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#i'm really hurt rn by my bestfriend's attitude#and i can't rant on twitter because we're following each other on twitter#but i need to get this off my chest or else he'll take the brunt of it#and he doesn't deserve to deal with my mood#but i'm super hurt rn#because last year i asked him what he was doing for pride#hoping we'd go together#and he told me he was just going with his boyfriends#so i didn't go#and then i found out he also went with one of his bf's sister#and ended up meeting up with a friend of ours there#and obviously i saw it all on instagram while i was sitting alone at home#and then this year i asked what he was doing for pride#and he told me he was going with his brother (who came out to him a couple of months ago)#so again i didn't push and told him to have a great time#and then two days ago i saw that he wen't with his bf's sister#and today i saw that he also went with our mutual friend and at least one of his bf#so you know a bunch of people who are also supposed to be my friends#and i'm so deeply hurt that it happened AGAIN especially after I told him that i was super hurt the first time and he apologized and stuff#also it was super difficult to admit it to him because i didn't want to sound petty and jealous#but my therapist told me it was healthy to talk about it instead of just keeping everything inseide#and i don't want to tell him because it's my shit to deal with and just because i'm fucking insecure doesn't mean he has to like#accomodate me or anything#but fuck it makes me so fucking sad#and it's really hard rn to not just see it as another example of “i don't matter to people” and “i'm not worthy of their time”#so yeah#it sucks rn#so i guess tumblr's gonna be my rant space for all things W
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Okay I need to rant. honestly it feels like social media is just... awful when it comes to religion, especially on twitter and instagram. i know some Christians can be nasty in real life, but it feels like on social media the 'religious wars' (as i like to call them) are even worse. i have seen: -Protestants and Catholics hating each other. -Straight up Islamophobia and Antisemitism. -A Queer Catholic posting about her praying so she doesn't get a panic attack- the comments were FULL of homophobes, and very few actual positive comments. -People mocking atheists. -Christians mocking drug users, queer folks, alt people, sex workers, sometimes other Christians for some reason??? -Someone mocking a Catholic for turning to god for her health issues (...underneath a lighthearted reel by the way) Not to mention discussion of religious trauma is mocked constantly, people calling religion a "mental illness", and some people can't even LOOK at pagans without throwing a temper tantrum.
Oh and if you're a new member of a religion (either convert, revert or simply a newbie), deconstructing, queer, drug user (Current or in the process of recovering) or anything that's looked down upon (especially by Christians), than you're either "not doing it right" or you're "not actually a part of that religion" according to some folks. And that's not even getting into the misogyny (Especially towards Muslim women). Like... seriously can we just... stop? Please? Seriously there is no need to fight with one another. We're all people, just with different beliefs. I know religion in general (Christianity especially) has issues, but that is no excuse to insult one another, gatekeep one another or even straight up harass one another. I can't force you guys to like each other but fighting and insulting each other over which beliefs are correct and which ones aren't, the right way to be religious, etc, does *nothing* and is straight up childish! There's no right or wrong way to be religious! Being bigoted does nothing. If you want people to join religion you need to stop calling random people "sinners" or "heretics" or accusing them of "following satan" or telling them to "repent" or basically anything that instills fear and shame.
And lastly, ..i think some of my fellow Christians could use these verses: 2 Timothy 2:23-24 (NIV) 23 Don’t have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. 24 And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Galatians 5:14 (NIV): 14 For the entire law is fulfilled in keeping this one command: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” John 7:24 (NIV) 24 Stop judging by mere appearances, but instead judge correctly.”
Proverbs 3:30 (NIV) 30 Do not accuse anyone for no reason—when they have done you no harm.
#seriously i don't get why we despise one another so much#we're supposed to be siblings in arms!#i cant force you guys to like one another but there's really no need to insult each other's religion#and we especially don't need to resort to literal ableism#or mockery of genuinely valid concerns (like abuse and racism)#seriously this is ridiculous#religion#progressive christian#progressive christianity#christianity#christian#religous infighting#discourse#(though does this even count as discourse at this point?)
