#and idk it seems dumb but your 'dark humor coping' jokes can say a lot

[luckyfaeth]

earlier, i was walking back from class around 8:30 at night. it was raining and cold and i didn’t have my rain jacket, boots, umbrella or anything and i was listening to lorde and all of a sudden, i just got hit with such a pure feeling of genuine happiness. like, undeniable happiness. not just like, content in the moment or excited temporarily. 

i felt purely happy. and i danced home in the rain. 

there were many points fairly recently were i truly believed that i would never really be a person who could be truly happy. i knew that i could get excited over things sometimes or be content for a while; but i never thought i would be in a state where someone could ask me how i was and i could answer “happy”. 

to all of my friends who also struggle with depression like i have and most definitely still will: you can get to this point. there’s no rush to it, i know it’s hard. but you can get there. i never thought i would. but i did. you deserve to be happy.