#and i'm gonna be doing a lot of coping the moment chaos theory comes out 😁😁😁😁😁

[mangosaurus]

sometimes i go through old sketches of mine and i go FAWK okay that was cute

this one was from wayyyyyy before we got big ben, so he's got more of a lean look to him here. also if you could flip through all my other benrius sketches you'd probably detect a trend and that would be ben giving darius all the kisses he could ever want. this is MY #truth

[system-of-a-feather]

So this is gonna sound weird but google isn't rlly giving me answers and I'm curious. Is it normal to want to sleep in a/the/your bathtub, especially when the brain isn't great? I haven't slept in borderline 3 days and everything in me says to grab my stuff n sleep in a (at least mostly) dry bathtub. This thought always appears when my brain's scrambled so I'm thinkin it's bc I'm from the Midwest so tub = safety in (extreme) chaos/confusion? I live w/ other ppl so I can't w/o complications but I'm very tempted so i might. Also I low-key wanna know your thoughts abt this bc I enjoy all y'alls words n theories, amongst other things but this is too many words ✌

“(2/2)  I'm open to talk abt it btw! I don't know much but I'm thinkin it has to do w/ the security of enclosed walls/being able to physically (visually?) Block out the rest (constant overhanging knowledge?) of the physical world. Ik it definitely differs on a personal bias. Mainly asking bc no one ik offline knows n maybe y'all or others know/can expand? It's both interesting and confusing bc sleep deprivation ✌ “

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Huh. That’s interesting. I haven’t heard anything about that and I’m not from the Midwest so I don’t know if that is a cultural / common thing related to the hazards of the midwest, but I could definitely see it being a thing.

To be honest, the bathroom is one of the most comfortable and relaxing places in a moment of high stress and anxiety because of the increased control and security I have when I’m in there among other things, both trauma related and not. In the realm of mental health, I don’t think the desire to sleep in a bathtub is all too weird. Its also I guess kind of crib like and might be helpful if age regression is an issue and the walls help with security or something?

I dunno, its a hyper specific topic that I really doubt there is any research or information on, but that is something really interesting to consider XD

I mean sleep where you can and where you need if sleep is an issue you have. Sleep on the floor, sleep on a dining table for all I care XD Maybe if you think it’d be helpful but are too shy of getting caught or something you could make up some excuse as to why you’d be in the bathroom for a while (taking a shit maybe?) and just take a powernap or something. With sleep deprivation something is better than nothing.

To be honest, a large part of our mental health coping and management in public scenarios is a LOT of expert skills in excuses / cover up stories / half truths. Our mom when she was learning of our messed up mental health would be like “What do you do when this happens at work” and I’m just like “Lel I ask for a bathroom break cause my stomach is mad and then take five to ten minutes to fix my brain” or something XD

We do a lot of weird stuff to self regulate and care for us around physical health / mental health issues and if we are in a place where people might judge us in a way we aren’t able to handle, I just kinda try to come with a sneaky way to still do that and/or risk is cause grabbing those moments of self care and coping - weird or not - is really important when everything is a mess tbh XD

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