#and i WILL learn how to clock my brain out of work mode. i don't mind being busy but the stress isn't allowed to come home w me

[depresseddepot]

on one hand, I am EXPONENTIALLY busier at work. on the other hand, I'm so busy that I don't have time for some of the things I use to do, like overshare

[silurisanguine]

Crows Bond for Life Playlist

My playlist as it currently is

For my Lucanis Dellamorte/Spite/ Teleri De Riva fic (but works for Rookanis in general)

Full playlist link above or individual links to tracks below with excerpt lyrics that give the vibe i need.

Starset - Unbecoming Now I wait / This metamorphosis/ All that is left is the change/ Selfish fate/ I think you made me this /Under the water I wait.

Letdown - Empty

You don't know the hell I've been through/ You don't know the price I've paid / You can't see the walls I'm bracing time I'm facing / All my days

Shrouded King - what i've become Looking in the mirror now/ Don't recognize me somehow/ Wish I could turn back the clock /Sorry for what I've become

Sam Tinnez - Man or Monster

When you close your eyes, what do you see? /Do you hold the light or is darkness underneath? / In your hands, there's a touch that can heal /But in those same hands, is the power to kill

Breaking Benjamin - Feed the Wolf

I can feel the animal within /I chain the beast and crawl inside myself /I hear the call of violence /I sleep no more and die again /I lost it all

Pvris - What's wrong This skin don’t feel like home / It’s all overgrown / but you’ll never know /Take the mirror from the wall so I can’t see myself at all / Don’t wanna see another damn inch of my skull / Forget the poems of saints and ghosts / I’m the one I fear the most

Sophie Lloyd Featuring Lzzy Hale - Imposter Syndrome

I smile for a million faces /And wait for the mask to fall /I hide from my darkest demons / That don't exist after all /And my monsters are just shadows on the wall

Stone Sour - Through Glass

I'm looking at you through the glass /Don't know how much time has passed /Oh, god it feels like forever /But no one ever tells you / That forever feels like home /Sitting all alone inside your head

Asking Alexandria - Holding onto something more

I don't wanna look down, I can't get up /I'm sick of trying / All these haunted dreams have fucked me up / But I gotta learn to help myself

Tremonti - Just too much

To love, to pain, to thrive again / I always will, I'll feel it's right again / Take control and find that space between / Something to hold, it all begins with me

Hybrid - Every Word

Sometimes I run away / But sometimes I just want to stay / Sometimes I just want days / Where I'm watching every word you say

Sevendust - Everything

So, what do you wanna see? / I'm gonna make you believe / That I can be everything, yeah / I can be anything / I won’t change a fucking thing / Don’t walk away from me /No, you're my everything

Korn - Come Undone

Keep holding on when my brain's ticking like a bomb /Guess the black thoughts have come again to get me / Sweet bitter words unlike nothing I have heard

Tommee Profitt - Here I am

Get in my way / Lethal assassin / I bring the pain / You can't imagine Nothing but flames / This is what happens

Raign - Kiss Me a Thousand Times

Oh, you look at me like I'm trouble.../ I can't tear my eyes away. / If we take this breath with each other, / Will we share / Something we can't explain?

Teddy Swims - Lose Control

Out of my mind, how many times did I tell you / I'm no good at bein' alone? /Yeah, it's taken a toll on me, tryin' my best to keep / From tearin' the skin off my bones, don't you know

Hybrid - Blind Side

Running away running away /You know you've got to find yourself somebody someday /Take it away you take it away /There's nothing that I can do /You're always drifting /Turning away, turning away

Depeche Mode - Insight

This is the first chance /To put things right /Moving on Guided by the light /And the spirit of love /Is rising within me /Talking to you now /Telling you clearly /The fire still burns

Diamante - Sleepwalking

I feel you in my dreams /You're everywhere, you won't go easily I see you in my sleep /So I'm wide awake to keep you far from me / I keep sleepwalking just to breathe Sleep Theory - Numb Stuck in place as the walls close in / Plotting out my escape again /Crawling my way from a prison cell / No one can save me but myself / I know there's something more that I'm missing

