#and i had literally just queued like 100+ posts just before my acct got suspended OTL

[kimdokjas]

hi everyone, i'm so glad to be back!!!

so just to give you guys an update on what happened—my account was suspended for almost a whole month.

basically it was just staff holding my account hostage for no real reason ;A; and the result was that my blog appeared deactivated, all of my posts vanished from the tags, asks i sent got eaten by tumblr, and all my dms disappeared during that time.

(to clarify: apparently it was for having too many urls? but most of them were actually active which was weird? and then staff took forever to reply to my emails only to finally be like "here's the list of urls you need to delete or we'll terminate your account forever (:" and the list was just. urls of either actually active group sideblogs or sideblogs i'm not even an admin of and couldn't physically delete even if i wanted to so. i was basically stuck in limbo for a good while until staff finally listened to reason.)

i've spent a lot of time and care curating my blog over the years, as well as building friendships with a lot of wonderful people i've met here—and to have it all suddenly taken away was a really scary experience. these past few weeks i've just been worrying about what would happen if my account got suddenly deleted for good.

still, i'm so thankful that i was able to keep in touch with several of you through discord!

even so, several friends reached out asking me if i blocked them and whether they had done something wrong which is just heartbreaking to me—i'm truly so sorry if anyone thought i blocked them for even a second, it just makes me so sad to think about.

this is the main reason why i just wanted to explain a bit what happened to hopefully clear up any possible misunderstandings.

i really hope nothing like this happens again, but just in case— you can also find me on anilist here (i've been slowly trying to get the hang of it lmao) and mutuals are always free to ask for my discord!

also, thank you to everyone who still kept tagging me in their lovely edits! i'm still tracking #usernikiforova btw, i'm really sorry for the delay if anyone thought i stopped reblogging them! i swear i felt like i was looking sadly through a window at all your beautiful creations but being unable to reblog them ;-; just a heads up that it will probably take me a couple of days to catch up with all the posts but i promise i'll reblog all of them as soon as i can!

and finally, i really want to say a HUGE thank you to everyone who was able to reach out to me asking if i was okay and expressing your support—i was honestly so touched to receive your messages and you have no idea how much it meant to me to not feel so alone going through this. ily all so much <3

mutuals, if u could interact w this post just to make sure you've seen it i'd really appreciate it! also, please bear with me as i'll probably rb this a few times just to try to get the word out

[clawing my way out of my coffin already half-buried in the ground] I'M BACK