#and is the mouth to mouth cpr all we gon get???

[iubar12]

Are the writers going to do us like that??

Jin I Soo and Lee Ganghyun go from bickering like kids to comforting each other at their lowest. Ganghyun goes from telling him to go home to texting him to come to the station because they got a new case. Ganghyun takes Jin I Soo to her comfort place so that he can clear his mind after learning the truth about his mother's death. I Soo saying "You trust your father, and I trust you" to Lee Ganghyun when she was on probation and desperately wanted to prove that her father was innocent and that he was framed. Ganghyun scolding him because he put himself in danger and I soo trying not to repeat that. And most importantly what about the fact when they almost drowned together while trying to arrest Bori?? What are you gon say about Jin I soo cupping her face and telling her to believe in herself when she told him that she couldn't swim ??? Carrying her over the water the entire time she was unconscious while he was struggling to breathe and stay over the water himself. Are the writers really going to do us like that?? T_T

"LEE GANGHYUN WAKE UP"

P.S : Jin I Soo being jealous over Park Junyoung and Lee Ganghyun and then asking Junyoung if they shared any feelings or ever dated and then getting flustered on being asked if he liked Ganghyun was the cutest thing everrr.

[ms-rampage]

Eden's Gate: Left Behind Chapter 9 - Man's Best Friend

Warnings: Swearing, few insults towards women, a few Supernatural moments, Demons.

Word count: 2.4k

Summary: Kate and Morgan investigate the bodies of dead and animals. Kate debates on breaking up with John. Haley the German Shepard to the rescue.

Bonus: Kate makes a few hints that exist (only;to me at least) outside the FC5 universe. 

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NIGHTMARE

Getting dragged towards the water by some peggies.

Unable to fight back or resist.

John holding a white book staring down Kate as she gets dragged closer to him. 

“John please!!” she pleds. “Please, I love you, don’t do this”.

He grabs her arms aggressively.

“John please, don’t do this” she cries, tears streaming down her cheeks.

“You will be cleansed. Let the water purify your ugly soul.  Either way God, and myself will leave you behind” he says, and his eyes go black. Like a demon, before she could protest.

He pushes her head under the water. Drowning her.

She tries to fight back but he overpowers her.

He pulls her back up, and all the peggies behind him. 

Their eyes are completely blackened like demons.

“I never loved you. I just used you. You Winchesters mean nothing. All you do is cause trouble. You’re the reason for freeing Lucifer! You should’ve said “Yes” to Lilith instead of killing her, now look at you, trying to play hero?. You are not a hero. You’re just a weak human!”.

Demon John says before pushing her head back underneath the water.

Her screams muffled by the water. Filling her lungs.

Drowning her. Suffocating her. Killing her instantly. 

John pulls her back up, and the demon leaves his body.

Leaving John with a dead Kate in his arms.

“Kate?!” he cries out. He slaps her cheeks to wake her up.

“Kate!!!” he yells, shaking her, tears forming in his eyes.

He bridal carries her out of the water, and performs CPR on her.

He pushes down on her chest, blows into her mouth, again pushes on her chest.

He repeats this a few more times, and realization hits him.

He drowned his girlfriend. The one he loves dearly is dead because of him.

He cries violently into the crook of her neck, holding her closely to him.

END OF NIGHTMARE

Kate wakes that morning to the sound of Morgan singing “Heat of the Moment” by Asia while making breakfast.

She gets out of bed, goes to the bathroom. Looking into the mirror.

“I look like fucking shit” she says to herself.

She looks down at her hands, and sees she still has some blood on her hands. 

She tries to wash off as much as she could, and she did.

Leaving the bathroom, and the smell of bacon fills her nostrils.

Kate stops dead in her tracks, and sees Morgan dancing to the song.

“What are you doing?!?” Kate asks, laughing. 

“Rise and shine Katie!!!” she says, over the music. 

Kate laughs at this sight. This is something that Paige would do.

