#and i can't help but feel like i'm bothering ppl when i reply to their threads or if i messaged them with ideas bc of how infrequently i ca

[stillresolved]

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[akaashiwaifuuwu]

dress - taylor swift

Lee felix and fem reader

Warning : smut, yn ex is a jerk, very fluffy, last part is inspired by friend (season2 ep 4), being called slut (that's it ig)

(An: I have exams going on its my half yearly, it will end tomorrow plus it's durga puja knocking was very busy with shopping and all I hope you all like it, please interact with my works as it helps me !!)

MINORS DO NOT INTERACT !!

you broke up. It's done. All those things just flashed infront of your eyes, the memories, the kisses, the I love yous, it's all gone, he was cheating on you this entire time.

It meant nothing to him, but it meant everything to you all those 4 years went to a vain, he was manipulating you, mental and physical abuse which you ignored because you were so in love with him. They say in love every wrong becomes rights.

"Excuse me, you will catch cold" your dull eyes meet a boy who have freckles. "Are you okay?" He was holding the umbrella above both of you and you nodded yes "tell me, what's bothering you" that's it. You broke down.

He was scared "can I touch you?" He asked and you replied yes causing him to hug you and you cried harder. "Let's get you home, you will get sick yeah?" You nodded.

"I don't know where you live" that guy said "oh, I'm felix, lee felix" he smiled at you "im y/n and I live here" you pointed him your block "no way, i live here" he smiled "your smile gives comfort" you looked down "well, see you soon" he said "don't you wanna come in?" You turned around

"wouldn't it be a problem for you?" He looked at you "not really" you look dull "well we can-" you were cut off my him "I can come some other day okay?" He smiled and went back waving you goodbye.

It has been 3 months since the break up, will you say you're over him? no. You haven't met that guy since that day, you wanted to show him your gratitude.

"Oh my God, we met finally, I was waiting for you to call me, I'm hurt that you didn't" that voice. You turned around to see it was your ex. You wanted to run away. He grabbed your wrist "let's go yeah?" You grabbed his hand which was holding your hand "you're inflicting me pain".

"Me? i could never ever hurt you" He yelled "it's you who hurts me, you know I love you" you were going to give in but his grasp was so tight, you were pretty sure you have bruise now.

"Look she is hurt, let her go mister" ah that freckle boy you saw, he had 7 more ppl they all look so strong "okay whatever you got new people to fuck, enjoy being a slut".

You were crying, again. You were hurt, again.

"I dare you to say that again" the freckle boy said "she is a-" he stopped "whatever, she is a pathetic whore" uh oh "that's it" felix walked towards him and you tugged him, his eyes soften.

You were there, you can't hear anything. "Hey, yn you're okay?" You smiled and walked away. You were so dumb, stupid, so in love.

Felix ran upto you. "Hey, let's go out" he said, the freckled boy heard a whimper as he turn around he saw you crying. Soon you bursed into tears

"Was I not good enough?" You dont know him, yet you trust him.

Here you are, it has been 2 years since that messy break up took place, you and felix have been extremely close, he is studying computer science and you're doing law.

It's peaceful being with him. Comfortable silence you know? It's not awkward.

"Yn" he called you out

| say my name and everything just stops |

"Yes?" You looked at him. Oh how you melted. "I bought KitKat for you!" He exclaimed smilingly. "You remember?"

"Obviously baby" ah. That nickname which makes you wanna scream, yell, rip off your hairs, you were flabbergasted. He held his hands out "let's go?" And you hold his hand back 'webtoon typa shit' you told yourself.

You were walking peacefully when felix told you to go back you were confused and you heard someone call out your name as you turn back, him.

you were in shock. Felix pulled your hand and you both started walking away. "I didn't feel anything" you were dull "I moved on" you smiled and felix wiped your tears.

It's okay yn, you did it, you thought to yourself.

felix was knocking at your door while saying "yn yn yn yn yn yn-" you finally opened the door "oh my god what do you want, it's 3 am, 3 AM!" You looked at him "it actually 3:15 am but nevermind I saw your lights on so I thought to check up on you" wow, wait what? "What were doing late night?" You looked concerned "Stop making that face or else you will get wrinkles".

Deadass. "Okay okay I wasn't able to sleep" you stopped blocking the door and he let himself in, he saw all the notes, books scattered "Woah there, you're cramming?" He looked at you "im sleepy" you said "you ain't wearing a bra?" He was flabbergasted "buffon, I will sleep and you expect me to wear bra while I'm at my room?".

Fair point.

"Let's sleep" felix took your hands and turned off the lights "you can sleep?" You looked at him "my room was cold and I guess I need something warm enough" he smiled while you both lay down. "What are we?" You both looked at eachother, he replied "anything you wants us to be" oh that stupid smile.

| I don't want you like my bestfriend |

Your head was resting on felixs arm. You both were close. Very close. But you were too sleepy to notice anything. Once you closed your eyes felix heard your snores and you turned to him while grabbing his waist. It's normal for you both to cuddle.

In your dream you both had a family and cute little family, where he took care of you both. It was amazing.

You woke up and saw him holding you tightly as if you were a glass which he doesn't want to let you go and slip so that you will break. The way when you broke he picked every piece of you. He is holding you so that you don't break again.

Your heart flutters, bestfriends feels like this right? Once you removed his hair covering his forehead "yes angel?" He looked at you. You are stucked. You just wanna be his.

Today's class was so hectic "lix" you yelled while hugging him and you saw his friend circle "ayo how's you" minho looked at you, you smiled at him.

Oh how jealous he was "soooooooo" hyunjin came and looked at you "Are you dating?" Hyunjin got a no from you "let's go on a date then".

Felix stopped working. "Well I like certain someone if something doesn't work with them, you can be my side chick" you winked at him.

"If he can't fuck you, you're most welcome to come towards me, I bet my fingers will help you" he smiled "anyways" you looked at felix "why don't we watch some movies".

Felix. His name gives you endorphins. You just want him to hold you. "Morning" you heard while you met him on your way to shopping market "youre coming with me" he smiled at your command "Where are we going?" He laughed.

While you were trying on cloths he was taking your packages "how's this dress?" He looked at you "wow, you look amazing" he whispered as if something took his breathe away "look at the back it's so pretty" backless. It was backless.

Right now at the party you were wearing the same outfit with heels and red lipstick. People were looking at you. Felix was definitely flabbergasted.

| only bought this dress so you can take it off |

Here you were kissing him while holding his collars and his knee on between your legs. You were at his place. While whimpering and grinding on his knee while he was kissing you "you looked so pretty, hard to touch". He said as he started removing your heels.

From lips to legs he kissed every inch of your body. "You're so ethereal honey" he removed your dress, you felt so surreal. "I love you" you said it, you were vulnerable and you did. "I love you too, my love"

"Fuck youre this wet?" You were shy "im sorry" you looked away "why are you apologizing?" He looked at you "my ex told me being wet is bad, it means im a slut and get turned on by everyone" you looked at him.

"Oh fuck that bitch, being wet is good and normal there's nothing to apologize for, my love" he took you to his bed.

"Ethereal" he look at your face, "I can fuck you better than hyunjin".

"May I have your consent?" He looked at you "yes darling" he took off his cloths and your bra and panties "wow, I got no words, I'm so mesmerized by you"

He played with your clit causing you to moan, and then he licked your pussy while playing with your clit, you grabbed his hair, while trying to close your leg between which you were unable to due to his head.

"I will come please please" he smiled while inserting the finger and playing with the clit.

Your head rested on your bed "oh you came" you smiled and you looked so fucked up, "how do you feel?" You were not able to answer at all "your leg is still shaking? You won't be able to handle me take rest baby".

"No no no I need you please" you grabbed him while crying "okay okay okay, have me all you want" he said while wearing the condom.

He said while inserting himself and grabbed him so hard, it felt amazing and you screamed, "aw are you feeling good?" He said while thrusting himself "you're so cute" he smiled.

"Felix" you moaned and clenched so hard "fuck baby, you're clenching so hard" you're about to cum and he is too.

He went deep and slow "felix" you screamed and came and he came inside you.

It's morning, "sleeping beauty smh" hyunjin was walking while you woke up and you had cloths on? How? "hyujin, how many times I gotta tell you? This is real life not some texting shit" minho glared at him "whatever" hyunjin threw his head back "180 degree, 20 minutes" once hyunjin heard it, he shut up.

"Yn you're up" bangchan looked at you the atmosphere was too serious "okay I pull up" you said thinking it will lift the vibes "that's the worst way you can try to change the atmosphere, yn you have skill issues" minho walked.

"So are you two official?" Changbin interrupts "what are you talking about?".

"You're wearing his clothes the hell bro?" Jisung said while drinking coffee, you layed down on his bed and turned facing his bed while kicking your feet and giggling, "are you stupid?" Seungmin added "stupidly in love with felix" you mumbled but you were pretty sure no one was able to catch it as your face was pressed into the bed.

