#and i didnt even process that until tom said. hey you used this word. do you think that actually is true to yourself

[fatcowboys]

i think its rude that sometimes. when you go to therapy. a place where ur going to improve yourself. what instead happens is you learn oh my brain is much worse than i thought and im just really good at ignoring that. i didnt even notice i thought that until you pointed it out which.

[smileyparkersmiley]

jealousy looks good on you, t.h

a/n: Hey guys and thank you so much for the support on the last post, I’m glad you seemed to enjoy it. I have wanted to write a jealous Tom fic for a while and I hope you all enjoy this one as well. Remember my requests are open if there is anything specific you want me to write about for either Tom or Peter I would love to give it a go!

words: 1.9k

genre: jealous tom and fluff throughout

I like to think of myself as a simple woman, I like to say that I don't need a lot of things to make me happy, and right now all I needed was my boyfriend, some salty popcorn and a Netflix film. But tonight thats not on the agenda as its Toms mums birthday, she was turning 51 and Dom was throwing her a little surprise party, and when I say little I mean not so little. Tom managed to fly over from LA as there was a gap in his schedule in-between his press tours for Onward so he's able to surprise his mum on her birthday. He's here for the whole week and I’m happy to have him home as it’s been about a month since I've last seen him, and the withdrawal symptoms were kicking in.

As much as I adore Toms mum Nicki, I couldn't help but feel selfish and want to keep Tom all to myself for the night considering his flight only landed this afternoon and I only got a few hours alone with him before I will have to share him with countless strangers. Tom as well being extremely tired from his flight just wanted to sleep and cuddle up on the sofa which is what our afternoon consisted of until I dragged him upstairs to have a shower and freshen up for the main event.

‘Come on love go and freshen yourself up I don't think your mum would appreciate you stinking up her house after being on a 10 hour flight’ I tease, whilst tugging on his hand to get his body up the stairs to get ready, the last thing we need is to be late.

He pulls his bodyweight up and is standing directly in front of me now with a gentle grip on both of my hands

‘If it means everyone has to leave and its just me and you then I might just take that risk and skip the shower all together’ He smirks, I slap his arm gently scolding him

‘You’re so cheesy, now get your arse up the stars’

Toms shower was running and I could hear him singing away to a song I couldn't quite figure out because he doesn't like people hearing him sing, thats why he sings in the shower he thinks his voice goes unheard, however, though its muffled its still enough to cause a smile to creep onto my lips as a think about how much I’ve missed hearing him around the flat these past few weeks and how grateful I am that he's home.

The shower switches off and I pick up my outfit and a couple pieces of jewellery that I’ve chosen to compliment the look into mine and Toms shared bathroom, he's out of the shower I’m sure he won't mind me coming in to get showered, it's not like I haven't seen anything before.

I’ve had my shower and gotten dressed I haven't seen Tom dressed and I’m not too sure what he's planning on wearing, I was half way through my makeup when the bathroom door opens suddenly.

‘Oh wow, it feels like every time I lay my eyes on you you get more and more beautiful’

Toms eyes were wide and were sweetly scanning my body up and down in admiration taking his time to cherish every part of my body. My cheeks immediately flushed and I got nervous, no matter how long me and Tom have been together I will never get used to his compliments and the way he looks at me. He could sense my vulnerability in this moment and came over and pressed a kiss to my cheek, which only increased the blood flow to my cheeks even more. I looked at him in the mirror and it was my turn to admire. He was wearing black well fitted jeans with a white shirt and was holding a leather jacket in his arms which I'm assuming he's come to ask for my opinion on wearing it. He's so close I can smell his cologne, a scent I didnt realise I missed so much until it was taken away from me, his arms and chest fit well in his shirt which he has grown into slightly and his short hair was perfectly gelled and I was finding it hard to resist the urge to run my hands through it.

Tom noticed I was staring and his cheeks were now matching with mine, he wraps his arms around my waist and rests his head on my shoulder and watches me in the mirror, I lean into his touch.

‘Can I help you?’ I ask as he continues to just look at me with interest despite me doing anything interesting in the slightest.

‘Carry on doing your makeup I love watching you, its just so interesting to me’

I don't completely understand his thought processes but I nod and carry on as I was making him smile whilst watching me blend my neutral eyeshadow. He watches me blend that eye and removes me from his hold and goes to leave the bathroom, I stop him just before as I take a light grip on his hand, he looks at his hand then up at me

‘I forgot to say, thank you and you too look very beautiful tonight’ I tell him and see his eyes light up at my compliment.