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I will never understand what Ben sees in JH, but after a few years of silently watching the train wreck that is twin flames... I'm equally confused as to what JH sees in Ben. It's been years and he's still hiding and untagging any mention of the two of them together. A couple more posts popped up about him being at her Memorial Day pool party (one an obvious troll posts) and they all quickly disappeared from his tags.
For someone who loves to rinse and repeat terms like "authentic self" and "healing journey", she needs to add "self-respect" to her limited vocabulary because gurllllll...
They've known each other for years, they're apparently close enough that she leaned on him during her divorce, he wrote a whole EP for her, he seems to be integrating into her friend group and yet he still refuses to be publicly seen with her even though we all know they still hang out. Like girl that's gotta sting. Why keep someone around who is clearly embarrassed/scared to be seen with you? The dick can not be that good.
He doesn't even have a job. The highlights of his year have been one failed show for an album he hasn't mentioned in months, a convention for a canceled tv show and apparently going on a book tour for a book he didn't even write. JH is annoying and a shitty person, but at least she's trying to have a career.
At this point he can't even blame the hiding on the fan girlies bc what fans? He drove off the last of them after following and liking shit from that zionist account. Next to no one cared about the Memorial Day thing, the only person who talks about him on Twitter is that Ben Barnes Property account and there's only a handful of insta accounts that still regularly talk about him. Even the DL can't be bothered to discuss him anymore. You know your boring ass fucked up when even your haters have moved on. Pretty sure the only reason he still has that 2.1 million insta following is bc the majority of us are waiting to see what dumb shit he's going to do next.
I have no idea if they're just friends, dating, a situationship - at this point who cares? We're probably never going to know. But my god, these two are toxic and confusing.
(This got long and ranting fast, so sorry about that but this has been on my mind for awhile and I'd rather step on a rusty nail then admit to people in my life about how invested I am in the life of a D-list celebrity.)
All I can say here is AGREED
And just two follow ups;
1. He got a job now (sorry this an old ask) but like I wouldn't expect anything good from it, it's literally a cable TV one, and a limited series sooooo
2. His insta following is still dropping, he's losing about 10-15k per month now, probably bots not fans but ye can see how fucking desperate he got at one point to get a bigger following. Ma bet is that he's going to get down to 2M by the end of summer and if it keeps up (I don't think he's gonna gain any new followers organically anytime soon), he's gonna get below 2M mid autumn at the very best lol
There's a lesson here obviously - don't kill off your fan base and buy bot followers when instagram is clearing them up anyway...
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Hi Allie, just want to get this off my chest. I think some people here should admit that Twarries exist is because of Tumblr Larries and it is true. From making up theories and outright telling people close to H and Louis that theyre xyz. If we're gonna be honest some tweets are just copy pasted from here and vice versa. It's quite fuck up tbh when some things are taken out of context and people then believed that said context rather than researching the full thing. Tumblr is literally the main source of Twarries, let's be real. For example: a blog here *claims* that Louis likes to get choked, then twarries spread that info that Louis confirmed that he likes to get choked BUT reading the whole context of the Zac Sang interview, he never stated that he *likes* to get choked. See how that works? Another example is this one blog who posted a certain magazine article of Louis (this was YEARS ago) stating he feels like a "mother/sister" and every twarrie and blouie uses that as proof that Louis is quote on quote " a woman like Harry " . Yes, I didn't post the blog's name cuz theyre "popular" here but that being said some statements are literally out of context and some blogs here should be careful on how they word their posts. Also, about the "debunk" issue that's been going around, I feel some people just don't accept the truth for their narrative to be correct. Like this thread is all facts but some people here tend to say it's fake. We have dozens of facts already, some shit is fake, tumblrinas should lower their superior complex and accept that fact. From said blog, doesnt like to accept it due to the "versatality" thing but we have to admit, those back scratches are fake/photoshopped and it's okay.