"Pardon?" Jeongin asked "nothing" you got up "where's felix?" Once you looked at the guys, you saw they guys closed their eyes, "yn wear pants" chan scolded you "im wearing look" you lifted your shirt but they still didn't open their eyes.

"You know what I will find felix" you sighs heavily, while walking towards kitchen "you're awake" he made a comment "so about yesterday, what are we" you asked him "clearly not bestfriend" he laughed.

"Gimme kiss" you pouted "brush your teeth" he looked at you "okay daddy" you walked away.

Once you were back you saw the guys at the kitchen "you both had sex?" chan banged his hands to the table "okay okay it happened but I like her and she likes me too, it's mutual" chan saw you.

"You didn't even said that to me?" Chan looked so hurt. "You didn't even said you liked her" chan looked at you "I thought I don't have chance so it would've been better".

"You betrayed me" chan looked at you "you know the time, when we heard chan moaning it's cause he was sending a girl memos of him moaning and she gave him money" everyone gasped "how did you know?" Chan exclaimed while pointing at felix "who told you" the pointing fingers turned into minho "you're a death meat" minho looked away.

"Minho have a third nipple" chan exclaimed "you bitch" minho gasped while everyone looking at him "hyunjin pays money to girls to tell him he's a bad boy, and degrade him" minho pointed him "if im going down im taking everyone with me" minho smiled proudly.

"Guy's we are forgetting felix and yn are dating" changbin reminds "okay so we didn't confess but yn would you like to be my girlfriend?" He looked at you "I can't comprehend what just happened but yes I would love too and minho you have a third nipple?" You smiled "don't remind them" minho whispered.

[seospicybin]

Hi hello I hope you're doing great

I don't know if you take requests or not but I can't stop thinking about Reader worshiping Chan like my man thinks he's not that attractive and doesn't understand when ppl say he's one of the sexiest man. So Reader does that somewhat cliché thing of dragging him in front of a mirror for him to say what he doesn't like about himself and then the reader shows him every details they find extremely sexy all that followed by a sweet passionate love making session. My man needs to receive some love and deserve to be worshipped.

Anyway I'd write that myself but I have no talent whatsoever and you're my favourite author on this entire site I only trust you to put this idea into words if you accept it of course.

But I'll also totally understand if you say no as you probably have a lot to do already. Either way I wish you a great summer and I hope both sides of your pillow are always cold.

Much love,

🦝

Hi, hello for sending ideas to my inbox and apology for taking this long to replying to your request. And do not worry about cliche, I live for that and we need a little cliche in our lives.

The only problem is I'm not good with drabbles so I hope this fits what you have in mind and don't ever say you're not talented, say that again and I'll come to knock some sense into you! Have a great day and enjoy this fluffy, sexy drabble x

ADMIRE. (s,f)

Bangchan x reader. 2,7k words

It's not just the way he sits at the end of the bed with his shoulders sagged. The absence of smiles on his face and the sighs he constantly lets out are enough signs that Chan is having a bad day.

As a girlfriend, you take it as your duty to make sure that he's alright first, and from there, you can find a way to make him feel better.

It's always best to approach him in the way you usually do, with a bright smile and warm hug. Climbing onto the bed and sitting behind him on the bed.

"Hi, beautiful man," you greet him as you wrap your arms around his broad shoulders, planting your chin on his shoulder.

He looks over and flashes you a weak smile, "Hi," he greets back.

You press a kiss on his lips, then on his neck next, catching the smell of his natural scent that you like so much.

"Hmm..." you delightfully hum.

"I like how you smell when you come home at night," you shamelessly admit with your nose still planted in his neck.

That is enough to elicit a soft laugh out of him, "of my sweat?"

You take another whiff of his scent and hum again, "Of you."

"Huh?" He turns his head at you with a questioning look on his face.

"Of everything nice and comfortable and safe and..." You get shy the more you list the things his natural scent offers.

He smiles at you with a kiss pressed on your hand, "I like coming home to you," he says.

You glide your hands down his arms and then slip them under his arms, resting your hands on his stomach, feeling the toned muscles against the sleeveless top he's wearing.

"But you don't seem like it," you tell him.

He clasps his hands with yours in front of him, "Yeah?"

You nuzzle your nose in his neck again and hum, "You've been so quiet, baby. Is something bothering you?"

He shakes his head and draws a breath, "Nothing it's just... I don't feel good about myself lately."

You frown at his answer while turning your head his way, "But why?"

He shakes his head again and refuses to answer you.

The way he reluctantly tells you the details makes you sadder and that only means he's not comfortable enough to share it with you. You can't help but feel that maybe you took part in making him feel this way.

"Do I make you feel that way?" You meekly ask.

"No, no, no," he hastily replies, and knowing that it's not enough to convince you, he brings your hand close to his mouth, then kisses it.

"It's not you, baby," he says again.

The more he tries to convince you, the more you feel uneasy about yourself.

"Then please tell me who or what made you feel this way?" You plead, giving him the puppy eyes that you know he can't resist.

He smiles with eyes closed and lets out a long breath, "it's me. I don't feel confident about myself," he finally answers.

You look at him and pout, "Channie!"

"What?" He awkwardly laughs.

"How are you not confident?" Your eyes widened in disbelief.

If there's one word to describe Chan, that word would be perfect. He has everything that a girl like you could've asked for, a great personality, intelligence, a decent human being, and all of that wrapped in an attractive package.

Hearing him say that he doesn't feel confident about himself baffled you so much. It doesn't feel real at all that you get speechless and can only blink your eyes while trying to process his words.

"Are you joking me, babe?" You ask again just in case he was being playful.

His head drops and keeps looking down at his lap, "it's nothing really, I just—"

"How are you not confident about yourself?" You're aware of how rude you are for cutting him off midsentence.

"Because I'm not that good. I'm not... beautiful," he sounds so little when he said that and you hated it to hear it.

There's nothing wrong to feel so insecure about oneself but to say that he's not beautiful when he is the most beautiful in your eyes.

Your hands loosen around him and he thinks you're disappointed in him that he holds on to you not to let him go, "don't go, stay," he says.

You pat the space on the bed, gesture him to scoot there, "Come and sit here!"

Not sure what you're trying to do but he obeys without a word, scoots a little to the right.

You kneel behind him and put your hands on his shoulders, "Now, look ahead!" You order him.

Slowly, he glances up and surprises to see the reflection of himself in the mirror with you in front of him.

"You see that? That's you and me," you tell him, looking at him through the mirror.

"And all I see is a man who's smart, hardworking, passionate, thoughtful, kind, and warm," you're speaking with a soft smile on your face.

"He can be a little reckless, a little hot-headed, a whole lot indecisive but that's because you're a libra," you playfully remark.

Then you tilt his head until his eyes meet yours, "despite all of that, you are beautiful to me," you murmur and lower your lips on his, locked in a rapturous kiss with one hand wrapped around his neck.

"Thank you," he mutters his gratitude with a sweet smile.

"And I'm not done yet," you tell him with a sly grin.

You sit down on the bed, hugging him from behind with your legs on each side of him, your arms crisscrossing around him.

"Time to talk about this sexy exterior," you announce with your hand softly rubbing his chest.

"Oh, no, please, I'm not sexy," he denies and gets embarrassed when you haven't even started yet.

"Shh!" You hushed him by covering his mouth with your hand.

Seeing his dimpled smile only encourages you to keep going because he's cute and hot when he's shy, still have no idea how he makes that possible.

"Should we start with this body?"

You lower your hand to his abdomen and pull the hem of his top to reveal his abs, "My goodness!" You hiss close to his ear.

You slip your hand under his top and feel his toned muscles with your fingertips while lowly whimpering into his ear.

"I want to have a bite of this white chocolate," you tell him, knowing that it's cheesy enough to amuse him.

"Can I? Can I have a bite, Channie?" You seductively ask.

He can't answer as he keeps giggling but keeping your hand inside his clothes.

"Let's take this off, mmh?" You ask into his ear.

He nods and raises his hands to let you take it off him, tosses it aside after. His pale skin glows even under the dim light and you like seeing your hands touching it while you're looking through the mirror.

"How do you not feel good about this body, baby?" You lowly ask.

"Because—"

You turn his head and hastily capture him in a kiss, not giving him a chance to answer or deny your words. You keep kissing him, parting your mouth open to let his tongue invade your mouth.

Your hands are freely roaming around his body, touching, feeling, and teasing the sensitive parts of his body with fluttering touches.

When you let go of his kiss, you continue by making a long trail of kisses from his neck. He lowly moans feeling your soft lips on his warm skin, leaving a trail of wet kisses down his shoulder.

He turns his head and your eyes meet, you smile at him as you lean in for another kiss, and a hand slips in his soft curls. You playfully nibble on his lips and gently tug at them, "mmh... these lips..." you hum.

You brush your lips over him back and forth and give him a long peck after.

"So full, so plump, so... kissable," you say with a dreamy sigh.

