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today i love the red metal crane in her long neck arching her body over the boston skyline, which means i am okay for a moment. when i am unwell, everything is a little ugly. i always tell myself look for the beauty but when it is bad, i will look at birds and sunsets and little ducklings and feel absolutely nothing.
when my brother got his puppy, i was in a deep depression. what kind of monster isn't affected by a puppy. i was gentle and kind to her - i just didn't have an emotional reaction. she's five now and i feel like i spend all of our interactions apologizing to her - i don't know why. i just didn't feel anything. how embarrassing. i feel like if i admit that, i'll seem cruel and jaded. it comes in waves. like, two months ago when i went out into the world - it was like that. life behind a pane of stormglass. a firework could go off over your head - nothing. like dead skin, no reaction. not to ice cream or rainbows or baby chickens. life foggy and uninteresting.
i love goslings again. i love their little webbed feet splayed over grass. i love good food and live music and long walks. i like puppies. i feel like some kind of my soul has been starved - i keep staring at everything with wide eyes, trying to burrow the sensation into my stomach. it's real. beauty is real. when it's bad again, remember this. i stop and smell the flowers, feeling cliche in the moment. i like the white-to-red ombre of my neighbor's roses. i like colorcoding and yoga and cold drinks. i try to pass my hands over every moment, feeling like i'm squeezing joy out of every instant. remember this. for the love of god, it's real - just remember this.
#and yet i NEVER DO REMEMBER IT#spilled ink#writeblr#i feel like due to tiktok ppl think >#deeply depressed & not having an emotional reaction to things MUST mean#you are cruel or uncaring#like girlie that is STILL a lack of mental illness awareness. it doesn't make us mean#it just means im like. ohhhh im not well. i don't really react to puppies. that's bad#Im still gonna be super nice to the puppy. like it just doesn't bring me joy.#bc the problem i have is CLINICAL. the dopamine ISNT being made.#but PLENTY of us are still kind#considerate.#GENTLE people. even if we're like '..........' all the time.#i actually think this is why i'm harsh on people who are so mean - you don't need to be emotionally attached to someone/thing#in order to be kind.... you just choose to be kind bc it's the right thing to do#not bc it's easy....... like it's extra effort sure. but it's worth it. bc ppl deserve kindness.#it's hard to describe this bc it's the ugly side of depression. the part that's like#not in netflix - the part where it's like ''i love this person. i just don't feel anything''
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"Realistically an 8/9/10/whatever year old couldn't do that" yeah alright that's true but we're talking about Dick Grayson who is unrealistically hypercompetent full stop because he's a superhero comics character. Bruce Wayne is also extremely unrealistically hypercompetent at basically everything except his own close personal relationships. Superhero comics are unrealistic.
#this isn't directed at anyone in specific and isn't meant to be aggressive btw#i just don't get the fixation on realism in a form of media that's defined by being fantastical#or why letting a child have that kind of fantasy power stretches believability more than an aduit having the equivalent#i'm not super attached to the idea of dick being robin that early or anything i just don't get the mindset#dick grayson#batman
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I'm not sure if it's intentional, are you aware images posted on your blog are full screen width? it takes a while to scroll them and you have to click on them in order to be able to see the full artwork (I have a really big monitor). Not that I don't like seeing your art up close though!
oh yeahhh tumblr made some changes a while ago which totally broke my desktop blog theme in several ways. It's not on purpose! I need to find a new one but I love this ancient theme sooo much. If anyone out there knows a lookalike/similar theme or knows how I might fix it I would love you for all time
#jentalk#prob just need to suck it up and choose another tbh!#i'm super attached to that layout buuut#asks and images are egregiously messed up on it now
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Atlas
(And a close-up cause I like da fish)
#If you wanted an adopt that looks like this UR IN LUCK the ears and clawed hip fins will be a perma-feature#I ended up getting too attached to the color palette oop#also yeah I'm super predictable and he's probably a prince no surprise there#I think I'll give him a leggies form#digital art#artists on tumblr#mermaid#merman#fish#my ocs#atlas#merfolk
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MARIO IF HE WAS COOLER
#super mario bros#my art#mario mario#MARIO WITH A HOODIE MY BELOVED#To all the artists that draw him like that you're geniuses btw#I'd do it too but I'm attached to the shirt with the round collar :cc pipipi#FORGOT HIS UNTIED BOOT 🧍#drawing ruined
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At some point, Post-Crisis comics Alfred isn't a person with independent will. He's the butler. His butler suit is pretty much his skin. He's like a Pokémon, and his Pokémon species is Butler. He goes back into the Poké Ball when Bruce tells him to. He likes it that way. He is not an adult person, and he can't be held to the standards of one. It's not in his function to contradict. Julia was erased, because this Alfred doesn't fuck. (Alfred wasn't always like this; I want to blame Chuck Dixon, but it's probably just a reflex instead of something I mean to argue. 🤔)
Jason never bothers to orchestrate any kind of Red Hood torture-gauntlet for Alfred, not even a cute mini-course scaled down for an old man. The only acknowledgment that Jason gives Alfred is to mail him that first-edition book. I interpret this as the equivalent of a young adult returning to his childhood home and gifting an apple to the family pony. It's a cute little gesture. 🤷♀️ Alfred is one of Jason's father's many marvelous possessions, one that Jason fondly remembers for producing delicious pot roast dinners and chocolate cake.
