#and im just. aimless? listless?

[selamat-linting]

this might just be me growing up in a super conservative region (58% prabowo voters SWEEP) but im really frustrated over how aimless queer rights organizing seems to be in indonesia. like, i appreciate ppl who make alternative schools, shelters, halfway homes, and advocate for free health insurance and financial assistance aids because its a resources that most of us should have had by the law but doesnt because community stigma. but there must something to be done outside of that.

three years ago, a woman died from a lynch mob. with the way the political climate were going, i was hoping our issues will start to be considered in mainstream conciousness. there were a few memorials, and i thought that girl i dont know would be a reminder for other ppl to fight harder. activist groups and queer rights NGO's were making zoom calls, meet-ups, i sat in one of the online meetings and turns out the org is linked to a broader international movement with actual funding. it really seems like something.

but three years later they are still making the same zoom meetings, basic instagram posts about transitioning positivity (but no mention of diy hrt), movie recs filled with disney slop, the same listless meetups with no material gain to show for it. the incremental fight for queer rights by all means, is a failure. there are no effort to link back our struggle with other forms of oppression. we are not represented by anyone in the government, there are no laws codified to protect us, even the media is growing increasingly hostile to us. and fyi another trans girl died recently from a hate crime and all she get is a few memorial instagram posts. five years ago this should incite online outrage at least. we are circling down the drain and all of those community resources will slowly gets overburdened with diminished funding and more and more trans people gets abandoned by society.

and dont get me started on how those community resources and events seem to exist only in java. not to be resentful but its like kalimantan, papua, sulawesi, and all the surrounding regions are just there to be java's cellar and pantry. and they expect us to be just as developed politically and intellectually.

[anak1n]

have been feeling so aimless and listless lately n like im living every day on repeat. um. hoping im depressed bc if this is just life for the next while then im gonna pissedddddd

[sallytwo]

2 and 22?

2. Album of the year?

the sophtware slump grandaddy... kind of depressing album to define a year but its so insanely good. listened to it a tonnn january/febuary and then got back into it again recently its such a winter album. all of grandaddys stuff just conveys this feeling of listlessness and wandering aimlessly which i really clicked with on the ship. he's simple he's dumb he's the pilot, jeds other poem (beautiful ground), and miner at the dial-a-view are my top songs off it.

22. Favorite place you visited this year?

SEEE i saw so many cool places and could have so many cool answers barbados, ithaca, DC, and st. thomas are definitely high on the list. but im gonna give the lame out answer and say that just sailing around aimless was my favorite "place". the first 2 weeks before i went up to the bridge i geniuenly had no clue where we were and i just sat outside everydays in the middle of the ocean god knows where and it was incredibly beautiful. for a more specific answer the mid-atlantic was the coolest, SPECIFICALLY CAPE HATTERAS!!! the carribean also has its charm but there's something very very old about the atlantic that you could feel.

obligatory atlantic. pics also my map which is funny af

[luukeskywalker]

me: i should write some sugishira!

me, looking at my sugishira wip for more than 10 seconds: i should write some claypollo!

[fyer]

rant

[invadersmeet]

There’s this new “kid” in school that seems pretty fuckin listless and aimless. He just so happened to be placed a seat behind Gaz.

He’s annoying and Gaz doesn't intend to deal with this loud and weird obvious non-human, and has no intention in getting as obsessed as her older brother... but some things about this weird just dont Sit Right.

For Consideration: obviously, ominous glowing red eyes. But ALSO, in low-light or low-visibility, antenna ‘fluff’ or ‘feather’ out to enhance senses. Bug Hunter skill.

Also im still not sure how Large Gir is (as Gir is smaller in this au then the show, just as Zim is younger), but he’s somewhere between Zim’s knee or Zim’s waist. Small Dog Style. since im still unsure about it, have some V Small knee-high Gir fulfilling his roll as Comfort Puppy where he is perfectly content to be carried around.