You place kisses all over his face while muttering little compliments at him with every few kisses.

"You're so gorgeous."

"So stunning!"

"Hella sexy!"

"One delicious man," you playfully remark and sloppily kiss him, "with a pair of juicy lips!"

Chan giggles again with his dimples sunken deep in his cheeks and you hold him close to absorb his happiness, doubling it back to him as you giggle along with him.

He puts his hand on your hand slung across his shoulder and squeezes it, "Thank you, baby."

"I'm not finished yet," you grumble at him.

Now his turn to be baffled, "You have something else to say to me?"

You nod with a sly grin plastered on your face, "I haven't haven't talked about this beautiful, big nose yet."

He holds in his laughter and leers at you, "Oh?"

"It's so perfect," you compliment right into his ear in a sultry voice.

Chan seems to disagree with it and silently scoffed at it, "Perfect, huh?"

As a punishment for not trusting your words, you gently bite his nose, then hurriedly kiss it to soothe the pain.

"So perfect," you assure once more.

"Got me thinking what it would be like sitting on this pretty nose," you purr into his ear.

That sends him giggling again and plants his face in his hands, flustered by what you said, his ears reddening as the proof of it.

"Don't be shy, Channie baby," you tease.

You hold his body close as it's shaking with laughter and you feel good that he's slowly forgetting about the things that bothered his mind earlier.

"It's your fault for being so hot, can't help but think of lewd things with you," you shamelessly admit and playfully bite on his ear shell.

He puts his hands on your legs, rubbing them up and down your thighs as he kisses you again in a passionate kiss that escalates things further.

"If words aren't enough to convince you, baby," you say against his lips.

You keep his head turned your way with your hand holding his chin, with a deep gaze into his eyes, you say, "I can show you."

The long moan you let out as you lower yourself on him is echoing in the room. With your eyes closed, enhancing the other senses to be more receptive to the pleasure you're feeling as his cock buried to the hilt inside you.

"Oh... my... goodness," you lowly moan.

After a moment of adjusting yourself, you look down and open your eyes to see him looking at you, eyes wide and heavy with lust.

"Can't get enough of this big cock, baby," you tell him while rubbing his chest with both hands.

"You're so perfect inside me," you sigh again and feel his cock twitches inside you.

"Mmh, yeah, you are perfect," you tell him, leaning down to kiss his open mouth.

You take his hands and put them up, resting them on each side of his head, clasping your hands together as you kiss him again, taking your time with him.

"Keep them here," you tell him.

"Just lay back and let me take care of you, okay?" You trail his lower lip with your thumb before kissing it.

He nods when he finally registered your request and keeps his hands thrown around him.

You start by rolling your hips in circular motions, slowly as to feel his whole length inside you. You're doing it with your eyes fixated on his face, his jaws clenched and unclenched depending on the pleasure you brought on him.

"Feel that, baby? How your cock fill me whole?"

"Yeah..." he breathlessly answers then swallows air.

For this one night, you put your need aside and focus on how to make him feel good, you want to show him how much you like him, adore him, and admire him because he deserves to know.

You start pulsating your hips against him at a steady pace and moaning at how good it makes you feel, kissing him once in a while.

To give him more pleasure, you plant your feet against the mattress and drop your hands on his thighs as support, bouncing yourself up and down on his engorging cock, providing him more depth into you.

That seems to work to bring him close to his high, you change your pace and back to straddling him, "You're going to cum for me, right?"

He seems to be intoxicated in pleasure to be able to respond to you.

You grab his chin and ask him again, "You're going to cum for me, right, baby?"

He nods with his eyes clouded in lust and you keep going, keep moving to bring him closer to his high. With how good he feels inside you, it's not hard to get yourself close to your climax as well.

"That's right, baby," you coo.

"You're going to cum and fill me full with your love, yes?"

He grunts as you intensely clenched around him, "yes, yes," he hastily replies.

You pick up the pace and use all of your strength to keep moving, from his ragged breath and how his body is flushing red, you can tell he's on so close, on the brink of...

His hands gripping each side of your waist with his nails dug into the flesh, trying to slow you down when you know he wants you to keep going.

You slowly ride past his high while taking his hands and using them to touch you all over. He's grunting while you feel his hands all over you, using his hands to cup your breasts and kneading on them together with you.

His cock is twitching inside you and you stay still, taking all of him inside you.

A moment passed and you see him slowly gathering his senses. You decide to hover above him by propping a hand against the mattress and look at him, his half-shut eyes looking back at you.

You place a brief kiss on his lips then caress his cheek, "look at you..."

You land another quick kiss the continue speaking, "Letting me take care of you."

He pulls you into a hug with a long kiss on your temple, "oh, you made me feel so good," he murmurs.

You smile at him and land another soft caress on his face, "That's how much I adore you, baby."

He puts his arms around you and pulls you even closer.

"You're so beautiful to me," you whisper into his ear.

"Mmh..." he hums in response.

Not taking that as an answer, you look at him and stare into his eyes, "Want me to show you once again how much I meant my words?"

He laughs at your question and kisses you deeply, "I need time for that."

Chan puts all of your hair to the side and kisses you again, slowly, turning over on the bed to have you underneath him. You can see the glints in his eyes have returned as he gazes into you like your eyes hold the whole galaxy in them.

"I'm beautiful, I know," you confidently say.

He lets out a laugh and softly kisses you, "You are beautiful."

"And you are beautiful," you say back to him with your hands around his neck.

"And I love you," he says with a warm smile on his face that melts your insides in a second.

Not only that he's beautiful inside out, Chan always makes you feel beautiful even with the simplest gesture of tenderly caressing your cheek with his knuckle.

"And I love you too."

Because how can you not say those words back at him?

[ca-suffit]

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@hotcrossedfangs why didn't u just say this shit to my fucking face?? u gave a non reply to my answer of why I'm too "pussy" to reveal who I am, ignoring the fact I said I already get harassed constantly for doing this, then had to go jerk off with ur echo chamber friend about why both of u don't have to actually care about any of this. do u feel sooo good about that?? does it feel good to ignore real shit happening around u?? to live in ur bubble where u do fuck all but pile more on ppl who are already dealing with shit bcuz u can't be bothered to fucking help?? why was ur friend in the twt screencaps someone u could defend, but I tell u I get rape threats and doxxing threats and u, admitting u know nothing about my identity and potential vulnerabilities here, just say "wow don't have to care lol." what race do u think I am too btw, just fucking curious.

where is this great empathy I keep hearing about that this fandom has bcuz there's a whole lot of us who don't get any slice of that shit.

also who else is discussing the fandom racism here but me *in places that everyone can see it*?? who else is doing this at all?? ppl can "discuss" it all day but who else is actually doing anything about it?? did u know that's the fucking point of being disruptive like this. do u know fucking anything. change can come but only when it's quiet and polite?? fuck off.

[spaghettitigers]

in some ways, and others - arthur/eames

fic 1 of a self-imposed challenge to just write and not think too much on it, following themes. this one's is misunderstanding.

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Eames doesn't remember how he got here.

That's the first thing really. There he is, tied to a chair whose legs stand at the edge of a pool, and the cool metal of a gun pressed to the side of his temple. The ropes on his wrists and chest are frayed slightly, where he feels the ends tickle his pinky. It's nighttime, a waning moon by the light, because his kidnapper may lack imagination but that has never stopped him from attempting flair.

"Arthur, darling,is this all necessary?" he asks, because if he's honest, there's an itch on his brow that's beginning to bother him more than he'd like to admit. 

Arthur clicks the safety off before moving in front of eames' precariously placed chair. His mouth is pursed into a tight, unamused line and while Eames is typically always prepared to wax poetic about Arthur's face, the narrowed eyes at least partially accomplish their mission of intimidation.

He's in a sour mood, Eames thinks, and because he's Eames, he so enjoys moments of little forethought, and says exactly that. He can't help who he is, it's in his blood, his DNA, the very fiber of his being-

"You seem in a terribly sour mood, love."

"Don't call me that," Arthur snaps, and then slower, reeling himself back to the cool and collected mask that Eames despises, "Why did you sell me out to Myers?"

The anger in his voice is subtle (Eames snorts internally at the thought, because none of this is subtle), but he can picture it in the undercurrent of Arthur's skin, slow and venomous. He looks delectable here,(Now is hardly the time to be thinking of his fingers in those chocolate curls, scrapes of teeth on his neck, a heavy hand squeezing the solid line of Arthu's waist - no, Eames is simply cursed to have memories of this). 

"This would go a lot faster if I knew what the bloody hell you're talking about," Eames replies.

The gun pushes closer. "Don't fuck with me Eames, I'm really not in the mood. Only 3 ppl in the world knew about the plan for Armstead Technology and who knew Myers would blow as many knee joints and break as many fingers as necessary to get the files from me, so," Arthur inhales deeply, "I'll ask again and only this once more, why did you do it?"

Eames' head spins as reality sinks in. Arthur believes every word. The tension of his forearm veins is stark in the blue reflected pool light, dancing across the fine hairs. 

