#and if i post this at 1230 on a wednesday who even cares anymore

[exyrpf]

Exyblr Dashboard Simulator based on what I personally see on sportsblr:

7/?

😇 daddywymack

oh so when YOU say someone's attractive it's FINE but when *i* say it, it's NOT? misogyny

🌞 blonde-jeremy-knox

it's probably bc you said jeremy knox looked so slurpable that you'd let him waterboard u with his sweat

😇 daddywymack

i'm just being honest!!! lying is a sin!!

🌞 blonde-jeremy-knox

you're going to hell either way so like?? maybe lie a little ajdsfh

#i don't mean that baby u r sooo right and you should speak the truth

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🌸 a-softer-exy

jeremy knox/jean moreau - an unspoken prayer

#usc #university of southern california #usc trojans #jeremy knox #jean moreau #1129 #jerejean #trojans #exy #web weave #poetry

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♛ queen-of-exy

'you just want to date a player' absolutely not. i don't even want to MEET a player, they should stay on the court and in my fanfiction where they belong.

#would probably make an exception for kevin day but only bc he probably has a praise kink

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🧸 mreow-bearcats-mreow

neutral party here but are the trojans only playing NINE PLAYERS?

🧸 mreow-bearcats-mreow

update: they lost but like. they didn't look as bad as i was expecting, and uh...post game interview um hellloooo jeremy 👀 . was pretty neutral but next seaassooon ........... any usc fans wanna help

🗣️ jeremyknoxes follow

oh baby i'll send you my usc primer STAT i've been waiting for this day

#gonna make you a trojans fan if it's the last thing i do

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🦁 pennst-ate-me-up

neil josten when asked about the ravens on live tv:

#psu #neil josten

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💃fox-me-up follow

wish i could be surprised that exyblr's reaction to neil being a gangster's son was more 'kinda hot ngl' than anything ya know. normal. but i've been here long enough to know better

#i mean it IS kinda hot ngl #but that's not the point #neil tag

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✍️ exy-fic-rec

i'll crawl home to her by exystarlightning

Fandom: Exy RPF

Pairing: Kevin Day/Neil Josten

Rating: E

Tags: Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Alpha!Neil, Omega!Kevin, Mating Cycles/In Heat, Knotting, Soulmates, Miscommunication, Purring

Word count: 84k

Summary: Kevin wasn't looking for an alpha; unfortunately, the universe had other plans.

#kevin day #neil josten #kevneil #kdnj #njkd #0210 #psu #palmetto #psu foxes #omegaverse #soulmates #explicit #exy rpf #fic rec

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[putris-et-mulier]

There is this new Korean web comic called Save Me (published in English on lezhin) by 1230 and an issue/episode is released each Wednesday.

As a disabled person in a wheelchair and also a fan of comics I love it. I posted a few panels I liked and my inbox blew up with people asking me what it was and where they can read it for themselves

Save Me is an ongoing web manhwa that's released each week but the first 4 issues are totally free to read on the publisher's English site and you can get those just by clicking: this

Official description: Hyeongoh, the first place student at school, is disabled and has a knack for getting ridiculed by the school's bullies. With no help and no way out, he finds himself in a despairing situation...until someone appears to stand by his side! 

Quick description that is far less vague: It begins with Hyeongoh being violently bullied and dumped out of his wheelchair then Namsoo, a new student, happens to be walking by afterword and is happy to see his first classmate but then Hyeongoh begins dragging himself across the pavement toward a wheelchair and he's suddenly not happy anymore. 

The 2 protagonists are Hyeongoh

and Cha Namsoo who has multiple distinct looks 

When he looks at other people

or sometimes

unless it's Hyeongoh

I am dying to know what people think of this, especially able-bodied people, because it's so… Real.

Also, you see Hyeongoh refuses assistance from anyone even if he clearly needs it. In most cases this would be an ableist trope but this is a bit of a different situation, one I can speak personally to. 

If you are being bullied, especially physically, you ask for less help so as to go unnoticed. You refuse help to divert attention away from yourself and to avoid whoever else might come by and take an interest. Many times disabled people will be physically bullied when they are being "assisted" by students and the adults just eat it up when it's actually a game of how discreetly they can punch or pinch you and mock you about how no one's going to notice. You don't tell the staff because nothing will come of it, you will be blamed as a distraction in the class (the equivalent to a halter top on a girl) and told to toughen up because the world won't always baby us. 

You don't tell your friends, if you have any, because the first complement you usually get from your peers is about how unlike other crippled people you are because you don't make a big "thing" about it even though they've never met any other disabled people. You don't tell your family because statistically they are also abusing you and/or you have come to realize no one cares and nothing will be solved so it would just be a waste of time. You stop asking for and accepting help from family and friends because you start to feel ashamed of your lack of abilities, not to physically operate but to just deal with the situation or find some way to please everyone. It gets to the point that even if someone hands you something it makes you feel pathetic.

When should you offer to help a disabled person? When you would have offered help if they were able-bodied.

What do you do if your offer is badly received? You get to go home and live your life. No one owes you an explanation and if you judged all able-bodied people by single interactions like you do with disabled people you would never speak to anyone ever again.

Anyway, I think this is a good read.

Not everyone will be able to read the series due to the content but please signal boost. It's the only legitimate representation a  teenager in a wheelchair I've ever seen.

Trigger warnings: very realistic ableism which includes verbal, emotional, and physical abuse as well as torture. As I said, it's highly realistic and I think a lot of things might be really jarring if you've never experienced living as a teenager who uses something like a wheelchair. 

