#and had zero clue how bad that shit was about to be fr fr

[tododeku-or-bust]

@transwolvie I read A Child Called It too as a kid! He actually has three books, I read all of them. Yeah it was interesting bc it both helped and harmed me. Helped bc I realized "hey, some people's parents really just aren't shit and are terrible and if he can survive THIS I gotta survive my life". Harmed bc I was like "Least my parents love me and I didn't get stabbed in the stomach/all the horrific shit he went through." Had to wait til my 20s to go to therapy and have PTSD and "just bc it wasn't that doesn't mean it wasn't bad" explained to me. But yeah it was a formative experience.

[sinkix]

- What your fav Haikyuu!! Character says about you│Karasuno edition -

Obviously these aren’t meant to be taken too seriously lol. I’ll probably make this into a series at some point where I include the other teams idk this took me way too long to do JWIDJQENWKJQFN WE’LL SEE. ENJOY! <3

2D men are infinitely superior I said what I said.

Hinata: 

A sucker for motivational speeches or quotes and they always get you hyped up.

Very ambitious and positive despite frequently getting lost in life

Not as innocent as you seem but still a cinnamon roll lololol

You probably eat fruit as a regular snack n ppl judge you for it

Highkey a dumbass but in a very endearing way so people can’t help but like you

Summer is probs ur fave season

Definitely own several plushies and definitely get defensive about it

The friend people go to when they need cheering up.

You either go to bed at 8pm or 3am no in between.

Your texting style consists of several messages as opposed to one paragraph/sentence with the use of MANY emojis.

You 100% fuck with pineapple on pizza. 

Got your head stuck in a cat flap that one time.

Have a hella low alcohol tolerance or don’t drink at all.

Hella clueless when it comes to people flirting with you, they have to hold a neon sign in front of you for you to get the message

“Oh you were flirting with me?” “I was every day for 5 months but thanks for finally noticing”

Definition of a tab hoarder, your pc/laptop frequently crashes because it can’t handle that many but you refuse to get rid of any.

Always get toothpaste stains on your shirt no matter how careful you are.

“Wait we had homework???”

Nishinoya:

You often get random bursts of energy outta nowhere or at 2am and have no clue how to handle it 

You can’t help but head bang and scream the lyrics to your fav songs.

Probably have a hella diverse music taste.

Likely an active/outdoorsy person who either does sports or wants to.

Vvv loyal, type of friend you can call in the middle of the night and you’ll be there.

Chaotic good or Chaotic neutral.

You’re either one of the most responsible people in the room or one of the most fuckin chaotic and irresponsible lmao no in between it just depends on your mood.

Frequently pull all nighter’s and doesn’t even feel guilty about it

Chug soda like it’s water.

An extrovert or one of those introverts that are bat-shit once you actually get to know them.

You have zero shame, can and will run across the street stark naked for a cheeseburger and a can of sprite.

Like fuck yeah who wouldn’t for a burger and some sprite y’know??

Despite being a whirlwind you are actually a hella chill person to have as company.

You own a skateboard or want to.

Own at least one pair of converses or vans.

Probably have a bucket list or tons of future plans for travelling/adventures stored in your head.

You really want a dog and would call it something like Dexter or Human Destroyer 9000.

Likely have had several hair colour phases.

A slut for doritos.

You ate glue once as a kid and it was kinda okay and that fact still haunts you.

Tanaka:

Listen to rap more than any other genre and ur playlist is fire

Punched dry wall that one time

Probably have several piercings and plan on getting more

Prefer sports bras to regular ones.

Intimidates outsiders but your friends don’t take you seriously in the slightest lmaoaoaooa

Ppl find it hard to approach you but you’re actually super chill so you get sad 

Definition of that Kanye meme “before you talk to me” >:( “after you talk to me” :)

Probably don’t trust people easily

Type of person that once you’re challenged/dared to do something they WILL do it regardless of how stupid bc you hate being called a pussy.

Went through a phase where you only listened to Eminem.

Probably is/was the class clown or wished they were.

You have virtually no patience and a pretty short temper lmao.

You’re a go-getter and hate being told you can’t do something

Definitely snuck out the house several times as a teen.

Walks barefoot outside a lot bc fuck shoes lol

The pairs of shoes you do own are mostly worn down sneakers you refuse to swap out.

You’re that asshole that wears socks with holes in for the sport of it and it doesn’t phase you in the slightest. (dw I do too lmaooao)

Could probably bench press someone’s dad

Enjoy’s drinking coffee.

Kageyama:

Such a picky eater bitch god damn.

Usually hella hydrated and judge people that don’t drink enough water.

Eats spoonfuls of chocolate nesquik powder when no one is looking I said what I said

You like stoic and Tsundere guys who have the outer emotional capacity of a brick wall.

You’re probably the same in that sense and don’t enjoy letting people know what you’re thinking/feeling

Poker face 90% of the time

Type of person to pretend not to find a joke funny but then crumble and start crying with laughter.

Probs an introvert

Once when someone asked you what you wanted for Christmas you responded “to be left the fuck alone” and it still applies to this day.

like fr you just wanna be left alone man but ppl keep bothering you.

You HATE it when people tell you to smile and quite literally take it as an insult.

Your bedtime is 9pm and you stick by it religiously 

Always smell really good like damn what you got on??

The most you do with your hair if it’s long enough is throw it in a pony tail and call it a day.

Either have really nicely manicured nails or you’v chewed them down to the nub no in between.

You hate to admit it but you doubt yourself a lot and it really frustrates you.

Probably wet the bed a lot as a kid and you’re still salty about it.

lololol bed-wetter Kags lover

Audibly snorted typing that I’m sorry.

Probably had a ._. face reading that since ur usually hella unamused.

Cute awkward dork though behind that facade it’s just most people don’t see it.

So critical of yourself like chill

An earth sign or an Aquarius idc.

Do not know how to reciprocate a hug but desperately need one

When people flirt with you you somehow manage to make them intimidated with your responses and scare them off.

You called your teacher “mum/dad” once and you get Vietnam flashbacks to this day.

Daichi:

You probably have a daddy kink and lowkey daddy issues with it

Very supportive friend who has a lotta patience

Hella determined and humble.

Mostly wear black because it’s just much easier than colour coordinating and plus you just prefer the simplicity, but you’re pretty vibrant as a person.

The one who stays sober at parties to drive the others home.

Probably haven’t been in many relationships but still do enjoy romance.

seems stern but is actually very friendly and enjoy company bc you don’t like spending too much time by yourself.

Honestly just wants to chill out, go to bed and read a book.

A coffee connessieur but mostly just drinks instant bc ur too lazy to make it properly and just drink it black.

Very reliable.

Often get stuck with most of the work during group projects lololol

People frequently ask you for the answers to the homework/assignment and it really depends on your mood and how charitable you’re feeling as to whether you’ll lend it to them

Low-key a sadist.