‘Thank you darling’ and with that he places a light peck on my lips leaving me to continue getting ready, with enough adrenaline coursing through my blood to keep me on a high for the whole evening.

We arrive at the party, there were lots of people here scratch 50 people there were at least 70 easily, the Hollands knew a lot of people. Me and Tom went and said hello to his brothers, his dad and Harrison and we did the rounds of ‘how are you?’ and ‘I saw your latest film it was amazing’ a lot of the conversation just involved polite smiles and nods from me and Tom talking about his adventures on movie sets and film premieres.

Toms mum arrived, and was indeed very surprised and when her eyes landed on Tom the poor woman burst into tears as she scooped her eldest son up in a large hug as she was glad that he was able to get away from work to celebrate with her.

Me and Tom had a lovely conversation with her as she told us that she had a normal day at work and that Dominic said that he was going to take her out for dinner just them two because no one else was able to make it.

‘Its so lovely to see you too y/n, how have you been what have you been getting up to then?’

The conversation continued for a while until she was eventually pulled away by many of her friends who wanted to speak to her so me and Tom moved on.

Tom was having a conversation with a couple who I believed were friends of him mums when I noticed his glass was empty and was probably in need of another drink

‘Tom I’ll go and grab us another drink, I’ll be back in a moment’ Tom says thanks and hands me his glass with one hand and removes his grip from around my waist with the other.

I meander through the large groups of people to get to the bar where I order me and Tom new drinks, when this man who was in his early 20s approached me and sparked up a conversation. I was a bit taken aback at first but he seemed really nice and interesting. I love Toms work and I am incredibly proud of everything he does however it is nice to have a conversation be focused on you and what you do and not just your famous boyfriends films.

He told me his name was Jake and that his mum was a good friend of Nicki's and works with her thats why he was here, we must have stood by the bar for a while without realising as I saw Tom approaching with a confused look spread across his face.

As soon as he reaches my side his arm attaches itself to my hip again and he introduces himself to Jake.

‘Hi, I don't think that we have met before, I’m Tom y/ns girlfriend’ He holds out a hand to shake Jakes

‘Oh hey man I’m Jake’ Jake shakes Toms hand and looks down at his drink awkwardly as he doesn't know how to play his next moves. Tom turns himself now to look down at me

‘y/n, Harrison wants to come and have a catch up’ He then turns himself towards Jake

‘Do you mind if we just’ He gestures to somewhere behind him not bothering to see if Harrison is actually over there

I could sense the tension that Tom was creating, I know jealousy when I see it and especially if its on Tom, he wears his heart on his sleeve and you can read his emotions like a book, and I couldn't decide whether this look suited him or not.

‘No go ahead of course, I think my mum wants me to go over to her as well anyway so’ He awkwardly picks up his jacket from the stool he was sitting on and his drink

‘It was really nice talking to you y/n’ His eyes flash quickly at Tom and then to me but they don't linger for too long, he turns and walks away with no hesitation. That situation escalated quickly and Toms jealous side has emerged and theres no doubt that its going away too quickly.

‘So what did Harrison want to talk to us about?’ I play dumb knowing full well that Harrison didnt want to talk to us about anything, in fact we already spent an hour talking to him when we got here.

‘Oh yeah Harrison’ He says but he isn't looking at me he's looking straight ahead, his jaw is tightening and his brows are frowned, I’ve decided jealousy does look good on him, very good indeed.

‘Lets not stay for too much longer its getting late and I’m really tired’ He says turning to me softening slightly when he catches my eyes.

“yeah that sounds good to me, and Tom?’ I start to look forward to the prospect of cuddling Tom tonight, something I missed from the second he left, my body now craves to be intertwined with his at the thought of it.

‘Yeah?’ His brows now raised

‘You do know There was no flirting going on between me and Jake earlier we were literally just talking right?’ Tom doesn't look convinced however.

‘y/n he was clearly flirting with you, I saw the way he was looking at you and how he was touching his hair trying to make you swoon’ Toms eyes immediately went darker almost as something inside of him switched, he used his arms as he spoke because he was getting frustrated and his hair was starting to become floppy as a result of the gel loosing its touch. In short he was making it very difficult not to pounce on him there and then.

