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#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt leo#disaster twins#donnie's just kinda going through it right now#certain things just upset him more & that's ok#also hi!!!#i'm back!!#did you notice i was gone?#turtles#yippee#rottmnt fanart#digital art#doodle#artists on tumblr#funny#donnie just needs a hug#and his data back#but the latter is less plausible#so uh#a hug will suffice#kls art#<3#iykyk
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got jumpscared by these ‘cus it looks like he is a junior analyst at an investment bank
from mclaren’s ig
#he would be lethal on a Bloomberg terminal#his data-backed rizz would have no limits#that’s why his forehead’s so big it’s full of analytical secrets#Oscar piastri#op81#you don’t get him he’s just at one with capital markets like a gen z dollar sign megamind#wiz.yaps
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I have an idea for a fic, but it feels very complicated.
So, it's one of those "Dan gets redeemed early, Dani is Ellie and has a sibling relationship with Danny and Jazz, the Fentons know and approve" fics when Bad Stuff happens. Maybe GiW led by Vlad manage to start the apocalypse, something like that, but the Fentons are dead and now Danny, Jazz, Ellie, Dan, Tucker and Sam are alone against everything as the world finally breaks-
Only for Clockwork to stop everything. He didn't want to stop the apocalypse (what is it but a new beginning) but he does care for the family, in his own way. And suddenly, everyone wakes up.
Sam and Tucker are alone in Amity Park, with no sign of the Fentons anywhere.
Jazz is sharing a rundown dorm room in Gotham, when she'd been a Yale student, with a new last name and mysterious connection to the city's underworld.
Ellie is trapped in Vlad's Gotham penthouse, stuck playing house with the man because
Danny is bedbound with a vivisection scar on his chest and in Vlad's custody.
And Dan? In maximum security prison for the violent murders of Jack and Maddie Fenton.
#dp x dc#dc x dp#dcxdp#dpxdc#c: danny fenton#C: dan phantom#c: jazz fenton#c: dani phantom#c: sam manson#c: tucker foley#c: clockwork#c: batfamily#I'm isekaing a Good Reveal fenton family into a Bad Reveal and Gets Worse universe#Well... it's more like Clockwork caused a Flashpoint situation#but saved the data/memory for his favorite characters#the six that remember have to try and deduce their new backstories and get back to each other#while the batfamily (jazz's contact is Jason) get involved with this horror story of a family#But since the world got flashpointed Team Phantom doesn't know Exactly is different from their reality#maybe someone has powers#maybe someone Doesn't have powers
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GOOD AFTERNOON!! TODAYS UNI SKETCH IS : a redraw/study/doodle/whateva you wanna call it of this very dapper image of Picard and Data!! first time drawing Picard so I struggled a lil but otherwise I had so much fun drawing Data! :Pc og pic under the cut!
picard you smoke too tough... your swag too different ...
#churro art#my art#digital art#illustration#fanart#star trek#star trek the next generation#star trek tng#jean luc picard#captain picard#picard#data soong#YKNOW FOR THE FIRST TIME DRAIWNG PICARD I ACTUALLY DONT HATE HOW HE LOOKS!!! AHAHA#granted ill prob change my mind when i draw him again and look back on this but SSHSHHS FRO NOW ITS GOOD#AGHHHH i worked on this all throughout my classes bro LOLLL#from 7 am till 2 pm these two were being sketched away at...#no not really this probably took like 2 hours elapsed time i just had a heavy day today so. thats why HSHJASHJKAS#so many homeworks... so little time to take little naps and watch silly space show...#ALSO its my second time drawing Data and even though this is just a doodle im so happy with how his face came out!!!! GRAH 😭😭😭#the best way to draw a smile that didnt look too ooc was to just mimic the rankin bass smiles#u know the ones the little :3#ANYWAYS I GTG GOODBYE MORE CLASSES AGH#gotta draw more data
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DP x DC AU: Danny desperately wants to find the explosion guy. Tim is really good at covering his tracks... he didn't account for ghosts.