Anon, I don't like your tone and I don't like your opinion either if I'm being honest. First of all, if you have some sort of issue with a certain popular blog go talk to them or I don't know, or stop following them or whatever. You're going to find people you agree with more and people you agree with less and that's fine. I feel like you're being kind of a dick with this. I have no idea who you're talking about and I'm not particularly interested in this kind of drama on my blog.
As for the tumblr x twitter dynamics, I think all platforms feed from each other, twitter, tumblr, tiktok, instagram... and people will engage with whatever makes more sense to them. I'm on tumblr because I feel like this platform is superior for the kind of discussions and experiences I'd like to have about this. We have the ability to talk about facts, timelines, and context much better because we have archives and tags to check. It's that simple. Now, if people are taking something from my blog - what is supposed to be a "safe space" - and putting it out there with no context, it's their problem. I can't be responsible for someone else's interpretation of my words and what they're going to do with them. I can talk about whatever I want here and I trust people to have a drop of critical thinking to take away something reasonable from it. People need to think for themselves, for fucks sake! Maybe some people lack the ability of being truthful with themselves and others, and that's a shame. But it's not my problem, if they like running around like a headless chicken completely unaware and uninterested in what is really happening, I don't want anything to do with it and I don't want anyone bothering me about it.
I don't know what this "debunk" talk is about, I feel like I'm missing something, but I've ranted endlessly on my DEBUNKED OR NOT DEBUNKED tag. And the thing is, we're not talking about science here, we're talking about something that is incredibly subjective, it's someone's opinion/point of view on something. So what you can do is try to find the most reasonable explanation and with that try to figure out if something is real or not real... but people are going to believe whatever they want to believe. So like I said, I like interacting with people that are worried about making sense of things and finding the most truthful explanations, I don't want to believe any lies. But if someone is more interested in feeding something they already made their minds about and that makes them happy, I mean- that's fine. As long as they're not bothering HL in real life, or bothering me... nothing wrong with it. And I wish it was that simple lol But unfortunately it feels like they're not the ones responsible for the consequences when they do that. All the larries suffer from it. I get hateful messages because of something that is being said on twitter and that I don't even agree with. So I don't think people need to accept anything if they don't want to, but I think people need to take responsibility and most importantly I think people need to stay in their own lanes and stop bothering people on other sides of the fandom.
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basically what happened in the tsukki dream was that me, child me, and my fam went to a mountain or smth and we were in the visitors center, (my POV changed to child me, and old me disappeared?? i also aged up randomly so i was like 7).
and my parents were like oh theres kids in the playroom, go play w them, and ofc antisocial me was like 'uhhh, i literally dont know them tho' but i went anyway. i just sat in a corner doing crosswords and coloring but the other kids were bothering me. and i was seriously just blowing through the puzzles but these kids were distracting me. then babie tsukki who was around my age came along and was like 'stop being annoying u dumb kids' and they prob thought he was older and scary cuz of his height and left. and i said thanks and we vibed together in the corner talking about dinosaur train because dinosaur train is bomb.
then we had to leave but our parents saw that we were good friends and followed each other on twt (i would like to specify that the accounts were mine and tsukkis, like we're children but we have them, maybe we got them when we were born?? anyways our parents controlled them until we were old enough to use them. this is so weird and im pretty sure its because ive been reading smaus nonstop these past few days lmao).
okay now flash forward to when we're both teenagers so around 16, and we get our accounts. i look through the ppl who follow me and i see tsukki, and im like 'waitttt, i lowkey remember him' but i didnt do anything about it until i saw the team practicing in the gym when i walked past. my friends kept bothering me to dm him and i was like noooo, but then i got one of those moods where im like 'f it, whats the worst that can happen?" and i actually do it.
then we start up a convo and texting a lot, i get to know all the weird stuff that the vbc does and we listen to each other rant. like the whole mutual pining scene, always on their phone, smiling at texts. and my friends and the vbc are like 'what tf is happening, theyre actually smiling??? often??'. and then the dream ended because the rain outside was too loud rip, i got the vibes that it was right before the confession, i woulda liked to experience that.