"As flattered as I am about the theatrics, you truly didn't need to go so far on my accord. I haven't the faintest clue what you're on about, so when you're ready to have an adult conversation about this, I'll be right here." They're bold words, and he hopes on hope that his nonchalance hides his fear about the situation. 

Eames' head is yanked back by his hair, a sharp hiss escaping between his teeth. "Was the payoff worth it? I was this," Arthur emphasises, "close to being dropped into the Danube, just like this, so you'll excuse my impatience today."

"You think I'm playing? What's wrong with you, Arthur? I never even knew Armsweng, Amsterdam, whatever they are, before this, much less to sell you off to the highest bidder like cattle."

The grip on his hair has thankfully loosened, the tiniest fraction. Arthur's eyes bore into his, searching for the slip up that he's expecting, but Eames can only see fatigue and- a depth of something gone terribly wrong, like Arthur's world has turned itself inside and out. 

For the first time in the evening, Eames catches sight of the healing cut running parallel to Arthur's hairline, how Arthur keeps his gun hand strong but wavering just the tiniest bit, Arthur's microexpression of a wince when he pulled Eames' hair.

Arthur doesn't say anything yet, just staring as Eames examines him. And then: "I saw communiques in your Sao Paulo apartment from Cha. The money was impressive, even by my standards, and the last someone had seen you was Bucharest. I can put two and two together. I really should've known." The inference is left hanging in the air, a live wire.

Eames gapes at him. "I haven't been to Brazil in months. And I'm not stupid enough to grass up one of the best point men out there and piss off no doubt the countless fans of your work. Did my apartment look liveable any way to you? Because I know for a fact that my electricity was out and the plumbing broke ages ago."

His hair is finally released, and he catches the flash of doubt in time. Bingo.

"What did they do to you?"

Arthur's jaw locks, and there's more wounds on the underside of his jaw that Eames can glimpse from this angle. He's somehow sure that what he sees is only a fraction of the damage that's been done.��

"Arthur, I thought our relationship had more depth than that. What would I have to gain by getting rid of you?"

"That's not- you're-" Arthur groans, scraping a hand across his face, gun still held in his hand but thankfully, no longer pressed against his person. "You've always said you'd sell your own mother and her ducklings if the pay was good enough. What is anyone supposed to believe?"

Eames feels relief exhale through him. He's not 100% safe, he knows, not until he's been kicked awake and about 15,000 kilometres away from whatever seedy place Arthur has them camped out in.

A chair that definitely hadn't been there a moment ago is just far enough for Arthur to slump in and stretch his long legs. He looks drained as the day Mal died, a particularly unhappy memory that Eames can always perfectly recollect. Eidetic memories don't always come in handy, to many people's surprise.

"How low you must think of me, sweet." He wants to be shocked, but he knows that his own rumours and the reputation he had developed in the dreamsharing community is his own concoction. He's unsure why it bothers that Arthur thinks of him simply as everyone else. 

"Fuck." Arthur's head is in his hands, and there's the slightest tremble in his hands. Clearly, the man hadn't recovered from whatever treatment had been doled out to him. "Fuck."

Arthur surges up and there's a flash of reflected light before the ropes on Eames' chest are cut loose and he can barely react before Arthur turns the barrel onto himself, a clean shot to the neck.

~~~

By the time Eames figures out a way to kick himself awake, only the faint scent of Arthur's cologne remains. A hastily scribbled note sits on the night stand of the bed.

I'm sorry.

~~~~~~

(Years later, Arthur and Eames will come back together for the Fischer job, where Eames will confront Arthur about all the favours he's called to pull Eames from every pickle Eames found himself in, self inflicted or otherwise. He'll catch Arthur at a weak moment and convince him for a drink when they land in LA, high on life and success and the sweet sound of his bank account filling up and by some miracle, Arthur will agree with only three attempts of flirtation versus his regular arsenal of five. 

Arthur will flush so pretty in the yellow lighting of the dive bar, and apologise again about four times before Eames puts a hand over his. Arthur will pull away like he's been stung but it doesn't stop the blush or the way he turns away to gulp more beer with the smallest smile.

They'll go to bed together, and lie naked and touching, as Eames caresses each scar from all those years ago. He'll kiss each raised bump and feel this odd pull from his chest when he watches Arthur shiver each time. And slowly, he'll understand why Arthur couldn't do anything more to Eames that day, when Eames knows that had it been anyone else in that dream, they would've never seen him coming.)

[dnangelic]

A quick and dirty RP policy guide

Bold all that apply to you and your blog. Italics if you’re on the fence about something. Either reblog or repost. Feel free to add anything I may have missed in the appropriate category, or recategorize something that is in the wrong place!

My blog is ______

Open to all

Semi-selective

Selective

Moderately Selective

Highly selective

Exclusive ( ^ idc for any of these labels for myself tbh whats below is more important🏃‍♂️ )

Only going to RP with mutuals

Mostly going to RP with mutuals ( if you have a sideblog that's fine! )

Indie

Affiliated with a group

Spoilers free (it's a 30 year old series nobody pays attn to anymore though??? dark's been dead for over 10 slutty slutty years 😭 laksjlkdjg)

Spoilers tagged

Spoilers mostly tagged

I will RP with ______

Any fandom

Most fandoms (there are a few i'm uncomfortable with!)

Only fandoms I know

Mostly fandoms I know

Only people in my fandom (aslkdjf all five of them?? 🥺)

OCs

OCs with no fandom ties

OCs who are related to/know my character in their backstory

Only one version of any particular character

People who have the same muse as me

People who do not have a rules page

Multimuse blogs

People in RP groups

Indie RPers

When RPing, I like to use _______

Paragraphs

Shorter forms of text (i get very bored of single one-liner exchanges very fast!)

*Action* (dark will text like this. errybody watch out for teh glompz XD sorry)

Icons

Gifs

Gif icons

Formatted text

Whatever my partner is using

My own style regardless of my partner’s reply ( i'll usually match paragraph structure + text size of my partner but very rarely i can't be bothered alsdkjlg. )

I will ship with _______

No one

Anyone

Chemistry

Select ships

OCs

Others of my own muse (this goes for dark x daisuke, not just dai x dai (or dark+dark) too. i don't do any of that romantically ever ❌)

Crossovers with characters from different fandoms

Only one version of a particular character

One person in my main verse

Multiship, all ships independent of each other & main ship

One main/canon ship within my main verse

My blog WILL contain ______ in its content

Fluff

Light fluff

Angst

Gore

Violence

Smut

Blood

Torture

Shipping

Death

Dark humor

Cheating

Assault

I will follow ______ back

Everyone

Only some people

Most people

Only people in my fandom

Every RP blog

Only people I actively wish to RP with

People who do not post a lot of OOC (i love ppl who can't stop talking ooc abt their muses actually, but i don't like too much random irrelevant content, esp if it's untagged)

People whose posts I am comfortable with on my dashboard

To RP with me, you should _______

Follow back

Answer an open

Message me OOC (i'm very very spotty and slow/negligent with ooc messages due to my bad eye health/short free time timeframes so it helps to skip small talk if you message me specifically through ims or discord!)

Message me IC (i try to at least get my inbox completely free and clean asap, so asks are always your best bet if u want the fastest response to something!)

Make a starter (as long as we're mutuals, random starters are completely ok! tag me in whatever whenever. )

Answer my starter

Send in a meme

Like a starter call (i don't usually reblog memes or make starter calls! i do try to like others' calls though and sometimes send in memes or random unprompted asks! i often respond IC-ly a lot to replies on my posts! if you reply to a reply i make on your post IC-ly, (or otherwise tbh) i will probably turn it into a proper interaction thread!)

Plot with me

Other:

I practice reblog karma with memes

I expect reblog karma with memes

I expect my rules/about to be read

I always read the rules/about before following/interacting

If you follow me, I would like my triggers tagged

I expect all smut to be beneath a read-more

I am multi-muse (i kind of am, kind of am not, but i don't reaaaally consider myself one due to the bizarre way dark and daisuke.... well. work. 'i don't get it' appearances and superficials aside they're genuinely the same character, have the same motivations, conflicts and inner feelings about themselves, bonding with one is bonding with the other, relationships or dynamics can potentially end up repeating if you treat them separately as a duo instead of a whole single unit, which is ehhh to me. if that makes sense!)

I do not wish for my OOC posts to be reblogged

I do not wish for my threads to be reblogged by those not involved

I expect post length effort to be matched

I expect icons/gifs to be used in a reply if I have used them

I don’t expect post length to be matched, but I will try to match your own.

I am patient when waiting for replies and expect the same courtesy. (you can also just drop stuff whenever forever! i dont mind at all. alternatively if there's something you want to see moved along, feel free to tell me you're dying to continue a certain thread/scenario and i'll push it to the top of my priorities✨)

[heartshapedcreaturefromcriptoon]

One such example of the difference between "Good" and genuinely bad form vivziepop/Hazbin Hotel Fans that drive everyone to hatred, is that are those of us who are absolutely avoiding the leaks and want fuck all to do with that shit and will block you if you so much as mention it to us, and can afford to do such a thing as a fully matured adult audience with lives and interests outside of just constant cartoon consumption....

