#and it came out p tasty??? yes im also surprised

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If I may speak candidly about my mental issues… 🥰 Just wanted to say, as a bipolar, how fuckin nice it feels to be back on medication. I was manic/depressive for so long before asking for help on Tumblr, and y’all absolutely delivered.

I know bipolars are known for getting out of meds of their own accord to experience mania (which I get, it’s an explosion of energy but it’s not healthy for your body or your mind), but I’m the opposite. I’m the happiest/most productive when I’m on my meds.

Which is a hella long winded way to say thank you for helping me with my medication 💖

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CanonxCanon Ship HCs

On our discord server we have a roleplay bot and have been doing vocaloid ship Rps for a while now. I wanted to turn these into HCs sooooo 👀

A/N: in this version the vocaloids (plus a few utauloids) all live together in a mansion, because of their fame.

Kaito x Meiko: KaiMei

Mom and dad of The Gang

Kaito will be on his “Man-period” and Meiko will be forced to buy him icecream

Share the master bedroom

Everyone thinks they’re married but they’re not (super surprising)

Kaito will say stupid things like “you’re more tasty than icecream” or some shit 💀

Meiko will just laugh at him

Strict mom in front of the entire group

But when alone with just 1-3 or Kaito she’s so soft 🥺

They listen to their kids problems

Kaito even shares his icecream if they’re mega sad

Therapists ✨

Very cute together ❤️ they totally would get married but only after the kids are totally okay with it (which they’ve always been)

They used to have steamy moments until Meiko started being a mother ✨

Surprisingly her drinking doesn’t really bother anyone

She doesn’t get drunk much because of her built-up alcohol tolerance

Rin x Miku x VFlower: Rinkower

Power girls 🤩

When they’re asleep they all just impulsively huddle together

Rin and Miku are mega wholesome and then Flowers just the only one down to earth most of the time 🥺

Miku promised to give Flower 10,000 flowers as a sign of eternal love🌹

And she promised to give Rin 1,000 paper cranes so she could wish for them to be together forever ❤️

s u p e r. c u t e.

Miku often freaks out about her periods and the only people who can make her feel better are Rin, Flower and Mommy Meiko

Rin lives for Flower’s piggyback rides

Cuddles all the time 👌🏻

Love each other sm

They’re all each other’s firsts at everything, even though it was just Miku and Rin before they fell in love with Flower

Nobody is ever neglected or excluded ❤️

a few naughty moments

Mostly because Miku doesn’t understand Fukase and the others when they say “getting laid” or “69” and other inappropriate jokes.

IA x Teto x Yukari

Similarly to Miku and Rin, IA and Teto started dating before they fell in love with Yukari

IA was hungover (pls don’t underage drink!! And drink responsibly!!) and texted Teto and was like “hey r u up”

“Yeah what’s up?”

“Idk about you but im tryna see your Teto territory 👀”

Teto took the time to scream into her pillow and IA was just like 💔 I blew it

But she didn’t

And boy was she surprised when she talked to Teto the next morning

They started dating ❤️

Yukari comes in, being the cutie she is and steals their hearts immediately

The couple think they’ll have to break up but when both of them meet up and scream “I like Yukari-San!” They’re both 👁 o 👁

Then they both confess together

BAM POLY

Delicious trio

Not as big on PDA as Rinkower can be but

Teto is clingy 🥖 ❤️

IA is chill

And Yukari is mega sweet

They all just fit like puzzle pieces 🧩 ❤️

Teto just wishes she could be a vocaloid :(

A few 🥵 moments?? But like after they’ve been dating for a LOOONG time.

IA may not look like she cares

But she rlly wants to make sure they’re ready

Gakupo x Luka: Gakuka

Luka really doesn’t like Gakupo much at first

But she is slowly drawn to him

d̶u̶e̶ t̶o̶ h̶i̶s̶ e̶p̶i̶c̶ s̶w̶o̶r̶d̶ s̶k̶i̶l̶l̶s̶

Probably like the Aunt/Uncle of the mansion

Not quite as trusted as KaiMei but they’re the New Jersey aunt and uncle duo

“Yeah sure, you should enjoy your childhood.”

