#and here i am back on tumblr again blogging about new vampire weekend

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happy new vampire weekend weekend to all who celebrate

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Tag Game because I have no self-restraint

@the-mostdiabolik-of-lovers posted this one with permission for anyone to tag themselves so obviously I’m gonna take it and run. My asks are empty and I’ve been craving ask games and surveys lately, sue me. Putting it under a cut so I don’t clog anyone’s dash!

Gender: Female Star sign: Taurus Current time: 8:15 PM, though it’ll prolly be later by the time I finish typing this all out. Favorite song artists: Don’t make me choose. A lot of my favorite music is instrumental OST’s, though an instrumental artist or two that I love are ones like Jami Sieber, Brambles, Otto A Totland, and Joep Beving. For non-instrumental.. there’s a lot. Ellise, SYML, Nico Collins, Frank Sinatra, and Bohnes are a few I’ve had in some playlists lately, but there’s way too many.  Favorite songs: This is harder than the last one and I am not obligated to answer it. (’: But if you’re someone who reads my samples or threads, you might find some of my favorite OST’s/mood musics that suit the post/hint at something hidden in there. Song stuck in your head: Again, these change so often daily it’s hard to pick one, but a handful include A Little Messed Up by june, Dance Monkey (the slowburn edit), and way more OST’s than are healthy. (Highlights for that include the original Medievil soundtrack, which for some reason reminds me of Castlevania at times.) Last movie you saw: Birds of Prey! I almost didn’t go due to not feeling great, so I’m glad I bucked up and saw it with some friends. Last thing I googled: If you ignore the numerous Castlevania-related things in the last 24 hours, then it’s “cat keeps sneezing.” If not, then it’s “castlevania vampire generals” because being totally frank, I didn’t even know the generals with no lines in the first two seasons had names until recently. Other blogs: I haven’t been on it in ages and actually forgot the password, but once I get on that I’ll get back to you. xD Do you get asks? Not really, but I stick around for the people who’re kind enough to take that interest! I keep all the ask/rp prompts tagged neatly in links on my profile so if someone new comes by one day and wants to interact, it’ll be easy for them to. Reason for your url: The original concept for Pepper was very much a mosquito-like cryptid created for a certain purpose, hence the mosquito. The diabolik part is because I originally joined Tumblr to find a community for Diabolik Lovers (due to some other writing sites being very.. standoffish if you don’t write canons/don’t exclusively write gay ships), but now it’s just all kinds of vampire hell. Once I actually get into some more vampy verses you can bet I’ll be writing/reblogging stuff from those as well! and yes I am looking for more recommendations in that vein (heh, puns) if anyone has some. Average amount of sleep: Erm.. 3-12 hours. During the week it’s about 3-5, and weekends is sometimes my “catch up” time where I still stay up quite late, but actually sleep in to let my body get some rest. Lucky number: It’s always been 9, and it tends to come up a lot in odd places so I might have to stick with it. Currently wearing: An old super comfy high school t-shirt and shorts, complete with a coat of long hair courtesy of my cat who was just laying on me. Dream job: Honestly? Still figuring that out. I’m going on a clinical psych track at the moment, but I’ve been doing a bit of soul-searching and testing to see if I’m actually strong enough for the therapist/clinician route I was originally after. I just don’t know if I’m strong enough just yet to settle into a job where I could very well have to help abusers in their early stages, something that I have no doubt will be upsetting to me personally. I’m a bit of an empath at times so it’d be excellent for the job, but I also feel I’d take it home with me which is dangerous. I don’t feel like I’m smart enough for psychology research on regular basis, though, so I have some thinking to do. Thankfully I’m still getting my bachelor’s so it’s not like I’m hard-pressed to immediately figure it out. On a lighter note, smol me was very much convinced I would be a marine biologist due to my love of the ocean and my skill in scuba diving, but that evaporated when research told me they travel nonstop and frequent travel makes me anxious Dream trips: I’ve been on a cruise a couple times and the experiences were honestly life-changing for one odd reason or another, be it how that time had me interact with my family and the things I got to see and experience. There’s a strange sense of freedom, even though you’re mostly confined to a boat. I’d love to visit Ireland and Germany since it’s where almost my entire family come from and often the landscape is beautiful, and since our culture’s kind of been watered down after a few generations living here I’d like to connect with that. Favorite foods: I have like 2-3 cups of tea in a day and keep exploring all kinds of new types, so that’d probably be it literally. Ones that I idealize in my head though wheeze would probably be things like steak, or scallops, or a specific kind of ice cream shaved ice thing I had once that legitimately made me tear up because it was so good.  Play any instruments? I tried to pick up the coronet in grade school since my dad played the trumpet and I thought it’d be fun, but I had some trouble memorizing the order of notes for songs, and it all kind of fell apart after an instructor dented up my instrument with a drumstick and tried to refuse to apologize/pay for it. (Yes, seriously, but that’s a story for another time. xD)

Of course I’ll pass the blessing and say anyone who wants to do this absolutely should, but I’m also gonna tag @sherbetcoloured , @natacular , @lachrymosestorm , and @l-e-w-d-y (provided they’d like to do it, of course)

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tag game(s)

anï (i’m too exhausted to do three separate posts but i was tagged in three tag games over the past few days and i’d forgotten to do the last few games i was tagged in and i feel super guilty so here they are in one go)

i don’t know who to tag to do these rn because my brain is dead i am emotionally exhausted and i’m writing a fic that’s about halfway done so i’m gonna say tag anyone who wants to be tagged for any of these. i’m so sorry that i’m dead, i will be back alive again after may 10th, which is my AP exam day

six questions challenge

tagged by @simon--speaks

rules: answer the questions, then tag 9 people you want to get to know better!

Q1: Relationship status?

single bby

Q2: Favorite color?

maroon !

Q3: Top 3 ships?

snowbaz (wow) and uh. wow. idk who else. i wanna say my own ocs matchstick and summer (is that allowed? i’m making it allowed)

Q4: Lipstick or chapstick?

whenever i get to this question in any ask i freeze up because i use a tinted chapstick so i don’t look dead but like. it can also be seen as a lipstick because it has pigment. but. chapstick.

Q5: Last song I listened to?

Run by Hozier

Q6: Last movie I watched?

uhhh i watched like. 5 minutes of the emperor’s new groove a few days ago, and watched a documentary about obscure houses like 10 minutes before that. so. i’m gonna say the house documentary.

