#and i just realized we're already halfway through february... um wth

[miladythewinter]

being unemployed but trying to get a job is like your life is in stand-by. cause if you're not interested in a job or are doing something else that occupies your days instead (like having classes) then it's okay. but if you're actively trying to become employed your whole life revolves around job applications, waiting for phonecalls, going to interviews and then waiting for the result.

maybe it's just me but i feel like i can't do anything else while this is going on. and by anything else i mean things like travelling (even for a few days) or making big plans for certain days (ironically cause i actually now have all the time in the world) because i don't know whether i'll be called for an interview tomorrow or in 2 weeks. and then, because i'm also applying for civil service positions, i also have exams and psych tests to do and i also can't guess when those will take place. so it's just this constant waiting for something.

i'm already a pretty indecisive person by nature (not to mention directionless and with zero drive to do anything) but in this situation i become even more so. it's like when you have an appointment at like 4 pm so you can't do anything major before that time. that's me right now but like for the past 2 and a half months