#and i was on board a while ago but now after everything happening w mac

[callixton]

u know i was a little disappointed when little shop got selected just bc i think there were other shows that had better educational value and were closer to student appetite BUT i am so excited for it now i think it’s gonna be sooo fun

[xonemi]

Bored So I'm Here to Rant

4 o'clock in the morning. I have been sleeping all day yesterday, and woke up around evening time. I saw my typewriter keyboard and have realized that I haven't been using it much.

Reasons for not using it. I mainly use it to type on my journal app called One Day. I haven't been able to do that because the journal app One Day is an iOS app and is not available for windows. My current laptop that I have is a Windows laptop. My Mac laptop that I have is being borrowed by my sister who lives far from me. Oh well.

I could just get a windows journaling app, but as it turns out I looked up the best journaling apps and Day One was number 1 and the next best one that can be used on Windows you have to pay monthly for premium. I am not paying for another journaling app. I already paid a one time deal for Day One.

Anyways, my rant is not about that. My rant is about pyramid schemes. In today's techy world, I am amazed people are still being BAMBOOZLED into pyramid schemes. Like hello? Google that shit maybe? Idk.

Look, I understand that not all pyramid schemes are scams, but they are still fucking pyramid schemes, which just doesn't seem right to me. BUT WHATEVER.

So I had a coworker friend who asked me to go with him to this "business" meeting with him. I thought it was just his aunt trying to sell some random crap. I know there are some people out there who need to do presentations on selling a product but they don't actually need everyone in the presentation to buy the product.

My initial thought was okay, go to this so called business meeting, listen to the presentation and then leave. But boy was I fucking wrong.

Days before the business meeting, my friend sends me and a group of people a link about the product. I look up the company, and I see articles about it being a pyramid scheme.

Already my mind is closed off. Like there's no way in hell anyone is going to get me into some damn pyramid scheme. I don't care if he is a really good friend, there is no way in fucking hell.

I stopped doing any more research because that is all I needed to know. Pyramid scheme. Nothing else will change my mind. But I still made a promise to my friend that I would go to this meeting, so I didn't back down.

Friday, I had to do overtime at my work. My plan was to only work 8hrs so that I could get some sleep because the stupid meeting was in the morning.

The weekend shift didn't have a properly trained person working the laboratory so the shift supervisor asked if I could stay the whole shift which was 12 hrs and ended at 4:30 in the morning.

I was livid, not because I had to stay but because someone who actually works that shift, is always going home early. I wanted to go home early, but couldn't yet this mother fucker was allowed to? And what makes me more mad is his reasons are lies. One time he used the excuse that his girlfriend's grandmother (who lived with him and his gf) was depressed and needed his help. If she really needed help, why the fuck is his gf partying it up? Posting vids on social media of her drinking the night away. It just fucking makes me so mad that this fucker gets away with anything… It's not my shift but still... Whatever.

Back to the pyramid scheme. I worked until 4 am. Got home and went straight to bed. I was hoping I could sleep through the morning meeting because I was so tired and I know that my friend won't be mad because he knows I worked until 4:30.

He ends up calling me after 9 am. I somehow wake up. I ignore the call cause my eyes literally wouldn't stay open. He leaves a voicemail saying that it's okay if we arrive at 10. My subconscious is starting to feel guilty. I did make a promise and I hate breaking promises. Since he said 10 was okay, I got up called him back and said okay I will leave now.

This foo goes, "don't leave yet because I still have to pick up our other co-worker, that way we could arrive at the same time."

I should have taken that moment to go to starbucks and get breakfast and coffee because what happened afterwards was just a shit show.

I get ready and leave after 10 mins. My GPS says I will arrive at 950. I get there and my friend calls me. He asks where I am at and I tell him that I was at the location already. This mother fucker tells me he's barely on the way. It will take him 30 mins to get to the location. LIKE BRUHHHH. Are you fucking kidding me?

I'm tired. I am a very cranky person in the morning. I am definitely not a morning person despite working 1st shift for 6 yrs. (I now work night shifts) I was fuming mad. But I stay calm. I look at instagram for awhile, I try to stay awake while I wait.

20 mins pass and this guy tells me that his uncle will pick me up and that I should just go ahead without him. This mother fucker gives him my phone number (I don't want calls from these people in the future, I might have to change my phone number.) and calls me telling me where to meet him. He takes me to their like lounge eating area. I sit there for almost another 20 minutes. My friend arrived almost fucking 11. They go to different area. Turns out the presentation already started. Thank goodness I didn't go there from the beginning. After 10 minutes of listening to the guy do his presentation, I was already over it.