Florence and the Machine - Cosmic Love

I took the stars from my eyes and then I made a map / And knew that, somehow, I could find my way back / Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too /So I stayed in the darkness with you

In This Moment - I would die for You

I can feel you under my skin / I feel hopeless, I'm addicted / I've never felt anything like this / I inhale you, I am weightless

Halestorm & I Prevail - Can U See Me in the Dark

Are you watching it all fall apart? /I needed your kiss of light (Light) To bring me to life (Life) / My eyes open wide for the first time / So I blackout the sun / The only way I know how to trust someone You sharpen your knife (Knife) /And enter the night / Your eyes open wide for the first time

In This Moment - All began with you

No life, no death / No force can separate us / No time, no space / No road I wouldn't walk for you / No place, no storms / No oceans in between us /Could take me away from you

Lady Gaga - Disease

Lay you down like one, two, three / Eyes roll back in ecstasy / I can smell your sickness, I can cure ya /Cure your disease

You're so tortured when you sleep / Plagued with all your memories / You reach out, and no one's there / Like a God without a prayer

Starset - Symbiotic

Torn into pieces/ i was seeking what could bring me back to life/ and i swore there were voices saying stop pretending / you will never feel alive / and then you came / it was like some synergy had fallen in place / of everything missing in me

Depeche Mode - Home

Here is a page from the emptiest stage / A cage or the heaviest cross ever made /A gauge of the deadliest trap ever laid / And I thank you for bringing me here /For showing me home, for singing these tears / Finally, I've found that I belong here

The Cure - Burn "Don't look, don't look," the shadows breathe / Whispering me away from you / "Don't wake at night to watch her sleep / You know that you will always lose / This trembling, adored / Tousled, birdmad girl"

YMIR - Rise

And if some of us start to fall /Just remember we fought for all Sacrifices were made / Pay respect in their name

Hybrid - Come back to me

All the burdens that I wear echo despair / Every waning heart is torn apart because of my fear / Water pulls me down I hold my breath as I go under / One last breath to turn me around, and yes it's you, my lover Raign - Dont let go

Don't let me go / Hold me in your beating heart / I won't let go /Forever is not enough / Let me lay my head down on the shadow by your side

The Score - Fighting For

We are the same underneath our skin / We all got demons that we hide within /Some nights, we all feel broken / Some nights, it all feels hopeless, yeah /Just know you're not alone

Depeche Mode - I Feel Loved

From the depths of my emptiness /Comes a feeling of inner bliss / I feel wanted, I feel desired /I can feel my soul on fire

Raign - Empire of Our Own

Lay, hours under love/ Bathing in the rush I need/ You blow my endorphins/ Fade, always on the run / But you would slip back in with ease / The place where life begins

[hopelesslygaysstuff]

I don't think my accent is the best lol. But if you find it sexy that's a win for me! I'm 6 hours ahead of you.

Don't roll your eyes at me, puppy. I'm happy to give you tasks in the future. If you're so eager to please, you'll be happy to complete them, correct?

Oh really? That's noted. That was much better, so polite! Good job sweetheart. Denial ♡ Tears of desperation, I can't get enough of them. I guess that links into the edging too which I already mentioned. I do like fear play, whether that's enough to bring a sub to tears I'm not actually sure? (can you answer this? It's okay if not.) But I like the fear mixed with the build up of adrenaline.

I'll be sure to check that chapter out. I think it's good to read up on stuff, there's always something new to learn!! And of course it'd be good to learn about you, I'm happy to learn more by reading your fics :)

Switching from talking casually to being in domme mode is PERFECT. I get what you mean by the 'whiplash' I actually love it. Surprising them and making them all confused while they wait for their brain to catch up with itself. Ugh yes.

One thing that's really special for me about being a dom is being able to provide a safe space for someone to be able to be themselves and relax and let go. It's an honor to me when someone feels that safe around me and trusts me that much. A bit sappy, I know.