also weird question, but have u dreamed in art?? like in an anime art style or any other style? because idk if its just me who sometimes does this, i had this really vivid dream like a month ago which was based around attack on titan, he-man, and colonial america which was entirely in a demon slayer art style and played out like an anime too.
lmao the first bit 😍 introverts unite LMODSIFJF YOU JUST WANNA DO YOUR PUZZLES IN PEACE (why are dreams always like that though. why can't they be nice. why does there always have to be something annoying happening)
OMG YOU HAD A YAMS MOMENT AHSDKLKSLD DINOSAUR TRAIN I'M - YES
yeah uh LMAo that's . totally normal im sure AJAJAJ we're just born with twitter accounts ,,, why do i feel like that's not unlikely to be a thing in the future.
okay why am i so invested in this rn shhh
MUTUAL PINING MUTUAL PINING MUTUAL PINING MUTUAL PINING MUTUAL PINING M
WTHJFJKFSD HKLAwHK Ff i wanna smack the rain :( i was so invested in that :( bro
hmmm i dunno if i have. i think i've dreamt in like - a 3D typa world before? instead of realistic everything is sorta video-game-y if that makes sense? that's an interesting question hmm
tell me about a dream you had with characters
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Mighty Thor in Thor: Love and Thunder rant
Seeing Natalie Portman returning to reprise her role as Jane Foster, nevertheless wielding Mjolnir, finally getting the treatment this character deserves, was surreal to say the least. I had just started reading Lords of Midgard, the 8th issue of Mighty Thor (2015 - 2018), and had fallen in love already. But I didn't suspect at all that Taika Waititi would pull this card in Thor: Love and Thunder, considering Jane was barely mentioned in Ragnarok. The news about my favorite actress portraying one of my favorite characters coming out of the blue - you can imagine the excitement. Alas, I quickly remembered what the fandom thought of that comic (at least on tumblr) and imagined it now growing tenfold, cuz not everyone in the MCU fandom reads comics but pretty much everyone wants to watch another Thor movie. And yes, many fans weren't ready for this step, still recovering from Sam Wilson getting the shield in Endgame. Which is completely fine. We're not obligated to like everything Marvel throws in our faces, we're allowed to criticize and express our opinion on the internet or wherever. What is not okay is mindlessly hating, and even worse - using false facts to support said opinion.
I have seen some people using the argument that it is one of Marvel's worst selling comics. Which has already been proven wrong by multiple sites, including Comichron, just Google it, as I did myself. I read multiple posts, ones saying how good Jane is doing as Thor in sales, others disproving this, so I checked for myself the numbers at the site mentioned above month by month to be sure. The comic truly had its downfalls as the story progressed but in my opinion it's normal for the 1st issue to have more sales than the 21st. If we compare it to Unworthy Thor, which started running a bit later and followed the now unworthy Odinson, the data shows the latter had more sales. But then again, while Might Thor was at its 17th issue, Unworthy Thor was at its 2nd. Also, they later crossed paths, shared comic issues, it's fair to say they go hand in hand and Jason Aaron, the author, probably doesn't want us to compare them, as they complete and compliment each other's stories. Still I decided to check the comic that made Thor unworthy in the first place - Thor: God of Thunder (2012 - 2014), which seemed to me more "comparable" to Might Thor (2015 - 2018). *I keep putting the years it was being released so as to not be confused with previous Mighty Thor issues, whole Odinson was still Thor, please bear with me* So yes, the numbers were pretty close, but from what I saw, Mighty Thor had the upper hand if we compare first issue to first issue and so on. (In defense of Odinson, we have to take into account that this data is only from the US and does not include digital sales. Also, he's been around since the 50s. We could argue Jane was a breath of fresh air that some Marvel fans were indeed ready for. As a non-American, and also a person without a hint of knowledge in economics I cannot take into account inflation and whatever else has prevented or enabled Americans to get their hands on the comics or has affected prizes through the years. Bear that in mind.) Moreover, from what I saw on Comichron, both comics had much competition - God of thunder was released along with Avengers vs the X-men, the Uncanny X-men, pretty popular at the time, and the Goddess of Thunder faced Civil War 2 and DC Universe Rebirth (yes, DC is in the game too), also dominating with tremendous sales for the longest time. Yet I stick with my original statement - both Thors are valid and shouldn't be put against one another regardless of profit. Because at the end of the day what will matter the most is the story. And boy, what a story it is.
