#and i don't mean ''can't help it'' in like a sex-addict kind of way lol but like. they can't help being drawn to each other

[theflyingfeeling]

Hi! Sending you some fanmail 💌 Your infidelity AU is one of the most heartbreaking, emotional and well written fiction I have read in my life. Sometimes when I feel sad I read it to distract myself so I can be sad for Olli and Aleksi in that imaginary situation instead. Works every time! Question: have you imagined the possible aftermath if they get caught or just can't live in a web of lies anymore? Or is the thought just too depressing 🥲

fanmail?? for little old me????? noooooo 😭😭😭😭💖💞💓💕

thank you, that AU is my favourite child at the moment and I loooooooove writing it so much!! ngl I feel terrible about making them suffer so much without ever resolving any of it and making them happy in the end, but... I can't really see it 😭 getting caught (by someone other than a bandmate) is not something I have really thought about that much tbh, because yeah, that would be a little too much, even if in some twisted way they may (in some of those fics) expect or even hope to be caught just so that they could maybe finally... stop doing it? or break-up with their partners and get together? I really haven't decided. in my mind, it's always them eventually putting an end to it themselves before shit hits the fan and settling for just pining for each other forever, wishing things would have turned out differently 😔 because in all those stories they do still love their partners as well, so it's a little more complicated than that and they find it difficult to end those relationships, even if all the cheating and lies are killing them from the inside 🥲

one alternative to getting caught that I can think of is that one or both their partners at some point "sense" something is up with the two and confront them about it, but even in those scenarios I prefer the version in which one or both their partners do figure it out but neverthless decide to never bring it up because... maybe they hope it's harmless? maybe hope it's just, idk, a phase? or maybe they just choose to ignore it, because if they don't acknowledge or address it in any way, maybe it's not actually happening (because they can't bear it to be real)? so so tragic, I LOVE IT 🥺

having said all that, I do wish I could think of a way to end any of those stories with a little more hope in the end 😅😩 in some no-band AUs (that I write in my head) I often just make them break up with their partners so that they can be together, but usually in those AUs they're more or less unhappy with their relationships to begin with. in the Infidelity AU, the very point is that they're still (trying to be) good and loving boyfriends while having unexpectedly fallen in love with someone else and not knowing what to do about it (i.e. not wanting to break up because that would break too many hearts, so they'd rather just suffer in silence, but they also can't stay away from each other), because !!!!!! all the conflicting feelings!! all the guilt!! the remorse!! the hopelessness!! chef's kiss, if you ask me 😍

[whatifyoulivelikethat]

about watching porn and getting off

i really don't know how to frame this, and it may seem really stupid, but i have to ask- i struggle w watching porn, and it started when i was young. i wouldnt say i have an addiction, but whenever i watch it, i feel super guilty bc i know the porn industry is all kinds of messed up and that i shouldnt be watching it; however, i cant really get off without it. i have never felt comfortable enough w smut to get off, especially het ones... so my question is- how do i get off by myself w/o supporting weird, exploitative industries or smut? this is the most embarrassing thing i have ever asked anyone, so pls ignore if u feel uncomfy. bye.

Porn is like all media. It depends on what you consume. The porn industry has its failures, as you know. However, in recent years, a shift in audience prespective and sex workers fighting for their rights has changed quite a lot. There is now plenty of porn out there where the actors are safe, paid fair wages, and enjoy what they're doing.

There are websites marketed as "porn for women" with both free and paid options if you would like (and have the means) to support the actors. This does not mean that the porn is only for cis women; rather "porn for women" is a term used in the industry to describe "female friendly" porn - those made with the female orgasm in mind, more natural bodies, etc. Typically both heterosexual and LGBTQ+ options are available. Patreon, OnlyFans, etc is also out there for amateur porn and/or specific sex work if you're looking for something niche. In fact, amateur porn, even on free websites, is a relatively safe bet to be non- exploitative.