This guy had no good selling points. I was squirming in my chair the whole fucking time. My other coworker brought her 5 year old son with her and he was dying of boredom. I looked at him and was all "you and me both man"

I really do believe that their product works. It seems to be a legit product. But that foo wasn't selling the product, he was selling the business. I am not an entrepreneur. Although I like money, I do not have the social skills to go around selling a product and a pyramid scheme. So this presentation was not geared towards me. I wanted to leave so badly.

The guy's selling point was that you had to pay $2500 and get 4 other people to pay $2500 and you could start making $500 a month. And from there it could only go up. First of all. I do not save money. I am a spender. There is no way I have $2500 in the bank on hand. That's not me. I barely have $300 at most, most of the time. The only reason I have actual money saved right now is because I am waiting for my speeding ticket. That is the only reason I have money right now. Once that speeding ticket is paid, I am back to being a broke ass bitch because I will more than likely spend the rest of the money left over after the ticket is paid.

Looking around the room during the presentation, the people there were mostly people over 50. Only me, my friend were under 40. It just blew my mind that they were all just very into the presentation. I felt like I was in a cult or something. They were really buying this dude's sell. Which understandably, I could see it. He made it seem easy to earn money through their program.

It really did seem easy to earn millions in a year. But this is where my problem lies. You have to go out there and recruit people. Recruit people to pay $2500 so that they can recruit people to pay $2500 so that those people could recruit people to pay $2500. Those older folks, could easily find people to spend that kind of money because they're old and probably have savings that could be used to pay that $2500 and have cultivated lots of friends, but me? Someone who has limited friends, who is shy, hates any social event, like bruhh, you're barking up the wrong tree here.

The second guy who spoke in the presentation, he was even worse than the first guy. He said "i'll make this short. 10 mins top." This fucker speaks for another 30 mins. Only stopped because the afternoon session started walking in.

He went on to talk about the types of people you needed to recruit. He used an acronym... He wrote EMPOWER on the board. So this is the type of person you need to recruit. E for Entrepreneur M for Motivated, P for positive, O for Open minded, W for Willing, E for Enthusiastic, R for (i forgot, i legit started tuning him out after awhile because I was bored and hungry and sleepy.)

First of all. My friend made the wrong choice in trying to get me into this. Even until now he is trying to convince me.

If there's one thing you should know about me is I am a very negative person, and the funny part is my friend knows this about me. Why he thought I would be POSTIVE here was actually a surprise. Open minded? YEAH NO. FUCK THAT. There is no way in hell I will ever be open minded about Pyramid scheme. I was open minded about their product, but definitely not their business structure. I am the type of person who loves to spend money on myself and others, but NOT ON PYRAMID SCHEMES. And then there's WILLING. Bruhhh I am so fucking lazy. The fact that I was willing to go to this business meeting in the first place was already too much for me. How many times I almost tried to cancel. If he wasn't a good friend to me, I would have done everything in my power to get out of it. But yeah me willing to put in any effort on a pyramid scheme is soooooooo not going to happen. Enthusiastic???? HHAHHAHAHAHHAH I had a sour face the whole time. You aint going to catch me be enthusiastic about any type of pyramid scheme.

I dont know. I still can't fathom why anyone would join a pyramid scheme.

A few hours ago my friend messages me before he went to sleep saying he was sorry he knew that I didn't have much sleep. I was fine. I just love to complain a lot (part of my negative vibe I am trying to put out into the world) anyways, I went to it that's all that matters to me, that I was able to keep my promise... but then this foo saw my "pyramid scheme" story on social media, and he sends me a video link titled "Is *COMPANY NAME* a scam?" I didn't watch the video. I went straight to the comments section. Of course the top comments are from "users" and "reps" of the company boasting about how great the company and the product is. All the way at the bottom was the real comment. The commenter said something about how the person on the video didn't mention anything about the company and their business structure, he was just selling the product. So was the video link my friend sent me proof that the company isn't a scam? NO. I never told him I thought it was a scam, i merely mentioned it was a pyramid scheme, and like I have said somewhere in this post that not all pyramid schemes are scams... I just don't like pyramid schemes.

Anyways, Pyramid schemes aren't for me. Nor will I partake in any form of joining them.