21 questions

i was tagged by @simon--speaks, @angelsfalling16, @wo2ash, @alixanderthequeer, @sharkmartini and @bazypitchandsimonsnow

rules: answer 21 questions then tag 21 people

nickname: anï, munchkin, menina, and my hebrew name is elisheva

height: the doctor says i’m 5′3.5″, but they can’t put fractions on IDs so according to the state i’m 5′4″ and i cling to that

last movie i saw: see above (so like. funky houses)

last thing i googled: (next town over) movie tavern. i’m not saying where it is exactly bc hah i don’t wanna be stalked but. i was looking at movie times because they have $5 movies every tuesday

favorite musician: frank iero. love that funky rat man and his funky music too (i’m gonna see him for the second time next month because i made the executive adult decision to say fuck it to my seizures and go see him anyway)

song stuck in my head: i don’t have one rn but usually it’s a song by the killers (when you were young is a usual one)

other blogs: none, actually! i didn’t delete my old tumblr purely bc i’m a nostalgic dumbass, but it’s a completely different login and it’s inactive so i don’t count it.

followers: 1,666 (originally i wasn’t gonna share the number but it hit this last night and i was like heh. nice)

following: 231

amount of sleep: 8ish hours! (spring break bby)

lucky numbers: 7, multiples of 3 (only in cases of knocking), and multiples of 2 (only in cases like volume)

dream job: writing and illustrating books! i have a variety of dream jobs within art, and even within the subcategory of books, but my top dream job is creating inclusive/diverse children’s books that represent a variety different ethnicities/races, religions, abilities, and identities so that children can see themselves represented in media

what i’m wearing: a black turtleneck, a bra, and marvel boxers. that’s it.

favorite food: soup in general. i make a kick ass matzo ball soup

language: english, conversational portuguese, i know a small small bit of japanese (i should know more given i was raised being taught it but i always struggled with it), and i know some spanish. i also plan on teaching myself ASL.

can i play an instrument: yes! i’ve been playing violin since i was 2. i wanna play guitar and i know some chords but i have small hands so it’s hard to find one that’s the right size that isn’t a shitty children’s guitar, and i sing! i’m an alto

favorite song: hnnghg please don’t make me pick................ i’d have to say choke on one another by death spells

random fact: so like. if you didn’t know already, i’m an LGBTQ+ youth activist on a national scale. i disappear on occasion because i’m doing something or another, and sometimes i post about it on my blog (speaking of i have exciting news that i heard, but at the same time, i’m pretty much booked every weekend from middle of next month until middle of july), but........ i hate networking. i loathe it. if i never had to network again, i’d be thrilled. networking is my absolute least favorite thing because i struggle at everyday conversation, much less networking with people at least 10-20 years my senior. sure it’s usually free publicity and i get great connections, but god. at what cost? and like.... it’s always after a really emotionally taxing event, so i’m already drained and then wow here’s a room full of adults who want my 18 year old input. please. just let me steal a cupcake then leave.

describe yourself in aesthetic things: dye stained fingernails and necks. cranked open windows during a spring shower. dried tears and breaking laughs. coffee stains and milky tea splashes. trembling fingers, writing instead of speaking because you’re too afraid, and finally breaking free--running through the rain. scabbing blood, fresh piercings. knowing you’re loved and not saying it because it doesn’t need to be spoken. the smell of a new canvas, paint splattered jeans, and art school sweaters. black skirts with docs, then fairy lights and soft blankets hidden behind sharp profanities and harsh disgust. the unexpected. the unknown. the ever-changing, unstoppable force of the shifting tides. 

carry on questions

tagged by @goodbyedandelion, @isthisisagoodkiss @wo2ash, 

1- favorite type of scone? 

cranberry orange! one of the farms a county over has a market and they sell them there and they’re to die for (altho, i found a sour cherry scone recipe that i’ve perfected and my family loves them so they’re a close second now)

2- london or la?

i’ve never been to london, but i’m gonna have to go with london. i went to la last october to present in an awards show for my organization and i lowkey was underwhelmed. i’m very much a gloom and rain kinda person, and it was too dry and sunny there. although, i did think the huge succulents were sick as fuck. but yeah definitely london. i’m planning to spend a semester abroad there in a few years for an illustration program

3- kissing in a forest or holding hands under the stars?

i’m afraid of forests because we have a lot of wildlife and i don’t want to get mauled by a bear don’t mind me holding hands under the stars :)

4- jeans or suit?

suit suit suIT SUIT suit. i love wearing suits. my chest doesn’t cooperate and my hips always hate them but god i do love suits.

5- loose hair or pulled back hair?

mine looks better loose, and my sides/back are shaved but the top reaches my ears, so it gets annoying sometimes and i pull it up to keep it out of my face

6- vampires or dragons?

i wanna say both. i used to say “yknow a dragon but in human form would be hot” then i got called dragon fucker for like two years so out of pure spite i’m going with vampires.

7- what saying do you wish could be a spell?

(this one’s a very specific reference so hear me out) “i’ve got to go pee on her”  used to disorient and confuse the speech of the person casted upon. it’s one of my favorite quotes from scott pilgrim vs. the world (my favorite movie ngl) when scott’s brain can’t figure out two different sentences and he just says that. it’s so good and just fuckin weird that i love it.

8- which carry on character would you go on a coffee date with if you could?

depends tbh! if we’re talking date date, then penny because i would wife penny in 0.5 seconds, but if we’re talking friends getting coffee then 10000000% baz because i’d talk activism and identities with him

9- favorite carry on quote?

“he told me we would be stars” (i don’t have my book on me so i could be getting the line wrong), but it hit so hard for me. like it’s clear how davy manipulated lucy so much that she fell into it and couldn’t crawl out. it’s such a powerful message of control from those who are charismatic enough to hold it, and how sometimes we aren’t weak enough to let go.

10- how excited are you for wayward son?

lemme paint this picture: i started hyperventilating in the hallway when i found out, and then cried an hour or two later when my friend texted me that he preordered me a signed copy. like. i’ve been pre-planning how to get home from college to come and pick it up (okok the 24th is also my dad’s birthday so i’m. um. “coming home to visit him”, of course) because i’m just SO EXCITED to read them again in a canon way :’)

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50 Questions Tag!

@jongin-be-my-jagi​ tagged me for this a while ago, but I took my sweet time to answer. Here is my secret intel if you want to know me a little bit more!! Check hers as well, she’s an amazing writer and friend. 1. What takes up too much of your time? Tumblr, my stupid procrastination prone brain and my thesis. 

2. What makes your day better? Friends and loved ones, music and these absolute dorks (Channie especially) 

3. What’s the best thing that happened to you today? I hopped on the mat today in the early hours of the morning, rain on my window and the neighbours cat peeking at me from his window across the street.

4. What fictional place would you like to go to? Wonderland, bacause it’s “curiouser and curiouser!”

'Who are you?' said the Caterpillar.  Alice replied, rather shyly, 'I — I hardly know, sir, just at present — at least I know who I was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.'

5. Are you good at giving advice? I think so. Not so good at following my own advice though.  I do always consider where the other is standing and if I don’t know how to proceed then I’ll just be honest and say I can’t help. But i’ll always listen with my heart. 

 6. Do you have any mental illnesses? Not diagnosed. I do think i might be going through something now. 

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? No, but i have a recurring nightmare: the world is made of black and white paper thin layers. I am a paper thin person walking along a street surrounded by paper thin buildings. I walk for a long time, looking up at the white sky. Until the street ends, there is no more building and i fall into the abyss of a blank page.  I have had this dream since the age of 8 or 9 years old. Fear of not being good enough, you say?! Ding, ding, ding!! We got a winner in the back!  8. What musician inspired you the most? I get inspired by music all the time!! One of my all time favourite songs is Spanish Sahara by Foals. Its sublime!