Morgan and Paige had always got along, they were practically the same person.

So it was kinda like living with Paige, a blonde, shorter version of her with the same temperament as her. 

Kate sits down at the table as Morgan cooks scramble eggs while singing along to the song.

She laughs at her best friend’s stupidity. Morgan puts a plate on bacon, scramble eggs and toast in front of her.

“Is this the Costello special?” she asks, laughing. 

“Sorta. Not enough bacon, lack of hash browns, and waffles” she says, laughing. 

After breakfast they get dressed and leave for the bridge. Taking Haley along with them.

They park the car next to the O’Hara Haunted house, and walk towards the bridge.

“So where were the bodies dumped?” Kate asks.

“Underneath the bridge near the water” Morgan answers. 

“So is there a pathway we can take to get underneath the bridge?!” she asks.

‘Yeah we just need to cross the road, and go underneath it. Towards the water, careful it gets steep as you go down” she says

“Isn’t that a fishing spot?!” she asks, trying not to fall forward.

“Yep, I’m surprised the bodies weren’t called in” she says.

“Well I’m sure everyone in Hope County is used to seeing the dead carcusses of humans and animals” Kate chuckles. 

“Huh, yeah for sure” she chuckles. 

They get to the edge of the water, and find the dead, rotten, decaying bodies of 3 cows.

“Oh god” Kate gags, covering her mouth and nose.

“Yeah this screams demon” Morgan says, covering her nose.

“So now what?!” Kate asks.

“Well, we can kick the bodies into the water, but they look like they’re one with the ground now” Morgan says.

“Yeah, or we can-” Kate gets interrupted by Morgan’s phone vibrating. 

She sighs loudly. 

“What is it?!” Kate asks, concerned. 

She shows her the message on her phone, “Another body was found. But this time, it’s the body of some lady, and it’s in the Whitetail mountains”.

Kate sighs, “Another case?”.

“Yep, lets go!!’ she says. 

They get into the car, and drive off to the Whitetail Mountains.

Kate driving, Morgan in the passenger, and Haley in the backseat with her head out the window.

“So where was this other body found?” Kate asks, keeping her eyes on the road.

Morgan sighs, “Underneath that bridge next to the Silver Lake Parking lot”

“Clagett Bay?” Kate asks.

“Yep” she answers. 

“Alright. What is up with these demons dumping bodies underneath bridges?” Kate asks.

“I don’t know. Probably a crossroads thing” she replies. 

They drive down the road, past the Henbane River Chalets, on their left they’re about to go past the Bridge of Tears. 

“Don’t be surprised if you get a message about a body found underneath the Bridge of Tears” Kate says, sarcastically. 

Morgan scoffs, “Yeah, no shit”. 

They drive further down the road, past Eden’s Gate Outreach Center.

“That place is a fucking joke” Morgan says.

“What is? The outreach center?” Kate asks.

“Yep, pure fucking shit. A massive shithole” she says. 

“What is it anyway?” she asks.

“They “help” you, and you become “reborn”, and all that religious bullshit” she says, flipping off the place as they drive by.

Kate laughs.

They drive onto the bridge leading them into John’s region, near Dutch’s region.

“The Power of YES. Take the leap!!’ Morgan mocks the sign as they drive past it.,

“Take the leap Kate!!. Take the leap!!! Say YES!!!. 

Kate laughs at her obnoxious impression of her boyfriend John Seed. 

“No thank you. I don’t want to take the leap” she laughs. 

As they drive down the road past Rae-Rae’s farm, a billboard sign catches Morgan’s attention.

“John loves you Kate. He’ll take you!!!” she mocks the sign.

“He’s already taken me already” she says, not realizing what she had said.

“Oooh so John has taken you” she says, teasing her friend.

Kate looks at her, and does a double take.

“Oh no, no, no. Not like that” she tries to explain. 

“You know I’m messing with ya” she says, hitting her on the shoulder. 