I grabbed on the the collar of his shirt to pull him closer to me, I whisper sensually in his ear.

‘Jealously looks good on you Tom, now take me home so I can do something about it’

[ew-trash]

Future Edd x Present Reader. I remember

(Just a heads up this is longer than I thought it was gonna be I got caught up in writing Edds memories and such I went over board with the memory part I’m sorry.)

“Hello there! I’m (y/n) I was looking into your ad for a new roommate? I was hoping I could get the room? We could be roomMATES, get it... I’m sorry I’m nervous” “I’m Edd, this is Tom and Matt so far you’re the only one who answered so come in I’ll show you around” I remembered your beautiful eyes, nervous smile and awkward movement. ~~

“ Why don't some couples go to the gym? Because some relationships don't work out” I’d spew puns it even if no one else liked them I liked them and so did you, you would like them and then try your hardest to throw a joke back at me.

“ I'd tell you a chemistry joke but I know I wouldn't get a reaction” You tried a pun and you laughed and laughed  and I remembered I  knew I was in love with you.

~~

“Hey haha, um say (y/n) I was wondering if maybe we could go out...the two of us minus Tom and Matt..go see a movie...get some food...dinner food o-or lunch food” I tried to ask you out I found it hard with my stomach twisting and my chest tightening your cheeks went red after a moment staring at me, the smile you gave me made my stomach untwist and I knew it was gonna be okay. 

 “Yes I would love to go out, I-I mean go see a movie with you and eat food...food is nice, pick me up at six infront of my door?” You laughed softly, you lived with us but it still made me laugh and of course I agreed. “Don’t be late Edd, I know where you sleep” You joked again and kissed my cheek as you walked away to get ready. My heart felt like it was going to burst out of my chest. I remember these feelings. ~~~~~ “I, love you Edd” You told me your face was red and you avoided eye contact hands rubbing together nervously we’ve been dating for awhile now maybe six months and you finally blurted what I wanted to say, we kissed a little while back and my heart exploded when you told me you loved me it felt even better than the kisses and cuddles and terrible jokes we shared.

“I love you too” I sputtered and laughed I couldn’t help myself, you didn’t know how much you meant to me...you were my world.

“You two should get a room” Tom said walking by and of course,

“I think we will” I joked tugging you close to me and your face was so red I couldn’t help joke more about it and kiss your face and tell you over and over more quietly “I love you”...I loved you..so darn much. I remember you smiling bright and we sat there telling each other the same thing over and over I remember meaning every word. ~~~ I asked you to marry me and you almost burst into tears and started to laugh you never gave me an answer though and I felt my heart sink when you held out your finger to me and said “No I can’t” I was crushed but then you got on your knee before me.

“I wanted to ask you if you would marry me” You said taking out a small velvet box and opened it to a ring that would easily fit my finger. “You ruined the surprise Edd and beat me too it” You laughed looking at the ring you got me.

“Ask me” I urged you giving you the most serious look I could muster. “Edd, I’d....be the happiest human alive if you would, want to of course..marry me? Please” You were to busy crying and giggling to think of a proper way to ask me..was that proper? Probably I was going to say the same. “Only if you’ll have me” I remember when you nodded and gave me your ring and my ring to you.   ~~~

There you were walking towards me between the two rows of people. Tom stood beside me telling me how amazing you looked in what you wore, we had a small argument on who would walk down the isle since well you know...we both asked if you would marry me eventually you gave up and I’m so glad you did...

“They’re beautiful” I whispered to Tom who nodded, he had goggles he wore that replaced his old eyes blinked, it was something we had to get use to but Tom was gonna be fine he can still see, you reached us the biggest smile on your lips your eyes were so bright you “lit” up my world haha..

“You look amazing Edd” You whispered and stole my lips even before the father who was about to wed us could ask us for our vows. “One last kiss before we get married..then we can have wedded kissing, I’m sorry I’m nervous”  

I remember saying I Do never once looking away from you, you said I do before the man who was trying to wed us finished asking you... I also remember the uh night...we had shared together as a married couple. ~~~ “Well that sucks” You said reading the paper you told me about the cola 

And oh boy did I drop to my knees in defeat. I was being over dramatic but for a GOOD reason, cola being outlawed the one thing that I loved most..drink wise in the world was gone..until you came out of the basement and gave me a can and told me to drink it in the bathroom. 