And then there's genuinely off putting pigfucker bitches like petitprinces1 who are so sloppy they can't be bothered to find a header that isn't a moving gif with the freaking "AMAZON" logo still attached and they're just like:

"Erm....Yusss.....x3 I seen da leaks.....x3 Nope wont spoil anythin' even tho im answering asks abt it right the fuck now n' addressing Viv herself like shes in da room w me rn anyway KUDDOS Viv i did NAWT see dat 1 cumming!!!! x3 If da rest of u who put the dumb in fandumb literally want lil' ol' meh, ur reigning princess of stupidity, to send u the leaks so u can potentially spread them moar bein an idiot like i am plz DM meh cuz u kno ill delete u if ur dumb enough to actually ask in a reply id rather if u ask me to spread the leaks 4 u in meh DMs if ur gonna ask 4 leaks cuz im not a regular fandumb mom im a 20% COOLER fandumb mom!!! x3 Im so cool that if u ask me for leaks in my replies I GUESS....... ill prolly just delete ur comment instead of just blocking u like everyone else would bc im different and *i* have no boundaries and *i* dont know *HOW* to block ppl!!! x3 i also apparently wrote DISNEY JUNIOR FANFICTION at one point when i was in my late late teens/early early 20s which would imply i went directly from *THAT* to HAZBIN which explains a lot about me dont it? x3 ANYWAY HMU VIA DM IF U WANT ALL DA SEASON 2 LEAKS!!! x3"

Like gurl ...

Like, gurl...

Fake arse fan here to stress real people out just like like all the shitty clickbait bros here only you're a little Candace Owens about it it...

Speaking of Candace...

Uh, once again, my name is NOT "Hearts" and yes the fuck I did Ashface Snitchdale, again, it's free internetz, it's my hot blog and I do what I want, and yo' mama's been blocked for over 4+ years even before she tried and failed to troll me via block evading on anon... I just use an incognito now sometimes when I wanna roll my eyes because my block and stayfree options get broken and I'm forced to perceive she exists and re-block her anyway, keep scrollin'!

Oh and again, it's not "a real double edged sword" or whatever the fuck fandumb centrist bullshit that petitprincess1 is spouting as she's helping spread the leaks to people and let us be very fucking black and white about this okay? Okay. READY? I DON'T CARE! :D

If you indulge the leaks or help spread them, in public or in DMs... You are not a true fan... You are a fake fan... And you need to delete and leave the fandom!

If you: "Feel bad for being happy or excited over something that was so devastating for the crew and feel guilty for finding joy or even 'relief' in those leaks 'because of the results' of the US election.." or whatever the fuck bullshit excuse you made up to help you feel better or whatever... I'm paraphrasing because I don't fucking care what made you do it ... You SHOULD feel bad, you SHOULD feel guilty... You are not a true fan, you're a fake fan.... You not only need to delete and leave the fandom, BUT, you should feel even WORSE for confiding all of your bullshit to the tumblr fandumbs biggest bullshitter, Leeanne, (petitprincess1) someone who should've deleted her online presence years ago for presenting and behaving with all the tackiness and immaturity a of young/republican Trump Supporter anyway... THERE I SAID IT, and I'm probably not the only one too! I mean Viv herself is like... The cutest lil' Scene Kitten/Drunk Girlie at the party who actually thought Coconut Charli XCX Lady would win while raving to that Practical Magic Margarita Song all night long while making Actual Margaritas ...Those of you of you who've actually indulged the leaks and spoiled yourselves for ANY reason are selfish and entitled (as I always knew some of you were) and should be ashamed for doing that to her! You are not true fans. You are not one of us. Leave the fandom.

To think I once called out petitprincess1 for stealing my friends shit and running them off the internet and block evading to further harass me and now I'm calling her out for being complacent and helping spread leaks of the second season of Medrano's entire show! I was going to make a sort of Deep Cut TMI (for some of you people, not for me..) joke about how me and Leeanne ("apparently") shared "the same" Blorbo in the "Lion King" fandom albeit in two entirely Different Eras of Fandom ( mine being the superior one) but I think all of the obvious caveats and quotation would imply how I don't even so much as acknowledge disney junior shit as canon and because I don't watch shows meant for toddlers and therefore it's not the same fandom and not even the same "blorbo" at all and then I got angry and went on the other, more important, vent session because, yeah... It really did all just come down to one big, full circle of bullshit with her this time, didn't it? I'm truly done!

Like, bye bitch I'm never tipping your lolcow again.

Speaking of tipping... She's probably never actually paid an artist in this fandom or brought any actual art in like a while has she? No.

I peek at her blog to see if she posted her playbill if she even paid for one and I find something so much worse.

Oof.

[cant-you-be-m1ne-forever]

"A One-sided Conversation of Me and My Lover" (He replies through call but I was to drained out to talk)

.

.

.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

Let me die.

Fucking shit this will never end for me right? Am I doing everything wrong?

I can't handle this anymore i swear to God, it hurts do fucking bad.

I'm so tired of my own fucking existence.

Just-

Fucking

Kill me

Already

I don't feel

Fine

Oh I forgot I'm calling

With u

Lmao

Sorry

Huh

I want to die

Js

All

Ye

I hate myself.

Why the fuck my existence is fucking pointless

I'm fucking useless am not i

I can't even process to live like a normal human fucking being

I can't even being able to keep my task done

I can't keep up with the whole world and i just feel like I'm left behind so many times that I even wish for people to please leave me behind

I

Yeah.

And I'm sorry for that.

I can't even help myself and it's pushing me to death because I'm literally in love with a person

And I am so pushed like

I wish to just-

Idk

It would be feral if you literally stop

Caring

But I'd thank for that

Because I'm suicidal lmao

I need a reason to end my whole life

Because idk if anything I'm doing is good enough

I try everything and just fall down again and i am so fucking mad

I'm fucking helpless

I hate life

Yey.

It's stupid

If anyone does then why the fuck am I the one stagnant

I lose all people around

Why?

Am I not good enough?

Idk

I feel like people lying

I can't even trust them saying good words towards me anymore like how come

I don't even know

I'm trying

My brain just

Trying to punch me haha

I lose friends all the time

I hate it

Because I don't have anything to give them except myself

And when I lose them i lose a part of me too

How what?

Idk

I feel stupid

This js reminds me of

When I got no one

It feels so safe

And unsafe at the same time haha

I mean I'm used to it

It's feral, it's terrible

But now I'm

Torturing myself with the thoughts that they probably will leave and I'm the fucking problem again

Because I

Hurt them

Or bother them

Enough

So they

Leave me

Because I deserve it

I just don't trust it

People say

If it happens so many times

Then I'm the problem.

There's just only me who doesn't even know how to maintain a fucking relationship

Like

Fuck friends.

I want friends

But I don't want friends at the same time like WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS THE INTENTION IF THEY AREN'T EVEN GOING TO STAY

Like why

Yea

It's so bad

I don't even have stories to tell

Ppl talk abt their lives and it's so fine and mine just ughhhh

Like

Telling them a piece of my trauma and they just fucking LEAVE ME

Why???

Like damn why the fuck appeared at first place

I do have skill issues hhhh

And they can't handle me

Yay.

I know right

No one is perfect but they're just human

Human

Human

Hhh

Why the fuck human

Why the fuck am I living with human

Idk they should kts

Yay

What the actual shit is going on in my head

I don't get it

I don't get a thing

The sounds in my head is too loud

I'm annoyed

It keeps saying that I should

Kms

Hhhh

Hhhhhh the promise.

Yes

I'm talking nonsense

Tro Bếp returned to the room

He tried to reassure me at first but when I start hitting something then he looked at me full of fear

And I was scared too i dropped that immediately and held him and asked if i was scaring him out

But he just looked at me and ran away after sneaking out

Yeah he's back but he's

Js

Hm

Idk if that's what I'm imagining

My brain is shutting down

But it's so painful

I don't know

The feelings

Are

Suffocating

And I

Don't know anymore

I don't know

If it's really fine

I hate my head

I hate myself I hate myself so much why the fuck do I even exist in the first place

If

You never met me

Then your life

Could've been better

Istg

I feel like I'm just making you stagnant

Use Gg translate hhhh

Istg I'm listening to something portray my head lmfao

Idk just part of it

Like listening to something that is

Drawing

A corner of the face

Idk

Idk

Idk

Damn

My head is starting to annoy me

Again

I feel like

I hate human being but without them around i can't handle myself

Without their finest distraction then

I'm going crazy with my head i wish I could chop it off

But it's hard when I just hate myself.