“Yeah I know” she says. They cross the Silver Lake bridge leading them into the Whitetail Mountains.

“Welcome to the Whitetails” Kate says. “Wait, isn't the Wolf Den not far from where the bridge where the body was dumped?”.

Morgan gives her the googly eyes, “Oohh does someone want to go visit their other boyfriend?!?!” she teases.

Kate scoffs.

“So when you break up with John for being a founding member of the cult. Are ya gon’ date Wheaty?!” she asks. 

 “I don’t know, probably. I don’t know how to tell John that I wanna cut things off with him” she tells her.

“Don’t worry you’ll figure out a way, I’ll help ya. But first we need to solve this case” Morgan tells her. 

They get to the bridge, park the car on the side of the road. Approaching the bridge they each check both sides of it.

“Oh shit. Morgan!!”Kate calls out.

She approaches her, and they see the body of a woman.

Haley barks at them, digging at something near the water.

They check to see what she was barking at, and they find an amulet necklace buried underneath the dirt. 

“What is that?!” Morgan asks.

“It’s a protection amulet. A cousin of mine had one. It’s an Egyptian safety symbol” Kate says. 

“Come on let's get a better look”

They both go down to the water, and examine the body.

A woman who looks around the ages of 25-30 years old, brown hair, green eyes.

Has stab wounds on her abdomen, chest and left shoulder. 

“Looks like she was murder” Morgan says.

As they’re examining the body, a man approaches them from behind.

They don’t see him but Haley senses him, and starts to growl in a defensive manner.

“What is girl?!” Kate asks, not turning back. Morgan looks back and sees the man approaching them. 

“Hey, hey” she whispers to Kate, gently hitting her shoulder. She turns around, and sees the man in a well tailored black suit, and looks completely out of place. 

Haley’s growl turns into a defensive, threatening bark as he gets closer to them.

“I see you’ve found my latest artwork” he says in a friendly tone. 

Then his eyes turn completely black.

“Demon” Kate mutters to her, and pulls their guns out. 

Aim at the demon.

He chuckles at them, “Now, now ladies, I’m sure we can all be civil, and make a deal”

“Yeah, not a chance” Morgan says. 

“What the fuck do you want?!?” Kate asks aggressively. 

“I want you Kate” he says, taking a few steps closer to them

“What is up with every guy wanting you?!?” Morgan asks, turning to Kate.

“Sorry, I don't date demons” she says sarcastically. 

He chuckles, “Yes, yes. I know. I also happen to know you’re with that Seed fella. Good looking, tattoos, bad temper, lawyer”. He sighs.

“You have a very interesting taste in men, young Winchester” he adds. “Does your mommy know you’re in love with a psychopath?!”  he asks in a childish voice. 

“Fuck you” Kate says, and shoots him in the chest. 

The shot only annoys him, and does very little to no damage on him.

“Okay, how about we start from the beginning. My name is Saleos, and I’m a demon”

Kate shoots him again, and this time it does damage to him. Making him go down.

“Come on let’s go!!!” Kate yells, they run to the car, and speed off home.

“Shit!!. Fucking shit!!!” Morgan yells, looking back.

“Once we get home, we’re warding off the house. Who knows how many demons there are in Hope County” Kate says. 

Once they get home, they put up demon warding sigils, hex bags and all other stuff they can think of to keep demons away, and keep them off of demon radar. 

After what felt like several hours, and it's almost close to dinner time.

“Dude, I’m fucking hungry, and I’m too lazy to cook” Morgan says, 

“You wanna order out?” Kate asks.

“Yeah sure, what does the Spread Eagle have?” she asks.

“Chicken wings, cajun fries. You want some Rocky mountain oysters?” Kate says, laughing. 

“Not in the mood for bull testicles in my mouth” she jokes

 “Burgers, I haven’t really been there so I really don’t know the menu, or know if they deliver”

“Cheese burger, cajun fries and chicken wings” Morgan says, she hands Kate her debit card, “I’ll buy dinner”. 