The explosions make it onto TV as purported terror activity and most people haven't heard of that part of the world much less ever given a second thought to care about it. The only real reason it gets reported on has something to do with the Justice League and... Danny knows too much.
He's been in training for Clockwork's court (which he's suspicious of- feels like kingly duty bullshit- but Danny is playing along out of curiosity for now) and he's learned a lot about how the living and non-living worlds collide. That means learning about CW's usual suspects- one of which just happened to have a ton of bases around the area Danny was seeing on the news.
It didn't take long for Danny to try to piece together that whoever blew up Nanda Parbat was trying to fuck with the League of Shadows, and was doing it successfully. Less green portals in the world the better, same goes for assassins. But it gets Danny thinking... Maybe he can employ similar tactics on the GIW Bases that keep spawning on the edges of Amity Park. It would at least set them back while he and his friends navigated the help line desk to request Justice League intervention. None of them can leave Amity Park, so outreach is going to have to be creative.
So Danny figures he'll just find the guy. Call up some ghosts who were there, or er, came from there and get a profile and track him down. But the ghosts keep saying it was The Detective. Annoying!
Danny goes full conspiracy theory, gets Tucker and Sam involved, and begrudgingly asks Wes Weston his thoughts.
He hadn't expected Wes to garble out a thirty minute presentation (that had 100 more slides left to go before he cut it off) about how Batman totally trained with a cult and so did his kids. Danny kind of rolled his eyes but... hey, new avenue of searching in the Infinite Realms at least.
The ghosts confirm that Bombs is for sure not Batman's MO- But maybe his second kid would know? The second kid was already brought back to life though, so no way to easily reach him... Danny starts to realize that this might be the work of a Robin now. Wasn't the red one known for solving cold cases? (Sam provides this information- its a social faux pas to not know hero gossip at Gotham Galas- everything she's learned is against her will).
It all comes to a head when Danny goes about the hard task of opening a portal for the guy to come through at just the right time, explain the infinite realms so he doesn't panic and then describe what the fuck was going on with the GIW. It takes months, just over a full year, of random (educated guesses) portal generating- Finally, Red Robin drops into the land of the dead.
"So, you're the guy I've got to talk to about explosions right?" Danny enthusiastically asks.
Tim thinks he's died and landed in the after life following 56 hours of being awake and plummeting off the side of a building into a Lazarus pool. Nothing makes sense about the kid in front of him.
"Yeah, I got a guy for munitions." Tim answers cooly.
"How do you feel about secretly sanctioned government operations that violate protected rights?"
"Gotta get rid of 'em some how. Need me to point you in the right direction?" This might as well be happening.
#dcxdp#dpxdc#dp x dc#dc x dp#danny phantom#long post#tim drake#red robin#tim and danny team up to blow up the GIW au#Tim being known as the explosion guy is my favorite and i will not let this part of his lore go ignored#Jason is the munitions guy obviously and the ghosts go crazy over the gossip it enlights when he helps in amity park#Danny one hundred percent is living for this working relationship- what a weirdo -danny hasn't met someone stranger than himself in a min#tim bartering his services for a few more years of life and danny just pikachu facing him#Tim wants to improve his relations in the afterlife be he still completely thinks hes dead#danny: dude ur still alive#Tim: yeah thats the goal but i'll help you meet your goals first and then we can negotiate#Danny decides to make the guy super ghost rich (thinking big Haunt real estate) and send him home#Tim blows up the GIW with no remorse and with all the data back up for proper justice to be served court side#tim returns from the dead and this is how the bats learn that he's the one who blew up nanda parbat all those years ago#it takes danny so long to find tim bc tim was spiralling and only after bruce got back did he get into a normal routine enough to get got
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spot should've been a member of the bridge crew ngl
#art#commissions open#artists on tumblr#reblogs appreciated!#fanart#star trek#tng#st tng#star trek tng#data#data soong#star trek data#spot#heehee#i dont draw cats very much so everyone has to be niceys to me#i feel like data doesnt mind if spot uses claws to climb on him bc they dont bother him#but then geordi comes over and spot jumps on his back and hes like AAGH#its like a surprise. a bad surprise. but so cute#anyways. enjoy!