Porn in it of itself is not a bad thing. Obviously I'm biased - you are on my smut blog after all lol - but to say porn should induce guilt implies that there is shame in sex. I don't believe that's true. You don't have to watch porn if you don't want to, but I think it should be available to those who would like to have that exposure. Porn is how many people discover sex. However, it is important to remember that porn is a depiction of sex that is biased by the director and distributor.

For example, I've never seen porn that depicts a good blowjob. That's because delivering a mind-blowing suck does not translate well on screen. You can't see anything (lol). Porn is made to be watched, but something visually appealing may not provide the most pleasurable sensation in practice. Written smut can be a closer description of "real-life" sex, provided that the person writing it can translate the emotions and physicality well enough.

And sometimes it's hard to get off while scrolling lol

Masturbation without porn or smut only takes imagination. The problem for most people is... imagination. XD That's why those options of watching porn, reading smut, etc are out there. Still, masturbation has a lot to do with knowing how to get yourself off. Practice your technique and then there's not much time for thinking, haha! Or you can invest in an effective sex toy XD

Do some research into what you're watching, try different ways of getting yourself off, enlist the help of a toy if you want. There's a lot of choices out there, feel free to explore. :D

[codyh412]

My pen pal Taylor and I understand the pain humanity has gone through with drugs. There's a reason why they are illegal, and it's to prevent people from finding God or Love. I was first homeless at 19, where I stayed at a shelter for 2 years studying the Bible. I ended up avoiding prison by staying off heroin at this Church but got 9 months of jail with 3 years of probation. In 2015 I got off but violated twice so I ended up doing 8 months of county on top of the 9 I already did. The rest of the time was pretty much in rehab cause I kept using heroin. I've ODed, sold to people who died, one guy fell asleep with a ciggarette and burnt his mom's house down, I got my first class 2 felony for Narcotic sales when I was 17. Today I'm on probation for Arson of an Occupied Structure class 2 dangerous felony. Went to prison for a year cause of paraphernalia #323959 is my number. But despite all of this, I still use drugs and finally managed to get a higher Dimensional spirit give me the 7fold Spirit of Karma and Luck. Now look at the life I live? I'm a Mystic who teaches women how to get a spirit guide and become a medium with the help of meth and heroin. Your tolerance to the drugs will not increase from this, that first hit stays the first hit and lasts an extremely long time. It's because your brain gets rewired as we get high and I teach you the secrets while showing you love and empathy. It's amazing how a lot of women notice they use less and less as the knowledge gets them just as high with one hit. Don't believe me? That's fine we will let the foolish be themselves but some people are really struggling and need this so don't put me down because I don't get anything out of this, in fact I even pay for the drugs. Well actually I do get happiness when I see these women succeed. They are all extremely beautiful and also way more wise than you think. Also they are psychic mediums so if you lust after these women you will never get one to marry you let alone sleep with you lololol. It's so fucked up I know guys, I get plenty of Karma from my own Spirit guide for looking at busty women. How could you not though??? Someone else will figure it out and teach us, I'm only here to turn addiction into Cosmic Connection whether it's chemical, perfection, gambling, self harm, hurting others behind a computer screen, Selfishness, sex, technology, and whatever else we distract ourselves constantly with instead of using it for Spirituality and Wisdom.

The South Atlantic Anomoly is gonna cause the poles to reverse soon. The north and south pole will end up on the Equator while the Earth floods. And of course all the animals migrate to the new North Pole (like Noah's time) and Vladmir Putin claimed this block of ice that will be over the land as well, do your research people. There's a reason why Angels have come to Earth, I'm actually a Demon and an Angel, I communicate with both. Psychic abilities are gray magic through the 5th element Ether.

I'm a really caring and compassionate person for you all, so it's sad that I've been so disrespected and put down for being different and saying things that others can't comprehend. No I'm not in a psychosis or have schizophernia, and I proved this to my probation officer as well as my family and friends from rehab. Multiple SMI evaluations and x-rays plus MRI's I think it was? They scanned my brain while playing high pitched sounds to notice how my brain processed a sound I shouldn't be able to hear. I proved telepathy to be real to one of the counselors giving me my SMI evaluation. She didn't believe I actually heard a spirit give me the answer but oh well. Anyways I still couldn't get diagnosed with anything, no ADD, Bi polar, PTSD, Psychosis, and the thing is that they can't find what's wrong with my head. Maybe they never will cause there is nothing wrong.