Kate phone orders their food, and for some reason goes to pick up the food instead of having it delivered. Even worse she’s walking to go pick it up because she’s “tired of driving”.

She arrives at Spread Eagle Bar, and leaves Haley outside. 

She grabs a hex bag to keep her ass off of demon radar, taking Haley with her as back up because she helped out with the demon from a few hours earlier. 

“Stay” she tells her in a command voice.

She walks in, and approaches the counter with Mary May behind it. 

"Hey Mary, I'm here to pick up my order" she tells her. 

In the corner of her eye Kate sees an older man who is probably a truck driver sitting at the end of the bar, eyeballing her, which makes her a bit uncomfortable. 

She turns around, and fixes her order together. While she’s doing that Kate looks around the bar, it isn't too busy just the usuals, music playing some old country rock music. 

She looks away, looking at the flyers on the wall next to her. 

"Hey girl" he calls her in a slurred voice. 

"Hey look at me when I'm talking to you". 

Before she could even turn her head to face him. He yells at her again in a slurred voice. 

"Who the fuck do you think you are?!?!" he yells, almost throwing his glass at her. 

She looks around in a "I hope you're not talking to me" kind of way. "Can you let me turn around first you jackass!!" she yells at him, trying to make herself sound threatening. 

"Hey Darryl, leave her alone before I kick you out" Mary tells him but ignores her. 

He gets up from his seat stumbling, almost tripping over his own feet. "Fuck you, you stupid whore" he yells at Kate.

She looks at him with a death stare and yells. "Excuse me? Who the fuck do you think you are??!" 

"Darryl sit down, and leave her alone!!!" Mary yells at him. 

Mary hands her take out order "Here you go hon. I'm so sorry about him".

Ignoring her once again, slowly approaches Kate with a violent rage in his eyes. A few of the locals in the bar try holding him back but he pushes them away causing glasses to fall and break. 

She quickly leaves the bar. She’s had enough trouble for today especially with that damn demon, and she doesn’t feel like having anymore with some drunk asshole. 

“Come on Hale” she tells her, motioning her to walk forward. 

The drunk asshole grabs her by her hair ripping out some of it while yelling out. "You stupid whore, you little-" Haley cuts him off by lunging at him. Locking her jaw on his arm. Trying to take him down. His arm bleeding out.

Before she could punch him in the face, knocking his lights out. 

He screams, and kicks her off of him. Kate is in full on John Wick mode for that asshole hitting her dog.

John let's go of him, throws him to the ground "You better stay the fuck away from her" he says to him, almost in a whisper.

John comes out of nowhere. Grabs him by his shirt, pushing him against a wall. "What the fuck do you think you're doing Darryl?!?. Huh? You're gonna beat up a woman?!?". Too drunk to even say anything clever he mutters, "Fuck you Seed" 

He turns to her, his blue eyes piercing into her soul. "Are you okay?" he asks, placing his hand on her cheek and the other on her hip. 

She nods her head. "Yeah I'm fine, thanks" she says, voice trembling a little, he places a kiss on her lips. 

Mary May sees this, and a confused look appears on her face. "Why is John Seed coming to Kate's aid, and why is he kissing her?!?!" she thinks to herself. 

He pulls away from her lips. "I'll take you home" he tells her, putting his arm around her lower back. 

Escorting her to his car. Pulling up in front of her house. He walks her to her front door, Morgan who is inside sees this, and is beyond confused 

She’s about to open the door, he cups her face and says to her. “I’m gonna come by tonight and pick you up. We’re gonna spend time together. Okay?”

Morgan hears this, and is concerned. “Okay, that sounds good” she says, with a slight smile. 

“What was that?!?” she asks, concerned.

“Good” he says, with a smile, and he kisses her again. Kate goes inside, and is greeted by Morgan.

“To be honest, I don’t know anymore. I’ll explain it over dinner” she says. 

