#and id like to finish it bit noooooOOOOOOoo

[ohlawsons]

me last week: “man i’d love to write a quick little one shot fix it fic for here lies the abyss”

me now: nearly thirty chapters into a detailed outline of a fic covering olivias entire story. we aren’t even at the landsmeet. she and alistair just kissed. ideally this fic will go post-dai.

[mkgtweety]

I’VE BEEN WORKING ON THIS POST ALL DAY YESTERDAY AND ON THE 27th OF APR. BUT THEN I GOT 2 TIRED 2 FINISH AND I WENT 2 BED!!!! SO HERE IT IS IN ALL IT’S GLORY: HEY DIGITAL PEEPS OUT IN THE WEB WORLD IT'S UR FAV. DIGITAL  PEEP: mkgtweety!!!! 2DAY IS A SPECIAL DAY 4 ME CUZ 2DAY IS THE 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY {it's the 27th of apr. the day after my dad's b-day which is the 26th of apr.!!!!} OF WHEN MY ALL BLACK KITTY: midnite {we also called her: "middy" or "middly" as nick names 4 her!!!!} PASSED AWAY!!!! I MISS HER VERY MUCH!!!! A FEW WEEKS B4 HER PASSING SHE STARTED NOT EATING OR DRINKING AS MUCH, WAZ HIDING AWAY FROM US {my 'rents and me!!!} 4 LONG PERIODS OF TIME, AND WAZ HAVING HER TOUNGE HANG OUT WHEN SHE WAZ BREATHING!!!! {the breathing waz more of "panting" or "heavy" kind!!!!} SO WE TOOK HER 2 MY DAD'S 1 COUSIN {who's mother waz my grandpa's baby sister and my great aunt and my dad's aunt!!!!} WHO IS A VETERINARIAN WHO WANTED US 2 C HIM AT HIS VET OFFICE!!!! SO ON THURS. APR. 27, 2017 MY 'RENTS TOOK HER 2 THE VET'S OFFICE!!!! NOW WHEN I 1st PLACED MY midnite IN HER CAT CARRIER {a carrier we bought 2 take my kitties 2 the vet's office and whatnot!!!!} I TOLD B A GOOD LITTLE PATIENT 4 THE DOC AND DON'T BITE BEHAVE!!!! {i thought they would fix her up and she would come home all better 4 me!!!! so that's y i never said "goodbye" 2 her 4 that reason!!!! keep reading 2 find out what happens!!!!} AND MY COUSIN AND HIS COLLEAGUE WENT 2 X-RAY midnite AND WHEN THEY GOT THE RESULTS IT WAZ BAD LIKE: "BIG TIME"!!!! IT SHOWED THAT SHE HAD FLUID IN HER LUNGS OR IT COULD HAVE BEEN LUNG CANCER!!!! AND THAT SHE ONLY MAYBE HAD 1 WEEK LEFT 2 LIVE!!!! IT WAZ GOOD THAT WE HAD BROUGHT HER IN 2 BEEN SEEN BY THE DOCS!!!! AT THIS POINT WHILE MY midnite WAZ AT THE VET'S OFFICE IN THE MORNING MY 'RENTS WERE AT WORK AND I WAZ AT HOME ON MY PC WHILE WATCHING TV!!!! AND THEN MY PHONE RINGS I LOOK AT THE CLOCK AND IT'S 9:05 A.M. AND I'M LIKE WHO'S CALLING THIS EARLY IN THE MORNING??? SO I LOOK AT THE CALLER ID ON MY TV {we have caller id from comcast!!!! so when a call comes through u can c who is calling on ur tv screen!!!! it's a nice feature 2 have!!!!