100% Old soul

Despite this you are a fuckin dork and have quite an immature but really funny sense of humour.

You have a thigh kink. 

Def grew up reading wattpad smut and most of ur sexual knowledge stems from that

probably prefer manga to animated versions

Absolute pro at winged eyeliner and looks v good in it.

Probably give lectures even without realising it.

Shamelessly watches the nature channel for hours on end and what of it.

Honestly just done with everyone’s shit lmao

Sugawara:

Either are the mom friend or the one the mom friend has to look after.

You vibe with pastel colours

Your fav season is either spring or autumn.

oversized hoodies and knitted sweaters are your vibe.

Enjoy drinking herbal tea

Likes the smell of rain and will purposely step outside after a storm and S N O R T the smell of damp concrete. (srry if ur from some dry ass place like nevada lmao it rains alot in the UK soooOOOoO)

Quiet but have a really creative imagination and has one HELL of a loud voice when they’re pissed off

like,, I wouldn’t dare get on ur nerves ion want my ear drums bursting damn.

Hoards flavoured chapsticks and scented lip gloss

Either did or still have your Harry Potter house in your bio and it was probably Hufflepuff.

Gives people advice that they are fully aware also applies to themselves but doesn’t follow it LMAO.

Listens to K-pop and several Korean and Japanese genres.

Played a dating sim once and you enjoyed it but ur still ashamed and refuse to ever talk about it.

Smells like lavender or something hella floral

Probably reads a lot of Yaoi and no one else knows but you.

Would 100% own a chinchilla

Read Killing Stalking and it messed you up for weeks.

Asahi:

The one who was trying to flirt for months and the other person never got the hint

Probably a really pretty crier and vibe with the mascara running aesthetic.

You tear up easily lol.

Probably a water sign.

Low-key a bad bitch though 

Looks really good in red lipstick

That one person who’s v attractive but completely unaware and v insecure.

That one friend who seems so soft and innocent but can turn into a banshee when need be.

Crying is your therapy.

You overthink a LOT and it often stops you from achieving what you want.

Actually have a lot of willpower despite ur sensitivity.

Was def a pushover as a kid and still have a chip on your shoulder about it.

Hella artsy and day dreams a lot.

You attract broken souls and often get turned to when people’s problems need fixing yet you’re a total mess yourself

Listens to Girl in red while questioning your sexuality

which you do a lot.

You hate being put in a box or labelled.

Gave up on that hobby that one time and you really wanna get back into it.

Always have at least one hair tie on your wrist that’s basically an accessory at this point.

Own a phat ass fish tank with hella pretty fishes bro it’s such a vibe say hi to Nemo for me.

Yamaguchi:

Too scared to ask for extra ketchup packets so you get your friend to ask instead.

Probably have anxiety.

The time you stuttered once when introducing yourself frequently gives you cringe attacks.

Major animal lover and prefers them to people.

Talked to a tree once and it was a pretty cool experience.

Wear a lot of pink or cute colours and radiate babi energy.

Likely wear skirts 

Wear those aesthetic planets necklaces and your tumblr is filled with space related art and themes.

Enjoy staring up at the clouds and figuring out what animal they are.

Has a lot of secrets that they probably tell to their cat.

dw ur cat isn’t a snitch they got you covered.

“meow”

yeah they definitely didn’t just try to reveal ur deepest traumas to your cousin.

If you don’t have a cat you probably would want one and would call it Mittens or sumn.

You’re whipped for freckles and anyone that has them instantly becomes 1000x more attractive to you

Either like 5′2″ or 5′10″ no middle ground

Definitely own a turtle or rabbit and if you don’t then you should.

Forgets your assignments but the professor lets you off because you’re so nervous they can’t scold you.

Oversleeps at least 2 times a week

Will not get up before 1pm on a weekend

Wall flower at parties but people still approach you bc you are so friendly and kind.

Social anxiety intensifies.

Always get’s called on in class when you haven’t been paying attention and it really troubles you.

Has a minimum of 3 blankets on your bed that you cocoon yourself in.

Tsukishima:

Your attracted to snarky assholes.

Sarcasm and insults are your form of flirtation and you get immediately turned off if they can’t take it or get upset.

Probably shy away from your feelings

Random flashbacks to embarrassing events frequently keep you up at night

Judge peoples fashion choices as they walk past you but actually have a really good eye for what works and what doesn’t.

You look like you have your shit together and you kinda do for the most part.

The quiet kid in class that’s listening to some loud ass screamo or rock n roll’ but ppl have no idea.

Definition of the glinting anime glasses pushed up your nose bridge cliche.

When you make a mistake you question all your knowledge and abilities but no one else knows that about you

Refuses to cry since you view your emotions as a personal weakness

If someone hugged you you’d get VERY uncomfortable.

Physical contact is not your forte

Probably a 5′0″ demon.

Would peg a man to assert dominance but you’re actually a lil bitch.

Knows the answer to the question they can’t solve.

Doesn’t study as much as they should but somehow still gets good grades.

Really likes french fries and the taste of strawberries.

Just wants to be left alone

Ennoshita:

The one friend that gets talked over and it really pisses you off but you’re too nice to say anything.

Seems really passive but can actually be hella confrontational when they wanna be

No tolerance for peoples bullshit 

Really stable and just an overall reliable person.

People often forget you’re in the room lmao but it’s okay you’d rather listen anyway.

Actually has a really interesting mind and a lot to say but mostly keep it to yourself unless they’re your friend

Answered for someone else in attendance a few years ago and it still bothers you.

People often come to you to vent and you’re chill with it

Don’t stand out much but honestly it doesn’t bother you

Can and will get through an entire book/series in a matter of 3 days.

Quite a minimalist and organised for the most part

You look like you have your shit together and you def do.

Have a controversial taste in pizza.

You have more acquaintances than friends but the ones you do are a v tight knit circle.

Will re take a quiz several times till you get the character you wanted

Radiate Virgo and Libra energy.

Kiyoko:

Type of person to say “step on me” as a way of complimenting and you mean it literally.

Both a sadist and masochist

When someone tells you their not interested it just makes you want them 100x more and it frustrates you why are you like this.

Doesn’t compliment often but when you do it’s really heartfelt.

Looks like your silently judging people but in reality you really couldn’t care.

Just kidding you low-key judge them anyway.

Very picky when it comes to partners.

Independent but has random hella clingy moments.

Despite being quiet, you are capable of roasting a bitch alive if they test your patience.

Like I would NOT wanna get on your bad side

You could deadass send them to therapy, their emotions fenna need some aloe vera for that burn.

Just really calm and relaxed tbh so people enjoy being in your company even though you don’t talk much.

When you do though it’s usually something really interesting or funny.

You just don’t see the point in talking if what your saying doesn’t hold any value??

You hate small talk and would rather slingshot yourself off a skyscraper than partake in it.

Your face is easy to read and you make no effort to hide it.