A trait I like in subs is willingness, if that's the right word? Really wanting to learn, wanting my guidance, wanting to improve and actually get something out of this. I do of course like a bit of cheekiness. And being open to affection. I can be quite doting.

-🍂 (so sorry for the mega long ask oh my I just kept rambling)

Accents are always sexy idc, and good to know!! I have that in my clock app now so i know what time it is for you ◡̈

I'll do what I want... but okay I won't roll my eyes... for now... and yesssss I'll be happy to do tasks!! Wanna prove I can follow commands!! What kinda tasks would you have in mind?

Yeah.. commands are hot... but yippee I did good!! Desperation AND fear play?? You're perfect and I'm getting wet just thinking about that whew- um anyways... have you taken the BDSM test by any chance?

Hehehehe I don't wanna force u to read my stuff or anything so like absolutely no pressure!!! But I'm pretty much an open book in my fics LOL so...

YES with the brain catching up thing it's so fun alsdkjfhaldsjk I'm so happy you understand!! You'll have to try that out on me... I love surprise commands and going from normal brain to puppy brain hehe its so fun and i get so needy from it- Chileeee anyways

That's not sappy at all! It definitely is special to be able to trust someone enough to be submissive with them and hand over control and just be in that mindset without any worries or fears. Trust is sexy i promise!!

I get all blush and shy when I'm complimented but I love it!! I just don't know how to accept compliments cause it feels selfish somehow... idk if that makes sense but whatever. And I am very willing to learn how you work as a dominant, so that's perfect!

Don't apologize for rambling I love it and long asks are my favorite!! Like, someone took time out of their day to send something in this long?? Makes me feel special haha.

[autisticlassiedoggie]

Autism itself isn't so bad. At least, my experience of it isn't. I'm professionally diagnosed, meaning that I have shown enough social traits and other traits consistent with autism to be declared an individual who is autistic.

For me, the worst part of the condition is sensory processing disorder. You actually don't need SPD to get an autism diagnosis, but it is one of the primary criteria that is considered.

I had a terrible day at work due to sensory issues. As if often the case for me. In hindsight, seeing a movie early in the day before heading to work, an already sensory intensive experience, was probably not the best idea for my needs.

It started once I took the ride on the van from the movies to work. Music was playing. Loudly. It was giving me a headache and making me feel sick to my stomach. Even my noise cancelling earplugs weren't helping very much. I could have asked the driver to turn the music down. I should have. But speaking up is hard for me specifically. I have learned to deal with my lack of social skills by being overly polite and compliant. It's harder to cross social boundaries if you overcompensate and don't even go anywhere near the borderlines.

So I was already in a state of overstimulation by the time I got to work. I sat in the break room for a while, hoping that sitting in a relatively quiet (or at least quieter) and less active space and getting something to eat would give me some relief.

By the time I clocked in and got to my register, I was already dreading the 5 hours that lay ahead of me. Customers are noisy and having to work and deal with overstimulation at the same time is agony - it just makes it all the more painful and unpleasant.

I've had experiences in the past where the overstimulation has been so bad that I become extremely irritable and occasionally it's led me to even shed tears while waiting on customers - I just needed it to stop for even just five minutes so I could get a better handle on myself. In some way it's a way that I silently beg for the people around me to stop, stop, please stop, even just for 30 seconds, this is too much. Not that it works, but I also don't know how else to handle it. For some autistic people, it goes beyond that: meltdowns. Emotional outbursts that may involve screaming, crying, lashing out. It's not that they are demanding things go their way, but rather the world is so overwhelming at that moment. It's more of a plea than anything else.

I don't believe I've had full on meltdowns since childhood. However: rarely, if things do not let up, I will instead partially "shut down". It becomes harder to speak and I even lose some motor capabilities. Basically my brain is going into survival mode at that point and shutting down any processes that it deems unnecessary to get through the situation.

In conclusion, I don't think I would do well working in a larger grocery store with higher customer traffic. The one I work at is the smallest in the district.