Now, I haven't read the Thor: God of Thunder, but as I was doing research I found one very well written summary and explanation of Thor's arc and his becoming unworthy and I will post a link below, because I honestly feel I wouldn't be doing this comic a favor by describing it without having read it. Which I plan to do in the future, tbh. It's a fantastic prelude to the Mighty Thor (2015 - 2018) that I've come to love. First, I'd like to ask you all to stop hating on the comic without having read it first. It doesn't make any sense and being petty for the sake of being petty won't benefit neither you, nor anyone, really. Now, about the comic itself - the art is magnificent. It's just gorgeous. Mighty Thor isn't , thank all the gods, sexualized, she is pretty buffed and generally looks like a warrior. As it is with the other characters, I dare say. The background truly captures the essence of every world Jane finds herself on. Action scenes are just the right amount and balanced with dialogue well. On a side note, it's pretty funny to read/listen to in your head the Shakespearean English cursive in which Jane talks as Thor. The plot line branches beyond this comic, starting from Thor: God of Thunder and leading to the War of Realms. And it is elaborately built in every issue. You don't know what to expect, yet it makes sense when it happens. Which leads me to the characterizations. My God, what a treat Loki is in this. Clearly, my opinion is kinda biased, since he's my favorite character, but you never know which side he's on. What his motivations are. And it just feels so... Loki. His writing is brilliant. Almost makes me forget what the MCU did to him. Also, he gets some daddy time with Laufey (not as kinky as I make it sound). Frigga/Freyja is just as awesome as in the MCU, even more, at least in the comics she calls Odin out on his shit, who btw is I guess an asshole in every version and universe. Malekith, the main villain, is unbearably despicable, I want to tear every page he is on. He really was mishandled in the Dark World, if you want some true action with the dark elves, you are welcome to enjoy. I saved the best for the end - Jane Foster/ Might Thor. Now, if you think Dr. Foster spends her time boasting about her worthiness and how Odinson is just called Thor, but she is Mighty Thor, you are horribly wrong. She just... does her job. Because the hammer chose her. Because there's no one else to do so. That's it. If you think there's some feminism involved, yes, there sure is, but it certainly isn't the reason Jane became Thor in the first place. It was not the creators going SJW because it's trendy, as such a mindset is honestly offensive to any descent creator with any self respect, but a well thought out story arc, which, I repeat, you have to read the comic to understand. Jane is not at all whiny about the hate she gets in-universe, not only from foes like Odin and who-not, but from Shield and generally people whose asses she's saving. Her having cancer is not something they pulled to provoke sympathy and make her look like a victim - on the contrary, she is a damn hero and a victor. I don't want to give out spoilers, but her being Thor is actually a giant sacrifice that no one really appreciates (both in-universe and in the fandom). She is not Thor to prove she can be, or just to prove "women can be heroes" - she doesn't have to. She is simply needed by the realms and so she does her job, even though she is called a thief, persecuted and generally hated. All that matters is that the hammer finds her worthy - the beauty and simplicity of that fact you will find out, for the last time, if you read the comic.