So I’d say I’m mainly inspired by these artists: Queen, Arctic Monkeys, Foals, Radiohead, Bowie, Daughter, Bob Dylan, Beirut, Yeah yeah yeahs, Arcade Fire, The National, Joy Division, Blur, Warpaint, Gorillaz, Sufjan Stevens, Bon Iver, Chet Baker, The Cure, Courtney Barnett, The Maccabees, Car Seat Headrest, Florence + The Machine, Editors, Kasabian, Crystal Fighters, Death Cab for a cutie, The Doors, Efterklang, Explosions in the Sky, Franz Ferdinand, The Horrors, James Blake, José Gonzalez, Los Campesinos!,  Metronomy, Nick Cave, Nina Simone, Patrick Watson,  Phoenix, Sharon Van Etten, The Shins, Simon & Garfunkel, The Smiths, St.Vincent, The Strokes, Toro y Moi, tricot, Tune-Yards, TV on the radio, Unknown Mortal Orchestra, The Vaccines, Vampire Weekend, The Velvet Underground, The War on Drugs, Wild Beasts and Yo La Tengo.

And the electro, pop and hip-hop groves of my heart: EXO, 2NE1, Janelle Monáe, Big Bang, Kris Wu,LCD soundsystem, SBTRKT, Childish Gambino, Frank Ocean, Kendrick Lamar and Daft Punk. 

And special mentions to the portuguese ones (learning from yixing and promoting when i can :P): Capicua, Joana Espadinha, The Legendary Tigerman, Linda Martini, Mayra Andrade, Noiserv, Ornatos Violeta, Paus, Samuel Uria, You Can’t Win Charlie Brown and The Silence 4. I know, tldr right? Sorry folks! 9. Have you ever fallen in love? Yes I have. I have mistaken a crush for love too. But i have definitely been very deeply in love. A wrecked kintsugi heart over here people! 10. What’s your dream date? I don’t think I have one. I’d love to do something unique with that someone special, something special for the two of us. It could be as simple as riding the subway while sharing earphones & listening to our playlist or walking the dogs out! Idk, I’m easy to please. But right now it would have to be with this handsome man :D pretty please?!

11. What do others notice about you? I am very kind and warm hearted, so I think that’s what people first notice when meeting me. Although I maintain good eye contact, I am also timid and will be quieter if there are very energetic people in the group. When alone, I usually take the first step and try to meet people, but only if i really must.  12. What’s an annoying habit you have? It’s really hard for me to ask for help. I also like to tell detailed descriptions of everything... Couldn’t you tell? 13. Do you still talk to your first love? I’ll text him on his birthday and he does the same to me. We met when we were 10 years old and that childhood friendship remains. But regarding my one and truly deep relationship, no we do not talk, unless we randomly meet.

14. How many exes do you have? I have three exes. The first love who was just an idealized crush on my childhood friend: we dated for 2 weeks during summer break xD Then my first real boyfriend, we met in my first year at university, dated for quite some time, he really loved me and made me love myself a little more. Finally the one i loved too much. I mended his wounds and made him love himself as much as I did. I always say all the love we feel makes our hearts grow bigger. I do not regret loving any of them, I am me now due to them and I would not change it if I could. 15. How many songs are in your playlist? I have way too many playlists for each and every mood... But my favourite songs list on spotify has about 1500 songs! uwu!  16. What instruments can you play? Triangles and flute?! I had mandatory music classes in school... so in reality I can’t really play a instrument...

17. Who do you have the most pictures of? Probably my cat, Sushi. With a second close of my doodles and sketches. 

18. Where would you like to go before you die? EVERY WHERE!!! But I really want to go to Japan and Scotland and Iceland and South Korea and New Zealand and i’ll shut up. 19. What’s your zodiac? Capricorn. 20. Do you relate to it? Sort of.

21. What is happiness to you? You know when it’s really cold outside in the winter and you manage to find a sheltered place where no wind can hit you and you still get to feel the warm rays of the winter suns on your skin? You hear the birds outside and you are contempt in that moment, at peace. That is happiness to me.   22. Are you going through anything right now? Yes, I am a bit lost. Trying to finish my thesis and trying to find what I want to do after. It’s liberating but also pretty scary. 23. What’s the worst decision you ever made? It’s a series of small decisions really. It started with going for a phd with the same people i worked in my msc. Should have gone to a different place. Then deciding to come home after a traumatic loss in the family. Should have kept my life going but I stalled it then. (I don’t regret helping my loved ones though).

24. What’s your favourite store? Probably Wishtrend for beauty stuff. Other than that I don’t have any favourite brands/stores. 25. (HALFWAY!) What’s your opinion on abortion? I think everyone is free to decide what they want or need to do. I couldn’t possible judge. If I would it? Probably not.

27. Do you have a favourite album? I don’t think so, I have favourite tunes for different moods and moments in my life. But if threatened with my life, I’d maybe say Total Life Forever from Foals.

28. What do you want for your birthday? It’s such a long time until my birthday comes! But maybe a real EXO ot9 reunion as a goodbye to Minseok?

29. What is most people’s first impression of you? Friendly and easy to open up to, i think.

30. What age do you seem according to most people? In real life, people usually think I am way younger than I am.  31. Where do you keep your phone when you’re sleeping? In the crook of my bed, between the mattress and the bed frame.

32. What word do you say the most? No idea really! 33. What’s the oldest age you’d date? 40s? I don’t think too much about age actually. 

34. What’s the youngest age you’d date? 20s? Again not very important to me. Love is love, whomever, whenever and wherever <3

35. What job / career do most people say would suit you? I don’t know! People always say i don’t totally fit in anything... so there’s that. If you have an idea please let me know! 36. What’s your favourite music genre? Go back to question 8. I listen to everything! :D 37. If you could live in any country in the world where would it be? I’d like to live around the world, every few months a different place and get to know different cultures.

38. What is your current favourite song? I’ve been obsessed with RM’s intro/teaser song, Map of the Soul: Persona. (I’m not even a bts fan, but this music and lyrics just touched me a lot.)

39. How long have you had this blog for? I think for about 6 years? It’s my personal space, where I dump all my obsessions.  

40. What are you excited for? I’m visiting some friends in Granada in a couple of weeks. Yay, tapas!

41. Are you a better talker or listener? Normally I am a better listener. But there are a few people to whom i open like a book. Either words flow right out of me without even thinking or they see throw me. Those truly are my people.

42. What is the last productive thing you did? Prepped meals and cleaned the kitchen. Open the folder and file of my thesis. Read the latest chapter I wrote.  43. What do you want for Christmas? Well, just like for my birthday, there is still such a long time to it! But let’s say i want to have already finish this part of my life and want to find my next adventure.

44. What class do you get the best grades in? No more exams! Ehehe! But I used to have good grades at everything. Physical Education was my lowest mark i think.

45. On a scale of 1-10 how do you feel right now? Right now, a 4? I have a headache.

46. What can you see yourself doing in 10 years? Smiling? :D I want to be happy in my own skin. To feel contempt in my life, doing something that gives me a sense of purpose and having time to share and enjoy with my friends and family. 47. When did you get your first heartbreak? Oh my kintsugi heart has been broken quiet a lot. By friends and lovers and even by myself. I keep patching it up with gold dreams though.  48. At what age do you wanna be married? I will only want to be married if i find the one. So until then I guess. 