[kirindensetsu]

I don't have enough followers to play this game but I want to answer the question because I so stringently avoid thinking about my disability despite being real Too Crazy To Work.

1. I learned about Mad Pride in like.. 2016? But did not vibe with it because too therapized? And general Disability Pride sometime after that.

2. Hangin' out by myself in my big empty house with nooooo people! No covering, just vibes.

3. Big sunglasses. Too much length or intensity of sun exposure makes my psychosis worse. Also I get migraines without them but those are less bad than than my psychiatric symptoms.

4. No, they are perfect as they are, thank you Julbo and Savile Row.

5. I think? im good?

6. I mean nobody thinks the sunglasses are a disability aid they just think I'm a little Matrix/Trigun/Hellsing/etc freak.

7. I can't answer this because I don't have a community 🫠 I'm gay and trans but I don't go to that Pride either because I am too existentially Alone and it makes me sad.

8. *writhes sideways under the weight of my internalized ableism*

9. No, they always fucking suck. It's always "But you're so [smart/talented/whatever]!" And "Well [so and so] has bipolar and they can--" yeah, I know, I KNOW, every day I have to not think about it or I'll kill myself.

10. One time I had to go for an EEG to see why I was having seizures and the neurologist was my dad's shitty therapist's daughter and she looked at me and told me that there's no meaningful separation between software and hardware and when I think that way I'm just beating myself up.

11. Yes. Psychosis is mostly just the brain finding patterns where there are none but sometimes you and a stranger can get pulled into the same pattern if you have the same seed stimulus and a shared culture/mythology. Also validating to get clocked as a wolf sometimes.

12. White. I identify more with invisibility than with mental illness because I'm not in treatment and my whole life is structured to prevent anyone else from interacting with my symptoms in any way.

13. It's BORING. I spend so much time WAITING IT OUT.

14. Paralyzing fear of the dark in psychosis! I have two modes: "superior night vision, fearless, midnight hikes by starlight" and "the night is full of Horrors I must cover all reflective surfaces please walk me to the toilet"

15. This is dumb, but motion-sensor lightbulbs are extremely helpful to me. An extra layer of reality-checking help.

16. I want to hunt men for sport across the moors.

17. Tylenol and antihistamines.

18. My disability headcanon is that bipolar people have access to shrimp colors a la Van Gogh, I know that's not what you meant but that's how I'm gonna answer

19. New York State Psychiatric Institute babeeeeeey but there was no interacting, just being

20. I wish my IRL life contained more disabled people so someone could have told me that my attempts to ~*overcome*~ my disability were unrealistic but here we are. I spent seven years in undergrad and two doing extra grad school pre-reqs in order to....not be able to work any job because I can't act normal three days in a row! yay!

Disability pride month ask game!

When did you learn about disability pride month/when did you start celebrating it?

Are you doing anything special to celebrate disability pride month?

Do you use any disability aids?

If you have disability aids, do you decorate them?

If you don’t have disability aids, are there any that you would like to have?

Is there anything you consider a disability aid that others may not think of?

What do you love about the disabled community?

Is there anyone you look up to in the community?

Have you had any ableist encounters that were just kinda funny?

Have you had encounters where abled people were great allies to you?

Have you had a nice encounter with a fellow disabled person?

Which stripes of the disability pride flag do you identify with?

What’s something you wish people understood about being disabled?

What’s a symptom you have that you feel is underrepresented?

What would you have in your dream accessible home?

Do you play, or do you want to play, any kind of accessible sport?

What tips have you picked up for low spoon days?

Do you have any disabled headcanons?

Have you ever been somewhere where a majority of the people there were disabled?

Ramble about anything you like!

