#and i might have smth up tmr for it. but bc i have changed it to aprox a fic a day

[courtillyy]

projects actually can be fun how about that ?

[mygnolia]

crush﹢relationship headcannons w/ chan!

pair -› chan x gn!reader

genre -› fluff, pure fluff

wc -› 1.1k

cw -› food mention (hot choco), one word abt barf 

a/n -› ngl ive changed my a/n bc this has been collecting dust in the drafts and its so funny to see whenever i come back and chance it to “im in love” and then “man i wish they liked me back”

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he probably smiles whenever he sees u

you two probably have mutual friends

like you and seungmin probably are friends and just mess around with jeongin

omg unstopabble trio fr

but one time seungmin in his lavish big rich boy house goes “lets have a sleepover”

yall playin word games bc its 2 am and obviously your braincells (do not) work

assuming yall can drink but if not we’ll blame it on the sleepiness

you’re just laughing rlly hard to this joke minho makes and everyone stares unimpressed at him and chan looks over and kind of

smiles at you

like this toothy moon crescent eye smile that has you thinkin about him

all fuckin’ night too

like you probably think about how it would feel if he smiled to you romantically

and your mind is reeling

anyways you fall asleep fast but chan can’t sleep and when he does its late

they def dont want to overwork him so they let him sleep as much as he can

bro yall fall for each other SO fast…(barfs)

yall probs go to the fair in town or like a pumpkin patch with games and he’s just admiring you from afar

proud smile lovesick grin holds your hand when you win smth

he definitely wins a large stuffie like a bear or an elephant

and i’d think he’d pull something slick like “hey lets trade stuffed animals i don’t like holding this one”

just would be a total sweetheart

i think he would drive you home! just very subtle glances soft smiles and all of your friends were like “placing bets they’re totally kiss”

when he nears your home he asks if he can kiss u

yes! ofc! i think he’s still a little shy so it was be rlly short and sweet!!

asks if he can talk to you tmr abt the whole thing and feelings

heart combustion? immediate? and all he’s thinking rn is “man i think they’re so wonderful and cute”

and YOU’RE thinking about how long you’ve been waiting and how you’re so giddy

u go to bed with a smile on ur face fs

you two talk it out, shy smiles and hugs and he admits he was scared you didn’t like him the way he liked you

but u do!! and everything is pretty sunshine and rainbows

i think chan would be as caring as he can between his work hours he still crams in a hug or shared dinners

school would be tough on both of you and though you might be sad you didn’t see or receive a text you yourself are probs cramming for finals so u understand

winter break!! it’s your three month anniversary plus christmas and u’ve been saving a bit of money up to get him whatever he might want

chan would be happy for the gift but he would be most excited to spend time with you

tries to stay as close as possible like holding hands, cuddling, head on your shoulder, just some sort of skinship because i feel like he wants to feel close to u?

UHM DOES CHAN LIKE HOT CHOCO

n e ways lets assume he does, would make u a lot of tea and hot choco since it’s easy

chan seems like the type to buy u smth like a necklace or a bracelet and make you a long handwritten letter telling you about how he just simply adores you

i think he’s just really in love with u like he never wants to lose you EVER

you would really think he’s a gem

you’re both honest and you both feel like it’s a bit unreal if you were to spend your whole lives together

like its not impossible, but he’s like a dream you’re afraid of waking up to experience a life without him yknow

i think you both have a clear grasp that you might not be his forever and vice versa, but he would never hold it against you if you two broke up or split

things happen, people drift apart or lose that feeling for their significant other

but you both think that time hasn’t come yet so you two enjoy each other for now for as long as u can

chan’s just always so sweet and you wonder what he finds in you

he doesn’t get it tho like he doesn’t get how u don’t see how wonderful u are for him when you ask if he still loves you or if he’s ever going to leave

chan: no i would never babe :(( you mean so much to me why would i ever do that to you without telling you first

he’s scared of losing you too though

worries that you’ll find someone who makes you laugh harder or makes you fall harder than how you fell with him and it makes him sick when he thinks about you with someone else

not because he’s jealous, but because he wouldn’t ever want to lose you simply because he loves you so much

he’d find so many flaws with himself and beats him up for it

and i think you’d have to remind him that you don’t love him because he’s perfect, but you love him for him and that’s what matters

