch on the quality#digital art#digital fanart#omori art#omori fandom
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fuck meeee one of my flatmates locked Both Doors when he went to work and now i'm locked outside in the storm with no idea when my other flatmate gets back 🙃🙃🙃
#i thought i had my keys in my backpack but they're apparently in my other bag#and i didn't really stress about it since one of the doors is basically Never locked since the handle is Fucked#but noooo the day i Actually Forget my keys is the day my flatmate actually locks it kill me kill me kill me#im wet and cold and hungry and i really need to pee#and instead of telling me when she's getting back my other flatmate is just repeatedly calling me a loser like thanks dude#really needed that rn#i wanna lay down and cry#does fish make noise??
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u shouldnt listen to people who tell you that it's good to be somewhat inconsolably miserable and hurting a lot so you can push yourself to do things to take care of yourself. every single therapist (and physical therapist) I've seen has told me the same thing: baby steps. take fucking baby steps. small achievable goals. if someone is telling you that it's good for you to suffer a lot and push through it they're probably [redacted] lol. if you are wanting to befriend yourself, a friend wouldn't want you to be suffering so much for them, truly
#personal opinion but. yeah#theres a rlly popular post thats saying its self care to be hurting a fucking lot and crying just to do dishes#hot take. i dont think that actually good for you#like. it makes sense if its hard and difficult and painful but like. not a whole fucking lot that youre supremely miserable??#if you wanna be a friend to yourself. think about how much you want your friend to be suffering#the [redacted] is christian and sure enough i was right#dont listen to christians who tell you that suffering is good for u trust me it gets taken way too far#despite my poor experiences with professionals they actually went to school for this#goobabble#vis a vis dishes just do a couple#clean a small part of your room#run a soapy washcloth over your pits and ass#sit up from bed then lay back down#stand in the bathroom#just hang out in front of the sink#baby steps!
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#I hate it when looking at art makes me wanna lay down my pen for good and just curl up and cry#cause how can I ever create anything as beautiful#of course I try to turn this feeling into something productive instead#supporting other artists and letting them inspire me#but I still would love if I could just stop feeling like this altogether#sorry that i keep venting like this#been struggling a lot mentally and I just... feel a little lost rn#holding on! but... you know how it is
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Genuinely feels like I'm just not built to hold down a job for more than like 2 months max before my entire body and mental state begins breaking down
#like yeah i managed at the dmv but then they cut the position i was in entirely#so now to do the same shit you have to also do a different more stressful job#and you need to have like 11 college degrees and 30 years experience#and everywhere else thinks sitting down should be illegal apparently#i can hardly get myself to do shit i like half the time much less like. chores and shit#vent#ahhh the struggles of the low support needs autistic.#like i just wanna have a job that Doesnt have me crying before sleep because i have to wokr tomorrow. yk#i just wanna work somewhwre thst Doesnt make me wanna lay down and nwvwr get back up
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officially at the point with this job where working one 12 hour shift just burns me out completely
#the idea of working the next 5 days is making me wanna walk into traffic#just the idea of being at work til 8pm is enough for that honestly i just wanna lay down on the floor#weirdly tempted to smoke this cigarette being offered to me even though i quit like 7 years ago lmao#anyways my daily cry will definitely be early today
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so frustrated bc I always get the worse writers block whenever I’m pmsing bc I keep convincing myself that my writing is shit and no one’s gonna like it so I don’t write it and then regret it bc when I DO wanna write it I forget the premise of it and akdhdkdjd
so so so so so so frustrating and annoying and I yam So Tired of it all
#I had an idea about being like one of those people who work in like country clubs n shit#and catering to retired heroes but I just can’t seem to word anything right#lowkey wanna cry lmao I’m so frustrated and irritable#and I’m cold which makes it even harder to type#just fucked up all around lol#also I wanna submit for my schools writing club contest#but the president of the organization is putting so many restrictions on it and it’s stressing me out so bad#it’s already a struggle to get a good idea out and to be so limited is so very difficult#sorry I’m full of complaints I’m just not doing well mentally at all and everything sucks#I made my first ice cream cake today and was so proud of it#and then someone made fun of how it looked and I just#I know they were joking but it really made me wanna cry especially after already having a draining day#and that was the one thing I was happy about ya know????#SORRY I’m just gonna go lay down and try to read some maybe#—in store chit chat! 🍫#tw: vent
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love when me trying to keep boundaries and communicate myself in a way that minimizes the effects of BPD means I'm delusional and unsafe to be around. but no there's no stigma around bpd