If your in a bad mood they WILL know.

Look like your plotting someones demise or questioning life’s theories but in reality you’re really just thinking bout what you want for dinner.

Honestly just a sweetheart tbh.

Low-key have a staring problem.

Has really neat and cursive handwriting like who tf taught you that.

Yachi:

Frequently says something then panics that it could be misinterpreted 

You overthink literally everything you have ever said and the actions you haven’t even committed yet

Really likes the taste of sherbet 

Could cut a bitch if they needed to

You spend most of your money at Urban Outfitters and don’t regret it.

have an assortment of colouring pencils that ppl always try and borrow and never give them back.

You highlight the shit outta your papers and never read them again.

Really like the smell of peaches

Probably have a v interesting earring collection.

Hoard water bottles in your room and you feel majorly guilty about it.

The taste of honey disgusts you but you eat it anyway for some reason.

Somehow managed to burn rice and solidify soup.

You shouldn’t be trusted in the kitchen but you try your best regardless.

I feel like that applies to most things in your life

Like yeah you fucked it up but like you’re trying your best lol cmon

V tolerant of people but have zero time for fuckboys and shut them down instantly.

You frequently get the shakes from caffeine or anxiety

Or both.

You give really encouraging hugs.

Have no clue what you wanna do in life but it’s ok bby it’ll work out.

Takeda:

You’re a very underappreciated and underrated person and I love u

Probably an English/languages major

Really kind and outgoing but high-key mysterious

Actually has a phat fucking temper like damn where did that come from.

Won’t take no for an answer when you want to achieve something.

That one person people don’t realise is there listening to your conversations but you definitely are and now know Becky’s deepest darkest secret.

Fuck you, becky.

Wore contacts once and forgot to take them out for 3 days.

You wondered why your eyes were so itchy.

Your music taste does not match your appearance.

Probably watch a lot of crime shows and imagine you’re an investigator

Aced physics and chemistry.

More than likely an introvert with extrovert tendencies when you feel like it.

Actually quite temperamental but it’s okay since you’re a v genuine person.

Often debate getting a sugar daddy bc that income looking real tempting rn.

Honest to a fault at times but it’s something people come to appreciate about you.

Just really wanna sleep for 15 hours and sit in front of your laptop with some hot coco.

Ukai:

You like older men

The smell of tobacco and coffee low-key comforts you for some reason.

Peed in a bottle that one time while on a road trip and forgot to throw it out until you found it a week later.

You’re a slut for dyed hair and dudes with piercings.

You once got drunk and passed out on a spinning round-a-bout in a park and your friend still has pictures that you refuse to acknowledge.

Bi-curious and just radiate big Bi energy

Would experiment but you’re too hesitant.

Hates the taste of beer but drinks it anyway.

Just wants to be loved man I stg is that too much to ask.

Often wonder if your friends actually like you then realise you don’t really care anyway lmao.

You still love them though.

Tired of working over time and just wanna catch a break.

Amazon Prime is your best friend.

Random ass parcels comin thru’ each day and it feels like Christmas.

A very lonely and one-man party Christmas.

Stop spending your fucking paycheck.

Have a pretty dark/cynical but really funny sense of humour and you often make people laugh.

Have a big ass temper and people KNOW it.

Often fantasised about dropping out and becoming a stripper bc your patience was being TESTED.

Really likes money but who doesn’t tbh.

You radiate Chaotic Evil but keep it under wraps.

[thisweekingundamwing]

August 27-September 2, 2017

This week’s installment of wonderful Gundam Wing works is here!

Please sit back and enjoy them! Lots of things to read and art work to drool over.

~Mod Hel

Fanfiction:

@ahsimwithsake​

Chains (Ch. 7-9) http://archiveofourown.org/works/10884354/chapters/26941902

In which Trowa tries to get back to normal.

@anaranesindanarie​

Death Unspeaking (Ch. 5) http://archiveofourown.org/works/11483196/chapters/27041313

What happens when a Gundam Pilot is mute? What happens when the other Pilots look down at him because of it? Will he overcome the odds or will the odds overcome him?

I Swear (Ch. 2) http://archiveofourown.org/works/11967684/chapters/27064149

Chang Wufei/Duo Maxwell

Trowa Barton, Duo Maxwell, Chang Wufei

Song fic, Breakups, pinning

End of Summer Block Party Tropefest!

Strangers http://archiveofourown.org/works/11974647

Character Death, Song fic, Death Fic, hope you like it, The feels, Suicide?, accident?,i have no clue

This is for Shini who asked that someone write a fic to this song. I hope you like it!!!

The song is Strangers by Scratch21.

Bernie Calling

Triangle (Ch. 9) https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12512891/9/Triangle

Suite "les chasseurs sont l��chés" et " Dilemme" Pourquoi cela s'appelle un triangle amoureux? Duo ne comprend pas, il aime Heero, Heero l'aime ainsi que Hilde, seulement ni elle, ni lui ne sont amoureux. Ce n'est pas un triangle à la rigueur ça peut être un angle amoureux

Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell, Hilde Schbeiker

@chronicwhimsy​

Symptoms of Exposure http://archiveofourown.org/works/11966928

Chang Wufei/Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy

trope: sex pollen, dubious consenticles, but not really, A little?, they all check things are happy, consent is important kids, also Very Bad Science, and poor quarantine procedure, for reasons of shameless filth.

After exposure to an unknown substance in the course of an operation, Heero, Duo and Wufei spend the night in quarantine. A long, increasingly acrobatic night…

End of Summer Block Party Tropefest!

@claraxbarton​

Ready for You (Ch. 5) http://archiveofourown.org/works/11763066/chapters/26972172

A chance meeting ten years after the war leads Duo and Trowa down an unexpected path.

2X3

Academic AU http://claraxbarton.tumblr.com/post/164774181565/trowa-looked-at-the-single-table-at-the-small-and

2X3, First Morning... >_>

Academic AU http://claraxbarton.tumblr.com/post/164790571080/the-faculty-meeting-wasinteresting-trowa

Faculty Meeting was interesting

Diana_Lua

Right Now http://archiveofourown.org/works/11946267

"And we wanna fight; each of us has something to do, something to achieve.

So, we just wanna be right here, right now.

We got fire, so, let it burn…"

Warning: Some context of Episode Zero, chapter 4.

Trowa Barton

Burning (Ch. 3) https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12326620/3/Burning

Same as above...(but this is connected to the first two chapters).

Ónoma Ὄνομα http://archiveofourown.org/works/11970393/chapters/27071328

Sometimes it's necessary to choose a new name to live freely. [AU; Something about Duo's past with Solo; 'Where my demons hide' side story (can be read independent of it); Angst; Shounen-ai; probably yaoi/lemon at ending (Angel incest)]

Duo Maxwell/Solo

Duo Maxwell, Solo (Gundam Wing), Zechs Merquise, Naina Peacecraft

Angst, Yaoi, Angel Sex, Shounen-ai, Alternate Universe

Duointherain

Santa Clarita: You’re not my Mother! http://archiveofourown.org/works/11939703

In the virtual world, Duo discovers his power and a moment before he tears Heero's mind apart, Martha shows up to send him to his room.