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WAIT WAIT WAIT CHERIK MPREG IS CANON
i cannot stress enough how canon cherik mpreg is, yes my friend
#snap chats#i could elaborate in the main body but i cant distract from the epic statement 'cherik mpreg is canon'#ill elaborate down here tho LOL. not extensively Just Enough to provide context#anyways 90's run where erik's on his bullshit as per usual and at some point rips the adamantium out of logan's body#which causes charles to . how do you even describe what happens Like He Invades Erik's Mind To Get Him To Cut That Shit#cause this was just The Final Straw at that point#but the problem is while charles is in erik's mind. And I Quote. Paraphrase Whatever Its Been A Minute#'something implants itself within charles' and onslaught just kinda festers in the back of charles' mind for a while#and onslaught is basically just. every evil/dark/wrong thought charles has ever had + erik's rage and 'lust for power'#my exact memory of events gets hazy here but im p sure charles abandons his body for a bit which enables onslaught to take over#aaaand yeah we have that thing running around now. kinda. we made a pocket dimension to escape it.#onslaught returns in krakoa after being implanted in a mutant named lost#and onslaught would feed off the lost time in-between resurrections#like say you die monday and get brought back wednesday- all of tuesday goes to feeding onslaught#he doesnt actually Show Up show up for most of it hes more of a looming presence which i fw#and then he tries to get everyone to kill each other at the gala while making charles delete back-up data#onslaught does physically appear by the end of onslaught revelation once charles snaps out of the mind control at the gala#and erik's checking on him and Im Pretty Sure just by virtue of them being next to eachother onslaught manifests#cute shit really !!!!! but yeah thats a very VERY quick (and prob a lil wrong) rundown of onslaught's premise
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soriku kh4 reunion angst thoughts
#ff#clerith#kh4#soriku#last reblog prompted me to bring this here#cloud losing his taisetsu na hito 🤝 riku losing his taisetsu na hito#both continuing to look for them and hopefully both getting them back in future games#both of them connecting in dreamlike states#and Cloud and Sora having sky themed names while Aerith and Riku have earth themed names#hearing Aerith be described as Cloud’s taisetsu no hito made me scream in soriku#also I love how in the Riku episode in remind Aerith is beside him during all the cutscenes#cause I was getting screenshots of Sora and Cloud and Riku and Aerith together to make a post and I noticed they were always close#earth themed second protagonist solidarity + them being friends is neat I think#and regarding Sora and Cloud my fave scene with them is in coded when Cloud and Herc praise data Sora and he blushes and panics ndjsjs#its got nothing to do with this parallel but it’s iconic to me djjsjs#Sora’s type is strong men
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idk if I mentioned but I got to speak to JRO after the con at tfnation; specifically about the first aid plot line he didn’t end up getting to include in the mtmte comics!!
I missed the panel where he was talking about it, but one of my friends mentioned it, so I had to ask for more information!!!!!. First Aid essentially loses the plot for a while trying to find a way to bring ambulon back. it’s briefly mentioned as an off comment by (maybe ratchet?) that first aid has been isolating himself for months with ambulon’s dead body in the comics. Which is crazy btw lol anyway
first aid spends all that time between the plot failing to find ways to bring ambulon back to life. He fully repairs ambulons body, every fragment of him is visually perfect, /technically/ functional. He even repaints ambulon, touching up the patchy paint job Ambulon was known for.
But ambulon is truly dead. What made ambulon who he was, his memories, his personality, his knowledge, his friendship- was obliterated in the bisecting, as was his spark. It was a complete brain-death by cybertronian standards.