Okay, being a slightly less facetious jackass for a minute—I don't really subscribe to the idea that Jason would feel so betrayed by Alfred siding with Bruce against him. I'm pretty neutral on that. I lean toward the idea that Jason never knew an Alfred that wouldn't side with Bruce, and so Jason has never expected anything different from him.
Would Jason feel upset that the Wayne Estate will never be home to him again? Maybe. He could. Would he feel betrayed by the trees and the grass and the marble and the polished brass doorknobs for belonging to the Wayne family? Well. 🤷♀️
#Yeah tbh a trained electrically charged rodent that only says ''Pika'' has more will and independence.#Look. I'm just saying things. I'm not super attached to this.#jason todd#alfred pennyworth agnostic#What little class consciousness Jason may or may not have—it doesn't extend to Alfred as Bruce's servant.#I'm too amused by the idea that Jason has overwhelmingly bought into the way Bruce understands the world#even when he really reasonably shouldn't.#''But Leslie was into Alfred.'' Leslie has terrible taste. It's her one and only flaw.#The last question isn't rhetorical. Maybe he could feel betrayed by grass. Feelings.#rich people bs#class traitor jason todd#(not re:alfred just vaguely in general)#alfred pennyworth
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shirahama-sensei reminded me she has a thing for the teacher from pokemon s/v so i randomly went off on an au where qifrey is the professor. etc
#witch hat tag#orufrey#the first image is qifrey dressed as that guy. i'm glad she has an inexplicable attachment to some dorky pokemon man like i do#someone was like 'wouldn't it make more sense for deanreldea to be the champion' .... well no. not in my world .#it maps onto magic skill. champions aren't like the Rulers of the land they're just the most skilled at this thing#oru as a burnt out champion who's gently encouraging a kid like coco to reach him one day means a lot to me. i like pokemon narratives#agott went shiny hunting for the same thing coco had but cooler - just to impress her. she really is a pokemon rival type girl#pushing myself to the limit to prove my worth to you - to get to the summit first so i'm waiting for you..#and then realising it wasn't just to be strong - i realised i started wanting to see your smile. i wanted you to have fun.#i think coco would defeat agott at the end of victory road and then defeat oru & i'll probably draw one last thing abt that at least..#the image is very cinematic..the dialogue and music in my mind..I WANT TO FACE ORU!!!!!!!!!!#the super cool insanely powerful awesome champion is the spouse of my professor and he gave me advice at the beginning...no way....#btw the elite four would be the sages which is perfect (and maybe easthies as the first guy?) evil Team Brimhats#coustas as their renegade gladion-type figure. the gym leaders would be like sun/moon and s/v combined#travelling around facing the best students from different classes - so jujy and eunie etc.#i've barely thought about 'teams' or anything bc i care amore about the narrative side of things always lol#but idk. tetia with a swirlix - eunie would be ghost type boy - riche with small things but also a ceruledge or a steelix something massiv#and brushbug would have a final form which is really long like an eastern dragon- fluffy and with wings like a fairy. It's beautiful to me#well anyway *tries to move on to the rest of life now the brief obsession has passed*#obviously oru would be fire-type tho and qifrey would be water-type and they set off together and traded their starters etc.....it goes on
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Little analysis but this episode, in my eyes, was about learning about letting yourself be loved. Pomni starts the epsiode by complaing about the "bonding activity" she was having with everyone, being dragged to a adventure right after.
A lot happens, and then she's stuck with the guy everyone calls 'crazy' and can't keep a normal conversation, so she doesn't listen to him much, she thinks he won't be much help and tries escaping all by herself, that of course, backfires and now they're in hell.