Santa Clarita: Going Home (Ch. 3) http://archiveofourown.org/works/11858241/chapters/26916459

Heero thinks he's going to find a young Duo, that he'll be responsible for him, that he's going to do everything he can to take care of him. Things never go to plan.

ExecutiveShrimp

The Princess With The Purple Heart (Ch. 19) https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12584463/19/The-Princess-With-The-Purple-Heart

AU, 2x1: Don’t ask, don’t tell.

Greentbag

Trust (Ch. 15) https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12226861/15/Trust

It’s been years since the Gundams existed, yet he still manages to find himself in the clasp of those metallic prongs. The scientist has always been lethal, he knew that better than anyone. But how much did they know about the good doctor? More importantly how did they manage to involve Relena? He could never bring himself to kill her, the old man might not be so lucky.

Duo Maxwell, Heero Yuy, Relena Darlian/Peacecraft, Doctor J

Friction (Ch. 4) https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12627540/4/Friction

AU(ish). Relena, a preventer agent is sent on mandatory leave after the death of a colleague. With no choice, she heads to her favorite vacation spot for some much needed r&r. No one told her she would be neighbours with the very handsome, very intriguing Trowa Barton.

@isolavirtuosa

Unlikely Office Romances (9&10) http://isolavirtuosa.tumblr.com/post/164709214984/unlikely-office-romances-9-10

1x2x1, probably PG-13ish though there are some mildly sexy times and the usual trashmouth

Basically Duo is a jerk and Heero is an awkward nerd.

Unlikely Office Romances (25) http://isolavirtuosa.tumblr.com/post/164856606269/unlikely-office-romances-25

1x2x1

It’s the last part!  Thanks for reading <3

((All other ‘parts’ are connected, be sure to read them all!))

@kangofu-cb

Just Getting Warmed Up http://archiveofourown.org/works/11923545

Trowa Barton/Duo Maxwell

Huddling For Warmth, Tropes, Sex, loads of sex, mostly just sex.

Duo and Trowa are hiding following a mission in a frozen wasteland. An unexpected storm causes lower than expected temperatures, leaving them only one option… Huddle for warmth. 

End of Summer Tropefest!

Right in Front of Me http://archiveofourown.org/works/11923836

Chang Wufei/Duo Maxwell, Minor or Background Relationship(s), Quatre Raberba Winner/Heero Yuy, past Duo/Trowa

Duo Maxwell, Chang Wufei, Heero Yuy, Trowa Barton, Quatre Raberba Winner, Zechs Merquise

Tropes, Fake Marriage, a bunch of emotional shit, some commentary on figuring out orientation, Pining, Sex, somewhere in all this emotional bullshit there's sex in here, not angsty though, for once, Fluff, happy endings, Alternate Universe - College/University

End of Summer Tropefest!

@lbro009

Legacy Part 4: WuFei’s POV https://lbro009.tumblr.com/post/164713501400/legacy-part-4-wufei-pov

An old story I am trying to finish up- set post-EW. Mostly about Sally but also heavily featuring Duo and Wufei, among other characters. A smidge of Zechs in this chapter too. Angst angsty angst is how I would describe this chapter.

Lord Raa

Heero Sandwich (Ch. 7) https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12594063/7/Heero-Sandwich

Nobody asked for this, especially not Heero Yuy, but here we are all the same.

Prepare for a "comedy" with some adult content. If the chapters feel truncated, then you might want to look for a certain Fanfiction Forum on the (dot) net for a more complete experience.

luvsanime02

Turbulence http://archiveofourown.org/works/11927283/chapters/26957496

The story about what Agent Frank Parks has been up to between Evasion and now.

This is the seventh story in Navigation, a fem!Heero series.

I noted this in the tags, but I just want to say again that there are a couple of sexist slurs in this interlude, and I don't want anyone to be caught off-guard. Read safely!

Maeyne_Ann

Boot Camp fr (Ch. 24) https://www.fanfiction.net/s/5998164/24/Boot-Camp-fr

1X2, 3X4, AU, Yaoi, Langage grossier oulàà, et pas qu'un peu, Assez OOC, Violence, ref. NCS plus tard

French translation of Snowdragonct’s Boot Camp.

Maldoror_Chant

Darkside Tales http://archiveofourown.org/works/11910963/chapters/26913267

A Preventer has caught a thief. How banal. Having a straight poker like Chang Wufei chain him up and hang him from the ceiling is a tiny bit on the left side of banal, but still within spitting distance, Duo judges. Nothing to see here, folks, keep walking.

But on the darkside of this tale, like a cracked photographic plate, monsters of the mind are revealed.

5/1, 5/2

Moving http://archiveofourown.org/works/11973444

Goddamn, moving was a pain in the ass. You had to strip yourself down to the bare bones, and Duo had spent five years in Sanq padding himself up.

Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy

Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell, Chang Wufei, Relena Peacecraft

The trauma of moving house,Relena Finds Out, And loses her shit, Sparkly shining things, Jerry - Freeform

Mistaken-Miracles

When The Tides Change (Ch. 31) https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12432602/31/When-The-Tides-Change

Preventers learn of a new underground rebellion group, along with the arrival of a new ally. Can Heero put his feelings aside to trust this ally or will new discoveries create tension between the Gundam Pilots? Can they work together to keep the peace? Or are there too many complications to control?

Heero Yuy, Relena Darlian/Peacecraft, Trowa Barton, OC

Morbidbirdy & @the-indomitable-bhg​

Where I Belong (Ch. 21) http://archiveofourown.org/works/10691187/chapters/27012999

In the year AC 205 the status of the Earth-Sphere remains relatively peaceful thanks to the efforts of the ESUN and it’s peacekeeping organization Preventer. The five young men who had once fought together for this peace now work quietly behind the scenes to maintain it. Despite their new roles in this world, Heero and Trowa struggle to establish a comfortable place in it. In the process of finding themselves they eventually realize that their place is with each other.

Something About Us (Ch. 20) http://archiveofourown.org/works/11333262/chapters/27012636

Five Years after Operation Meteor the fragile peace between Earth and the colonies is once again threatened when a beloved prominent political figure is assassinated. The former Gundam pilots come together again for a new mission, which forces unexplored feelings to arise between Heero and Trowa.

Zodiac Black (Ch. 2) http://archiveofourown.org/works/11947887/chapters/27012120

Set several years in the future, Heero and his seasoned crew are on a mission to transport passengers from Earth to a colony planet. Under the guidance of new management, the crew has to cope with the inconvenient changes that disrupt their lives on the ship. Heero, captain of the Zodiac Black, faces off with a longtime rival who threatens his control. Will the crew successfully complete their mission despite the chaos that ensues? Or will something go terribly wrong, forcing them to abandon their journey?