As far as I’m aware, the spark is just a power source, relative to the memory banks portion of their processors and whatnot, specifically the sections that store the bots actual personality and memories. Though it’s always worded differently. JRO didn’t give an exact time range (understandable lol) for how long they were on Delphi, but the general thought is that First Aid and Ambulon were on Delphi together for a decent chunk of years, relative to the timeline.
:((( first aid and ambulon really endured Delphi together and bonded throughout that, and to see him murdered so abruptly, (by their ex-boss who they watched descend into madness- no less!!!) was extremely traumatising, as much as it’s played as a joke by the fandom lolol. ambulon suffered what was essentially complete brain death at the moment of injury, non-recoverable.
The dynamic between ratchet, Pharma and first aid/ambulon is really interesting, other people can word it better than me but it ties massively into the feedback loop first aid gets lost in from that point. Watching his closest friend die in a hysterical power play between his two superiors would be helpless agony. And it hurts more because we know first aids temperament :(( he’s still soft, despite it all, and he’s the type of character that you just want to shield from the nastiness of it all. 😭😭
First aid goes as far tracking down the mechs that were involved in the faulty combiner experiment Ambulon was forced into. Looking for maybe even an echo or an imprint, faint traces in the data+code of the mech’s that might have had /anything/ of his friend left in it. Pieces he could put together to make him whole again. But there’s nothing, just surface level memories from a bond that never succeeded. MAN
Anyway, I’m going to try and draw something for it, please give me focus
#first aid#first aid mtmte#ambulon#maccadam#he just wants his friend back :(((((#i don’t ship them they are besties 2 me and JRO AGREES AJAHDHSHSJ#I missed so much because I had to go sit in complete silence in my hotel room for at least 1.5 hours after tabling LMAOO#ALSO TO NOTE: ambulon was heavily involved with saving rung after he was shot in the head by the swerve#I just picture first aid desperately trying the same techniques and it not working :((((#also I imagine ratchet manhandling his corpse into a weapon obliterated anything that could be saved from his data-banks
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I love the "he asked for no pickles" meme with doorkeay bc I've only ever seen it with Gerry being the one talking and u just KNOW it's not bc Michael doesn't want to correct the food staff, but that it wants to correct them a little too much. Gerry has to step in otherwise they'll be there for at least another hour of Michael spinning some philosophical bullshit and scaring some poor fast food worker, and while Gerry doesn't necessarily mind Michael doing that in and of itself (he knows the thing he's in love with), as the only one of the two of them who actually needs material food he would like to eat that food before it gets cold tyvm.
#I like to think that the first time it happened Gerry did let Michael reorder and quickly learned his lesson as he spent the next 2 hours of#his life sitting in an incredibly uncomfortable and honestly kinda gross fast food booth while Michael would not stop fucking talking#yk the feeling as a kid when yr parents run into a friend and it feels like yr stuck there forever while they talk? same vibe#it's when they're both finally leaving (Gerry is still thinking abt how the cashier's hands shook and idly hoping they don't get swallowed#by a door anytime soon otherwise he'll have to find a new cheep fast food place to frequent while hunting and that'd be disappointing)#when he just freezes and is like WAIT MICHAEL WTF DO U EVEN TASTE FOOD THE SAME ANYMORE#(no it does not)#and Micheal gears up to go on a spiel abt Michael Shelly and glimpses of humanity seeping thru the cracks of the Spiral#but Gerry just sees this and throws their food bag and it and refuses to talk to or aknowledge it as he speed walks home#(when they get back they make out sloppy style regardless BUT it's the principle Gerry wasted so much data so he wasn't entirely bored out#of his mind and that shit is expensive Michael)#the magnus archives#gerard keay#michael distortion#doorkeay
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I probably missed out a few (like Dianna Troi’s child who existed during the second season but grew up in like a week or smth) but I put down one’s that I thought people would actually care about.