Idk

Eh

That song is literally everything in my head, it's not naturally being one of my favourite song hhhhh

Idk

I want to be a cat

Probably it'd be less hurt to think

At least there won't be someone

Going to grasp me out of nowhere and then destroy me inside out once again and i

Idk

I want to be

Human

But I hate it so much

But I want to feel "human" again

Like when I'm living

When I finally lived

But I

Hm

The head

And I guess that you must feel helpless lmao

It's fine, i can't even help myself

Lmao

Idk

Just feel so

Sometimes my feelings would just crawl in and go furious in there

And I can't differentiate my brain out of my own self

And I hate myself

So much

Idk

I wish the suicidal thoughts would shut up

Yes

I searched it up earlier so it's in the waitlist

Damn tbh ye

And ye

I

Actually

I mean I think everyone does

Crave for attention

And hmmm

Affection

And sh like that

But I look down on myself wanting that

So idk

I'm trying not to want human connection hhhhh

Ye hhhh

Literally

+1 reasons why I hate myself ✨

Because I want connections

Hhhhhhhhh

Idk how come

Aishite aishite aishite

Idk

I wish I could beg them for it idgaf

But I can't mf

It keeps stopping me like prolly if i beg for it I could receive some

But I don't let me do that and God knows why

Probably because mama and papa always said that they loved me so much already

What's the point of begging for more

If they loved me "so much" already

Ỷe

Music

On repeat

Yippe

I feel like just opening my mouth is

Uhhhhh

Kinda

Draining me

I'm just

Tired

I want to

Destroy something

I want to be

Left alone

But idk

I want to be alone

But with you

Idk if that even make senses lmao

Hhhhhh.... I

Oh hmm

Hm

Why would you know-

Hm

But

Hm

Ye

I can hear my dad snoring

Ikr

He returned to the house earlier

Hmmmmm

I guess sometimes

I js wish my parents arent home

So that I could scream it out but like eh...

Like the record

Hm?

And I'll scream?

Hhhhh

Idk i want to hold you like a hostage

Idk keeping you forever and

Idk i start to think of negative shi

Prolly impulsive sh

I mean I start to think what can I do to not letting you jump away but uh-

It's just all

Hm

I don't even want to watch TV

Why the song singing that

But I really want to

Keep you

Even if your silver is my gold but I don't care

Hhhhh i mean

Even if you pay little attention for me, it's still so precious to me

But I don't care

Há?

Wtf

It's the fourth times you say it

Ig

Idk

I js don't feel so

I literally scratched the mirror

Chú Hoàn said I could went into a therapy session with the mirror

It counts

Why

Aw. But I know myself the best

I know how terrible i can get to be because all I can do is

Uh

Repress it

That's what I can do the best

Tro Bếp looks like a cat

How can he be a cat

He is so

Beautiful being a cat

He

Not a she

Lmao he has dick it js

Cut off his balls ig

Ye

That's triệt sản (awhh okay)

But he's a very cute cat

Idk i love him so much

Hm

Idk suddenly I feel like

I can do this my whole life idk

But fr

If i lose him

I don't think another cat can replace him

He can die

And turn into

A human being

I told him

That

If he dies

He can turn back to be human and be my child

I will adopt him

Ye and I'll make him happy

Abt Som

Hmmmmm

Js a cat

Ion really care

He's kinda dumb

Should be a cat for few more lives to learn how to be smart

Hhhhh

But

What if I die before them even...

I actually attempted to kill them

So that I could kms

Bc i didnt know how to force myself to death but I was so fed with my own existence

I know

Like I should js kms not killing them either idk

My head thinks abt negative things again

What if

Idk

I'll find you a med that can delete ur memory

Som is so soft

And he's cleaning himself

After deleting your memory

This can be the last time we

Talk like this.

Nah you wouldn't even know

If you forget me

Then how could you be sad?

I'm js a page of your life

Yes, it's js-

Uhhh not really

Like just deleting it out of your brain cells

I

Uh

Hm

I'm

Thinking about my death again

Portraying it

My funeral also

No no no

Nah

That's not a promise

Why a promise

My parents will yeet u out

Your parents too

Hm but you'll need to open the coffin to do that

It's noisy and problematic

So you don't have to do it

Idk if i want you to grieve for me your whole life or js move on love someone else and live happily.

Hard to choose lmao

Because I want you to be happy

Hm

Delete ur memory?

: D

...awh

Hm

Hmm

I don't know

I love you but I don't want you to

Be sad

If i

Idk

I'll try to at least live until October as I promised

I know

We have 1 yearrrr

And

Hm

If we're still tgt until that moment then prolly a new contract would be made

Your happiness is so simple

Ig mine could be but hm

Why can't I feel it

I want to feel it

Try again

It has been so long

I'm so

Greedy

I'm so jealous of

Other ppl

Hmmm

It's fine even if you can't

I received so many things already

Hm

Then you would be even more important in my life

That would be pressurizing

I think so

Because normally ppl can't get to this extent so I'm not sure

Ppl usually gave up

I know hmmmm

You know the meaning of "never"

It's "never"

Hm

How come it became "yourself"

It's js me

The rage

Slowed down

Ig

It'll come back another day

And start annoying me again

Hmmmm

I start to miss the record i did

Me js flat out screaming hhhh

The only time I could do it

Normally

I want to do it so much

Ye

Hhhh...

It's fine but well my head starts to be blurry idk

I feel things

Unreal things

Yeah at "home"

Damn the deep cuts start to feel itchy

Thanks-? I don't even know if that place exist

I

Uh

I'll try

Hmmm

Hm

Ye living with me is a pain in the ass ngl i have issues keeping up with tasks

All I know is myself

I mean, works, and me myself and you and all the tasks? All the chores and sh

Y'know at my house I've been stop doing all the chores bc i js can't do it and i run out of home bc i kinda am scared of doing that

Hm

I don't want to

Also feel

Terrible doing it

Out of energy

And traumatized also

I know but I feel guilty

🥲 my sanitary at living place is a whole big problem

Idk that's why I said I'll try to go make money to hire ppl to do chores and sh cleaning meow meow shit and like that

Awh but if I make enough money lmao

Idk how to balance it

:') yeah it's fine

Uhhh

Hmmm

Idk it sounds tiring

Damn

It sounds kinda way too positive

What

I mean I'm going to "sống trong nhung lụa" in its most literal way

Lmao

Fabrics and shit aaaaagh

I'm not good at making money

Istg

It could be just

Luck

I have communication issues

And fashion burns money istg fuckkk

Chú Hoàn said

It can be a few more years

Then I'll be js fine

I'm kinda avant-garde

So it's even more expensive

Because you see my designs

Extras and add-ons and sh

It's not simple and..idk

And idk my skills has issues

Idk if i should follow avant-garde or haute-couture

Hm

I know but I have to count my career for now otherwise I'll die

Yes I'll be so died ngl

My neck is

Itchyyyyy

Aaaagh

I'm mad

I need to

Scratch it

😡

Hmph

Hmph

Hm

Hmph );(

Alright

Ahgkkdkgkd but awh js-

It's healing

I mean hmmmm

Som is so soft

And anh cứ đạp phải nó ý

Tại nó nằm ngay chân anh

K giường bé mà

Ngày trc đâu có đạp ph nó

Nó ngu từ bé r

Ý là về nhà đc năm ngày kẹt cmn trên cái rèm phòng khách

Kẹt trên chỗ

Treo rèm ý

K xuống đc

Nó tự leo luôn

Xong gào ầm lên, bế xuống xong lúc sau lại thấy lên r gào tiếp

Ưtf

:))) anyways he's js

Kinda dumb

But he's a cat so i forgive it

Yippe

He's literally

Still a cat

And every cats is my

Child 🫶

Tro bếp is not

He's so cute and smart and cute and everything bling bling

Hhhhhhhh

Y e

I don't even get to deny that fr

Há? Why I don't even see a reason why I js hhhhuh?

I see the mirror

But I'm

Hmmm

Idk i js realized i fr can't js accept my

Uh

Uh

Vessel

Yey

Found a word

No I mean even my soul i js find it all so annoying

And hmmmm looking in the mirror rn making me fr insist it ahhhh

I gotta throw Som onto the pillow

He

Hm

He

Tóm lại là nó

Cản đường di chuyển tự do của chân t

Bạn buồn ngủ k

Bâyh 1h r

K

Nhma

Chắc k thế

K bngu lắm

H nhắm mắt vào xong là lại series ác mộng hhh

Nhma mơ ác mộng ngủ ngon hơn

Mơ đẹp dậy nhiều vl

Sảd i wish I could js accept those pretty dreams

I mean

Đợt này ngủ ngon k mơ gì

Yippe

Nhma nay chắc có mơ

Hqua cũng mơ

Mơ gì ý nhỉ

Mơ

Đại khái là thế

Hnhu

Có m

:0

Kiểu k nhớ lắm nhưng cũng dễ chịu

:0

Okay-

Hmmmm

Are u real

Hm

You

Guess

Idk

Bc me too

Idk how's my player doing

Nah they can't js make an npc having this miserable life js for nothing lmao

Js make it to let them kts

Ye

Bastards should js kts

Hm

Som is still soft and he returned to his old place and now my feet is on him

Poor lil guy but idc lmao.