@nekoflashficcing​

Misadventures http://nekoflashficcing.tumblr.com/post/164882685645/gw-misadventures

Magic gone wrong AU/accidental summoning AU

End of Summer Block Party Tropefest!

Speed http://archiveofourown.org/works/11968653

AU - Quatre and Duo meet at a dating event.

End of Summer Block Party Tropefest!

@noelleian​

Beyond the Nexus http://archiveofourown.org/works/11932002

In a bid to increase his income, Trowa accepts the position of Executive Assistant to New York’s most distinguished fashion editor, Quatre Winner. Over time, he begins to fall in love with standoffish blond and hopes to be the one who can crack the icy fortress that Quatre's built around himself. He finds the courage during their first night in London, but Trowa’s reward comes at a steep price after the unwelcome arrival of an old flame.

End of Summer Block Party Tropefest!

@outofworkshinigami​

Special Needs (Ch. 8) http://archiveofourown.org/works/10549412/chapters/26964906?view_adult=true

Sally finally gets out of Duo what happened between him and Wufei. Treize’s fate is decided.

Also known as the chapter in which Relena is a badass and hands Treize his balls in a gift bag. (Rather, BALL. Singular. He lost the other one to Tallgeese ii.)

Heavy warnings for mentions of rape/non-con, as with the entire fic

Control http://archiveofourown.org/works/11965875

Sometimes, you don't truly believe you've been traumatized until someone getting you ice cubes causes you to shatter a drinking glass.

Treize Khushrenada, Zechs Merquise, Lady Une, Vingt Khushrenada, Hundeldt Catalonia, Angelica Khushrenada

13x6, 13x11

Warnings: past child abuse, past rape, past incest.

@post-settlement​

PS: Mars Fic https://post-settlement.tumblr.com/post/164679931324/characterdevelopmentforwriters-has-your-character

About growing your own food.

@remsyk-blog​

Blooming For You http://archiveofourown.org/works/11981688/chapters/27101835

Hanahaki Disease

Established 1x3x1, eventual 1x2x3

"You made flowers grow in my lungs, and though they are beautiful, I can't fucking breathe."

Duo has silently loved for them for years. He watched them find each other, yet the feelings still remained. But now the love he's carried for so long may become the thing that ends him.

End of Summer Block Party Tropefest!

@rhysgalentalcernunnos​ & @anaranesindanarie​

The Maxwell Twins: Shi and Duo (Ch.7) http://archiveofourown.org/works/11026149/chapters/27043587

(It had apparently been left out...)

Shadow-Hawk2

Imperial Guard (Ch. 59) https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12559874/59/Imperial-Guard

Duo Maxwell is trapped in another part of the galaxy far from all that he knows and the woman he loves. He must learn to survive among primitive violent people and accept that he may never be able to return to Earth.

ShenLong

Bound, Bonded, and Betrayed (Ch. 61) http://archiveofourown.org/works/7188593/chapters/27087705

Heero is the eldest son of the King of Colonia. His 21st birthday is approaching and as tradition dictates his betrothed is soon to arrive. However he is also bound by tradition to select his own personal slave. The events that unfold lead him down a path that not only tests his sanity but his humanity and love as well.

1x2, 3x4, 1xR, 2xR

Soloscry

Mysteria: Myth of the Siren (Ch. 11) https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12615425/11/Mysteria-Myth-of-the-Siren

A cursed Siren must find the One to lift the eternal darkness cast upon his eyes. But can the beautiful creature of the sea be able to purify the ruthless heart of the One?

1x2, 3x4, 13x5

AU, Dark, Angst, Romance, 13x5 Initial Non-Con

Luxevar (Ch. 7) https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12628162/7/Luxevar

A beautiful male, betrothed to the Master Vampire of the City, enrolls himself into a Boarding School under strict orders to find the Human who's been tracking cult-movements. His mission: Seduce and Kill. But can he do such a thing when his love for the Human becomes stronger than the love he has for his Master?

1x2, 3x4, 13x5

AU, Dark, Romance, Vampire, Lemon

Taichara

Knights And Castles http://archiveofourown.org/works/11947839

Some years after the final clash over Mars, Gaelio's found he has unusual company indeed ...

機動戦士ガンダム 鉄血のオルフェンズ | Mobile Suit Gundam: Iron-Blooded Orphans, Gundam Wing Frozen Teardrop, Gaelio Bauduin, Heero Yuy, Alternate Universe

Tahiri-Chan

Studio 10 (Ch. 3) https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12623011/3/Studio-10

Quand on a 16 ans, et que la vie ne vous a laissé aucun répit, il faut du courage pour aller de l'avant ! Et faire les rencontres qui changeront vos vies...

Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell

@the-indomitable-bhg​

https://the-indomitable-bhg.tumblr.com/post/164655310602/the-deafening-grating-sound-of-metal-intruding

Snippet from Eve War Event fic

“Good Deeds” https://the-indomitable-bhg.tumblr.com/post/164849415777/tropes-supernatural-au-high-school-setting

TROPES:  Supernatural AU, High School Setting  |  Zombies, Tentacles |

Duo Maxwell & Heero Yuy (+ Relena Peacecraft )

God of Death Duo Maxwell encounters a rather formidable zombie.

@gwblockparty Gundam Wing Fan Fiction &  Art submission by BHG

TheManwell

May Demons Rest: Shinigami Sleeps (2017) (Ch. 18 & 19) http://archiveofourown.org/works/10944786/chapters/26929380

2X3, warnings for language...

Vega_Lume @vegalume​

Afterthoughts of Discourse (Ch. 8) http://archiveofourown.org/works/4095778/chapters/26936103

Angst, MPREG, Yaoi, Het, limey? Lemony? Mountain Dew?(Let’s just say there are some citrusy parts, k?)

2x1, 2xH, OMCx1

@weiclown​

Accidental Clone http://archiveofourown.org/works/11980098

Quatre was simply touring the research labs at WEI. He hadn’t planned on being doused in an experimental liquid that didn’t have any obvious reactions right away. What will he and his lovers do when faced with a perfect clone of the blonde CEO?

Trowa/Quatre/Wufei/Clone! Quatre (in various combinations)  Smut, NSFW, No plot.

End of Summer Block Party Tropefest!

Fanart:

@endlesschaoscosart​

https://endlesschaoscosart.tumblr.com/post/164678575071/trowa-barton-as-roy-walker-by-endlesschaoscosart

Trowa Barton as Roy Walker

@gundamwing-ellesmith​

http://gundamwing-ellesmith.tumblr.com/post/146208549944/pure-nonsense-inspired-by-this-post

The GW boys on Peacemillion

@hainekoken

http://hainekoken.tumblr.com/post/164752439661

Trowa Barton

@jadeune​

https://jadeune.tumblr.com/post/164881980206/so-i-dont-write-fics-i-draw-so-for-my

Duo Maxwell/Trowa Barton

End of Summer Block Party Tropefest!