49. What career did you want to have as a child? I wanted to be an astronaut and a ballerina. Preferably both!

50. What do you crave right now? Just sitting somewhere and listening to Yeol play the guitar.

Well i finished it! :D I’ll tag @thedeviousdo @ohsenhun @hongseok and @paepsi. I’d love to read yours! Feel free to dismiss it though, it is quite a lot.  Lots of love everyone!! <3 <3 <3

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Back from Youmacon Update

Hello all! I’m back from Youmacon and sufficiently rested enough to give a recount of my weekend of tabling at Detroit’s premiere anime convention. It was definitely a long weekend, full of tons of hard work, early mornings, and heavy lifting, but I’m excited to say that I managed to do very well selling my books. I was a little surprised by how many people either recognized me from other conventions or told me they had either seen my books here on tumblr or knew friends who had bought them and told them about them! It’s one of those things, I suppose, that will never fail to surprise me, but it was really great meeting and making new and old fans alike! I met a lot of really cool people and got to tell a lot of readers about the Tempest Series and Duskriven Chronicles! Meeting fellow lgbta+ content fans is always such a pleasure, so I really hope those of you now following me enjoy your new books and charms!

If any of you are interested in picking up Tempest or Duskriven charms, I’m glad to say that we have some leftover over stock! I’ll post links to my artist’s store once he has the listings up for purchase. Be warned: they will go fast!

As for what’s next, where do I even start? I’m currently still enjoying my post-con vacation with my partner Y. Dan, artist of the Duskriven Chronicles who is staying with me until Wednesday, but once he returns to California’s sunny embrace I’m eager to get back into the swing of things by finishing up the last of my Redamancy edits. We should have the cover finished and formatted before the end of December, so cross your fingers that the publication date will be available come January. This is the last installment of my Duskriven Chronicles series and I can’t tell you how excited I am to finish up the story and give Khouri, Navidae, and Sorin the satisfying ending they all deserve.

As I’ve posted before, my chaos god/witch book Infaust is completed and sitting in the first draft stages of the writing process. I’m currently looking into some alternative publishing methods for this one as my usual artist, Ambi Sun, is busy with her own tarot deck project and won’t be available for book covers until it’s completed. This means that we may have some new fun things in store for this title, but until I’m able to see how my ventures go, information on Infaust will be sporadic.

But, never fear! I have more projects in the works that I can readily talk about now. My volva/jarl Norse book is sitting on the rewrite block and just waiting for me to shift focus onto it, so expect an update on its completion before the end of the year. I’m also excited to say that my big vampire series is rapidly approaching the work-bench too. I’ve finished the outline and will be tackling the prequel’s outline in the coming days as well, and with any luck I’ll be starting the first draft by the end of December. Y. Dan and I will be working together on this series as well and we are VERY eager to share the world we’ve been building the past year.

Thank you again to all the people--both new and old--that stopped by my table this past weekend to chat, gush, and purchase my books! I had a blast and I really can’t wait to hammer out my convention schedule for the upcoming year. Be sure to leave reviews and tell your friends, and thank you all for making this a really great convention. I hope I’ll be able to come back next year too.

That’s it for now. Keep an eye out for more info in the coming months and be sure to check my blog for links on our limited charm supplies as they become available.

As always, until next time!

[opheliakeeauthor]

Readers are Awesome!

A shout out to Tori Price who let me in on a possible Kindle glitch with Synner and Sainte Part 1. Thank you so much. Reaching out matters. Draoithe: Synner and Sainte Part 1 is FREE this weekend so if you have been considering stepping into the dream here is your chance. Warning, all of my stories are adult fantasy/pnr. They are intended for adult readers. Synner and Sainte is the Forbye volume explaining some of the back story about how the dream has become unbalanced while also introducing readers to the devils of Blar Elding and the harem Markus Sainte builds with Logan Synner and Riggs Sainte. Devils do walk in the Leaindeail, but that's because they were born here. There are a couple of extra deleted scenes from the cutting room floor at the end of the miniseries. You can find out just how slimy Frank Grimes really is and learn how Luke actually met Fox and Artie as well as get a bit of back story on Ryker. As always, all books are FREE to read with Kindle Unlimited!

Shameless Self Promotion!

Lieutenant Ryker Talbert came back to the States after his last mission a bit messed up. His former Colonel had retired, and he was lost and followed suit. Wandering around aimlessly though just got him involved in some stuff he could not handle alone. It had him rethinking that last mission and feeling a need to see his former Colonel again.He never made the meeting he set up with Luke. Getting down from his jeep after a long drive to take a leak in the woods saw him nearly mauled to death by a wild panther, knowing his end had arrived, and finally accepting the dark gift from a vampire because he could not let things end the way they were heading.Finding his former Colonel waiting for him when he was with himself again after the delirium and several days of sleeping left him with a lot of questions. The one he needed to answer as desperately as he needed to understand what it meant to be a vampire was what happened to the panther? That was soon followed by dragons? Really? Okay. Just one more thing, how the hell were they going to fix Artie before losing her killed Fox? All 9 parts of the Dragons Come short read mini series are now available to read on Amazon! I hope you enjoy it! The price on the full volume has been reduced from the old novel price, but as always it is still FREE with Kindle Unlimited!

Griz was lost. Waking up in a soft bed to find everything sleeping next to him after the nightmare he had just endure left him lost. When she screamed, bringing a lot of men into the room to look at her, it messed with the bear’s possessive nature over his mate. Worse there was something wrong with his magic that along with the fact that he felt as hungry as a bear needing to hibernate made him grouchy and short-tempered. Melody had gotten help, and the men at Draoithe had rescued him. When a dragon tried to reach for her, murder was already on his mind. When the shifters chastised the dragon instead of him for killing He finally realized he might have landed in a good place. That was about the same time he realized he needed to claim his mate and apologize to the dragon he had murdered on the lawn. Griz needed reckoning for what happened. Luke wanted him as the last member of the Ruiri. If Griz got his reckoning, the pack would finally have enough magic to begin coalescing the mor tuath. Like the pristine land that Draoithe had chosen to build the pack, it needed to grow to be as numerous as the trees and as seemingly sheltered as the forest was to the wild world. All 9 parts of the The Ruiri Complete short read mini series are now available to read on Amazon! I hope you enjoy it! The price on the full volume has been reduced from the old novel price, but as always it is still FREE with Kindle Unlimited!

Behind the Scenes

I spent most of my day today publishing Past in the Present Part 7. Followed by building the storyboard tiles that I use to craft the storyboard preview videos for the saga volumes. I am currently working on Draoithe: The Library. It will be volume 16 in the Draoithe series. I love to write, and I love to read, but I also love to create. Building the book trailers and storyboard preview videos is just fun. If you have not checked them out, subscribe to my YouTube channel and watch a few. I use a program called Corel to craft the videos. The music was written on a free music writing app. So if you were thinking to go Indie all the way. It is possible with very little money invested beyond a good computer and a few programs. About the Audio: I have not given up, but I am in Florida and away from my sound studio at the moment. If I can I will try a new tactic for that soon. But bear with me. Audio is a helluva lot harder than it sounds. Pun intended. LOL. 

Social Media

Still in Twitter Jail. Twitter still makes no sense to me. Oh well, I post there and try to interact anyway! Facebook and the dream group is still where you can find me most of the time. If you don't catch me there, I am on Tumblr, Pinterest, Instagram, and YouTube as well. I do really love to here from you, so visit, ask, comment, suggest, just make an observation. It's all good. I will meet you in the dream.