Idk i feel like js keeping silent with you is good enough

It's comfortable

Like I don't need to talk all the time

Even the silence mean smt

Hmmmm

I think I should let u sleep but

May I ask

One question

Idk if you going to stay up a lil more then can we js keep the call for a lil while and I'll try to sleep rq and you can turn it off after?

Lmao

L m a o

But that's really fine to you right?

Hmmm

So ye

Love you

See you after 2 days ig

Long time asf aaaagh

And good night ig-

I love you

Cya?

Ur parents okay then

I'll stop sharing s

[hitachiincest]

for that scene with the script (when renge becomes their manager initially) in the manga and anime are actually different. in the anime, Kao and Hika are complaining about how Kao is the pitcher as you pointed out, but in the manga, as I mentioned earlier, they complain about how they were drenched in the rain, and then afterwards, Haruhi, Mori, and Hani were teasing the script, (sorry for repeating this… gahhh ;; that while it seems Hikaru is the one that leads, it’s the more mature Kaoru that drives the action, and then they were like “we work that way,” and “so what’s the diff?” just to clear that up :) but like i said, i do get why ppl do make Kao the princess and everything, but still, they’re not all about that metaphor (in the manga, there was none of that metaphor anyways) and it sounds personal, but for me it’s hard not to get peeved bc Kao is like that on occasions, and he’s not all delicate and uwu like how people make him out to be (and for the fanarts, trust me, they do exist) but sometimes i just wish people would make them cross dress together (they always have, together in the manga especially) like as alices, the witch, in their childhood, for the lobelia girls and everything. doesn’t help the fact that Kao’s hair is slightly longer post canon… ;; like, there’s so much hikakao content, but nowhere near as enough as kaohika… again, i’m so srry for prolonging this (this was an excuse to vent lol), just am glad to see someone with a similar way of thinking <3 i hope it wouldn’t be bother if we could talk more abt the twins on occasions? like dynamics, plot ideas n stuff?

ohhh I see.. that's quite a difference, huh. also I'm surprised that hikaru would allow himself 2 even mention that he's p vulnerable. I wonder why they made that change in the anime. also ehhh?! such a big part of anime!kaoru wasn't even originally in his canon?! that feels insane... did they add it to create more angst I wonder...... has it all been a lie... orz /j I do still like the metaphor tho but I'm also a bit of an angst whore so it appeals to me specifically ghsjnd

for fics at least maybe they don't have them both crossdress bc that's a bit unconventional most of the time. for smut (& i guess r18 art) at least. tho double crossdressing sounds like a treat to me lol but its p rare/a niche (& i see why. unless its specifically lingerie) & for most they prefer one or the other w typically the sub dolled up so.. alas to our poor martyral boy.. orz orz in just general arts tho, most definitely they should both be in cute dresses. less of a niche. matching cute coords. them doing each other's makeup. Peak. i think if they did grown up versions of their blue & pink kid coords they would be so pretty.

post-canon kaoru mention spotted uryaahhh he's cute.. I remember he's, like, a fashion designer (cuuute) & grew out his hair n was adorable... from my memory anyways. guys w slightly long hair my beloved.

im sure there's more kaohika stuff out there if one looks! the eng sphere might be leaning toward hikakao but typically the jp fanbase tends to be a bit more Based. so long as one can access photo translate ya could probably find a trove on somewhere like pixiv! unless u specifically wish it was more popular in the eng sphere & alas can't help ya there.. ¯\_(;w;)_/¯

ah... ur free to spitball thoughts in my inbox when it's open I guess if u want & I'll reply if I can but im not much of a socializer + ouran isnt 1 of my main interests, despite my love for it, so i dont think id be able to contribute much other than a thumbs up anyway ^^;;

[hakunafuckingmatata]

I’m not sure why people can’t just like what they like and leave others alone. Though I am a canon shipper I always encourage others to leave non can shippers alone. I hate with a passion when some pro shippers act like someone shipping something different it will affect canon. Like the story is the story and nothing anyone says will change it so why not allow folks who don’t have a canon ship enjoy fanfics, fan art, and anything else the fandom might produce. If someone wanna talk about Juvia couldn’t care less. I like her but I understand not everyone will. Not all characters are gonna be liked by everyone and that’s fine. I’m a huge Lucy fan and I use to actively defend but I stopped doing that a few years back too. I can’t force people to see things from my perspective and I wish others would see it like that when they are trashing people like you who aren’t a fan of Juvia. People need to learn that it’s okay for you to hate a character just as much as it is for them to love a character. Anyways I just wanted to say this from a pro side who doesn’t believe in beefing with antis especially those that just stay in their lanes and don’t bother us pros.

This is very great post.

You see how sensitive people are when you don't agree with them? Or when you don't like their favorite character they harrass you.

I just don't like characters like her. This is not something like my comfort character. But I think I can't have my own opinion in these times. Like I can't have my own right.

But this is how internet works. You can't escape when someone doesn't agree with you.

It's not my fault that some characters just annoys me. But this is really a reason to reply to me and saying I am sexist? Do I harrass people by saying I don't like FICTIONAL character?

Yes, I replied in very mean way. You know why? I am just tired of explaining and I knew that all the angry comments gonna flow to me. And from here I'm gonna ignore these people because I'm done. Because of that I feel like I can't like my favourites.

I never said that harrassing shippers of others ship is okay!! They only see what they want to see and I couldn't help that. I even pointed that this isn't okay.

This is my last post about this drama. I hope it ends soon, because I see no point over arguing about ships. Yet, people only see their truth.

My note to people: just stop, okay? This is really sad what others are doing.

Thank you for this post. I hope everyone will see it and understand finally.

And really don't reply to me how bad I am how I harrass people, because I know myself and I will not agree with that. There is no point in explaining when someone doesn't listen to what you're saying.

I get it. Half of them like GrayLu, half of them like Gruvia, even GrayZa. I am sure that in other fandoms, games, you have characters you don't like or you have characters you're uncomfortable to ship with even when author decides so. But this is not a reason to persuade everyone that your right is your right.

Ship whatever you want, please. Read fanfics, made edits with whoever you want and accept each other's decisions.

I'm really glad I'm not into fandoms so much, because I hate wars, arguing and explaining myself again and again.

I simply wanted to point that everything has bad and good side. Nothing is perfect. I really found this funny when ppl are arguing and fighting over something they cannot change.

If you wanna talk with me, just simply dm me and don't hide with anon when saying bad words to me.

So please stop this war already and simply enjoy a good series.

You all know how fans could be bad. Remember about thing that happened with Jujutsu Kaisen? This is not normal. So stop that.

I will be mean to someone who is mean to me and can't just simply talk without the harrasment.

So thank you again for this post. It made my hope for this fandom rise up. Although I don't think I will be including myself in it. I don't want fights when someone don't understand you.

And that is all. When you want to talk, dm me, I will reply.

Thanks for reading and maybe someday I will join this fandom again. For now I will simply enjoy this show by myself.

[kickassfu]

Regarding Eddywow. Bc I just really need to get it off my chest and it's been bothering me all day. So firstly I cannot find a single primary source about this infamous fic posted on 8/30 aka a copy of the fic or even a screenshot of the tags so everything I can find in response to or accusing the fic of is a gd moot point. However, what I can see from previously posted fics are pretty fucking tame kink wise frankly and very clearly tagged not only in tags but in beforehand notes. Thusly I'm led to believe from what small evidence that I can uncover that what occured in the last 24hrs was a witch hunt against this author, who even at this point if they did something wrong, has been harmed completely out of proportion to their supposed crime. It's absurd this is still something that happens in 2022 and greatly distressing how many people are willing to just jump onto the bandwagon of destroying someone without a scrap of first hand evidence. From what I can find the person on Twitter who initially brought up disliking this fic has even backed down from their opinions and stated they harbor no ill will against eddywow (for all the good that does now). On the one hand I hope this doesn't destroy Eddywow's enjoyment of this fandom, but on the other hand if they never step foot in the fandom again I can understand. Verbally berating and threatening someone will never teach anyone anything but fear and contempt and does nothing to address or help real issues.

So I only noticed this when i went to bed at like midnight and didn't reply 'cause i had to wake up at 6am for work and had no brain power to actually write words lol anyway sorry for being late

Feel free to get it off your chest, you're not the only one upset and if it helps it helps! And well I don't need to find any screenshots because I did read the fic, and I did see the tags and the warnings she wrote, so it might be a he said, she said sort of thing but I still know it was there and so do a lot of people (and tbh even if there were no warnings, for the situation to escalate the way it did is fucking stupid and ppl need to quit the internet if they can't behave). But ok that's fair, it's a moot point 'cause you can neither confirm or deny with your own eyes.