Gets in trouble with KaiMei almost as much as Yukie

Luka drinks strong drinks but not often

Usually sticks with Gakupo’s tea

They’re not super affectionate but she gives random waist hugs to him

He will also carry her around on his back when she’s tired

Not many secksee moments but they’re ok with that

Mikuo x Gumi: Gumikuo

Mikuo is always holding hands with her

Gumi leans on his shoulder when they sit down 10/10

They get the most privacy out of the mansion

Fukase usually forgets about them and that’s the only reason

The entire mansion is going to Olive Garden?

They’re at the steakhouse.

Definitely a bunch of steamy moments with them 🥵

Delicious couple ❤️

Idk how to make theirs longer sorry

They haven’t really been developed in Rp still brainstorming some

Neru x Len: Leneru

Neru has liked len for a long time and finally asks for his Snapchat, saying:

“Hey len give me your snap or bald”

“Ok bet”

And BAM

She joked around saying send nudes and dumb shit

Ofc he asked “what are nudes”

She told him to google it 🙄

Then she said “oops wrong person” even tho it was a total lie

Repeated this several times

Then after a few days

Yes, only a few days,

She texts him and is like “len r u up Ik it’s like 3am but”

“Yeah what’s up”

“I don’t like my last name”

“???”

“I think you should change it to yours”

SMOOTH +100 FOR NERU

“Ok we’re planning the wedding tomorrow”

SHE SCREAMS

her heart said UWU

N e ways

Decent amount of secksee moments

It is len we’re talking about after all

“Gigantic OTN me”

“Otw now”

I love them

Now my favorite,

Fukase x Piko: Pikase

The OG

This entire shipping plot came from this pair ✨ 🧚‍♂️

Fukase was fucking around and was like “len give me head or you’re gæ”

“Says the gæ one”

Fukases like “wdym”

“Piko likes you”

And piko was shuffling uncomfortably 👉👈 but still tried to defend himself

Did not work

A few minutes later Fukase’s dragging him into his bedroom

Everyone’s just like 👀

Some,,,,,,, things ,,,,,,, can be heard from outside

They bought soundproof padding after a few times of this

And fukase has a higher sex drive than len #exposed

Piko has a love hate relationship with the stamina of this guy

Literally can never walk after one “session” and has to be carried for the week.

“You broke my ass Fukase”

“I can kiss it better 😘”

“Please do not,,, 😞”

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Wowowowow! Finished!

I love them all sm 🥺

But pikase is superior

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Thanks for reading 💖💘💝💕💗💓💞

-Aly

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‘‘The ideological message has changed.Where once it was, ‘Never mind what work you do , so long as you get paid at the end of the week’, it is now,’Never mind what you’re paid, so long as you have a job.’In other words, be prepared to make any and every concession, to suffer humiliation or subjugation, to face competition and betrayal to get or keep a job, since ‘those who lose their jobs lose everything.’’-Andre Gorz,’‘Reclaiming Work:Beyond the Wage-Based Society’‘,1999,p.56.

Along the lines of a chapter on ‘’The Lost Magic of Work’’ written by Andre Gorz almost 20 years ago, I would like to base my inner discussion on the job industry today. Hello to those who occasionally or accidentally enters my blog. I write mainly for myself for a purpose of creating personal memories. I write here to show my work and express my passion for arts and fashion. I write what interests me and what makes me want to write here. Today, at 12am on the first day of Summer,1st of June, I will be writing about my dream job, my thoughts on the life of work and my personal ‘’workography’’.