She has another crisis, but then she finally stops to listen, she lets Kinger speak and his words leave a mark on her, because he isn't crazy, on the contrary, he's trying not to go crazy by clinging onto happy memories, as unconventional as they are. He cares about her and offers a friendly hand, she's nervous, but takes it anyway, because she's accepting help, she's trusting on someone besides herself, not a NPC, but someone human.
And of course, she finishes by thanking Ragatha for always being kind to her, because Kinger is right, you never know when they'll go crazy, so better enjoy every moment. She isn't quite there yet, but she's getting closer to open up to these people, letting them love her and allowing herself to befriend them, even if their time together is short, it's still precious and she shouldn't lose it.
Sorry for the big rant I like this cartoon so much, as usual, have a pic of Pomni smiling.
#tadc#the amazing digital circus#tadc pomni#pomni#episode analysis#tadc spoilers#tadc episode 3#kinger tadc#tadc ragatha#i'm super normal about this episode#me when i get attached to fictional characters#sunny rambles#pomni the amazing digital circus#pomni tadc
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"You really care about me."
"Yeah. I really, really care about you."
"I- I really care about you too."
"No, but... I like, really, really care about you."
#mr. & mrs. smith#mr. & mrs. smith prime#maya erskine#donald glover#john x jane#alana x michael#john smith#jane smith#i... need these two in a romcom i think#i like them both individually and i was gonna get around to it but it really was the interviews they did together that sold me on the show#they've got great chemistry#i enjoyed it for what it is#mr. & mrs. smith spoilers#i just need them in a romcom so they play people who aren't as fucked up because they were both frustrating at times#their last scene made me cry tbh so i guess i'm a sucker#i want them to get a 2nd season just because i like maya and donald but also... fuck amazon#michael#cw: food?#him making sure she's hydrated even though they're going through a rough patch was ao sweet of him#also i can't with her kissing him on the cheek in the last scene#i say i liked this show enough and that i'm not super attached to it... so why am i still thinking about them???#i really wanted to hear her say his real name but i get it#i find it oddly sweet that the first thing john asked her(not said ASKED) was if she really loved him and she said that she did#alana
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Okay... some quick Ep 8 thoughts:
The horror was ramped up and I love it
Liam really thought "I want the final fight to have nightcore playing during it" and made it happen. I love it.
I love Uzi more than ever.
The ending is very up to interpretation and I like it a lot more than I thought I would like an open ending. I still really want to know whats up with all of that though.
I always thought of Nuzi and Vizzy as the canon endgame pairings but I am now fully converted to Nuvi and it's messing big time with my future AU and I hate it. (And love it)
#murder drones spoilers#murder drones#I have some vizzy fankids you haven’t seen yet that I'm super attached to and it feels like i'm betraying them lol
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Hm, perhaps let's not include amputation under the label body horror y'all. Let's not call people's very normal bodies horrific, let's not do that. Amputees exist beyond fiction, so maybe lets not make this space hostile to them yeah?
There's plenty of actual body horror to dive into and explore without veering headlong into painfully obvious ableism.
#Saw a very cringe take from a very big event blog#ableism#meta#like lets use our brains for just a second#lets think about what body horror stands for and what the themes are and why that's super fucking shitty to attach to actual bodies#like I'm sorry but making your whumpee an amputee for the shock and horror is n o t a good look unless you super know what you're doing#and are ready to either be sensitive about it or look like a jackass
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So, how about the Thousand Year Door remaster going by the game's Japanese translation, thereby confirming Vivian is canonically a trans woman?
This was such an exciting revelation to me personally that I decided to draw fanart of Vivian repping her trans pride... alongside a certain Koopa I haven't drawn in a little while! 💙🏳️��⚧️💜
#⭐ Star's Art ⭐#Micah Koopa#Vivian Paper Mario#Vivian TTYD#Paper Mario#Paper Mario TTYD#The Thousand Year Door#Super Mario#Koopsona#Medibang Paint Pro#Coolness#Honestly? I never thought I'd live to see the day Nintendo include a transfeminine character in one of their games#Like yeah I understand that's how it's always been in the Japanese version but like#They could have just as easily copy-pasted the entire script of the English localization and called it a day#So the fact that they reverted the erasure of Vivian's trans identity for the remaster is... admirable actually#I own the original TTYD and have it... someplace. I never got very far so I don't necessarily have an attachment to Vivian#Though I can 100% see that changing with the remaster's ease of access— you just KNOW I had to draw something to celebrate!#Sometime soon I'd like to do a modern two-frame idle for Micah Koopa alongside Mario himself#Seeing as I have a sprite animation of her drawn in the style of Paper Mario on the N64#I'm basically just looking for excuses to draw her at this point.#Did you know that she has a butch Hammer Bro girlfriend? Once I finalize her design you may get to see her too... 👀
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Helena: *threateningly bares fangs* I promise, I'm usually really nice! *almost sucks you dry* Apologies! *dumps your nearly lifeless body in the ditch* Have a great day!