@littleladyfish​

http://littleladyfish.tumblr.com/post/30132093101/i-still-dont-think-wufei-gets-enough-fan-art

WuFei Chang

@maevemauvaise​

http://maevemauvaise.tumblr.com/post/164917528156/yeah-so-ive-really-been-feeling-relena-as

Relena as Anastasia

@milliardo​

http://milliardo.tumblr.com/post/164818905520/a-gundam-wing-song-came-on-my-playlist-so-i-had-to

Milliardo Peacecraft/Zechs Merquise

@missingart​

https://missingart.tumblr.com/post/164812001040/thisweekingundamwing-requested-lucrezia-noin-from

Lucrezia Noin

@my-lovely-sketches​

https://my-lovely-sketches.tumblr.com/post/164693345233/uploading-old-fanart-of-mine-back-in-2000-i-was

WuFei Chang, Heero Yuy, Quatre Raberba Winner, Duo Maxwell, Trowa Barton

@space-husband​

https://space-husband.tumblr.com/post/164694644832/i-did-the-thing

Gundam Heavyarms, model

@vegalume​

http://vegalume.tumblr.com/post/164764416350/hand-painted-wall-scroll-24-by-36-inches-on-blue

Heero You, Duo Maxwell, Trowa Barton, Quatre Raberba Winner, WuFei Chang

Cosplay:

@mysteryandcheekbones

http://mysteryandcheekbones.tumblr.com/post/164894810733

Duo Maxwell, Heero Yuy

@outofworkshinigami​

http://outofworkshinigami.tumblr.com/post/164782098487/more-metrocon-photos-renmaxwell-as-mercy-and

@renmaxwell, @chemicalcrush​, @abitofdeath​, @scytheatariocosplay​, @ahsimwithsake​

MetroCon

Head Canons:

@lifeaftermeteor​

https://lifeaftermeteor.tumblr.com/post/164876823419/that-rd-shop-has-a-whole-lot-of-files-that-are

Quatre Raberba Winner

@outofworkshinigami​

http://outofworkshinigami.tumblr.com/post/164741784392/treize-headcanons-i-love-to-imagine-young-treize

Treize Khushrenada

(Taking/was taking asks about everyone’s Treize HCs)

@maevemauvaise​

http://maevemauvaise.tumblr.com/post/164697610281/the-indomitable-bhg-dorothy-catalonia-im

Dorothy Catalonia (check out the notes)

@the-indomitable-bhg

https://the-indomitable-bhg.tumblr.com/post/164704855127/pallistic-peridot-meteorite-gemstone-gundam

Birthday stone headcanon for Trowa, Heero, and Duo.

Chats/Dialouges:

@the-indomitable-bhg​

https://the-indomitable-bhg.tumblr.com/post/164762419472/duo-whats-up-bromeo-wufei-what-did-you-just

Bromeo. Duo Maxwell, WuFei Chang

No Idea What To Put This Under:

@helmistress​

https://helmistress.tumblr.com/post/164717477004/this-thing

Another Discord server for Gundam Wing

(Join both! It’ll be fun!)

In case anyone missed it!

http://www.crunchyroll.com/anime-feature/2017/04/17/feature-found-in-translation-how-gundam-wing-became-a-global-phenomenon

Crunchyroll Article about Gundam Wing’s Epicness!

@lifeaftermeteor​

https://lifeaftermeteor.tumblr.com/post/164843762549/so-i-went-ahead-and-uploaded-my-fsts-or-most-of

FST on Spotify

@snufffie​

http://snufffie.tumblr.com/post/164081305120/im-setting-up-a-gundam-wing-discord-server-pm-me

They have created a Discord server for Gundam Wing

Ask them about it! ^_^

Calendar Events:

End of Summer Block Party @gwblockparty

https://gwblockparty.tumblr.com/post/164876416556/its-here

Tropefest! Get your trope on!

Entries to be posted September 1st - 4th! (Happening Now!)

Gundam Wing Eve War Event @gw-evewar

https://gw-evewar.tumblr.com/post/164079261510/an-open-gundam-wing-fandom-community-science

Open Science Fiction Themed Event

(Saturday) December 23, 2017 - (Sunday) December 24, 2017

*** Event will be observing Universal Coordinated Time (UTC) ***

Submissions: Fanfiction, Meta essays, Personal Headcanon, Fan Art

Rules: All works must feature a science fiction theme. Alternate Universes, and cross-over fiction are welcome. There are no limits to characters, pairings, audience rating, time frame or universe.

OC October @gwoc-october

https://gwoc-october.tumblr.com/post/164521028355/update

For the month of October, we can post everything and anything pertaining to fan OCs in Gundam Wing with weekly themes and perhaps a featured OC every other day or so. This includes fic, snippets, art, OC profiles, headcanons, ships, discussions, and anything you have as long as it’s about an OC. Even if this OC of yours is still in the mulling-stages, we want to hear about it! Let’s embrace OCs and celebrate our collective awesomeness.

This Week in Gundam Events @thisweekingundamevents

Our new sideblog for helping to host Gundam Wing fandom events!

Check us out and hit us up!

Currently just reblogging Gundam Wing event in progress!

[amorymoreau]

Who are you?

That’s the first of a few questions I have for you. But seriously. I don’t know who you are. What the fuck is your deal?? What makes you tick? What brings you to the point of tears just to think about? Does anything? When’s the last time you cried? What kind of music do you listen to? What’s your biggest pet peeve? What do you doubt about yourself? What do your bad days look like? What do your best days look like? What do you regret? Who do you miss right now? What would it look like to argue with you, and what makes you angry? Do you have any siblings? What do you feel passionate about? Do you even want me to know you? Do you want to know me? How is it that our bodies fit so perfectly together? And why does being pressed up against you feel like home? When you pull me into you for a hello kiss, when you hold me at night. and why is it that I can sleep in your arms the entire night through but nobody else? And When are you gonna release your hold on me and for fucks sake do you know what it does to me when you look at me like I’m adorable and grin at me when I say stupid shit? Do you know how it feels when you kiss me the way you do? With purpose and with such gentle intensity that it turns me to warm butter.. it feels like being lit on fire, if that sort of thing were to feel good. and while you only say it with your lips occasionally, every single time you touch me your hands distinctly say “you’re sexy, irresistible, perfect.” What is it about you that feels so familiar? and when will I know if you’re feeling anything even in the realm of what I’m feeling or if this is just an ordinary weekly fuck session for you? What is it about your body, your smell, your taste, your face that feels so right? Am I comfortingly familiar for you too? Do I feel like home?