} AND IT'S FROM MY MOM'S CELL PHONE AND I GO AND PICK UP THE PHONE!!!! I GO IN2 THE PHONE: "HI MOMMY!!!! {and yes digital peeps i call my mom "mommy" #DON'TJUDGEME!!!!} HOW'S MIDDY???? I HOPE SHE'S OK!!!!" THAT'S WHEN MY MOM STARTS TELLING WHAT THE X-RAYS SHOWED!!!! AND THEN SHE GOES: "I'M SORRY 2 HAVE 2 TELL U THIS BUT MIDDY PASSED AWAY!!!! UR DAD AND I DECIDED 2 PUT midnite 2 SLEEP CUZ SHE'S 2 SICK 2 FIX AND WHATNOT!!!!" AT THIS POINT WHEN MY MOM HAD TOLD ME THAT midnite HAD PASSED AWAY I START 2 CRY LIKE HYSTERICAL CRY WHILE TRYING 2 SAY: "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO"!!!! THEN MY MOM GOES: "I'M SORRY SWEETHEART SHE WAZ 2 SICK 2 SAVE LIKE I SAID!!!! BUT NOW SHE'S IN A BETTER PLACE NOW!!!! THIS WAZ THE BEST THING WE DID 4 HER!!!!" I'LL B HOME A LITTLE BIT SO WE CAN TALK SUM MORE!!!! I HAVE 2 GO BACK 2 WORK!!!! BYE HONEY!!!!" I SAID: "BYE MOMMY!!!!" WE HUNG UP THE PHONE!!!! AFTER I DID THAT I JUST GO HYSTERICALLY CRYING SAYING: "I NEVER GOT 2 SAY GOODBYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEE!!!! I THOUGHT  SHE WAZ COMMING BACK HOOOOOOOMEEEEEE!!!!" 4 LIKE 2 hrs. I WAZ HYSTERICALLY CRYING OVER MY KITTY PASSING AWAY!!!! MY midnite WAZ 16 1/2 YEARS OLD WHEN SHE PASSED AWAY!!!! SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN 17 YEARS ON JULY 4, 2017!!!! AT 11:00 a.m. I HEAR A KNOCK AT MY FRONT DOOR AND I LOOK 2 C WHO IT WAZ: MY MOMMY!!!! I LET HER IN AND WHEN I DO SHE GIVES ME A GREAT BIG HUG AND TELLS ME: "I'M SORRY HONEY!!!! BUT WE TOLD THE DOCS JUST 2 PUT HER SLEEP!!!! WOULD U WANT HER 2 SUFFER????" AND I SAID: "NO!!!!" AND THEN MY MOM GOES: "I TOLD THE SHOP {my mom is hairdresser/nail tech/skin care specialist at the shop!!!! and she's been a hairdresser since: "75" and is 1 2 this day!!!!} I HAD 2 GO HOME 4 A FEW hrs. AND COMFORT MY KID WHO JUST LOST HER KITTY!!!! I'LL COME BACK 2 THE SHOP IN A LITTLE BIT" U KNOW DIGITAL PEEPS THE COMFORT OF UR MOMMY'S ARMS IN THE FORM OF A HUG IS THE BEST!!!! AFTER THE HUG WE GO 2 LIVING ROOM AND WATCH TV WHILE I CALM DOWN OF MY  CRYING FIT!!!! AFTER I WAZ CALM I GO BACK 2 MY PC!!!! AND THEN I START 2 C MY MOM TAKE HER PHONE OUT AND START 2 CALL MY AUNTS AND UNCLES {my mom's bro's and sis's!!!!} 2 TELL THEM THE NEWS THAT MY MIDDY PASSED AWAY AND WHATNOT!!!! AFTER SUM TIME OF MY MOM STAYING W/ ME 2 COMFORT ME SHE WENT BACK 2 WORK!!!! WHEN SHE WORKING OUT THE DOOR SHE TURNED 2 ME AND SAYS: "DADDY {and yes digital peeps i call my dad "daddy" #DON'TJUDGEME!!!!} WHEN HE COMES HOME FROM WORK IS GOING 2 THE VET'S OFFICE AND PICKING UP MIDDY SO WE CAN BURRY HER NEXT 2 ELLIE MAY {ellie may waz my older black and white kitty!!!! she passed away a month b4 her 18th b-day in jan. 2011 of cancer sores of the neck and chest!!!!