#“hey can you not yell in my face can we text abt it instead it would make me feel safer and help me articulate myself”#statements from an utterly deranged individual#bpd#vent#everybody wants a bpd girl until she has bpd#like fuck man you wouldnt react this way if i said “oh its overstimulating me i need comfortable sensations to self soothe” youd be fine#but the moment its “im splitting so i wanna isolate so i can carefully choose and dwell on my words so i dont say something i dont mean”#CRAZY. PSYCHOTIC. DANGEROUS. UNSAFE TO BE AROUND. EVERYBODY BLOCK HER#hell i am autistic like!!! local girl has her feelings hurt#wants to lay in bed with her cat and cry a bit to calm down
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don’t know what the deal is but I’m hurting extra bad over Eddie tonight, I’m talking chest pains
#might be my period on its way#but I wanna cry and fuck and just every possible thing all at once#like I need hurt/comfort but I also need a good kinky ass smut#need to cry and scream about life and then get railed until I cry again and then get taken care of#and get babied the fuck out of#feeling rockstar!eddie because he would take such good care of me and let me lay in his big ol fluffy bed for as long as I wanted#and just have that ‘let me take care of you’ protectiveness about him that I’m really craving#like he’s making your forget about all of your problems by fucking you dumb and then getting in the bath with you#and then tucking you into his comfy sheets all naked and clean and cozy#putting on a comfort movie or show#and then sliding into bed with you to rub your back and make you forget all about the scary things in life#can we tell I’m down bad bad tonight?#🥴
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#i miss thunderstorms. summer thunderstorms especially. i guess i say that bc its only just spring and in the southwest it already feels#like summer midday. monsoons arent the same. theyre too patchy. they come and go on schedule leaving flooded roads and rainbows#i want a storm that builds. heat so heavy with moisture you can feel the air against your skin and the looming of dark clounds#distant rumbling and the smell of ozone. the ominous bending of trees as the wind blows in gusts. that suits my mood#i want to stand outside in a thunderstorm. barefoot and full of directionless rage. and i want to scream until i cry#ive been crying a lot today. i had to leave the lab early so i could lay down on the floor and cry for a while. such a blurry day#i started yesterday at about a 9. looked in the mirror and grinned like a maniac. danced around and talked too much all day. and then#started to slip around 8pm and by 2pm the next day i was desperately sad. which is probably a rational emotion to b feeling bc for the past#weeks. its been a lot ans before that idk when i last took a break. so im sad. and i have so much to do thst ive already signed away my 3#day interlude before i do back to 11hr days. so it goes. at least my energy is still pretty high.#but its weird. i went from +9 to -7. and ive been paying close attention now. its not consistent. the heights come and go. ill go from on#the floor crying to feeling perfectly normal in 2 seconds. or on the opposite end i felt happy and then this pulsating energy would#overwhelm me for a while then it would dim down to normal. like what am i supposed to do with that? track my mood i guess. collect data#make an excel file so i can run stats and make figures. track covariets so i can understand whats happening. a mood issue wasnt even a#little bit on my radar so im skeptical but its plausible enough to warrant investigating. so when i eventually end up in front of a doctor#i can b like: check this shit out. and present a beautiful graphical description of my irradic behavior#sigh. i should sleep. i was tried until 9 ans now i dont wanna sleep. but ive got shit to do tomorrow and it would b great if i could get#it together pls. whatever. next month i go on vacation so i just have to suffer until mid may#the things i do for thr collection of data i couldn't even begin to give a fuck abt. someday ill look back and b so sad abt this time#this time especially bc im not even drawing much. im too static-y#unrelated
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#it's fine i'm just having another meltdown about surgical menopause#this is hell this is hell this is hell this is evil hell i cannot over state how this without informed consent makes me wanna die#i would never have agreed to this if there was informed consent and the doctor even put he didn't know about surgical menopause in the chart#when i grilled him after and told him i never would have agreed with i formed consent and he REALLY SAID THAT INFO DIDNT EXIST#my voice is stuck like this my teeth are going bad my bones are degenerating and so is my brain i just want to lay down and cry#there's nothing i can do about this and this is what im stuck with as my life now#i would give an arm and a leg to extend colorados medical malpractice statutes of limitations theyre so short#i seriously would pursue legal action against this doctor#nothing would make up for this though i constantly feel like screaming and being absolutely violent because i don't know what to do with#how upset i am maybe i should go to a wreck it room or something lmao i simply do not know i'm just trying#trying not to take it out on myself even though i want to#if i start i won't stop and that's a deep hole i don't think i could get out of if i do#which is why im avoiding it as much as possible#it's called ptsd sweaty
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“shit, this pussy’s damn tight, girl.” toji chuckles, leaned against the wooden headboard of his mattress, with your pretty cunt impaled on his dick. you’re sat upon the man’s lap, back slumped into his bigger body as he lifts your legs to your chest with a singular arm.