Also, didn’t include Tora Ziyal because I was mostly talking about the younger children or the ones we got to see at a young age. 😀
Guys already wrote a comment about this but I forgot Nog (poor guy) so just pretend it’s starfleet related children 😬
#ds9#tng#Voy#Voyager#Star Trek#children#the next gen#Jake sisko#Alexander st#Naomi Voy#data needs his child back bro#O’Brien
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Irondad fic ideas #139
NWH AU where Tony's been in a coma this whole time. He still is. But the world thinks he's dead.
One day, Rhodey is in some science place (maybe SI, maybe a community college where he was giving a speech?) and he sees this kid tinkering who looks exactly like Tony Stark. The teen Tony Stark from when he first met him at MIT. Even down to the mannerisms. He goes up and has a brief conversation with this stranger, just curious. Then he leaves.
Unbeknownst to the kid, Peter, Rhodey managed to grab something for a DNA test. The kid just looked too much like his best friend. Like seeing a ghost
When they analyze the DNA, they learn that this kid is in fact Tony's biological son
Rhodey goes back to find the kid, this time bringing Happy. Peter gets to have the super fun conversation where two people who should know him but don't tell him that the person he saw as a father was his actual father, only it's too late
They convince Peter to come with them eventually. And Peter gets the shock of his entire life
Over the next little while, at Tony's bedside, Peter gets to know Morgan (who he would've seen as a sister anyway but this is insane). He also gets reacquainted with Rhodey, Happy, and Pepper, who all admittedly find him a bit sus with how much he seems to know.
But...this is Tony's kid. His son. So they let him be there, let him talk to Tony and hold his hand.
Finally, finally, Tony wakes up.
And it turns out, being in a coma and thought dead by the entire world, including wizards, makes one exempt from certain magic
Bonus:
As he sits by Tony's bedside, Peter has to grapple with a lot of emotions. One of them is the realization that he was never actually related to Uncle Ben, which makes him feel like his uncle and aunt died for nothing
Pepper helps him through it. Even not knowing him the way she once did, she knows plenty about guilt complexes and chosen family. She assures Peter that he's still a Parker, no matter what, and that his aunt and uncle wouldn't have given him up for the world
Another thing Peter deals with is the fear of Tony waking up and not knowing him. It breaks his heart just thinking about it.
Cue THE most relieving hurt/comfort reunion ever imagined
#peter (crying): you remember me?#tony (also crying): obviously?? I did all this to bring you back#ironfam: the hell tony?? why didn't you ever tell us you had a son?!?!#tony: what? you guys know peter..#irondad fic ideas#irondad and spiderson#miscommunication and confusion continue until they finally get through to tony that peter is not just his emotional son#he is also his biological son#tony: ...HOW has this not come up before??? kid we did all those tests on your freaky spider dna-#entire room: YOUR SON IS SPIDER-MAN?!?!#iron dad and spider son#tony stark#peter parker#nwh fix-it#endgame who?#ironfam#tony once he somehow restores FRIDAY'S files and discovers she literally did run a paternity test: why didn't you tell me this hon?#FRIDAY: all data indicated that you already knew and were acting as peter's father#queueueueue#weekly reminder that i love you all but am too busy to be human :)#fic ideas still postponed but you can send asks if you want i just won't see them for a while#see announcements
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Geordi and Data are perfect for each other if for no other reason than they're both THE BIGGEST SECURITY RISKS STARFLEET HAS EVER EMPLOYED.
Like between Geordi's VISOR getting hacked for MULTIPLE assassination attempts and Data hijacking the ENTIRE SHIP on numerous occasions, they're a disaster match made in software security heaven.