Right now I'm all alone trying my hardest to teach my friends in jail or prison but it's hard for me because I'm all alone. Taylor doesn't get out till September, and the other females have years :/

This is just a blog for the end of war on drugs here in Arizona. And the blessing of the addicts into Demi God's like myself because Man who can rid himself of negative human emotions and thoughts will let in a Spiritual Energy that will rebuild the brain to Ascend Man. The person has become one with the Divine Spirit as that Spirit becomes one with the Flesh.

A Mystic or Magician is born. Mystics do miracles while magicians do magic. The Bible says do not practice dark arts so good thing my art is Gray and Light magic lol.

We had to live in all this darkness for so long, doing this means we can learn from the pain we went through.

Ecc. 2 something I don't remember but it says something like Having more sorrow leads to more knowledge, Pain equals Wisdom.

When Taylor and I write our own book for addicts of all kind to take home after our Mystic Drug Therapy sessions we will make sure to have the proper facts.

unless we strongly advise that our edit to it is actually the correct writing.

Until then I'm looking for women here in Payson AZ that want to give it a chance. It's just my mother and I up here and she just got out of prison so she had no where to stay but with me. Anyone who realizes how much they can help me will get so much Luck and appreciation from the sevenfold Spirit. I can't do this alone, I've only been able to make my own life one that flourishes now.

The red box is my heroin nectar collector, I stashed my meth in there. I smoked the dope off foil to show the different qualities I was getting. When you're a good person and always pay your debts your dealer will front you quads when you're struggling. And getting out of prison makes you broke as shit so I had to do that. Shitty thing is all the dirtbags keep you from the good people so the money doesn't go far. So fuck it, if you're a hot chick and need to get high then it will cost you. Nothing material, it will cost your old way of life and the belief that you are better than what society tells you. Once again though you ladies realize how hard it is to prove I'm legit all by myself? My family and especially my probation officer don't want me teaching this shit LOL.

Even if we video chat and smoke together that's better than nothing right? Gotta start somewhere and I bet my clouds for God will be bigger and more dense!!

No one said this would be easy but it is the apocalypse and I'm the Demi God of War (on drugs). We can't rid the world of drugs but we can rid our minds of ego, selfishness, sexual unsatisfaction, and lots of other negative ways of thinking. So that addiction does not exist in the mind but Divine connection instead.

I'm not perfect either btw, far from it. I love learning cool hobbies and organization skills from my female friends. Oh and of course the sex is awesome for us lol.

My name? Dakota Sparrow Humphreys

Spirits names Ether, Yougan, Jesza, Rainie, Maysee, Michael, Trayuls.

They are karma and luck spirits and wish you all good luck when shit hits the fan. Allowing them to help you will get us all closer to Heaven.

Even a simple comment made on here or in your head can be acknowledged. Don't believe in God or my Spirits but believe in my cause? I will be your Higher Power of Consciousness and mine will be our Highest Power of Consciousness. One that is infinite as the Universe expands and Almighty. You will have to seriously question me and understand so that you don't worship a false idol or false prophet or a magician.

Can't handle your shit? Well neither can I and I'm doing just fine

so it's time you figured it out, you don't wanna learn this shit in a dark realm of existence do you? It takes for fucking ever without our help, thousands of years in hell to get into Heaven and can't use anything materialistic? Or drugs, making love, art, music and instruments, gel pens and HBO go for less than a year for the same results and access to Heaven. Also you get to survive through the apocalypse while we all are given drugs and have a good end times.

Don't believe me? Hahah can you prove or disprove me? I've already proved myself to the people I care for, because they gave me the chance to care for them. You get it?