I'm not making you read the comic or watch Thor: Love and Thunder. I myself don't know what to make of this film yet because there's barely any information about it. I only know it will be based on the comic so that's a reason for my hopes to be up already. On the other hand, since I didn't like Loki's characterization in Ragnarok, I'm not sure what to expect from Taika. There are valid reasons to not like the idea of Jane returning to the MCU as Thor, which you are entitled to. However, reasons such as "why does everything have to be political these days" are not. Because if I had to make a list of everything politically related in the MCU, it would take forever. Steve Rogers kills nazis is the most blatant example. Make of it what you want. But I think we're far enough into the 21st century to realize art and real life are not that separable. It's undeniable that art affects people and that is to say, people everywhere. And they all have different opinions and aren't gonna like everything media is offering to them. And I wish I could simply tell you not to watch the movie but I'm a Marvel fan too and I understand that I can't just take away Thor from you because I want Mighty Thor as well. But none of us can stop Marvel from producing it. So, to quote an image I saw recently, I don't know how to explain to you that you should care about other people. Let the rest of the fandom enjoy what they want to enjoy. Yes, ik I can play around with the tags and avoid posts that unnerve me but, for example, I'm looking up Mighty Thor fanart, which obviously isn't anti-Mighty Thor, yet I get attacked in the comics for anticipating a movie that doesn't even have a full cast yet. Ik I'm not asking for too much when I wish to get the same internet experience (not only tumblr, but also insta, YouTube, Twitter, any site) as the Thor Odison fans, for example. I'm aware I cannot stop all the toxic fans and the trolls but I hope this post has inspired those of you who simply can't envision Jane as Thor, or don't like Natalie Portman in the role, or whatever eles personal preference that doesn't involve political issues and isn't harmful to the community, not to attack every post on your dash with hate. The movie is called LOVE and Thunder, for God's sake. (on a side note, is a franchise that is too afraid to show LGBT characters for more than 1 minute so as to not lose profit from China, THAT politically correct)
Anyway, that was a veeeery long rant, sorry to whoever reads this but, like, please, I put effort into this, hoping this time around I won't be the only positive reviewer of a movie, like I was with Solo: a Star Wars story (yes, I'm still bitter about this), which was boycotted for no apparent reason but was a decent film in reality, and I'm only bringing it up because it has a similar experience to Love and Thunder for getting hate before even being released. I'm not defending a billion dollar company that flopped in box office once, I'm defending the viewer's right to media they are interested in. If you don't like the character, remember - that's your opinion, not a fact that the character sucks. Kudos.
Not very easy to navigate, I advice you to do the research month by month individually for comics you'd like to compare. Also, if you happen to find more reliable data, pls say so in the comments.
Here you have the summary and explanation of the greatness of Thor: God of Thunder, Jesus, I'll go bankrupt if I buy this one too.
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Yes, I want to end the sales dispute once and for all, I'm tired of seeing it on my dash. This guy probably explains it better than I did.
@awesomejenlawrence you said you'd like to read this and I delivered
#natalie portman#mighty thor#marvel#mcu#mcu phase 4#jane foster#thor odinson#loki#taika waititi#chris hemsworth#thor love and thunder#thor god of thunder#jason aaron#my thoughts#my rants#positivemindset#lovewins
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(note: the following has no sources cuz i'm actually not well enough to write something academic atm; i have got sources for each claim (by which i mean scholarly sources, tho some are compounded by my own observations and life experience) and you'll be able to find them if you google. i just need to express my emotions because otherwise they'll compound my existing struggle.)
look i know this kind of thing is incredibly popular, meme-wise, and i totally understand why. autistic and adhd brains really are proper confusing for the uninitiated, newly diagnosed, you get the picture.
but i hate it.
yeah it's confusing as hell to figure out what our brains are doing but that's not due to inherent ineffability; it's another symptom of neuronormativity. white, western society assumes neurotypicality! that means everything we're taught about neurological function only applies if we're neurotypical - no wonder our autisticness/adhdness seems so unknowable.
this kind of rhetoric - joking or otherwise - shows just how alienated we are from ourselves. i posted this mini-rant on twitter last night (with minor edits for readability):
western society teaches us to alienate ourselves from every aspect of our existence and it's doing my head in. like how often do we (especially neurodivergents) discuss our brain as if it's a whole other entity? or our bodies like they're our enemies?
our physical selves aren't out to get us. they're extraordinarily adaptable machines honed over millenia of evolution to survive incomprehensibly hostile environments; behind every symptom is an issue that needs addressing.