“hnn—! thank y-you, thank you, thank you !” you slur, holding onto the man’s bigger arm for leverage as he pumps his cock against your cunt, your round butt slapping against his pelvis.
“tch,” he smirks, “thank you? haven’t heard that one b’fore.” his thrusts come to a slow, leaving you breathless and dazed. you lay back against the man’s chest as he continues lazy but brutal pumps to your poor cunt, pushing against him in an attempt to get him to slow.
“hnn.. ‘m sorry..” you cry out, embarrassed, face growing flushed as your nose scrunches at the memory of a few seconds prior.
toji can’t help but fall into a short fit of laughing at your adorable innocence, soft lips curled into a mean smirk, “‘s alright, sweet thing. yer so polite, hm?” he taunts, pressing a weighted kiss against your lips. you slip your tongue against his before you lose the chance, pressing your face closer to the man’s touch.
“y’take cock like a naughty brat, though.” he whispers in between a breath.
his sloppy tongue overrules yours, slowly but surely swallowing you whole. he peeks through a sliver of his eye, watching you pant into his mouth with your eyes squeezed tight, drool leaking down your chin, so entirety focused on kissing him back. “toji—“ you mewl.
“ya started it,” he mumbles against your swollen lips, giving your cunt a soft slap. you jerk and cry against his hold, pushing the said assaulting hand away, making him giggle. “what a dumb little thing.”
“please ! ‘m gonna c-cum! toji, please, please—“ you cry as his thrusts get harder, pace becomes sloppier, before it all comes to an abrupt stop.
your pants slow, gentle mewls that leave your lips as you begin to fall into a fit of sobs. “no..” toji breaks a grin, petting against your hair whispering sweet praises, “‘m sorry doll, daddy’s tired. let me have a break, yeah?” he adores how you look up to him with bleary eyes, chest full of pained hiccups as you attempt to bounce yourself atop his cock in your position. “..w-wanna cum!”
“don’t be so selfish, sweet thing. ‘m old, ‘s what ya get for hangin’ around me.” he lies through his teeth. pace slowly resuming. his creamy, slicked up cock causes his thrusts to grow in noise, face flushing at the evidence of the use of your poor cunt.
“daddy —!”
“shhh, settle down and let daddy focus, yeah?” he mumbles breathlessly against the shell of your ear, “or else daddy might get too tired.. and won’t be able to finish ya off.” he sighs.