“Okay so what are we gonna do about that demon?!” she asks.

Kate sighs, “I don’t know but in the wise words of that same cousin I mentioned from earlier “When in doubt. Eat”. 

[buckyscrystalqueen]

Stepping Up Again: Part 7

Pairings: Chibs x Reader

Warnings: Swearing, angst, teenage pregnancy, so much angst

Word Count: 3,059

A/N: This series is a continuation of Stepping Up! Read that first if you haven’t! Hold onto your pants, though because this is gunna be a wild ride! 

A/N 2: This is the part where y’al are gunna HATE ME!!!!

Stepping Up Masterlist        Aesthetic by @ravenangel33

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“So what are we going to do about the housing situation?” You asked Chibs as the two of you stood outside the hospital to smoke a cigarette. He sighed as he sat down on the top part of the bench and shrugged.

“Well Kerrianne bought up possibly movin’ in wit’ Tim ta give us more room. We could move Kellan in ta ‘er room on our side’a the ‘ouse which leaves the oth’a two rooms open for them an’ the nursery.” You nodded slowly as you yawned around your cigarette. “Luv, ye need ta go ‘ome an’ get some bloody rest.”

“I’m fine.” You looked over at him with a small smile and blinked your tired eyes a few times. You couldn’t help but huff a laugh as you took a long drag of your smoke. “OK, so I’m fucking tired. Whatever.” He nodded as he pat the top part of the bench beside him and held out his arm to welcome you into his embrace.

“‘ow ‘bout ye go ‘ome an’ take a nap. I’ll stay ‘ere wit’ the babes for a few hours, aye?” You nodded as you sat down and leaned into his side, letting your exhaustion start to seep its way into your bones. You let your head fall onto his shoulder as he squeezed your arm.

“Jesus… what the fuck happened?” He shook his head slowly as he took the last drag of his cigarette and flicked it out toward the road.

“I wish I’d an answ’a for ye, luv. But we’re goin’ ta be jus’ fine no matta wha’, ye ‘ear?” You nodded against his shoulder and finished your cigarette as you putted out of his grip.

“Alright, I’m gunna go say bye to Kels before I head out. See if she needs anything from the house.” He nodded as you stretched your arms over your head and laughed at the small pops and cracks you got in response.

“Ye’r gettin’…”

“Shut up, Filip.” You said with a laugh as you pushed his arm. You shook your head and took his hand on your way back into the hospital. With every step you took, you realized just how tired you really were. “God, you know what sounds great right now? A dip in the hot tub.”

“Mmm an’ Kellan’s a school. We’d ‘ave the ‘ouse to ourselves…” You moaned as you headed down the hallway toward Kelsi’s room.

“When was the last time we had an empty house? Ten years ago? Fif…” You words were cut off as a nurse raced past you and turned into Kelsi’s room. Your feet stumbled as the sounds of people talking over each other finally grabbed your attention and you took off at a run. “Kels?”

“Stay ou’ there!” Kerrianne yelled at you at the same moment Chibs grabbed you around the middle to keep you in the hallway. You grabbed at his arms as your eyes focused on your baby girl, who was currently having a massive seizure and being held down to the bed by a couple nurses. You were too in shock to even move or make a sound. Your mouth simple opened and closed soundlessly as your tired mind tried to wrap around what was going on.

“Filip.” You finally said as they rolled Kelsi’s still body onto her back and started CPR. “Filip, fix this!” He shook his head and squeezed you tighter as his tears fell on your shoulder. You didn’t even notice your own tears falling as you dug your nails into his arms when they shocked your baby girl. As Kerrianne looked for a heartbeat, Jax, who had been with baby Megan, slid around the corner and nearly collided with you and Chibs.

“What?” You shook your head as you let go of your husband’s arm with one hand so you could grab one of Jax’s. The three of you stood and watched in horror as the hospital staff fought to bring Kelsi back.

