#and im fairly convinced that its back even after surgery bc my cis female dr didnt listen to me about how hrt affects a body | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

chaos-coming · 3 years ago

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I hate looking up anything about my endometriosis it is so dysphoric and triggering bc there are exactly zero places on the internet that use non feminized language like SHUT UP about women with endometriosis their experiences are actually irrelevant to my condition as proven by my surgeon who wouldnt listen that being on hrt would change my post op experience and its not the same as menopausal women

#and im fairly convinced that its back even after surgery bc my cis female dr didnt listen to me about how hrt affects a body #literally that was my last hope for long term pain relief and it looks like it didnt work #i guess my chronic pain will never go away then and idk if ill ever be able to train martial arts like i used to #its literally heartbreaking #i wish i was born 10 years later kids these days have no idea how lucky they are to know that trans people even exist #if i had gotten on puberty blockers the disease would have never had the chance to develop #it hurts sm to think of all i could have accomplished if i wasnt in so much pain all those years #i would have jumped at the chance to be on blockers even tho i had no idea what trans was i knew that for sure #dont mind me ill be wallowing and also ive been in Pain in the last few months and its getting worse bc my t dose was too high so even tho i #got the total hysto i was getting estrogen which is literally my bodys enemy #so now its back possibly forever bc my cis drs didnt believe me that my dose needed to be changed and woukdnt order bloodwork to prove it #also i as usual mistook it for dairy allergy #bc the food in this country is so processed and inedible it all makes me sick #my digestive system is not built for first world packaged food but my sister who has lived her entire life in the us is fine #well i guess the good news is that its not long covid making me feel like ass its my same bullshit #the enemy you know and all...#i guess #im trying to be positive about it ok im just not ok

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