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[archipelagolago]

Hi!

I would love to hear more about Make me feel (tell me how to stop feeling)

And Drop Everything

If you're happy to share please 💛🍒

Thanks for asking!

Make me feel (tell me how to stop feeling) is one of my favorites! And one of the few longer fics I'm working on. It's actually the title of chapter 2 in Because the rumble of this earth feels like a melody of off-key you & me. Which is about Billy showing up in Cali ~6 months after Starcourt during an earthquake and having no memory of the past until Steve, Max, Robin, and El find out he's alive from a news story on tv and fly out to Cali to go get him.

Billy gets his memories back pretty damn soon after they get to him. Which is not fun for him and triggers a freakout paired with an earthquake bc he came back with the power to make concentrated but intense earthquakes.

And the rest of the fic is basically about Billy trying to ease his way back to reality & him and Steve slowly & cautiously building a relationship on unsteady footing. Also repairing his relationship with Max & figuring out how to manage his powers. + Use of powers for chaotic neutral purposes (bc i resent the 'character either uses powers to save the world or end it' plotline and i kinda just wanna write Billy using his powers to freak people out in a gas station so he can swipe some snacks while they're distracted by an earthquake or billy starting earthquakes so he doesn't have to deal with uncomfortable conversations, like, 'oh you want me to talk about my emotions? Oh shit there's an earthquake, guess we'll have to have this conversation another time').

(Also bc the title is for chp 2: chp 2 is about Steve & Max & co. arriving at the hospital to go get billy and the emotions and memory recovery associated with that)

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Drop Everything is a vent fic from when I first started writing for Harringrove (i usually use vent as a way to get into a ship and get a feel for the characters so a lot of my first stuff is usually vent) and i probably won't finish it & doubt I'll post it anywhere if I do.

It's about Steve feeling ambivalent about an eating disorder relapse and Billy finding out about Steve's history with this eating disorder and trying to support Steve in ways that are realistic. So, i do kinda like this one bc it speaks some truths and as someone who has experienced much fluctuation with the severity of my ed over the years I resent the way they are usually written.

So who knows? I might finish and post it somewhere just bc it's kinda different than most people write it? (Kind of spitefully bc often people write eds as very surface level and focus primarily on the way it functions when someone is in it the deepest. And as fine as that is, I'd prefer to see more representation and interpretation of it that falls all across the board and dives into the complexity and continuation of it once it exists in waters that aren't drowning you as much. + exploring the reality that some things stay lasting long after we call them 'over' and thinking about what that can mean.)

And ofc eds are unhealthy, life-threatening, unsustainable, harmful to both you and the people you love, but ultimately, they're a coping mechanism. So you can't really undo an eating disorder without repairing some of the pain & trauma that brought it into existence. And people prefer to skip that in fic bc it's long and complicated and uncomfortable. But it's the truth so? (Like people will do the 'i love you so you have to get better' or 'you're beautiful, you don't need to do this' and bam! the character recovers! but that's unrealistic and kinda deceptive, truth is, it takes a lot of support and a lot of personal work to get through that shit. And even then, things will still be unsteady at times)