I remember how you and I sat in the tub drinking cola breaking the stupidest law. ~~ “We should have kids” You said suddenly out of the blue, we never talked about it but right now you really obviously wanted one..even in a time like this where everything was slowly falling apart...Tom and Matt joined the red army....

“If...you’re ready than I’m ready” I said softly a smile took over my lips...I can teach them the art of puns and terrible jokes. Perfect the Edd legacy will continue! Tonight was date night and it was my turn to take you out, you waited outside for me a wide broad smile on your lips you took my hand and off we went....But...later that day..I remember how someone hurt you and... ~~~~~

You were in the hospital you didn’t have a lot of time we both knew it, The wounds you got from the soldier was to much and the doctors couldn’t do anything about it...you were dying and I couldn’t do anything about it. They did close the wound but there was nothing else they could do for you.

“Why the long face?” You asked me your smile that never failed light up the room never faded...Weren’t you afraid? I was....

“You’re....dying” Dying...you were going to leave me all alone. ...Did it hurt? It hurt me a lot..it felt like dying just...

“I know, I am Edd, They did what they could darling” You tried to look brave but the tears you shed only made it hurt more. “I’ll be okay though” 

Looking around I gently moved you over minding your wounds while I crawled into the small bed that was only ever meant for one person but I made it work and you put your head on my shoulder a hand in yours we talked for awhile...even in this state you made jokes and laughed the hardest at your jokes and the ones I tried, it wasn't easy for me to joke along..I was losing my world the jokes stopped you still smiled though...You reached up cupping my cheek before you stole a kiss from me...your lips warm. You reached up to touch my cheek a hand cupping the ruff scruff I’ve been growing...you said you liked it so I kept it just the way you liked it. 

“Hey, Remember when....we went to space? That was so much fun, sure the Aliens weren’t to happy with Matt but hey we had a blast..or I did.” You asked me. “I wonder if I’ll be among the stars again” 

“Yeah, and you’ll be the brightest...and I’ll know it’s you” “You’re such a cheese ball”

it got quiet among us for awhile, you cuddled into me mumbling words I couldnt understsnd and sighed softly

“I love you” You said nothing back the arm around my stomach loose..I didnt notice until I looked down at you, your eyes were closed you made no movement and your smile dropped ever so slightly...

And I remember knowing that you were gone....

I remember dying with you. ~~~~~~~~

It was a year after and I..couldn’t do this with out you anymore...I decided, it was time that I killed myself... Literally like go back in time... ~~ Present day