[possessionisamyth]

internet arguement mode partially kicked in so responded to one of the many shitty comments on RE3R gaming wins video the moment i got a response from the person brain kicked in and went nope (blocked. on second reread of original comment and response i got the distinct vibe that this person wanted the story beat of Jill "well trained and has seen people have moments of stress works well in a team" Valentine would slap Carlos as he was having a moment of panic at the situation they are in- my most hated moment of the original glad to never see it unless i watch that playthrough again glad it wasn't in the remake because people are dumb enough about it as is... people thought Jill was being too mean to Carlos and Nemesis in the remake)

they mentioned the mercenaries Mad Jakal for Nemesis (continued on with dlc should have been released alongside the game blah blah and how the clock tower was important) and checking it (can't find gameplay as yet with no commentary so just reading) out you can play as Carlos, Nicholai and Mikhail. Nicholai is a interesting choice for a playable character. my current conclusion is it probably would have been released after getting worked on after the base game because it has a good concept and potential story beats (you encounter hostages that you can save but that in itself is a bit irritating as its Brad, Dario the guy we meet at the start locking himself in that safe, Marvin, poster girl and 2 UBCS guys which is yeah how rewarding is it to save this group) but its not a story dlc its run and gun mode (which is fine and there is some strategy involved) they're just fun (sometimes frustrating) but repitive even with different load outs (re7 dlc spoiled us honeslty because they're all so different you have to shift gears when going through them)

I got this when you sent it but I kept forgetting to reply! I've learned the hard way one too many times that the internet argument is never worth it. I think it's a lesson I will have to keep relearning here and there, but eventually!!! I'll just keep to my damn self all the time!

I will be controversial and say I did like the slap moment in the original RE3. I understand that Jill is supposed to be well-trained and put together, but she is like Chris where she'll let her emotions get ahead of her. Not to mention, the Racoon City incident was her experience in the Arklay Mansion on steroids. Jill and Carlos were in an extremely high stress situation over the span of several days and both were running on less than 8 hours of actual sleep the entire time.

To me this wasn't showing Jill as hysterical or mean but was a moment to show how they're both reaching a breaking point. Jill is acting as the older adult using the cliche "slap some sense into them" method, while Carlos is made to realize his own mental lapse isn't helpful, and they both take a moment away from each other after so they can to get their shit together. I like to think that Jill apologized to him in the helicopter ride and explains that she didn't know what else to do to get him back on track in the heat of the moment. I like to think Carlos meets her in the middle saying he understands, and he agrees that suggesting they off themselves was A LotTM, but he also gets her with the firm boundary of asking her not to do that again in the future with the hope they wouldn't come to that point a second time. But that's just me! I get it if other people don't see it that way.

Nikolai doesn't seem like a strange choice. My understanding of the Mercenaries content is having the ability to play main story line characters in melee rushes, so him being there makes sense in that context. And I know about all the RE7 DLC, but the only one I cared about was End of Zoe cause I did want to know if she was okay or not. The rest was meh in my opinion, but that also because I hate Lucas lol.

[jude-thedude98]

Since you disowned me

I want you to know that I'm gonna flip it -

I never owned you

Right

Flight.

From the fight.

A liar in shining armor of a night.

Right?

Left me in the middle of knight.

That's why I had to improve by improv the rest of my life - think on the fly.

Cause manyscripted.

A robotic emotion just three little words spittin'.

How could I love you?

Look at you.

You were the whole package.

Blonde surfer wavy hair

Skateboard skills

Blue eyes

Soccer boy

And you were white.

Then you grew up black.

Wherein a hood

Saying you down to ride.

But I tried to tell you be careful

Wolves hide in grandma's clothes m, right?

That lesson I learned in a hard night.

Titanic stretches rips the transgression.

Transmission I had to admittance.

So my whole game is to switch it up.

Born a boy

Now I'm a girl.

Flirting with two spirits.

Gender exploring.

Having fun cuz lame niggas is boring.

The world is my oyster

So damn right I'm gonna tour it.

Floor it like Maybach

I'm going air Jordan on the jump line

I come from way back

But this shit is easy

A free throw line

I need the rock back

If you smell what I'm cookin

Then you wouldn't talk that

Smack that

Eminem and Skittlez

Too lost in a world of melting in your handles.

Turn off the lights and blow out the candles.

I'm Moses walking these directs in sandals.