Side story which is funny and stupid... I didn't want my friend to look bad so I went straight to that stupid meeting without eating breakfast... when the person came and took me to the lounge area, they had donuts and coffee provided, my dumbass thought they might have put their product into the donuts or coffees so I didn't eat or drink anything there. hahahahha. I feel bad for my friend if he actually joined, hopefully he will be able to bamboozle someone else. that isn't me. He shouldn't tell our coworkers if he tries to recruit someone else from work that I went to that meeting, because let me tell you, there's no way I am lying to them. I will tell them not to join. AHahahhaha

[awhilesince]

Monday, 25 February 1833

6 3/4

11 40/..

Fahrenheit 46° at 7 inside and 35 1/2° outside at 8 – hazy soft damp morning – made and lighted my fire on getting up – had Charles Howarth with locks to choose out of for my book cupboard doors – from near 9 to near 10 reading De la B– (Beche) Geology breakfast

in the little room at 9 55/.. afterwards talking to Marian and she mended my pelisse a little then a minute or 2 with my aunt and came upstairs at 11 1/2 – from 11 40/.. to 1 40/.. wrote 3 pages and ends to to ‘Mrs Norcliffe, Langton hall, Malton’ and 2 1/2 pages to ‘Dr Belcombe Minster Yard York’ and sent off these 2 letters by Mrs Hemingway at 2 1/2 – chit chat to Mrs N– (Norcliffe) had told IN– (Isabella Norcliffe) to say I would write when my plans were fixed – still unsettled but impatient of being longer without writing

‘and could not bear the idea if your fancying what can never be true, that my memory is as idle towards you as my ‘pen’ – 

determined to leave nothing to be settled in my absence – 

‘more than reconciled to all this delay by my aunt’s being so wishful for me to stay over the winter’ – 

must miss my friends in Rom, so not improbable that I may change my line of route – and no fix beyond Paris till I get there – ‘I talk of being here six weeks longer’ – surely IN– (Isabella Norcliffe) will be back from Croft by the middle of next month – hope to spend a little while at Langton – both my servants engaged from the 30th ultimo and now on board wages  – should be glad if Burnett knew of a place likely to suit 

‘a very steady, well-intentioned, obliging girl of 18, but looking 1/2 dozen years older, who has lived a year as maid of all work, with a dry gist in H–x (Halifax), and would be thankful for any sort of service in the kitchen, or upstairs, in a gentleman’s family’ –

mention her being sister ‘to the boy I sent to Scott’s, and would I have no doubt, be as well conducted in her way, as he is in his’ – have heard Ellen Best was going to be married – if true, hope the match will please them all – ask after everybody – ask Mrs N– (Norcliffe) to write – ‘Ever, my dear Mrs Norcliffe, very affectionately yours AL– Anne Lister’ 

Excusing myself to Dr. B– (Belcombe) for not writing a week ago when Miss W– (Walker) left here to go to her sister in the Highlands of Scotland – she had a lingering thought of seeing him again and put off my writing to the last – 

‘She laid much stress upon my writing, and saying when I saw you, everything that was proper, and that could prove how she had been pleased and obliged by the manner and kindness of your attention – you certainly got into her good books; and I do not think she will very rapidly have as much confidence in any other physician’ – 

to consult Dr. Abercrombie in Edinburgh – ‘the poor girl’s spirits had been very low for the last 2 or 3 weeks – what a lesson of proof that every exturnal blessing may be as nothing to ensure one happiness!’ thank him for paying the druggists bill of £2.12.6 and enclose him a £10 bank of England bill footnote – thanks on my own account for the wish to see me – mean to go to Langton – shall surely see them in the minster yard going or returning – but on this Mrs Henry Stephen B– (Belcombe) to hear from me by letter or word of mouth as soon as my plans are fixed – the Lawtons to be at Leamington as today – ‘Love to you all, and believe me very faithfully yours AL– Anne Lister’ 

from 2 1/2 to 3 35/.. wrote 3 pages and ends to Breadalbane Mac L– (Lean) thanks for her letter (received 2nd last month) and for all her kindness about the willow cuttings – still hoped to receive some and that they would ‘find me here till after the middle of April’ – a variety of circumstances had detained me – should have written some weeks ago but waited to tell my new plans

‘more especially, as your so kind offer of introductionary letters for Russia, struck me more forcibly than it would have done, had my Italian schemes remained unhalted’ – 

