#and i had to smack his arm with my whiteboard and he still woildnt stop

[liamastatine]

i'm gonna have to rant very quickly because school was. not very good.

idk if i should use tags for this but whatever!!! i am bothered!!!

1. in one of my classes i'm sat next to this guy who is. really weird i really don't like him like for a valid reason i think. and next to him is a guy who i really don't like bc he's just. so rude to me. and in ANOTHER class i'm sat next to a guy who's like. i'm actually afraid of him he's not even that rude to me specifically but he is. like actually i'm afraid of him dude he yells so much and throws stuff and like. eu i don't think he likes me very much

2. i had pe the first day?!??!?! and tomorrow too?!?@?!? we had to track how well we were doing stuff and stuff like that bc we just got back and it was to determine sets or whatever. and. the teacher just. gave this girl who isn't very nice permission to track scores and stuff. and like even if i'm not good at pe she just. started ignoring me. and like i kinda get it but!!! everybody knows i struggle with talking like i can't talk at all not at all!!! so i had to do it with my hands (like numbers]!!! but i didn't do the task because i didn't have anyone to work with and stuff. and my teacher SAW ME and just. kinda ignored me and didn't tell me what to do. even though she knows i'm not good at pe and always need help

3. to add onto the pe problem. my school has like this weird thing where this lady wants to force me to get therapy bc i don't talk which valid but she acts like there's a problem even though there. isn't really. i just look sad and walk alone because that's how i look and because i want to be. and she asked questions that implied something was wrong, whether i nod OR shake my head (which is the only form of communication i have. which suucks]. and agter the lesson my pe teacher asked for my score on sometjing and i used my hands and she was like. no use your moith like talk. even though i tjink everubody knows by now like shes had me for two years in a row i cannot tqlk!!! at all!!! once i left the changing rooms my pe teacher was like talking like "oh hey you didn't talk to me like at all today and could only respond with your hands. can you at least try to say small stuff or your scores" and i shrugged a lot to a lot of her and im nervous that the therapist lady will try amd force me to do stuff i don't wanna do again (she didn't even ask. just forced it no i don't wanna have therapy now like 😭😭 it's not something *I* chose for *myself* so I dont want it!!!!!!! I don't like when people choose stuff like that for me!!!!

3. I broke. an item I really like by stepping on it. and I was very sad. that's it for this point.

4. it was raining SO MUCH there was SO MUCH RAIN!!! AND I LOST MY PE BAG THING!!! and I spent so long looking for it and my head hurts really bad from the rain!!! and I didn't know my auntie was still waiting for me in the car and she got mad at me!!! everyone got mad at me bc I didn't call which makes sense but I did message my mum that ill go to my auntie which. yeah. and then I spent the time looking for my pe thing and blah blah blah and it was annoying because I was pushed a lot by trying to go through like this place that people kinda walk forward right. but I was trying to go the direction they were leaving. and yeah it sucks and my head hurts and all my books are wet and. one of my books is so ugly I wrote my name so messy and I stuck one of these like sticker thingies they make us put on our books wrong

4. I didn't even do classwork im so tired I had like no sleeep I just sat in class and no one told me off. oh yeah I also sit next to this one annoying guy on one side in one class and on the other is. someone from my old school. not good. because. ghey also saw me drumming the first time I did. which is embarrassing. eu. but i didn't even do anything im probably gonna get told off but I couldn't focus at all today

5. my uniform was ALL WRONG!!! my coat and everything it was too much it hurt to have my bag on!!!!!! I just suffered the whole day eberytime I had to put my bag on. and I lo e my coat soso much it has this little rock I keep inside and it's like against the rain and I never ever take it off except in class. and it hurt to wear my bag I think I got something the wrong size. my shoes in pe and normal uniform barely fit too it hurt my legs

6. I forgot it was just bad and there's probably more I forgot I just really had to rant somewhere. really bad day I'm not used to feeling like this bc of holidays. I haven't walked a lot in so long and my head hurt a lot. gggggg anemia isn't very good