The gym is open. I gotta run. Be Careful! Happy reading, ​Ophelia Kee

Welcome to Ophelia Kee Speaks. This is a blog chronicling my independent author walk. The journey into the dream has been a life-changing experience as I try to become a full-time writer and leave the professional world behind me. In my blog each time, you will find information on the ‘behind the scenes’ for writing contemporary adult fantasy fiction and paranormal romance stories set in the dream. I will speak on topics detailing my writing, publishing, promotion, and marketing as well as social media dealing with my books, book trailers, book launches, book art, music, audio, and video, as well as shameless self-promotion. I am not an expert and am not claiming to be one. I am simply one writer offering a glimpse of my struggle to become a successful independent author. Whether you are a writer or a reader: Laugh with me, learn from my mistakes, and forge your own path. Thank you for considering my words.

All rights reserved.

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ok I'm gonna answer @basiilhallward‘s questions for the tag thing bc I need a Break from reading crime and punishment and there’s nothing nicer than an excuse to talk about myself

1. 5 songs you like, and what do you like about them?

brand new- soco amaretto lime. Youth! I don't know, it makes my heart swell a little, the lyrics could almost be a happy song, we’re young and it reminds me of walking in the dark when I'm tipsy after a party The front bottoms- the plan. its a nice little fuck you society song that its easy to jump around in your room to, also weirdly inspirational   the world is a beautiful place and I am no longer afraid to die- Wendover. a good song, a bit Sad John lennon- imagine because you know, I'm That champaign socialist. but this was also the first song I learnt on the guitar (also the green day cover version bc that one makes me wanna start a revolution) vampire weekend- unbelievers - its fun And makes me think about god and shit 2. favourite bit of theatre you’ve seen/read/heard

you Know I love Bourne’s swan lake. The opera I saw in Verona was an Experence. In terms of straight theatre? Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are dead is always a fave

3. if you could get any job, no questions asked, no qualifications needed, what would you chose?

ah I don't know, you mean right now at this point in my life or in the future. I guess I feel like if I couldn't deal with the questions and qualifications side of a job I wouldn't be ready to actually.... do it. idk, I guess id love to go into research. 4. someone you want to talk to again? i never want to talk to anyone lol. idk a few months ago i had a rather difficult conversation with one of my friends and we’ve grown apart since and i think I'm almost at the stage where ill want to reach out and talk to them again. but idk, if i want to talk to someone i message them, and i have a tendency to... not want to push reaching out again to people i used to be close to- the memories are there. when i was in yr 9 i remember wanting that friendship group to meet up again at the end of yr 13 to see how we’d all done but now I'm here i don't feel that desire at all really. 5. something good that happened recently!

i passed my driving test the other day which is... neat 6. pick up the nearest book and type out the 1st (few if needed) lines! do you like the book?

I'm sitting right next to my e m forster short stories so 

‘My pedometer told me that I was twenty-five; and, though it is a shocking thing to stop walking, I was so tired that I sat down on a milestone to rest. People outstripped me, jeering as they did so, and even when Miss Eliza Dimbleby, the great educationalist, swept past, exhorting me to persevere, I only smiled and raised my hat’ (that's the start of The Other Side of the Hedge)

yeah I like this book! ive only read three of the stories but they've been good so far, I'm keeping the rest for uni bc I find it better to read short stories than novels when I'm busy.

i actually wrote half of the answers to these questions yesterday including the above one and i thought id check out the book beside me today which is my Sylvia Plath journals. it begins ‘july 1950- i may never be happy, but tonight i am content’ and i thought that was worth writing here. i tried to read all the jounals a number of years ago but gave up half way. putting aside the weirdness of reading someone’s diary, its an incredible read. she was fascinating. 7. do you believe in a higher power or a God?

no. Well, sometimes but not really. I am fully ready to accept the possibility that there is a God, I'm a bit of a classic agnostic in that I think its absurd to think anyone can Know either way. And sometimes I do rather fall back on the idea, and I Do have an affiliation with the Christian god. But in terms of true belief, in terms of faith, no. 8. a choice you wish you could have done differently

I don't have any specific regrets, there are some things ive done or said at various points (or not done or said) where life would be better if I had acted differently. But I’ve recently succumbed to the belief that the way we act is the only way we could have acted. I’ve acted the way I thought best at the time at any given point. I also think ive learned from every mistake ive made, if I avoided making it at one point I'm sure I would have made it again later. and I'm happy with where I am right now, its my choices that lead me here.

9. what brought you to tumblr in the beginning?

idk, i looked on my old blog and my first post was a reblog of that tyler josep tweet telling people to stay alive or smth. i was emo and sad and questioning my sexuality and from what i heard tumblr was the best place for being all of those things 10. somewhere you’ve never been and want to see?

Up to a month ago I would have said Florence but ive been there now :’) so next on my holiday pining list is probably st pertersburg, might take a few years.

11. what are you most proud of?

how far ive come in the last 2 years in terms of my self confidence. less abstractly, i independently researched and wrote an essay and presentation last year on art history and art theory and i put a lot of effort in and it was good

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Congratulations, Tyler! You’ve been accepted for the role of Jae-Sung Park. Please make sure to check our checklist, and you have twenty-four hours to send us your character’s blog. We’re really happy to have you in our family!

We could tell by your headcanons and the reasons why you chose Jae-Sung that you’d do a great job with him. You understand that there's a balance inside of himself about his human times and the struggles of being a vampire for so long to the point he doesn't want to life, he just survives. For us, this is the defining reasons for who he is and how he looks at everything in the world. It's deep, dark, and we love it!

Introduction

Tyler, 23, She/Her, and from the PST

Activity level:

I should be able to come online at least once a day for an hour or two depending on my work and school schedule. I am currently doing a teaching program online, so I should be able to come online/stalk the dash when I am procrastinating. Otherwise, I will most likely be online in the evenings and then hours throughout the day during the weekend.

Further contact:

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How did you find the roleplay?

I saw promos about it on the dash!

Roleplay experience:

I have been in group rps on and off since 2010 (which makes me feel like I’ve been on Tumblr for way too long lol). I have been 1x1 rping since 2013. Some links to example blogs can be found here and here.

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IC INFORMATION

Desired character:

Jae-Sung Park

Faceclaim:

N/A

Why did you choose this character?

What initially drew me to Jae-Sung is the fact that his humanity is turned off and the life he had lived through since being turned into a vampire. There is definitely two different sides to Jae-Sung, but he’s kept one side of himself locked away after shutting off his humanity. What made me interested about his character through that aspect was the different subtleties that could be portrayed to show off his character. He isn’t a full person and while he seems kind and reserved, there’s just something off about him. Through the century that he has been alive, he has learned how to hide the extreme emotions that make you human, preferring to stay in a neutral state, a simple and safe state. Emotions of happiness, anger, sadness, or anything more than necessary to survive is too much of a reminder of everything he has lost and everything he questions and doubts about himself. I think for him to want to turn back on his humanity, he would need to find something or someone worth living for again, because right now he’s simply surviving day by day rather than experiencing life anymore. But now with a war looming in the future, it would be interesting to see how he would react to seeing that in a place he’s considered home for the past decade.

Para sample:

Jae-Sung woke with a start. Bolting up, he clutched his chest, the rapid beat of his heart reverberating in his rib cage.

“So-Young!” The words fell from his lips as he whipped his gaze around in search of her, but she was long gone. Memories of last night sprung to mind in waves. Memories that were too difficult to process, but were all he could think about. He continued to look around him in the hopes of catching a glimpse of her coming back to him. A pang echoed through him. So much had gone wrong and he hadn’t been able to do anything about it.