(cw dispersed eating, hunger)
here's a personal example
cuz i've spent such significant effort ignoring my hunger signals, my body now uses psychosomatic symptoms. here's some i've noticed:
- costochondritis
- acid reflux
- nausea
when i listen to my body these don't happen.
human bodies are infinitely interconnected. symptoms are rarely isolated. for want of a nail, etc.
this conflict between "us" and our bodies, in my opinion, is yet another way ~1500 years of christian imperialism has fucked the world up. whether or not modern denominations still teach it (and a significant percentage do; mine did), historically christians believed that humans are souls in imperfect vessels and that we must "master" our sinful urges. hundreds of years of white christian hegemony means that idea is baked into basically every facet of our society.
(by the way, it doesn't matter if you're not actually christian; you'll still feel this influence if you went thru a western school system.)
an example: even tho the bible doesn't teach that whiteness and maleness is closer to perfection, the imperialists who appropriated it sure as hell did. thus, is it any wonder that medical science, dominated is it has been by white, wealthy, culturally christian men, considers that to be the physiological and psychological ideal?
all this to say: autistic and adhd brains are inherently logical things. all brains are, all bodies are, in fact. the human body doesn't just throw up random physical symptoms! physicians aren't infallible and their diagnostics rarely allow for neurodivergence; don't discount their words, but use it as a jumping off point rather than a certainty. learn about human physiology then customise that knowledge to yourself - and reject pathologising or mysticising your divergences.
we all bang on about meditation and mindfulness but the key to mastering that (at least the version western medicine appropriated) is to live in your body.
you are your body!!!
the goal is not dominion, and nor is it adoration; the goal is harmony. mindfulness means rejecting conflict with oneself, rejecting moral judgements, and acknowledging one's limitations purely as statements of reality. that doesn't mean we're unaffected; it means it's easier to navigate, because we're not trying to knock down a mountain with a wooden spoon.
(another example: i can't handle heat cuz of sensory stuff, and thus summer has a negative effect on my wellbeing. because i know this is my body's reality, i don't try to muscle thru:
i prepare my budget so i can run my air con constantly,
i keep cool or cold food and drinks on hand so my eating isn't affected,
i don't expect myself to do much on extremely hot days because the heat saps my energy.
i definitely complain about the heat, but i never berate myself for my reality and thus an already difficult experience is not also traumatic.)
this post is a wild ride, i know; i'm not firing on all cylinders atm cuz of overwhelm, and will actually be in hospital in March because of it. but this has been bothering me and i just needed to let my emotions out.
(also this isn't like attacking you or anything, @biggest-gaudiest-patronuses. your post was just the straw that broke the camel's back.)
trying to divine the inner works of my autistic brain feels like such a bizarrely mystical process sometimes. why can't I focus today? because the stars are not aligned! the stars are not aligned and there is a low pressure front moving through! no executive function bc of inclement weather!
#actually adhd#actually autistic#actually neurodivergent#ableism#adhd#medical discrimination#christian critical#exvangelical#dissociation#alienation#mindfulness#radical acceptance#body neutrality#self acceptance#neuronormativity#neurodiversity#biggest-gaudiest-patronuses#mine
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#LOGpost#A friend and i established we like each other but we cant date because of complications#He had a gf and said he wanted to break up with her but we still can't date cos itd be a rebound#But i know hes still texting her and being prettt lovey dovey#And even though we established we're not gonna date it still sucks and hurts#I just hate how he said 'we're basically broken up' and then i figure out this shit#I fucking hate having feelings and emotions because they make me so clingy and desperate for attention#And now he follows me on twitter so this is the only place i can rant about it
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