} AND THEN WE WILL HAVE CHINESE FOOD 4 DINNER!!!! MY MOM THEN KISSED ME GOODBYE AND THEN LEFT 2 GO BACK 2 WORK!!!! AFTER SHE WENT 2 WORK THE PHONE RANG AGAIN!!!! IT WAZ MY DAD CALLING ME 2 COMFORT ME AND TOLD AGAIN WHAT WAZ GOING ON!!!! DURING  THE DAY I WAZ CRYING ON AND OFF!!!! WHEN MY DAD CAME HOME FROM WORK HE ALSO GAVE ME A HUG AND TOLD IT'S OK!!!! AND THEN HE LEFT 2 GET midnite AND WHATNOT!!!! WHEN MY DAD WAZ AT THE VET'S OFFICE I WENT ONLINE AND ORDERED AT PERSONALCREATIONS.COM HER HEADSTONE LIKE I DID 4 MY KITTY ELLIE MAY!!!! {as u can c from the pic above!!!!} I THEN CALLED MY MOM'S CELL PHONE AND TOLD HER THAT I ORDERED MIDDY'S HEADSTONE!!!! THEN I HUNG UP THE PHONE AND THAT'S WHEN MY DAD CAME HOME FROM THE VET'S OFFICE PLACED MIDDY {in her kitty carrier in a white bag} ON THE PORCH THEN WENT 2 OUR GARAGE 2 GET DIGGING STUFF SO WE CAN BURRY HER NEXT 2 HER SISTER MY KITTY ELLIE MAY!!!! WHILE HE WAZ DOING THAT I WENT 2 THE KITTY CARRIER AND STARTED HYSTERICALLY CRYING AGAIN WHILE HUGGING THE KITTY CARRIER!!!! THROUGH MY TEARS I TOLD HER I WAZ SORRY😭 4 NOT SAYING GOODBYE 2 HER EARLIER AND PLEASE 4GIVE ME 4 THAT AND WHAT KITTY HEAVEN WAZ LIKE AND HOW IF U C UR SISTER ELLIE MAY GIVE HER A SUM LOVE❤️ AND LIPPY💋 {hugs and kisses!!!!}!!!! THEN I SAID WHILE CRYING: "GOODBYYYYYYYYEEEEEE midnite I MISS U ALREADY!!!! B NICE UP THERE AND TEACH ALL THE YOUNGER KITTIES ALL THAT U KNOW CUZ UR OLD BROAD AND WHATNOT JUST LIKE ELLIE MAY!!!! GOODBYYYYYYYYEEEEEE midnite, GOODBYYYYYYYYEEEEEE!!!!" AND THEN KISSED HER KITTY CARRIER!!!! AFTER THAT WE BURIED HER RITE NEXT HER SISTER ELLIE MAY!!!! {as u can c from the pic above!!!!} THEN ME AND MY DAD PUT THE DIGGING STUFF AWAY AND WENT BACK IN2 THE HOUSE!!!! LATER THAT NITE MY MOM CAME HOME FROM WORK AND WE ORDERED CHINESE FOOD 4 DINNER AS OUR "WAKE"!!!! THEN DURING DINNER, MY MOM SAID: "HEY DIDN'T WE HAVE CHINESE FOOD 4 DINNER WHEN ELLIE DIED????" {most times we called ellie may just: ellie!!!!} AND I TURNED 2 HER AND GO, "UR RITE MOMMY WE DID!!!! IT WAZ LIKE OUR "WAKE" LIKE WE R HAVING NOW!!!!" A FEW DAYS LATER {and this is y i'm writing this post cuz of the paw prints pic u c at the top and the pic below on the 1-year anniversary of midnite's death!!!!} ON SUN. APR. 30, 2017 WHEN I WOKE UP I DECIDED 2 C WHAT THE WEATHER WAZ LIKE OUTSIDE!!!! SO I WENT OUTSIDE {in my pj's!!!!