It was then his gaze landed on the note beside him, and a bowl of red liquid. The moment his eyes landed on the bowl, something shifted inside of him. His breath became shallow, the quick beating of his heart seemingly slowing down to a loud, single echo, and everything in his vision seemed to blur and focus all at once to the bowl of red liquid. Blood. The smell of metallic filled the air. Somewhere in his head was screaming What is happening to me? but it was pushed aside for the blood that was calling out to him.

He swallowed hard, too afraid to reach out for the bowl, but unable to look away from it. It took all his strength to pull his gaze from it and look at the letter beside it. Something in him went still as he glimpsed the handwriting on it.

So-Young.

The blood was momentarily forgotten as his attention fell to the letter. Jae-Sung tore through it, his eyes scanning for an explanation, a reason, a location to find her, but he wasn’t given any of those things.  

Dear Jae-Sung,

I think you know what I have done to you. I can’t apologize because I’m not sorry. I was given a chance to have a better life and now you do too. You can either die the son of a fisherman or live like me.

So-Young

Jae-Sung’s eyes stung with the appearance of tears and he crumbled the note in his hand. A choice? His sister had not given him a choice, but a death sentence. Choose to die or live as something not human. It wasn’t a choice at all.

Anger swelled in him all over again. His last interaction with his sister playing through his head on loop. The betrayal. The rage. The disgust. The fear. The pinch of pain before it all went dark. Every emotion hit him tenfold, and all he could do was bury his face in his hands. So-Young… So-Young, how could you have done this to me? To our family?

The thought of his family made him realize what he’d be giving up he decided to die. He imagined his father and mother finding him dead, and then finding So-Young gone without a trace. His parents would be losing two children that day if he chose to die. But if he decided to live… No. If he lived, what would he be living as? Was that a life worth living? His gaze slid back to the blood…

Yes. No. Yes. No. Yes.

Yes.

His hands reached out to the bowl. The liquid sloshed in the bowl as he lifted it towards him, a tremble forming in his hands as he made his decision. Forgive me, he said, saying a silent prayer to no one in particular.

And then he drank.

EXTRA

Personality traits:

Positive: Protective, Curious, Sentimental

Negative: Reserved, Melancholic, Strong-willed

Headcanons:

1.  He isn’t close to people for a reason. After a century of wars and death and loss, it is too hard for him to want to make genuine connections with others. When he had his humanity turned on, Jae-Sung had such a huge heart and wanted to give the best to people, especially those he cared about, but after losing so much he has shied away from opening his heart up like that. Even with his humanity turned off, he still can’t help but take an interest in certain people, but he is more subtle in his ways of checking up on others. In fact, unless you knew what to look for in his mannerisms, you wouldn’t realize he cares about anyone at all.

2. He has a box of keepsakes from his former life as a human. He has a comb his mother had, a few fishing hooks from his father, and a ribbon that once belonged to his sister. To anyone who saw it, it would look like nothing more than garbage, but it’s all he has left to remember his family by, so he keeps it hidden and safe so nothing bad could happen to it.

3. There is a deep sadness to Jae-Sung that he keeps hidden and locked away. Whenever he gets that distant look in his eyes, it tends to be because he’s looking at the past. With his humanity turned off, thinking about the past doesn’t bring up as many negative feelings as it does now. He can look back at his past now with objectivity and instead plays back all the moments he wishes he could have changed.

4. For a long time he used to see his sister and every girl he saw. After he first turned into a vampire, Jae-Sung spent the better half of the century searching for her, and hoping to find traces of her in every place he went. It wasn’t until he settled on the island that he paused his search for her, but it still hasn’t stopped him from seeing traces of her in certain people around the island.

5. On his first full moon ever as a vampire, he wasn’t prepared and ended up killing a small neighboring village. He doesn’t have concrete memories of the night, but he can remember the screams, and that has haunted him ever since. Every since that night, he really tried to learn to control his thirst, but it took him more than a few decades to really control it without it getting the best of him. He has prided himself for not shedding anymore blood since then.

6. Jae-Sung has tried to keep up with the times, but he’s sometimes very nonchalant about the modern world. He doesn’t have a cellphone, but does have a laptop at home. He enjoys reading up on the news of the world today, and will sometimes partakes in learning about the new slang and trends. Most of the time he find it ridiculous (emoticons, dating apps), but a few things are amusing (today’s fashion, technological advances).

7. For a long time, Jae-Sung felt anger towards So-Young and the choices she made and forced him into making. He chose to live as a monster because of her, to see her again, but anger had consumed him so much that it wasn’t until much later that he realized that if he had ever found So-Young, he wasn’t sure what he would’ve done to her if he had. There is relief and sadness in him now that he hasn’t found So-Young.

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B-Fest! 2017

What is B-Fest? It’s a nationwide event hosted by Barnes and Noble that celebrates Young Adult (YA) Literature of course! And that’s our specialty here at cozzaInk! Teen and Children’s Literature are some of the greatest adventures of all time!

This was my first time visiting my home store in Carle Place, NY since my ascension to the home office and what a visit! It was humbling to find out that I am still on the “Staff Recommends” shelf and it appeared that my recommendation was sold out! My recommendation is The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern by the way. If you love Harry Potter, The Hunger Games AND the hit abc series Once Upon A Time, then you’ll get addicted to this enchanting masterpiece.

The event started with plenty of trivia. Can you answer any of these?

The competition got heated, but @bncarleplace staff kept things under control. They made sure there were prizes for everyone, including posters for the new upcoming film A Wrinkle In Time. Another adventure I highly recommend. If you haven’t read it yet, make sure you do before March 9th, 2018. Then go enjoy the movie!

The game-playing was concluded with my personal favorite . . . a scavenger hunt! It was a very clever way of pointing us in the direction of new books, ones that we might never have looked at otherwise. I’d love to play a Barnes and Noble scavenger hunt again. You can’t go wrong with this for spicing up your book club meeting or keeping the kids entertained on a weekend.

There are so many ways to get creative with this! Game players can go on an adventure with characters from different novels or historical figures from biographical books. Unfortunately, we didn’t have as much time to go on such endeavors, but it was fun while it lasted! But the main purpose of the evening was to listen to two wonderful authors speak about their work and their writing process. We first met fantasy writer April Leonie Lindevald, a local Long Islander, with a unique view on the standard fantasy fiction heroes journey. Her book The Last Wizard of Eneri Clare, is a challenge to its characters as they must defeat the villain(s) without violence.

The concept reminded me of a writing prompt I found on tumblr. It was from a user who just got his power back on after the hurricane known as Irma and described the changes he was forced to make to his daily routine because of the loss of electricity. He suggested writing a scene in which a character loses something that they use on a daily basis; electric power, magic power, a body part, a cell phone, anything; and how they would adjust to life without it.

April’s description of how she came up with her story was truly relatable to me. She went to a meditation class and followed the directions of the instructor, choosing a mode of transportation, a stop to get off at and a door to find. It was behind that door that she met two of her characters. I found myself sort of giggling and exchanging knowing glances with fellow writer S.C. Parris from across the room, because it’s so true how stories come to us so naturally. Especially right down to characters taking on a life of their own and even surprising us, the creators!

