#and im just. aimless? listless?

[majorasnightmare]

3, 6, and 23 for Dirge pretty please!!

kicks my lil feets on the bed because this ask combo is a GREAT way to elaborate on how faeruns biggest god killer is a HUUUUUGE loser LMAO

3) What song describes your OC?

he has MULTIPLE playlists so this is a toughie. theres one for his relationship with minthara, where Take Me To Church and I Bet On Losing Dogs are pretty standout entries. Theres one thats just for shit HE'D listen to which is predominatly heavy metal and also some Ghost and King Gizzard. and then theres the one i listen to to think about him which. ngl its early 2000s amv cringe. theres a lot of Korn. theres some Disturbed im p sure. in general if its a heavy track with lyrics about how you are Deeply Fucked In The Head then itll PROOOBABLY be a good Dirge fit.

6) If your OC is in a fantasy setting, what profession would they be in the modern day?

OH MAN THE MILLION DOLLAR QUESTION

in any scenario where he isnt a deeply driven religous zealot trying to end the world that ISNT the plot of bg3, he just ends up listless and aimless and struggles to set longterm ambitions and goals for himself. this typically manifests as being a loner shutin glued to a PC 24/7 cuz even without brain damage he has insomnia. hed be living in a basement making competitive meta Elden Ring PVP builds. responding to angry forums on reddit i want all of you to know the man who canonically dominated an elder brain is more of a loser than his sister. its quite literally nerf or nothin with this guy. he ironically has a really great resume-ready skillset that he wouldnt use in any capacity. he COULD get into doing freelance programming shit but he cant be motivated besides doing Prime Malenia Boss Fight mods. absolute nepo baby bullshit

23) Is your OC reliable? Can I call them up at two in the morning if I have a flat tire?

if he doesnt know you: absolutely not thats how you get Jeff The Killed. if he DOES know you, hes genuinely one of the most reliable people you could have in your corner. call him up at 2 am, he isnt sleeping. he'll move you out of your apartment, get you an uber and pick your car up in the morning, hell help you fuck over your ex and steal your cat back AND bust you out of prison and cross state lines. he is so ride or die its ridiculous. zero questions asked, already getting dressed while on the phone with you. its part of what makes everything else so awkward because hes genuinely a great person to be friends with but he also has zero regrets about the torture murders that you might find distasteful (unless your based like Minthara)

[selamat-linting]

this might just be me growing up in a super conservative region (58% prabowo voters SWEEP) but im really frustrated over how aimless queer rights organizing seems to be in indonesia. like, i appreciate ppl who make alternative schools, shelters, halfway homes, and advocate for free health insurance and financial assistance aids because its a resources that most of us should have had by the law but doesnt because community stigma. but there must something to be done outside of that.

three years ago, a woman died from a lynch mob. with the way the political climate were going, i was hoping our issues will start to be considered in mainstream conciousness. there were a few memorials, and i thought that girl i dont know would be a reminder for other ppl to fight harder. activist groups and queer rights NGO's were making zoom calls, meet-ups, i sat in one of the online meetings and turns out the org is linked to a broader international movement with actual funding. it really seems like something.

but three years later they are still making the same zoom meetings, basic instagram posts about transitioning positivity (but no mention of diy hrt), movie recs filled with disney slop, the same listless meetups with no material gain to show for it. the incremental fight for queer rights by all means, is a failure. there are no effort to link back our struggle with other forms of oppression. we are not represented by anyone in the government, there are no laws codified to protect us, even the media is growing increasingly hostile to us. and fyi another trans girl died recently from a hate crime and all she get is a few memorial instagram posts. five years ago this should incite online outrage at least. we are circling down the drain and all of those community resources will slowly gets overburdened with diminished funding and more and more trans people gets abandoned by society.

and dont get me started on how those community resources and events seem to exist only in java. not to be resentful but its like kalimantan, papua, sulawesi, and all the surrounding regions are just there to be java's cellar and pantry. and they expect us to be just as developed politically and intellectually.

[anak1n]

have been feeling so aimless and listless lately n like im living every day on repeat. um. hoping im depressed bc if this is just life for the next while then im gonna pissedddddd

[luukeskywalker]

me: i should write some sugishira!

me, looking at my sugishira wip for more than 10 seconds: i should write some claypollo!

[fyer]

rant

[invadersmeet]

There’s this new “kid” in school that seems pretty fuckin listless and aimless. He just so happened to be placed a seat behind Gaz.

He’s annoying and Gaz doesn't intend to deal with this loud and weird obvious non-human, and has no intention in getting as obsessed as her older brother... but some things about this weird just dont Sit Right.

For Consideration: obviously, ominous glowing red eyes. But ALSO, in low-light or low-visibility, antenna ‘fluff’ or ‘feather’ out to enhance senses. Bug Hunter skill.

Also im still not sure how Large Gir is (as Gir is smaller in this au then the show, just as Zim is younger), but he’s somewhere between Zim’s knee or Zim’s waist. Small Dog Style. since im still unsure about it, have some V Small knee-high Gir fulfilling his roll as Comfort Puppy where he is perfectly content to be carried around.