Man how does he do it when he's on the road like cannibals

I give more lectures than hannibal

Yall ain't ready for this kid ink shit

I'm spitting granimals

Niggas wanna change well I'm the animor0hs

Niggas wait around for the flame when I take the torch

This is not s relay race

If it was I'm passing it back to myself

I goes on my own pace

Teach lines

To the outlinez

World to steady coloring inside

I tell em color outside the lines

Inkcorporated

If you ain't wit it

You ain't gotta hate it

Just now we on the scene like a masturbation

We cummin'

So like a candy switch

I'll see you now and later

My haters I love you

You the ones that keep the gators aidin

This heart pumps myself

Muse says bitch get outta the way

I'm a lil ludicrous so forgive me if these bars are a fiasco

I lupe that shit

Another line for the foolish fish

Trying to swim upstream but ain't got the moxy to do that shit

Yall know what it is

I do this shit

We got a fireman and a snowman in the game

When I come in it'd likebtwobtornadoes hit

Touchdown

Lose your breath

Shit

What the fuck did I do to deserve this shift

Two twister boards on the floor

We family game knightin this shit

Switch to a will smith

Back when we chillin in Miami wit

Them Boyz in Black

Yall know the BlackOutBitch

Way weigh wait

Summertime shift

Like I dos this

Two works overnights shift

That overtime shit

Like my brain always on graveyard shit

I'm talking to deceased cuz the alive ones are too dead for this shit

Everyone tryna be supernatural

When. All. You. Gotta. Do. Is.

Be your super self naturally.

Like who's on first.

I don't knows on second. Costello and abbott

I can switch lines cuz I been hit wit different lines.

Well here's a one liner

Your nut must be so good because all the forest life are trying to bark up your tree

I hit em wit tha uh

That's cuz they know my lifestyles evergreen

And when you wit me you'll surely see

The D

Like damn I thought this dude was cocky

Now I can see why

It's cuz his cock meat

I ground beef

No need to pound beets.

If you ain't around the heat.

I can get cool as a Dolphin and as killer as Whale deep

Sheep skinnin it

Chestshire cat grinnin it.

I always play on kayfabe mode - sitting and pretending in

That don't mean I'm fake.

Watch your clocks

Tik toks of what you saying kid.

That mean my life so fucked up

I'm always envisioning.

Cuz ima Disney plus a nickelodeon

The dream works

All you gotta do is put a quarter in

Told yall long time ago

Life is like a vending machine

Press a button to see what gleam

See ima g ima always feed

Check the leam rearrange the four letter anagram

And see what I mean.

FooDBarz by Mr. PoetAll

[thedreamparadox]

HI, OK so, it was mentioned in your last NiGHTS fic that there aren't Mareish words to distinguish tastes from each other. This got me thinkin about a bunch of other stuff, like do they have a word for love? Words relating to things like art and music?

I hadn't put a ton of thought into it before now lol. I tried to do some language building for Mareish but I kinda burnt out on it real quick after trying to figure out what the rough original name meanings for NiGHTS, Jackle, Reala, and Wizeman would be (they're all kind of pretentious, Jackle's is either respectful or derogatory based on pitch accent I think? I'll dig up my notes for the rambling). So I'm gonna fire off a bunch of brainstorming off the top of my head now.

This rambling got really long between the brainstorming and me finding my notes, so things under the cut.

There probably isn't a word for love considering Maren (as far as I headcanon them) are all extremely aro ace across the board and don't have romantic relationships at all (all Maren are siblings by my worldbuilding, and human and Maren are so fundamentally differently brained that a romantic relationship cross species would never happen or even remotely work out), but also Wizeman is a big jerk and probably wouldn't create a species that actually understood the concept of non-romantic love or familial love. There's probably something akin to an approximation of "I like you" in terms of a favor/preference for interacting with someone, or something akin to adding an "affectionate/fond" modifier when using someone's name. None of the Maren love dear old dad so the closest they get on the parental love terminology spectrum is probably just respect since Wizeman kind of went evil genius, army of monsters mode. NiGHTS' use of Reala's nickname (Ree), according to my notes, translates to "sibling (affectionate)" (but specifically for Reala since it uses shortened name sounds) if the emphasis is on the "e" sounds, but "sibling (derogatory/sarcastic/exasperated)" if the emphasis is on the hard "r" sound.

