#and i guess its also like ��dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’

[jackass-jones]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

[pwnyta]

AGE OF ULTRON BOTHERS ME OK. Like... I ENJOYED IT. I thought it was a fun romp but if I think about it beyond just watching cool fight scenes its fucking irritating.

So Im gonna give my suggestions on how to fix it so it doesnt feel like Whedon disregarded every other movie that he had no part in..

HERE GOES.

First off... this should be a movie that completely cements the Avengers as a team. Ultron should try AND FAIL to put a divide in the Avengers. Loki already broke them up and Whedon absolutely knows that Civil War is coming and its gonna happen again so THIS movie should be one where the Avengers are the most SOLID OF UNITS.

Especially Steve and Tony. Steve distrust of Tony is baseless and obnoxious... it made some sense in the first movie because Tonys attitude in public and thats all Steve got plus Lokis discourse stick adding fuel to the fire... FINE. But its shitty in this movie and makes Cap look like a fucking moronic prick... because REALLY trusting the chick that mind raped you and tried to murder you over your fucking teammate? JANKY and makes you look like an incompetent leader (though the writers would ignore that fact because theyre too scared to let Steve make mistakes... but w/e)

The one area I can see them actually arguing or disagreeing is Tony making Vision after what happens with Ultron. Tony points out hes been making AI for a long ass time without issue and Cap says its not worth it, Tony argues damned if we dont maybe not damned if we do.... scuffle happens, Vision happens, Thor pops in, Stark was right... Cap and Tony have a heart to heart because theyre friends and they make up...

At some point before Wanda and Pietro switch sides, Wanda learns that Tony wasnt the one selling weapons... maybe when Ultron is talking about him learning shit from the internet and deciding humanity should just fuck off (a fair assessment honestly) one of the things he mentions is Tony being carelessness and Stane selling weapons under the table... and it starts sinking in in that moment that shes been attacking a man who had no real part in her parents death, but then Ultrons like Im gonna kill everyone and thats when Wanda and Pietro dip out.

The scene where Clint is talking to Wanda and Pietro should be a reconciliation between them and Tony instead... maybe a conversation about how he understands how it is to be the bad guy and hurt people because of grief... were not so different you and I and all that... and it would sting even harder in Civil War when Tony once again lets his grief consume him and he lashes out at Steve and Bucky.

Wanda getting to have a heart to heart with a character shes wronged most of all and trying to be a better person by helping the fight against Ultron would humanize her more and it would give her losing her brother a lot more of a sting. I think anyways.

CLINT SHOULD HAVE SHIT TO DO. I think Ive said this before but they should have Clint have a family but absolutely not have Clint go to his family home when hes being hunted down by a homicidal fuckin robot....ya know? He brings them to a safe house, the Avengers are still a little awkward and making comments... theres pictures of Clint with his wife and kids and Nat ‘these are agents.‘ ‘...the kids?‘ ‘...smaller agents...‘... at the end of the movie when theyre victorious we see a scene where Clint goes to another home and hes greeted by his wife and kids and were like OMG THEYRE ACTUALLY REAL AND NOT JUST A COVER? IDK what else to do with Clint...

Nat and Bruce woulda been fine but they should been the main source of animosity within the Avengers. Nat manipulated and lied to Bruce to get him into SHIELDs grasp and Bruce almost killed Natasha. Though theyre civil with each other in the end it would be interesting to see their relationship start to fester when theyre in a desperate situation. Maybe they get separated from the group and are forced to confront their negativity toward each other... and dont really make up until near the end of the movie. Natasha continuously thinks she can handle a situation alone (secretly shes afraid that Bruces anger for her will cause the Hulk to lash out at her too and Thor isnt around to stop him no one is... she'd be alone) and does a pretty good job fighting off the bad guys herself, but eventually theyre cornered and Bruce says they need Hulk... and she says no and they argue and Bruce does it anyways and takes out the bots coming after them and when he turns, Nat is clearly scared like she was that first time... Hulk reaches out to her because hes not just a mindless beast and she faces and conquers her fear and they work well together.

Bruce watching Natasha keep him safe and be there for him (maybe theres a point where SHE could save herself and leave Bruce but she doesnt) and she in turn sees that Bruce/Hulk isnt something that she needs to be scared of. EXCELLENT. If they wanna hint a maybe romance after that fine... I prefer it not happen but at least theres some material to work with. Bruce takes off at the end because he still cant deal with what happened earlier in the movie with him ripping apart a city... so hes off to Ragnarok as scheduled.

Thor.......... I dunno. Like Clint its a bit hard to work with him in this movie. He can do what hes doing in the movie I guess? but like... let him have some connection... maybe hes the one who calms Hulk down since Nats not there... but instead of just talking at Hulk hes like 'hey buddy!!' and Hulks like RRAWRRRR and Thor yells at him back and is like 'LOL -PUNCH- lets get going' and Hulk is like '-huff huff- -looks angry-.....k'. IDFK. But itd be cool since Ragnarok they became buddies anyways....

Rhodey should have been in contact with the Avengers in the movie more. There is a scene where hes talking with Tony and Nat over a computer but it was cut... but they should have given him that scene and him updating the Avengers on what hes doing (finding Fury and getting SHIELDs help or w/e) and Whedon not even letting Sam come back for the finally is unforgivable..

but I guess it would really highlight the fact he sidelined the 3 black guys and only let them come in in the end.... but Sam being sent to find Bucky was a shitty way to get rid of him. But it just makes it clear the movies after the Avengers was disregarded- Whedon doesnt know what to do with Sam (whos introd in Cap2), Rhodey is back to being War Machine with no explanation(even though in IM3 hes Iron Patriot), Fury is back with SHIELD (even though SHIELD was dismantled and Fury left)...

