#and funny enough. my outward idngaf attitude made me way more friends with age.

[gunblade]

just saw a post that made me think about how badly i was bullied as a kid. i wanted to be friends with everyone but instead i got ostrasized and shoved around, and i couldn’t understand why. more times than i think i can even remember, i’ve been backed into walls and threatened, pushed to the ground, laughed at by entire classes for just existing... hell, once in science class, one girl who was supposedly my only “friend” wiped acid onto the back of my hand. then when she cried because she got detention for being evil, everyone was mad at me? when all i did was stare at her like she’d lost it, and the teacher saw her do it??? it isn’t even like i tattled on her??? (and even if i had, my hand was burning!!!)

there’s only so much of that you can take. i got aggressive. i got distant. i got mean. what the fuck do you want from me?