“I love you, mommy.” Kelsi’s last words to you before you went out for a cigarette echoed in your head as Kerrianne took a step back with tears in her eyes. “I love you so much.”

“Time… Time’a death… 11:27.”

“No!”

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Numb. It was the only thing you were currently capable of feeling as you laid on the hospital bed with Kelsi’s cold body in your arms. Tears flowed like a river into her blonde hair as you brushed your fingers through it to get out all the little tangles. Jax hadn’t lasted a moment before shattering a picture frame in the hall and storming off. Chibs had pleaded with his daughter to save his other baby girl before collapsing in the hall way where he still was, sobbing into his hands. You didn’t know how you managed to convince your feet to move but you knew you needed to get to your daughter.

You had instantly started singing when you laid down next to her as you pulled off the leads and the IV’s that were now completely unnecessary but your heart wasn’t in it. It couldn’t be because it was almost like it knew you would never see your baby girl’s face again; knew that you would never hear her laughter in the mornings as she got dressed for school. Your baby girl, who was just an innocent bystander ripped from the world before her time. Your heart finally heated up with rage as you realized just who’s fault this whole situation was. 

The fucking prospect; this was his fault. He was the one who knocked up your baby. He was the one who made your daughter run off. He was the asshole who got in the car accident that lead to your baby girl being in the hospital in the first place. It was his fucking fault Kelsi was dead.

“I want that fucking prick out of this fucking hospital.” You said loud enough that Chibs could hear you. “And he’s never going near that baby again.”

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You had your arms wrapped around Kellan and Kerrianne’s shoulders tightly, as if they were going to disappear from your world if you didn’t as you stood amongst your SAMCRO family at Kelsi’s grave site a few plot spots down from Gemma and Thomas’s graves. Tears silently fell down your cheeks as you stared at your baby girl’s smiling face in the collage that Lyla and a couple of the croweaters had made for her memorial. Despite the fact that she had been gone for a whole week, you still felt that it wasn’t real.

“I can’t fucking believe he showed up here.” Happy growled behind you and beside Jax. Your, Jax and Chibs’ heads all whipped up and easily found Mike standing a few hundred yards away by a tree in all black. The rage you felt every time you even though his name boil in your veins as you glanced back at the Tacoma Killer.

“I want him dead. Painfully so.” Happy nodded his head once as you looked back at your daughter’s coffin and kissed your son’s head.

“Can I do it?” Kellan asked as you pretended to listen to the man who was saying a few words for your daughter’s service.

“No. Uncle Happy is gunna take care of that piece of shit.”

“Make ‘im suff’a.” Kerrianne said as she leaned her head on your shoulder and wiped at her tears. “Make ‘im pay for Kelsi.” You couldn’t even bring yourself to care that your children were actively planning murder in their heads and condoning murder as well, something that you usually would have put an end to immediately.

“I’ll take this one.” Jax said as they lowered his baby girl’s coffin into the ground. “I want his fucking blood on my hands.” You nodded your head as you turned around toward him and Chibs because you couldn’t bring yourself to see your daughter be buried.

“Make him pay, Jackson. Make him fucking pay for our baby.”

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“Hi, sweet girl.” You said softly as you held two week old Megan to your partially bare chest in her NICU room two days after Kelsi’s funeral. You smiled at the tiny little girl in your arms as you rocked the two of you back and forth. “It’s mamaw. You are so beautiful, baby girl.” Megan let out a small, adorable cry as you brushed your pointer finger tip across the back her small head. “Shh… it’s OK, sweetheart. I got you.” You offered her your pointer finger and smiled with tears in your eyes as she grabbed it firmly.

“She’s lookin’ real good.” Kerrianne said as she checked monitors and glanced at Megan Kelsi Teller’s chart despite the fact that her niece wasn’t her patient. “No brain bleed, strong heartbeat but we’re still monitorin’ tha’ spot. She’s gettin’ enough oxygen. We’re gon’ redo the OAE test in a couple weeks ta check ‘er ‘earin’ again but Da’s right. She’s’a fight’a.” You nodded at your step-daughter as you brushed your thumb across across Megan’s fingers.