Rhodey being Iron Patriot could have been hilarious too... and also gave Steve and Rhodey some kind of connection. Just have him land by Cap in that ridiculous suit and Cap looks at him and he looks at Cap and Tonys like 'Well one of you needs to change...' and then in Civil War when Rhodey is back to War Machine... itd be kind of hilarious. They can even have another running gag where people keep fake mistaking them as the same person and theyre like 'ALRIGHT I FUCKING GET IT' 'LANGUAGE~~'

But youd need the writers to actually care about Rhodey... AND THEY FUCKIN DONT. All of them. Theyre all to blame.

..Where was I...

Also literally ONE scene with Vision and Tony... maybe at the very end... because Tony losing his most consistent/closest confidant and only RDJ looking devastated because he seems to be the only one who cares about Tonys bots/AIs kinda sucks. I mean Whedon admitted that he didnt think JARVIS was all that important didnt he? Garbo.

...IDK what else... but you know what I mean? Im so sick of heroes fighting each other... its cool and sad every once in awhile but literally every movie doesnt have to be that.

Will anyone read my rambling nonsense? Probably not... but I have a lot of feelings. AoU and BvS ...why do you gotta suck so hard.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

how people interact with fiction is a really broad and complex subject involving like all of human history across the world and all the mediums we've developed and potentially all the individual stories that exist, and imo it's always interesting to hear anyone talk about it....but like of all the ways to analyze that topic there's stuff that is overlooked like just the other week i was taking a survey that got me thinking about how much the concept of the Fandom(tm) is kind of written off as a much less valuable or influential form of consumption than being a glum writer dude sighing in a misunderstood way at the local café or any random guy in a college class who is here to fuck kubrick's filmography. plus one thing that was really interesting on twitter a few days ago was someone writing about how even when anyone acknowledges video games are a medium its usually written off as worth any kind of analysis becoz i guess enjoying it is usually deliberately accessible and people are having fun, but they were pointing out that people will wave it off any "escapism" but don't ever consider why people find stuff like running around on an endless hero quest to be escapism. i.e. stopping to ask what they are escaping with this and why it fulfills something they dont find otherwise? like helping people directly, having choice and finding worth in everything you do, etc like natch thats not the only reason people play video games or the only benefit they get from them (and thats looking at one particular kind of game) but it also reminded me of how everyone tends to treat escapism as like, a self-evident criticism of the consumer rather than a really interesting way to examine what people are finding in a particular kind of story and what that reflects about any patterns in the lives of the audience that could expose something they value but aren't finding irl tldr it made me think of how it gets pretty old whenever people are just like hey, listen to THIS white-hot Exposé: you're invested in media because you're dissatisfied with your own life! and its like that's it, oh shit!! or the post that exists in like fifty variations about how people who like shipping are just reflecting their desires for their own relationships. which is kind of stale and way too oversimplified, and also its not like its an embarrassment when people use fiction to explore their aspirations. like its not like it isnt true that people use fiction as escapism and/or a reflection of their desires, but that's not like, the only thing going on there for absolutely everyone who loves fictional stuff, and its more than kind of a "is that it?" moment to just be like: being a fan of something is escapism, and that's the entirety of what i have to say. like...sick burn? thats like the least interesting thing to say about any of it. "people like botw because their lives are sad" is boring and self-righteously condescending, and "people like botw and its popular appeal could be an indication of how capitalisms effect on society robs people of the chance to find freedom or value in their everyday lives" is a lot less so and that's also to say that its bs when people are just presenting the "anything you're invested in is escapism" as a Revelation in and of itself, as though anyone needs to just realize this, because clearly theyre just escaping personal problems that they'd have time to fix if they'd stop watching star trek or whatever. as if everyone engaging in escapism is unaware of the fact they're doing so, and/or in denial that they're not happy with everything in their life. as though escapism is inherently a problem in itself. as if confronting a problem is always what's best for someone; it's not! especially when people do not have control over it! for example, in the earliest periods of grief, having this concept that people need to be confronting it and thinking through it to be getting through it in a "healthy" way. and that if they aren't talking about it and people don't see them emoting their grief enough and if they're trying to distract themselves, it's just avoidance or denial or whatever and they just need to confront it or have a helpful friend confront them with it until they're crying and Letting It Out or Confronting Reality or whatever. when really, distracting oneself tends to be helpful for most people in that situation. not to say that there's a Right Way to go through that and that if they just make the right decisions and take the one true approach they'll be emotionally unscathed now and forever—its in fact to say the opposite of that. people's emotions are complicated and the death of a loved one is one of the most "you have zero control over it" personal problems but in all those kinds of situations, there's no "one way" that applies to everyone to best help yourself get through it. its whatever is going to be most helpful to that one individual. and probably the people who are best going to know what's most helpful is the person who is going through it, people close to them who know them intimately, a good therapist with a lot of knowledge in the area of their particular problems and really, another side of that "escapism is bad and nobody would engage in it if they knew they were engaging in it" is this implication of immaturity. along with the implied immaturity of enjoying things. like being a fan of stuff is a step in your character arc and when you resolve that arc you will Transcend your enjoyment and see beyond your au fic. and that once you really become a mature Appreciator of True Art, you'll at last become the glum author man whose vast inner depths go unnoticed by the world. thank god