But as you point out she has a history of tagging things properly and even giving warnings in the notes, so it'd be fairly strange if she just decided not to do it this time. And *ding ding ding* you said it exactly right, it was a witch hunt taken to the extreme over something fictional. I'll tell you something, I think it got to that point because her writing is popular and maybe some ppl were jealous. Yes there's still the anti mentality and the purity bullshit thrown in there, but it wouldn't have blown up if people didn't love her writing as much as they do.

Either way it's fucking weird how everything went down tbh.

Oh yeah that this shit still happens is mind boggling. But I think it's only gonna get worse not better, because the anti and purity mentality is growing more with time not going down. And people don't seem to realize that harrassing a real person will always be worse than reading or writing something fictional that's fucked up.

Yeah it seems they've talked it out and they're cool with each other now, but it still blew up regardless and reached shitty ppl that blew it out of proportion.

I agree, it sucks that they took something they love from her and pushed her to a point where she needed to step away but it's completely understandable and she deserves all the time in the world to feel better. And if she never feels ready to come back, it'll hurt because i love her and her writing, but again it'll also be understandable. It still sucks that they ruined something good and i honestly hate them for it.

Well they don't wanna teach or be taught. They just think they're right and that all of us are evil, disgusting ppl that deserve to rot in hell and to that I say I'd rather go to hell than be in heaven with you fuckers <3 godspeed motherfuckers.

i'm sorry for the long reply i still have so much to say about this. I'm still so fucking angry. Thanks for the message love <3 hope you're feeling better after saying this!

[genshinconfessions]

heizou feels very experimental (for genshin) animations-wise. what direction do you think genshin will take with characters? will hoyoverse squeeze all the "extraordinary" stuff into catalysts or other weapon types will have those too?

will we have guns? those sure will be elemental manifestation, but will they be locked to catalysts only too or will other weapons get them too? my idea is that guns are tied to elemental skill, have multiple charges like xiao's e and have uncharged and charged versions (charged version is like charged bow shot) but idk if they tie gunshots to normals

and many many smaller stuff like will spear users be able to throw spears? will genshin go honkai and implement meter system? (attacks fill meter and at full meter character can do unique attack at cost of the meter) will we have charachers wielding two swords? well and so on, just characters' animations being less strict

you're right! and i'd like to take it just a step further and say it's experimental for genshin period. i don't play honkai so previous genshin characters are all i can go off of, but clearly we don't have any other hand to hand combat characters haha.

i'm honestly not quite sure how things are going to work later (i neither work in game design nor know much about it) but i think all the things you mentioned could be possible! i think one of the reasons that ppl were getting tired of genshin was because all the characters seemed too cookie-cutter. you know, like how inazuma characters just seemed like stronger versions of mondstadt characters? like they were copied and pasted, sort of. so developing new attack styles would definitely help spice it up a bit.

i do hope it's not going to be locked to catalysts because i think that a gun system would be super cool. and weapon transformation too (like childe), but one thing i don't want is the honkai system. like you said, that's a HONKAI system, and genshin has its own system that works and that players like, so i really wouldn't want that for us. (besides, i feel like elemental particles -> burst thing already sort of IS the meter for us!)

the thing that i think genshin really needs to try to balance (if it wants to be kept f2p) is power creep :( i know i've talked about this and gotten a lot of replies back when ayato came out, but it would be really horrible if we HAD to pull new characters just to keep up with the game. not to mention that inazuma is ar-locked! so you can't even gather the materials if you do pull an inazuma character early! anyway that's just what bothers me right now LOL

katheryne from liyue

[actualbird]

it's 🐻‍❄ again!!! I love polar bears (and bears in general) so I'm more than happy this emoji isn't taken haha 💖 I FEEL what you're saying about being capable of doing things not only efficiently but also p e r f e c t l y so like hello? brain? body? get your shit together and do it na why are you wasting time????? like I have a list of things to do and I know how to do it all but somehow I can't bring myself to get started and then I feel guilty and then comes the sexy sexy feeling of self-loathing rearing its ugly head at me.

like cmon girl. beshie. you LOVE your job. you LOVE designing things and being creative and finding new ways to teach old material. so WHY WON'T YOU START. WHY ARE YOU HYPER-FOCUSED ON CUTTING THE EDGES AROUND LAMINATED CARDS TO MAKE THEM CURVED PLEASE- this isn't even a priority! this isn't due any time soon! YOU PROBABLY WON'T GET TO USE IT SO WHYYYYYYYY

hai nako I went off on a whole ass tangent there and it's licherally just me venting cause the pinoy energy is in sync ig and my brain is just 💨💨💨 but YEAH! I feel you! you're not alone in the I Need To Be Productive Or Else Why Bother Existing department. 🐦🤝🏻🐻‍❄

p.s. this is already so long but I wanted to add something positive! I'm glad my ambisyosang palaka made you laugh, it cracks me up too 😆 and thanks for the meme hehe ok sige goodnight po

polarbear!anon it is :DDD

hhhhh, thank you for this ask. sorry i replied late, by the time i saw this last night i was half asleep skdjfbkjBKJ. i am glad that this is something other ppl go thru, tho. which, i technically knew logically, but reading it like this really helps actualize it.

that being said, i'll tell you what i try to tell myself (usually only after my girlfriend lovingly bonks me over my self deprecating head): you exist to exist. thats it.

which doesnt make sense to me when i apply to myself but it feels right when i apply it to literally anybody else on the planet. eh. i'll work my way up there HAHA

and no worries on going on tangents!!!! halata naman sa blog ko na halos lahat ng posts ko ay tangent lamang KJBSJFKSD.

🐦🤝🏻🐻‍❄!!!!!

[olive01l]

I'm just go n avent on here in a tagless way so that nobody sees this /lh tws: suicide, alcohol consumption,.underage drinking, eating disorder

I'm so sick and tired of being on this planet. I've attempted so many times but someone out there just loves seeing me suffer ig lmao.

I keep reaching out but not wanting help. I desperately want someone to care but I feel like absolute shit e y time I bother anyone with my problems in the First place

I'm so fucking pathetic I can't even take proper care of myself to the point where I end up gagging alone in my room bc of stomach acids 👍

I can't even get my goofy hands on alcohol cause my parents haven't been going to bed any early, so I just have to sit thru all of my feelings. when I'm sure they are sleeping i either don't want to get up myself, or I hear kne of them going for the bathroom.

hhhhh it would just be better if I was gone

yeah it might hurt, like what 2 ppl??

it would be a net fucking positive anyway

I'm toxic or whatever

my fucking class hates me

my old friendgroup shunned me

I'm an absolute fucking loser??

my only friends are on fucking discord and one of them keeps going on week long episodes of not replying

he wouldn't even notice if I kms for like while

yes they'd both struggle a bit but theyd gest over it pretty fast tbh

I'm not the best friend

my goofy ass keeps venting out of nowhere

they probably can't handle it anymore anyway

in either case I won't do it ig

too much effort to gedt the shit I need and I'm already sick so

plus I'm way too much of a pussy to go thru with it another time this week so eh

why does this happen when I'm not dissociating

every fu king time I stop dissociating for a bit i just end up attempting B)

I'm literally so fucking pathetic

I literally can't handle anything huh

mmmm if you fucking read this orion I'm sorry

ig this isn't even a goodbye

wow im just so fucking Cool /s

can't even write a suicide note that ends in an actual suicide

some part of me really wants for someone to notice how much I've been struggling, but even if they do I will just shut them down anyways so what's the fucking point 💀

[domjaehyun]

Hi, not a drama but I just really need to talk to someone. Everyone in my life seems to be leaving me out of stuff, like the other day my friend didn't understand how shitty it feels to be pushed into going into college when that isn't what I want (please don't judge) and he said it's not that bad, but it is to me because it's stopping me from going through with my dreams, and now he's ignoring me, and all my other friends disregard by mental health issues, like they don't understand and they don't bother to read into it either and they rarely text me too (I only talk to three friends 'frequently'). And now my parents once again left me out on ordering noodles from my favourite place because I thought they were ordering them on another day and I'm not allowed to order delivery because they don't let me and it's been weeks since I had that comfort food and now I just feel so shitty, I just can't stand by toxic household and sometimes even the ppl I call friends, I don't hate my friends, because they care, just not enough, my parents are a whole different story, they're the reason I'm depressed and anxious and I really can't take it anymore, I feel like a prisoner in this house, I can't even call this a home, and all my other relatives are just like them, racist, anti feminist, and other stuff, so I have no one to go to. Sorry for ranting, I'm just really really upset about everything, you can don't reply to this, I understand.

hi honey :)

1 - i wouldn’t judge you!! i withdrew from college so like. who am i to judge jkfgjfkds

2 - i’m sorry baby is there anyone you can reach out to like at all? professionally?

3 - i’m really sorry to hear you’re going through a hard time. i wish i could help but i can’t beyond suggesting that you find a way to speak to a professional about this :( but i really do feel for you and i hope things get better; i love you! keep your head up, okay?