#truly how the fuck in generations was Geordi at no point like#hey they took away my visor and fucked with it for a while when i was kidnapped#might want to check it before I go back on duty#seeing as the same thing happened and i TRIED TO KILL THE CAPTAIN BEFORE#also wouldn't his visor still be transmitting video signal AFTER THAT MOVIE#hi it's me I'm the continuing police#what is the opposite of a damsel in distress bc it's these two#and i love them#star trek tng#geordi la forge#data and geordi#commander data#star trek data
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a failing hard drive (and a mental health revelation)
(written by an adhder off their meds: I will go off on tangents)
(the data seems to be safe now)
(this post is about two things which feels a bit weird but the point I want to make is somewhere where both things overlap)
a lesson I learned from this:
back up your data! do it now! yes, NOW!
it started a few weeks ago when I changed linux distro from suse to arch (though it also started earlier. human starts are hard to define. me and my neurodivergence and my pc and hard drive and my mental health struggles that most if not all nd people have in some form didn't just pop into existence when I started installing arch).
I had unplugged two of my drives to protect the data on them from any mess-ups during the install process. (I should've made backups, yesterday evening would have been less scary that way).
the installation went fine, but it took a few days due to mild lack of sleep and me not using archinstall, but I succeded. (and after accidentally uninstalling the login manager on my laptop and briefly reprioritizing to fixing that because I couldn't get the gui to launch manually without the login manager)
and I was proud of my setup. one minor thing, the drive my /home folder (that's where the user accounts' data is) started its off-on spiel it sometimes did when the cable wasn't plugged in properly. (at that point it had not seemed alarming. I had unplugged it prior and was already familiar with this happening)
it had messed up something with i3, I rebooted, it was fine. I knew what drive it was because I can hear its whirr and the clacking of the head going into its off position when it turned off. I love how it sounds. that I can hear how it is 'alive'.
so I opened my pc, unplugged the drive and plugged it back in. and it was fine for a few days.
after it had happened (or maybe only after the 2nd time it happened on arch) I also looked up if there were tools to assess drive health and installed the smartmontools package. I do not know if I would have been a bit slower in noticing when my drive started to fail, maybe the sounds alone would have worried me enough. quite possibly not. ultimately the s.m.a.r.t. output got me to start a backup of the raw data though, but not by actually warning me directly of imminent failure. it estimated about 20000 more hours of use (edit: that is untrue. I just misinterpreted something).
I think it also went off-then-immediately-back-on a few more times before and after that; but that and the following were the two instances that caused my OS tho struggle before the hard drive failed.
after the second time it happened, upon rebooting, the drive would just do its off/on routine while fstab was trying to mount it on 2 consecutive reboot attempts but failed. mildly panicked I booted the live arch usb I had previously installed from and tried to figure out what to do. I didn't back up my data then. I should have. I had planned to set up backup automation then but not yet got around to doing so. I should have done so.
it was unlikely to be the cables' fault, but yet again I unplugged the drive and plugged it back in. yesterday I found out why that was futile. it did its off/on routine after I'd tried getting a more taxing game to run, but i3 was fine, and so I continued, mildly worried. the second time it happened, not long after, I checked the s.m.a.r.t. data. Because I'd sent all the interesting bits of the data to someone the day prior, I was able to look up how it had been before. still, it estimated about 20000 more hours of drive use (edit: that is untrue. I just misinterpreted something). but the count of PhyRdy->PyNRdy was off the charts. from about 300 in a prior power cycle it rose to above 18000. then, eventually it even reached 19000. online advice on this was: back up your data. now.
and so I did, finally, back up my data. the easiest option with now ramping up andrenaline (and a cold I was still recovering from) was using dd. I made sure the infile and outfile were the right way around and off I went, copying all the disk contents to another disk. (or rather, the contents of the partition I was mainly using)
it went ok at first. then the occasional off/on, going by how the drive sounded. ok, I hope you make it, buddy. please, at least long enough to save my data.
then it wasn't just clack-spin-down-fully-then-spin-up-again. it was stumbles, the clack sounded different, had different timing, it didnt spin down fully before spinning up again. (for clarity: by spin down I refer to the motor inside reducing in speed until it is off, like when shutting down my pc.)
the copying stumbled. a bit past halfway it stopped. i/o error. disk dump (dd) had exited. smartctl just told me "inqury failed". my os seemed to think the disk was still there. it just wasn't responding. not presumably unmounted this time, just not responding. the last temperature readout had been a bit above 40°C. high, but it should be fine, right? the PhyRdy -> PhyNRdy statistic was 19806 at last readout. my hard drive was definetely failing now. dying.