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Shout out to @birdietrait, @gunthermunch, and @dreamlandiasims for doing some really cool flashlight scenes recently that inspired me! And extra special thanks to @xldkx for helping me give Helena dainty little fangs since she's not quite ready for a fully sharpened mouth.
Helena, thinking: You have to do this. It's the only way you'll feel better. Just get it over with. Thirty seconds, a minute. That's it. Then it'll be done and you can go back home.
Park Ranger: Hey! Who's out here? The park is closed. No loitering after hours. [under breath] Stupid pot-smoking kids. Don't they know I can sniff them out from a mile away?
Show yourself! You're trespassing on federal property!
Helena, thinking: Shitshitshitshitshit! If you're going to do it, you have to do it now!
[BEAST MODE ACTIVATED]
Park Ranger: Who the- What the- [screams]
Helena: [whispering] I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm not going to kill you. It'll be over soon.
Park Ranger: [gasping] What... are... you?
#ts4#sims 4#sims 4 story#ts4 story#simblr#story: hzid#gif warning#flashing gif#flashing tw#blood tw#violence tw#helena zhao#helena i'm sure there are a few weirdos around who would GIVE you their blood!!!#please find them#i feel like there's too much blood to imply she's leaving people alive lol i get carried away#and yes that weird little balcony has definitely always been attached to their house 🤫#anyway super happy with how these came out :)#btw the gif quality is much better if you click on it
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I'm havig a brain wave. Jay the Killer upon ye (inspired by this post by hairscare)
#cricket doodles#my art#I'm trying to give them the most 2013 creepypasta backstory I can think of to match w/ the other Jeff characters#I'm not super sure of most of these concepts yet tho. Esp the demon one since the others aren't rlly supernatural or demonic#But yeah. They don't really have any deep attachments to anyone they're just running around killing people for fun#I'm also not protective of this design or concept at all so if u ALSO wanna make a Jay the Killer go ahead#creepypasta#creepypasta oc#jay the killer#jeff the killer#<- I guess#They're in the JtKCU (Jeff the Killer Cinematic Universe) it counts
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really should not be but having thoughts of music producer bradley married to farmer jake.
should I do a board for it and release it into the wild and hope it inspires someone else or add it to my never ending list of ideas for these beautiful bastards that have me in a chokehold?
#hangster#sereshaw#nixie personal#like#......i may have actually started the board for it#but also i'm not super attached to it at the moment#so.....#tell me what to do as I ignore my adult responsibilities in favor of this dilemma#please and thank you#tgm#top gun maverick#nixie's story ideas#nixie story ideas#rancher music life
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Does J'onn's beloved bartender have any relatives in Gotham that make family dinners incredibly, incredibly awkward... or is the last name just an unfortunate coincidence?
I'm pretty sure both martians would have that same doubt, but while J'onn tries to avoid the subject in order for it not to get weird, Ma'al doesn't hesitate
Jonathan Crane and Al Crane are distant cousins! Jonathan is a child of an affair, and was raised by his grandmother on his mom's side. He went by his maiden name "Keeny" until college where he switched his surname to "Crane". While they both grew up in Georgia, Al and Jonathan didn't get to actually meet each other until they both studied in Gotham College as roommates. People give them weird looks because they don't look related.
They get along! Al is one of the few family members Jonathan tolerates. Al eventually moves to Denver to be a bartender while Jonathan becomes a psychology professor in Gotham. They stay in touch. Al doesn't know anything about the Scarecrow stuff.
Ma'al jumped to an entirely different conclusion about their relationship.
#askjesncin#scarecrow#jonathan crane#martian manhunter#j'onn j'onzz#ma'alefa'ak#al crane#martian bartender#i was originally gonna say “no they're not related. idk why supergirl writers gave Al the 'Crane' surname”#but the more I thought about it the more fun it would be if Al was related to Scarecrow of all people? He'd make a great MM guest villain#super neat writing challenge haha ty friends who recc'd scarecrow comics to me for research on this#I'm attached to these distant cousins now their dynamic and story is!! special i think#jl remix
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