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ikilledamanforthisurl · 6 days ago

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in the interests of staying comfortable in my room, with the trade-off of feeling kinda bad about it, i have skimped out on going to a gig, which may have been mildly painful and overwhelming to go to but would have made me feel really really good, because my friends are going, and my friends are playing, and they love me and come awwnnn theres no reasons not to go

#ikildaman shut the fuck up #im being facetious theres lots of reasons not to go #5 hour commute to get to geelong. ~9 hour wait time from arrival til my friend's set. 1-2 hours to drive back to friends house elsewhere #never even sneezed in geelongs direction before. had to gmaps it. locating myself and walking around places stress #i dont even know if i can stay awake long enough for THE SET #and i cant even blame myself but that just means my frustration is aimless #like yeah shit is hectic lately. yeah you're ill. yeah you're on meds that are making it worse. fuuck why Would you go #would have been wandering around in a high strung airheadded fugue state the whole time anyways #and probably done something to embarrass myself #my body demands rest but even worse my brain demands rest and it doesn't know how to stop demanding rest

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