} AND STARTED 2 WALK 'ROUND WHEN I NOTICED THIS MUDDY SPOT IN MY YARD RITE NEXT 2 MY HOUSE OUT OF THE CORNER OF MY EYE!!!! SO WHILE STILL ON MY PORCH I GO 2 MY GRILL AND THEN MOVE 2 THE LEFT OF IT AND LOOK THROUGH  THE BARS OF MY PORCH RAILING AND I SAY: "WTF!!!!????" SO THEN I GET OFF MY PORCH AND RUN 2 THE MUDDY PATCH THAT I WAZ LOOKING AT AND NOTICED 2 I SAID: "2" SETS OF PAW PRINTS AS U CAN C FROM THE TOP PIC ABOVE!!!! AS U CAN C THE PAW AT THE TOP WAZ MORE DEFINED THEN THE 1 AT THE BOTTOM!!!! AND AS I WAZ LOOKING AT THEM I GO: "OMG!!!! IT'S-A SIGN FROM MIDDY!!!!" SO AT THAT POINT I RACED IN2 MY HOUSE AND GRABBED MY CAMERA 2 TAKE A PIC AS U CAN C FROM THE TOP PIC ABOVE!!!! AFTER I TOOK THE PIC I RACED BACK IN2 MY HOUSE AND UP THE STAIRS AND WENT 2 MY 'RENTS ROOM WHERE MY MOM AND DAD WERE STILL SLEEPING AND I GO: "MOMMY, MOMMY, MOMMY LOOK, LOOK MIDDY MADE A SIGN!!!!, MIDDY MADE A SIGN!!!!" MY MOM WHO IS HALF ASLEEP GOES: "HUH???? WHAT!!!!???? WHAT'S GOING  ON!!!!???? AND WHAT TIME IS IT!!!!????" I THEN SHOW MY MOM THE PIC I TOOK AND TOLD HER THE  TIME WHICH WAZ 9:30 a.m. AND HOW I FOUND THEM!!!! NOW I'M SUM1 WHO LOOOOOOOVES THE LONG ISLAND MEDIUM TV SHOW AND WHATNOT AND BELIEVE IN HEAVEN AND THE "OTHER SIDE" AND WHATNOT!!!! AND HOW PPL SAY THE C LIKE BUTTERFLIES ALL THE TIME AND PPL SAY IT HAS 2 B "MOM" OR "GRANDMA" SAYING "HI" FROM THE OTHER SIDE AND WHATNOT!!!! MY MOM AT THIS POINT GOES, "WOW!!!!" AND THEN I GO, "MOMMY, THERE R 2 PAW PRINTS!!!! I THINK 1 IS FROM midnite AND THE OTHER 1 IS FROM ELLIE MAY!!!! KINDA LIKE HER SAYING: "I'M SAFE IN KITTY HEAVEN NOW W/ MY SISTER ELLIE MAY AND HERE'S THE PROOF OF THAT WE R SAFE AND 2GETHER UP THERE!!!!" NOW AT THIS POINT, I NEED PAUSE THE STORY 4 A HOT SECOND AND SAY WE DIDN'T HAVE NE AND I MEAN: "NE" STRAY CATS 'ROUND MY YARD OR NETHING LIKE THAT AT ALL AND I HAVE WALKED BY THE MUDDY PATCH WHERE I FOUND THE PAW PRINTS AT LIKE ALL THE TIME SO I WOULD HAVE SEEN PAW PRINTS FROM A STRAY CAT{s} IF WE HAD 1!!!! BUT THESE PRINTS LOOK LIKE THEY WERE FRESHLY MADE SUM HOW!!!! IT'S LIKE A MIRACLE THEY WERE THERE!!!! OK, BACK 2 THE STORY: SO THEN MY DAD IS MUMBLING, "WHAT {says my mom's name!!!!} WHAT'S GOING ON????" SO THEN MY MOM TELLS MY DAD WHAT WAZ GOING ON!!!! AND THEN MY DAD IS LIKE WHILE HALF ASLEEP, "OK WHATEVER!!!!" MY MOM THEN GOES TURNS BACK 2 ME AND SAYS, "OK HONEY WE R GOING BACK 2 BED!!!! AND U CAN GO BACK 2 WHAT U R DOING!!!!" SHE THEN TELLS ME B4 I LEAVE THE ROOM THAT SHE AND MY DAD WILL LOOK AT THE PIC WHEN THEY R AWAKE AND WHATNOT!!!! I THEN GIVE MY MOMMY SUM LOVE❤️ AND LIPPY💋 AND AWAY I GO!!!! I THEN GO BACK 2 MY PC AND KEPT LOOKING AT THE PIC AND I START 2 CRY JUST A LITTLE CUZ IT MAKES ME HAPPY THAT MY KITTY midnite IS SAFE IN HEAVEN W/ HER SISTER ELLIE MAY!!!! AFTER