#and im like oh yeah for sure! <- lying. silently tearing up. feels worse cus my bf coild tell i wasnt totally fine but | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

catt-crossing · 1 year ago

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i hate how sensitive i am because changes in peoples tone of voice suddenly messes with me unless im 100%sure they are joking or it's not directed towards me. and i like the slightest thing where someone might point something out about me and unless it's super positive internally im like okay! i will go cry and explode myself :') and i feel worse because my brain just starts negative thoughts and guilt and guilt for feeling this way even though logically, there might not have been something wrong im just taking what they said and idk :/

#something small in a convo with my bf where he didnt say anything wrong or hurtful but me being me #my brain has to overreact and this was over the phone so im like yeah haha im fine! cus my bf was like you got quiet all of a sudden u okay?#and im like oh yeah for sure! <- lying. silently tearing up. feels worse cus my bf coild tell i wasnt totally fine but #idk how ro explain and he didnt do or say anything wrong. its just me!#but im worried i made him sad for not explaining and idk :/ he went to sleep #hoping ill feel better after jerma video and sleep too :(

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