After leaving here 1 or 2 visits to pay, that shall not cross the water till about the end of may – then too late for hotter countries – … 

‘I have long wished to see the northern capitals, and promised the de Hagemans a visit at Copenhagen, so that for some time back I have literally been wavering whether to go so far north this summer or not – If therefore I should by and by surely remind you of your kind offer, you will not be surprised’ – 

from Vere’s last letter their plans uncertain but in concluding she thought we might meet in Paris in April – and that they would be in London in May – In my answer I fancied we should meet in London 

‘I merely added, that many more unlikely things had happened upon my paying, within the 12 months, my long promised visit to her sister Lady Harriet’ – 

then on the cold at Naples, and extraordinary mild winter here – hear Mr Stuart MacKenzie has let his place in Lewes and is going to take his family to France 

‘where he may be nearer to London then if he staid at home – I suppose his place at the India board is worth fifteen hundred a year’ – 

glad the Mac Leans are all going on so well –

‘Poor dear Margret! no wonder at her conquest – I have no rememberance of her but as one of the most interestingly pretty girls of her age I ever saw – I wish you had told me more about them all – How does Sibbella go on? I should see Coll-house and all its inmates again, with more pleasure than you think – I shall never forget my tour in the Highlands – All is uncertain; but, Deo volente, how pleased I should be to be able to tell you of your northern friend – my very kind regards to you all, and believe me always very truly yours A Lister’ – 

wrote the last 19 lines, and out at 4 1/4 – along the deep cutting in Trough of Bolland wood – nobody working there – Nathan and 2 men pheying away for wall above upper side the new road – the wall against (up to) the turnpike house so out of proper inclination (batter as they call it) ordered no more to be done till they saw me again saying I might perhaps have it taken down – 2 men trenching top of Godley field walled off to be planted – John Bottomley came up – asked me to look at his place since the colliers had filled up the pit and pulled down the sheds – he had bought the stones for 55/. – went with him – there must be some walling up – It seems Mr Rawson was really the primus mobile of the job – John B–‘s (Bottomley’s) wife they were obliged to get the little marrow pit 23 yards deep they had sunk to the upper bed for vent a little above the house – 

So H– (Hinscliffe) had actually agreed with Mr R– (Rawson) at the very time he saw me (on Saturday) spite of his denying it – all this accounts for Mr R–‘s (Rawson’s) note of Friday – he thinks he has me beaten – perhaps he will be disappointed – It occurred to me to take in all the waste near John B–‘s (Bottomley’s), and then I could sink a pit myself without much trouble and set Holt to manage getting coals for me so as to look after Mr R– (Rawson) thought I, query? Is not that waste mine? – minerals and all? Go quietly over to York and consult Jonathan Grey – Get Washington to do plan of Willy or Brierley hill with adjoining waste, as also of marsh farm and waste and consult Jonathan G– Grey about both places and take in waste at both – thought I would make up my mind to stay here as long as wanted and would stop all further going on with the new approach road – no moving of the old bridge from over the brook – shall tell Pickels his mason not a sufficiently good workman – may send for Booth to straighten the wall – thought for a moment of going to Holt’s – then determined to wait – 

went down the road and by Pearson’s to look at the old bridge – then took a turn or 2 up and down my walk and came in at 6 1/4 – dinner at 6 3/4 – had just done when James Greenwood junior who got married 2 or 3 days ago (prudent match) of the Conery came about the cottage at Godley – (I told Cordingley yesterday to mention it to him) said I had said nothing to the people as yet but would get Washington to say I wanted the place for one of my own people and had say whom and beg them to suit them and as soon as they could and Greenwood should hear more in a few days – amount of rent not named – he said I knew what the present tenant paid – If I have to stay long here, shall I run over incognito to Paris, and settle all there and pack up and bring over my books? 

Read from page 101 to 112 before breakfast, and from 112 to 126 now since dinner De la Beche’s Geology very attentively with references to my maps for all the places mentioned – wrote the last 26 lines till near 10, my father and Marian gone to bed – went in to my aunt (at 9 55/..) and came upstairs at 10 40/.. – Damp morning and day tho’ rather finer in the afternoon – and evening – Fahrenheit 49 1/2° now at 11 p.m. but fire in my room now and all the day – 1 string of acorns came from Wiliam Keighley junior this evening 

reference number: SH:7/ML/E/16/0021, SH:7/ML/E/16/0022