#and i am out with lanterns looking for myself

[petaltexturedskies]

Emily Dickinson in a letter to Elizabeth Holland wr. c. 20 January 1856

[swordheld]

how did u choose your username?

oh, this is a fun one!! i think i considered being swordtold at first, for that very ancient myth vibe of the sword being this narrative tool for adventure and structure and physical time, the parable being passed down through the centuries until it meddles into modern day rhetoric and ideology – a kind of fantastical tool, a spark of magic, of possibility.

i like the arc of the story of a place being physical / having it be held by time and hand alike, wearing with the years and having it become something different to each holder, each reader, each experience fantastical and individual.

having that kind of physicality to it; swordheld is the action of taking up and holding the sword yourself, choosing your own narrative, leading your own story. self-identity has always been something i struggle with (a novel concept i know, i know), so it felt right for this blog, since most of my older blogs before this one have been just me silently reblogging and never really posting anything myself, and i wanted this to be the change to that.

i've always had trouble wranging my social anxiety, esp. on the internet, and previously thought that keeping my words to myself helped keep the timeline cleaner, in a way, no messy thoughts for others to sort through, especially ones i believed no one would want to read anyway? but it never felt right, keeping myself apart from it all, esp. not in the way i so avidly enjoyed reading others' posts and additions, keeping their words close to my heart.

i wanted it to reflect that this was a space i was holding for myself? and i'm a little slow on the uptake sometimes, but this - this i think i got right. i love being here, on this blog, and the joy that it brings me. everyone else enjoying it too has been a wild ride that i never expected, and still surprises me, one that brings a little extra thrill to my heart whenever i think about it.

i had other urls that i liked, but i didn't want this blog to be tied directly to any of my fandom/story interests, since i wanted it to really just be a sort of archive of artistic inspiration and resource, like a little library or museum. i use them now as lil sideblogs of more niche interests now, which is rather lovely.

it hasn't always felt like it fit perfectly, the way that i'd like, but for some reason i can't think of really wanting to change it anytime soon. it feels mythic yet modern in a way that feels like puzzle pieces finally slotting into their place, something my own and inspirational to me, like a lantern i'm holding to make my way by. my own kind of light, if that makes sense – a star i know by name.

[taleeagrace]

the gaping whole within my chest,

is growing at a rate that I can not correct.

my self hatred is getting a little taller,

the world seems a little smaller.

if you prode and probe just right,

you'll find an army of all my regrets.

all the words I've wanted to take back are buried in the bite marks,

lining my tounge as I pray to restart.

- t.g

[mintjeru]

endless suffering

open for better quality | no reposts

[witchhaunts]

KOSCHEI VS. SHOVEL — ft. @abstractmoment

the nice purebred familiar &. the naughty feral one that showed up at your house one day &. never left

PERSONALS DO NOT REBLOG

[boingdeguayava]

* 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫.

— moon suwon, veintiséis años, cocinero en un restaurante.

"No te voy a cocinar nada" se cruzó de brazos, su usual gesto gruñón presente en su semblante. "Sólo porque estudié gastronomía y soy cocinero, no significa que le prepare comida a todo el mundo." No era le primere ni le ultime persona que se lo pedía. Por eso mismo prefería no difundir aquella información. Trataba de hablar lo menos posible sobre él para evitarse problemas o peticiones no requeridas.

[angelellipsis]

[postersbykeith]

[likethedivinefemenine]

The Lantern Bearers Maxfield Parrish 1908

[petaltexturedskies]

and I am out with lanterns, looking for myself.

Emily Dickinson in a letter to Elizabeth Holland written c. 20 January 1856

[angelicgirlmj]

creative journal prompts/ideas ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆

hi angels! i honestly love to write and really reflect through my journal but sometimes an emotionally charged journal sesh requires a bit more energy than i have. but i know journalling always makes me feel so much better so here are some cute prompts or ideas for those lower energy, more creative days where writing doesn’t quite feel like enough.

list of your favourite things (for example artists, musicians, writers, flowers)

lyrics that feel relevant in the moment

your ‘fig tree’

a kiss from every time you’ve worn lipstick

an about you page

tea bags saved from every tea you’ve tried recently - maybe with a review also!

pressed flowers

a collage page with a theme

you right now

recipes you’ve found or want to try

doodles of what’s in your bag

weekly positives

‘junk’ pages full of any odd pieces of paper you save or think are interesting

quotes that feel important

comfort films

ideal partner

words to use more

a mini gallery (print outs of any of your favourite pieces of art)

your wish list

special poems

current obsessions/fixations

brain dumps on intriguing topics

old photos

your to be read list

things on your mind recently

your dream home

thank you for reading angels! have fun journalling and getting creative. there’s a quote by emily dickinson that’s always struck me, ‘i am out with lanterns looking for myself’. to me this quote is really reminiscent of when i journal, im attempting to piece my self together slowly. id really love to hear how journalling feels to you! love, m.

[taleeagrace]

eye contact between the train carriages

flitting in and out

never to be seen again

seen & felt

but never held

- t.g

[moxrglory]

“i am out of lanterns looking for myself” - Emily Dickinson

[witchhaunts]

COME AWAY TO THE WATERS &. THE WILD WITH A FAERY HAND IN HAND — ft. @whocanretell

after years of strife &. conflict , the autumn court would find itself settled &. ruled by the former lady of autumn when she declares herself lord. her connections to the mortal realm &. that of the djinn city of daevabad lend to the autumn court ( &. perhaps ALL of the faerielands ) in its effort to rebuild. the success is such that aid can be offered to their allies as daevabad undergoes its own civil war with little to no harm coming to the realm of the fae. the denizens thus celebrate when their beloved lord takes a wife in zaynab al qahtani , princess of the djinn. the lord &. lady of autumn herald in a prosperous age as strong as the bond they share.

PERSONALS DO NOT REBLOG

[boingdeguayava]

♡   𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐬𝐮𝐰𝐨𝐧. veintiséis años. él / suyo. nacido en seúl, corea del sur. cocinero en un restaurante. bisexual. reside en seúl, corea del sur. personaje abierto. / * TABLERO DE PINTEREST EN CONSTRUCCIÓN.

[zeewipark]

"I am out with lanterns, looking for myself" (E.Dickinson)

© Jee Won Park (ig: zeewipark)