sometimes there are rough patches and it’s okay! you two promise to talk about whatever might bother you as long as your comfortable with sharing and would discuss anything he notices in ur relationship

but it’s not like a scolding

everyone has different ways of communicating and sometimes chan just wants to make sure u know that he’s always here for you

and that he’s not going to push any of your boundaries

but he also expects the same which is reasonable! (he has his personal matters or things he wants to avoid talking about and you make sure not to overstep)

he just wants to make sure everything is alright and doesn’t want you neglecting yourself for other things

you always come first, he wants you to know it the best you can

and if you’re dealing with something he would definitely wait for you and remind you it’s okay to be vulnerable and express yourself, whether or not it’s to him or your friends or close ones

chan isn’t pushy with anything and is patient/observant when it comes to your relationship and u in general

yeah! things can get difficult but chan would try his best to support you through all of it

i think overall chan would love every part of you as best as he could

and he does a pretty good job!

UHHHHH hope…hope…u enjoyed my brainrot…? check my masterlist for more and lmk if u have any feedback bc this was just me ranting ish LMFAO

[imisswonho]

Ok thank you, well. I've been struggling with low self esteem lately and my mind hasn't been kind to me either. I keep thinking negative thoughts about myself. It doesn't help with my confidence either since I'm already extremely shy. I want to be more outgoing but it's almost as if I'm stopping myself from doing so. I tell myself I'm worthless and my negative thoughts won't stop. How do I get more upbeat like you?

oooh i see! first, thank u for being vulnerable w me!! i know it’s not easy to share what’s going on in our lives most times and i’m glad ur willing to share w me 💕let me start off by saying although i’m flattered u think im upbeat, u shouldn’t compare urself to anyone else!! and trust me i’m not always super out going hahahaa but as far as your negative thoughts, i wish there was a simple way i could help u get rid of them but since there isn’t i suggest something i do every morning: think of 3 reasons why i love/appreciate myself!! 

ino that might sound kinda weird, but im a firm believer in self love n supporting urself first before anyone else, and i’ve been doing this daily for years now n it’s deffo helped me w my confidence!! so i hope it does w urs too! just note ur not gonna wake up tmr and feel like a whole new person (trust me, i’ve wshed that could happen before lol) but day by day it’ll get easier to love urself more and more! for ex. this morning i woke up n i told myself that i’m kind, i’m optimistic n i’m super cute n then i went off to do my morning routine!! it doesn’t work for everyone, but i rmb hearing someone do this way back when n i’ve been doing it for so long it’s almost weird if i don’t do it??

or smth else that’s really helped me w my self esteem is turning my negative thoughts from smth like ‘u always overthink’ or ‘ur such a perfectionist’ to something along the lines of ‘c u tend to overthink sometimes, n that’s ok, but let’s see how we can break this situation down so it’s not so detrimental’ or ‘ur not a perfectionist, u just want things to turn out well, it’ll be ok just take a step back and look at what uve done so far”! if that makes sense?  i tend to turn my not so supportive/positive thoughts into smth action oriented so that instead of sitting there dwelling in thoughts i go and do smth about it! also, remember as human beings it’s extremely easy to tear ourselves down, but it’s 10x harder to give ourselves compliments or to think positively. so it’ll take some time, but it’s doable!! 

also sme other things i do is i have a to-go song when i’m feeling unmotivated or negative, this is mine!  i’ve associated this song w turning my mood/feelings around to more positive n motivational so whenever i need a boost i turn this song on :D 

also anonnie i highly highly highly recommend meditation, there are great apps out there if u want a guided meditation (i prefer guided bc if i try it myself i think of like 10 billion things instead of meditating lol), i didn’t think it would have an effect on me until i continuously started meditating and it has reduced so much of my anxiety n helped me w my self esteem!! 

what i’m trying to get at is negative thoughts are almost impossible not to have, but there are things we can do to reduce/stop them!! u r ur own unique individual, there is no one in the world that is a replica of u, so remember that comparing urself to anyone or changing urself for anyone won’t do anything 4 u, it all starts from the inside!! ino that sounds kinda corny but if u think about it, validation from other ppl are nice, but confidence won’t be built around other people - its build from u! ur not worthless n ur a valued human being; i love u n im supporting u in any way possible!! 💕💞💓💗💖💘💝 just know im here whenever u wanna talk again!! :)