List of Things I want to say out loud to you but will sit on instead: You’ve got me to the point where I don’t even recognize my own thoughts anymore. I definitely didn’t get into this looking for something serious, and these feelings caught me off guard. And I don’t even understand how I’ve developed feelings like this for somebody who I’ve never had a full, serious, in-depth conversation with. Our bodies do so much talking I feel like I’ve known you for years but I have zero clue where the fuck this emotional attachment comes from when I have nothing concrete to even base it on. P.s. when I say I belong to you I don’t even mean it in a hot submissive slutty way anymore, I mean you’ve got my shit ALL kinds of fucked up.

Today I woke up to you spooning me tight. The sun was peeking in the window and my alarm hadn’t gone off yet. the winter morning air crept in my cracked window but doesn’t stand a chance against the heat of your body. Your chin was resting on my shoulder, breathing soft, warm, deep breaths onto my cheek. One arm under my neck and the other wrapped around the front of me, fingers laced in mine. If I had to imagine heaven in a feeling I think that was it. Today you called me darlin’ with that smooth deep southern drawl of yours and I all but melted into a puddle. My insides were surely liquified, at least that’s how warm it made me feel. I think I might have some feelings for you. Alternate ending: if I find out you’re just playing games with my head and my heart I’m fr gonna fuck your shit up lol. True ending: you’ve got my heart in your hand and I’m fucked.

[survivorpacificislandallstars]

Ep. 12 - “Fly my ass back to Hawaii and dump me in a volcano” - Andrew (Pt. 1)

So I guess All Stars is just gonna be me watching the people I know and love go home one after the other at this point. At this point, I shouldn't be shocked or mad. Rhea, Karen, even Brandon to an extent. Who's next is my only question. Shockingly, to not my surprise, Jordan and Ash couldn't be trusted!!!! Who could have foreseen this? Well, I could, and I did. Anyone with common sense and a brain could have, but I guess that's too much to ask. Like with Ash, I had zero expectations. Jordan... I mean, there was at least a low bar, a very low bar. Because as far as I can recall, I've been completely honest with Jordan each tribal I've been with him... And yet each time he goes against his own word, then we make up afterward, and it's just... I don't even know. I'm totally numb to betrayal by now. Also Gage's vote is hilarious. "I don't take kindly to lies" wow bitch me too the fuck???? Kinda why I voted for him cause like, at every tribal all my interactions with him have been lies built upon lies, sometimes mutually and sometimes from him. But there's no actual trust and we've just been pretending every round, so I'm glad we've finally dropped it and we can acknowledge the tension. Jordan said I'm not on the bottom of the tribe...which sounds fake but, okay. Maybe I can work with him, maybe I can't, but really I'm just praying for once that we swap one last time to save my ass. 

I am so so so so shook right now.

Conf #18: wow! final 14! Im doing so much better than the other two games that i wont talk about. Im concerned about this immunity challenge because usually when it comes to touchy subjects I feel like I know how the game is going, but with all the swaps I feel like I know nothing about what people are thinking it concerns me. *Coco Peru voice* that bothers me. As far as the double tribal? *Yawn* but also im ready to die again, hopefully I can get people to go after mitch!!!

Honestly this tribe swap has me wet. I'm on a tribe with a bunch of icons like daddy Andrew or Sam B or fake Sam, even Steffen to an extent. More importantly I am away from that horrible nest of snakes from my previous tribe. The bad thing is Samantha wants to go after Jay, because Jay tried coming for Sam at some point, which is horrible. And if I had to choose right now I'd vote out Jay over Sam just because Sam unlike some people hasn't blindsided me!!! But no I'm not bitter or anything, why would I be bitter? I mean I shouldn't be because it's not like I considered those people trustworthy or anything!!! Anyway. Mitch is obviously siding with Jay, which leaves three people in the middle. Sam and I both want Andrew because he's trustworthy (and Sam also wants him because he's hot and I have no issues with that). I trusted Andrew the most at the very beginning of the game, and we've both been through a lot but hopefully that connection is still there. That leaves Steffen and fake Sam as the swing votes...... Idk how much I trust either of them. Steffen did side with me at the Chrissa tribal, Sam sided with the snakes at Brandon's tribal tho.... So yikes!!!! We'll figure that out tomorrow!!! 

OKAY. So this new Kyaal tribe? EW. ALL MY FRIENDS ARE ON THE OTHER TRIBE AND I MISS THEM OKAY? NOT REALLY THO. I'm so chaotic in here wtf. Anyway, SO I'm back with Jordan Pines, which is litty titty. I feel like I actually can trust him because he gives me A LOT of tea like all the time. Whether or not it's all factual is another story, but at this point I'll take what I can get. I'm also still with DADvid. He's my Dad, check my birth certificate. He is such a good person and I'm so happy we've gotten so close through this game because we have had a lot of time to get to know one another in various communities and never have. So David told me he is pretty sure of a Drew/Jay/Mitch thing thang going on and I believe it! Drew just had a moment in the HOS15 VL when Jay was evicted so that's confirmed. ADDITIONALLY, Jordan just told me that Mitch found an idol (which isn't surprising) some ruby idol bullshit that makes everyone go to rocks??? Apparently Drew has it right now and knowing my luck I'll be rocked out of this damn game. But hey, I keep saying this but I'm so proud of myself for making it this far, so if I go, I go! (I'LL BE FUCKING PISSED AND PROBABLY NEVER PLAY ONE OF THES AGAIN IF I FUCKING GO HOME, I AM FUCKING SANDRA DIAZ-TWINE AND I WILL BE THE QUEEN THAT WEARS THE CROWN TWICE.)

So who the fuck does Jay think he is exiling me?! Why me?! Clearly he has some plan to get rid of me because we're not working together so he isn't exiling me to get the clue or anything so obviously he wants me gone. If for some reason he DOESN'T want me gone he's crazy because now I'm just pissed off. I don't get to just waltz back into the tribe with immunity like Drew does. I'm gunna have to scramble and make sure it's not me and this is gunna be so annoying. Plus he just messaged me "I'm exiling you I hope that's ok" LIKE NO ITS NOT FUCKING OKAY YOU DIMWIT FUCK WHY THE FUCK DID HE CHOOSE ME??? Also I just looked at the touchy subjects results and I got who has the most F2 deals? Technically I have none because I haven't actually talked to anyone about going to the end together AND I really only talk to Steffen, Drew, and Jordan so like fuck I'm so mad because it looks so bad on me. I'm just really overall pissed off right now and I can't believe I can't even rant to anyone! I feel like Drew and Jay are tight. I started going off not even thinking of it as a game thing but more like I'm frustrated and want to rant to a friend about it but then I remembered back on the first tribe when Jay, Drew, and Mitch were all so far up each other's ass it was disgusting so like I can't even talk to Drew about it because he'll go run and tell Jay and be all fucking annoying. I just want Mitch and Jay gone so bad. Steffen better be able to pull some people in and make sure it's Mitch and not me. If I go home because Steffen can't strategize to save me I'm gunna suffocate him when he comes to visit

