#and i got super fucked up abt it bc like. tw emotional abuse and gaslighting but like. they have a history of gaslighting me abt my memory

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// talking abt the main story update in tears of themis!! trigger warning below

my thoughts are definitely mixed up while writing this so if you decide to read it, sorry it may be confusing LMAO

also if you do read this pls fully read my marius comment!! mari has def become one of my number 1 faves and i don’t want it to seem like i’m slandering marirosa or him personally lol

TW;; child neglect, emotional abuse/gaslighting/emotional manipulation, in the story it implies sexual violence (rword) but i don’t mention it here explicitly

this chapter was super close to home for me and i didn’t expect to be as triggered as i was lmao. when i saw the warnings on twt i was like, okay, i can handle this and i did finish the story without breaking down.

the last episode definitely left me off feeling less upset, especially when rosa talked to irene and told her about jade and that they will get justice for her and the kids/people abused.

i had a lot of theories while reading the story, a few laughs but definitely around the last time they questioned jun i started to get more serious.

the first trigger was that questioning, when jun said he basically raised her like a canary in a cage,, which was pretty fucked up and where i stopped defending jun to be honest lmao, like i thought you loved her??

the biggest fucking trigger for me was when they talked to irene before the trial. when caroline was there. when irene talked about the fact she did ask for her mother to help her, that she was uncomfortable and wanted to go home… and caroline basically brushed her off like a nuisance.

that is the most infuriating part of this case for me personally and out of all the characters i definitely sympathize with irene the most. people don’t understand the fucking fear you have to sit through when your parents brush you off saying, “i’m gonna get you in the morning, you’re fine.” and having to be in a place that you find so disgustingly uncomfortable (even if they are good people!!) it’s just… you have no excuse to not come pick up your child that has stated they want to come home.

what if something did happen to your kid? you wouldn’t know because you decided to hang up that phone and left them in a place that you have no clue what’s happening off that device. because you were caring about your own alone time not even wondering why the exact reason your kid said they wanted to leave. the difference is that irene had to deal with this for over ten years. no help at all.

i had this theory at the beginning that jade was actually alive and she n irene both killed edwin over irene being abused (bc the way ppl described how close they were) or bc of the debts. i wasn’t all the way off the mark i think if jade was alive and irene did understand jade’s side, how jade was the only person who did care and want to help irene, irene would probably manipulate jade’s (if jade wasn’t already feeling resentful) emotions (the way she did to jun) and they’d both kill him.

i started to realize jun probably never really loved irene bc the “love at first sight” was literally just of her looks that’s why he agreed to the marriage and he was basically a sick possessive fuck, the fact he took away irene’s only hope, her last dream to get away from the people who hurt her the most and forced her to stay with him? sick.

i was also pretty upset with the way rosa just straight up showed caroline the abuse pictures while the VICTIM was in the room… it was sickening… also when they got to the car and the conversation mari and rosa had made me?? a little irk 😭😭

i know marius needed that pep talk for sure and i definitely don’t disagree i just think after being triggered from what irene explained and how i was relating to some things that happened to her it felt like that wasn’t an appropriate conversation to have in that moment bc of what information was just given… and just bc it just felt like a lovey-dovey moment between them after this serious ass moment and i was just … weirded out(?) LMAOO, i don’t know how to explain it… i felt like that conversation was better to have after the last questioning with jun but!! it’s fine,, i’m glad he trusted rosa to talk abt that bc he did have points.

i am FARR from hating rosa that was just something that bothered me bc ?? idk be a LITTLE MORE SENSITIVE TO THE ONE IN THE ROOM IN THOSE TRAUMATIZING PICS??? 😭😭 /nm /lh

it’s sad when you live in the same exact world as other people but they deal with sad things happening to them and you somehow feel spoiled or blessed because of that fact. :(

i think just cuz jun doesnt have a great father figure in his life (his grandfather) compared to marius dad being a protecter of his son and doesn’t have a great brother like marius doesn’t give him a right to make marius feel bad about this life he has. yes, you weren’t fortunate enough but jsut because you point out these great things marius has but you don’t doesnt mean marius doesn’t deal with bad things either in his life… your family is close to disowning you but marius also deals with slander, from people in pax to the public view? like… i get how jealousy can form from it but !! it’s still messed up overall

conclusion!! lots of emotions, mixed feelings, different thoughts lol but i really enjoyed this chapter and got deeply immersive into the story. i think the way they portrayed different things and handled the victim trying to serve their own justice was greatly executed. definitely so far the most impacting story for me that really hit home, i hope edwin rots in hell :)

also i wanna see if anyone has different views from mine when it comes to caroline, to me she definitely used irene and should have cared more about her child than becoming CEO and “making it up to her”,, i think that was the lamest excuse and she couldnt even come up with a great reasoning of why she didn’t get her daughter when her daughter said she felt uncomfortable. i’m sure she definitely feels guilty at the end but these are the reasons why greed has the biggest karma of all.

i hope everyone enjoyed the chapter and if you did get triggered please drink some water and eat something!! write what you’re thinking about, rip it up and throw it away. watch something to ease your mind, you’re okay and safe! take it easy <3