I WIPE AWAY MY TEARS I SAY 2 MYSELF, "MIDDY WOULD WANT U 2 B HAPPY AND NOT MISERABLE!!!! SHE WOULDN'T WANT ME 2 SAD OVER HER DEATH AND WHATNOT!!!! SHE WOULD WANT ME 2 B HAPPY THAT SHE IS IN A BETTER PLACE!!!!" SO AFTER A FEW MONTHS OF HAVING A BROKEN HEART OF LOSING MY KITTY MIDDY I WAZ STARTING 2 FEEL MUCH BETTER AND NOW AFTER A YEAR OF HER BEING GONE I'M READY 4 A NEW KITTY OR 2 NEW KITTIES!!!! WHEN I DO A NEW KITTY OR KITTIES I'LL TELL U ALL 'BOUT IT!!!! NOW ON2 THE 2nd PIC BELOW THE 1st PIC: {this happened 1 year later after midnite's passing!!!!} THE OTHER DAY MY WAZ MOWING THE GRASS WHEN HE MOWING NEAR WHERE MY KITTIES R BURIED AT IN MY YARD AND NOTICED SUMTHING YELLOW STICKING UP FROM THE GROUND!!!! SO HE STOPPED HIS MOWER AND GOT OFF IT 2 C WHAT IT WAZ!!!! IT WAZ A YELLOW DAFFODIL RITE SMACK IN THE MIDDLE OF WHERE MY KITTIES WERE BURIED!!!! NOW U HAVE 2 UNDERSTAND THAT WHERE THIS DAFFODIL WAZ THERE WAZ "NEVER" 1 THERE B4!!!! MY DAD EVEN SAID HE'D NEVER SEEN THERE B4 UNTIL NOW!!!! AT THIS POINT MY DAD COMES IN2 THE HOUSE AND TELLS MY MOM WHAT HAPPENED AND THEN GOES BACK OUTSIDE 2 FINISH THE MOWING!!!! MY MOM HAD CALLED ME 2 COME 2 HER AND TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED!!!! I GOT SO EXCITED THAT I RAN OUTSIDE 2 GO AND C IT 4 MYSELF!!!! WHEN I SAW IT I ALMOST CRIED!!!! {but i didn't!!!!} I WHISPERED, "THANX MIDDY, THANX ELLIE MAY!!!! THAT WAZ NICE OF U 2 DO THAT!!!! I LOVE U STILL VERY MUCH!!!! AND I MISS U ALOT AS WELL!!!! U 2 STILL B NICE AND BEHAVE AND WHATNOT!!!! BYE, BYE KISS, KISS!!!!" AND W/ THAT I WALKED AWAY!!!! WHEN I GOT BACK IN THE HOUSE I SAID I HAVE 2 TAKE A PIC 4 THE BLOG AND WHATNOT!!!! SO I DID!!!! AND NOW THE PIC IS ON THIS 4 ALL U DIGITAL PEEPS 2 C AND WHATNOT!!!! WELL, THAT'S STORY OF MY KITTY midnite PASSING AWAY AND WHATNOT ON THIS 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF HER DEATH!!!! AS U CAN C MIRACLES CAN HAPPENED WHEN U BELIEVE!!!! C U DIGITAL PEEPS LATER IN THE NEXT POST!!!!

HERE'S A LINK 2 THE LAST SELFIE I EVER GOT W/ MY KITTY midnite:

http://mkgtweety.tumblr.com/post/120756256850/i-thought-i-would-post-a-cute-new-selfie-w-my

AND HERE'S A LINK 2 A POST THAT I MADE ALL 'BOUT HOW 2 DEAL W/ THE DEATH OF A PET 2 CHILDREN:

http://mkgtweety.tumblr.com/post/16856405872/a-story-about-my-cats-ellie-may-feb-14-93

P.S. PPL WHO I HAVE SHOWN THE PAW PRINTS 2 {like my friends and fam and whatnot!!!!} ALL GO: "OMG!!!! LOOK AT HOW DEFINED THEY R AND WHATNOT!!!!" AND I GO: "I KNOW!!!!" THEY R ALL STUNNED WHEN THEY C THE PAW PRINTS!!!! SO NOW I KNOW THAT THEY R A MIRACLE AND WHATNOT FROM HEAVEN!!!!