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smute · 1 year ago

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so im moving back home next month to save some money during my last semester of grad school, and as grateful as i am for even having that option, a not so small part of me is very scared that it may turn out to be... not quite as temporary as i am currently hoping it will be🙂

#i am looking forward to getting rid of this expensive apartment #and im just extremely grateful that i get to have a little grace period #where i dont have to worry about making rent for a little while #but im also wondering if i might be putting myself in a situation that will potentially be very difficult to... well. escape #my financial situation is less than ideal #(thats a euphemism)#the interest rate on my student loan has exploded since last year #(up from 3.7% last september to 8%. yes. eight per cent. i actually had to increase my monthly payouts just to cover the interest payments)#and its forcing me to rethink all of my plans #for the future #rn its looking like that might be the final nail in the coffin for my phd plans #(just as i was starting to get over my impostor syndrome too)#so. what the hell do you do with 2 english degrees when you suddenly cant afford to do the one thing those degrees are actually good for?#the answer is not a whole lot #finding another place to live in the near future will be harder than ever #and as much as i love my parents #i cant stay with them for more than a year #i will lose my mind #or what little is left of it lol #so yeah #the sky seems awfully dark all of a sudden #ill be fine once they take me out back and shoot me etc etc #but anyways #just a little life update i guess #do me a favor and ignore this #i dont think i can handle any sympathy rn #and i definitely cant handle any antipathy lmao #i just needed to get this out #tbd

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