“She is.” You said solemnly as tears welled in your eyes. You swallowed them back and looked up at Kerrianne. “So what are we gunna do about feeding? I don’t like the idea of her on formula this young.”

“Well I was talkin’ ta ‘er doct’a t’day ‘bout tha’. We’ve a reserve of sorts from other women tha’ donate breastmilk… but there’s also the option’a tryin’ ta get ye ta induce as well.” You looked up at her with your eyebrows raised.

“Yea? Because nursing two kids through the night wasn’t enough, right?” Kerrianne blushed as she sat down on the chair just as Chibs came into the rom. You smirked and looked up at him. “So, how do you feel about my boobs growing again?” He looked at you with his eyebrow raised and hesitated in the door way as Kerrianne covered her face in embarrassment.

“Yer no’ gettin’ implants, m’luv.”

“An’ I’m done.” Kerrianne said as she got up to leave the room. “I’ll pick up Kellan from school on m’way ‘ome. Just let the doc know wha’ ye decide… an’ don’ tell me, please!” You giggled and nodded as your husband came in and took her chair.

“Breast feeding, baby.” You said as he sat down and immediately began pulling at the pink clothing cover he had on. “I don’t want Megs on formula this young…”

“Ahh…” He sighed as he sat back in his chair. ��’s’yer call, m’luv. Ye know I’m in luv wit’ yer tits when they’re all full an’ swollen…”

“Filip…” You warned as you looked at him through your lashes.

“I’m jus’ sayin’ luv. Layin’ the facts down on the table.” You rolled your eyes at him as you looked back down at Megan. “She would’a wanted it tha’ way.” You nodded your head at him but kept your eyes on your granddaughter.

“I know she would…” You looked up quickly as a tear fell from your eye and sighed. “I hate this.”

“I know, luv. I do too.” You forced yourself to try and stay calm so you didn’t upset Megan as you looked back at Chibs.

“They wanted to know if we planned on adopting Megan as our daughter or just being legal guardians as grandparents. Something about her birth certificate.” Chibs sighed as he leaned back in his chair and crossed his arms over his chest.

“Shit… I’ve no idea, lass.” You sighed and looked down at Megan.

“If we don’t and we can’t find that little fucking tool, he can come for her…”

“We’ll adopt.” Chibs instantly growled. “He’s no’ goin’ near tha’ child.” You nodded your head in agreement as you ‘shh’ed’ him softly.

“Stay calm, my love. We’ll adopt. She can call us mom an’ da… but she will always know the truth about Kelsi.” He nodded his head and glanced up as the doctor came in to check on Megan to see if her ‘kangaroo care’ was helping the way she hoped. “Make ‘er tits, bigga. I approve.” He laughed as he got up from his chair.

“Filip, I swear to God.” You mumbled as you brushed your hand over Megan’s back. Your husband chuckled as he kissed your forehead and headed toward the door.

“She wan’s big tits. ‘uge tits!” You sighed and rolled your eyes as Megan’s doctor just laughed.

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“Kellan, it’s time for bed.” You said as you strolled into your son’s room, grabbing articles of clothing to toss in the hamper with each step. You sighed as you glanced up at your child, who was ignoring you. “Hey! What did I say?”

“Just one more video, mom.” Your head whipped up at the sound of tears in his voice and your brow furrowed.

“What are you watching, honey?” You walked over to his bed and dropped the handful of clothes in his over flowing hamper on the way. Your son tilted his iPad toward you and pulled out the cord for his headphones. You tripped over nothing and caught yourself on the edge of his bed as Kelsi’s laugh filled the room.

“It’s her vlog.” He said softly as you took his tablet from him.

