#and hes been on t a couple months? yk whatever

[djmousewife]

idk i wish i wasnt as desperate for people to like me and become my friend maybe theyd be more liekly to do those things then but im so generally isolated (everyone ik is so far away) that i am desperate and i just want to be amongst other trans people as well but im so like uncool in the most straightforward way ig ?? idk like i dont have friends so i dont do anything so i have nothing to talk about in terms of what i do so who wants to hang out w me esp all these cool people i want to hang out with and i Try and keep conversations going but its obvious when people aren't interested esp when they straight up just do not reply its all so fucking cyclical and stupid and I thought i found an in with judaism but the girl who wouldve been my in totally let me down recently and i didnt tell her that bc shed flaked on me like a dozen times anyway so like i dont think shed have cared or maybe she would have idk but probs not im fairly insignificant in her life and yeah its 5am and i haven't slept but considering that im still right idc!! like i really am trying to make friends but nothing works and it didnt work at uni and it didnt work at any of my jobs and i have no hobbies and v few friends to meet new people so yeah