I'm back and alive A lot of things have happened, and apparently confessionals aren't mandatory, so I haven't been writing things! That's great. So the last time I wrote a confessional was the round before Billy right? Ok So I sort of kind of may have manipulated the vote against Billy. I heard from Van that her and Billy were trying to flip the vote onto Charlotte, so I told Charlotte that Billy might have been trying to target her, and she easily flipped to Van and I. Jay didn't want to vote Billy, so it was 3-2. I'm glad I got him out of the game at least. I love Billy as a person, as a player, whew. He reamed me afterwards, and every bad thing he said about me was truly well-deserved. So then we swap, fun shit. Expected. We played Kanto! I got gay pokemon, but no idol or whatever. I have a team of cuties, so that's all that matters to me.<3 I couldn't play the grass game, so we kinda had to go to tribal. David was the target, but he whipped out an idol and his one vote for Punpun sent them home, which is disappointing. But fuck, good job David. Props to you, I ain't even mad. Apparently Van was voted out of the other tribe which SUCKS because I had to vote out Billy to protect her and then she just went home anyway??? Uggggh My friends keep leaving. We stayed in Kanto for a week and I got to play Pokemon LeafGreen. I caught 111 pokemon and earned myself a trip to exile, which was mostly pointless, and our tribe got immunity. I wasn't even playing to win, I just really love FR/LG. But of course I'm secretly digging my own grave, because who wants to keep a tryhard around at/before merge??? No one. I gave my idol to Drew because he said he might've been in trouble. It was insurance in case things turned sour. BUT APPARENTLY AT THEIR TRIBAL IT WAS UNANIMOUS VOTE FOR CHARLOTTE. I love Charlotte... She was my #1 man. I wanted to help her get far. And then Drew told me she might've been a catfish. So... Maybe that was for the best, idk. COME TO THINK OF IT, a first boot being considered an all star is VERY suspicious... I want my idol back tho. Also Karen went home at the other tribal!!! Bless up. Jay told me she had a sapphire idol so that is... good that she's gone.  ALSO Dan has the Whetu idol and I'm surprised but also not. So here we are on new tribes, and what better way to put a fire under my ass than to play touchy subjects??? Do I have good luck with this game? No. Do I usually get nice answers? Yes. Did I get them this time? Not...really. People think I have an idol and they want to vote me out next. Which is unfortunate, because now I honestly don't have an idol. And I'm going to be traveling tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I can't even really talk to people and defend myself!!!!!!!! Fortunately I at least have Jay and Andrew on this tribe. Sam G and Kevin would likely vote with me too. I don't want to vote Steffen because I just told him I wouldn't and meant it. So that leaves Sam B, who just won Panem and should go... We'll see how the chips fall. Maybe I'll get my idol back, maybe Samg and Kevin like me enough to keep me around, and maybe I'll live another day. If not, oh well, I made jury.

When you accidentally send a confessional....to the wrong game....hosted by Jay....and it's talking about Jay...and it reveals your allies........ I'm actually gonna hate myself if this fucks my game up why do I do these things

"Not to nitpick at the Touchy Subject results but the fuck! Firstable Ash and Gage put me down as backstabber like besides last vote which was just me returning the backstabbing to Gage, when have I done that... Second of balls, people forgetting I'm in the game? Well, not shocking, I'm naturally irrelevant. Still won't stop me from being salty but. So um if Jay goes after Sam B he's officially cancelled, because I would literally die for her every day of my life I had to. And the fact that he's immune....sigh. I don't know if he trusts me but!!! If he doesn't he can catch these gay 12 year old hands. Sam B and I want to go after fake Sam now because she has too many allies (she wanted to go after Mitch but uh, I think not). Idk what Jay thinks about fake Sam but he did send her to Exile so there's that. Hopefully Andrew and Steffen will come through???? Because if I have to watch Sam B die I might as well drop dead to the floor right now because there would be no point in living after that"

Andrew wants to form an alliance of me him Jay and Mitch. Like, I love those people, but you know who that excludes? Sam!!!!! You know who I would never vote out in a heartbeat? Also Sam!!!! Voting out Sam would be like Ciera voting out her mom except actually important and heartbreaking (but it would still be a hashtag game changing big move). So I kinda bs'd to Andrew saying I don't trust Jay because he voted out Karen (also my mom) which is half the truth. The good news is Andrew said we should choose between Steffen and fake Sam. While Steffen has backstabbed me once, we're supposedly friends now cause he was like "miss you!!!" when we swapped but like Gage did the same thing and look where that got me. But I don't wanna break that bond just yet. Sooooo I'm still gunning for fake Sam but Mitch was like "I like her" which just proves real Sam's about connections and yadda yadda. Really I just want to get to the point where I can stop distinguishing the Sam's and my life gets easier. 

I’m me and sara planning to search the well together

So the vote should in theory be Ash tonight. I'm perfectly fine with Ash going home but I'm not perfectly fine with lying to Gage about it, but at this point unless Ash/Gage have an idol I don't foresee things changing. Thankfully Gage seems to like me so that is a plus. If there's an idol played it most likely will not be me going home. I don't love that it will be David going home though. Jordan Pines is a dear friend of mine, but he's just in general very aggressive. He has strong social ties to people and seems to utilize them when he needs things. He put together the 5 votes against Ash and it seems like a done deal. But I'm at a cross roads. Do I try to turn David and work with Gage and Ash to vote Jordan out? Idk. My concern is that endgame, people like Mitch/Drew/Jay/Jordan will be an unstoppable force in this game and idk if I'm ready for that. I'll probably touch base with David before my vote is submitted and if he thinks the plan is good, it's happening. If not, I'll just have to lie to Gage and possibly lose my newest ally's trust... :/ 

I. Hate. Survivor. Here I am, dealing with important stuff, cleaning literal dog shit, and then here in the game shit hits the fan. Sam B wanted Sam G out. Jay wanted Steffen out. Sam B was fine with this. I tell Jay this. I also tell Jay Sam B wants Sam G out, but we can roll with Steffen. Jay says cool. But somewhere after some shitty sequence of events, Jay goes apeshit and throws out like, everyone's names and wants to vote out Sam B???? And doesn't tell me of course, even though he wanted to make sure "we're cool." So I guess keeping me in the dark, again, is a good way to gain trust. And then an even shittier thing happens. Sam B, fake Sam, and Steffen unite to vote out Mitch. I think voting out Mitch is the most effective way to weaken Jay, and Jay does need to be weakened. But voting out Mitch...and sending him to the jury...is difficult. I would rather send Mitch to jury over Sam. Sam said Jay directed votes back to Steffen... But I can't trust him, and I don't want to sit still and do nothing about that. He's fooled me once and I don't want to be fooled again, I'm tired of that happening. Voting out friends is hard, but I think tonight there's no easy way out.