An educated guess as to why Hyeongoh is disabled/what he has and a grade of the accuracy of the abuse shown below, so spoiler warnings 

The protagonist Hyeongoh is disabled and it hasn't yet to been stated exactly what his disability stems from but it seems that he has paralysis

I'm assuming most of you are not disabled and I don't mean to condescend but I want to write this so everyone understands so the series can he read in a more nuanced way 

Hyeongoh could have a number of disabilities, he might have Multiple Sclerosis, Multiple Dystrophy (like me!), Cerebral Palsy, Neurofibromatosis or even just a traumatic brain injury but I'd wager that he is supposed to be partially paralyzed in the lower half of his body, it sort of looks like mid thigh up he has some control over

this panel isn't realistic unless the injury causes paralysis below the knees but this is incongruent to how we usually see him so I think it's the author taking liberties

Personally I love that you don't know exactly what he has because the only type of character in a wheelchair you ever see are ones that are paralyzed and they are always paralyzed from the waist down (and they have absolutely no feeling or control below their waist which is not how spinal injuries work.) Leaving his diagnosis unstated is really helpful if an author makes a mistake and it makes the character more relatable not to just disabled people but to able-bodied people, because the character isn't identified as their disease/injury.

I'm guessing he has paralysis since it could work with what we've seen but also because that's the type of disability people always use.

Hyeongoh's strength in the upper part of his legs can give us an indication of what he might have 

It's only the top of the spine that, if injured, will make you unable to control your bladder/bowels or feel your genitals 100% guaranteed, below the first six vertebrae you can retain some feeling and control (the lower the better) so it's not as simple (or scary) as it is on TV. From C6 down the more abilities you have, the lower the injury the better. Some people with paralysis can walk for short periods. In real life you don't just get hit in the spine and suddenly your ass and legs don't work

Hyeongoh seems to have something like a C8 injury IMO but we only have a little bit of evidence to go by.

He can extend his arms and fingers completely with seemingly no difficulty; injuries in the first six vertebrae can result in complete inability to use your arms but with the lower C's you lose the ability to open your hand or arm completely. 

Hyeongoh can also do things independently with equipment and although we see he doesn't drive he probably could in an accessible car. We also (unfortunately) see that he can control his bowels which is possible with a C8 injury but not to the extent.

Given what we've seen he is able to do he probably can't stand or walk at all but it wouldn't be unrealistic that might be able to but doesn't

It may look like he's pulling himself up with just the strength of his arms but he definitely isn't. A standard manual chair like that would just fall over so he has to have at least partial ability above his knees. 

Doing this hurts a bunch and you are completely exhausted afterward

Here he seems to have something less serious than a C8 injury but I'd wager it's the author taking more liberties to get him back in the chair as quickly as he does

This position isn't necessarily telling. If he does have something genetic causing his disability or was disabled at a very early age his foot is probably fine and can be straightened at will. Kids are extremely flexible and can retain that flexibility if they have good physical therapy, which he clearly does.

We had this game when I was a kid where we tried to see who could position themselves in such a way that even the medical or special ed staff would freak out thinking we broke something. As an adult I understand why the adults hated it so much but it's still funny.

Remember, people with damage to the bottom of their spine can sometimes even appear to walk normally and be what we call "invisibly disabled" in that they can pass as able-bodied. Disability is a spectrum and spinal injury is a spectrum within a spectrum.

As for the accuracy of the bullying, this is my opinion in my experience: 

Dumped out of his wheelchair – highly common, almost guaranteed

Wheelchair taken from him to be played with – guaranteed

Verbal and emotional violence/abuse – guaranteed

Physical violence/abuse – highly common

Kicked and punched – highly common among peers and even as high as 70% of disabled people in general but only about 60% gets reported. Male victims are less likely to have their attacks reported and it's estimated that if a violent attack doesn't include rape then disabled men are the more likely targets whereas disabled women have around a 90% chance of being violently attacked and raped in their life. Male rape victims who are disabled are too underreported to project any realistic percentages but the estimate is that it's very close to disabled women's.

Stabbed – I'd like to say this isn't common but it happened to me multiple times when I was in school and everyone I've spoken to who was in a wheelchair in school has had similar experiences. What takes place in the comic is extreme but it is normal for children to stab you in the leg with a pencil to "see if it will hurt" or "prove that you are faking it" They will also do this by kicking you in the leg or trying to damage it with another foreign object

Being drugged – rare but being forced to eat something that is inevitable is very common

You or your wheelchair being manhandled to force you to physically do something you don't want to – guaranteed

Students who bullied you help you cover it up, usually working together with you to some extent – highly common

School staff seeing the physical violence not doing anything – highly common. In fifth grade someone punched me in class right in front of the teacher and when I cried out she gave me a demerit for being loud. As for the punch, I was supposed to take this opportunity to learn to have a thicker skin… I guess literally

School staff taking resentment out on disabled children because of their need for accommodation – highly common, almost guaranteed 

Photos taken of disabled students without their knowledge to be passed around as entertainment – guaranteed. 

I'm not going to perpetuate it by giving you an example but I can describe one that isn't so scary but still really annoying: a student was in the cafeteria getting lunch when he saw a disabled male student eating at a table with two able-bodied male students. Immediately the student knew that the able-bodied guys were doing charity work and took a photo of these three unsuspecting men and it went viral. It was reported in the news nationwide as a fluff piece with an inspirational message of "throw disabled people a bone." 

The men in the picture obviously ended up seeing it and it turns out they were just three friends that had the same lunch break and they were just trying to eat in peace. I still see the photo shared with a message to encourage able-bodied people to sit near us more often or that they should be happy they aren't one of us

We are very far into the series but those are the big ones