#ima change up the ending soon! but old draft and wanted to get this out#:> toji hehe#jjk#jjk smut#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen smut#toji smut#fushiguro toji x reader#toji <3#toji toji toji toji#jujutsu toji#jjk toji#jujutsu kaisen toji#toji zenin#toji fushiguro#toji x reader#toji fushiguro smut#toji x you#toji x y/n#toji fushiguro x reader#drabbles ⋆⑅˚₊
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thinking about movie night with nanami. You’re sitting in his lap comfortably, head resting on his shoulder while you giggle at the movie. But nanami doesn’t care for the movie when two of his thick fingers are plunged deep inside of your pussy. He’s moving them so slowly, teasing you as he pumps them in and out. Every now and then you’ll grip onto his arm that’s holding you in place, getting too distracted before he corrects you. “Focus on the movie, sweetheart,” he whispers in your ear all while massaging your g-spot. He’s so cruel to you but he’s enjoying playing with you. Your eyes will slip down to where his fingers are, can’t help but stare at the way his fingers disappear into your sopping hole. You see them glisten with the glow of the tv light and bite down on your bottom lip as grow needier for more. “Eyes up.” He guides your chin up, holding your jaw in place. With every passing minute you feel yourself growing wetter and wetter, and your heart beat faster and faster sneaking glances and letting out stifled whimpers every now and again.
The pads of his fingers run up your slit, rubbing your swollen clit in small circles making you tense up. A shaky breath escapes your throat, and you’re trying your best to focus on the movie but it’s so hard to when he’s whispering such filthy things in your ear. “You want my fingers back inside that pretty pussy? I bet it feels so good to be stuffed full, huh?” He smirks against your skin. All you do is nod, gently grinding your hips against his hand because you’re done playing by the rules. You reach for his wrist, moving his hand downward back to your fluttering hole. “Is that where you want me?” He breathes against your skin. Just before you could answer he plunges his fingers back inside, your pussy making the most lewd squelch ever. “Just lean back and feel good, darling.” He held you against him tightly while he worked you open with his fingers, pressing and dragging his fingers against your g-spot with more pressure.
“Hear that?” He dragged his fingers in out of your soaked cunt, a wave of embarrassment washing over you at how wet you were. “Is this all for me? If so, it’d be a shame if I didn’t get a taste.” His fingers reached up to his mouth, sucking your juices off like you were the best thing he’s ever tasted. Your body shuddered in anticipation, as he brought his fingers back down to your pussy, gathering more of your slick. “Have a taste, baby.” Without hesitation you opened your mouth, feeling his fingers lay flat on your tongue where you tasted yourself on him. “Tastes good, doesn’t it? Such a good girl for me.” He grabs your chin, planting his lips on yours, his tongue sliding past your lips and into your mouth. You moaned into the kiss as he began fingering you again, going faster than he was before.
You pull away, breathing heavily as you feel yourself growing closer to cumming. “Ken,” you whimper, your nails digging into his forearm while your legs begin to shake. “Oh fuck,” you squeak, your jaw slack as you become mesmerized by the view in front of you. Nanami kisses your neck gently, watching as well, feeling the way your walls tighten around him.
“I can feel it, sweetheart. Tell me how badly you wanna cum,” he huskily says, moving his fingers faster on purpose.
“Please, let me cum! I need it so bad, Ken! You always make me feel so good, baby,” you cry out, your chest moving up and down rapidly.
“Good girl. Let it out for me.” As if on command, clear liquid gushes from your cunt, soaking his hand and couch in the process but he doesn’t dare stop. “There you go, sweetheart. There you fucking go.” He kisses you tenderly as he drags every last bit of your orgasm out of you until your entire body is shaking. He removes his fingers, gently slapping your messy pussy, chuckling when you whine at the sensation. His thumb toys with your clit, sending jolts of pleasure through your body. “What a mess you’ve made.” He clicks his tongue at you.
“You’re no fair!” You pant, gasping when applies pressure to your clit.
“I think a thank you would be better. What do you think?” He looks at you with fox like eyes, and you can’t help but stare back with such desperation.
“Thank you,” you mutter under your breath.
“Atta girl.” He slaps your pussy a few more times causing you to buck your hips. “Now, keep watching the movie. I’m not finished playing with you.”
#—☆classyrbf#jjk#jjk x reader#jujustu kaisen#jjk smut#nanami x reader#nanami smut#nanami x reader smut#nanami kento x reader#nanami kento smut#nanami kento x reader smut#jjk x reader smut#jjk nanami#nanami drabble#nanami smut drabble#jjk drabble#jjk smut drabble#nanami x y/n#nanami x you
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