#and if Taylor ever came out to say ‘this song is definitely about Matty’ I’d be like ‘sure that tracks’

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

You probably won't answer this but I'm curious why that anon thinks Peter was about J. I clocked it as a M song. Just theorizing. Sorry if this isn't what you want to answer or something.

Hey anon, you’re right that I don’t really want to host that discussion on my blog because at this point I feel like muse discourse has been a bit exhausted. This far down the line everyone has their opinions on songs and nobody is going to convince anyone otherwise, and I don’t want to start annoying people on my dash with it. And also, imo we’re now so far removed from the frenzy of the release that the muses don’t matter in terms of the music itself for me to enjoy them. (E.g. I’m not someone who is like “I enjoy this song more/less because it’s about X”— I love the songs for the story within them.) I welcome others to make posts about them as they see fit on their blogs, I just don’t feel like I have anything more insightful to say about it. Again which is not to say I don’t have my own opinions personally— I do and like I said I’m pretty settled in them at this point— but it’s just like… I don’t feel the need to bug anyone about them.

That being said, there’s a tenderness and affection in Peter to me that speaks to a long term connection between two people who loved each other who grew apart over a long period, and a disappointment in the narrator that this once great love could never follow through. There’s an undercurrent of significant promises made but never fulfilled to it (promises ocean deep but never to keep). To me it speaks of someone who keeps waiting for Peter to live up to the promises he made in his younger days when the whole world was at their feet, but as he stayed stuck in his make believe Never Land where he didn’t have to grow up because the world always somehow catered to him, the narrator had to let him go to finally achieve her own dreams.

Now don’t get me wrong, I can see it being about either of them, or both of them, or neither of them. Which is why I’m not going to argue anything because I can think it’s about Joe and someone else can come in and argue it being about Matty and someone else can argue it being about someone else and make a case, and like I said, no one is going to convince anyone out of their feelings. To me, what feels different between the muses in songs is that even though there’s obviously deep pain and anger for all of them, some of them have an undercurrent of tenderness to them compared that aren’t present or not in the same way in others, and to me that speaks of the difference between the LTR that once had a foundation of love and respect that blew up vs. The infatuation that was a fantasy from the start that had no real foundation thus lacks that kind of history, for lack of better word.

I’m not saying I’m right, I’m just saying that this long gone, that’s how the album has shaken out to me and how the story has framed itself in my head.

[ftscotty]

luke hemmings. cismale. he/him. ／  scotty  st.james  just pulled up blasting kiss bang by grandson — that song is so them ! you know, for a(n) twenty-three year old musician, i’ve heard they’re really  detached ,but that they make up for it by being so venturesome . if i had to choose three things to describe them, i’d probably say old guitars, the smell of cigarettes and bourbon, and hundred dollar bills thrown in the air . here’s to hoping they don’t cause too much trouble ! ( it’s me! the raq ) 

tws: parental neglect, drug abuse, stay safe but i think that’s it!

ᴛʟ;ᴅʀ ʙᴀꜱɪᴄꜱ:

full name: scotty antoni st.james

inspired by: my muse matty ! but also like.. not at all? kinda? think the anti-matty thats still kinda soft with a v similar backstory sifjad it’s complicated.

songs that remind me of him: king charles by yungblud, diet soda by the maine, scrawny by the wallows, ghost by badflower, am i pretty by the maine, nicotine by panic at the disco, godzilla by with confidence, annnnd original me by yungblud,

basicALLY, he’s really quite… rough around the edges. not an asshole? but not-not an asshole…? skfafa sam would prolly say like a goblin-lite, if you will. scottys been through SOOO much that he naturally, kinda grew to emotionally distance himself from /alot/ of people. hes not anti-social by…. ANY stretch of the imagination nowadays but like just because you know him doesn’t mean you KNOW him. has abandonment issues but rather than being clingy he will just– break up with u before u even THINK about leaving him. tbh that’s if he ever makes “dating” official to begin with. isn’t he lovely?

more in-depth:

alrighty so scotty was born october 21st, 1997 in brooklyn, new york to celia taylors. ( footnotes bc i don’t feel like writing alladat rn buuuut his dad skipped town before he was born bc tea: he has a wife and kids and rlly shouldn’t have been messing around with celia in the first place.) unfortunately, celia was not suited to be a mother by any means. as irresponsible as it comes, she didn’t necessarily make any concessions/change anything about her…. she was still HEAVY into drugs, HEAVY into drinking, and often would forget she left her child in the motel for hours at a time.

so from birth to like 5 he was… very alone and isolated. didn’t really hang out with other kids his age. mostly found himself stuck inside with the tv annnd whomever his mom found to “babysit” him.

by age five he was taken out of his mom’s custody and thrown into foster care. super terrified and uneasy around new people in general he was incredibly timid and scared as he moved around from house to house. he didn’t speak to anyone, stayed curled up in a ball like 99.9% of the time, night terrors, he was.. alot.  so he hoped around foster homes from the ages five to eight.  mainly because of his behavioral issues and each foster parent just... giving up on him. 

when he was ten,  he was on his fourth set of foster parents and they were really great. ryland and elizabeth st.james are two doctors who  were honestly really great, really patient,  and really tried to give him outlets to help him break out of his shell ( ala: putting him in guitar and singing)  and worked! alot better than they expected. scotty really just needed an outlet to express himself and music was the perfect place for that.  from then on ryland and elizabeth really grew on scotty . they are honestly the sweetest people he’s ever met, packing him kale filled lunches with cheesy “ have a good day at school” notes on napkins. they’re the first of his foster parents that he genuinely connected and the first encounter he’s ever had with genuine love . :”)  he’d also meet his best friend , brodie when he was ten on the first day of school. the two connected of a bag of cookies and music lmao .  to  boil it down, scotty’s life really started looking up around this time. 

the st.james’ officially adopted him when he was eleven, legally changing his last name to seal the deal. tbh this is the best day of scott’s life, he definitely will cry if he has to talk about it. 

having fallen in love with playing guitar and writing songs, scotty came up with the idea to start a band a group of his friends. they’d do a few gigs here and there but ultimately finally started making real career moves when they connected with a record label. 

they’d move to los angeles once things started to kick off and the rest was history ! 

personality: 

as aforementioned, scott’s still a little distant to most when first meeting them. mainly because he still fears getting close to someone and them leaving him once they really get to know him. so that’s another thing -- it’s kinda hard to read him? he’s not a fake person or anything, he just has a tendency to keep people at an arms length at all times. it’s not a secret but most people don’t know he’s adopted cause he hates talking about everything before he met the st. james family! 

kinda goes with that, but he’s the type to have alot of “friends” but really he’d consider most of them just random people he knows. it takes alot to earn titles like friends with this guy... sjafsd

tendency to write himself off as “not good enough” for just about every crush he’s ever had in his life.  generally just really struggles with his  self esteem .

i’d describe him as that small boy that was really scared when he was put into foster care in a much more harden shell. sarcasm and not taking anything really seriously, it’s all defense mechanism!  he still struggles with those same childhood anxieties sometimes.  

loves music, particularly 90s / early 2000s  pop-punk , rock, and alternative. 

will write a song about you and deny it because admitting he has enough emotions to?? write a love song about someone?? nahhhhhhh they could hurt him if they knew that.

we love 1 edgy e-boy. 

hmu for any connections cause pls but ideas r

best friends, party friends, exes ( alot of em. i forsee most are him never saying ily, or being like “we’re just.. fwb” real mean stuff fjads), crushes (unrequited?), neighbors, fellow musicians, ex-pr relationships, anything yo