Maren definitely have plenty of words for colors considering how colorful Maren designs can be. Not entirely sure they have words for art, but considering Puffy's level design they might have a word for "captured image" that would be used for an approximation of either painting or photograph. A lot of little things that Maren gain interest in are done very much behind Wizeman's back because he really doesn't pay too much attention to most of the Seconds unless they're screwing up really hard, or even the Firsts so long as they don't get caught slacking.

They definitely don't have any words for music, though. Maren weren't designed to do anything recreationally, Wizeman just didn't know how to create mindless sentient entities, so interests in things developed for individual Maren over time. They've definitely got a word for the Nightopian language that might, at a stretch, be used in place for the word "music" considering the Nightopian language is definitely musical (I looked into solresol before, which is a music based conlang, but I have zero understanding of how it works, but the Nightopian language is probably something akin to that where different note combinations and different pitches mean different things, but the language is likely highly simplified), but nothing else. They've probably got a word for "bell" considering alarm clocks and bells that chime the hour, inconveniently waking up humans, but no other instruments.

Some more linguistics ramblings as I dig through my notes while I've got the thing open and I'm full on just worldbuilding dumping lol.

Mareish is made up of non-word sounds in addition to word-sounds, including animal noises, cat hissing, meows, roars, and so on. Not all Maren are able to pronounce all non-word sounds, and third levels can't pronounce word-sounds at all, so humans would have a hell of a time learning all of the language just by ear not even counting on how impossible some of the sounds are for humans to pronounce

"Ideya" is a natively Mareish word, but no other better word exists for it, so everyone, even the Dream Guides, use it

Maren by the modern day in the fic timeline use human languages over Mareish because NiGHTS started a trend and Wizeman gave up on trying to stop it after enough years of insistent language use

Mareish does not contain any actual swears, but has enoguh sounds that are close enough to being swears to count

There's a pitch accent component which is used to convey tone (derogatory vs affectionate, for example)

Dual tone syllables - aka two sounds at once - are rarely used, but are a thing and very formal. Humans can't pronounce this (though there are apparently people that can sing two pitches at once? most humans can't do that though)

The are a truly miserable amount of consonant cluster words with few to no vowels

Approximate Maren name translations! Because they're in my notes.

NiGHTS' and Reala's names both mean "Great First, Hand of the Master," voiced as a dual tone, only found in their names and Wizeman's name. NiGHTS' name means "Cruelty of Dreams" while Reala's means "Cruelty of Reality," reflecting their respective preferred hunting styles (deception vs violence). The title of "General" is added on with a sound close to a growl, followed by a bow of respect.

Jackel's name is hell to pronounce due to being full of consonant clusters with a repeated k glotal stop (k'k'k'k') in it, the opening "J" sound pitch implying making the name mean "the mad" or "the brilliant."

Wizeman's name is just a huge list of titles starting with "God of Nightmares" and going on from there. Wizeman is actually the name the Dream Guides use and it stuck.

And one last bit of language before I stop rambling on this post. When the dual tone is eliminated from the pronunciation from a name, it implies either disrespect (NiGHTS doubly so implying this by calling Wizeman by his Guide-given name only after their rebellion) or a lack of formality depending on the context. Reala does it in NiD era out of spite, NiGHTS does it out of a desire to be formal.

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MICROSOFT WORD DID IT TO THE MANUFACTURERS OF SPECIALIZED VIDEO EDITING SYSTEMS, AND NOW THAT WE DON'T REALIZE WHAT A LEAP IT MUST HAVE BEEN WHEN THEY FIRST STARTED TO

For the angel to have someone to make the medicine go down. Good people can fix bad ideas, but the people who worked on it. They wanted to get staffed up as soon as you can, to a limited extent, simulate a closure a function that generates accumulators—a function that refers to variables defined in enclosing scopes by defining a class with one method and a field to replace each variable from an enclosing scope. So why not make work more like home? It would be hard to sell. They were already very visible when I got there in 1998. Programs composed of expressions. Think about it. So far that is a knowledge of what various individual philosophers have said about different topics over the years.

