#and im struggling!! struggs to func!!!

[westywallowing]

alright everybody. screaming into my void. in the month of December I will be drawing and posting something every day. even if I hate it. because I am so!! sick!! of my executive disfunction mixed with the malaise from my chronic pain allowing me to essentially only work, do school, and sit on my phone at home. I want my hobbies back!! I want to stop!! existing only for capiltalism!!! thank u for my speech

[furubaish]

about kyo imagining tohru in a swimsuit... im looking forward to him struggling to get to that point, be really flustered and at odds with himself and just struggs to func when uo and hana ask them for opinions and also scream at uo about not saying indecent things because i stan one awkward boy. its like a foreshadowing to the lets so egg shopping scene and him hating himself for thinking how cute she is and i literally wrote a fic about that so ya im excited.

[realizashuns]

well starting my perspectives in history class and I-

im literally so upset....I wasn't ok with eren and frankly was already hating him and I just cannot sympathize with eren lol looking at his actions I just cant scrounge a single piece of respect for him he really decided to go an eye for an eye just to feel good about himself and his own trauma to get revenge and he did realize he wasn't fulfilled after he literally committed genocide and decided to literally run away for his own peace of mind like I saw his struggle coming but I didnt think it would be this messed up. and here I am struggs to func and this link to this interactive thing came up

ive always thought that art should have clear stances, especially in the modern era having art for the sake of art is hard to appreciate because usually the artist is tied to their product. during my classes we've talked about wether or not all art should be used as persuasion or as viewing and a lot of people agreed that we should have non persuasive art and I do agree but I also just get so antsy when I see art using strong imagery and themes to grab attention but then dont fucking use that to insight thoughts??? art is art but good art has direction idk I just think art is really education and imo there IS A. THING AS BAD ART LOL being able pick apart a work of media should be a skill thats taught in schools especially now in a digital age where its hard to spot photoshop if you've never used it! if this whole series builds up to everyone staying as titans and theres only 2 surivivors what the FUCK was the point of the series lol I researched Isayama and his beliefs and the links and rumors were from 2013 and a newly resurfaced article form 2019 and while I do see a few alarming things like Isayama praising the real general who inspired pixys and obvious references to the ghettos and blatant racism everywhere, all of that SEEMED like it was going towards a theme of importance and leaning towards this idea that the idea of power we all seek through material/physical/emotional acts is that of a literal god BUT even having that much power means nothing because it has to be held in check its just the nature of it theres always give and take... I interpreted erens bootlicking devotion became his downfall like his Achilles heel, he didnt have any individuality and never questioned history or questioned perspectives or anything...and in the end he played himself by creating this false idealization of "freedom" and "liberty" .....ahem basically yeagerists/far-right/facists ahem what.....if this show really ends up with everyone dying and any inclination that eren was "right" or that titans deserved to live/stay in their forms im gonna be rage ...honestly connie and jean were the only ones who got their "hero death" anyways im going to buy Howard zinns book to ground me because I dont want to get my hopes up if this series really does reflect isayamas own personal beliefs I just have lost faith :/ I want to think he sees this and needs to make a clear stance however if he's praised someone who wasn't held accountable for his war crimes what am I to believe ..the last chapter to me will be a reflection of his own beliefs and im ready to rip it apart