I can’t tell you how many times my characters have “held court” with me, to air out their grievances. I have had two characters meet me in a dream (at separate times) when I decided I would make their story a stand-alone. Neither of them actually said anything, but they just looked really sad. So I woke up the next morning and resolved to expand their novel into a trilogy. This trilogy is still in the works, but those boys never bothered me again.

Our very own friend S.C. Parriswrapped up the panel with a discussion of her book series The Dark World. A dark and bloody vampire drama that addresses our own human insecurities like anxiety and depression. S.C. Parris also talked about her ten year journey to publication. She began The Dark World series when she was sixteen and proceeded to self-publish, where she was then picked up by a publisher.

Although she loves her Dark World characters, S.C. Parris expresses that she cannot wait to finish her final novel in the series and move on to the next project. Another credit of hers includes a horror short story, A Night of Frivolity.

To wrap up the evening, each participant was given a sheet of paper to write their own creations onto the page. Here is what I came up with: Lanval lived in darkness for as long as he could remember. It all started with darkness. Darkness, warmth and a voice. It was a gentle and soothing voice. The voice told him who he was and the things he could be. He listened to the voice as it recited scenes for his future. He never saw who the voice belonged to either. It was just there. Until one day, it wouldn’t be anymore. This he was not prepared for. One day, the voice declared that although he was incomplete for now, he would live. The next thing he remembered was a strong  sensation of air inside him. It was below his thoughts, somewhere he didn’t recognize, didn’t know existed. This gift, this gust of air he felt was strange, but not painful. And then, just above the air, he felt a rhythmic vibration. This too was strange, but not painful. Then, he was able to see. What he saw was more than the darkness he was used to, but still darkness.

— That’s about as far as I got before we set our pens down to discuss with the authors what we wrote. I’d like to broaden this and make it more mysterious. To clarify, it is an underdeveloped or incomplete character. A character who is too good to throw away, but the storyteller doesn’t have a story for him yet. This character is now locked away in the storyteller’s imagination, waiting for the day his story will happen and he’ll be free. If only the storyteller remembers to write him a story.

If you like this idea please comment with any suggestions or requests. I might turn this into a blog series that leads up to a book. We’ll see. In the meantime, keep reading everyone!

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Don’t tell mum.

Trigger warning: This post might contain traces of nuts, spelling mistakes and my terrible, terrible sense of humour. In case of emergence do not, I repeat, do not return any of the latter to me.

Well, well, well,

I guess it is finally time to really start my blog about my wonderful life in Sweden. You're probably wondering why I am starting a blog for the last six months that I am spending in Sweden. If you have any clues, make sure to inform me too! I guess it could be this weird custom of new year's resolutions. Of course I will write this blog in English. As a consequence two things might happen. First you might come into contact with an exquisite amount of direct translations from German into English. The reasons are quite simple: I am not a native English speaker (Surprise!), so I will unconsciously write Germlish. Or I will consciously translate words, phrases or proverbs from German into English because I like the aforementioned better in German Secondly, it might happen that you live in Lund, have not only to endure me, but also start to read about you in this blog. As my last blog was rather blunt (because it was in German), you (yes, I am talking to you again!) might feel offended. I don't want that. Please do tell me if that happens, so I can delete the specific part and we can still be friends or frenemies. <3 <3 <3 Alternatively always feel free to start your own blog where you write how I am a vampire but I don't sparkle, how bad my German accent is or how I am not a real Swedish guy.

For all people looking forward to gossip, let me tell you this: Based on your previous experiences with me, it might be hard to believe, but I have this thing called common sense that I will apply. So I'll draw some lines you won't know about.

The new year started out well.

Together with some friends from my corridor we were watching the fireworks at Lundagard. Lundagard is the central park in Lund. Lund's cathedral is situated directly south of the park while the main building of the university and some other university buildings are located at the other end of the park. The main difference between Germany and Sweden on New Year's Eve is that private fireworks are not a thing here. So while in Germany the streets might be covered in fireworks' dust like a football stadium after supporters lit some Bengal lights, we enjoyed the public firework at Lundagard and went back to our corridor afterwards. There we played some rather uneventful rounds of "Never have I ever" because some persons had to get more drunk before they could hit the dancefloor at another corridor where we were invited to. The party was really nice although the amount of Swedish songs played exceeded my limit of at some point. Don't get me wrong, the mood will almost always boil over when a Swedish party songs comes up. But even after one and a half years in Sweden I still lack the ability to understand Swedish people drunkenly chanting Swedish songs and if I can't join the drunk chanting, I don't like to dance.

I woke up on the 1st of January and was greeted by some free pizza in the kitchen. Apparently the 1st of January is the busiest day for pizza delivery services and someone's delivery got messed up. I didn't ask for the details, but took the pizza, some coke I had from the night before and enjoyed watching a bit Harry Potter in the common kitchen / living room with my corridor friends. Part of the reason why I celebrated New Year's Eve in Lund this year was that I wanted to start organizing and planning different things before my master thesis term officially started. So after resting on the 1st of January, I decided to go to university on Monday, January the 2nd. (Future Felix is proud, 1st term Felix is ashamed; you, my lovely reader are either in disbelief, secretly admiring me or more probably hating yourself for procrastinating on studying and reading this blog post.) After having spent a productive four hours from 10am to 2pm - read the whole opening hours in the first week - at my faculties library I went home to enjoy the afternoon. I don't know which whim of nature it was but a terrible, excruciating headache kicked in my prefrontal cortex (forehead region) while I was making food. After trying to cope with it four around four hours, I've decided to go to sleep early at 7pm and I slept 14 hours straight through, woke up for one hour and slept another 4 hours, only to wake up with the headache still being present. Fun! I stayed in bed the next three days but I will spare you the details, because telling you about my misery wouldn't be any fun, would it?

Let's skip to the fun part instead.

Thursday, the day whose event gave this blog post its headline. So you have to promise me not to tell your mum (yes, your mum, come on, speed up, you're losing me) about this. It's like a super-secret thing, except I am publishing it on the Internet. But we all know that your mother has a hard time following all these internet related stuff. If she has heard of Tumblr it's probably because of some newspaper articles about Tentacle Porn of Bronies. No srsly, this is a thing and no, look it up yourself - looking especially at you Haggis3. So basically it is a secret until you tell your mum and trust me nobody wants that. Anyways, I got the Victor-Valdes-memory-haircut. In case you don't know who Victor-Valdes-memory-haircut is, you'll find a photo of him here: 

By Mutari 16:09, 5 March 2008 (UTC) - Own work, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=3664338

Erik, my Finnish corridor mate, was so kind to shave my hair. Of course not without making the obligatory Nazi jokes (You have my permission to think the same now.). Although I will let it grow out again, I am pleased to see that I could rock a bald head in combination with a gigantic beer belly at the age of 27, which is in two years. So I got that going for me, which is nice. Anyways the weekend was quite uneventful, basically because I had to catch up with some work with university. What else to tell, ah yes, I think I could tell about another New Year's resolution. I always forget what it is called. It involves physical activity and starts with a 't'.

Hm…

Ah, yes!

Now I remember again…!

I've started exercising and am currently on a three day streak, counting in the football match yesterday. So you better watch out Tim Wiese! I'm onto you! Bam.