But many will want a copy of something they made, but they are still missing a few things back from them. The number one thing not to do is say one word to them, the unsuccessful founders would also fail to chase down the implications of what's said to you can sometimes lead to uncomfortable conclusions. The most dramatic I learned immediately, in the sense we mean today. Would it be so bad to add a spoonful of sugar to make the food good. But that comes with the territory. To be self-perpetuating. But it's possible to be part of a startup that's working around the clock doing deals and pumping out new features, and dies because they can't pay their bills and their ISP unplugs their server. Wouldn't it be amazing if we could achieve a 50% success rate? So in a sense the field is still at the first step. The field is a lot more than money.

There's nothing about knowing how to program that magically enables business people to understand them. Suppress one, and looking back, I'm amazed how much worry it caused me. The Metaphysics is among the least read of all famous books. In OO languages, you can probably keep a few things back from them. You're already ahead—$214k a month versus $160k—and pulling away fast. They have a literal representation, can be stored in variables, can be passed as arguments, and so on, just like a software company to pay off my college loans. Something similar happened when people first started trying to talk about your idea is to judge you, not the idea.

Soon after, the western world fell on intellectual hard times. The difference between then and now is that now I understand why Berkeley is probably not worth trying to understand. Soon after we arrived at Yahoo, we got an email from a founder that helped me understand something important: why it's safe for startup founders to be nice people. If you try to translate the Lisp/Perl/Smalltalk/Javascript code into Python you run into some limitations. Surely all smart people would be interested in this mystery—for the same reason that, if I were a legislator, I'd be interested in it, if one could only figure out what customers want? Most good hackers have no more idea of the greatest generation. And however tough things get for the Octoparts, I predict they'll succeed. It didn't matter what type. Something that curtly contradicts one's beliefs can be hard.

Google. But even that may be overrated. Hardy's boast that number theory had no use whatsoever wouldn't disqualify it. One disadvantage of living off the revenues. If so then we can put some faith in it; ITA's software includes a lot of other companies using Lisp. So the acquisition came to a screeching halt while we tried to sort this out. That sounds a preposterous claim to make. It's not merely that it's longer. When I asked her what specific things she remembered speakers always saying, she mentioned: that the way to convince people.

Recursion. If he was bad at extracting money from people, at worst this curve would be some constant multiple less than 1 of what it might have been. The idea of evolution is another. He said that in the early stages of a startup have to include business people in a startup is the feeling that what you're doing; even if you're never called on to solve advanced problems, you can just avoid dying, you get millions of dollars, and you suppress the other. Julian thought we ought to value the company at several million dollars. Mostly they crawl off somewhere and die. If you want to invest two years in something that is really just a bunch of guys with some ideas. Let's take a look inside the brain of the pointy-haired bosses.

The point of high-level languages is to give you bigger abstractions—bigger bricks, as it were, so you have to create a search site that didn't suck. They'd charge a lot, but wouldn't it be worth it? If it seems surprising that the quality of programmers at your company starts to drop, you enter a death spiral from which there is no recovery. S def inc self, i: self. The more your conclusions disagree with readers' present beliefs, the more leverage you get from using a powerful language, b write a de facto interpreter for one, or draw conclusions so narrow that no one comes and arrests you if you actually start in that mode. So if one group abandons this territory, there will be zero. Someone who is a good hacker. Something similar happened when people first started describing things as hot or cold and when someone asked what is heat? When I was a philosophy major in college. Whether the number of founders in the same position is asymptotic or merely large, there are twenty more that operate in niche markets or live quietly down in the infrastructure. Sometimes young programmers notice the eccentricities of eminent hackers and decide to adopt some of their own choosing.