#and i KNOW grace isnt around on tumblr anymore so it doesnt. really matter but

[dunba1pha]

bro hang on. hang ON

[missingevie]

gravity

i cant do this anymore it isnt helping dr grace was WRONG. mom says whats the matter and dad says hey kiddo but they dont know what went down and writing it out doesnt make me feel better doesnt make me less of a shitty friend doesnt let me take it all back it just keeps the circles going around in my head no relief

besides youll probably never see this anyway whats the point

on youtube on our tumblr the comments and the asks keep coming like everythings the same like we r still together. all these people looking 4 sharing and caring but i have no answers 4 them and who the hell am i 2 tell anyone anything

i cant stand how much i miss u. i tried to call 1 last time but ur phone is shut down do u hate me that much

i even went to ur house it took a while to find ur address but i did. no one at home the curtains all shut a scrape of mud on the top step of the porch no color at all. i shouted 4 u but the house stayed silent it didnt recognize ur name

fuck it evie

No more rewinding

u said ur done with me you dont need me so i guess i wont need u either

adam and evie r here 4 no one

even my name doesnt fit right adam the name u gave me i thought it was my true name but im giving it back it was only my true name while i was with u now its just a deadname buried under my porch im gonna have 2 find another

pittsburgh feels like a chokehold my bedroom is crammed with ghosts. dad is heading west scoping out Hollywood 4 a few months and i told him i wanna go with him and he said yes and mom said yes even dr grace said it might be a good idea a different environment so all systems go

u know that scene in gravity where 1 astronaut unclips himself from the other and just spins off into space? thats what im gonna do im gonna take down the adamandevie tumblr im gonna get me a new name and spin off into the unknown

out in los angeles no one will know me and i can just float along the boy who has no answers who has no sharing or caring who wont damage anyone who can just be left alone

or maybe ur the one floating away maybe im unclipping u and letting u spin away smaller and smaller until ur just a spot a speck and then just an idea an image in my head that was never really there a butterfly

     ( bye evie )