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suck-mein-pokeballs · 20 hours ago

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Opened up to my therapist about my questionable relationships with adults growing up (aka being groomed and abused by adults growing up to different degrees ranging from mildly inappropriate to holy shit that person should be in jail)

And started discussing the guilt I feel about those relationships and events, and stuff

It's one of those things I just couldn't bring myself to talk about

She sent me an assignment to go out and get something for those kids I was growing up that would've made them smile

It was an interesting experience

#mein shit #got a cunty short i know i wouldve loved in middleshool-highschool #a book cause i used to love reading #that one was hard #cause i dont read anymore and i had to find something that i thought i wouldve enjoyed growing up and wouldve been appropiate but that #i could read now as well #i got some pocky #and i got a little pink pocketknife with a cutesy bunny handle for 8-9 yo me #cause i knew that kid still liked pink and i just i hate pink but i decided i was buying that kid pink #and i saw the knife and it made me chuckle and i was like yeah this feels appropriate #that kid couldve used a pocketknife #think im gonna watch my favorite movies from those eras this Saturday and maybe braid myself a friendship bracelet #idk guess recovery and trying to regain a sense of humanity and personhood also includes reconnecting with yourself #and trying to be kind to the people and children you were before you got to this point #more of a box cutter than a pocket knife but honestly damn near the same thing in my experience lol #i think theyre used more as a weapon than as 'box cutters'

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