I remember.....”Wait, That was an insult!”

~~~~

Rain pounded against the glass relentlessly creating unending steady streams of water to slip down the large window that faced the streets, Lightening cracked and thunder boomed making the house rumble under it mighty crash and the best part? Your housemates and friends are stuck out there in that intense weather probably getting soaked to the bone out there walking with no umbrella that you told them to take with but of course denied it because “It wasn’t going to rain” you guys lived IN England where it rained often either it be summer or sprint it would rain. 

Perhaps you should make them and yourself, some hot chocolate something warm for them so when they get back they can relax while you casually sip look at them and say “I told you so” cause you did tell them so! 

Just as you were finishing up with making the warm drinks the boys burst in and slammed the door behind them you walked over with a trey offering them the drinks Edd took the trey and set it down quickly spilling and tipping over a cup in the process.

“No time we have to go” Edd stated locking the door. “Grab what you need and lets go”  “okay, but why?” You asked following him.

“Someone is trying to kill me” He stated grabbing his lucky cola can and shoved it into his pocket taking your hand he walked towards the garage quickly.

“Uh, Open!.Access” You heard a voice at the door and stopped to look out the window. 

“Uh, He looks like you just taller and older” You said and Edd nodded like yeah, didn’t say it was him though.

He urged you into one of the small red cars everyone all strapped in and ready to go, “Broccoli!” the man outside cried and the garage door...or wall opened the four of you drove out Edd blasting music and swaying along with it, you looked over at the unknown man he aimed a funny gun at you then lowered it when he met your eyes, he stepped forward almost reaching out for you his hard expression had fallen and he looked...like a broken man, for whatever reason it hurt you but you all continued to drive on towards a restaurant.  

You stared out the window mindlessly while everyone else got something to eat and drink you just ended up getting what Edd got to busy lost in your mind to look at the menu, that man looked everything like your partner..but his eyes were sad whatever fire in them was meant for one thing and from what Tom said it was to end Edd. 

“Hi Edd” You looked up when the door crashed open and you stood from your seat when the man thats been chasing you lot walked in looking over at you four he glared at Edd for a moment but when he looked at you his eyes softening he slowly walked over and you stood up like nah man no ones hurting your partner. 

“(Y/n) move I’m not here for you” He demanded.

“No what the hell is going on!” You asked and he flinched.

“I don’t want to live in a world where it’s soda free and with out....with out“ He stared at you, he couldn’t finish what he was trying to say... “And so past Edd must die” 

“How do I know, past Edd? What?” 

He took out a cola can attached to a chain explaining the contents of it and...well it’s, it was Edd just taller and not shaven he grabbed his gun and aimed at Edd

“Wouldn’t that create some sort of paradox?” Edd asked.

“Don’t be stupid that only happens in the movies” He cliched out a little bit, Edd grabbed the giant litter of cola shook it and sprayed the older Edd the four of you rushed off you looked back slowing down and walked out of the building.

short time skip~

You sat in the little red car waiting for the three, one their way back future Edd and ..other Edds’ showed up, getting out of the car you walked over carefully after the past Edds ran, something has been on your mind.

“Edd?” The two Edd’s looked at you. “Where am I in the future?” It....you just had to know, There was a future Tom and a future Matt standing off to the side so...then where were you? 

The look in future Edds eyes alerted you, a look of a man who lost it all...everything that meant the world to him and you knew....

“I’m....dead” You uttered..How? Why? “Was I in..pain?” “No, you died with...You” He lowered his gun bowing his head the way he clenched his teeth and the look of a man about to cry broke your heart. “I can’t live with out you...you were only gone a year but it hurts...so much...that’s why I’m here to kill my past self so he wouldn’t...so I wouldn’t have to lose you”

“By the looks of it I died a long time from now” You walked up to him cupping his cheeks. “Oh that’s weird the scruff, I like it. Honey....what happen..happened and you must live on for it...you obviously had one heck of a life with me..don’t throw that away” You got him to look at you, man he really got tall. 

“I can’t...I can’t, not with out you” He whispered running a large hand through your hair a shattering inhale and a whimper left his lips....he forgot what you felt like..how soft your hair was he touched your cheeks how plump they are oh God.... “Come back” He sobbed. Your chest tightened...Edd must of really loved you. “Please, (Y/n) Don’t make me go back to a world without you in it”

“Hey buddy get your hands off m-” Edd started but Tom just tugged him back. 

“I can’t...but the best you can do for me...for us Edd is to keep going, I love you and I’m sure if my future self was around they’d be so upset with you”  You ignored the scrap going on behind you between Edd Tom Matt and their futures. 

Future Edd hugged around your waist sitting on his knees before you his hold tight, you watched them fight over the time machine...Edds gonna suffer a lot but he’s gonna make good memories, you’ll suffer if Edd dies there was no win win but...he had you longer than you had him. “If you love me, don’t let go” You looked down at Edd who just stared up at you tears stained his cheeks. “How....did I die?”

“We went out...it was date night we were.....when I was looking...someone came and..you refused to give you wallet so they...” He struggled on what he wanted to say...You just nodded understand Matt looked at you holding the little time machine he just smiled and disappeared another flash of light came up right after Matt left. 

“Edd.....honey....let’s go home” 

Edd looked behind him at a familiar face and...

~~~~~~

You all sat on the couch watching TV with Matt on the channel you sat there arms crossed and grinned. Edd about to say something about Matt only to smile wide “I love Matt!” 

You looked around the room something felt odd but....everything just felt right

Turning you looked out to the window where the rain pounded against the glass relentlessly creating unending steady streams of water to slip down the large window that faced the streets, Lightening cracked and thunder boomed making the house rumble under it mighty crash.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

You went outside and talked with someone while you waited for me, I don’t know what they said but you came inside and decided perhaps we’ll just have take out....I remember watching a boy that kind of looked like an old friend walk away and disappear... ~~~~~~

I remember when I first saw our daughter smile at me and how you rocked in the chair on the porch holding her against your chest. ~~~~

                                                                  I remember....

(hi yes I’m sorry for the terrible end I hope this was okay I don’t usually write sad shit but there you go anon)