#and im at my parents’ this weekend for my uncle’s funeral so ill have a lil tolerance break <3 that wil suck for me but also be good for me | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

isdalinarhot · 5 months

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Unsure if im winning or losing the Dopamine Roulette wheel tonight. Like on a physical level I feel it and it feels pleasurable but on an emotional level I can’t stop thinking about how pathetic I am which on a good night dissipates and I can like myself for once. Perplexing.

#luke.txt #drunkposting #not cosmere #addictionposting #nights where im neither feeling it nor getting emotional relief are the nights where i near drink myself to death and then get tired and #go to bed #but tonight i should reach a certain point and go. oh. my brain is so mush that i wanna fucking stop. yknow? yeah #it’s not working tonight but it doesn’t work every night that’s okay #and im at my parents’ this weekend for my uncle’s funeral so ill have a lil tolerance break <3 that wil suck for me but also be good for me

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