I called someone with more IT experience than me; adrenaline was definitely kicking in now. we opted to shut down my pc and try getting the rest of the data after waiting 20 minutes. giving my hard drive a break. it did not make its usual sound when shutting down. it must've spun down at some point before and not spun up again. I braced for the worst, for the first half of the dd to only contain the data I've had older backups of and for the rest to be lost.
my hard drive had just needed some rest. ddrescure came to the rescue, I copied the remainder of the data with not many auditory "complaints" by the hard drive. then turned off my pc to unplug that drive. it could rest now. it had done its part. I no longer needed to fear that my data would be lost. as of writing this I'm combining both halves of the backup on it into one file to mount it and see if my data is intact. odds are looking good but I should make sure. (as of my 2nd draft I'm mounting the file. fingers crossed.) (as of finishing the 2nd draft of this fsck reports the backup's filesystem as having a bunch of errors. I hope my data is salvageable. mounting the file worked but that is a lot of errors from fsck. gonna do a full ddrescue now.) (the ddrescue is nearly finished; the two halves should be recombinable now, ddrescue just has important syntax differences compared to dd. my data is most likely safe.) (the data backup seems to be fine now!)
I miss the way that hard drive sounds. I miss hearing it start. I miss its hum. I miss the hard drive that, quite literally, made my pc home. I only was at home on arch once I had moved my user data to the new home directory. (finally it wasn't my deadname anymore. being trans was now, accidentally, a way to keep my suse and arch user accounts nice and separate)
/home was home, and now it was failing. dying.
how odd, to be feeling (slight) grief for a hard drive.
and now for the mental health realization:
I've anthropomorphized that hard drive in some places in this post. while it was actually failing I was somewhat doing that most of the time (you can make it, buddy! please, please just try to keep going a bit longer. once my data is safe you can get a break.)
and I realized why that is.
one part of it is just that I have the tendency to anthropomorphize things, like the chocolate snowman who I found out had a name only after I had already eaten it. I felt sad, and a bit silly. I'm never buying chocolate with a name like sammy again.
but there's more to it; and it isn't coincidence that I am putting this in a post about a failing hard drive, rather than that chocolate snowman. not only did I humanize that hard drive when it was "struggling" - I also do it the other way around: taking "schedule maintenance or the equipment will schedule it for you" also as a reminder to take the breaks I need because when I need them they will happen eventually. so I better listen to my body and take breaks when it isn't already a bit too late.
I'm treating myself like the machines I humanize because when treating myself as human what sneaks in is treating myself as someone who should be this good little neurotypical girl. treating myself as who I learned I should be instead of treating myself as me.
treating myself as human has failed somewhat. between being trans and being ace and being neurodivergent, I'm not human in the way I was taught I should be. and with this baggage, I need a better angle at this to be able to take care of myself in a way that will allow me to heal.
I stopped trying to view self-care through my neurodivergent mask. it's not this vague lifestyle thing. it is the basis of my well-being.
I started viewing it as 'self-maintenance'. maintenance is important. it is basis for continued operability. that much is simple. it is specific to what is being maintained. I couldn't exactly have treated my hard drive as a dripping faucet. it would have been nonsense for me to try and save my data from my windows installation which I'm much less experienced with. (and besides, it's windows. I actually use OS as an analogy for my neurodivergence sometimes, I do think it works in many aspects. there are many different linux distros. mine takes a bunch of extra work but works better for me.)
it would be nonsense to try treating myself like a neurotypical person. because I'm not. and it would be nonsense to view this "self-maintenance" as something to do only whenever I've got time between my failing hard drive and uni and having gotten sick. it is important.