“Is that the shit she was always recording?” You asked as you laid down beside him and watched your daughter talking to her phone in your hot tub.

“Yea. She posted them on YouTube all the time. I never used to follow her…” You glanced over at your son as the video came to an end and nodded as you passed him back his tablet.

“Text me the link so I can show your dad. And don’t stay up too late, OK?” He nodded his head as he laid back down in his bed and started the next video. As quickly as you could, you grabbed your son’s laundry so he wouldn’t see you cry. You somehow managed to make it to the laundry room off the kitchen before you burst into tears and nearly collapsed on the floor. Sobs wracked your body as you curled into yourself in front of the dryer.

“Why?” You sobbed as you shook your head against the tile. “She’s just a baby.”

“Luv?” You forced yourself to roll onto your back and you could see your husband’s heart shatter in his brown eyes. “Fuck… I know m’luv. ’s’ok…”

“No…” You sobbed as you shook your head. He nodded at you as he came over and picked you up off the floor. You wrapped your arms around his neck and sobbed into his shoulder, letting yourself really feel the loss of your daughter for the first time. As he laid you both down on your bed, you felt his own tears fall on your jaw as he shifted over you to find a comfortable spot.

“I want her back!” You sobbed as you fisted his shirt and kutte in your fists.

“I know, sweet’eart. Me too.” You nodded against his chest as he wrapped you in his arms and held you as tight as he could. You sobbed for hours, begging, screaming at, and pleading with God for him to bring Kelsi back. Your heart and soul ached as Chibs clung to you, trying to hold both of you together as best as he could as he let his own feelings finally come to the surface as well in the privacy of your bedroom.

“My baby…” You rasped repeatedly until you finally cried yourself to sleep.

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You stood in the NICU, staring at three and a half month old Megan as she wiggled and cooed like the happiest baby in the world. You couldn’t help but notice the similarity between her and her mother and no matter how much it broke your heart, some how the little girl in the crib in front of you was putting it back together one obliterated piece at a time. But you knew without a shadow of a doubt in your mind that something was wrong with Megan. And in this situation, you hated that you were right.

“She’s complete ‘earin’ loss in ‘er left ear.” Kerrianne said somberly with tears in her eyes. “Bu’ the good news is she’s only moderate loss in ‘er right. So tha’s somethin’.”

“Jesus Christ.” Chibs mumbled as he sat back in his chair.

“So she’s deaf?” Kellan asked curiously.

“Yea buddy, in one ear, she is.” You said as you picked up Megan from the crib with a smile. “But no matter what she is our family and she is still perfect just the way she is, right?” Your son nodded as you laid Megan on your chest so that her right ear was closer to your mouth so she’d be able to hear you better. “Aren’t you, sweet thing?”

“But… if she can’t hear you, why talk to her?” You looked up at your son with a smile.

“She can ‘ear a lit’l bit out’a ‘er right ear, bud.” Kerrianne said as she sat down next to her brother. “But she can still feel the vibrations in mum’s chest when she speaks… an’ she can see yer facial expressions if ye talk ta ‘er.” Your daughter smiled at Kellan and grabbed his hand. “But mum’s right. She’s still perfect, aye?”

“Aye.” He said in agreement as he looked up at Megan. “Can… can I hold her before we go home?” Your smile grew as you took a step over to him.

“Be gentle.” Chibs said as he sat up a little protectively. You gave him a quick glance to shut him up as you helped guide your granddaughter to Kellan’s chest. You crouched down in front of him and hummed a laugh at how awkward he looked as Kerrianne took a photo for you. 

“She is perfect.” He said softly as he let Megan hold onto his finger. You could see the wheels turning in his head as he moved his head to look at her left ear. He looked back at her right ear and nodded the slightest bit. “OK. We can go now.” You nodded your head as you carefully took Megan back as Chibs grabbed the carseat for you.

“Le’s get our girl ‘ome.” You looked up at him with tears in your eyes and a plethora of emotions in your heart.