#and i just wwant to go teach english in south east asia | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

starryarles · 10 months ago

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starting my own business and applying for funding help and it's all so stressful and i have to pretend to know what i'm doing because i still feel 14 and i can barely speak my native language and i don't even wanna do this and

#and my parents are making me do this #and i just wwant to go teach english in south east asia #but those dreams have been getting crushed and pushed down by people my entire life and scoffed at and given funny looks at #i hadd to go to these classes for starting your own business and i barely understood anything and now i got assigned a financial advisor #and she's trying to help me but i've been prochrastinating sending info over to ehr #because i feel so stupid #and i might be getting a new laptop through this but i'm too attached to this one #and i'm going to lose all of my stuff on it too #but that's if i get accepted to the financial aidd thing #almost thinking of self sabotaging on purpose just to not go trough that #someone is going to want my laptop and i have so much stuff on this laptop #i am not giving this baby away #and i just waant to go back to being in highschool anddd not having to worry about any of this shit #it feels like a school project i'm not nearly a little bit prepared for #and i just want it to go back #and i just want mmy bf but he hasn't been my bf for 5 months now #i'm just don't want to do this

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