I began to understand how Capitalist regimes operate at the age of 17. I got introduced to the life of a worker who has responsibilities, basic pay and no days off. I started off my ‘’career’’ as a bartender in my uncle’s pub, The Prince Albert. I was excited. Although, as time passed, my excitement turned into exhaustion and forming a bad relationship with my family. That year, 2013 going into 2014 has brought a lot of pleasant surprises to me. I met the love of my life and he moved over to life with me in UK. We both were employed by my uncle.It was our chance to get a taste of real life.And it was not tasty...After going through a stressful summer 2014 of work before the beginning of my first year at Goldsmiths University I have already found myself in a critical position. Starting a job does not only mean having responsibilities and extra money, it also means growing internally and developing fears. After quitting my bar job, I began working for Jamie Oliver. Starting to work as a waitress and earning good tips was great for a while. I learned a lot, I met a lot of people and began to form my own views on life. I looked ad people and asked myself ‘’What is each of them doing here and is this a dream job for them?’’ The again, I felt that I have to grow further. I left Jamie’s Italian after 1 year and a half. During the time there I was volunteering and interning as a gallery assistant at Constance Howard, as part of my University Placement and learning about visual merchandising at Margaret Howell brand in London (mentioned earlier in my blog last summer 2016).Volunteering at Constance Gallery was more of an independent project work ,rather than a learning curve. One month spent of working in an archive( more talking then working really) and being boring, but a line on CV which makes me stand out.I was also taken on by London Craft Week 2016 team and them rejected by them a day after I worked there for a day sorting out their emails and event at Google (very, very boring that was) with an excuse that my experience has not met their expectations. The email stated that they have found a better volunteer. Yes, a free worker who is not getting paid for their ‘’rich experience’’. I understand when someone finds a better employee, but not a volunteer!? Then, London was and continues to be my desired destination where I am searching for a job of my life. I like to hustle,I am active and excessively vain. I believe it is my great asset.I am Capricorn and I am proud of it. Of course, from having a taste of hospitality field and working in a franchise restaurant business I wanted more. So I searched and continue to search. Later, I got taken as an auction assistant at MacDougall’s Auction House in London. MacDougall’s Fine Art Auctions stands along the lines of powerful Sotheby’s, Christine’s and Bonhams, and specialises primarily in Russian art. Thanks for my Russian background and my best Russian friend, I got a placement there for a month on a very low intern wage. But I was over on the moon. I thought now my CV valued something!But wasn’t as I expected (again!). I met a lot of good and bad people there. I met directors, lawyers, bankers and others who circulate in within the elite group. I hosted events and poured Champagne into people’s glasses who earn millions. I was doing the dirty job,I guess which at the time seemed very upsetting.Today I look at it as experience. Well, they got to if they buy art at the auctions....The processes behind the auction itself opened my eyes as well. Don’t get me wrong, I am an art historian(don’t laugh), but paying 500,000 for Nicholas Roerich painting?Errm, no! Maybe I just don’t know what rich people are up to those days...but I want to be amongst them.The good ones of course..

So there is 6 work placements (not including a work experience during school at the age of 15 and other volunteering such as blog writing and an interview for Mary Katrantzou fashion brand for free of course ),of them which 3 of them payed, 1 underpaid, and 2 purely free labour. And I feel like a 50 year old ready to retire in 10 years and it’s just the beginning...So here I am, 21 now, almost graduated and working for a worldwide fashion brand Hugo Boss as a brand specialist. I like dressing people and I am a visual person, although retail is not my niche for sure. I know every business has their targets to meet, but how business pressure people these days is not healthy.And yes, I might be over reacting and stressing out too much, but this is so far the most challenging job I had and actually, I learned to like it. I meet people who have money and a desired lifestyle. I work at Canary Wharf which is a business centre in London and that was my choice. I travel to work around 1,15 hour just to be in London and it worth the sacrifice. People might look at me like crazy for communing so far from Kent bud I don’t care. But still, I wish I had more money... And this is everyones problem and I don’t want it to be this way. I catch myself thinking: I am looking or a job that pays well and that’s it? I mean, can it be the case of liking the job and salary or is it one way or another?I have came to a conclusion that never mind what work you do, what counts is having a job. I feel valuable when I have a job and is this a right approach?Such ideological message is essential for a wage-based society, where not having a job equals uselessness. But why is it that every time I get a job my expectations are not me?Is it me who strives towards non-existent employment place?I am annoyed that everything that I like is not payed.How am I supposed to provide for myself financially if I am not getting payed?But I have belief.I want to achieve. Belief that I will either start my own business and learn to love the job I do. The funny thing is, even University for a 27,000 grand is not guaranteeing me anything.It is another experience. I feel angry at those who don’t have a plan and rather study and spend more on a Master’s. What do there freelance artists from my course are going to do with their life’s when Im here stressing about and finding ways of living a dream?