#and im getting really sick of the goverment social whatever services fucking hold music
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--whiney rant and vent--- starts at tumblr but descends into my life.
Fucking tumblr!! *grabs tumblr and aggressively shakes it*
Some new hell update has made it so every time I reblog a post, i go right back to the top of my dash and have to scroll half a mile through the posts Ive already seen to get back to the ones i havent yet seen and want to see!! And even with the scroll bar it takes ages and breaks the loading and makes it nearly genuinely unusable!!!
But Im still going to even though it sucks, because tumblr is my designated scroll and look at characters time and be with mutuals. And yes this is a very small whiny thing to rant about, especially given the state of the damn world, but with the rest of my life imploding in many numbered crisises that even one of would be apparently considered a fairly major thing to have to deal with im now realsising because through massive amounts of avoidance id just gone "this is fine" despite being very reasonably banned from the word fine by 5 different people and then me, and then others going 'wow that really is alot' semihorrified, and I awkwardly laugh because i am used to this and its not that bad and whatever stupid shit i tell myself to keep going.
So yes, whining about tumblr because at this point its a load bearing coping mechanism. And its somewhat a last straw because i am barely hanging on as it is but ill deal with this like everything else because there isnt any other options.
#astra stuff#ill survive this i just got to be dramatic about it first#and some of this stuff i dont think im actually being dramatic about because its really not fine#yknow the stressed and terrified with the whole trying to move out and figuring out how possibly can i because at this point i really need#chronic illnesses being chronic annoyingly#trying to hold everyone together and then myself too#dumb panic attacks because im on a hair thin trigger but shrugging them off halfway through because i dont have time nor energy for this#the whole fucking cpstd thing which apparently psychologists dont hand out like halloween candy#so there really is a problem here given meeting the diagnostic critera#and what happened to me being just so incredibly Fine!#you can probably at this point see exactly the reason why i write scott like i do#okay apparently more dumb rant in the tags#and im getting really sick of the goverment social whatever services fucking hold music#plus the daily attempt convince my stupid emotions that nooo everyone does not despise me in particular that doesnt even make logical sense#ugh#cant exactly say im fine but i am getting help for what i can
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