 So, I guess this is it for this week. I guess nobody's expecting me to follow up next week due to broken promises in the past. I urge you to do that, so I can disappoint you again by writing blog post #2.

Yours sincerely, en riktig svensk kille!

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Congratulations, Morgan! You’ve been accepted for the role of Carmen Marques. Please make sure to check our checklist, and you have twenty-four hours to send us your character’s blog. We’re really happy to have you in our family!

We could feel the excitement in Carmen on her journey to the States, but also were able to see the little ticks and annoyances from her for being patronized through the dialogue. Your sample also showed that she isn’t just one to stay quiet and had no problem speaking out, which is exactly the kind of person we see Carmen as!  We can’t wait to see how much more assertive and different she is now compared to when she was human and how being a vampire has bolstered this her voice and thoughts!

Introduction

Morgan, 25, EST, She/Her

Activity level:

I’d say I’m probably about a 7 or 8. I have a typical 9am to 5pm desk job, monday to friday. The good thing about that is that it gives me time to sneak on here and there when work gets slow. Usually I get online around 7ish and I’m pretty much online until I go to sleep, even if it’s just lurking after I finish replies and things. On Thurdays I go out and come back late, so I might be on late and not as much as usual. Weekends are usually a total toss up. I usually use them for cleaning up my apartment and all that fun kind of stuff, since my friends work weekends.

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How did you find the roleplay?

I used to be part of Seasons of Revenge and I follow Ev’s 1x1

Roleplay experience:

Oh gosh, where to start? Haha. I’ve been rping online since I was like 16 and I’ve been on tumblr since I was like 20ish? So a long time haha. I still have my old account for one of my characters here. [x]

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IC INFORMATION

Desired character:

Carmen Marques

Faceclaim:

Nope I’m all good! No changes here.

Why did you choose this character?

Last go around I picked a character who was a little more reserved. This time I wanted someone a bit wilder. Someone who could shake things up a bit. That was definitely Carmen. I felt almost like an instant connection with her character. She’s spoiled but doesn’t see it that way. If she wants something she’s going to do her damnedest to get it, come hell or high water. Now that she’s a vampire she has the power and the strength to do that. Though I like the other side of her as well. The soft and scared side that lost her dream. The one that wrestled with the fact that she now had to kill to survive and live. The one that would never get to see her parents again because she’d be too afraid she’d kill them on the spot. The fact that she’s never had to deal with not getting what she wants and deciding to shut off her humanity because of it. It killed her to do it because now that she has it off, all of her dancing, while alluring and can bring people in to her, now lacks the passion and tenacity that got her accepted in to Juilliard in the first place. Though she doesn’t see it that way she knows that deep down. She’s more than she seems on the surface and there’s so much in her that can be developed further.

Para sample:

Carmen could hear her heart beating loudly in her chest as she gave the agent at the counter her ticket. The plane was crowded but in this situation she found that it didn’t bother her in the slightest. Her mind was racing too fast, her thoughts were only of the future that had been laid before her. A future she thought would only live firmly in her dreams. But here she was now, settling into a seat, crowded by people on her left but fortunate to have a window seat. Just a few hours separated her from her dream school. A small squeal of excitement left her as the fasten seat belt sign flashed and the plane began to rumble to life. The woman next to her rolled her eyes and made a noise of annoyance but absolutely nothing could stop the energy thrumming through Carmen. Nothing at all could take this moment of joy from her.

Just like that, the plane ride was over. It seemed equal parts much to long and way to short. Looking out her window she could see the night sky full of stars. From here they almost seemed just like the ones back home. Her heart was still hammering loudly against her chest but she was here! She was taking her first steps into her future, into what would become her new life. If only she knew just what was waiting in store for her. But how could she? To blinded by her optimism and to spoiled by her good fortune. She had to know the other shoe was going to drop eventually, didn’t she? No, nothing like that had ever happened to her in her life. So she missed the signs that were clearly all around as she made her way toward the baggage claim.

There she could see her host family. Though it seemed like it wasn’t all of them. Just a man and a woman and a small sign with her name on it. She looked them up and down and they seemed so perfect. They were beautiful and elegant and at once Carmen could see her fitting in with them. These were the people she was meant to be with. The life she was meant to be living. To her their smiles seemed warm and genuine, after all she had never known any other kind. No one ever refused her the things she wanted, no one ever tried to take advantage of her. Maybe if they had she would recognize those smiles for what they were. Not the warm and welcoming ones she saw but vicious, predatory grins, not unlike the cat who had just caught the canary and that canary was her. Strong hands wrapped around her shoulder pulling her close. The other picked out her bags with ease, almost as if they weighed nothing.

It wasn’t until it was much too late that she realized something was wrong, very wrong. The limo they had taken back to the mansion had her in awe and almost completely speechless. Keyword being almost. As they approached the mansion she felt her jaw drop and a giddy flutter inside her. “This is absolutely amazing. It is exactly what I thought it would be like coming here. When do I go to school? We’re a bit far from it aren’t we?”

“Patience child. You’ll see soon. Everything will become much clearer once we get inside.”

Carmen felt a pout cross her face. She was not a child. She was a young woman. She had a future and had been accepted to an amazing college and she wanted to be recognized for it. “My name is Carmen, not child, thank you. I am grateful to have you accept me into your home but I am not helpless.”

A laugh left the woman who had been seated next to her. “Of course not dear. You’re not helpless at all. In fact you are going to be quite useful to us. More than you even realize.”

Carmen’s eyes narrowed slightly. She wasn’t completely pacified by the answer but it was enough to tide her over. After all she was still riding on the high of actually being in America and being able to do to what her heart longed to do. So she brushed it aside. Maybe she should have listened to her gut instead of her heart.

As they entered the foyer, it was just as grand as she thought it would be. She did a twirl as a laugh left her lips. When she stopped, she took a good look around and was surprised at what she saw. There were more people in the hall, more than she would have thought. That was when a large, cold hand clamped down on her shoulder, holding her in place. A deeper, growling voice came from behind her, sending a chill down her spine. “Now, now dear. We don’t need any of that. Actually, I’m a bit hungry after such a long trip. If you would be so kind.”

Before she even knew what was happening, a cold hand was brushing her hair from her shoulder, even colder breath ghosted on her neck. She tried to turn but his grasp was so strong she almost felt like he was going to leave bruises on her shoulder. It was then that she realized something was wrong but that thought was wiped from her mind as she felt the razor sharp fangs pierce her skin as a scream left her and slowly tapered off as her vision began to fade to black.

EXTRA

Personality traits:

+ Determined, Passionate, Outgoing

- Narsissistic, Blunt, Over-Confident

Headcanons:

Okay, headcanons are my weak point because until I really start writing them out, I don’t usually have them. They’re usually thoughts that come as I play the character more. So I apologize if they seem a bit generic!

Carmen likes being called by her full name. She’s not really a fan of nicknames. They lack the feeling that she thinks her actual name gives. Plus it’s usually people trying to call her Car and is it really that hard to add another syllable?

When she was really young she loved all of the baby pink ballerina things but as soon as she hit her teenage years, she wanted all black everything. She thinks it makes things much more sophisticated and adult.

She either goes out in full cat-eye or smokey eye glory or not at all. To see her with out her makeup on is truly something rare.

Here is a mock / inspo blog I set up for Carmen. [x] I’ll probably be adding to it up until Friday, just so you know. :3