short bonus bit - the magnus archives has helped me cope with the fear I felt for my data a bit. and since it continues being an intense interest of mine I'd like to discuss that. just beware of spoilers, I'm not sure off the top of my head when the concepts I'm talking about below stop being spoilers
it is interesting that one of the hypotheses of what is going on with the failing hard drive is that the temperature is somehow why that drive is failing - considering the lightless flame is all about things like this data loss. so hi desolation, I hope to never meet you again. please do not cause the digital equvialent of a housefire (overheating(?) /home) ever again.
running the full ddrescue now, it seems putting a cold pack next to it calmed it down. poor thing really was suffering from heatstroke at normal operating temperatures it seems
#also thanks to supereyepatchwolf for making good videos - I proofread this with my inner speech sounding like him#so if you liked this post you may like his video about trying to buy a dell pc#funnily enough this is post written from a dell laptop#I'm having fun with the color formatting. this is art now :)#neurodivergence#linux#backup#make backups!#seriously! back up your data!#long post#tma coded#<- this feels like patting myself on the back? huh?#the following tag is a tma spoiler#tma the desolation
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Is it just me or does the phrase "dumb Darillium River" make your ears ring too?
That phrase hurts me like crazy because it takes away how the post-Manhattan events affected her so deeply. And now that we have the added knowledge that she gets to see her parents in New York even after Manhattan, THORS now presents itself in a different light.
River's resounding "the Doctor does not and has never loved me" cements the implication that she and the Doctor had a huge row after Manhattan. What would you feel if the love of your life told you he "does not and has never loved" you? Certainly not happy.
Do you know what grief does to one's mind? No matter how brilliant you are, grief changes you. Grief makes you a different person. I would know, having experienced it myself. And River, in her grief, jumped into a headspace that shut out (or tried hard to) the Doctor.
Yes, she should have recognized it was him she had unknowingly dragged along on her space Robin Hood quest, but for her, it isn't him. It wouldn't be. Because that was the last thing she had heard him say.
Grief and pain clouding her mind, she proudly asserts that no, the Doctor isn't there. He won't show up for her. He has never loved her. But of course, she loves him. She's never denied that. But he proves her wrong soon afterwards. Because she is the Woman The Doctor Loves.
So, yes, on the surface level, "dumb Darillium River" seems to be what THORS had made River to be. But no, it wasn't. It isn't. It was about a grieving River and a chance for the Doctor to right his wrong. (And yes, we were robbed of that kiss. Homie here quite clearly wanted one.)
originally posted over on twitter.
#I do have my problems with some parts of THORS but I just wanna defend post-Manhattan River because my girl went through some serious shit#i mean - row with eleven. his time with older River was up. he only saw younger and even younger versions of River. the next time he saw a#River post-Manhattan was on Trenzalore which was data ghost River. anyway that's the topic of my next thread and i'll be sharing it here to#river song meta#think piece: river song#i also need to make a new tag of my writing stuff so am gonna choose#tia thinks too much#lol#river song#doctor who#eleventh doctor#doctor x river#yowzah#the doctor#twelfth doctor#dw#the husbands of river song#doctorriver#bring back river song#dw musings#here's the thread i was talking about Tree in tumblr form! i sincerely hope i haven't driven you away with my incessant yapping 🥹#sometimes i worry that i talk too much 🫨
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HOT DOCTOR HOT DOCTOR HOT DOCTOR HOT DOCTOR
#Was at my desk doing data entry when out of the office next to me walks a man who’s so tall so beautiful so gorgeous I am in shambles#My head literally TURNED I had to refocus on what the girl was instructing me to do w the stuff I was working on#I literally tried to see if he had a ring on his way back to his office but this man walks FAST . He walks so fast#I had to write this and get it out of my system bc I’m literally filling important patient information rn#Whoever this man is he has beautiful hair . And a lean stature. And a beautiful prefix (doctor)#Omg and his facial hair is perfect it’s so over for me#I can’t be over here obsessing over him every day OK expunging the thought NOW#I needed (in the past tense bc we don’t identify w these thought patterns) him to rail me ok I’m done for real goodbye
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